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ROBERT FALCONER

GEORGE MACDONALD, LL.D.

NEW EDITION

1900

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THE MEMORY

OF THE MAN WHO

STANDS HIGHEST IN THE ORATORY

OF MY MEMORY,

ALEXANDER JOHN SCOTT,

I, DARING, PRESUME TO DEDICATE THIS BOOK.

PART I.--HIS BOYHOOD.

CHAPTER I.

A RECOLLECTION.

ROBERT FALCONER, school-boy, aged fourteen, thought he had never seen

his father; that is, thought he had no recollection of having ever

seen him. But the moment when my story begins, he had begun to doubt

whether his belief in the matter was correct. And, as he went on

thinking, he became more and more assured that he had seen his father

somewhere about six years before, as near as a thoughtful boy of his

age could judge of the lapse of a period that would form half of that

portion of his existence which was bound into one by the reticulations

of memory.

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For there dawned upon his mind the vision of one Sunday afternoon.

Betty had gone to church, and he was alone with his grandmother,

reading The Pilgrim's Progress to her, when, just as Christian knocked

at the wicket-gate, a tap came to the street door, and he went to open

it. There he saw a tall, somewhat haggard-looking man, in a shabby

black coat (the vision gradually dawned upon him till it reached the

minuteness of all these particulars), his hat pulled down on to his

projecting eyebrows, and his shoes very dusty, as with a long journey

on foot--it was a hot Sunday, he remembered that--who looked at him

very strangely, and without a word pushed him aside, and went straight

into his grandmother's parlour, shutting the door behind him. He

followed, not doubting that the man must have a right to go there, but

questioning very much his right to shut him out. When he reached the

door, however, he found it bolted; and outside he had to stay all

alone, in the desolate remainder of the house, till Betty came home

from church.

He could even recall, as he thought about it, how drearily the

afternoon had passed. First he had opened the street door, and stood

in it. There was nothing alive to be seen, except a sparrow picking up

crumbs, and he would not stop till he was tired of him. The Royal Oak,

down the street to the right, had not even a horseless gig or cart

standing before it; and King Charles, grinning awfully in its branches

on the signboard, was invisible from the distance at which he stood.

In at the other end of the empty street, looked the distant uplands,

whose waving corn and grass were likewise invisible, and beyond them

rose one blue truncated peak in the distance, all of them wearily at

rest this weary Sabbath day. However, there was one thing than which

this was better, and that was being at church, which, to this boy at

least, was the very fifth essence of dreariness.

He closed the door and went into the kitchen. That was nearly as bad.

The kettle was on the fire, to be sure, in anticipation of tea; but

the coals under it were black on the top, and it made only faint

efforts, after immeasurable intervals of silence, to break into a

song, giving a hum like that of a bee a mile off, and then relapsing

into hopeless inactivity. Having just had his dinner, he was not

hungry enough to find any resource in the drawer where the oatcakes

lay, and, unfortunately, the old wooden clock in the corner was going,

else there would have been some amusement in trying to torment it into

demonstrations of life, as he had often done in less desperate

circumstances than the present. At last he went up-stairs to the very

room in which he now was, and sat down upon the floor, just as he was

sitting now. He had not even brought his Pilgrim's Progress with him

from his grandmother's room. But, searching about in all holes and

corners, he at length found Klopstock's Messiah translated into

English, and took refuge there till Betty came home. Nor did he go

down till she called him to tea, when, expecting to join his

grandmother and the stranger, he found, on the contrary, that he was

to have his tea with Betty in the kitchen, after which he again took

refuge with Klopstock in the garret, and remained there till it grew

dark, when Betty came in search of him, and put him to bed in the

gable-room, and not in his usual chamber. In the morning, every trace

of the visitor had vanished, even to the thorn stick which he had set

ads:

down behind the door as he entered.

All this Robert Falconer saw slowly revive on the palimpsest of his

memory, as he washed it with the vivifying waters of recollection.

CHAPTER II.

A VISITOR.

IT was a very bare little room in which the boy sat, but it was his

favourite retreat. Behind the door, in a recess, stood an empty

bedstead, without even a mattress upon it. This was the only piece of

furniture in the room, unless some shelves crowded with papers tied up

in bundles, and a cupboard in the wall, likewise filled with papers,

could be called furniture. There was no carpet on the floor, no

windows in the walls. The only light came from the door, and from a

small skylight in the sloping roof, which showed that it was a

garret-room. Nor did much light come from the open door, for there was

no window on the walled stair to which it opened; only opposite the

door a few steps led up into another garret, larger, but with a lower

roof, unceiled, and perforated with two or three holes, the panes of

glass filling which were no larger than the small blue slates which

covered the roof: from these panes a little dim brown light tumbled

into the room where the boy sat on the floor, with his head almost

between his knees, thinking.

But there was less light than usual in the room now, though it was

only half-past two o'clock, and the sun would not set for more than

half-an-hour yet; for if Robert had lifted his head and looked up, it

would have been at, not through, the skylight. No sky was to be seen.

A thick covering of snow lay over the glass. A partial thaw, followed

by frost, had fixed it there--a mass of imperfect cells and confused

crystals. It was a cold place to sit in, but the boy had some faculty

for enduring cold when it was the price to be paid for solitude. And

besides, when he fell into one of his thinking moods, he forgot, for a

season, cold and everything else but what he was thinking about--a

faculty for which he was to be envied.

If he had gone down the stair, which described half the turn of a

screw in its descent, and had crossed the landing to which it brought

him, he could have entered another bedroom, called the gable or rather

ga'le room, equally at his service for retirement; but, though

carpeted and comfortably furnished, and having two windows at right

angles, commanding two streets, for it was a corner house, the boy

preferred the garret-room--he could not tell why. Possibly, windows to

the streets were not congenial to the meditations in which, even now,

as I have said, the boy indulged.

These meditations, however, though sometimes as abstruse, if not so

continuous, as those of a metaphysician--for boys are not unfrequently

more given to metaphysics than older people are able or, perhaps,

willing to believe--were not by any means confined to such subjects:

castle-building had its full share in the occupation of those lonely

hours; and for this exercise of the constructive faculty, what he

knew, or rather what he did not know, of his own history gave him

scope enough, nor was his brain slow in supplying him with material

corresponding in quantity to the space afforded. His mother had been

dead for so many years that he had only the vaguest recollections of

her tenderness, and none of her person. All he was told of his father

was that he had gone abroad. His grandmother would never talk about

him, although he was her own son. When the boy ventured to ask a

question about where he was, or when he would return, she always

replied--'Bairns suld haud their tongues.' Nor would she vouchsafe

another answer to any question that seemed to her from the farthest

distance to bear down upon that subject. 'Bairns maun learn to haud

their tongues,' was the sole variation of which the response admitted.

And the boy did learn to hold his tongue. Perhaps he would have

thought less about his father if he had had brothers or sisters, or

even if the nature of his grandmother had been such as to admit of

their relationship being drawn closer--into personal confidence, or

some measure of familiarity. How they stood with regard to each other

will soon appear.

Whether the visions vanished from his brain because of the thickening

of his blood with cold, or he merely acted from one of those undefined

and inexplicable impulses which occasion not a few of our actions, I

cannot tell, but all at once Robert started to his feet and hurried

from the room. At the foot of the garret stair, between it and the

door of the gable-room already mentioned, stood another door at right

angles to both, of the existence of which the boy was scarcely aware,

simply because he had seen it all his life and had never seen it open.

Turning his back on this last door, which he took for a blind one, he

went down a short broad stair, at the foot of which was a window. He

then turned to the left into a long flagged passage or transe, passed

the kitchen door on the one hand, and the double-leaved street door on

the other; but, instead of going into the parlour, the door of which

closed the transe, he stopped at the passage-window on the right, and

there stood looking out.

What might be seen from this window certainly could not be called a

very pleasant prospect. A broad street with low houses of cold gray

stone is perhaps as uninteresting a form of street as any to be found

in the world, and such was the street Robert looked out upon. Not a

single member of the animal creation was to be seen in it, not a pair

of eyes to be discovered looking out at any of the windows opposite.

The sole motion was the occasional drift of a vapour-like film of

white powder, which the wind would lift like dust from the snowy

carpet that covered the street, and wafting it along for a few yards,

drop again to its repose, till another stronger gust, prelusive of the

wind about to rise at sun-down,--a wind cold and bitter as

death--would rush over the street, and raise a denser cloud of the

white water-dust to sting the face of any improbable person who might

meet it in its passage. It was a keen, knife-edged frost, even in the

house, and what Robert saw to make him stand at the desolate window, I

do not know, and I believe he could not himself have told. There he

did stand, however, for the space of five minutes or so, with nothing

better filling his outer eyes at least than a bald spot on the crown

of the street, whence the wind had swept away the snow, leaving it

brown and bare, a spot of March in the middle of January.

He heard the town drummer in the distance, and let the sound invade

his passive ears, till it crossed the opening of the street, and

vanished 'down the town.'

'There's Dooble Sanny,' he said to himself--'wi' siccan cauld han's,

'at he's playin' upo' the drum-heid as gin he was loupin' in a bowie

(leaping in a cask).'

Then he stood silent once more, with a look as if anything would be

welcome to break the monotony.

While he stood a gentle timorous tap came to the door, so gentle

indeed that Betty in the kitchen did not hear it, or she, tall and

Roman-nosed as she was, would have answered it before the long-legged

dreamer could have reached the door, though he was not above three

yards from it. In lack of anything better to do, Robert stalked to the

summons. As he opened the door, these words greeted him:

'Is Robert at--eh! it's Bob himsel'! Bob, I'm byous (exceedingly)

cauld.'

'What for dinna ye gang hame, than?'

'What for wasna ye at the schuil the day?'

'I spier ae queston at you, and ye answer me wi' anither.'

'Weel, I hae nae hame to gang till.'

'Weel, and I had a sair heid (a headache). But whaur's yer hame gane

till than?'

'The hoose is there a' richt, but whaur my mither is I dinna ken. The

door's lockit, an' Jeames Jaup, they tell me 's tane awa' the key. I

doobt my mither's awa' upo' the tramp again, and what's to come o' me,

the Lord kens.'

'What's this o' 't?' interposed a severe but not unmelodious voice,

breaking into the conversation between the two boys; for the parlour

door had opened without Robert's hearing it, and Mrs. Falconer, his

grandmother, had drawn near to the speakers.

'What's this o' 't?' she asked again. 'Wha's that ye're conversin' wi'

at the door, Robert? Gin it be ony decent laddie, tell him to come in,

and no stan' at the door in sic a day 's this.'

As Robert hesitated with his reply, she looked round the open half of

the door, but no sooner saw with whom he was talking than her tone

changed. By this time Betty, wiping her hands in her apron, had

completed the group by taking her stand in the kitchen door.

'Na, na,' said Mrs. Falconer. 'We want nane sic-like here. What does

he want wi' you, Robert? Gie him a piece, Betty, and lat him

gang.--Eh, sirs! the callant hasna a stockin'-fit upo' 'im--and in sic

weather!'

For, before she had finished her speech, the visitor, as if in terror

of her nearer approach, had turned his back, and literally showed her,

if not a clean pair of heels, yet a pair of naked heels from between

the soles and uppers of his shoes: if he had any stockings at all,

they ceased before they reached his ankles.

'What ails him at me?' continued Mrs. Falconer, 'that he rins as gin I

war a boodie? But it's nae wonner he canna bide the sicht o' a decent

body, for he's no used till 't. What does he want wi' you, Robert?'

But Robert had a reason for not telling his grandmother what the boy

had told him: he thought the news about his mother would only make her

disapprove of him the more. In this he judged wrong. He did not know

his grandmother yet.

'He's in my class at the schuil,' said Robert, evasively.

'Him? What class, noo?'

Robert hesitated one moment, but, compelled to give some answer, said,

with confidence,

'The Bible-class.'

'I thocht as muckle! What gars ye play at hide and seek wi' me? Do ye

think I dinna ken weel eneuch there's no a lad or a lass at the schuil

but 's i' the Bible-class? What wants he here?'

'Ye hardly gae him time to tell me, grannie. Ye frichtit him.'

'Me fricht him! What for suld I fricht him, laddie? I'm no sic ferlie

(wonder) that onybody needs be frichtit at me.'

The old lady turned with visible, though by no means profound offence

upon her calm forehead, and walking back into her parlour, where

Robert could see the fire burning right cheerily, shut the door, and

left him and Betty standing together in the transe. The latter

returned to the kitchen, to resume the washing of the dinner-dishes;

and the former returned to his post at the window. He had not stood

more than half a minute, thinking what was to be done with his

school-fellow deserted of his mother, when the sound of a coach-horn

drew his attention to the right, down the street, where he could see

part of the other street which crossed it at right angles, and in

which the gable of the house stood. A minute after, the mail came in

sight--scarlet, spotted with snow--and disappeared, going up the hill

towards the chief hostelry of the town, as fast as four horses, tired

with the bad footing they had had through the whole of the stage,

could draw it after them. By this time the twilight was falling; for

though the sun had not yet set, miles of frozen vapour came between

him and this part of the world, and his light was never very powerful

so far north at this season of the year.

Robert turned into the kitchen, and began to put on his shoes. He had

made up his mind what to do.

'Ye're never gaein' oot, Robert?' said Betty, in a hoarse tone of

expostulation.

''Deed am I, Betty. What for no?'

'You 'at's been in a' day wi' a sair heid! I'll jist gang benn the

hoose and tell the mistress, and syne we'll see what she'll please to

say till 't.'

'Ye'll do naething o' the kin', Betty. Are ye gaein' to turn

clash-pyet (tell-tale) at your age?'

'What ken ye aboot my age? There's never a man-body i' the toon kens

aught aboot my age.'

'It's ower muckle for onybody to min' upo' (remember), is 't, Betty?'

'Dinna be ill-tongued, Robert, or I'll jist gang benn the hoose to the

mistress.'

'Betty, wha began wi' bein' ill-tongued? Gin ye tell my grandmither

that I gaed oot the nicht, I'll gang to the schuilmaister o'

Muckledrum, and get a sicht o' the kirstenin' buik; an' gin yer name

binna there, I'll tell ilkabody I meet 'at oor Betty was never

kirstened; and that'll be a sair affront, Betty.'

'Hoot! was there ever sic a laddie!' said Betty, attempting to laugh

it off. 'Be sure ye be back afore tay-time, 'cause yer grannie 'ill be

speirin' efter ye, and ye wadna hae me lee aboot ye?'

'I wad hae naebody lee about me. Ye jist needna lat on 'at ye hear

her. Ye can be deif eneuch when ye like, Betty. But I s' be back afore

tay-time, or come on the waur.'

Betty, who was in far greater fear of her age being discovered than of

being unchristianized in the search, though the fact was that she knew

nothing certain about the matter, and had no desire to be enlightened,

feeling as if she was thus left at liberty to hint what she

pleased,--Betty, I say, never had any intention of going 'benn the

hoose to the mistress.' For the threat was merely the rod of terror

which she thought it convenient to hold over the back of the boy, whom

she always supposed to be about some mischief except he were in her

own presence and visibly reading a book: if he were reading aloud, so

much the better. But Robert likewise kept a rod for his defence, and

that was Betty's age, which he had discovered to be such a precious

secret that one would have thought her virtue depended in some

cabalistic manner upon the concealment of it. And, certainly, nature

herself seemed to favour Betty's weakness, casting such a mist about

the number of her years as the goddesses of old were wont to cast

about a wounded favourite; for some said Betty was forty, others said

she was sixty-five, and, in fact, almost everybody who knew her had a

different belief on the matter.

By this time Robert had conquered the difficulty of induing boots as

hard as a thorough wetting and as thorough a drying could make them,

and now stood prepared to go. His object in setting out was to find

the boy whom his grandmother had driven from the door with a hastier

and more abject flight than she had in the least intended. But, if his

grandmother should miss him, as Betty suggested, and inquire where he

had been, what was he to say? He did not mind misleading his grannie,

but he had a great objection to telling her a lie. His grandmother

herself delivered him from this difficulty.

'Robert, come here,' she called from the parlour door. And Robert

obeyed.

'Is 't dingin' on, Robert?' she asked.

'No, grannie; it's only a starnie o' drift.'

The meaning of this was that there was no fresh snow falling, or

beating on, only a little surface snow blowing about.

'Weel, jist pit yer shune on, man, and rin up to Miss Naper's upo' the

Squaur, and say to Miss Naper, wi' my compliments, that I wad be sair

obleeged till her gin she wad len' me that fine receipt o' hers for

crappit heids, and I'll sen' 't back safe the morn's mornin'. Rin,

noo.'

This commission fell in admirably with Robert's plans, and he started

at once.

CHAPTER III.

THE BOAR'S HEAD.

MISS NAPIER was the eldest of three maiden sisters who kept the

principal hostelry of Rothieden, called The Boar's Head; from which,

as Robert reached the square in the dusk, the mail-coach was moving

away with a fresh quaternion of horses. He found a good many boxes

standing upon the pavement close by the archway that led to the

inn-yard, and around them had gathered a group of loungers, not too

cold to be interested. These were looking towards the windows of the

inn, where the owner of the boxes had evidently disappeared.

'Saw ye ever sic a sicht in oor toon afore!' said Dooble Sanny, as

people generally called him, his name being Alexander Alexander,

pronounced, by those who chose to speak of him with the ordinary

respect due from one mortal to another, Sandy Elshender. Double Sandy

was a soutar, or shoemaker, remarkable for his love of sweet sounds

and whisky. He was, besides, the town-crier, who went about with a

drum at certain hours of the morning and evening, like a perambulating

clock, and also made public announcements of sales, losses, &c.; for

the rest--a fierce, fighting fellow when in anger or in drink, which

latter included the former.

'What's the sicht, Sandy?' asked Robert, coming up with his hands in

the pockets of his trowsers.

'Sic a sicht as ye never saw, man,' returned Sandy; 'the bonniest

leddy ever man set his ee upo'. I culd na hae thocht there had been

sic a woman i' this warl'.'

'Hoot, Sandy!' said Robert, 'a body wad think she was tint (lost) and

ye had the cryin' o' her. Speyk laicher, man; she'll maybe hear ye. Is

she i' the inn there?'

'Ay is she,' answered Sandy. 'See sic a warl' o' kists as she's brocht

wi' her,' he continued, pointing towards the pile of luggage. 'Saw ye

ever sic a bourach (heap)? It jist blecks (beats) me to think what ae

body can du wi' sae mony kists. For I mayna doobt but there's

something or ither in ilka ane o' them. Naebody wad carry aboot toom

(empty) kists wi' them. I cannot mak' it oot.'

The boxes might well surprise Sandy, if we may draw any conclusions

from the fact that the sole implement of personal adornment which he

possessed was two inches of a broken comb, for which he had to search

when he happened to want it, in the drawer of his stool, among awls,

lumps of rosin for his violin, masses of the same substance wrought

into shoemaker's wax for his ends, and packets of boar's bristles,

commonly called birse, for the same.

'Are thae a' ae body's?' asked Robert.

'Troth are they. They're a' hers, I wat. Ye wad hae thocht she had

been gaein' to The Bothie; but gin she had been that, there wad hae

been a cairriage to meet her,' said Crookit Caumill, the ostler.

The Bothie was the name facetiously given by Alexander, Baron Rothie,

son of the Marquis of Boarshead, to a house he had built in the

neighbourhood, chiefly for the accommodation of his bachelor friends

from London during the shooting-season.

'Haud yer tongue, Caumill,' said the shoemaker. 'She's nae sic cattle,

yon.'

'Haud up the bit bowat (stable-lantern), man, and lat Robert here see

the direction upo' them. Maybe he'll mak' something o't. He's a fine

scholar, ye ken,' said another of the bystanders.

The ostler held the lantern to the card upon one of the boxes, but

Robert found only an M., followed by something not very definite, and

a J., which might have been an I., Rothieden, Driftshire, Scotland.

As he was not immediate with his answer, Peter Lumley, one of the

group, a lazy ne'er-do-weel, who had known better days, but never

better manners, and was seldom quite drunk, and seldomer still quite

sober, struck in with,

'Ye dinna ken a' thing yet, ye see, Robbie.'

From Sandy this would have been nothing but a good-humoured attempt at

facetiousness. From Lumley it meant spite, because Robert's praise was

in his ears.

'I dinna preten' to ken ae hair mair than ye do yersel', Mr. Lumley;

and that's nae sayin' muckle, surely,' returned Robert, irritated at

his tone more than at his words.

The bystanders laughed, and Lumley flew into a rage.

'Haud yer ill tongue, ye brat,' he said. 'Wha' are ye to mak' sic

remarks upo' yer betters? A'body kens yer gran'father was naething but

the blin' piper o' Portcloddie.'

This was news to Robert--probably false, considering the quarter

whence it came. But his mother-wit did not forsake him.

'Weel, Mr. Lumley,' he answered, 'didna he pipe weel? Daur ye tell me

'at he didna pipe weel?--as weel's ye cud hae dune 't yersel', noo,

Mr. Lumley?'

The laugh again rose at Lumley's expense, who was well known to have

tried his hand at most things, and succeeded in nothing. Dooble Sanny

was especially delighted.

'De'il hae ye for a de'il's brat! 'At I suld sweer!' was all Lumley's

reply, as he sought to conceal his mortification by attempting to join

in the laugh against himself. Robert seized the opportunity of turning

away and entering the house.

'That ane's no to be droont or brunt aither,' said Lumley, as he

disappeared.

'He'll no be hang't for closin' your mou', Mr. Lumley,' said the

shoemaker.

Thereupon Lumley turned and followed Robert into the inn.

Robert had delivered his message to Miss Napier, who sat in an

arm-chair by the fire, in a little comfortable parlour, held sacred by

all about the house. She was paralytic, and unable to attend to her

guests further than by giving orders when anything especial was

referred to her decision. She was an old lady--nearly as old as Mrs.

Falconer--and wore glasses, but they could not conceal the kindness of

her kindly eyes. Probably from giving less heed to a systematic

theology, she had nothing of that sternness which first struck a

stranger on seeing Robert's grandmother. But then she did not know

what it was to be contradicted; and if she had been married, and had

had sons, perhaps a sternness not dissimilar might have shown itself

in her nature.

'Noo ye maunna gang awa' till ye get something,' she said, after

taking the receipt in request from a drawer within her reach, and

laying it upon the table. But ere she could ring the bell which stood

by her side, one of her servants came in.

'Please, mem,' she said, 'Miss Letty and Miss Lizzy's seein' efter the

bonny leddy; and sae I maun come to you.'

'Is she a' that bonny, Meg?' asked her mistress.

'Na, na, she's nae sae fearsome bonny; but Miss Letty's unco ta'en wi'

her, ye ken. An' we a' say as Miss Letty says i' this hoose. But

that's no the pint. Mr. Lumley's here, seekin' a gill: is he to

hae't?'

'Has he had eneuch already, do ye think, Meg?'

'I dinna ken aboot eneuch, mem; that's ill to mizzer; but I dinna

think he's had ower muckle.'

'Weel, lat him tak' it. But dinna lat him sit doon.'

'Verra weel, mem,' said Meg, and departed.

'What gars Mr. Lumley say 'at my gran'father was the blin' piper o'

Portcloddie? Can ye tell me, Miss Naper?' asked Robert.

'Whan said he that, Robert?'

'Jist as I cam in.'

Miss Napier rang the bell. Another maid appeared.

'Sen' Meg here direckly.'

Meg came, her eyes full of interrogation.

'Dinna gie Lumley a drap. Set him up to insult a young gentleman at my

door-cheek! He s' no hae a drap here the nicht. He 's had ower muckle,

Meg, already, an' ye oucht to hae seen that.'

''Deed, mem, he 's had mair than ower muckle, than; for there's

anither gill ower the thrapple o' 'm. I div my best, mem, but, never

tastin' mysel', I canna aye tell hoo muckle 's i' the wame o' a' body

'at comes in.'

'Ye're no fit for the place, Meg; that's a fac'.'

At this charge Meg took no offence, for she had been in the place for

twenty years. And both mistress and maid laughed the moment they

parted company.

'Wha's this 'at's come the nicht, Miss Naper, 'at they're sae ta'en

wi'?' asked Robert.

'Atweel, I dinna ken yet. She's ower bonnie by a' accoonts to be

gaein' about her lane (alone). It's a mercy the baron's no at hame. I

wad hae to lock her up wi' the forks and spunes.'

'What for that?' asked Robert.

But Miss Napier vouchsafed no further explanation. She stuffed his

pockets with sweet biscuits instead, dismissed him in haste, and rang

the bell.

'Meg, whaur hae they putten the stranger-leddy?'

'She's no gaein' to bide at our hoose, mem.'

'What say ye, lass? She's never gaein' ower to Lucky Happit's, is

she?'

'Ow na, mem. She's a leddy, ilka inch o' her. But she's some sib

(relation) to the auld captain, and she's gaein' doon the street as

sune's Caumill's ready to tak her bit boxes i' the barrow. But I doobt

there'll be maist three barrowfu's o' them.'

'Atweel. Ye can gang.'

CHAPTER IV.

SHARGAR.

ROBERT went out into the thin drift, and again crossing the wide

desolate-looking square, turned down an entry leading to a kind of

court, which had once been inhabited by a well-to-do class of the

townspeople, but had now fallen in estimation. Upon a stone at the

door of what seemed an outhouse he discovered the object of his

search.

'What are ye sittin' there for, Shargar?'

Shargar is a word of Gaelic origin, applied, with some sense of the

ridiculous, to a thin, wasted, dried-up creature. In the present case

it was the nickname by which the boy was known at school; and, indeed,

where he was known at all.

'What are ye sittin' there for, Shargar? Did naebody offer to tak ye

in?'

'Na, nane o' them. I think they maun be a' i' their beds. I'm most

dreidfu' cauld.'

The fact was, that Shargar's character, whether by imputation from his

mother, or derived from his own actions, was none of the best. The

consequence was, that, although scarcely one of the neighbours would

have allowed him to sit there all night, each was willing to wait yet

a while, in the hope that somebody else's humanity would give in

first, and save her from the necessity of offering him a seat by the

fireside, and a share of the oatmeal porridge which probably would be

scanty enough for her own household. For it must be borne in mind that

all the houses in the place were occupied by poor people, with whom

the one virtue, Charity, was, in a measure, at home, and amidst many

sins, cardinal and other, managed to live in even some degree of

comfort.

'Get up, than, Shargar, ye lazy beggar! Or are ye frozen to the

door-stane? I s' awa' for a kettle o' bilin' water to lowse ye.'

'Na, na, Bob. I'm no stucken. I'm only some stiff wi' the cauld; for

wow, but I am cauld!' said Shargar, rising with difficulty. 'Gie 's a

haud o' yer han', Bob.'

Robert gave him his hand, and Shargar was straightway upon his feet.

'Come awa' noo, as fest and as quaiet 's ye can.'

'What are ye gaein' to du wi' me, Bob?'

'What's that to you, Shargar?'

'Naything. Only I wad like to ken.'

'Hae patience, and ye will ken. Only mind ye do as I tell ye, and

dinna speik a word.'

Shargar followed in silence.

On the way Robert remembered that Miss Napier had not, after all,

given him the receipt for which his grandmother had sent him. So he

returned to The Boar's Head, and, while he went in, left Shargar in

the archway, to shiver, and try in vain to warm his hands by the

alternate plans of slapping them on the opposite arms, and hiding them

under them.

When Robert came out, he saw a man talking to him under the lamp. The

moment his eyes fell upon the two, he was struck by a resemblance

between them. Shargar was right under the lamp, the man to the side of

it, so that Shargar was shadowed by its frame, and the man was in its

full light. The latter turned away, and passing Robert, went into the

inn.

'Wha's that?' asked Robert.

'I dinna ken,' answered Shargar. 'He spak to me or ever I kent he was

there, and garred my hert gie sic a loup 'at it maist fell into my

breeks.'

'And what said he to ye?'

'He said was the deevil at my lug, that I did naething but caw my

han's to bits upo' my shoothers.'

'And what said ye to that?'

'I said I wissed he was, for he wad aiblins hae some spare heat aboot

him, an' I hadna freely (quite) eneuch.'

'Weel dune, Shargar! What said he to that?'

'He leuch, and speirt gin I wad list, and gae me a shillin'.'

'Ye didna tak it, Shargar?' asked Robert in some alarm.

'Ay did I. Catch me no taking a shillin'!'

'But they'll haud ye till 't.'

'Na, na. I'm ower shochlin' (in-kneed) for a sodger. But that man was

nae sodger.'

'And what mair said he?'

'He speirt what I wad do wi' the shillin'.'

'And what said ye?'

'Ow! syne ye cam' oot, and he gaed awa'.'

'And ye dinna ken wha it was?' repeated Robert.

'It was some like my brither, Lord Sandy; but I dinna ken,' said

Shargar.

By this time they had arrived at Yule the baker's shop.

'Bide ye here,' said Robert, who happened to possess a few coppers,

'till I gang into Eel's.'

Shargar stood again and shivered at the door, till Robert came out

with a penny loaf in one hand, and a twopenny loaf in the other.

'Gie's a bit, Bob,' said Shargar. 'I'm as hungry as I am cauld.'

'Bide ye still,' returned Robert. 'There's a time for a' thing, and

your time 's no come to forgather wi' this loaf yet. Does na it smell

fine? It's new frae the bakehoose no ten minutes ago. I ken by the

fin' (feel) o' 't.'

'Lat me fin' 't,' said Shargar, stretching out one hand, and feeling

his shilling with the other.

'Na. Yer han's canna be clean. And fowk suld aye eat clean, whether

they gang clean or no.'

'I'll awa' in an' buy ane oot o' my ain shillin',' said Shargar, in a

tone of resolute eagerness.

'Ye'll do naething o' the kin',' returned Robert, darting his hand at

his collar. 'Gie me the shillin'. Ye'll want it a' or lang.'

Shargar yielded the coin and slunk behind, while Robert again led the

way till they came to his grandmother's door.

'Gang to the ga'le o' the hoose there, Shargar, and jist keek roon'

the neuk at me; and gin I whustle upo' ye, come up as quaiet 's ye

can. Gin I dinna, bide till I come to ye.'

Robert opened the door cautiously. It was never locked except at

night, or when Betty had gone to the well for water, or to the

butcher's or baker's, or the prayer-meeting, upon which occasions she

put the key in her pocket, and left her mistress a prisoner. He looked

first to the right, along the passage, and saw that his grandmother's

door was shut; then across the passage to the left, and saw that the

kitchen door was likewise shut, because of the cold, for its normal

position was against the wall. Thereupon, closing the door, but

keeping the handle in his hand, and the bolt drawn back, he turned to

the street and whistled soft and low. Shargar had, in a moment,

dragged his heavy feet, ready to part company with their shoes at any

instant, to Robert's side. He bent his ear to Robert's whisper.

'Gang in there, and creep like a moose to the fit o' the stair. I maun

close the door ahin' 's,' said he, opening the door as he spoke.

'I'm fleyt (frightened), Robert.'

'Dinna be a fule. Grannie winna bite aff yer heid. She had ane till

her denner, the day, an' it was ill sung (singed).'

'What ane o'?'

'A sheep's heid, ye gowk (fool). Gang in direckly.'

Shargar persisted no longer, but, taking about four steps a minute,

slunk past the kitchen like a thief--not so carefully, however, but

that one of his soles yet looser than the other gave one clap upon the

flagged passage, when Betty straightway stood in the kitchen door, a

fierce picture in a deal frame. By this time Robert had closed the

outer door, and was following at Shargar's heels.

'What's this?' she cried, but not so loud as to reach the ears of Mrs.

Falconer; for, with true Scotch foresight, she would not willingly

call in another power before the situation clearly demanded it.

'Whaur's Shargar gaein' that gait?'

'Wi' me. Dinna ye see me wi' him? I'm nae a thief, nor yet's Shargar.'

'There may be twa opingons upo' that, Robert. I s' jist awa' benn to

the mistress. I s' hae nae sic doin's i' my hoose.'

'It's nae your hoose, Betty. Dinna lee.'

'Weel, I s' hae nae sic things gang by my kitchie door. There, Robert!

what 'll ye mak' o' that? There's nae offence, there, I houp, gin it

suldna be a'thegither my ain hoose. Tak Shargar oot o' that, or I s'

awa' benn the hoose, as I tell ye.'

Meantime Shargar was standing on the stones, looking like a terrified

white rabbit, and shaking from head to foot with cold and fright

combined.

'I'll tak him oot o' this, but it's up the stair, Betty. An' gin ye

gang benn the hoose aboot it, I sweir to ye, as sure 's death, I'll

gang doon to Muckledrum upo' Setterday i' the efternune.'

'Gang awa' wi' yer havers. Only gin the mistress speirs onything aboot

it, what am I to say?'

'Bide till she speirs. Auld Spunkie says, "Ready-made answers are aye

to seek." And I say, Betty, hae ye a cauld pitawta (potato)?'

'I'll luik and see. Wadna ye like it het up?'

'Ow ay, gin ye binna lang aboot it.'

Suddenly a bell rang, shrill and peremptory, right above Shargar's

head, causing in him a responsive increase of trembling.

'Haud oot o' my gait. There's the mistress's bell,' said Betty.

'Jist bide till we're roon' the neuk and on to the stair,' said

Robert, now leading the way.

Betty watched them safe round the corner before she made for the

parlour, little thinking to what she had become an unwilling

accomplice, for she never imagined that more than an evening's visit

was intended by Shargar, which in itself seemed to her strange and

improper enough even for such an eccentric boy as Robert to encourage.

Shargar followed in mortal terror, for, like Christian in The

Pilgrim's Progress, he had no armour to his back. Once round the

corner, two strides of three steps each took them to the top of the

first stair, Shargar knocking his head in the darkness against the

never-opened door. Again three strides brought them to the top of the

second flight; and turning once more, still to the right, Robert led

Shargar up the few steps into the higher of the two garrets.

Here there was just glimmer enough from the sky to discover the hollow

of a close bedstead, built in under the sloping roof, which served it

for a tester, while the two ends and most of the front were boarded up

to the roof. This bedstead fortunately was not so bare as the one in

the other room, although it had not been used for many years, for an

old mattress covered the boards with which it was bottomed.

'Gang in there, Shargar. Ye'll be warmer there than upo' the door-step

ony gait. Pit aff yer shune.'

Shargar obeyed, full of delight at finding himself in such good

quarters. Robert went to a forsaken press in the room, and brought out

an ancient cloak of tartan, of the same form as what is now called an

Inverness cape, a blue dress-coat, with plain gilt buttons, which

shone even now in the all but darkness, and several other garments,

amongst them a kilt, and heaped them over Shargar as he lay on the

mattress. He then handed him the twopenny and the penny loaves, which

were all his stock had reached to the purchase of, and left him,

saying,--

'I maun awa' to my tay, Shargar. I'll fess ye a cauld tawtie het

again, gin Betty has ony. Lie still, and whatever ye do, dinna come

oot o' that.'

The last injunction was entirely unnecessary.

'Eh, Bob, I'm jist in haven!' said the poor creature, for his skin

began to feel the precious possibility of reviving warmth in the

distance.

Now that he had gained a new burrow, the human animal soon recovered

from his fears as well. It seemed to him, in the novelty of the place,

that he had made so many doublings to reach it, that there could be no

danger of even the mistress of the house finding him out, for she

could hardly be supposed to look after such a remote corner of her

dominions. And then he was boxed in with the bed, and covered with no

end of warm garments, while the friendly darkness closed him and his

shelter all round. Except the faintest blue gleam from one of the

panes in the roof, there was soon no hint of light anywhere; and this

was only sufficient to make the darkness visible, and thus add

artistic effect to the operation of it upon Shargar's imagination--a

faculty certainly uneducated in Shargar, but far, very far from being

therefore non-existent. It was, indeed, actively operative, although,

like that of many a fine lady and gentleman, only in relation to such

primary questions as: 'What shall we eat? And what shall we drink? And

wherewithal shall we be clothed?' But as he lay and devoured the new

'white breid,' his satisfaction--the bare delight of his animal

existence--reached a pitch such as even this imagination, stinted with

poverty, and frost-bitten with maternal oppression, had never

conceived possible. The power of enjoying the present without

anticipation of the future or regard of the past, is the especial

privilege of the animal nature, and of the human nature in proportion

as it has not been developed beyond the animal. Herein lies the

happiness of cab horses and of tramps: to them the gift of

forgetfulness is of worth inestimable. Shargar's heaven was for the

present gained.

CHAPTER V.

THE SYMPOSIUM.

ROBERT had scarcely turned out of the square on his way to find

Shargar, when a horseman entered it. His horse and he were both

apparently black on one side and gray on the other, from the

snow-drift settling to windward. The animal looked tired, but the

rider sat as easy as if he were riding to cover. The reins hung loose,

and the horse went in a straight line for The Boar's Head, stopping

under the archway only when his master drew bridle at the door of the

inn.

At that moment Miss Letty was standing at the back of Miss Napier's

chair, leaning her arms upon it as she talked to her. This was her way

of resting as often as occasion arose for a chat with her elder

sister. Miss Letty's hair was gathered in a great knot at the top of

her head, and little ringlets hung like tendrils down the sides of her

face, the benevolence of which was less immediately striking than that

of her sister's, because of the constant play of humour upon it,

especially about the mouth. If a spirit of satire could be supposed

converted into something Christian by an infusion of the tenderest

loving-kindness and humanity, remaining still recognizable

notwithstanding that all its bitterness was gone, such was the

expression of Miss Letty's mouth, It was always half puckered as if in

resistance to a comic smile, which showed itself at the windows of the

keen gray eyes, however the mouth might be able to keep it within

doors. She was neatly dressed in black silk, with a lace collar. Her

hands were small and white.

The moment the traveller stopped at the door, Miss Napier started.

'Letty,' she said, 'wha's that? I could amaist sweir to Black

Geordie's fit.'

'A' four o' them, I think,' returned Miss Letty, as the horse,

notwithstanding, or perhaps in consequence of his fatigue, began to

paw and move about on the stones impatiently.

The rider had not yet spoken.

'He'll be efter some o' 's deevil-ma'-care sculduddery. But jist rin

to the door, Letty, or Lizzy 'll be there afore ye, and maybe she

wadna be ower ceevil. What can he be efter noo?'

'What wad the grew (grayhound) be efter but maukin (hare)?' returned

Miss Letty.

'Hoot! nonsense! He kens naething aboot her. Gang to the door,

lassie.'

Miss Letty obeyed.

'Wha's there?' she asked, somewhat sharply, as she opened it, 'that

neither chaps (knocks) nor ca's?--Preserve 's a'! is't you, my lord?'

'Hoo ken ye me, Miss Letty withoot seein' my face?'

'A'body at The Boar's Heid kens Black Geordie as weel 's yer

lordship's ain sel'. But whaur comes yer lordship frae in sic a nicht

as this?'

'From Russia. Never dismounted between Moscow and Aberdeen. The ice is

bearing to-night.'

And the baron laughed inside the upturned collar of his cloak, for he

knew that strangely-exaggerated stories were current about his feats

in the saddle.

'That's a lang ride, my lord, and a sliddery. And what's yer

lordship's wull?'

'Muckle ye care aboot my lordship to stand jawin' there in a night

like this! Is nobody going to take my horse?'

'I beg yer lordship's pardon. Caumill!--Yer lordship never said ye

wanted yer lordship's horse ta'en. I thocht ye micht be gaein' on to

The Bothie.--Tak' Black Geordie here, Caumill.--Come in to the

parlour, my lord.'

'How d'ye do, Miss Naper?' said Lord Rothie, as he entered the room.

'Here's this jade of a sister of yours asking me why I don't go home

to The Bothie, when I choose to stop and water here.'

'What'll ye tak', my lord?--Letty, fess the brandy.'

'Oh! damn your brandy! Bring me a gill of good Glendronach.'

'Rin, Letty. His lordship's cauld.--I canna rise to offer ye the

airm-cheir, my lord.'

'I can get one for myself, thank heaven!'

'Lang may yer lordship return sic thanks.'

'For I'm only new begun, ye think, Miss Naper. Well, I don't often

trouble heaven with my affairs. By Jove! I ought to be heard when I

do.'

'Nae doobt ye will, my lord, whan ye seek onything that's fit to be

gien ye.'

'True. Heaven's gifts are seldom much worth the asking.'

'Haud yer tongue, my lord, and dinna bring doon a judgment upo' my

hoose, for it wad be missed oot o' Rothieden,'

'You're right there, Miss Naper. And here comes the whisky to stop my

mouth.'

The Baron of Rothie sat for a few minutes with his feet on the fender

before Miss Letty's blazing fire, without speaking, while he sipped

the whisky neat from a wine-glass. He was a man about the middle

height, rather full-figured, muscular and active, with a small head,

and an eye whose brightness had not yet been dimmed by the sensuality

which might be read in the condition rather than frame of his

countenance. But while he spoke so pleasantly to the Miss Napiers, and

his forehead spread broad and smooth over the twinkle of his hazel

eye, there was a sharp curve on each side of his upper lip, half-way

between the corner and the middle, which reminded one of the same

curves in the lip of his ancestral boar's head, where it was lifted up

by the protruding tusks. These curves disappeared, of course, when he

smiled, and his smile, being a lord's, was generally pronounced

irresistible. He was good-natured, and nowise inclined to stand upon

his rank, so long as he had his own way.

'Any customers by the mail to-night, Miss Naper?' he asked, in a

careless tone.

'Naebody partic'lar, my lord.'

'I thought ye never let anybody in that wasn't particularly

particular. No foot-passengers--eh?'

'Hoot, my lord! that's twa year ago. Gin I had jaloosed him to be a

fren' o' yer lordship's, forby bein' a lord himsel', ye ken as weel 's

I du that I wadna hae sent him ower the gait to Luckie Happit's, whaur

he wadna even be ower sure o' gettin' clean sheets. But gin lords an'

lords' sons will walk afit like ither fowk, wha's to ken them frae

ither fowk?'

'Well, Miss Naper, he was no lord at all. He was nothing but a

factor-body doon frae Glenbucket.'

'There was sma' hairm dune than, my lord. I'm glaid to hear 't. But

what'll yer lordship hae to yer supper?'

'I would like a dish o' your chits and nears (sweetbreads and

kidneys).'

'Noo, think o' that!' returned the landlady, laughing. 'You great fowk

wad hae the verra coorse o' natur' turned upside doon to shuit

yersels. Wha ever heard o' caure (calves) at this time o' the year?'

'Well, anything you like. Who was it came by the mail, did you say?'

'I said naebody partic'lar, my lord.'

'Well, I'll just go and have a look at Black Geordie.'

'Verra weel, my lord.--Letty, rin an' luik efter him; and as sune 's

he's roon' the neuk, tell Lizzie no to say a word aboot the leddy. As

sure 's deith he's efter her. Whaur cud he hae heard tell o' her?'

Lord Rothie came, a moment after, sauntering into the bar-parlour,

where Lizzie, the third Miss Napier, a red-haired, round-eyed,

white-toothed woman of forty, was making entries in a book.

'She's a bonnie lassie that, that came in the coach to-night, they

say, Miss Lizzie.'

'As ugly 's sin, my lord,' answered Lizzie.

'I hae seen some sin 'at was nane sae ugly, Miss Lizzie.'

'She wad hae clean scunnert (disgusted) ye, my lord. It's a mercy ye

didna see her.'

'If she be as ugly as all that, I would just like to see her.'

Miss Lizzie saw she had gone too far.

'Ow, deed! gin yer lordship wants to see her, ye may see her at yer

wull. I s' gang and tell her.'

And she rose as if to go.

'No, no. Nothing of the sort, Miss Lizzie. Only I heard that she was

bonnie, and I wanted to see her. You know I like to look at a pretty

girl.'

'That's ower weel kent, my lord.'

'Well, there's no harm in that, Miss Lizzie.'

'There's no harm in that, my lord, though yer lordship says 't.'

The facts were that his lordship had been to the county-town, some

forty miles off, and Black Geordie had been sent to Hillknow to meet

him; for in any weather that would let him sit, he preferred horseback

to every other mode of travelling, though he seldom would be followed

by a groom. He had posted to Hillknow, and had dined with a friend at

the inn. The coach stopping to change horses, he had caught a glimpse

of a pretty face, as he thought, from its window, and had hoped to

overtake the coach before it reached Rothieden. But stopping to drink

another bottle, he had failed; and it was on the merest chance of

seeing that pretty face that he stopped at The Boar's Head. In all

probability, had the Marquis seen the lady, he would not have thought

her at all such a beauty as she appeared in the eyes of Dooble Sanny;

nor, I venture to think, had he thought as the shoemaker did, would he

yet have dared to address her in other than the words of such respect

as he could still feel in the presence of that which was more noble

than himself.

Whether or not on his visit to the stable he found anything amiss with

Black Geordie, I cannot tell, but he now begged Miss Lizzie to have a

bedroom prepared for him.

It happened to be the evening of Friday, one devoted by some of the

townspeople to a symposium. To this, knowing that the talk will throw

a glimmer on several matters, I will now introduce my reader, as a

spectator through the reversed telescope of my history.

A few of the more influential of the inhabitants had grown, rather

than formed themselves, into a kind of club, which met weekly at The

Boar's Head. Although they had no exclusive right to the room in which

they sat, they generally managed to retain exclusive possession of it;

for if any supposed objectionable person entered, they always got rid

of him, sometimes without his being aware of how they had contrived to

make him so uncomfortable. They began to gather about seven o'clock,

when it was expected that boiling water would be in readiness for the

compound generally called toddy, sometimes punch. As soon as six were

assembled, one was always voted into the chair.

On the present occasion, Mr. Innes, the school-master, was unanimously

elected to that honour. He was a hard-featured, sententious, snuffy

individual, of some learning, and great respectability.

I omit the political talk with which their intercommunications began;

for however interesting at the time is the scaffolding by which

existing institutions arise, the poles and beams when gathered again

in the builder's yard are scarcely a subject for the artist.

The first to lead the way towards matters of nearer personality was

William MacGregor, the linen manufacturer, a man who possessed a score

of hand-looms or so--half of which, from the advance of cotton and the

decline of linen-wear, now stood idle--but who had already a

sufficient deposit in the hands of Mr. Thomson the banker--agent, that

is, for the county-bank--to secure him against any necessity for

taking to cotton shirts himself, which were an abomination and offence

unpardonable in his eyes.

'Can ye tell me, Mr. Cocker,' he said, 'what mak's Sandy, Lord Rothie,

or Wrathy, or what suld he be ca'd?--tak' to The Bothie at a time like

this, whan there's neither huntin', nor fishin', nor shutin', nor

onything o' the kin' aboot han' to be playacks till him, the bonnie

bairn--'cep' it be otters an' sic like?'

William was a shrunken old man, with white whiskers and a black wig, a

keen black eye, always in search of the ludicrous in other people, and

a mouth ever on the move, as if masticating something comical.

'You know just as well as I do,' answered Mr. Cocker, the Marquis of

Boarshead's factor for the surrounding estate. 'He never was in the

way of giving a reason for anything, least of all for his own

movements.'

'Somebody was sayin' to me,' resumed MacGregor, who, in all

probability, invented the story at the moment, 'that the prince took

him kissin' ane o' his servan' lasses, and kickit him oot o' Carlton

Hoose into the street, and he canna win' ower the disgrace o' 't.'

''Deed for the kissin',' said Mr. Thomson, a portly,

comfortable-looking man, 'that's neither here nor there, though it

micht hae been a duchess or twa; but for the kickin', my word! but

Lord Sandy was mair likly to kick oot the prince. Do ye min' hoo he

did whan the Markis taxed him wi'--?'

'Haud a quaiet sough,' interposed Mr. Cruickshank, the solicitor;

'there's a drap i' the hoose.'

This was a phrase well understood by the company, indicating the

presence of some one unknown, or unfit to be trusted.

As he spoke he looked towards the farther end of the room, which lay

in obscurity; for it was a large room, lighted only by the four

candles on the table at which the company sat.

'Whaur, Mr. Cruickshank?' asked the dominie in a whisper.

'There,' answered Sampson Peddie, the bookseller, who seized the

opportunity of saying something, and pointed furtively where the

solicitor had only looked.

A dim figure was descried at a table in the farthest corner of the

room, and they proceeded to carry out the plan they generally adopted

to get rid of a stranger.

'Ye made use o' a curious auld Scots phrase this moment, Mr. Curshank:

can ye explain hoo it comes to beir the meanin' that it's weel kent to

beir?' said the manufacturer.

'Not I, Mr. MacGregor,' answered the solicitor. 'I'm no philologist or

antiquarian. Ask the chairman.'

'Gentlemen,' responded Mr. Innes, taking a huge pinch of snuff after

the word, and then, passing the box to Mr. Cocker, a sip from his

glass before he went on: 'the phrase, gentlemen, "a drap i' the

hoose," no doobt refers to an undesirable presence, for ye're weel

awaur that it's a most unpleasin' discovery, in winter especially, to

find a drop o' water hangin' from yer ceiling; a something, in short,

whaur it has no business to be, and is not accordingly looked for, or

prepared against.'

'It seems to me, Mr. Innes,' said MacGregor, 'that ye hae hit the

nail, but no upo' the heid. What mak' ye o' the phrase, no confined to

the Scots tongue, I believe, o' an eaves-drapper? The whilk, no doobt,

represents a body that hings aboot yer winnock, like a drap hangin'

ower abune it frae the eaves--therefore called an eaves drapper. But

the sort of whilk we noo speak, are a waur sort a'thegither; for they

come to the inside o' yer hoose, o' yer verra chaumer, an' hing oot

their lang lugs to hear what ye carena to be hard save by a dooce

frien' or twa ower a het tum'ler.'

At the same moment the door opened, and a man entered, who was

received with unusual welcome.

'Bless my sowl!' said the president, rising; 'it's Mr. Lammie!--Come

awa', Mr. Lammie. Sit doon; sit doon. Whaur hae ye been this mony a

day, like a pelican o' the wilderness?'

Mr. Lammie was a large, mild man, with florid cheeks, no whiskers, and

a prominent black eye. He was characterized by a certain simple

alacrity, a gentle, but outspeaking readiness, which made him a

favourite.

'I dinna richtly mak' oot wha ye are,' he answered. 'Ye hae unco

little licht here! Hoo are ye a', gentlemen? I s' discover ye by

degrees, and pay my respecks accordin'.'

And he drew a chair to the table.

''Deed I wuss ye wad,' returned MacGregor, in a voice pretentiously

hushed, but none the less audible. 'There's a drap in yon en' o' the

hoose, Mr. Lammie.'

'Hoot! never min' the man,' said Lammie, looking round in the

direction indicated. 'I s' warran' he cares as little aboot hiz as we

care aboot him. There's nae treason noo a-days. I carena wha hears

what I say.'

'For my pairt,' said Mr. Peddie, 'I canna help wonnerin' gin it cud be

oor auld frien' Mr. Faukener.'

'Speyk o' the de'il--' said Mr. Lammie.

'Hoot! na,' returned Peddie, interrupting. 'He wasna a'thegither the

de'il.'

'Haud the tongue o' ye,' retorted Lammie. 'Dinna ye ken a proverb whan

ye hear 't? De'il hae ye! ye're as sharpset as a missionar'. I was

only gaun to say that I'm doobtin' Andrew's deid.'

'Ay! ay!' commenced a chorus of questioning.

'Mhm!'

'Aaay!'

'What gars ye think that?'

'And sae he's deid!'

'He was a great favourite, Anerew!'

'Whaur dee'd he?'

'Aye some upsettin' though!'

'Ay. He was aye to be somebody wi' his tale.'

'A gude-hertit crater, but ye cudna lippen till him.'

'Speyk nae ill o' the deid. Maybe they'll hear ye, and turn roon' i'

their coffins, and that'll whumle you i' your beds,' said MacGregor,

with a twinkle in his eye.

'Ring the bell for anither tum'ler, Sampson,' said the chairman.

'What'll be dune wi' that factory place, noo? It'll be i' the market?'

'It's been i' the market for mony a year. But it's no his ava. It

belangs to the auld leddy, his mither,' said the weaver.

'Why don't you buy it, Mr. MacGregor, and set up a cotton mill?

There's not much doing with the linen now,' said Mr. Cocker.

'Me!' returned MacGregor, with indignation. 'The Lord forgie ye for

mintin' (hinting) at sic a thing, Mr. Cocker! Me tak' to coaton! I wad

as sune spin the hair frae Sawtan's hurdies. Short fushionless dirt,

that canna grow straucht oot o' the halesome yird, like the bonnie

lint-bells, but maun stick itsel' upo' a buss!--set it up! Coorse

vulgar stuff, 'at naebody wad weir but loup-coonter lads that wad fain

luik like gentlemen by means o' the collars and ruffles--an' a' comin'

frae the auld loom! They may weel affoord se'enteen hunner linen to

set it aff wi' 'at has naething but coaton inside the breeks o' them.'

'But Dr. Wagstaff says it's healthier,' interposed Peddie.

'I'll wag a staff till him. De'il a bit o' 't 's healthier! an' that

he kens. It's nae sae healthy, an' sae it mak's him mair wark wi' 's

poothers an' his drauchts, an' ither stinkin' stuff. Healthier! What

neist?'

'Somebody tellt me,' said the bookseller, inwardly conscious of

offence, ''at hoo Lord Sandy himsel' weirs cotton.'

'Ow 'deed, maybe. And he sets mony a worthy example furbye. Hoo mony,

can ye tell me, Mr. Peddie, has he pulled doon frae honest, if no frae

high estate, and sent oot to seek their livin' as he taucht them? Hoo

mony--?'

'Hoot, hoot! Mr. MacGregor, his lordship hasn't a cotton shirt in his

possession, I'll be bound,' said Mr. Cocker. 'And, besides, you have

not to wash his dirty linen--or cotton either.'

'That's as muckle as to say, accordin' to Cocker, that I'm no to speik

a word against him. But I'll say what I like. He's no my maister,'

said MacGregor, who could drink very little without suffering in his

temper and manners; and who, besides, had a certain shrewd suspicion

as to the person who still sat in the dark end of the room, possibly

because the entrance of Mr. Lammie had interrupted the exorcism.

The chairman interposed with soothing words; and the whole company,

Cocker included, did its best to pacify the manufacturer; for they all

knew what would be the penalty if they failed.

A good deal of talk followed, and a good deal of whisky was drunk.

They were waited upon by Meg, who, without their being aware of it,

cast a keen parting glance at them every time she left the room. At

length the conversation had turned again to Andrew Falconer's death.

'Whaur said ye he dee'd, Mr. Lammie?'

'I never said he was deid. I said I was feared 'at he was deid.'

'An' what gars ye say that? It micht be o' consequence to hae 't

correck,' said the solicitor.

'I had a letter frae my auld frien' and his, Dr. Anderson. Ye min'

upo' him, Mr. Innes, dunna ye? He's heid o' the medical boord at

Calcutta noo. He says naething but that he doobts he's gane. He gaed

up the country, and he hasna hard o' him for sae lang. We hae keepit

up a correspondence for mony a year noo, Dr. Anderson an' me. He was a

relation o' Anerew's, ye ken--a second cousin, or something. He'll be

hame or lang, I'm thinkin', wi' a fine pension.'

'He winna weir a cotton sark, I'll be boon',' said MacGregor.

'What's the auld leddy gaein' to du wi' that lang-leggit oye

(grandson) o' hers, Anerew's son?' asked Sampson.

'Ow! he'll be gaein' to the college, I'm thinkin'. He's a fine lad,

and a clever, they tell me,' said Mr. Thomson.

'Indeed, he's all that, and more too,' said the school-master.

'There's naething 'ull du but the college noo!' said MacGregor, whom

nobody heeded, for fear of again rousing his anger.

'Hoo 'ill she manage that, honest woman? She maun hae but little to

spare frae the cleedin' o' 'm.'

'She's a gude manager, Mistress Faukner. And, ye see, she has the

bleachgreen yet.'

'She doesna weir cotton sarks,' growled MacGregor. 'Mony's the wob o'

mine she's bleached and boucht tu!'

Nobody heeding him yet, he began to feel insulted, and broke in upon

the conversation with intent.

'Ye haena telt 's yet, Cocker,' he said, 'what that maister o' yours

is duin' here at this time o' the year. I wad ken that, gin ye

please.'

'How should I know, Mr. MacGregor?' returned the factor, taking no

notice of the offensive manner in which the question was put.

'He's no a hair better nor ane o' thae Algerine pirates 'at Lord

Exmooth's het the hips o'--and that's my opingon.'

'He's nae amo' your feet, MacGregor,' said the banker. 'Ye micht jist

lat him lie.'

'Gin I had him doon, faith gin I wadna lat him lie! I'll jist tell ye

ae thing, gentlemen, that cam' to my knowledge no a hunner year ago.

An' it's a' as true 's gospel, though I hae aye held my tongue aboot

it till this verra nicht. Ay! ye'll a' hearken noo; but it's no

lauchin', though there was sculduddery eneuch, nae doobt, afore it

cam' that len'th. And mony a het drap did the puir lassie greet, I can

tell ye. Faith! it was no lauchin' to her. She was a servan' o' oors,

an' a ticht bonnie lass she was. They ca'd her the weyver's bonny

Mary--that's the name she gaed by. Weel, ye see--'

MacGregor was interrupted by a sound from the further end of the room.

The stranger, whom most of them had by this time forgotten, had risen,

and was approaching the table where they sat.

'Guid guide us!' interrupted several under their breaths, as all rose,

'it's Lord Sandy himsel'!'

'I thank you, gentleman,' he said, with a mixture of irony and

contempt, 'for the interest you take in my private history. I should

have thought it had been as little to the taste as it is to the honour

of some of you to listen to such a farrago of lies.'

'Lees! my lord,' said MacGregor, starting to his feet. Mr. Cocker

looked dismayed, and Mr. Lammie sheepish--all of them dazed and

dumbfoundered, except the old weaver, who, as his lordship turned to

leave the room, added:

'Lang lugs (ears) suld be made o' leather, my lord, for fear they grow

het wi' what they hear.'

Lord Rothie turned in a rage. He too had been drinking.

'Kick that toad into the street, or, by heaven! it's the last drop any

of you drink in this house!' he cried.

'The taed may tell the poddock (frog) what the rottan (rat) did i' the

taed's hole, my lord,' said MacGregor, whom independence, honesty,

bile, and drink combined to render fearless.

Lord Sandy left the room without another word. His factor took his hat

and followed him. The rest dropped into their seats in silence. Mr.

Lammie was the first to speak.

'There's a pliskie!' he said.

'I cud jist say the word efter auld Simeon,' said MacGregor.

'I never thocht to be sae favoured! Eh! but I hae langed, and noo I

hae spoken!' with which words he sat down, contented.

When Mr. Cocker overtook his master, as MacGregor had not unfitly

styled him, he only got a damning for his pains, and went home

considerably crestfallen.

Lord Rothie returned to the landlady in her parlour.

'What's the maitter wi' ye, my lord? What's vexed ye?' asked Miss

Napier, with a twinkle in her eyes, for she thought, from the baron's

mortification, he must have received some rebuff, and now that the

bonnie leddy was safe at Captain Forsyth's, enjoyed the idea of it.

'Ye keep an ill-tongued hoose, Miss Naper,' answered his lordship.

Miss Napier guessed at the truth at once--that he had overheard some

free remarks on his well-known licence of behaviour.

'Weel, my lord, I do my best. A body canna keep an inn and speir the

carritchis (catechism) at the door o' 't. But I believe ye're i' the

richt, my lord, for I heard an awfu' aff-gang o' sweirin' i' the yard,

jist afore yer lordship cam' in. An' noo' 'at I think o' 't, it wasna

that onlike yer lordship's ain word.'

Lord Sandy broke into a loud laugh. He could enjoy a joke against

himself when it came from a woman, and was founded on such a trifle as

a personal vice.

'I think I'll go to bed,' he said when his laugh was over. 'I believe

it's the only safe place from your tongue, Miss Naper.'

'Letty,' cried Miss Napier, 'fess a can'le, and show his lordship to

the reid room.'

Till Miss Letty appeared, the baron sat and stretched himself. He then

rose and followed her into the archway, and up an outside stair to a

door which opened immediately upon a handsome old-fashioned room,

where a blazing fire lighted up the red hangings. Miss Letty set down

the candle, and bidding his lordship good night, turned and left the

room, shutting the door, and locking it behind her--a proceeding of

which his lordship took no notice, for, however especially suitable it

might be in his case, it was only, from whatever ancient source

derived, the custom of the house in regard to this particular room and

a corresponding chamber on the opposite side of the archway.

Meantime the consternation amongst the members of the club was not so

great as not to be talked over, or to prevent the call for more whisky

and hot water. All but MacGregor, however, regretted what had

occurred. He was so elevated with his victory and a sense of courage

and prowess, that he became more and more facetious and overbearing.

'It's all very well for you, Mr. MacGregor,' said the dominie, with

dignity: 'you have nothing to lose.'

'Troth! he canna brak the bank--eh, Mr. Tamson?'

'He may give me a hint to make you withdraw your money, though, Mr.

MacGregor.'

'De'il care gin I do!' returned the weaver. 'I can mak' better o' 't

ony day.'

'But there's yer hoose an' kailyard,' suggested Peddie.

'They're ma ain!--a' ma ain! He canna lay 's finger on onything o'

mine but my servan' lass,' cried the weaver, slapping his

thigh-bone--for there was little else to slap.

Meg, at the moment, was taking her exit-glance. She went straight to

Miss Napier.

'Willie MacGregor's had eneuch, mem, an' a drappy ower.'

'Sen' Caumill doon to Mrs. MacGregor to say wi' my compliments that

she wad do weel to sen' for him,' was the response.

Meantime he grew more than troublesome. Ever on the outlook, when

sober, after the foibles of others, he laid himself open to endless

ridicule when in drink, which, to tell the truth, was a rare

occurrence. He was in the midst of a prophetic denunciation of the

vices of the nobility, and especially of Lord Rothie, when Meg,

entering the room, went quietly behind his chair and whispered:

'Maister MacGregor, there's a lassie come for ye.'

'I'm nae in,' he answered, magnificently.

'But it's the mistress 'at's sent for ye. Somebody's wantin' ye.'

'Somebody maun want me, than.--As I was sayin', Mr. Cheerman and

gentlemen--'

'Mistress MacGregor 'll be efter ye hersel', gin ye dinna gang,' said

Meg.

'Let her come. Duv ye think I'm fleyt at her? De'il a step 'll I gang

till I please. Tell her that, Meg.'

Meg left the room, with a broad grin on her good-humoured face.

'What's the bitch lauchin' at?' exclaimed MacGregor, starting to his

feet.

The whole company rose likewise, using their endeavour to persuade him

to go home.

'Duv ye think I'm drunk, sirs? I'll lat ye ken I'm no drunk. I hae a

wull o' mine ain yet. Am I to gang hame wi' a lassie to haud me oot o'

the gutters? Gin ye daur to alloo that I'm drunk, ye ken hoo ye'll

fare, for de'il a fit 'll I gang oot o' this till I hae anither

tum'ler.'

'I'm thinkin' there's mair o' 's jist want ane mair,' said Peddie.

A confirmatory murmur arose as each looked into the bottom of his

tumbler, and the bell was instantly rung. But it only brought Meg back

with the message that it was time for them all to go home. Every eye

turned upon MacGregor reproachfully.

'Ye needna luik at me that gait, sirs. I'm no fou,' said he.

''Deed no. Naebody taks ye to be,' answered the chairman. 'Meggie,

there's naebody's had ower muckle yet, and twa or three o' 's hasna

had freely eneuch. Jist gang an' fess a mutchkin mair. An' there'll be

a shillin' to yersel', lass.'

Meg retired, but straightway returned.

'Miss Naper says there's no a drap mair drink to be had i' this hoose

the nicht.'

'Here, Meggie,' said the chairman, 'there's yer shillin'; and ye jist

gang to Miss Lettie, and gie her my compliments, and say that Mr.

Lammie's here, and we haena seen him for a lang time. And'--the rest

was spoken in a whisper--'I'll sweir to ye, Meggie, the weyver body

sanna hae ae drap o' 't.'

Meg withdrew once more, and returned.

'Miss Letty's compliments, sir, and Miss Naper has the keys, and she's

gane till her bed, and we maunna disturb her. And it's time 'at a'

honest fowk was in their beds tu. And gin Mr. Lammie wants a bed i'

this hoose, he maun gang till 't. An' here's his can'le. Gude nicht to

ye a', gentlemen.'

So saying, Meg set the lighted candle on the sideboard, and finally

vanished. The good-tempered, who formed the greater part of the

company, smiled to each other, and emptied the last drops of their

toddy first into their glasses, and thence into their mouths. The

ill-tempered, numbering but one more than MacGregor, growled and swore

a little, the weaver declaring that he would not go home. But the rest

walked out and left him, and at last, appalled by the silence, he rose

with his wig awry, and trotted--he always trotted when he was

tipsy--home to his wife.

CHAPTER VI.

MRS. FALCONER.

MEANTIME Robert was seated in the parlour at the little dark mahogany

table, in which the lamp, shaded towards his grandmother's side, shone

brilliantly reflected. Her face being thus hidden both by the light

and the shadow, he could not observe the keen look of stern

benevolence with which, knowing that he could not see her, she

regarded him as he ate his thick oat-cake of Betty's skilled

manufacture, well loaded with the sweetest butter, and drank the tea

which she had poured out and sugared for him with liberal hand. It was

a comfortable little room, though its inlaid mahogany chairs and

ancient sofa, covered with horsehair, had a certain look of hardness,

no doubt. A shepherdess and lamb, worked in silks whose brilliance had

now faded half-way to neutrality, hung in a black frame, with brass

rosettes at the corners, over the chimney-piece--the sole approach to

the luxury of art in the homely little place. Besides the muslin

stretched across the lower part of the window, it was undefended by

curtains. There was no cat in the room, nor was there one in the

kitchen even; for Mrs. Falconer had such a respect for humanity that

she grudged every morsel consumed by the lower creation. She sat in

one of the arm-chairs belonging to the hairy set, leaning back in

contemplation of her grandson, as she took her tea.

She was a handsome old lady--little, but had once been taller, for she

was more than seventy now. She wore a plain cap of muslin, lying close

to her face, and bordered a little way from the edge with a broad

black ribbon, which went round her face, and then, turning at right

angles, went round the back of her neck. Her gray hair peeped a little

way from under this cap. A clear but short-sighted eye of a light

hazel shone under a smooth thoughtful forehead; a straight and

well-elevated, but rather short nose, which left the firm upper lip

long and capable of expressing a world of dignified offence, rose over

a well-formed mouth, revealing more moral than temperamental

sweetness; while the chin was rather deficient than otherwise, and

took little share in indicating the remarkable character possessed by

the old lady.

After gazing at Robert for some time, she took a piece of oat-cake

from a plate by her side, the only luxury in which she indulged, for

it was made with cream instead of water--it was very little she ate of

anything--and held it out to Robert in a hand white, soft, and smooth,

but with square finger tips, and squat though pearly nails. 'Ha'e,

Robert,' she said; and Robert received it with a 'Thank you, grannie';

but when he thought she did not see him, slipped it under the table

and into his pocket. She saw him well enough, however, and although

she would not condescend to ask him why he put it away instead of

eating it, the endeavour to discover what could have been his reason

for so doing cost her two hours of sleep that night. She would always

be at the bottom of a thing if reflection could reach it, but she

generally declined taking the most ordinary measures to expedite the

process.

When Robert had finished his tea, instead of rising to get his books

and betake himself to his lessons, in regard to which his grandmother

had seldom any cause to complain, although she would have considered

herself guilty of high treason against the boy's future if she had

allowed herself once to acknowledge as much, he drew his chair towards

the fire, and said:

'Grandmamma!'

'He's gaein' to tell me something,' said Mrs. Falconer to herself.

'Will 't be aboot the puir barfut crater they ca' Shargar, or will 't

be aboot the piece he pat intil 's pooch?'

'Weel, laddie?' she said aloud, willing to encourage him.

'Is 't true that my gran'father was the blin' piper o' Portcloddie?'

'Ay, laddie; true eneuch. Hoots, na! nae yer grandfather, but yer

father's grandfather, laddie--my husband's father.'

'Hoo cam that aboot?'

'Weel, ye see, he was oot i' the Forty-five; and efter the battle o'

Culloden, he had to rin for 't. He wasna wi' his ain clan at the

battle, for his father had broucht him to the Lawlands whan he was a

lad; but he played the pipes till a reg'ment raised by the Laird o'

Portcloddie. And for ooks (weeks) he had to hide amo' the rocks. And

they tuik a' his property frae him. It wasna muckle--a wheen hooses,

and a kailyard or twa, wi' a bit fairmy on the tap o' a cauld hill

near the sea-shore; but it was eneuch and to spare; and whan they tuik

it frae him, he had naething left i' the warl' but his sons. Yer

grandfather was born the verra day o' the battle, and the verra day

'at the news cam, the mother deed. But yer great grandfather wasna

lang or he merried anither wife. He was sic a man as ony woman micht

hae been prood to merry. She was the dother (daughter) o' an

episcopalian minister, and she keepit a school in Portcloddie. I saw

him first mysel' whan I was aboot twenty--that was jist the year afore

I was merried. He was a gey (considerably) auld man than, but as

straucht as an ellwand, and jist pooerfu' beyon' belief. His

shackle-bane (wrist) was as thick as baith mine; and years and years

efter that, whan he tuik his son, my husband, and his grandson, my

Anerew--'

'What ails ye, grannie? What for dinna ye gang on wi' the story?'

After a somewhat lengthened pause, Mrs. Falconer resumed as if she had

not stopped at all.

'Ane in ilka han', jist for the fun o' 't, he kneipit their heids

thegither, as gin they hed been twa carldoddies (stalks of ribgrass).

But maybe it was the lauchin' o' the twa lads, for they thocht it unco

fun. They were maist killed wi' lauchin'. But the last time he did it,

the puir auld man hostit (coughed) sair efterhin, and had to gang and

lie doon. He didna live lang efter that. But it wasna that 'at killed

him, ye ken.'

'But hoo cam he to play the pipes?'

'He likit the pipes. And yer grandfather, he tuik to the fiddle.'

'But what for did they ca' him the blin' piper o' Portcloddie?'

'Because he turned blin' lang afore his en' cam, and there was

naething ither he cud do. And he wad aye mak an honest baubee whan he

cud; for siller was fell scarce at that time o' day amo' the

Falconers. Sae he gaed throu the toon at five o'clock ilka mornin'

playin' his pipes, to lat them 'at war up ken they war up in time, and

them 'at warna, that it was time to rise. And syne he played them

again aboot aucht o'clock at nicht, to lat them ken 'at it was time

for dacent fowk to gang to their beds. Ye see, there wasna sae mony

clocks and watches by half than as there is noo.'

'Was he a guid piper, grannie?'

'What for speir ye that?'

'Because I tauld that sunk, Lumley--'

'Ca' naebody names, Robert. But what richt had ye to be speikin' to a

man like that?'

'He spak to me first.'

'Whaur saw ye him?'

'At The Boar's Heid.'

'And what richt had ye to gang stan'in' aboot? Ye oucht to ha' gane in

at ance.'

'There was a half-dizzen o' fowk stan'in' aboot, and I bude (behoved)

to speik whan I was spoken till.'

'But ye budena stop an' mak' ae fule mair.'

'Isna that ca'in' names, grannie?'

''Deed, laddie, I doobt ye hae me there. But what said the fallow

Lumley to ye?'

'He cast up to me that my grandfather was naething but a blin' piper.'

'And what said ye?'

'I daured him to say 'at he didna pipe weel.'

'Weel dune, laddie! And ye micht say 't wi' a gude conscience, for he

wadna hae been piper till 's regiment at the battle o' Culloden gin he

hadna pipit weel. Yon's his kilt hingin' up i' the press i' the

garret. Ye'll hae to grow, Robert, my man, afore ye fill that.'

'And whase was that blue coat wi' the bonny gowd buttons upo' 't?'

asked Robert, who thought he had discovered a new approach to an

impregnable hold, which he would gladly storm if he could.

'Lat the coat sit. What has that to do wi' the kilt? A blue coat and a

tartan kilt gang na weel thegither.'

'Excep' in an auld press whaur naebody sees them. Ye wadna care,

grannie, wad ye, gin I was to cut aff the bonnie buttons?'

'Dinna lay a finger upo' them. Ye wad be gaein' playin' at pitch and

toss or ither sic ploys wi' them. Na, na, lat them sit.'

'I wad only niffer them for bools (exchange them for marbles).'

'I daur ye to touch the coat or onything 'ither that's i' that press.'

'Weel, weel, grannie. I s' gang and get my lessons for the morn.'

'It's time, laddie. Ye hae been jabberin' ower muckle. Tell Betty to

come and tak' awa' the tay-things.'

Robert went to the kitchen, got a couple of hot potatoes and a candle,

and carried them up-stairs to Shargar, who was fast asleep. But the

moment the light shone upon his face, he started up, with his eyes, if

not his senses, wide awake.

'It wasna me, mither! I tell ye it wasna me!'

And he covered his head with both arms, as if to defend it from a

shower of blows.

'Haud yer tongue, Shargar. It's me.'

But before Shargar could come to his senses, the light of the candle

falling upon the blue coat made the buttons flash confused suspicions

into his mind.

'Mither, mither,' he said, 'ye hae gane ower far this time. There's

ower mony o' them, and they're no the safe colour. We'll be baith

hangt, as sure's there's a deevil in hell.'

As he said thus, he went on trying to pick the buttons from the coat,

taking them for sovereigns, though how he could have seen a sovereign

at that time in Scotland I can only conjecture. But Robert caught him

by the shoulders, and shook him awake with no gentle hands, upon which

he began to rub his eyes, and mutter sleepily:

'Is that you, Bob? I hae been dreamin', I doobt.'

'Gin ye dinna learn to dream quaieter, ye'll get you and me tu into

mair trouble nor I care to hae aboot ye, ye rascal. Haud the tongue o'

ye, and eat this tawtie, gin ye want onything mair. And here's a bit

o' reamy cakes tu ye. Ye winna get that in ilka hoose i' the toon.

It's my grannie's especial.'

Robert felt relieved after this, for he had eaten all the cakes Miss

Napier had given him, and had had a pain in his conscience ever since.

'Hoo got ye a haud o' 't?' asked Shargar, evidently supposing he had

stolen it.

'She gies me a bit noo and than.'

'And ye didna eat it yersel'? Eh, Bob!'

Shargar was somewhat overpowered at this fresh proof of Robert's

friendship. But Robert was still more ashamed of what he had not done.

He took the blue coat carefully from the bed, and hung it in its place

again, satisfied now, from the way his grannie had spoken, or, rather,

declined to speak, about it, that it had belonged to his father.

'Am I to rise?' asked Shargar, not understanding the action.

'Na, na, lie still. Ye'll be warm eneuch wantin' thae sovereigns. I'll

lat ye oot i' the mornin' afore grannie's up. And ye maun mak' the

best o't efter that till it's dark again. We'll sattle a' aboot it at

the schuil the morn. Only we maun be circumspec', ye ken.'

'Ye cudna lay yer han's upo' a drap o' whusky, cud ye, Bob?'

Robert stared in horror. A boy like that asking for whisky! and in his

grandmother's house, too!

'Shargar,' he said solemnly, 'there's no a drap o' whusky i' this

hoose. It's awfu' to hear ye mention sic a thing. My grannie wad smell

the verra name o' 't a mile awa'. I doobt that's her fit upo' the

stair a'ready.'

Robert crept to the door, and Shargar sat staring with horror, his

eyes looking from the gloom of the bed like those of a half-strangled

dog. But it was a false alarm, as Robert presently returned to

announce.

'Gin ever ye sae muckle as mention whusky again, no to say drink ae

drap o' 't, you and me pairt company, and that I tell you, Shargar,'

said he, emphatically.

'I'll never luik at it; I'll never mint at dreamin' o' 't,' answered

Shargar, coweringly. 'Gin she pits 't intil my moo', I'll spit it oot.

But gin ye strive wi' me, Bob, I'll cut my throat--I will; an' that'll

be seen and heard tell o'.'

All this time, save during the alarm of Mrs. Falconer's approach, when

he sat with a mouthful of hot potato, unable to move his jaws for

terror, and the remnant arrested half-way in its progress from his

mouth after the bite--all this time Shargar had been devouring the

provisions Robert had brought him, as if he had not seen food that

day. As soon as they were finished, he begged for a drink of water,

which Robert managed to procure for him. He then left him for the

night, for his longer absence might have brought his grandmother after

him, who had perhaps only too good reasons for being doubtful, if not

suspicious, about boys in general, though certainly not about Robert

in particular. He carried with him his books from the other

garret-room where he kept them, and sat down at the table by his

grandmother, preparing his Latin and geography by her lamp, while she

sat knitting a white stocking with fingers as rapid as thought, never

looking at her work, but staring into the fire, and seeing visions

there which Robert would have given everything he could call his own

to see, and then would have given his life to blot out of the world if

he had seen them. Quietly the evening passed, by the peaceful lamp and

the cheerful fire, with the Latin on the one side of the table, and

the stocking on the other, as if ripe and purified old age and hopeful

unstained youth had been the only extremes of humanity known to the

world. But the bitter wind was howling by fits in the chimney, and the

offspring of a nobleman and a gipsy lay asleep in the garret, covered

with the cloak of an old Highland rebel.

At nine o'clock, Mrs. Falconer rang the bell for Betty, and they had

worship. Robert read a chapter, and his grandmother prayed an

extempore prayer, in which they that looked at the wine when it was

red in the cup, and they that worshipped the woman clothed in scarlet

and seated upon the seven hills, came in for a strange mixture, in

which the vengeance yielded only to the pity.

'Lord, lead them to see the error of their ways,' she cried. 'Let the

rod of thy wrath awake the worm of their conscience that they may know

verily that there is a God that ruleth in the earth. Dinna lat them

gang to hell, O Lord, we beseech thee.'

As soon as prayers were over, Robert had a tumbler of milk and some

more oat-cake, and was sent to bed; after which it was impossible for

him to hold any further communication with Shargar. For his

grandmother, little as one might suspect it who entered the parlour in

the daytime, always slept in that same room, in a bed closed in with

doors like those of a large press in the wall, while Robert slept in a

little closet, looking into a garden at the back of the house, the

door of which opened from the parlour close to the head of his

grandmother's bed. It was just large enough to hold a good-sized bed

with curtains, a chest of drawers, a bureau, a large eight-day clock,

and one chair, leaving in the centre about five feet square for him to

move about in. There was more room as well as more comfort in the bed.

He was never allowed a candle, for light enough came through from the

parlour, his grandmother thought; so he was soon extended between the

whitest of cold sheets, with his knees up to his chin, and his

thoughts following his lost father over all spaces of the earth with

which his geography-book had made him acquainted.

He was in the habit of leaving his closet and creeping through his

grandmother's room before she was awake--or at least before she had

given any signs to the small household that she was restored to

consciousness, and that the life of the house must proceed. He

therefore found no difficulty in liberating Shargar from his prison,

except what arose from the boy's own unwillingness to forsake his

comfortable quarters for the fierce encounter of the January blast

which awaited him. But Robert did not turn him out before the last

moment of safety had arrived; for, by the aid of signs known to

himself, he watched the progress of his grandmother's dressing--an

operation which did not consume much of the morning, scrupulous as she

was with regard to neatness and cleanliness--until Betty was called in

to give her careful assistance to the final disposition of the mutch,

when Shargar's exit could be delayed no longer. Then he mounted to the

foot of the second stair, and called in a keen whisper,

'Noo, Shargar, cut for the life o' ye.'

And down came the poor fellow, with long gliding steps, ragged and

reluctant, and, without a word or a look, launched himself out into

the cold, and sped away he knew not whither. As he left the door, the

only suspicion of light was the dull and doubtful shimmer of the snow

that covered the street, keen particles of which were blown in his

face by the wind, which, having been up all night, had grown very

cold, and seemed delighted to find one unprotected human being whom it

might badger at its own bitter will. Outcast Shargar! Where he spent

the interval between Mrs. Falconer's door and that of the school, I do

not know. There was a report amongst his school-fellows that he had

been found by Scroggie, the fish-cadger, lying at full length upon the

back of his old horse, which, either from compassion or indifference,

had not cared to rise up under the burden. They said likewise that,

when accused by Scroggie of housebreaking, though nothing had to be

broken to get in, only a string with a peculiar knot, on the invention

of which the cadger prided himself, to be undone, all that Shargar had

to say in his self-defence was, that he had a terrible sair wame, and

that the horse was warmer nor the stanes i' the yard; and he had dune

him nae ill, nae even drawn a hair frae his tail--which would have

been a difficult feat, seeing the horse's tail was as bare as his

hoof.

CHAPTER VII.

ROBERT TO THE RESCUE!

THAT Shargar was a parish scholar--which means that the parish paid

his fees, although, indeed, they were hardly worth paying--made very

little difference to his position amongst his school-fellows. Nor did

the fact of his being ragged and dirty affect his social reception to

his discomfort. But the accumulated facts of the oddity of his

personal appearance, his supposed imbecility, and the bad character

borne by his mother, placed him in a very unenviable relation to the

tyrannical and vulgar-minded amongst them. Concerning his person, he

was long, and, as his name implied, lean, with pale-red hair, reddish

eyes, no visible eyebrows or eyelashes, and very pale face--in fact,

he was half-way to an Albino. His arms and legs seemed of equal

length, both exceedingly long. The handsomeness of his mother appeared

only in his nose and mouth, which were regular and good, though

expressionless; and the birth of his father only in his small delicate

hands and feet, of which any girl who cared only for smallness, and

heeded neither character nor strength, might have been proud. His

feet, however, were supposed to be enormous, from the difficulty with

which he dragged after him the huge shoes in which in winter they were

generally encased.

The imbecility, like the large feet, was only imputed. He certainly

was not brilliant, but neither did he make a fool of himself in any of

the few branches of learning of which the parish-scholar came in for a

share. That which gained him the imputation was the fact that his

nature was without a particle of the aggressive, and all its defensive

of as purely negative a character as was possible. Had he been a dog,

he would never have thought of doing anything for his own protection

beyond turning up his four legs in silent appeal to the mercy of the

heavens. He was an absolute sepulchre in the swallowing of oppression

and ill-usage. It vanished in him. There was no echo of complaint, no

murmur of resentment from the hollows of that soul. The blows that

fell upon him resounded not, and no one but God remembered them.

His mother made her living as she herself best knew, with occasional

well-begrudged assistance from the parish. Her chief resource was no

doubt begging from house to house for the handful of oatmeal which was

the recognized, and, in the court of custom-taught conscience, the

legalized dole upon which every beggar had a claim; and if she picked

up at the same time a chicken, or a boy's rabbit, or any other stray

luxury, she was only following the general rule of society, that your

first duty is to take care of yourself. She was generally regarded as

a gipsy, but I doubt if she had any gipsy blood in her veins. She was

simply a tramper, with occasional fits of localization. Her worst

fault was the way she treated her son, whom she starved apparently

that she might continue able to beat him.

The particular occasion which led to the recognition of the growing

relation between Robert and Shargar was the following. Upon a certain

Saturday--some sidereal power inimical to boys must have been in the

ascendant--a Saturday of brilliant but intermittent sunshine, the

white clouds seen from the school windows indicating by their rapid

transit across those fields of vision that fresh breezes friendly to

kites, or draigons, as they were called at Rothieden, were frolicking

in the upper regions--nearly a dozen boys were kept in for not being

able to pay down from memory the usual instalment of Shorter Catechism

always due at the close of the week. Amongst these boys were Robert

and Shargar. Sky-revealing windows and locked door were too painful;

and in proportion as the feeling of having nothing to do increased,

the more uneasy did the active element in the boys become, and the

more ready to break out into some abnormal manifestation.

Everything--sun, wind, clouds--was busy out of doors, and calling to

them to come and join the fun; and activity at the same moment excited

and restrained naturally turns to mischief. Most of them had already

learned the obnoxious task--one quarter of an hour was enough for

that--and now what should they do next? The eyes of three or four of

the eldest of them fell simultaneously upon Shargar.

Robert was sitting plunged in one of his day-dreams, for he, too, had

learned his catechism, when he was roused from his reverie by a

question from a pale-faced little boy, who looked up to him as a great

authority.

'What for 's 't ca'd the Shorter Carritchis, Bob?'

''Cause it's no fully sae lang's the Bible,' answered Robert, without

giving the question the consideration due to it, and was proceeding to

turn the matter over in his mind, when the mental process was arrested

by a shout of laughter. The other boys had tied Shargar's feet to the

desk at which he sat--likewise his hands, at full stretch; then,

having attached about a dozen strings to as many elf-locks of his

pale-red hair, which was never cut or trimmed, had tied them to

various pegs in the wall behind him, so that the poor fellow could not

stir. They were now crushing up pieces of waste-paper, not a few

leaves of stray school-books being regarded in that light, into

bullets, dipping them in ink and aiming then at Shargar's face.

For some time Shargar did not utter a word; and Robert, although

somewhat indignant at the treatment he was receiving, felt as yet no

impulse to interfere, for success was doubtful. But, indeed, he was

not very easily roused to action of any kind; for he was as yet mostly

in the larva-condition of character, when everything is transacted

inside. But the fun grew more furious, and spot after spot of ink

gloomed upon Shargar's white face. Still Robert took no notice, for

they did not seem to be hurting him much. But when he saw the tears

stealing down his patient cheeks, making channels through the ink

which now nearly covered them, he could bear it no longer. He took out

his knife, and under pretence of joining in the sport, drew near to

Shargar, and with rapid hand cut the cords--all but those that bound

his feet, which were less easy to reach without exposing himself

defenceless.

The boys of course turned upon Robert. But ere they came to more than

abusive words a diversion took place.

Mrs. Innes, the school-master's wife--a stout, kind-hearted woman, the

fine condition of whose temperament was clearly the result of her

physical prosperity--appeared at the door which led to the

dwelling-house above, bearing in her hands a huge tureen of

potato-soup, for her motherly heart could not longer endure the

thought of dinnerless boys. Her husband being engaged at a parish

meeting, she had a chance of interfering with success.

But ere Nancy, the servant, could follow with the spoons and plates,

Wattie Morrison had taken the tureen, and out of spite at Robert, had

emptied its contents on the head of Shargar, who was still tied by the

feet, with the words: 'Shargar, I anoint thee king over us, and here

is thy crown,' giving the tureen, as he said so, a push on to his

head, where it remained.

Shargar did not move, and for one moment could not speak, but the next

he gave a shriek that made Robert think he was far worse scalded than

turned out to be the case. He darted to him in rage, took the tureen

from his head, and, his blood being fairly up now, flung it with all

his force at Morrison, and felled him to the earth. At the same moment

the master entered by the street door and his wife by the house door,

which was directly opposite. In the middle of the room the prisoners

surrounded the fallen tyrant--Robert, with the red face of wrath, and

Shargar, with a complexion the mingled result of tears, ink, and soup,

which latter clothed him from head to foot besides, standing on the

outskirts of the group. I need not follow the story farther. Both

Robert and Morrison got a lickin'; and if Mr. Innes had been like some

school-masters of those times, Shargar would not have escaped his

share of the evil things going.

From that day Robert assumed the acknowledged position of Shargar's

defender. And if there was pride and a sense of propriety mingled with

his advocacy of Shargar's rights, nay, even if the relation was not

altogether free from some amount of show-off on Robert's part, I

cannot yet help thinking that it had its share in that development of

the character of Falconer which has chiefly attracted me to the office

of his biographer. There may have been in it the exercise of some

patronage; probably it was not pure from the pride of beneficence; but

at least it was a loving patronage and a vigorous beneficence; and,

under the reaction of these, the good which in Robert's nature was as

yet only in a state of solution, began to crystallize into character.

But the effect of the new relation was far more remarkable on Shargar.

As incapable of self-defence as ever, he was yet in a moment roused to

fury by any attack upon the person or the dignity of Robert: so that,

indeed, it became a new and favourite mode of teasing Shargar to heap

abuse, real or pretended, upon his friend. From the day when Robert

thus espoused his part, Shargar was Robert's dog. That very evening,

when she went to take a parting peep at the external before locking

the door for the night, Betty found him sitting upon the door-step,

only, however, to send him off, as she described it, 'wi' a flech1 in

's lug (a flea in his ear).' For the character of the mother was

always associated with the boy, and avenged upon him. I must, however,

allow that those delicate, dirty fingers of his could not with safety

be warranted from occasional picking and stealing.

At this period of my story, Robert himself was rather a

grotesque-looking animal, very tall and lanky, with especially long

arms, which excess of length they retained after he was full-grown. In

this respect Shargar and he were alike; but the long legs of Shargar

were unmatched in Robert, for at this time his body was peculiarly

long. He had large black eyes, deep sunk even then, and a Roman nose,

the size of which in a boy of his years looked portentous. For the

rest, he was dark-complexioned, with dark hair, destined to grow

darker still, with hands and feet well modelled, but which would have

made four feet and four hands such as Shargar's.

When his mind was not oppressed with the consideration of any

important metaphysical question, he learned his lessons well; when

such was present, the Latin grammar, with all its attendant

servilities, was driven from the presence of the lordly need. That

once satisfied in spite of pandies and imprisonments, he returned with

fresh zest, and, indeed, with some ephemeral ardour, to the rules of

syntax or prosody, though the latter, in the mode in which it was then

and there taught, was almost as useless as the task set himself by a

worthy lay-preacher in the neighbourhood--of learning the first nine

chapters of the first Book of the Chronicles, in atonement for having,

in an evil hour of freedom of spirit, ventured to suggest that such

lists of names, even although forming a portion of Holy Writ, could

scarcely be reckoned of equally divine authority with St. Paul's

Epistle to the Romans.

CHAPTER VIII.

THE ANGEL UNAWARES.

ALTHOUGH Betty seemed to hold little communication with the outer

world, she yet contrived somehow or other to bring home what gossip

was going to the ears of her mistress, who had very few visitors; for,

while her neighbours held Mrs. Falconer in great and evident respect,

she was not the sort of person to sit down and have a news with. There

was a certain sedate self-contained dignity about her which the common

mind felt to be chilling and repellant; and from any gossip of a

personal nature--what Betty brought her always excepted--she would

turn away, generally with the words, 'Hoots! I canna bide clashes.'

On the evening following that of Shargar's introduction to Mrs.

Falconer's house, Betty came home from the butcher's--for it was

Saturday night, and she had gone to fetch the beef for their Sunday's

broth--with the news that the people next door, that is, round the

corner in the next street, had a visitor.

The house in question had been built by Robert's father, and was,

compared with Mrs. Falconer's one-storey house, large and handsome.

Robert had been born, and had spent a few years of his life in it, but

could recall nothing of the facts of those early days. Some time

before the period at which my history commences it had passed into

other hands, and it was now quite strange to him. It had been bought

by a retired naval officer, who lived in it with his wife--the only

Englishwoman in the place, until the arrival, at The Boar's Head, of

the lady so much admired by Dooble Sanny.

Robert was up-stairs when Betty emptied her news-bag, and so heard

nothing of this bit of gossip. He had just assured Shargar that as

soon as his grandmother was asleep he would look about for what he

could find, and carry it up to him in the garret. As yet he had

confined the expenditure out of Shargar's shilling to twopence.

The household always retired early--earlier on Saturday night in

preparation for the Sabbath--and by ten o'clock grannie and Betty were

in bed. Robert, indeed, was in bed too; but he had lain down in his

clothes, waiting for such time as might afford reasonable hope of his

grandmother being asleep, when he might both ease Shargar's hunger and

get to sleep himself. Several times he got up, resolved to make his

attempt; but as often his courage failed and he lay down again, sure

that grannie could not be asleep yet. When the clock beside him struck

eleven, he could bear it no longer, and finally rose to do his

endeavour.

Opening the door of the closet slowly and softly, he crept upon his

hands and knees into the middle of the parlour, feeling very much like

a thief, as, indeed, in a measure he was, though from a blameless

motive. But just as he had accomplished half the distance to the door,

he was arrested and fixed with terror; for a deep sigh came from

grannie's bed, followed by the voice of words. He thought at first

that she had heard him, but he soon found that he was mistaken. Still,

the fear of discovery held him there on all fours, like a chained

animal. A dull red gleam, faint and dull, from the embers of the fire,

was the sole light in the room. Everything so common to his eyes in

the daylight seemed now strange and eerie in the dying coals, and at

what was to the boy the unearthly hour of the night.

He felt that he ought not to listen to grannie, but terror made him

unable to move.

'Och hone! och hone!' said grannie from the bed. 'I've a sair, sair

hert. I've a sair hert i' my breist, O Lord! thoo knowest. My ain

Anerew! To think o' my bairnie that I cairriet i' my ain body, that

sookit my breists, and leuch i' my face--to think o' 'im bein' a

reprobate! O Lord! cudna he be eleckit yet? Is there nae turnin' o'

thy decrees? Na, na; that wadna do at a'. But while there's life

there's houp. But wha kens whether he be alive or no? Naebody can

tell. Glaidly wad I luik upon 's deid face gin I cud believe that his

sowl wasna amang the lost. But eh! the torments o' that place! and the

reik that gangs up for ever an' ever, smorin' (smothering) the stars!

And my Anerew doon i' the hert o' 't cryin'! And me no able to win

till him! O Lord! I canna say thy will be done. But dinna lay 't to my

chairge; for gin ye was a mither yersel' ye wadna pit him there. O

Lord! I'm verra ill-fashioned. I beg yer pardon. I'm near oot o' my

min'. Forgie me, O Lord! for I hardly ken what I'm sayin'. He was my

ain babe, my ain Anerew, and ye gae him to me yersel'. And noo he's

for the finger o' scorn to pint at; an ootcast an' a wan'erer frae his

ain country, an' daurna come within sicht o' 't for them 'at wad tak'

the law o' 'm. An' it's a' drink--drink an' ill company! He wad hae

dune weel eneuch gin they wad only hae latten him be. What for maun

men be aye drink-drinkin' at something or ither? I never want it. Eh!

gin I war as young as whan he was born, I wad be up an' awa' this

verra nicht to luik for him. But it's no use me tryin' 't. O God! ance

mair I pray thee to turn him frae the error o' 's ways afore he goes

hence an' isna more. And O dinna lat Robert gang efter him, as he's

like eneuch to do. Gie me grace to haud him ticht, that he may be to

the praise o' thy glory for ever an' ever. Amen.'

Whether it was that the weary woman here fell asleep, or that she was

too exhausted for further speech, Robert heard no more, though he

remained there frozen with horror for some minutes after his

grandmother had ceased. This, then, was the reason why she would never

speak about his father! She kept all her thoughts about him for the

silence of the night, and loneliness with the God who never sleeps,

but watches the wicked all through the dark. And his father was one of

the wicked! And God was against him! And when he died he would go to

hell! But he was not dead yet: Robert was sure of that. And when he

grew a man, he would go and seek him, and beg him on his knees to

repent and come back to God, who would forgive him then, and take him

to heaven when he died. And there he would be good, and good people

would love him.

Something like this passed through the boy's mind ere he moved to

creep from the room, for his was one of those natures which are active

in the generation of hope. He had almost forgotten what he came there

for; and had it not been that he had promised Shargar, he would have

crept back to his bed and left him to bear his hunger as best he

could. But now, first his right hand, then his left knee, like any

other quadruped, he crawled to the door, rose only to his knees to

open it, took almost a minute to the operation, then dropped and

crawled again, till he had passed out, turned, and drawn the door to,

leaving it slightly ajar. Then it struck him awfully that the same

terrible passage must be gone through again. But he rose to his feet,

for he had no shoes on, and there was little danger of making any

noise, although it was pitch dark--he knew the house so well. With

gathering courage, he felt his way to the kitchen, and there groped

about; but he could find nothing beyond a few quarters of oat-cake,

which, with a mug of water, he proceeded to carry up to Shargar in the

garret.

When he reached the kitchen door, he was struck with amazement and for

a moment with fresh fear. A light was shining into the transe from the

stair which went up at right angles from the end of it. He knew it

could not be grannie, and he heard Betty snoring in her own den, which

opened from the kitchen. He thought it must be Shargar who had grown

impatient; but how he had got hold of a light he could not think. As

soon as he turned the corner, however, the doubt was changed into

mystery. At the top of the broad low stair stood a woman-form with a

candle in her hand, gazing about her as if wondering which way to go.

The light fell full upon her face, the beauty of which was such that,

with her dress, which was white--being, in fact, a nightgown--and her

hair, which was hanging loose about her shoulders and down to her

waist, it led Robert at once to the conclusion (his reasoning

faculties already shaken by the events of the night) that she was an

angel come down to comfort his grannie; and he kneeled involuntarily

at the foot of the stair, and gazed up at her, with the cakes in one

hand, and the mug of water in the other, like a meat-and-drink

offering. Whether he had closed his eyes or bowed his head, he could

not say; but he became suddenly aware that the angel had vanished--he

knew not when, how, or whither. This for a time confirmed his

assurance that it was an angel. And although he was undeceived before

long, the impression made upon him that night was never effaced. But,

indeed, whatever Falconer heard or saw was something more to him than

it would have been to anybody else.

Elated, though awed, by the vision, he felt his way up the stair in

the new darkness, as if walking in a holy dream, trod as if upon

sacred ground as he crossed the landing where the angel had

stood--went up and up, and found Shargar wide awake with expectant

hunger. He, too, had caught a glimmer of the light. But Robert did not

tell him what he had seen. That was too sacred a subject to enter upon

with Shargar, and he was intent enough upon his supper not to be

inquisitive.

Robert left him to finish it at his leisure, and returned to cross his

grandmother's room once more, half expecting to find the angel

standing by her bedside. But all was dark and still. Creeping back as

he had come, he heard her quiet, though deep, breathing, and his mind

was at ease about her for the night. What if the angel he had

surprised had only come to appear to grannie in her sleep? Why not?

There were such stories in the Bible, and grannie was certainly as

good as some of the people in the Bible that saw angels--Sarah, for

instance. And if the angels came to see grannie, why should they not

have some care over his father as well? It might be--who could tell?

It is perhaps necessary to explain Robert's vision. The angel was the

owner of the boxes he had seen at The Bear's Head. Looking around her

room before going to bed, she had seen a trap in the floor near the

wall, and raising it, had discovered a few steps of a stair leading

down to a door. Curiosity naturally led her to examine it. The key was

in the lock. It opened outwards, and there she found herself, to her

surprise, in the heart of another dwelling, of lowlier aspect. She

never saw Robert; for while he approached with shoeless feet, she had

been glancing through the open door of the gable-room, and when he

knelt, the light which she held in her hand had, I presume, hidden him

from her. He, on his part, had not observed that the moveless door

stood open at last.

I have already said that the house adjoining had been built by

Robert's father. The lady's room was that which he had occupied with

his wife, and in it Robert had been born. The door, with its

trap-stair, was a natural invention for uniting the levels of the two

houses, and a desirable one in not a few of the forms which the

weather assumed in that region. When the larger house passed into

other hands, it had never entered the minds of the simple people who

occupied the contiguous dwellings, to build up the doorway between.

CHAPTER IX.

A DISCOVERY.

THE friendship of Robert had gained Shargar the favourable notice of

others of the school-public. These were chiefly of those who came from

the country, ready to follow an example set them by a town boy. When

his desertion was known, moved both by their compassion for him, and

their respect for Robert, they began to give him some portion of the

dinner they brought with them; and never in his life had Shargar fared

so well as for the first week after he had been cast upon the world.

But in proportion as their interest faded with the novelty, so their

appetites reasserted former claims of use and wont, and Shargar began

once more to feel the pangs of hunger. For all that Robert could

manage to procure for him without attracting the attention he was so

anxious to avoid, was little more than sufficient to keep his hunger

alive, Shargar being gifted with a great appetite, and Robert having

no allowance of pocket-money from his grandmother. The threepence he

had been able to spend on him were what remained of sixpence Mr. Innes

had given him for an exercise which he wrote in blank verse instead of

in prose--an achievement of which the school-master was proud, both

from his reverence for Milton, and from his inability to compose a

metrical line himself. And how and when he should ever possess another

penny was even unimaginable. Shargar's shilling was likewise spent. So

Robert could but go on pocketing instead of eating all that he dared,

watching anxiously for opportunity of evading the eyes of his

grandmother. On her dimness of sight, however, he depended too

confidently after all; for either she was not so blind as he thought

she was, or she made up for the defect of her vision by the keenness

of her observation. She saw enough to cause her considerable

annoyance, though it suggested nothing inconsistent with rectitude on

the part of the boy, further than that there was something underhand

going on. One supposition after another arose in the old lady's brain,

and one after another was dismissed as improbable. First, she tried to

persuade herself that he wanted to take the provisions to school with

him, and eat them there--a proceeding of which she certainly did not

approve, but for the reproof of which she was unwilling to betray the

loopholes of her eyes. Next she concluded, for half a day, that he

must have a pair of rabbits hidden away in some nook or

other--possibly in the little strip of garden belonging to the house.

And so conjecture followed conjecture for a whole week, during which,

strange to say, not even Betty knew that Shargar slept in the house.

For so careful and watchful were the two boys, that although she could

not help suspecting something from the expression and behaviour of

Robert, what that something might be she could not imagine; nor had

she and her mistress as yet exchanged confidences on the subject. Her

observation coincided with that of her mistress as to the

disappearance of odds and ends of eatables--potatoes, cold porridge,

bits of oat-cake; and even, on one occasion, when Shargar happened to

be especially ravenous, a yellow, or cured and half-dried, haddock,

which the lad devoured raw, vanished from her domain. He went to

school in the morning smelling so strong in consequence, that they

told him he must have been passing the night in Scroggie's cart, and

not on his horse's back this time.

The boys kept their secret well.

One evening, towards the end of the week, Robert, after seeing Shargar

disposed of for the night, proceeded to carry out a project which had

grown in his brain within the last two days in consequence of an

occurrence with which his relation to Shargar had had something to do.

It was this:

The housing of Shargar in the garret had led Robert to make a close

acquaintance with the place. He was familiar with all the outs and ins

of the little room which he considered his own, for that was a

civilized, being a plastered, ceiled, and comparatively well-lighted

little room, but not with the other, which was three times its size,

very badly lighted, and showing the naked couples from roof-tree to

floor. Besides, it contained no end of dark corners, with which his

childish imagination had associated undefined horrors, assuming now

one shape, now another. Also there were several closets in it,

constructed in the angles of the place, and several chests--two of

which he had ventured to peep into. But although he had found them

filled, not with bones, as he had expected, but one with papers, and

one with garments, he had yet dared to carry his researches no

further. One evening, however, when Betty was out, and he had got hold

of her candle, and gone up to keep Shargar company for a few minutes,

a sudden impulse seized him to have a peep into all the closets. One

of them he knew a little about, as containing, amongst other things,

his father's coat with the gilt buttons, and his great-grandfather's

kilt, as well as other garments useful to Shargar: now he would see

what was in the rest. He did not find anything very interesting,

however, till he arrived at the last. Out of it he drew a long

queer-shaped box into the light of Betty's dip.

'Luik here, Shargar!' he said under his breath, for they never dared

to speak aloud in these precincts--'luik here! What can there be in

this box? Is't a bairnie's coffin, duv ye think? Luik at it.'

In this case Shargar, having roamed the country a good deal more than

Robert, and having been present at some merry-makings with his mother,

of which there were comparatively few in that country-side, was better

informed than his friend.

'Eh! Bob, duvna ye ken what that is? I thocht ye kent a' thing. That's

a fiddle.'

'That's buff an' styte (stuff and nonsense), Shargar. Do ye think I

dinna ken a fiddle whan I see ane, wi' its guts ootside o' 'ts wame,

an' the thoomacks to screw them up wi' an' gar't skirl?'

'Buff an' styte yersel'!' cried Shargar, in indignation, from the bed.

'Gie's a haud o' 't.'

Robert handed him the case. Shargar undid the hooks in a moment, and

revealed the creature lying in its shell like a boiled bivalve.

'I tellt ye sae!' he exclaimed triumphantly. 'Maybe ye'll lippen to me

(trust me) neist time.'

'An' I tellt you,' retorted Robert, with an equivocation altogether

unworthy of his growing honesty. 'I was cocksure that cudna be a

fiddle. There's the fiddle i' the hert o' 't! Losh! I min' noo. It

maun be my grandfather's fiddle 'at I hae heard tell o'.'

'No to ken a fiddle-case!' reflected Shargar, with as much of contempt

as it was possible for him to show.

'I tell ye what, Shargar,' returned Robert, indignantly; 'ye may ken

the box o' a fiddle better nor I do, but de'il hae me gin I dinna ken

the fiddle itsel' raither better nor ye do in a fortnicht frae this

time. I s' tak' it to Dooble Sanny; he can play the fiddle fine. An'

I'll play 't too, or the de'il s' be in't.'

'Eh, man, that 'll be gran'!' cried Shargar, incapable of jealousy.

'We can gang to a' the markets thegither and gaither baubees

(halfpence).'

To this anticipation Robert returned no reply, for, hearing Betty come

in, he judged it time to restore the violin to its case, and Betty's

candle to the kitchen, lest she should invade the upper regions in

search of it. But that very night he managed to have an interview with

Dooble Sanny, the shoemaker, and it was arranged between them that

Robert should bring his violin on the evening at which my story has

now arrived.

Whatever motive he had for seeking to commence the study of music, it

holds even in more important matters that, if the thing pursued be

good, there is a hope of the pursuit purifying the motive. And Robert

no sooner heard the fiddle utter a few mournful sounds in the hands of

the soutar, who was no contemptible performer, than he longed to

establish such a relation between himself and the strange instrument,

that, dumb and deaf as it had been to him hitherto, it would respond

to his touch also, and tell him the secrets of its queerly-twisted

skull, full of sweet sounds instead of brains. From that moment he

would be a musician for music's own sake, and forgot utterly what had

appeared to him, though I doubt if it was, the sole motive of his

desire to learn--namely, the necessity of retaining his superiority

over Shargar.

What added considerably to the excitement of his feelings on the

occasion, was the expression of reverence, almost of awe, with which

the shoemaker took the instrument from its case, and the tenderness

with which he handled it. The fact was that he had not had a violin in

his hands for nearly a year, having been compelled to pawn his own in

order to alleviate the sickness brought on his wife by his own

ill-treatment of her, once that he came home drunk from a wedding. It

was strange to think that such dirty hands should be able to bring

such sounds out of the instrument the moment he got it safely cuddled

under his cheek. So dirty were they, that it was said Dooble Sanny

never required to carry any rosin with him for fiddler's need, his own

fingers having always enough upon them for one bow at least. Yet the

points of those fingers never lost the delicacy of their touch. Some

people thought this was in virtue of their being washed only once a

week--a custom Alexander justified on the ground that, in a trade like

his, it was of no use to wash oftener, for he would be just as dirty

again before night.

The moment he began to play, the face of the soutar grew ecstatic. He

stopped at the very first note, notwithstanding, let fall his arms,

the one with the bow, the other with the violin, at his sides, and

said, with a deep-drawn respiration and lengthened utterance:

'Eh!'

Then after a pause, during which he stood motionless:

'The crater maun be a Cry Moany! Hear till her!' he added, drawing

another long note.

Then, after another pause:

'She's a Straddle Vawrious at least! Hear till her. I never had sic a

combination o' timmer and catgut atween my cleuks (claws) afore.'

As to its being a Stradivarius, or even a Cremona at all, the

testimony of Dooble Sanny was not worth much on the point. But the

shoemaker's admiration roused in the boy's mind a reverence for the

individual instrument which he never lost.

From that day the two were friends.

Suddenly the soutar started off at full speed in a strathspey, which

was soon lost in the wail of a Highland psalm-tune, giving place in

its turn to 'Sic a wife as Willie had!' And on he went without pause,

till Robert dared not stop any longer. The fiddle had bewitched the

fiddler.

'Come as aften 's ye like, Robert, gin ye fess this leddy wi' ye,'

said the soutar.

And he stroked the back of the violin tenderly with his open palm.

'But wad ye hae ony objection to lat it lie aside ye, and lat me come

whan I can?'

'Objection, laddie? I wad as sune objeck to lattin' my ain wife lie

aside me.'

'Ay,' said Robert, seized with some anxiety about the violin as he

remembered the fate of the wife, 'but ye ken Elspet comes aff a' the

waur sometimes.'

Softened by the proximity of the wonderful violin, and stung afresh by

the boy's words as his conscience had often stung him before, for he

loved his wife dearly save when the demon of drink possessed him, the

tears rose in Elshender's eyes. He held out the violin to Robert,

saying, with unsteady voice:

'Hae, tak her awa'. I dinna deserve to hae sic a thing i' my hoose.

But hear me, Robert, and lat hearin' be believin'. I never was sae

drunk but I cud tune my fiddle. Mair by token, ance they fand me lyin'

o' my back i' the Corrie, an' the watter, they say, was ower a' but

the mou' o' me; but I was haudin' my fiddle up abune my heid, and

de'il a spark o' watter was upo' her.'

'It's a pity yer wife wasna yer fiddle, than, Sanny,' said Robert,

with more presumption than wit.

''Deed ye're i' the richt, there, Robert. Hae, tak' yer fiddle.'

''Deed no,' returned Robert. 'I maun jist lippen (trust) to ye,

Sanders. I canna bide langer the nicht; but maybe ye'll tell me hoo to

haud her the neist time 'at I come--will ye?'

'That I wull, Robert, come whan ye like. An' gin ye come o' ane 'at

cud play this fiddle as this fiddle deserves to be playt, ye'll do me

credit.'

'Ye min' what that sumph Lumley said to me the ither nicht, Sanders,

aboot my grandfather?'

'Ay, weel eneuch. A dish o' drucken havers!'

'It was true eneuch aboot my great-grandfather, though.'

'No! Was't railly?'

'Ay. He was the best piper in 's regiment at Culloden. Gin they had a'

fouchten as he pipit, there wad hae been anither tale to tell. And he

was toon-piper forby, jist like you, Sanders, efter they took frae him

a' 'at he had.'

'Na! heard ye ever the like o' that! Weel, wha wad hae thocht it?

Faith! we maun hae you fiddle as weel as yer lucky-daiddy pipit.--But

here's the King o' Bashan comin' efter his butes, an' them no half

dune yet!' exclaimed Dooble Sanny, settling in haste to his awl and

his lingel (Fr. ligneul). 'He'll be roarin' mair like a bull o' the

country than the king o' 't.'

As Robert departed, Peter Ogg came in, and as he passed the window, he

heard the shoemaker averring:

'I haena risen frae my stule sin' ane o'clock; but there's a sicht to

be dune to them, Mr. Ogg.'

Indeed, Alexander ab Alexandro, as Mr. Innes facetiously styled him,

was in more ways than one worthy of the name of Dooble. There seemed

to be two natures in the man, which all his music had not yet been

able to blend.

CHAPTER X.

ANOTHER DISCOVERY IN THE GARRET.

LITTLE did Robert dream of the reception that awaited him at home.

Almost as soon as he had left the house, the following events began to

take place.

The mistress's bell rang, and Betty 'gaed benn the hoose to see what

she cud be wantin',' whereupon a conversation ensued.

'Wha was that at the door, Betty?' asked Mrs. Falconer; for Robert had

not shut the door so carefully as he ought, seeing that the deafness

of his grandmother was of much the same faculty as her blindness.

Had Robert not had a hold of Betty by the forelock of her years, he

would have been unable to steal any liberty at all. Still Betty had a

conscience, and although she would not offend Robert if she could help

it, yet she would not lie.

''Deed, mem, I canna jist distinckly say 'at I heard the door,' she

answered.

'Whaur's Robert?' was her next question.

'He's generally up the stair aboot this hoor, mem--that is, whan he's

no i' the parlour at 's lessons.'

'What gangs he sae muckle up the stair for, Betty, do ye ken? It's

something by ordinar' wi' 'm.'

''Deed I dinna ken, mem. I never tuik it into my heid to gang

considerin' aboot it. He'll hae some ploy o' 's ain, nae doobt.

Laddies will be laddies, ye ken, mem.'

'I doobt, Betty, ye'll be aidin' an' abettin'. An' it disna become yer

years, Betty.'

'My years are no to fin' faut wi', mem. They're weel eneuch.'

'That's naething to the pint, Betty. What's the laddie aboot?'

'Do ye mean whan he gangs up the stair, mem?'

'Ay. Ye ken weel eneuch what I mean.'

'Weel, mem, I tell ye I dinna ken. An' ye never heard me tell ye a lee

sin' ever I was i' yer service, mem.'

'Na, nae doonricht. Ye gang aboot it an' aboot it, an' at last ye come

sae near leein' that gin ye spak anither word, ye wad be at it; and it

jist fleys (frights) me frae speirin' ae ither question at ye. An'

that's hoo ye win oot o' 't. But noo 'at it's aboot my ain oye

(grandson), I'm no gaein' to tyne (lose) him to save a woman o' your

years, wha oucht to ken better; an sae I'll speir at ye, though ye

suld be driven to lee like Sawtan himsel'.--What's he aboot whan he

gangs up the stair? Noo!'

'Weel, as sure's deith, I dinna ken. Ye drive me to sweirin', mem, an'

no to leein'.'

'I carena. Hae ye no idea aboot it, than, Betty?'

'Weel, mem, I think sometimes he canna be weel, and maun hae a tod

(fox) in 's stamack, or something o' that nater. For what he eats is

awfu'. An' I think whiles he jist gangs up the stair to eat at 's ain

wull.'

'That jumps wi' my ain observations, Betty. Do ye think he micht hae a

rabbit, or maybe a pair o' them, in some boxie i' the garret, noo?'

'And what for no, gin he had, mem?'

'What for no? Nesty stinkin' things! But that's no the pint. I aye hae

to haud ye to the pint, Betty. The pint is, whether he has rabbits or

no?'

'Or guinea-pigs,' suggested Betty.

'Weel.'

'Or maybe a pup or twa. Or I kent a laddie ance 'at keepit a haill

faimily o' kittlins. Or maybe he micht hae a bit lammie. There was an

uncle o' min' ain--'

'Haud yer tongue, Betty! Ye hae ower muckle to say for a' the sense

there's intil 't.'

'Weel, mem, ye speirt questions at me.'

'Weel, I hae had eneuch o' yer answers, Betty. Gang and tell Robert to

come here direckly.'

Betty went, knowing perfectly that Robert had gone out, and returned

with the information. Her mistress searched her face with a keen eye.

'That maun hae been himsel' efter a' whan ye thocht ye hard the door

gang,' said Betty.

'It's a strange thing that I suld hear him benn here wi' the door

steekit, an' your door open at the verra door-cheek o' the ither, an'

you no hear him, Betty. And me sae deif as weel!'

''Deed, mem,' retorted Betty, losing her temper a little, 'I can be as

deif 's ither fowk mysel' whiles.'

When Betty grew angry, Mrs. Falconer invariably grew calm, or, at

least, put her temper out of sight. She was silent now, and continued

silent till Betty moved to return to her kitchen, when she said, in a

tone of one who had just arrived at an important resolution:

'Betty, we'll jist awa' up the stair an' luik.'

'Weel, mem, I hae nae objections.'

'Nae objections! What for suld you or ony ither body hae ony

objections to me gaein' whaur I like i' my ain hoose? Umph!' exclaimed

Mrs. Falconer, turning and facing her maid.

'In coorse, mem. I only meant I had nae objections to gang wi' ye.'

'And what for suld you or ony ither woman that I paid twa pun' five i'

the half-year till, daur to hae objections to gaein' whaur I wantit ye

to gang i' my ain hoose?'

'Hoot, mem! it was but a slip o' the tongue--naething mair.'

'Slip me nae sic slips, or ye'll come by a fa' at last, I doobt,

Betty,' concluded Mrs. Falconer, in a mollified tone, as she turned

and led the way from the room.

They got a candle in the kitchen and proceeded up-stairs, Mrs.

Falconer still leading, and Betty following. They did not even look

into the ga'le-room, not doubting that the dignity of the best

bed-room was in no danger of being violated even by Robert, but took

their way upwards to the room in which he kept his

school-books--almost the only articles of property which the boy

possessed. Here they found nothing suspicious. All was even in the

best possible order--not a very wonderful fact, seeing a few books and

a slate were the only things there besides the papers on the shelves.

What the feelings of Shargar must have been when he heard the steps

and voices, and saw the light approaching his place of refuge, we will

not change our point of view to inquire. He certainly was as little to

be envied at that moment as at any moment during the whole of his

existence.

The first sense Mrs. Falconer made use of in the search after possible

animals lay in her nose. She kept snuffing constantly, but, beyond the

usual musty smell of neglected apartments, had as yet discovered

nothing. The moment she entered the upper garret, however--

'There's an ill-faured smell here, Betty,' she said, believing that

they had at last found the trail of the mystery; 'but it's no like the

smell o' rabbits. Jist luik i' the nuik there ahin' the door.'

'There's naething here,' responded Betty.

'Roon the en' o' that kist there. I s' luik into the press.'

As Betty rose from her search behind the chest and turned towards her

mistress, her eyes crossed the cavernous opening of the bed. There, to

her horror, she beheld a face like that of a galvanised corpse staring

at her from the darkness. Shargar was in a sitting posture, paralysed

with terror, waiting, like a fascinated bird, till Mrs. Falconer and

Betty should make the final spring upon him, and do whatever was

equivalent to devouring him upon the spot. He had sat up to listen to

the noise of their ascending footsteps, and fear had so overmastered

him, that he either could not, or forgot that he could lie down and

cover his head with some of the many garments scattered around him.

'I didna say whusky, did I?' he kept repeating to himself, in utter

imbecility of fear.

'The Lord preserve 's!' exclaimed Betty, the moment she could speak;

for during the first few seconds, having caught the infection of

Shargar's expression, she stood equally paralysed. 'The Lord preserve

's!' she repeated.

'Ance is eneuch,' said Mrs. Falconer, sharply, turning round to see

what the cause of Betty's ejaculation might be.

I have said that she was dim-sighted. The candle they had was little

better than a penny dip. The bed was darker than the rest of the room.

Shargar's face had none of the more distinctive characteristics of

manhood upon it.

'Gude preserve 's!' exclaimed Mrs. Falconer in her turn: 'it's a

wumman.'

Poor deluded Shargar, thinking himself safer under any form than that

which he actually bore, attempted no protest against the mistake. But,

indeed, he was incapable of speech. The two women flew upon him to

drag him out of bed. Then first recovering his powers of motion, he

sprung up in an agony of terror, and darted out between them,

overturning Betty in his course.

'Ye rouch limmer!' cried Betty, from the floor. 'Ye lang-leggit jaud!'

she added, as she rose--and at the same moment Shargar banged the

street-door behind him in his terror--'I wat ye dinna carry yer coats

ower syde (too long)!'

For Shargar, having discovered that the way to get the most warmth

from Robert's great-grandfather's kilt was to wear it in the manner

for which it had been fabricated, was in the habit of fastening it

round his waist before he got into bed; and the eye of Betty, as she

fell, had caught the swing of this portion of his attire.

But poor Mrs. Falconer, with sunken head, walked out of the garret in

the silence of despair. She went slowly down the steep stair,

supporting herself against the wall, her round-toed shoes creaking

solemnly as she went, took refuge in the ga'le-room, and burst into a

violent fit of weeping. For such depravity she was not prepared. What

a terrible curse hung over her family! Surely they were all reprobate

from the womb, not one elected for salvation from the guilt of Adam's

fall, and therefore abandoned to Satan as his natural prey, to be led

captive of him at his will. She threw herself on her knees at the side

of the bed, and prayed heart-brokenly. Betty heard her as she limped

past the door on her way back to her kitchen.

Meantime Shargar had rushed across the next street on his bare feet

into the Crookit Wynd, terrifying poor old Kirstan Peerie, the

divisions betwixt the compartments of whose memory had broken down,

into the exclamation to her next neighbour, Tam Rhin, with whom she

was trying to gossip:

'Eh, Tammas! that'll be ane o' the slauchtert at Culloden.'

He never stopped till he reached his mother's deserted abode--strange

instinct! There he ran to earth like a hunted fox. Rushing at the

door, forgetful of everything but refuge, he found it unlocked, and

closing it behind him, stood panting like the hart that has found the

water-brooks. The owner had looked in one day to see whether the place

was worth repairing, for it was a mere outhouse, and had forgotten to

turn the key when he left it. Poor Shargar! Was it more or less of a

refuge that the mother that bore him was not there either to curse or

welcome his return? Less--if we may judge from a remark he once made

in my hearing many long years after:

'For, ye see,' he said, 'a mither's a mither, be she the verra de'il.'

Searching about in the dark, he found the one article unsold by the

landlord, a stool, with but two of its natural three legs. On this he

balanced himself and waited--simply for what Robert would do; for his

faith in Robert was unbounded, and he had no other hope on earth. But

Shargar was not miserable. In that wretched hovel, his bare feet

clasping the clay floor in constant search of a wavering equilibrium,

with pitch darkness around him, and incapable of the simplest

philosophical or religious reflection, he yet found life good. For it

had interest. Nay, more, it had hope. I doubt, however, whether there

is any interest at all without hope.

While he sat there, Robert, thinking him snug in the garret, was

walking quietly home from the shoemaker's; and his first impulse on

entering was to run up and recount the particulars of his interview

with Alexander. Arrived in the dark garret, he called Shargar, as

usual, in a whisper--received no reply--thought he was asleep--called

louder (for he had had a penny from his grandmother that day for

bringing home two pails of water for Betty, and had just spent it upon

a loaf for him)--but no Shargar replied. Thereupon he went to the bed

to lay hold of him and shake him. But his searching hands found no

Shargar. Becoming alarmed, he ran down-stairs to beg a light from

Betty.

When he reached the kitchen, he found Betty's nose as much in the air

as its construction would permit. For a hook-nosed animal, she

certainly was the most harmless and ovine creature in the world, but

this was a case in which feminine modesty was both concerned and

aggrieved. She showed her resentment no further, however, than by

simply returning no answer in syllable, or sound, or motion, to

Robert's request. She was washing up the tea-things, and went on with

her work as if she had been in absolute solitude, saving that her

countenance could hardly have kept up that expression of injured

dignity had such been the case. Robert plainly saw, to his great

concern, that his secret had been discovered in his absence, and that

Shargar had been expelled with contumely. But, with an instinct of

facing the worst at once which accompanied him through life, he went

straight to his grandmother's parlour.

'Well, grandmamma,' he said, trying to speak as cheerfully as he

could.

Grannie's prayers had softened her a little, else she would have been

as silent as Betty; for it was from her mistress that Betty had

learned this mode of torturing a criminal. So she was just able to

return his greeting in the words, 'Weel, Robert,' pronounced in a

finality of tone that indicated she had done her utmost, and had

nothing to add.

'Here's a browst (brewage)!' thought Robert to himself; and, still on

the principle of flying at the first of mischief he saw--the best mode

of meeting it, no doubt--addressed his grandmother at once. The effort

necessary gave a tone of defiance to his words.

'What for willna ye speik to me, grannie?' he said. 'I'm no a haithen,

nor yet a papist.'

'Ye're waur nor baith in ane, Robert.'

'Hoots! ye winna say baith, grannie,' returned Robert, who, even at

the age of fourteen, when once compelled to assert himself, assumed a

modest superiority.

'Nane o' sic impidence!' retorted Mrs. Falconer. 'I wonner whaur ye

learn that. But it's nae wonner. Evil communications corrupt gude

mainners. Ye're a lost prodigal, Robert, like yer father afore ye. I

hae jist been sittin' here thinkin' wi' mysel' whether it wadna be

better for baith o' 's to lat ye gang an' reap the fruit o' yer doin's

at ance; for the hard ways is the best road for transgressors. I'm no

bund to keep ye.'

'Weel, weel, I s' awa' to Shargar. Him and me 'ill haud on thegither

better nor you an' me, grannie. He's a puir cratur, but he can stick

till a body.'

'What are ye haverin' aboot Shargar for, ye heepocreet loon? Ye'll no

gang to Shargar, I s' warran'! Ye'll be efter that vile limmer that's

turnt my honest hoose intil a sty this last fortnicht.'

'Grannie, I dinna ken what ye mean.'

'She kens, than. I sent her aff like ane o' Samson's foxes, wi' a

firebrand at her tail. It's a pity it wasna tied atween the twa o'

ye.'

'Preserve 's, grannie! Is't possible ye hae ta'en Shargar for ane o'

wumman-kin'?'

'I ken naething aboot Shargar, I tell ye. I ken that Betty an' me tuik

an ill-faured dame i' the bed i' the garret.'

'Cud it be his mither?' thought Robert in bewilderment; but he

recovered himself in a moment, and answered,

'Shargar may be a quean efter a', for onything 'at I ken to the

contrairy; but I aye tuik him for a loon. Faith, sic a quean as he'd

mak!'

And careless to resist the ludicrousness of the idea, he burst into a

loud fit of laughter, which did more to reassure his grannie than any

amount of protestation could have done, however she pretended to take

offence at his ill-timed merriment.

Seeing his grandmother staggered, Robert gathered courage to assume

the offensive.

'But, granny! hoo ever Betty, no to say you, cud hae driven oot a puir

half-stervit cratur like Shargar, even supposin' he oucht to hae been

in coaties, and no in troosers--and the mither o' him run awa' an'

left him--it's mair nor I can unnerstan.' I misdoobt me sair but he's

gane and droont himsel'.'

Robert knew well enough that Shargar would not drown himself without

at least bidding him good-bye; but he knew too that his grandmother

could be wrought upon. Her conscience was more tender than her

feelings; and this peculiarity occasioned part of the mutual

non-understanding rather than misunderstanding between her grandson

and herself. The first relation she bore to most that came near her

was one of severity and rebuke; but underneath her cold outside lay a

warm heart, to which conscience acted the part of a somewhat

capricious stoker, now quenching its heat with the cold water of duty,

now stirring it up with the poker of reproach, and ever treating it as

an inferior and a slave. But her conscience was, on the whole, a

better friend to her race than her heart; and, indeed, the conscience

is always a better friend than a heart whose motions are undirected by

it. From Falconer's account of her, however, I cannot help thinking

that she not unfrequently took refuge in severity of tone and manner

from the threatened ebullition of a feeling which she could not

otherwise control, and which she was ashamed to manifest. Possibly

conscience had spoken more and more gently as its behests were more

and more readily obeyed, until the heart began to gather courage, and

at last, as in many old people, took the upper hand, which was

outwardly inconvenient to one of Mrs. Falconer's temperament. Hence,

in doing the kindest thing in the world, she would speak in a tone of

command, even of rebuke, as if she were compelling the performance of

the most unpleasant duty in the person who received the kindness. But

the human heart is hard to analyze, and, indeed, will not submit

quietly to the operation, however gently performed. Nor is the result

at all easy to put into words. It is best shown in actions.

Again, it may appear rather strange that Robert should be able to talk

in such an easy manner to his grandmother, seeing he had been guilty

of concealment, if not of deception. But she had never been so

actively severe towards Robert as she had been towards her own

children. To him she was wonderfully gentle for her nature, and sought

to exercise the saving harshness which she still believed necessary,

solely in keeping from him every enjoyment of life which the narrowest

theories as to the rule and will of God could set down as worldly.

Frivolity, of which there was little in this sober boy, was in her

eyes a vice; loud laughter almost a crime; cards, and novelles, as she

called them, were such in her estimation, as to be beyond my powers of

characterization. Her commonest injunction was, 'Noo be douce,'--that

is sober--uttered to the soberest boy she could ever have known. But

Robert was a large-hearted boy, else this life would never have had to

be written; and so, through all this, his deepest nature came into

unconscious contact with that of his noble old grandmother. There was

nothing small about either of them. Hence Robert was not afraid of

her. He had got more of her nature in him than of her son's. She and

his own mother had more share in him than his father, though from him

he inherited good qualities likewise.

He had concealed his doings with Shargar simply because he believed

they could not be done if his grandmother knew of his plans. Herein he

did her less than justice. But so unpleasant was concealment to his

nature, and so much did the dread of discovery press upon him, that

the moment he saw the thing had come out into the daylight of her

knowledge, such a reaction of relief took place as, operating along

with his deep natural humour and the comical circumstance of the case,

gave him an ease and freedom of communication which he had never

before enjoyed with her. Likewise there was a certain courage in the

boy which, if his own natural disposition had not been so quiet that

he felt the negations of her rule the less, might have resulted in

underhand doings of a very different kind, possibly, from those of

benevolence.

He must have been a strange being to look at, I always think, at this

point of his development, with his huge nose, his black eyes, his

lanky figure, and his sober countenance, on which a smile was rarely

visible, but from which burst occasional guffaws of laughter.

At the words 'droont himsel',' Mrs. Falconer started.

'Rin, laddie, rin,' she said, 'an' fess him back direckly! Betty!

Betty! gang wi' Robert and help him to luik for Shargar. Ye auld,

blin', doited body, 'at says ye can see, and canna tell a lad frae a

lass!'

'Na, na, grannie. I'm no gaein' oot wi' a dame like her trailin' at my

fut. She wad be a sair hinnerance to me. Gin Shargar be to be

gotten--that is, gin he be in life--I s' get him wantin' Betty. And

gin ye dinna ken him for the crater ye fand i' the garret, he maun be

sair changed sin' I left him there.'

'Weel, weel, Robert, gang yer wa's. But gin ye be deceivin' me, may

the Lord--forgie ye, Robert, for sair ye'll need it.'

'Nae fear o' that, grannie,' returned Robert, from the street door,

and vanished.

Mrs. Falconer stalked--No, I will not use that word of the gait of a

woman like my friend's grandmother. 'Stately stept she butt the hoose'

to Betty. She felt strangely soft at the heart, Robert not being yet

proved a reprobate; but she was not therefore prepared to drop one

atom of the dignity of her relation to her servant.

'Betty,' she said, 'ye hae made a mistak.'

'What's that, mem?' returned Betty.

'It wasna a lass ava; it was that crater Shargar.'

'Ye said it was a lass yersel' first, mem.'

'Ye ken weel eneuch that I'm short sichtit, an' hae been frae the day

o' my birth.'

'I'm no auld eneuch to min' upo' that, mem,' returned Betty

revengefully, but in an undertone, as if she did not intend her

mistress to hear, And although she heard well enough, her mistress

adopted the subterfuge. 'But I'll sweir the crater I saw was in cwytes

(petticoats).'

'Sweir not at all, Betty. Ye hae made a mistak ony gait.'

'Wha says that, mem?'

'Robert.'

'Aweel, gin he be tellin' the trowth--'

'Daur ye mint (insinuate) to me that a son o' mine wad tell onything

but the trowth?'

'Na, na, mem. But gin that wasna a quean, ye canna deny but she luikit

unco like ane, and no a blate (bashful) ane eyther.'

'Gin he was a loon, he wadna luik like a blate lass, ony gait, Betty.

And there ye're wrang.'

'Weel, weel, mem, hae 't yer ain gait,' muttered Betty.

'I wull hae 't my ain gait,' retorted her mistress, 'because it's the

richt gait, Betty. An' noo ye maun jist gang up the stair, an' get the

place cleant oot an' put in order.'

'I wull do that, mem.'

'Ay wull ye. An' luik weel aboot, Betty, you that can see sae weel, in

case there suld be ony cattle aboot; for he's nane o' the cleanest,

yon dame!'

'I wull do that, mem.'

'An' gang direckly, afore he comes back.'

'Wha comes back?'

'Robert, of course.'

'What for that?'

''Cause he's comin' wi' 'im.'

'What he 's comin' wi' 'im?'

'Ca' 't she, gin ye like. It's Shargar.'

'Wha says that?' exclaimed Betty, sniffing and starting at once.

'I say that. An' ye gang an' du what I tell ye, this minute.'

Betty obeyed instantly; for the tone in which the last words were

spoken was one she was not accustomed to dispute. She only muttered as

she went, 'It 'll a' come upo' me as usual.'

Betty's job was long ended before Robert returned. Never dreaming that

Shargar could have gone back to the old haunt, he had looked for him

everywhere before that occurred to him as a last chance. Nor would he

have found him even then, for he would not have thought of his being

inside the deserted house, had not Shargar heard his footsteps in the

street.

He started up from his stool saying, 'That's Bob!' but was not sure

enough to go to the door: he might be mistaken; it might be the

landlord! He heard the feet stop and did not move; but when he heard

them begin to go away again, he rushed to the door, and bawled on the

chance at the top of his voice, 'Bob! Bob!'

'Eh! ye crater!' said Robert, 'ir ye there efter a'?

'Eh! Bob,' exclaimed Shargar, and burst into tears. 'I thocht ye wad

come efter me.'

'Of coorse,' answered Robert, coolly. 'Come awa' hame.'

'Whaur til?' asked Shargar in dismay.

'Hame to yer ain bed at my grannie's.'

'Na, na,' said Shargar, hurriedly, retreating within the door of the

hovel. 'Na, na, Bob, lad, I s' no du that. She's an awfu' wuman, that

grannie o' yours. I canna think hoo ye can bide wi' her. I'm weel oot

o' her grups, I can tell ye.'

It required a good deal of persuasion, but at last Robert prevailed

upon Shargar to return. For was not Robert his tower of strength? And

if Robert was not frightened at his grannie, or at Betty, why should

he be? At length they entered Mrs. Falconer's parlour, Robert dragging

in Shargar after him, having failed altogether in encouraging him to

enter after a more dignified fashion.

It must be remembered that although Shargar was still kilted, he was

not the less trowsered, such as the trowsers were. It makes my heart

ache to think of those trowsers--not believing trowsers essential to

blessedness either, but knowing the superiority of the old Roman

costume of the kilt.

No sooner had Mrs. Falconer cast her eyes upon him than she could not

but be convinced of the truth of Robert's averment.

'Here he is, grannie; and gin ye bena saitisfeed yet--'

'Haud yer tongue, laddie. Ye hae gi'en me nae cause to doobt yer

word.'

Indeed, during Robert's absence, his grandmother had had leisure to

perceive of what an absurd folly she had been guilty. She had also had

time to make up her mind as to her duty with regard to Shargar; and

the more she thought about it, the more she admired the conduct of her

grandson, and the better she saw that it would be right to follow his

example. No doubt she was the more inclined to this benevolence that

she had as it were received her grandson back from the jaws of death.

When the two lads entered, from her arm-chair Mrs. Falconer examined

Shargar from head to foot with the eye of a queen on her throne, and a

countenance immovable in stern gentleness, till Shargar would gladly

have sunk into the shelter of the voluminous kilt from the gaze of

those quiet hazel eyes.

At length she spoke:

'Robert, tak him awa'.'

'Whaur'll I tak him till, grannie?'

'Tak him up to the garret. Betty 'ill ha' ta'en a tub o' het water up

there 'gen this time, and ye maun see that he washes himsel' frae heid

to fut, or he s' no bide an 'oor i' my hoose. Gang awa' an' see till

't this minute.'

But she detained them yet awhile with various directions in regard of

cleansing, for the carrying out of which Robert was only too glad to

give his word. She dismissed them at last, and Shargar by and by found

himself in bed, clean, and, for the first time in his life, between a

pair of linen sheets--not altogether to his satisfaction, for mere

order and comfort were substituted for adventure and success.

But greater trials awaited him. In the morning he was visited by

Brodie, the tailor, and Elshender, the shoemaker, both of whom he held

in awe as his superiors in the social scale, and by them handled and

measured from head to feet, the latter included; after which he had to

lie in bed for three days, till his clothes came home; for Betty had

carefully committed every article of his former dress to the kitchen

fire, not without a sense of pollution to the bottom of her kettle.

Nor would he have got them for double the time, had not Robert haunted

the tailor, as well as the soutar, like an evil conscience, till they

had finished them. Thus grievous was Shargar's introduction to the

comforts of respectability. Nor did he like it much better when he was

dressed, and able to go about; for not only was he uncomfortable in

his new clothes, which, after the very easy fit of the old ones, felt

like a suit of plate-armour, but he was liable to be sent for at any

moment by the awful sovereignty in whose dominions he found himself,

and which, of course, proceeded to instruct him not merely in his own

religious duties, but in the religious theories of his ancestors, if,

indeed, Shargar's ancestors ever had any. And now the Shorter

Catechism seemed likely to be changed into the Longer Catechism; for

he had it Sundays as we'll as Saturdays, besides Alleine's Alarm to

the Unconverted, Baxter's Saint's Rest, Erskine's Gospel Sonnets, and

other books of a like kind. Nor was it any relief to Shargar that the

gloom was broken by the incomparable Pilgrim's Progress and the Holy

War, for he cared for none of these things. Indeed, so dreary did he

find it all, that his love to Robert was never put to such a severe

test. But for that, he would have run for it. Twenty times a day was

he so tempted.

At school, though it was better, yet it was bad. For he was ten times

as much laughed at for his new clothes, though they were of the

plainest, as he had been for his old rags. Still he bore all the pangs

of unwelcome advancement without a grumble, for the sake of his friend

alone, whose dog he remained as much as ever. But his past life of

cold and neglect, and hunger and blows, and homelessness and rags,

began to glimmer as in the distance of a vaporous sunset, and the

loveless freedom he had then enjoyed gave it a bloom as of

summer-roses.

I wonder whether there may not have been in some unknown corner of the

old lady's mind this lingering remnant of paganism, that, in

reclaiming the outcast from the error of his ways, she was making an

offering acceptable to that God whom her mere prayers could not move

to look with favour upon her prodigal son Andrew. Nor from her own

acknowledged religious belief as a background would it have stuck so

fiery off either. Indeed, it might have been a partial corrective of

some yet more dreadful articles of her creed,--which she held, be it

remembered, because she could not help it.

CHAPTER XI.

PRIVATE INTERVIEWS.

THE winter passed slowly away. Robert and Shargar went to school

together, and learned their lessons together at Mrs. Falconer's table.

Shargar soon learned to behave with tolerable propriety; was obedient,

as far as eye-service went; looked as queer as ever; did what he

pleased, which was nowise very wicked, the moment he was out of the

old lady's sight; was well fed and well cared for; and when he was

asked how he was, gave the invariable answer: 'Middlin'.' He was not

very happy.

There was little communication in words between the two boys, for the

one had not much to say, and the pondering fits of the other grew

rather than relaxed in frequency and intensity. Yet amongst chance

acquaintances in the town Robert had the character of a wag, of which

he was totally unaware himself. Indeed, although he had more than the

ordinary share of humour, I suspect it was not so much his fun as his

earnest that got him the character; for he would say such altogether

unheard-of and strange things, that the only way they were capable of

accounting for him was as a humorist.

'Eh!' he said once to Elshender, during a pause common to a

thunder-storm and a lesson on the violin 'eh! wadna ye like to be up

in that clood wi' a spaud, turnin' ower the divots and catchin' the

flashes lyin' aneath them like lang reid fiery worms?'

'Ay, man, but gin ye luik up to the cloods that gait, ye'll never be

muckle o' a fiddler.'

This was merely an outbreak of that insolence of advice so often shown

to the young from no vantage-ground but that of age and faithlessness,

reminding one of the 'jigging fool' who interfered between Brutus and

Cassius on the sole ground that he had seen more years than they. As

if ever a fiddler that did not look up to the clouds would be anything

but a catgut-scraper! Even Elshender's fiddle was the one angel that

held back the heavy curtain of his gross nature, and let the sky shine

through. He ought to have been set fiddling every Sunday morning, and

from his fiddling dragged straight to church. It was the only thing

man could have done for his conversion, for then his heart was open,

But I fear the prayers would have closed it before the sermon came. He

should rather have been compelled to take his fiddle to church with

him, and have a gentle scrape at it in the pauses of the service; only

there are no such pauses in the service, alas! And Dooble Sanny,

though not too religious to get drunk occasionally, was a great deal

too religious to play his fiddle on the Sabbath: he would not

willingly anger the powers above; but it was sometimes a sore

temptation, especially after he got possession of old Mr. Falconer's

wonderful instrument.

'Hoots, man!' he would say to Robert; 'dinna han'le, her as gin she

war an egg-box. Tak haud o' her as gin she war a leevin' crater. Ye

maun jist straik her canny, an' wile the music oot o' her; for she's

like ither women: gin ye be rouch wi' her, ye winna get a word oot o'

her. An' dinna han'le her that gait. She canna bide to be contred an'

pu'd this gait and that gait.--Come to me, my bonny leddy. Ye'll tell

me yer story, winna ye, my dauty (pet)?'

And with every gesture as if he were humouring a shy and invalid girl,

he would, as he said, wile the music out of her in sobs and wailing,

till the instrument, gathering courage in his embrace, grew gently

merry in its confidence, and broke at last into airy laughter. He

always spoke, and apparently thought, of his violin as a woman, just

as a sailor does of his craft. But there was nothing about him, except

his love for music and its instruments, to suggest other than a most

uncivilized nature. That which was fine in him was constantly checked

and held down by the gross; the merely animal overpowered the

spiritual; and it was only upon occasion that his heavenly companion,

the violin, could raise him a few feet above the mire and the clay.

She never succeeded in setting his feet on a rock; while, on the

contrary, he often dragged her with him into the mire of questionable

company and circumstances. Worthy Mr. Falconer would have been

horrified to see his umquhile modest companion in such society as that

into which she was now introduced at times. But nevertheless the

soutar was a good and patient teacher; and although it took Robert

rather more than a fortnight to redeem his pledge to Shargar, he did

make progress. It could not, however, be rapid, seeing that an hour at

a time, two evenings in the week, was all that he could give to the

violin. Even with this moderation, the risk of his absence exciting

his grandmother's suspicion and inquiry was far from small.

And now, were those really faded old memories of his grandfather and

his merry kindness, all so different from the solemn benevolence of

his grandmother, which seemed to revive in his bosom with the

revivification of the violin? The instrument had surely laid up a

story in its hollow breast, had been dreaming over it all the time it

lay hidden away in the closet, and was now telling out its dreams

about the old times in the ear of the listening boy. To him also it

began to assume something of that mystery and life which had such a

softening, and, for the moment at least, elevating influence on his

master.

At length the love of the violin had grown upon him so, that he could

not but cast about how he might enjoy more of its company. It would

not do, for many reasons, to go oftener to the shoemaker's, especially

now that the days were getting longer. Nor was that what he wanted. He

wanted opportunity for practice. He wanted to be alone with the

creature, to see if she would not say something more to him than she

had ever said yet. Wafts and odours of melodies began to steal upon

him ere he was aware in the half lights between sleeping and waking:

if he could only entice them to creep out of the violin, and once

'bless his humble ears' with the bodily hearing of them! Perhaps he

might--who could tell? But how? But where?

There was a building in Rothieden not old, yet so deserted that its

very history seemed to have come to a standstill, and the dust that

filled it to have fallen from the plumes of passing centuries. It was

the property of Mrs. Falconer, left her by her husband. Trade had

gradually ebbed away from the town till the thread-factory stood

unoccupied, with all its machinery rusting and mouldering, just as the

work-people had risen and left it one hot, midsummer day, when they

were told that their services were no longer required. Some of the

thread even remained upon the spools, and in the hollows of some of

the sockets the oil had as yet dried only into a paste; although to

Robert the desertion of the place appeared immemorial. It stood at a

furlong's distance from the house, on the outskirt of the town. There

was a large, neglected garden behind it, with some good fruit-trees,

and plenty of the bushes which boys love for the sake of their

berries. After grannie's jam-pots were properly filled, the remnant of

these, a gleaning far greater than the gathering, was at the disposal

of Robert, and, philosopher although in some measure he was already,

he appreciated the privilege. Haunting this garden in the previous

summer, he had for the first time made acquaintance with the interior

of the deserted factory. The door to the road was always kept locked,

and the key of it lay in one of grannie's drawers; but he had then

discovered a back entrance less securely fastened, and with a strange

mingling of fear and curiosity had from time to time extended his

rambles over what seemed to him the huge desolation of the place. Half

of it was well built of stone and lime, but of the other half the

upper part was built of wood, which now showed signs of considerable

decay. One room opened into another through the length of the place,

revealing a vista of machines, standing with an air of the last

folding of the wings of silence over them, and the sense of a deeper

and deeper sinking into the soundless abyss. But their activity was

not so far vanished but that by degrees Robert came to fancy that he

had some time or other seen a woman seated at each of those silent

powers, whose single hand set the whole frame in motion, with its

numberless spindles and spools rapidly revolving--a vague mystery of

endless threads in orderly complication, out of which came some

desired, to him unknown, result, so that the whole place was full of a

bewildering tumult of work, every little reel contributing its share,

as the water-drops clashing together make the roar of a tempest. Now

all was still as the church on a week-day, still as the school on a

Saturday afternoon. Nay, the silence seemed to have settled down like

the dust, and grown old and thick, so dead and old that the ghost of

the ancient noise had arisen to haunt the place.

Thither would Robert carry his violin, and there would he woo her.

'I'm thinkin' I maun tak her wi' me the nicht, Sanders,' he said,

holding the fiddle lovingly to his bosom, after he had finished his

next lesson.

The shoemaker looked blank.

'Ye're no gaein' to desert me, are ye?'

'Na, weel I wat!' returned Robert. 'But I want to try her at hame. I

maun get used till her a bittie, ye ken, afore I can du onything wi'

her.'

'I wiss ye had na brought her here ava. What I am to du wantin' her!'

'What for dinna ye get yer ain back?'

'I haena the siller, man. And, forbye, I doobt I wadna be that sair

content wi' her noo gin I had her. I used to think her gran'. But I'm

clean oot o' conceit o' her. That bonnie leddy's ta'en 't clean oot o'

me.'

'But ye canna hae her aye, ye ken, Sanders. She's no mine. She's my

grannie's, ye ken.'

'What's the use o' her to her? She pits nae vailue upon her. Eh, man,

gin she wad gie her to me, I wad haud her i' the best o' shune a' the

lave o' her days.'

'That wadna be muckle, Sanders, for she hasna had a new pair sin' ever

I mind.'

'But I wad haud Betty in shune as weel.'

'Betty pays for her ain shune, I reckon.'

'Weel, I wad haud you in shune, and yer bairns, and yer bairns'

bairns,' cried the soutar, with enthusiasm.

'Hoot, toot, man! Lang or that ye'll be fiddlin' i' the new

Jeroozlem.'

'Eh, man!' said Alexander, looking up--he had just cracked the

roset-ends off his hands, for he had the upper leather of a boot in

the grasp of the clams, and his right hand hung arrested on its blind

way to the awl--'duv ye think there'll be fiddles there? I thocht they

war a' hairps, a thing 'at I never saw, but it canna be up till a

fiddle.'

'I dinna ken,' answered Robert; 'but ye suld mak a pint o' seein' for

yersel'.'

'Gin I thoucht there wad be fiddles there, faith I wad hae a try. It

wadna be muckle o' a Jeroozlem to me wantin' my fiddle. But gin there

be fiddles, I daursay they'll be gran' anes. I daursay they wad gi' me

a new ane--I mean ane as auld as Noah's 'at he played i' the ark whan

the de'il cam' in by to hearken. I wad fain hae a try. Ye ken a' aboot

it wi' that grannie o' yours: hoo's a body to begin?'

'By giein' up the drink, man.'

'Ay--ay--ay--I reckon ye're richt. Weel, I'll think aboot it whan ance

I'm throu wi' this job. That'll be neist ook, or thereabouts, or

aiblins twa days efter. I'll hae some leiser than.'

Before he had finished speaking he had caught up his awl and begun to

work vigorously, boring his holes as if the nerves of feeling were

continued to the point of the tool, inserting the bristles that served

him for needles with a delicacy worthy of soft-skinned fingers,

drawing through the rosined threads with a whisk, and untwining them

with a crack from the leather that guarded his hands.

'Gude nicht to ye,' said Robert, with the fiddle-case under his arm.

The shoemaker looked up, with his hands bound in his threads.

'Ye're no gaein' to tak her frae me the nicht?'

'Ay am I, but I'll fess her back again. I'm no gaein' to Jericho wi'

her.'

'Gang to Hecklebirnie wi' her, and that's three mile ayont hell.'

'Na; we maun win farther nor that. There canna, be muckle fiddlin'

there.'

'Weel, tak her to the new Jeroozlem. I s' gang doon to Lucky Leary's,

and fill mysel' roarin' fou, an' it'll be a' your wyte (blame).'

'I doobt ye'll get the straiks (blows) though. Or maybe ye think Bell

'ill tak them for ye.'

Dooble Sanny caught up a huge boot, the sole of which was filled with

broad-headed nails as thick as they could be driven, and, in a rage,

threw it at Robert as he darted out. Through its clang against the

door-cheek, the shoemaker heard a cry from the instrument. He cast

everything from him and sprang after Robert. But Robert was down the

wynd like a long-legged grayhound, and Elshender could only follow

like a fierce mastiff. It was love and grief, though, and apprehension

and remorse, not vengeance, that winged his heels. He soon saw that

pursuit was vain.

'Robert! Robert!' he cried; 'I canna win up wi' ye. Stop, for God's

sake! Is she hurtit?'

Robert stopped at once.

'Ye hae made a bonny leddy o' her--a lameter (cripple) I doobt, like

yer wife,' he answered, with indignation.

'Dinna be aye flingin' a man's fau'ts in 's face. It jist maks him 'at

he canna, bide himsel' or you eyther. Lat's see the bonny crater.'

Robert complied, for he too was anxious. They were now standing in the

space in front of Shargar's old abode, and there was no one to be

seen. Elshender took the box, opened it carefully, and peeped in with

a face of great apprehension.

'I thocht that was a'!' he said with some satisfaction. 'I kent the

string whan I heard it. But we'll sune get a new thairm till her,' he

added, in a tone of sorrowful commiseration and condolence, as he took

the violin from the case, tenderly as if it had been a hurt child.

One touch of the bow, drawing out a goul of grief, satisfied him that

she was uninjured. Next a hurried inspection showed him that there was

enough of the catgut twisted round the peg to make up for the part

that was broken off. In a moment he had fastened it to the tail-piece,

tightened and tuned it. Forthwith he took the bow from the case-lid,

and in jubilant guise he expatiated upon the wrong he had done his

bonny leddy, till the doors and windows around were crowded with heads

peering through the dark to see whence the sounds came, and a little

child toddled across from one of the lowliest houses with a ha'penny

for the fiddler. Gladly would Robert have restored it with interest,

but, alas! there was no interest in his bank, for not a ha'penny had

he in the world. The incident recalled Sandy to Rothieden and its

cares. He restored the violin to its case, and while Robert was

fearing he would take it under his arm and walk away with it, handed

it back with a humble sigh and a 'Praise be thankit;' then, without

another word, turned and went to his lonely stool and home

'untreasured of its mistress.' Robert went home too, and stole like a

thief to his room.

The next day was a Saturday, which, indeed, was the real old Sabbath,

or at least the half of it, to the schoolboys of Rothieden. Even

Robert's grannie was Jew enough, or rather Christian enough, to

respect this remnant of the fourth commandment--divine antidote to the

rest of the godless money-making and soul-saving week--and he had the

half-day to himself. So as soon as he had had his dinner, he managed

to give Shargar the slip, left him to the inroads of a desolate

despondency, and stole away to the old factory-garden. The key of that

he had managed to purloin from the kitchen where it hung; nor was

there much danger of its absence being discovered, seeing that in

winter no one thought of the garden. The smuggling of the violin out

of the house was the 'dearest danger'--the more so that he would not

run the risk of carrying her out unprotected, and it was altogether a

bulky venture with the case. But by spying and speeding he managed it,

and soon found himself safe within the high walls of the garden.

It was early spring. There had been a heavy fall of sleet in the

morning, and now the wind blew gustfully about the place. The

neglected trees shook showers upon him as he passed under them,

trampling down the rank growth of the grass-walks. The long twigs of

the wall-trees, which had never been nailed up, or had been torn down

by the snow and the blasts of winter, went trailing away in the moan

of the fitful wind, and swung back as it sunk to a sigh. The currant

and gooseberry bushes, bare and leafless, and 'shivering all for

cold,' neither reminded him of the feasts of the past summer, nor gave

him any hope for the next. He strode careless through it all to gain

the door at the bottom. It yielded to a push, and the long grass

streamed in over the threshold as he entered. He mounted by a broad

stair in the main part of the house, passing the silent clock in one

of its corners, now expiating in motionlessness the false accusations

it had brought against the work-people, and turned into the chaos of

machinery.

I fear that my readers will expect, from the minuteness with which I

recount these particulars, that, after all, I am going to describe a

rendezvous with a lady, or a ghost at least. I will not plead in

excuse that I, too, have been infected with Sandy's mode of regarding

her, but I plead that in the mind of Robert the proceeding was

involved in something of that awe and mystery with which a youth

approaches the woman he loves. He had not yet arrived at the period

when the feminine assumes its paramount influence, combining in itself

all that music, colour, form, odour, can suggest, with something

infinitely higher and more divine; but he had begun to be haunted with

some vague aspirations towards the infinite, of which his attempts on

the violin were the outcome. And now that he was to be alone, for the

first time, with this wonderful realizer of dreams and awakener of

visions, to do with her as he would, to hint by gentle touches at the

thoughts that were fluttering in his soul, and listen for her voice

that by the echoes in which she strove to respond he might know that

she understood him, it was no wonder if he felt an ethereal foretaste

of the expectation that haunts the approach of souls.

But I am not even going to describe his first tÃªte-Ã -tÃªte with his

violin. Perhaps he returned from it somewhat disappointed. Probably he

found her coy, unready to acknowledge his demands on her attention.

But not the less willingly did he return with her to the solitude of

the ruinous factory. On every safe occasion, becoming more and more

frequent as the days grew longer, he repaired thither, and every time

returned more capable of drawing the coherence of melody from that

matrix of sweet sounds.

At length the people about began to say that the factory was haunted;

that the ghost of old Mr. Falconer, unable to repose while neglect was

ruining the precious results of his industry, visited the place night

after night, and solaced his disappointment by renewing on his

favourite violin strains not yet forgotten by him in his grave, and

remembered well by those who had been in his service, not a few of

whom lived in the neighbourhood of the forsaken building.

One gusty afternoon, like the first, but late in the spring, Robert

repaired as usual to this his secret haunt. He had played for some

time, and now, from a sudden pause of impulse, had ceased, and begun

to look around him. The only light came from two long pale cracks in

the rain-clouds of the west. The wind was blowing through the broken

windows, which stretched away on either hand. A dreary, windy gloom,

therefore, pervaded the desolate place; and in the dusk, and their

settled order, the machines looked multitudinous. An eerie sense of

discomfort came over him as he gazed, and he lifted his violin to

dispel the strange unpleasant feeling that grew upon him. But at the

first long stroke across the strings, an awful sound arose in the

further room; a sound that made him all but drop the bow, and cling to

his violin. It went on. It was the old, all but forgotten whirr of

bobbins, mingled with the gentle groans of the revolving horizontal

wheel, but magnified in the silence of the place, and the echoing

imagination of the boy, into something preternaturally awful. Yielding

for a moment to the growth of goose-skin, and the insurrection of

hair, he recovered himself by a violent effort, and walked to the door

that connected the two compartments. Was it more or less fearful that

the jenny was not going of itself? that the figure of an old woman sat

solemnly turning and turning the hand-wheel? Not without calling in

the jury of his senses, however, would he yield to the special plea of

his imagination, but went nearer, half expecting to find that the

mutch, with its big flapping borders, glimmering white in the gloom

across many a machine, surrounded the face of a skull. But he was soon

satisfied that it was only a blind woman everybody knew--so old that

she had become childish. She had heard the reports of the factory

being haunted, and groping about with her half-withered brain full of

them, had found the garden and the back door open, and had climbed to

the first-floor by a farther stair, well known to her when she used to

work that very machine. She had seated herself instinctively,

according to ancient wont, and had set it in motion once more.

Yielding to an impulse of experiment, Robert began to play again.

Thereupon her disordered ideas broke out in words. And Robert soon

began to feel that it could hardly be more ghastly to look upon a

ghost than to be taken for one.

'Ay, ay, sir,' said the old woman, in a tone of commiseration, 'it

maun be sair to bide. I dinna wonner 'at ye canna lie still. But what

gars ye gang daunerin' aboot this place? It's no yours ony langer. Ye

ken whan fowk's deid, they tyne the grip (loose hold). Ye suld gang

hame to yer wife. She micht say a word to quaiet yer auld banes, for

she's a douce an' a wice woman--the mistress.'

Then followed a pause. There was a horror about the old woman's voice,

already half dissolved by death, in the desolate place, that almost

took from Robert the power of motion. But his violin sent forth an

accidental twang, and that set her going again.

'Ye was aye a douce honest gentleman yersel', an' I dinna wonner ye

canna bide it. But I wad hae thoucht glory micht hae hauden ye in. But

yer ain son! Eh ay! And a braw lad and a bonnie! It's a sod thing he

bude to gang the wrang gait; and it's no wonner, as I say, that ye

lea' the worms to come an' luik efter him. I doobt--I doobt it winna

be to you he'll gang at the lang last. There winna be room for him

aside ye in Awbrahawm's boasom. And syne to behave sae ill to that

winsome wife o' his! I dinna wonner 'at ye maun be up! Eh na! But,

sir, sin ye are up, I wish ye wad speyk to John Thamson no to tak aff

the day 'at I was awa' last ook, for 'deed I was verra unweel, and

bude to keep my bed.'

Robert was beginning to feel uneasy as to how he should get rid of

her, when she rose, and saying, 'Ay, ay, I ken it's sax o'clock,' went

out as she had come in. Robert followed, and saw her safe out of the

garden, but did not return to the factory.

So his father had behaved ill to his mother too!

'But what for hearken to the havers o' a dottled auld wife?' he said

to himself, pondering as he walked home.

Old Janet told a strange story of how she had seen the ghost, and had

had a long talk with him, and of what he said, and of how he groaned

and played the fiddle between. And finding that the report had reached

his grandmother's ears, Robert thought it prudent, much to his

discontent, to intermit his visits to the factory. Mrs. Falconer, of

course, received the rumour with indignant scorn, and peremptorily

refused to allow any examination of the premises.

But how have the violin by him and not hear her speak? One evening the

longing after her voice grow upon him till he could resist it no

longer. He shut the door of his garret-room, and, with Shargar by him,

took her out and began to play softly, gently--oh so softly, so

gently! Shargar was enraptured. Robert went on playing.

Suddenly the door opened, and his grannie stood awfully revealed

before them. Betty had heard the violin, and had flown to the parlour

in the belief that, unable to get any one to heed him at the factory,

the ghost had taken Janet's advice, and come home. But his wife smiled

a smile of contempt, went with Betty to the kitchen--over which

Robert's room lay--heard the sounds, put off her creaking shoes, stole

up-stairs on her soft white lambswool stockings, and caught the pair.

The violin was seized, put in its case, and carried off; and Mrs.

Falconer rejoiced to think she had broken a gin set by Satan for the

unwary feet of her poor Robert. Little she knew the wonder of that

violin--how it had kept the soul of her husband alive! Little she knew

how dangerous it is to shut an open door, with ever so narrow a peep

into the eternal, in the face of a son of Adam! And little she knew

how determinedly and restlessly a nature like Robert's would search

for another, to open one possibly which she might consider ten times

more dangerous than that which she had closed.

When Alexander heard of the affair, he was at first overwhelmed with

the misfortune; but gathering a little heart at last, he set to

'working,' as he said himself, 'like a verra deevil'; and as he was

the best shoemaker in the town, and for the time abstained utterly

from whisky, and all sorts of drink but well-water, he soon managed to

save the money necessary, and redeem the old fiddle. But whether it

was from fancy, or habit, or what, even Robert's inexperienced ear

could not accommodate itself, save under protest, to the instrument

which once his teacher had considered all but perfect; and it needed

the master's finest touch to make its tone other than painful to the

sense of the neophyte.

No one can estimate too highly the value of such a resource to a man

like the shoemaker, or a boy like Robert. Whatever it be that keeps

the finer faculties of the mind awake, wonder alive, and the interest

above mere eating and drinking, money-making and money-saving;

whatever it be that gives gladness, or sorrow, or hope--this, be it

violin, pencil, pen, or, highest of all, the love of woman, is simply

a divine gift of holy influence for the salvation of that being to

whom it comes, for the lifting of him out of the mire and up on the

rock. For it keeps a way open for the entrance of deeper, holier,

grander influences, emanating from the same riches of the Godhead. And

though many have genius that have no grace, they will only be so much

the worse, so much the nearer to the brute, if you take from them that

which corresponds to Dooble Sanny's fiddle.

CHAPTER XII.

ROBERT'S PLAN OF SALVATION.

FOR some time after the loss of his friend, Robert went loitering and

mooning about, quite neglecting the lessons to which he had not, it

must be confessed, paid much attention for many weeks. Even when

seated at his grannie's table, he could do no more than fix his eyes

on his book: to learn was impossible; it was even disgusting to him.

But his was a nature which, foiled in one direction, must, absolutely

helpless against its own vitality, straightway send out its searching

roots in another. Of all forces, that of growth is the one

irresistible, for it is the creating power of God, the law of life and

of being. Therefore no accumulation of refusals, and checks, and

turnings, and forbiddings, from all the good old grannies in the

world, could have prevented Robert from striking root downward, and

bearing fruit upward, though, as in all higher natures, the fruit was

a long way off yet. But his soul was only sad and hungry. He was not

unhappy, for he had been guilty of nothing that weighed on his

conscience. He had been doing many things of late, it is true, without

asking leave of his grandmother, but wherever prayer is felt to be of

no avail, there cannot be the sense of obligation save on compulsion.

Even direct disobedience in such case will generally leave little

soreness, except the thing forbidden should be in its own nature

wrong, and then, indeed, 'Don Worm, the conscience,' may begin to

bite. But Robert felt nothing immoral in playing upon his

grandfather's violin, nor even in taking liberties with a piece of

lumber for which nobody cared but possibly the dead; therefore he was

not unhappy, only much disappointed, very empty, and somewhat gloomy.

There was nothing to look forward to now, no secret full of riches and

endless in hope--in short, no violin.

To feel the full force of his loss, my reader must remember that

around the childhood of Robert, which he was fast leaving behind him,

there had gathered no tenderness--none at least by him recognizable as

such. All the women he came in contact with were his grandmother and

Betty. He had no recollection of having ever been kissed. From the

darkness and negation of such an embryo-existence, his nature had been

unconsciously striving to escape--struggling to get from below ground

into the sunlit air--sighing after a freedom he could not have

defined, the freedom that comes, not of independence, but of love--not

of lawlessness, but of the perfection of law. Of this beauty of life,

with its wonder and its deepness, this unknown glory, his fiddle had

been the type. It had been the ark that held, if not the tables of the

covenant, yet the golden pot of angel's food, and the rod that budded

in death. And now that it was gone, the gloomier aspect of things

began to lay hold upon him; his soul turned itself away from the sun,

and entered into the shadow of the under-world. Like the white-horsed

twins of lake Regillus, like Phoebe, the queen of skyey plain and

earthly forest, every boy and girl, every man and woman, that lives at

all, has to divide many a year between Tartarus and Olympus.

For now arose within him, not without ultimate good, the evil

phantasms of a theology which would explain all God's doings by low

conceptions, low I mean for humanity even, of right, and law, and

justice, then only taking refuge in the fact of the incapacity of the

human understanding when its own inventions are impugned as undivine.

In such a system, hell is invariably the deepest truth, and the love

of God is not so deep as hell. Hence, as foundations must be laid in

the deepest, the system is founded in hell, and the first article in

the creed that Robert Falconer learned was, 'I believe in hell.'

Practically, I mean, it was so; else how should it be that as often as

a thought of religious duty arose in his mind, it appeared in the form

of escaping hell, of fleeing from the wrath to come? For his very

nature was hell, being not born in sin and brought forth in iniquity,

but born sin and brought forth iniquity. And yet God made him. He must

believe that. And he must believe, too, that God was just, awfully

just, punishing with fearful pains those who did not go through a

certain process of mind which it was utterly impossible they should go

through without a help which he would give to some, and withhold from

others, the reason of the difference not being such, to say the least

of it, as to come within the reach of the persons concerned. And this

God they said was love. It was logically absurd, of course, yet, thank

God, they did say that God was love; and many of them succeeded in

believing it, too, and in ordering their ways as if the first article

of their creed had been 'I believe in God'; whence, in truth, we are

bound to say it was the first in power and reality, if not in order;

for what are we to say a man believes, if not what he acts upon? Still

the former article was the one they brought chiefly to bear upon their

children. This mortar, probably they thought, threw the shell

straighter than any of the other field-pieces of the church-militant.

Hence it was even in justification of God himself that a party arose

to say that a man could believe without the help of God at all, and

after believing only began to receive God's help--a heresy all but as

dreary and barren as the former. No one dreamed of saying--at least

such a glad word of prophecy never reached Rothieden--that, while

nobody can do without the help of the Father any more than a new-born

babe could of itself live and grow to a man, yet that in the giving of

that help the very fatherhood of the Father finds its one gladsome

labour; that for that the Lord came; for that the world was made; for

that we were born into it; for that God lives and loves like the most

loving man or woman on earth, only infinitely more, and in other ways

and kinds besides, which we cannot understand; and that therefore to

be a man is the soul of eternal jubilation.

Robert consequently began to take fits of soul-saving, a most rational

exercise, worldly wise and prudent--right too on the principles he had

received, but not in the least Christian in its nature, or even

God-fearing. His imagination began to busy itself in representing the

dire consequences of not entering into the one refuge of faith. He

made many frantic efforts to believe that he believed; took to keeping

the Sabbath very carefully--that is, by going to church three times,

and to Sunday-school as well; by never walking a step save to or from

church; by never saying a word upon any subject unconnected with

religion, chiefly theoretical; by never reading any but religious

books; by never whistling; by never thinking of his lost fiddle, and

so on--all the time feeling that God was ready to pounce upon him if

he failed once; till again and again the intensity of his efforts

utterly defeated their object by destroying for the time the desire to

prosecute them with the power to will them. But through the horrible

vapours of these vain endeavours, which denied God altogether as the

maker of the world, and the former of his soul and heart and brain,

and sought to worship him as a capricious demon, there broke a little

light, a little soothing, soft twilight, from the dim windows of such

literature as came in his way. Besides The Pilgrim's Progress there

were several books which shone moon-like on his darkness, and lifted

something of the weight of that Egyptian gloom off his spirit. One of

these, strange to say, was Defoe's Religious Courtship, and one,

Young's Night Thoughts. But there was another which deserves

particular notice, inasmuch as it did far more than merely interest or

amuse him, raising a deep question in his mind, and one worthy to be

asked. This book was the translation of Klopstock's Messiah, to which

I have already referred. It was not one of his grandmother's books,

but had probably belonged to his father: he had found it in his little

garret-room. But as often as she saw him reading it, she seemed rather

pleased, he thought. As to the book itself, its florid expatiation

could neither offend nor injure a boy like Robert, while its

representation of our Lord was to him a wonderful relief from that

given in the pulpit, and in all the religious books he knew. But the

point for the sake of which I refer to it in particular is this:

Amongst the rebel angels who are of the actors in the story, one of

the principal is a cherub who repents of making his choice with Satan,

mourns over his apostasy, haunts unseen the steps of our Saviour,

wheels lamenting about the cross, and would gladly return to his lost

duties in heaven, if only he might--a doubt which I believe is left

unsolved in the volume, and naturally enough remained unsolved in

Robert's mind:--Would poor Abaddon be forgiven and taken home again?

For although naturally, that is, to judge by his own instincts, there

could be no question of his forgiveness, according to what he had been

taught there could be no question of his perdition. Having no one to

talk to, he divided himself and went to buffets on the subject,

siding, of course, with the better half of himself which supported the

merciful view of the matter; for all his efforts at keeping the

Sabbath, had in his own honest judgment failed so entirely, that he

had no ground for believing himself one of the elect. Had he succeeded

in persuading himself that he was, there is no saying to what lengths

of indifference about others the chosen prig might have advanced by

this time.

He made one attempt to open the subject with Shargar.

'Shargar, what think ye?' he said suddenly, one day. 'Gin a de'il war

to repent, wad God forgie him?'

'There's no sayin' what fowk wad du till ance they're tried,' returned

Shargar, cautiously.

Robert did not care to resume the question with one who so

circumspectly refused to take a metaphysical or a priori view of the

matter.

He made an attempt with his grandmother.

One Sunday, his thoughts, after trying for a time to revolve in due

orbit around the mind of the Rev. Hugh Maccleary, as projected in a

sermon which he had botched up out of a commentary, failed at last and

flew off into what the said gentleman would have pronounced 'very

dangerous speculation, seeing no man is to go beyond what is written

in the Bible, which contains not only the truth, but the whole truth,

and nothing but the truth, for this time and for all future time--both

here and in the world to come.' Some such sentence, at least, was in

his sermon that day, and the preacher no doubt supposed St. Matthew,

not St. Matthew Henry, accountable for its origination. In the Limbo

into which Robert's then spirit flew, it had been sorely exercised

about the substitution of the sufferings of Christ for those which

humanity must else have endured while ages rolled on--mere ripples on

the ocean of eternity.

'Noo, be douce,' said Mrs. Falconer, solemnly, as Robert, a trifle

lighter at heart from the result of his cogitations than usual, sat

down to dinner: he had happened to smile across the table to Shargar.

And he was douce, and smiled no more.

They ate their broth, or, more properly, supped it, with horn spoons,

in absolute silence; after which Mrs. Falconer put a large piece of

meat on the plate of each, with the same formula:

'Hae. Ye s' get nae mair.'

The allowance was ample in the extreme, bearing a relation to her

words similar to that which her practice bore to her theology. A piece

of cheese, because it was the Sabbath, followed, and dinner was over.

When the table had been cleared by Betty, they drew their chairs to

the fire, and Robert had to read to his grandmother, while Shargar sat

listening. He had not read long, however, before he looked up from his

Bible and began the following conversation:--

'Wasna it an ill trick o' Joseph, gran'mither, to put that cup, an' a

siller ane tu, into the mou' o' Benjamin's seck?'

'What for that, laddie? He wanted to gar them come back again, ye

ken.'

'But he needna hae gane aboot it in sic a playactor-like gait. He

needna hae latten them awa' ohn tellt (without telling) them that he

was their brither.'

'They had behaved verra ill till him.'

'He used to clype (tell tales) upo' them, though.'

'Laddie, tak ye care what ye say aboot Joseph, for he was a teep o'

Christ.'

'Hoo was that, gran'mither?'

'They sellt him to the Ishmeleets for siller, as Judas did him.'

'Did he beir the sins o' them 'at sellt him?'

'Ye may say, in a mainner, 'at he did; for he was sair afflickit afore

he wan up to be the King's richt han'; an' syne he keepit a hantle o'

ill aff o' 's brithren.'

'Sae, gran'mither, ither fowk nor Christ micht suffer for the sins o'

their neebors?'

'Ay, laddie, mony a ane has to do that. But no to mak atonement, ye

ken. Naething but the sufferin' o' the spotless cud du that. The Lord

wadna be saitisfeet wi' less nor that. It maun be the innocent to

suffer for the guilty.'

'I unnerstan' that,' said Robert, who had heard it so often that he

had not yet thought of trying to understand it. 'But gin we gang to

the gude place, we'll be a' innocent, willna we, grannie?'

'Ay, that we will--washed spotless, and pure, and clean, and dressed

i' the weddin' garment, and set doon at the table wi' him and wi' his

Father. That's them 'at believes in him, ye ken.'

'Of coorse, grannie.--Weel, ye see, I hae been thinkin' o' a plan for

maist han' toomin' (almost emptying) hell.'

'What's i' the bairn's heid noo? Troth, ye're no blate, meddlin' wi'

sic subjecks, laddie!'

'I didna want to say onything to vex ye, grannie. I s' gang on wi' the

chapter.'

'Ow, say awa'. Ye sanna say muckle 'at's wrang afore I cry haud,' said

Mrs. Falconer, curious to know what had been moving in the boy's mind,

but watching him like a cat, ready to spring upon the first visible

hair of the old Adam.

And Robert, recalling the outbreak of terrible grief which he had

heard on that memorable night, really thought that his project would

bring comfort to a mind burdened with such care, and went on with the

exposition of his plan.

'A' them 'at sits doon to the supper o' the Lamb 'll sit there because

Christ suffert the punishment due to their sins--winna they, grannie?'

'Doobtless, laddie.'

'But it'll he some sair upo' them to sit there aitin' an' drinkin' an'

talkin' awa', an' enjoyin' themsel's, whan ilka noo an' than there'll

come a sough o' wailin' up frae the ill place, an' a smell o' burnin'

ill to bide.'

'What put that i' yer heid, laddie? There's no rizzon to think 'at

hell's sae near haven as a' that. The Lord forbid it!'

'Weel, but, grannie, they'll ken 't a' the same, whether they smell 't

or no. An' I canna help thinkin' that the farrer awa' I thoucht they

war, the waur I wad like to think upo' them. 'Deed it wad be waur.'

'What are ye drivin' at, laddie? I canna unnerstan' ye,' said Mrs.

Falconer, feeling very uncomfortable, and yet curious, almost anxious,

to hear what would come next. 'I trust we winna hae to think muckle--'

But here, I presume, the thought of the added desolation of her Andrew

if she, too, were to forget him, as well as his Father in heaven,

checked the flow of her words. She paused, and Robert took up his

parable and went on, first with yet another question.

'Duv ye think, grannie, that a body wad be allooed to speik a word i'

public, like, there--at the lang table, like, I mean?'

'What for no, gin it was dune wi' moedesty, and for a guid rizzon? But

railly, laddie, I doobt ye're haverin' a'thegither. Ye hard naething

like that, I'm sure, the day, frae Mr. Maccleary.'

'Na, na; he said naething aboot it. But maybe I'll gang and speir at

him, though.'

'What aboot?'

'What I'm gaein' to tell ye, grannie.'

'Weel, tell awa', and hae dune wi' 't. I'm growin' tired o' 't.'

It was something else than tired she was growing.

'Weel, I'm gaein' to try a' that I can to win in there.'

'I houp ye will. Strive and pray. Resist the deevil. Walk in the

licht. Lippen not to yersel', but trust in Christ and his salvation.'

'Ay, ay, grannie.--Weel--'

'Are ye no dune yet?'

'Na. I'm but jist beginnin'.'

'Beginnin', are ye? Humph!'

'Weel, gin I win in there, the verra first nicht I sit doon wi' the

lave o' them, I'm gaein' to rise up an' say--that is, gin the Maister,

at the heid o' the table, disna bid me sit doon--an' say: "Brithers

an' sisters, the haill o' ye, hearken to me for ae minute; an', O

Lord! gin I say wrang, jist tak the speech frae me, and I'll sit doon

dumb an' rebukit. We're a' here by grace and no by merit, save his, as

ye a' ken better nor I can tell ye, for ye hae been langer here nor

me. But it's jist ruggin' an' rivin' at my hert to think o' them 'at's

doon there. Maybe ye can hear them. I canna. Noo, we hae nae merit,

an' they hae nae merit, an' what for are we here and them there? But

we're washed clean and innocent noo; and noo, whan there's no wyte

lying upo' oursel's, it seems to me that we micht beir some o' the

sins o' them 'at hae ower mony. I call upo' ilk ane o' ye 'at has a

frien' or a neebor down yonner, to rise up an' taste nor bite nor sup

mair till we gang up a'thegither to the fut o' the throne, and pray

the Lord to lat's gang and du as the Maister did afore 's, and beir

their griefs, and cairry their sorrows doon in hell there; gin it

maybe that they may repent and get remission o' their sins, an' come

up here wi' us at the lang last, and sit doon wi' 's at this table, a'

throuw the merits o' oor Saviour Jesus Christ, at the heid o' the

table there. Amen."'

Half ashamed of his long speech, half overcome by the feelings

fighting within him, and altogether bewildered, Robert burst out

crying like a baby, and ran out of the room--up to his own place of

meditation, where he threw himself on the floor. Shargar, who had made

neither head nor tail of it all, as he said afterwards, sat staring at

Mrs. Falconer. She rose, and going into Robert's little bedroom,

closed the door, and what she did there is not far to seek.

When she came out, she rang the bell for tea, and sent Shargar to look

for Robert. When he appeared, she was so gentle to him that it woke

quite a new sensation in him. But after tea was over, she said:

'Noo, Robert, lat's hae nae mair o' this. Ye ken as weel 's I du that

them 'at gangs there their doom is fixed, and noething can alter 't.

An' we're not to alloo oor ain fancies to cairry 's ayont the

Scripter. We hae oor ain salvation to work oot wi' fear an' trimlin'.

We hae naething to do wi' what's hidden. Luik ye till 't 'at ye win in

yersel'. That's eneuch for you to min'.--Shargar, ye can gang to the

kirk. Robert's to bide wi' me the nicht.'

Mrs. Falconer very rarely went to church, for she could not hear a

word, and found it irksome.

When Robert and she were alone together,

'Laddie,' she said, 'be ye waure o' judgin' the Almichty. What luiks

to you a' wrang may be a' richt. But it's true eneuch 'at we dinna ken

a'thing; an' he's no deid yet--I dinna believe 'at he is--and he'll

maybe win in yet.'

Here her voice failed her. And Robert had nothing to say now. He had

said all his say before.

'Pray, Robert, pray for yer father, laddie,' she resumed; 'for we hae

muckle rizzon to be anxious aboot 'im. Pray while there's life an'

houp. Gie the Lord no rist. Pray till 'im day an' nicht, as I du, that

he wad lead 'im to see the error o' his ways, an' turn to the Lord,

wha's ready to pardon. Gin yer mother had lived, I wad hae had mair

houp, I confess, for she was a braw leddy and a bonny, and that

sweet-tongued! She cud hae wiled a maukin frae its lair wi' her bonnie

Hielan' speech. I never likit to hear nane o' them speyk the Erse

(Irish, that is, Gaelic), it was aye sae gloggie and baneless; and I

cudna unnerstan' ae word o' 't. Nae mair cud yer father--hoot! yer

gran'father, I mean--though his father cud speyk it weel. But to hear

yer mother--mamma, as ye used to ca' her aye, efter the new

fashion--to hear her speyk English, that was sweet to the ear; for the

braid Scotch she kent as little o' as I do o' the Erse. It was hert's

care aboot him that shortent her days. And a' that'll be laid upo'

him. He'll hae 't a' to beir an' accoont for. Och hone! Och hone! Eh!

Robert, my man, be a guid lad, an' serve the Lord wi' a' yer hert, an'

sowl, an' stren'th, an' min'; for gin ye gang wrang, yer ain father

'll hae to beir naebody kens hoo muckle o' the wyte o' 't, for he's

dune naething to bring ye up i' the way ye suld gang, an' haud ye oot

o' the ill gait. For the sake o' yer puir father, haud ye to the richt

road. It may spare him a pang or twa i' the ill place. Eh, gin the

Lord wad only tak me, and lat him gang!'

Involuntarily and unconsciously the mother's love was adopting the

hope which she had denounced in her grandson. And Robert saw it, but

he was never the man when I knew him to push a victory. He said

nothing. Only a tear or two at the memory of the wayworn man, his

recollection of whose visit I have already recorded, rolled down his

cheeks. He was at such a distance from him!--such an impassable gulf

yawned between them!--that was the grief! Not the gulf of death, nor

the gulf that divides hell from heaven, but the gulf of abjuration by

the good because of his evil ways. His grandmother, herself weeping

fast and silently, with scarce altered countenance, took her

neatly-folded handkerchief from her pocket, and wiped her grandson's

fresh cheeks, then wiped her own withered face; and from that moment

Robert knew that he loved her.

Then followed the Sabbath-evening prayer that she always offered with

the boy, whichever he was, who kept her company. They knelt down

together, side by side, in a certain corner of the room, the same, I

doubt not, in which she knelt at her private devotions, before going

to bed. There she uttered a long extempore prayer, rapid in speech,

full of divinity and Scripture-phrases, but not the less earnest and

simple, for it flowed from a heart of faith. Then Robert had to pray

after her, loud in her ear, that she might hear him thoroughly, so

that he often felt as if he were praying to her, and not to God at

all.

She had begun to teach him to pray so early that the custom reached

beyond the confines of his memory. At first he had had to repeat the

words after her; but soon she made him construct his own utterances,

now and then giving him a suggestion in the form of a petition when he

seemed likely to break down, or putting a phrase into what she

considered more suitable language. But all such assistance she had

given up long ago.

On the present occasion, after she had ended her petitions with those

for Jews and pagans, and especially for the 'Pop' o' Rom',' in whom

with a rare liberality she took the kindest interest, always praying

God to give him a good wife, though she knew perfectly well the

marriage-creed of the priesthood, for her faith in the hearer of

prayer scorned every theory but that in which she had herself been

born and bred, she turned to Robert with the usual 'Noo, Robert!' and

Robert began. But after he had gone on for some time with the ordinary

phrases, he turned all at once into a new track, and instead of

praying in general terms for 'those that would not walk in the right

way,' said,

'O Lord! save my father,' and there paused.

'If it be thy will,' suggested his grandmother.

But Robert continued silent. His grandmother repeated the subjunctive

clause.

'I'm tryin', grandmother,' said Robert, 'but I canna say 't. I daurna

say an if aboot it. It wad be like giein' in till 's damnation. We

maun hae him saved, grannie!'

'Laddie! laddie! haud yer tongue!' said Mrs. Falconer, in a tone of

distressed awe. 'O Lord, forgie 'im. He's young and disna ken better

yet. He canna unnerstan' thy ways, nor, for that maitter, can I

preten' to unnerstan' them mysel'. But thoo art a' licht, and in thee

is no darkness at all. And thy licht comes into oor blin' een, and

mak's them blinner yet. But, O Lord, gin it wad please thee to hear

oor prayer...eh! hoo we wad praise thee! And my Andrew wad praise thee

mair nor ninety and nine o' them 'at need nae repentance.'

A long pause followed. And then the only words that would come were:

'For Christ's sake. Amen.'

When she said that God was light, instead of concluding therefrom that

he could not do the deeds of darkness, she was driven, from a faith in

the teaching of Jonathan Edwards as implicit as that of 'any lay

papist of Loretto,' to doubt whether the deeds of darkness were not

after all deeds of light, or at least to conclude that their character

depended not on their own nature, but on who did them.

They rose from their knees, and Mrs. Falconer sat down by her fire,

with her feet on her little wooden stool, and began, as was her wont

in that household twilight, ere the lamp was lighted, to review her

past life, and follow her lost son through all conditions and

circumstances to her imaginable. And when the world to come arose

before her, clad in all the glories which her fancy, chilled by

education and years, could supply, it was but to vanish in the gloom

of the remembrance of him with whom she dared not hope to share its

blessedness. This at least was how Falconer afterwards interpreted the

sudden changes from gladness to gloom which he saw at such times on

her countenance.

But while such a small portion of the universe of thought was

enlightened by the glowworm lamp of the theories she had been taught,

she was not limited for light to that feeble source. While she walked

on her way, the moon, unseen herself behind the clouds, was

illuminating the whole landscape so gently and evenly, that the

glowworm being the only visible point of radiance, to it she

attributed all the light. But she felt bound to go on believing as she

had been taught; for sometimes the most original mind has the

strongest sense of law upon it, and will, in default of a better, obey

a beggarly one--only till the higher law that swallows it up manifests

itself. Obedience was as essential an element of her creed as of that

of any purest-minded monk; neither being sufficiently impressed with

this: that, while obedience is the law of the kingdom, it is of

considerable importance that that which is obeyed should be in very

truth the will of God. It is one thing, and a good thing, to do for

God's sake that which is not his will: it is another thing, and

altogether a better thing--how much better, no words can tell--to do

for God's sake that which is his will. Mrs. Falconer's submission and

obedience led her to accept as the will of God, lest she should be

guilty of opposition to him, that which it was anything but giving him

honour to accept as such. Therefore her love to God was too like the

love of the slave or the dog; too little like the love of the child,

with whose obedience the Father cannot be satisfied until he cares for

his reason as the highest form of his will. True, the child who most

faithfully desires to know the inward will or reason of the Father,

will be the most ready to obey without it; only for this obedience it

is essential that the apparent command at least be such as he can

suppose attributable to the Father. Of his own self he is bound to

judge what is right, as the Lord said. Had Abraham doubted whether it

was in any case right to slay his son, he would have been justified in

doubting whether God really required it of him, and would have been

bound to delay action until the arrival of more light. True, the will

of God can never be other than good; but I doubt if any man can ever

be sure that a thing is the will of God, save by seeing into its

nature and character, and beholding its goodness. Whatever God does

must be right, but are we sure that we know what he does? That which

men say he does may be very wrong indeed.

This burden she in her turn laid upon Robert--not unkindly, but as

needful for his training towards well-being. Her way with him was

shaped after that which she recognized as God's way with her. 'Speir

nae questons, but gang an' du as ye're tellt.' And it was anything but

a bad lesson for the boy. It was one of the best he could have

had--that of authority. It is a grand thing to obey without asking

questions, so long as there is nothing evil in what is commanded. Only

grannie concealed her reasons without reason; and God makes no

secrets. Hence she seemed more stern and less sympathetic than she

really was.

She sat with her feet on the little wooden stool, and Robert sat

beside her staring into the fire, till they heard the outer door open,

and Shargar and Betty come in from church.

CHAPTER XIII.

ROBERT'S MOTHER.

EARLY on the following morning, while Mrs. Falconer, Robert, and

Shargar were at breakfast, Mr. Lammie came. He had delayed

communicating the intelligence he had received till he should be more

certain of its truth. Older than Andrew, he had been a great friend of

his father, and likewise of some of Mrs. Falconer's own family.

Therefore he was received with a kindly welcome. But there was a cloud

on his brow which in a moment revealed that his errand was not a

pleasant one.

'I haena seen ye for a lang time, Mr. Lammie. Gae butt the hoose,

lads. Or I'm thinkin' it maun be schule-time. Sit ye doon, Mr. Lammie,

and lat's hear yer news.'

'I cam frae Aberdeen last nicht, Mistress Faukner,' he began.

'Ye haena been hame sin' syne?' she rejoined.

'Na. I sleepit at The Boar's Heid.'

'What for did ye that? What gart ye be at that expense, whan ye kent I

had a bed i' the ga'le-room?'

'Weel, ye see, they're auld frien's o' mine, and I like to gang to

them whan I'm i' the gait o' 't.'

'Weel, they're a fine faimily, the Miss Napers. And, I wat, sin' they

maun sell drink, they du 't wi' discretion. That's weel kent.'

Possibly Mr. Lammie, remembering what then occurred, may have thought

the discretion a little in excess of the drink, but he had other

matters to occupy him now. For a few moments both were silent.

'There's been some ill news, they tell me, Mrs. Faukner,' he said at

length, when the silence had grown painful.

'Humph!' returned the old lady, her face becoming stony with the

effort to suppress all emotion. 'Nae aboot Anerew?'

''Deed is 't, mem. An' ill news, I'm sorry to say.'

'Is he ta'en?'

'Ay is he--by a jyler that winna tyne the grup.'

'He's no deid, John Lammie? Dinna say 't.'

'I maun say 't, Mrs. Faukner. I had it frae Dr. Anderson, yer ain

cousin. He hintit at it afore, but his last letter leaves nae room to

doobt upo' the subjeck. I'm unco sorry to be the beirer o' sic ill

news, Mrs. Faukner, but I had nae chice.'

'Ohone! Ohone! the day o' grace is by at last! My puir Anerew!'

exclaimed Mrs. Falconer, and sat dumb thereafter.

Mr. Lammie tried to comfort her with some of the usual comfortless

commonplaces. She neither wept nor replied, but sat with stony face

staring into her lap, till, seeing that she was as one that heareth

not, he rose and left her alone with her grief. A few minutes after he

was gone, she rang the bell, and told Betty in her usual voice to send

Robert to her.

'He's gane to the schule, mem.'

'Rin efter him, an' tell him to come hame.'

When Robert appeared, wondering what his grandmother could want with

him, she said:

'Close the door, Robert. I canna lat ye gang to the schule the day. We

maun lea' him oot noo.'

'Lea' wha oot, grannie?'

'Him, him--Anerew. Yer father, laddie. I think my hert 'll brak.'

'Lea' him oot o' what, grannie? I dinna unnerstan' ye.'

'Lea' him oot o' oor prayers, laddie, and I canna bide it.'

'What for that?'

'He's deid.'

'Are ye sure?'

'Ay, ower sure--ower sure, laddie.'

'Weel, I dinna believe 't.'

'What for that?'

''Cause I winna believe 't. I'm no bund to believe 't, am I?'

'What's the gude o' that? What for no believe 't? Dr. Anderson's sent

hame word o' 't to John Lammie. Och hone! och hone!'

'I tell ye I winna believe 't, grannie, 'cep' God himsel' tells me. As

lang 's I dinna believe 'at he's deid, I can keep him i' my prayers.

I'm no gaein' to lea' him oot, I tell ye, grannie.'

'Weel, laddie, I canna argue wi' ye. I hae nae hert til 't. I doobt I

maun greit! Come awa'.'

She took him by the hand and rose, then let him go again, saying,

'Sneck the door, laddie.'

Robert bolted the door, and his grandmother again taking his hand, led

him to the usual corner. There they knelt down together, and the old

woman's prayer was one great and bitter cry for submission to the

divine will. She rose a little strengthened, if not comforted, saying,

'Ye maun pray yer lane, laddie. But oh be a guid lad, for ye're a'

that I hae left; and gin ye gang wrang tu, ye'll bring doon my gray

hairs wi' sorrow to the grave. They're gray eneuch, and they're near

eneuch to the grave, but gin ye turn oot weel, I'll maybe haud up my

heid a bit yet. But O Anerew! my son! my son! Would God I had died for

thee!'

And the words of her brother in grief, the king of Israel, opened the

floodgates of her heart, and she wept. Robert left her weeping, and

closed the door quietly as if his dead father had been lying in the

room.

He took his way up to his own garret, closed that door too, and sat

down upon the floor, with his back against the empty bedstead.

There were no more castles to build now. It was all very well to say

that he would not believe the news and would pray for his father, but

he did believe them--enough at least to spoil the praying. His

favourite employment, seated there, had hitherto been to imagine how

he would grow a great man, and set out to seek his father, and find

him, and stand by him, and be his son and servant. Oh! to have the man

stroke his head and pat his cheek, and love him! One moment he

imagined himself his indignant defender, the next he would be climbing

on his knee, as if he were still a little child, and laying his head

on his shoulder. For he had had no fondling his life long, and his

heart yearned for it. But all this was gone now. A dreary time lay

before him, with nobody to please, nobody to serve; with nobody to

praise him. Grannie never praised him. She must have thought praise

something wicked. And his father was in misery, for ever and ever!

Only somehow that thought was not quite thinkable. It was more the

vanishing of hope from his own life than a sense of his father's fate

that oppressed him.

He cast his eyes, as in a hungry despair, around the empty room--or,

rather, I should have said, in that faintness which makes food at once

essential and loathsome; for despair has no proper hunger in it. The

room seemed as empty as his life. There was nothing for his eyes to

rest upon but those bundles and bundles of dust-browned papers on the

shelves before him. What were they all about? He understood that they

were his father's: now that he was dead, it would be no sacrilege to

look at them. Nobody cared about them. He would see at least what they

were. It would be something to do in this dreariness.

Bills and receipts, and everything ephemeral--to feel the interest of

which, a man must be a poet indeed--was all that met his view. Bundle

after bundle he tried, with no better success. But as he drew near the

middle of the second shelf, upon which they lay several rows deep, he

saw something dark behind, hurriedly displaced the packets between,

and drew forth a small workbox. His heart beat like that of the prince

in the fairy-tale, when he comes to the door of the Sleeping Beauty.

This at least must have been hers. It was a common little thing,

probably a childish possession, and kept to hold trifles worth more

than they looked to be. He opened it with bated breath. The first

thing he saw was a half-finished reel of cotton--a pirn, he called it.

Beside it was a gold thimble. He lifted the tray. A lovely face in

miniature, with dark hair and blue eyes, lay looking earnestly upward.

At the lid of this coffin those eyes had looked for so many years! The

picture was set all round with pearls in an oval ring. How Robert knew

them to be pearls he could not tell, for he did not know that he had

ever seen any pearls before, but he knew they were pearls, and that

pearls had something to do with the New Jerusalem. But the sadness of

it all at length overpowered him, and he burst out crying. For it was

awfully sad that his mother's portrait should be in his own mother's

box.

He took a bit of red tape off a bundle of the papers, put it through

the eye of the setting, and hung the picture round his neck, inside

his clothes, for grannie must not see it. She would take that away as

she had taken his fiddle. He had a nameless something now for which he

had been longing for years.

Looking again in the box, he found a little bit of paper, discoloured

with antiquity, as it seemed to him, though it was not so old as

himself. Unfolding it he found written upon it a well-known hymn, and

at the bottom of the hymn, the words: 'O Lord! my heart is very

sore.'--The treasure upon Robert's bosom was no longer the symbol of a

mother's love, but of a woman's sadness, which he could not reach to

comfort. In that hour, the boy made a great stride towards manhood.

Doubtless his mother's grief had been the same as grannie's--the fear

that she would lose her husband for ever. The hourly fresh griefs from

neglect and wrong did not occur to him; only the never never more. He

looked no farther, took the portrait from his neck and replaced it

with the paper, put the box back, and walled it up in solitude once

more with the dusty bundles. Then he went down to his grandmother,

sadder and more desolate than ever.

He found her seated in her usual place. Her New Testament, a

large-print octavo, lay on the table beside her unopened; for where

within those boards could she find comfort for a grief like hers? That

it was the will of God might well comfort any suffering of her own,

but would it comfort Andrew? and if there was no comfort for Andrew,

how was Andrew's mother to be comforted?

Yet God had given his first-born to save his brethren: how could he be

pleased that she should dry her tears and be comforted? True, some

awful unknown force of a necessity with which God could not cope came

in to explain it; but this did not make God more kind, for he knew it

all every time he made a man; nor man less sorrowful, for God would

have his very mother forget him, or, worse still, remember him and be

happy.

'Read a chapter till me, laddie,' she said.

Robert opened and read till he came to the words: 'I pray not for the

world.'

'He was o' the world,' said the old woman; 'and gin Christ wadna pray

for him, what for suld I?'

Already, so soon after her son's death, would her theology begin to

harden her heart. The strife which results from believing that the

higher love demands the suppression of the lower, is the most fearful

of all discords, the absolute love slaying love--the house divided

against itself; one moment all given up for the will of Him, the next

the human tenderness rushing back in a flood. Mrs. Falconer burst into

a very agony of weeping. From that day, for many years, the name of

her lost Andrew never passed her lips in the hearing of her grandson,

and certainly in that of no one else.

But in a few weeks she was more cheerful. It is one of the mysteries

of humanity that mothers in her circumstances, and holding her creed,

do regain not merely the faculty of going on with the business of

life, but, in most cases, even cheerfulness. The infinite Truth, the

Love of the universe, supports them beyond their consciousness, coming

to them like sleep from the roots of their being, and having nothing

to do with their opinions or beliefs. And hence spring those

comforting subterfuges of hope to which they all fly. Not being able

to trust the Father entirely, they yet say: 'Who can tell what took

place at the last moment? Who can tell whether God did not please to

grant them saving faith at the eleventh hour?'--that so they might

pass from the very gates of hell, the only place for which their life

had fitted them, into the bosom of love and purity! This God could do

for all: this for the son beloved of his mother perhaps he might do!

O rebellious mother heart! dearer to God than that which beats

laboriously solemn under Genevan gown or Lutheran surplice! if thou

wouldst read by thine own large light, instead of the glimmer from the

phosphorescent brains of theologians, thou mightst even be able to

understand such a simple word as that of the Saviour, when, wishing

his disciples to know that he had a nearer regard for them as his

brethren in holier danger, than those who had not yet partaken of his

light, and therefore praying for them not merely as human beings, but

as the human beings they were, he said to his Father in their hearing:

'I pray not for the world, but for them,'--not for the world now, but

for them--a meaningless utterance, if he never prayed for the world; a

word of small meaning, if it was not his very wont and custom to pray

for the world--for men as men. Lord Christ! not alone from the pains

of hell, or of conscience--not alone from the outer darkness of self

and all that is mean and poor and low, do we fly to thee; but from the

anger that arises within us at the wretched words spoken in thy name,

at the degradation of thee and of thy Father in the mouths of those

that claim especially to have found thee, do we seek thy feet. Pray

thou for them also, for they know not what they do.

CHAPTER XIV.

MARY ST. JOHN.

AFTER this, day followed day in calm, dull progress. Robert did not

care for the games through which his school-fellows forgot the little

they had to forget, and had therefore few in any sense his companions.

So he passed his time out of school in the society of his grandmother

and Shargar, except that spent in the garret, and the few hours a week

occupied by the lessons of the shoemaker. For he went on, though

half-heartedly, with those lessons, given now upon Sandy's redeemed

violin which he called his old wife, and made a little progress even,

as we sometimes do when we least think it.

He took more and more to brooding in the garret; and as more questions

presented themselves for solution, he became more anxious to arrive at

the solution, and more uneasy as he failed in satisfying himself that

he had arrived at it; so that his brain, which needed quiet for the

true formation of its substance, as a cooling liquefaction or an

evaporating solution for the just formation of its crystals, became in

danger of settling into an abnormal arrangement of the cellular

deposits.

I believe that even the new-born infant is, in some of his moods,

already grappling with the deepest metaphysical problems, in forms

infinitely too rudimental for the understanding of the grown

philosopher--as far, in fact, removed from his ken on the one side,

that of intelligential beginning, the germinal subjective, as his

abstrusest speculations are from the final solutions of absolute

entity on the other. If this be the case, it is no wonder that at

Robert's age the deepest questions of his coming manhood should be in

active operation, although so surrounded with the yoke of common

belief and the shell of accredited authority, that the embryo faith,

which in minds like his always takes the form of doubt, could not be

defined any more than its existence could be disproved. I have given a

hint at the tendency of his mind already, in the fact that one of the

most definite inquiries to which he had yet turned his thoughts was,

whether God would have mercy upon a repentant devil. An ordinary

puzzle had been--if his father were to marry again, and it should turn

out after all that his mother was not dead, what was his father to do?

But this was over now. A third was, why, when he came out of church,

sunshine always made him miserable, and he felt better able to be good

when it rained or snowed hard. I might mention the inquiry whether it

was not possible somehow to elude the omniscience of God; but that is

a common question with thoughtful children, and indicates little that

is characteristic of the individual. That he puzzled himself about the

perpetual motion may pass for little likewise; but one thing which is

worth mentioning, for indeed it caused him considerable distress, was,

that in reading the Paradise Lost he could not help sympathizing with

Satan, and feeling--I do not say thinking--that the Almighty was

pompous, scarcely reasonable, and somewhat revengeful.

He was recognized amongst his school-fellows as remarkable for his

love of fair-play; so much so, that he was their constant referee. Add

to this that, notwithstanding his sympathy with Satan, he almost

invariably sided with his master, in regard of any angry reflection or

seditious movement, and even when unjustly punished himself, the

occasional result of a certain backwardness in self-defence, never

showed any resentment--a most improbable statement, I admit, but

nevertheless true--and I think the rest of his character may be left

to the gradual dawn of its historical manifestation.

He had long ere this discovered who the angel was that had appeared to

him at the top of the stair upon that memorable night; but he could

hardly yet say that he had seen her; for, except one dim glimpse he

had had of her at the window as he passed in the street, she had not

appeared to him save in the vision of that night. During the whole

winter she scarcely left the house, partly from the state of her

health, affected by the sudden change to a northern climate, partly

from the attention required by her aunt, to aid in nursing whom she

had left the warmer south. Indeed, it was only to return the visits of

a few of Mrs. Forsyth's chosen, that she had crossed the threshold at

all; and those visits were paid at a time when all such half-grown

inhabitants as Robert were gathered under the leathery wing of Mr.

Innes.

But long before the winter was over, Rothieden had discovered that the

stranger, the English lady, Mary St. John, outlandish, almost

heathenish as her lovely name sounded in its ears, had a power as

altogether strange and new as her name. For she was not only an

admirable performer on the pianoforte, but such a simple enthusiast in

music, that the man must have had no music or little heart in him in

whom her playing did not move all that there was of the deepest.

Occasionally there would be quite a small crowd gathered at night by

the window of Mrs. Forsyth's drawing-room, which was on the

ground-floor, listening to music such as had never before been heard

in Rothieden. More than once, when Robert had not found Sandy

Elshender at home on the lesson-night, and had gone to seek him, he

had discovered him lying in wait, like a fowler, to catch the sweet

sounds that flew from the opened cage of her instrument. He leaned

against the wall with his ear laid over the edge, and as near the

window as he dared to put it, his rough face, gnarled and blotched,

and hirsute with the stubble of neglected beard--his whole ursine face

transfigured by the passage of the sweet sounds through his chaotic

brain, which they swept like the wind of God, when of old it moved on

the face of the waters that clothed the void and formless world.

'Haud yer tongue!' he would say in a hoarse whisper, when Robert

sought to attract his attention; 'haud yer tongue, man, and hearken.

Gin yon bonny leddy 'at yer grannie keeps lockit up i' the aumry war

to tak to the piano, that's jist hoo she wad play. Lord, man! pit yer

sowl i' yer lugs, an' hearken.'

The soutar was all wrong in this; for if old Mr. Falconer's violin had

taken woman-shape, it would have been that of a slight, worn, swarthy

creature, with wild black eyes, great and restless, a voice like a

bird's, and thin fingers that clawed the music out of the wires like

the quills of the old harpsichord; not that of Mary St. John, who was

tall, and could not help being stately, was large and well-fashioned,

as full of repose as Handel's music, with a contralto voice to make

you weep, and eyes that would have seemed but for their maidenliness

to be always ready to fold you in their lucid gray depths.

Robert stared at the soutar, doubting at first whether he had not been

drinking. But the intoxication of music produces such a different

expression from that of drink, that Robert saw at once that if he had

indeed been drinking, at least the music had got above the drink. As

long as the playing went on, Elshender was not to be moved from the

window.

But to many of the people of Rothieden the music did not recommend the

musician; for every sort of music, except the most unmusical of

psalm-singing, was in their minds of a piece with 'dancin' an'

play-actin', an' ither warldly vainities an' abominations.' And

Robert, being as yet more capable of melody than harmony, grudged to

lose a lesson on Sandy's 'auld wife o' a fiddle' for any amount of

Miss St. John's playing.

CHAPTER XV.

ERIC ERICSON.

ONE gusty evening--it was of the last day in March--Robert well

remembered both the date and the day--a bleak wind was driving up the

long street of the town, and Robert was standing looking out of one of

the windows in the gable-room. The evening was closing into night. He

hardly knew how he came to he there, but when he thought about it he

found it was play-Wednesday, and that he had been all the half-holiday

trying one thing after another to interest himself withhal, but in

vain. He knew nothing about east winds; but not the less did this

dreary wind of the dreary March world prove itself upon his soul. For

such a wind has a shadow wind along with it, that blows in the minds

of men. There was nothing genial, no growth in it. It killed, and

killed most dogmatically. But it is an ill wind that blows nobody

good. Even an east wind must bear some blessing on its ugly wings. And

as Robert looked down from the gable, the wind was blowing up the

street before it half-a-dozen footfaring students from Aberdeen, on

their way home at the close of the session, probably to the

farm-labours of the spring.

This was a glad sight, as that of the returning storks in Denmark.

Robert knew where they would put up, sought his cap, and went out. His

grandmother never objected to his going to see Miss Napier; it was in

her house that the weary men would this night rest.

It was not without reason that Lord Rothie had teased his hostess

about receiving foot-passengers, for to such it was her invariable

custom to make some civil excuse, sending Meg or Peggy to show them

over the way to the hostelry next in rank, a proceeding recognized by

the inferior hostess as both just and friendly, for the good woman

never thought of measuring The Star against The Boar's Head. More than

one comical story had been the result of this law of The Boar's Head,

unalterable almost as that of the Medes and Persians. I say almost,

for to one class of the footfaring community the official ice about

the hearts of the three women did thaw, yielding passage to a full

river of hospitality and generosity; and that was the class to which

these wayfarers belonged.

Well may Scotland rejoice in her universities, for whatever may be

said against their system--I have no complaint to make--they are

divine in their freedom: men who follow the plough in the spring and

reap the harvest in the autumn, may, and often do, frequent their

sacred precincts when the winter comes--so fierce, yet so welcome--so

severe, yet so blessed--opening for them the doors to yet harder toil

and yet poorer fare. I fear, however, that of such there will be fewer

and fewer, seeing one class which supplied a portion of them has

almost vanished from the country--that class which was its truest,

simplest, and noblest strength--that class which at one time rendered

it something far other than ridicule to say that Scotland was

pre-eminently a God-fearing nation--I mean the class of cottars.

Of this class were some of the footfaring company. But there were

others of more means than the men of this lowly origin, who either

could not afford to travel by the expensive coaches, or could find

none to accommodate them. Possibly some preferred to walk. However

this may have been, the various groups which at the beginning and

close of the session passed through Rothieden weary and footsore, were

sure of a hearty welcome at The Boar's Head. And much the men needed

it. Some of them would have walked between one and two hundred miles

before completing their journey.

Robert made a circuit, and, fleet of foot, was in Miss Napier's

parlour before the travellers made their appearance on the square.

When they knocked at the door, Miss Letty herself went and opened it.

'Can ye tak 's in, mem?' was on the lips of their spokesman, but Miss

Letty had the first word.

'Come in, come in, gentlemen. This is the first o' ye, and ye're the

mair welcome. It's like seein' the first o' the swallows. An' sic a

day as ye hae had for yer lang traivel!' she went on, leading the way

to her sister's parlour, and followed by all the students, of whom the

one that came hindmost was the most remarkable of the group--at the

same time the most weary and downcast.

Miss Napier gave them a similar welcome, shaking hands with every one

of them. She knew them all but the last. To him she involuntarily

showed a more formal respect, partly from his appearance, and partly

that she had never seen him before. The whisky-bottle was brought out,

and all partook, save still the last. Miss Lizzie went to order their

supper.

'Noo, gentlemen,' said Miss Letty, 'wad ony o' ye like to gang an'

change yer hose, and pit on a pair o' slippers?'

Several declined, saying they would wait until they had had their

supper; the roads had been quite dry, &c., &c. One said he would, and

another said his feet were blistered.

'Hoot awa'!'2 exclaimed Miss Letty.--'Here, Peggy!' she cried, going

to the door; 'tak a pail o' het watter up to the chackit room. Jist ye

gang up, Mr. Cameron, and Peggy 'll see to yer feet.--Noo, sir, will

ye gang to yer room an' mak yersel' comfortable?--jist as gin ye war

at hame, for sae ye are.'

She addressed the stranger thus. He replied in a low indifferent tone,

'No, thank you; I must be off again directly.'

He was from Caithness, and talked no Scotch.

''Deed, sir, ye'll do naething o' the kin'. Here ye s' bide, tho' I

suld lock the door.'

'Come, come, Ericson, none o' your nonsense!' said one of his fellows.

'Ye ken yer feet are sae blistered ye can hardly put ane by the

ither.--It was a' we cud du, mem, to get him alang the last mile.'

'That s' be my business, than,' concluded Miss Letty.

She left the room, and returning in a few minutes, said, as a matter

of course, but with authority,

'Mr. Ericson, ye maun come wi' me.'

Then she hesitated a little. Was it maidenliness in the waning woman

of five-and-forty? It was, I believe; for how can a woman always

remember how old she is? If ever there was a young soul in God's

world, it was Letty Napier. And the young man was tall and stately as

a Scandinavian chief, with a look of command, tempered with patient

endurance, in his eagle face, for he was more like an eagle than any

other creature, and in his countenance signs of suffering. Miss Letty

seeing this, was moved, and her heart swelled, and she grew conscious

and shy, and turning to Robert, said,

'Come up the stair wi' 's, Robert; I may want ye.'

Robert jumped to his feet. His heart too had been yearning towards the

stranger.

As if yielding to the inevitable, Ericson rose and followed Miss

Letty. But when they had reached the room, and the door was shut

behind them, and Miss Letty pointed to a chair beside which stood a

little wooden tub full of hot water, saying, 'Sit ye doon there, Mr.

Ericson,' he drew himself up, all but his graciously-bowed head, and

said,

'Ma'am, I must tell you that I followed the rest in here from the very

stupidity of weariness. I have not a shilling in my pocket.'

'God bless me!' said Miss Letty--and God did bless her, I am sure--'we

maun see to the feet first. What wad ye du wi' a shillin' gin ye had

it? Wad ye clap ane upo' ilka blister?'

Ericson burst out laughing, and sat down. But still he hesitated.

'Aff wi' yer shune, sir. Duv ye think I can wash yer feet throu ben'

leather?' said Miss Letty, not disdaining to advance her fingers to a

shoe-tie.

'But I'm ashamed. My stockings are all in holes.'

'Weel, ye s' get a clean pair to put on the morn, an' I'll darn them

'at ye hae on, gin they be worth darnin', afore ye gang--an' what are

ye sae camstairie (unmanageable) for? A body wad think ye had a clo'en

fit in ilk ane o' thae bits o' shune o' yours. I winna promise to

please yer mither wi' my darnin' though.'

'I have no mother to find fault with it,' said Ericson.

'Weel, a sister's waur.'

'I have no sister, either.'

This was too much for Miss Letty. She could keep up the bravado of

humour no longer. She fairly burst out crying. In a moment more the

shoes and stockings were off, and the blisters in the hot water. Miss

Letty's tears dropped into the tub, and the salt in them did not hurt

the feet with which she busied herself, more than was necessary, to

hide them.

But no sooner had she recovered herself than she resumed her former

tone.

'A shillin'! said ye? An' a' thae greedy gleds (kites) o' professors

to pay, that live upo' the verra blude and banes o' sair-vroucht

students! Hoo cud ye hae a shillin' ower? Troth, it's nae wonner ye

haena ane left. An' a' the merchan's there jist leevin' upo' ye! Lord

hae a care o' 's! sic bonnie feet!--Wi' blisters I mean. I never saw

sic a sicht o' raw puddin's in my life. Ye're no fit to come doon the

stair again.'

All the time she was tenderly washing and bathing the weary feet. When

she had dressed them and tied them up, she took the tub of water and

carried it away, but turned at the door.

'Ye'll jist mak up yer min' to bide a twa three days,' she said; 'for

thae feet cudna bide to be carried, no to say to carry a weicht like

you. There's naebody to luik for ye, ye ken. An' ye're no to come doon

the nicht. I'll sen' up yer supper. And Robert there 'll bide and keep

ye company.'

She vanished; and a moment after, Peggy appeared with a

salamander--that is a huge poker, ending not in a point, but a red-hot

ace of spades--which she thrust between the bars of the grate, into

the heart of a nest of brushwood. Presently a cheerful fire

illuminated the room.

Ericson was seated on one chair, with his feet on another, his head

sunk on his bosom, and his eyes thinking. There was something about

him almost as powerfully attractive to Robert as it had been to Miss

Letty. So he sat gazing at him, and longing for a chance of doing

something for him. He had reverence already, and some love, but he had

never felt at all as he felt towards this man. Nor was it as the

Chinese puzzlers called Scotch metaphysicians, might have represented

it--a combination of love and reverence. It was the recognition of the

eternal brotherhood between him and one nobler than himself--hence a

lovely eager worship.

Seeing Ericson look about him as if he wanted something, Robert

started to his feet.

'Is there onything ye want, Mr. Ericson?' he said, with service

standing in his eyes.

'A small bundle I think I brought up with me,' replied the youth.

It was not there. Robert rushed down-stairs, and returned with it--a

nightshirt and a hairbrush or so, tied up in a blue cotton

handkerchief. This was all that Robert was able to do for Ericson that

evening.

He went home and dreamed about him. He called at The Boar's Head the

next morning before going to school, but Ericson was not yet up. When

he called again as soon as morning school was over, he found that they

had persuaded him to keep his bed, but Miss Letty took him up to his

room. He looked better, was pleased to see Robert, and spoke to him

kindly. Twice yet Robert called to inquire after him that day, and

once more he saw him, for he took his tea up to him.

The next day Ericson was much better, received Robert with a smile,

and went out with him for a stroll, for all his companions were gone,

and of some students who had arrived since he did not know any. Robert

took him to his grandmother, who received him with stately kindness.

Then they went out again, and passed the windows of Captain Forsyth's

house. Mary St. John was playing. They stood for a moment, almost

involuntarily, to listen. She ceased.

'That's the music of the spheres,' said Ericson, in a low voice, as

they moved on.

'Will you tell me what that means?' asked Robert. 'I've come upon 't

ower an' ower in Milton.'

Thereupon Ericson explained to him what Pythagoras had taught about

the stars moving in their great orbits with sounds of awful harmony,

too grandly loud for the human organ to vibrate in response to their

music--hence unheard of men. And Ericson spoke as if he believed it.

But after he had spoken, his face grew sadder than ever; and, as if to

change the subject, he said, abruptly,

'What a fine old lady your grandmother is, Robert!'

'Is she?' returned Robert.

'I don't mean to say she's like Miss Letty,' said Ericson. 'She's an

angel!'

A long pause followed. Robert's thoughts went roaming in their usual

haunts.

'Do you think, Mr. Ericson,' he said, at length, taking up the old

question still floating unanswered in his mind, 'do you think if a

devil was to repent God would forgive him?'

Ericson turned and looked at him. Their eyes met. The youth wondered

at the boy. He had recognized in him a younger brother, one who had

begun to ask questions, calling them out into the deaf and dumb abyss

of the universe.

'If God was as good as I would like him to be, the devils themselves

would repent,' he said, turning away.

Then he turned again, and looking down upon Robert like a sorrowful

eagle from a crag over its harried nest, said,

'If I only knew that God was as good as--that woman, I should die

content.'

Robert heard words of blasphemy from the mouth of an angel, but his

respect for Ericson compelled a reply.

'What woman, Mr. Ericson?' he asked.

'I mean Miss Letty, of course.'

'But surely ye dinna think God's nae as guid as she is? Surely he's as

good as he can be. He is good, ye ken.'

'Oh, yes. They say so. And then they tell you something about him that

isn't good, and go on calling him good all the same. But calling

anybody good doesn't make him good, you know.'

'Then ye dinna believe 'at God is good, Mr. Ericson?' said Robert,

choking with a strange mingling of horror and hope.

'I didn't say that, my boy. But to know that God was good, and fair,

and kind--heartily, I mean, not half-ways, and with ifs and buts--my

boy, there would be nothing left to be miserable about.'

In a momentary flash of thought, Robert wondered whether this might

not be his old friend, the repentant angel, sent to earth as a man,

that he might have a share in the redemption, and work out his own

salvation. And from this very moment the thoughts about God that had

hitherto been moving in formless solution in his mind began slowly to

crystallize.

The next day, Eric Ericson, not without a piece in ae pouch and money

in another, took his way home, if home it could be called where

neither father, mother, brother, nor sister awaited his return. For a

season Robert saw him no more.

As often as his name was mentioned, Miss Letty's eyes would grow hazy,

and as often she would make some comical remark.

'Puir fallow!' she would say, 'he was ower lang-leggit for this

warld.'

Or again:

'Ay, he was a braw chield. But he canna live. His feet's ower sma'.'

Or yet again:

'Saw ye ever sic a gowk, to mak sic a wark aboot sittin' doon an'

haein' his feet washed, as gin that cost a body onything!'

CHAPTER XVI.

MR. LAMMIE'S FARM.

ONE of the first warm mornings in the beginning of summer, the boy

woke early, and lay awake, as was his custom, thinking. The sun, in

all the indescribable purity of its morning light, had kindled a spot

of brilliance just about where his grannie's head must be lying asleep

in its sad thoughts, on the opposite side of the partition.

He lay looking at the light. There came a gentle tapping at his

window. A long streamer of honeysuckle, not yet in blossom, but alive

with the life of the summer, was blown by the air of the morning

against his window-pane, as if calling him to get up and look out. He

did get up and look out.

But he started back in such haste that he fell against the side of his

bed. Within a few yards of his window, bending over a bush, was the

loveliest face he had ever seen--the only face, in fact, he had ever

yet felt to be beautiful. For the window looked directly into the

garden of the next house: its honeysuckle tapped at his window, its

sweet-peas grew against his window-sill. It was the face of the angel

of that night; but how different when illuminated by the morning sun

from then, when lighted up by a chamber-candle! The first thought that

came to him was the half-ludicrous, all-fantastic idea of the

shoemaker about his grandfather's violin being a woman. A vaguest

dream-vision of her having escaped from his grandmother's aumrie

(store-closet), and wandering free amidst the wind and among the

flowers, crossed his mind before he had recovered sufficiently from

his surprise to prevent Fancy from cutting any more of those too

ridiculous capers in which she indulged at will in sleep, and as often

besides as she can get away from the spectacles of old Grannie

Judgment.

But the music of her revelation was not that of the violin; and Robert

vaguely felt this, though he searched no further for a fitting

instrument to represent her. If he had heard the organ indeed!--but he

knew no instrument save the violin: the piano he had only heard

through the window. For a few moments her face brooded over the bush,

and her long, finely-modelled fingers travelled about it as if they

were creating a flower upon it--probably they were assisting the birth

or blowing of some beauty--and then she raised herself with a

lingering look, and vanished from the field of the window.

But ever after this, when the evening grew dark, Robert would steal

out of the house, leaving his book open by his grannie's lamp, that

its patient expansion might seem to say, 'He will come back

presently,' and dart round the corner with quick quiet step, to hear

if Miss St. John was playing. If she was not, he would return to the

Sabbath stillness of the parlour, where his grandmother sat meditating

or reading, and Shargar sat brooding over the freedom of the old days

ere Mrs. Falconer had begun to reclaim him. There he would seat

himself once more at his book--to rise again ere another hour had gone

by, and hearken yet again at her window whether the stream might not

be flowing now. If he found her at her instrument he would stand

listening in earnest delight, until the fear of being missed drove him

in: this secret too might be discovered, and this enchantress too

sent, by the decree of his grandmother, into the limbo of vanities.

Thus strangely did his evening life oscillate between the two peaceful

negations of grannie's parlour and the vital gladness of the unknown

lady's window. And skilfully did he manage his retreats and returns,

curtailing his absences with such moderation that, for a long time,

they awoke no suspicion in the mind of his grandmother.

I suspect myself that the old lady thought he had gone to his prayers

in the garret. And I believe she thought that he was praying for his

dead father; with which most papistical, and, therefore, most

unchristian observance, she yet dared not interfere, because she

expected Robert to defend himself triumphantly with the simple

assertion that he did not believe his father was dead. Possibly the

mother was not sorry that her poor son should be prayed for, in case

he might be alive after all, though she could no longer do so

herself--not merely dared not, but persuaded herself that she would

not. Robert, however, was convinced enough, and hopeless enough, by

this time, and had even less temptation to break the twentieth

commandment by praying for the dead, than his grandmother had; for

with all his imaginative outgoings after his father, his love to him

was as yet, compared to that father's mother's, 'as moonlight unto

sunlight, and as water unto wine.'

Shargar would glance up at him with a queer look as he came in from

these excursions, drop his head over his task again, look busy and

miserable, and all would glide on as before.

When the first really summer weather came, Mr. Lammie one day paid

Mrs. Falconer a second visit. He had not been able to get over the

remembrance of the desolation in which he had left her. But he could

do nothing for her, he thought, till it was warm weather. He was

accompanied by his daughter, a woman approaching the further verge of

youth, bulky and florid, and as full of tenderness as her large frame

could hold. After much, and, for a long time, apparently useless

persuasion, they at last believed they had prevailed upon her to pay

them a visit for a fortnight. But she had only retreated within

another of her defences.

'I canna leave thae twa laddies alane. They wad be up to a' mischeef.'

'There's Betty to luik efter them,' suggested Miss Lammie.

'Betty!' returned Mrs. Falconer, with scorn. 'Betty's naething but a

bairn hersel'--muckler and waur faured (worse favoured).'

'But what for shouldna ye fess the lads wi' ye?' suggested Mr. Lammie.

'I hae no richt to burden you wi' them.'

'Weel, I hae aften wonnert what gart ye burden yersel' wi' that

Shargar, as I understan' they ca' him,' said Mr. Lammie.

'Jist naething but a bit o' greed,' returned the old lady, with the

nearest approach to a smile that had shown itself upon her face since

Mr. Lammie's last visit.

'I dinna understan' that, Mistress Faukner,' said Miss Lammie.

'I'm sae sure o' haein' 't back again, ye ken,--wi' interest,'

returned Mrs. Falconer.

'Hoo's that? His father winna con ye ony thanks for haudin' him in

life.'

'He that giveth to the poor lendeth to the Lord, ye ken, Miss Lammie.'

'Atweel, gin ye like to lippen to that bank, nae doobt ae way or

anither it'll gang to yer accoont,' said Miss Lammie.

'It wad ill become us, ony gait,' said her father, 'nae to gie him

shelter for your sake, Mrs. Faukner, no to mention ither names, sin'

it's yer wull to mak the puir lad ane o' the family.--They say his ain

mither's run awa' an' left him.'

''Deed she's dune that.'

'Can ye mak onything o' 'im?'

'He's douce eneuch. An' Robert says he does nae that ill at the

schuil.'

'Weel, jist fess him wi' ye. We'll hae some place or ither to put him

intil, gin it suld be only a shak'-doon upo' the flure.'

'Na, na. There's the schuilin'--what's to be dune wi' that?'

'They can gang i' the mornin', and get their denner wi' Betty here;

and syne come hame to their fower-hoors (four o'clock tea) whan the

schule's ower i' the efternune. 'Deed, mem, ye maun jist come for the

sake o' the auld frien'ship atween the faimilies.'

'Weel, gin it maun be sae, it maun be sae,' yielded Mrs. Falconer,

with a sigh.

She had not left her own house for a single night for ten years. Nor

is it likely she would have now given in, for immovableness was one of

the most marked of her characteristics, had she not been so broken by

mental suffering, that she did not care much about anything, least of

all about herself.

Innumerable were the instructions in propriety of behaviour which she

gave the boys in prospect of this visit. The probability being that

they would behave just as well as at home, these instructions were

considerably unnecessary, for Mrs. Falconer was a strict enforcer of

all social rules. Scarcely less unnecessary were the directions she

gave as to the conduct of Betty, who received them all in erect

submission, with her hands under her apron. She ought to have been a

young girl instead of an elderly woman, if there was any propriety in

the way her mistress spoke to her. It proved at least her own belief

in the description she had given of her to Miss Lammie.

'Noo, Betty, ye maun be dooce. An' dinna stan' at the door i' the

gloamin'. An' dinna stan' claikin' an' jawin' wi' the ither lasses

whan ye gang to the wall for watter. An' whan ye gang intil a chop,

dinna hae them sayin' ahint yer back, as sune's yer oot again, "She's

her ain mistress by way o'," or sic like. An' min' ye hae worship wi'

yersel', whan I'm nae here to hae 't wi' ye. Ye can come benn to the

parlour gin ye like. An' there's my muckle Testament. And dinna gie

the lads a' thing they want. Gie them plenty to ait, but no ower

muckle. Fowk suld aye lea' aff wi' an eppiteet.'

Mr. Lammie brought his gig at last, and took grannie away to

Bodyfauld. When the boys returned from school at the dinner-hour, it

was to exult in a freedom which Robert had never imagined before. But

even he could not know what a relief it was to Shargar to eat without

the awfully calm eyes of Mrs. Falconer watching, as it seemed to him,

the progress of every mouthful down that capacious throat of his. The

old lady would have been shocked to learn how the imagination of the

ill-mothered lad interpreted her care over him, but she would not have

been surprised to know that the two were merry in her absence. She

knew that, in some of her own moods, it would be a relief to think

that that awful eye of God was not upon her. But she little thought

that even in the lawless proceedings about to follow, her Robert, who

now felt such a relief in her absence, would be walking straight on,

though blindly, towards a sunrise of faith, in which he would know

that for the eye of his God to turn away from him for one moment would

be the horror of the outer darkness.

Merriment, however, was not in Robert's thoughts, and still less was

mischief. For the latter, whatever his grandmother might think, he had

no capacity. The world was already too serious, and was soon to be too

beautiful for mischief. After that, it would be too sad, and then,

finally, until death, too solemn glad. The moment he heard of his

grandmother's intended visit, one wild hope and desire and intent had

arisen within him.

When Betty came to the parlour door to lay the cloth for their dinner,

she found it locked.

'Open the door!' she cried, but cried in vain. From impatience she

passed to passion; but it was of no avail: there came no more response

than from the shrine of the deaf Baal. For to the boys it was an

opportunity not at any risk to be lost. Dull Betty never suspected

what they were about. They were ranging the place like two tiger-cats

whose whelps had been carried off in their absence--questing, with

nose to earth and tail in air, for the scent of their enemy. My simile

has carried me too far: it was only a dead old gentleman's violin that

a couple of boys was after--but with what eagerness, and, on the part

of Robert, what alternations of hope and fear! And Shargar was always

the reflex of Robert, so far as Shargar could reflect Robert.

Sometimes Robert would stop, stand still in the middle of the room,

cast a mathematical glance of survey over its cubic contents, and then

dart off in another inwardly suggested direction of search. Shargar,

on the other hand, appeared to rummage blindly without a notion of

casting the illumination of thought upon the field of search. Yet to

him fell the success. When hope was growing dim, after an hour and a

half of vain endeavour, a scream of utter discordance heralded the

resurrection of the lady of harmony. Taught by his experience of his

wild mother's habits to guess at those of douce Mrs. Falconer, Shargar

had found the instrument in her bed at the foot, between the feathers

and the mattress. For one happy moment Shargar was the benefactor, and

Robert the grateful recipient of favour. Nor, I do believe, was this

thread of the still thickening cable that bound them ever forgotten:

broken it could not be.

Robert drew the recovered treasure from its concealment, opened the

case with trembling eagerness, and was stooping, with one hand on the

neck of the violin, and the other on the bow, to lift them from it,

when Shargar stopped him.

His success had given him such dignity, that for once he dared to act

from himself.

'Betty 'll hear ye,' he said.

'What care I for Betty? She daurna tell. I ken hoo to manage her.'

'But wadna 't be better 'at she didna ken?'

'She's sure to fin' oot whan she mak's the bed. She turns 't ower and

ower jist like a muckle tyke (dog) worryin' a rottan (rat).'

'De'il a bit o' her s' be a hair wiser! Ye dinna play tunes upo' the

boxie, man.'

Robert caught at the idea. He lifted the 'bonny leddy' from her

coffin; and while he was absorbed in the contemplation of her risen

beauty, Shargar laid his hands on Boston's Four-fold State, the

torment of his life on the Sunday evenings which it was his turn to

spend with Mrs. Falconer, and threw it as an offering to the powers of

Hades into the case, which he then buried carefully, with the

feather-bed for mould, the blankets for sod, and the counterpane

studiously arranged for stone, over it. He took heed, however, not to

let Robert know of the substitution of Boston for the fiddle, because

he knew Robert could not tell a lie. Therefore, when he murmured over

the volume some of its own words which he had read the preceding

Sunday, it was in a quite inaudible whisper: 'Now is it good for

nothing but to cumber the ground, and furnish fuel for Tophet.'

Robert must now hide the violin better than his grannie had done,

while at the same time it was a more delicate necessity, seeing it had

lost its shell, and he shrunk from putting her in the power of the

shoemaker again. It cost him much trouble to fix on the place that was

least unsuitable. First he put it into the well of the clock-case, but

instantly bethought him what the awful consequence would be if one of

the weights should fall from the gradual decay of its cord. He had

heard of such a thing happening. Then he would put it into his own

place of dreams and meditations. But what if Betty should take a fancy

to change her bed? or some friend of his grannie's should come to

spend the night? How would the bonny leddy like it? What a risk she

would run! If he put her under the bed, the mice would get at her

strings--nay, perhaps, knaw a hole right through her beautiful body.

On the top of the clock, the brass eagle with outspread wings might

scratch her, and there was not space to conceal her. At length he

concluded--wrapped her in a piece of paper, and placed her on the top

of the chintz tester of his bed, where there was just room between it

and the ceiling: that would serve till he bore her to some better

sanctuary. In the meantime she was safe, and the boy was the

blessedest boy in creation.

These things done, they were just in the humour to have a lark with

Betty. So they unbolted the door, rang the bell, and when Betty

appeared, red-faced and wrathful, asked her very gravely and politely

whether they were not going to have some dinner before they went back

to school: they had now but twenty minutes left. Betty was so

dumfoundered with their impudence that she could not say a word. She

did make haste with the dinner, though, and revealed her indignation

only in her manner of putting the things on the table. As the boys

left her, Robert contented himself with the single hint:

'Betty, Bodyfauld 's i' the perris o' Kettledrum. Min' ye that.'

Betty glowered and said nothing.

But the delight of the walk of three miles over hill and dale and moor

and farm to Mr. Lammie's! The boys, if not as wild as colts--that is,

as wild as most boys would have been--were only the more deeply

excited. That first summer walk, with a goal before them, in all the

freshness of the perfecting year, was something which to remember in

after days was to Falconer nothing short of ecstasy. The westering sun

threw long shadows before them as they trudged away eastward, lightly

laden with the books needful for the morrow's lessons. Once beyond the

immediate purlieus of the town and the various plots of land occupied

by its inhabitants, they crossed a small river, and entered upon a

region of little hills, some covered to the top with trees, chiefly

larch, others cultivated, and some bearing only heather, now nursing

in secret its purple flame for the outburst of the autumn. The road

wound between, now swampy and worn into deep ruts, now sandy and

broken with large stones. Down to its edge would come the dwarfed oak,

or the mountain ash, or the silver birch, single and small, but lovely

and fresh; and now green fields, fenced with walls of earth as green

as themselves, or of stones overgrown with moss, would stretch away on

both sides, sprinkled with busily-feeding cattle. Now they would pass

through a farm-steading, perfumed with the breath of cows, and the

odour of burning peat--so fragrant! though not yet so grateful to the

inner sense as it would be when encountered in after years and in

foreign lands. For the smell of burning and the smell of earth are the

deepest underlying sensuous bonds of the earth's unity, and the common

brotherhood of them that dwell thereon. Now the scent of the larches

would steal from the hill, or the wind would waft the odour of the

white clover, beloved of his grandmother, to Robert's nostrils, and he

would turn aside to pull her a handful. Then they clomb a high ridge,

on the top of which spread a moorland, dreary and desolate, brightened

by nothing save 'the canna's hoary beard' waving in the wind, and

making it look even more desolate from the sympathy they felt with the

forsaken grass. This crossed, they descended between young plantations

of firs and rowan-trees and birches, till they reached a warm house on

the side of the slope, with farm-offices and ricks of corn and hay all

about it, the front overgrown with roses and honeysuckle, and a

white-flowering plant unseen of their eyes hitherto, and therefore

full of mystery. From the open kitchen door came the smell of

something good. But beyond all to Robert was the welcome of Miss

Lammie, whose small fat hand closed upon his like a very love-pudding,

after partaking of which even his grandmother's stately reception,

followed immediately by the words 'Noo be dooce,' could not chill the

warmth in his bosom.

I know but one writer whose pen would have been able worthily to set

forth the delights of the first few days at Bodyfauld--Jean Paul. Nor

would he have disdained to make the gladness of a country school-boy

the theme of that pen. Indeed, often has he done so. If the writer has

any higher purpose than the amusement of other boys, he will find the

life of a country boy richer for his ends than that of a town boy. For

example, he has a deeper sense of the marvel of Nature, a tenderer

feeling of her feminality. I do not mean that the other cannot develop

this sense, but it is generally feeble, and there is consequently less

chance of its surviving. As far as my experience goes, town girls and

country boys love Nature most. I have known town girls love her as

passionately as country boys. Town boys have too many books and

pictures. They see Nature in mirrors--invaluable privilege after they

know herself, not before. They have greater opportunity of observing

human nature; but here also the books are too many and various. They

are cleverer than country boys, but they are less profound; their

observation may be quicker; their perception is shallower. They know

better what to do on an emergency; they know worse how to order their

ways. Of course, in this, as in a thousand other matters, Nature will

burst out laughing in the face of the would-be philosopher, and

bringing forward her town boy, will say, 'Look here!' For the town

boys are Nature's boys after all, at least so long as doctrines of

self-preservation and ambition have not turned them from children of

the kingdom into dirt-worms. But I must stop, for I am getting up to

the neck in a bog of discrimination. As if I did not know the nobility

of some townspeople, compared with the worldliness of some country

folk. I give it up. We are all good and all bad. God mend all. Nothing

will do for Jew or Gentile, Frenchman or Englishman, Negro or

Circassian, town boy or country boy, but the kingdom of heaven which

is within him, and must come thence to the outside of him.

To a boy like Robert the changes of every day, from country to town

with the gay morning, from town to country with the sober evening--for

country as Rothieden might be to Edinburgh, much more was Bodyfauld

country to Rothieden--were a source of boundless delight. Instead of

houses, he saw the horizon; instead of streets or walled gardens, he

roamed over fields bathed in sunlight and wind. Here it was good to

get up before the sun, for then he could see the sun get up. And of

all things those evening shadows lengthening out over the grassy

wildernesses--for fields of a very moderate size appeared such to an

imagination ever ready at the smallest hint to ascend its solemn

throne--were a deepening marvel. Town to country is what a ceiling is

to a cÃ¦lum.

CHAPTER XVII.

ADVENTURES.

GRANNIE'S first action every evening, the moment the boys entered the

room, was to glance up at the clock, that she might see whether they

had arrived in reasonable time. This was not pleasant, because it

admonished Robert how impossible it was for him to have a lesson on

his own violin so long as the visit to Bodyfauld lasted. If they had

only been allowed to sleep at Rothieden, what a universe of freedom

would have been theirs! As it was, he had but two hours to himself,

pared at both ends, in the middle of the day. Dooble Sanny might have

given him a lesson at that time, but he did not dare to carry his

instrument through the streets of Rothieden, for the proceeding would

be certain to come to his grandmother's ears. Several days passed

indeed before he made up his mind as to how he was to reap any

immediate benefit from the recovery of the violin. For after he had

made up his mind to run the risk of successive mid-day solos in the

old factory--he was not prepared to carry the instrument through the

streets, or be seen entering the place with it.

But the factory lay at the opposite corner of a quadrangle of gardens,

the largest of which belonged to itself; and the corner of this garden

touched the corner of Captain Forsyth's, which had formerly belonged

to Andrew Falconer: he had had a door made in the walls at the point

of junction, so that he could go from his house to his business across

his own property: if this door were not locked, and Robert could pass

without offence, what a north-west passage it would be for him! The

little garden belonging to his grandmother's house had only a slight

wooden fence to divide it from the other, and even in this fence there

was a little gate: he would only have to run along Captain Forsyth's

top walk to reach the door. The blessed thought came to him as he lay

in bed at Bodyfauld: he would attempt the passage the very next day.

With his violin in its paper under his arm, he sped like a hare from

gate to door, found it not even latched, only pushed to and rusted

into such rest as it was dangerous to the hinges to disturb. He opened

it, however, without any accident, and passed through; then closing it

behind him, took his way more leisurely through the tangled grass of

his grandmother's property. When he reached the factory, he judged it

prudent to search out a more secret nook, one more full of silence,

that is, whence the sounds would be less certain to reach the ears of

the passers by, and came upon a small room, near the top, which had

been the manager's bedroom, and which, as he judged from what seemed

the signs of ancient occupation, a cloak hanging on the wall, and the

ashes of a fire lying in the grate, nobody had entered for years: it

was the safest place in the world. He undid his instrument carefully,

tuned its strings tenderly, and soon found that his former facility,

such as it was, had not ebbed away beyond recovery. Hastening back as

he came, he was just in time for his dinner, and narrowly escaped

encountering Betty in the transe. He had been tempted to leave the

instrument, but no one could tell what might happen, and to doubt

would be to be miserable with anxiety.

He did the same for several days without interruption--not, however,

without observation. When, returning from his fourth visit, he opened

the door between the gardens, he started back in dismay, for there

stood the beautiful lady.

Robert hesitated for a moment whether to fly or speak. He was a

Lowland country boy, and therefore rude of speech, but he was three

parts a Celt, and those who know the address of the Irish or of the

Highlanders, know how much that involves as to manners and bearing. He

advanced the next instant and spoke.

'I beg yer pardon, mem. I thoucht naebody wad see me. I haena dune nae

ill.'

'I had not the least suspicion of it, I assure you,' returned Miss St.

John. 'But, tell me, what makes you go through here always at the same

hour with the same parcel under your arm?'

'Ye winna tell naebody--will ye, mem, gin I tell you?'

Miss St. John, amused, and interested besides in the contrast between

the boy's oddly noble face and good bearing on the one hand, and on

the other the drawl of his bluntly articulated speech and the

coarseness of his tone, both seeming to her in the extreme of

provincialism, promised; and Robert, entranced by all the qualities of

her voice and speech, and nothing disenchanted by the nearer view of

her lovely face, confided in her at once.

'Ye see, mem,' he said, 'I cam' upo' my grandfather's fiddle. But my

grandmither thinks the fiddle's no gude. And sae she tuik and she hed

it. But I faun't it again. An' I daurna play i' the hoose, though my

grannie's i' the country, for Betty hearin' me and tellin' her. And

sae I gang to the auld fact'ry there. It belangs to my grannie, and

sae does the yaird (garden). An' this hoose and yaird was ance my

father's, and sae he had that door throu, they tell me. An' I thocht

gin it suld be open, it wad be a fine thing for me, to haud fowk ohn

seen me. But it was verra ill-bred to you, mem, I ken, to come throu

your yaird ohn speirt leave. I beg yer pardon, mem, an' I'll jist gang

back, and roon' by the ro'd. This is my fiddle I hae aneath my airm.

We bude to pit back the case o' 't whaur it was afore, i' my grannie's

bed, to haud her ohn kent 'at she had tint the grup o' 't.'

Certainly Miss St. John could not have understood the half of the

words Robert used, but she understood his story notwithstanding.

Herself an enthusiast in music, her sympathies were at once engaged

for the awkward boy who was thus trying to steal an entrance into the

fairy halls of sound. But she forbore any further allusion to the

violin for the present, and contented herself with assuring Robert

that he was heartily welcome to go through the garden as often as he

pleased. She accompanied her words with a smile that made Robert feel

not only that she was the most beautiful of all princesses in

fairy-tales, but that she had presented him with something beyond

price in the most self-denying manner. He took off his cap, thanked

her with much heartiness, if not with much polish, and hastened to the

gate of his grandmother's little garden. A few years later such an

encounter might have spoiled his dinner: I have to record no such evil

result of the adventure.

With Miss St. John, music was the highest form of human expression, as

must often be the case with those whose feeling is much in advance of

their thought, and to whom, therefore, may be called mental sensation

is the highest known condition. Music to such is poetry in solution,

and generates that infinite atmosphere, common to both musician and

poet, which the latter fills with shining worlds.--But if my reader

wishes to follow out for himself the idea herein suggested, he must be

careful to make no confusion between those who feel musically or think

poetically, and the musician or the poet. One who can only play the

music of others, however exquisitely, is not a musician, any more than

one who can read verse to the satisfaction, or even expound it to the

enlightenment of the poet himself, is therefore a poet.--When Miss St.

John would worship God, it was in music that she found the chariot of

fire in which to ascend heavenward. Hence music was the divine thing

in the world for her; and to find any one loving music humbly and

faithfully was to find a brother or sister believer. But she had been

so often disappointed in her expectations from those she took to be

such, that of late she had become less sanguine. Still there was

something about this boy that roused once more her musical hopes; and,

however she may have restrained herself from the full indulgence of

them, certain it is that the next day, when she saw Robert pass, this

time leisurely, along the top of the garden, she put on her bonnet and

shawl, and, allowing him time to reach his den, followed him, in the

hope of finding out whether or not he could play. I do not know what

proficiency the boy had attained, very likely not much, for a man can

feel the music of his own bow, or of his own lines, long before any

one else can discover it. He had already made a path, not exactly worn

one, but trampled one, through the neglected grass, and Miss St. John

had no difficulty in finding his entrance to the factory.

She felt a little eerie, as Robert would have called it, when she

passed into the waste silent place; for besides the wasteness and the

silence, motionless machines have a look of death about them, at least

when they bear such signs of disuse as those that filled these rooms.

Hearing no violin, she waited for a while in the ground-floor of the

building; but still hearing nothing, she ascended to the first floor.

Here, likewise, all was silence. She hesitated, but at length ventured

up the next stair, beginning, however, to feel a little troubled as

well as eerie, the silence was so obstinately persistent. Was it

possible that there was no violin in that brown paper? But that boy

could not be a liar. Passing shelves piled-up with stores of old

thread, she still went on, led by a curiosity stronger than her

gathering fear. At last she came to a little room, the door of which

was open, and there she saw Robert lying on the floor with his head in

a pool of blood.

Now Mary St. John was both brave and kind; and, therefore, though not

insensible to the fact that she too must be in danger where violence

had been used to a boy, she set about assisting him at once. His face

was deathlike, but she did not think he was dead. She drew him out

into the passage, for the room was close, and did all she could to

recover him; but for some time he did not even breathe. At last his

lips moved, and he murmured,

'Sandy, Sandy, ye've broken my bonnie leddy.'

Then he opened his eyes, and seeing a face to dream about bending in

kind consternation over him, closed them again with a smile and a

sigh, as if to prolong his dream.

The blood now came fast into his forsaken cheeks, and began to flow

again from the wound in his head. The lady bound it up with her

handkerchief. After a little he rose, though with difficulty, and

stared wildly about him, saying, with imperfect articulation, 'Father!

father!' Then he looked at Miss St. John with a kind of dazed inquiry

in his eyes, tried several times to speak, and could not.

'Can you walk at all?' asked Miss St. John, supporting him, for she

was anxious to leave the place.

'Yes, mem, weel eneuch,' he answered.

'Come along, then. I will help you home.'

'Na, na,' he said, as if he had just recalled something. 'Dinna min'

me. Rin hame, mem, or he'll see ye!'

'Who will see me?'

Robert stared more wildly, put his hand to his head, and made no

reply. She half led, half supported him down the stair, as far as the

first landing, when he cried out in a tone of anguish,

'My bonny leddy!'

'What is it?' asked Miss St. John, thinking he meant her.

'My fiddle! my fiddle! She 'll be a' in bits,' he answered, and turned

to go up again.

'Sit down here,' said Miss St. John, 'and I'll fetch it.'

Though not without some tremor, she darted back to the room. Then she

turned faint for the first time, but determinedly supporting herself,

she looked about, saw a brown-paper parcel on a shelf, took it, and

hurried out with a shudder.

Robert stood leaning against the wall. He stretched out his hands

eagerly.

'Gie me her. Gie me her.'

'You had better let me carry it. You are not able.'

'Na, na, mem. Ye dinna ken hoo easy she is to hurt.'

'Oh, yes, I do!' returned Miss St. John, smiling, and Robert could not

withstand the smile.

'Weel, tak care o' her, as ye wad o' yer ain sel', mem,' he said,

yielding.

He was now much better, and before he had been two minutes in the open

air, insisted that he was quite well. When they reached Captain

Forsyth's garden he again held out his hands for his violin.

'No, no,' said his new friend. 'You wouldn't have Betty see you like

that, would you?'

'No, mem; but I'll put in the fiddle at my ain window, and she sanna

hae a chance o' seein' 't,' answered Robert, not understanding her;

for though he felt a good deal of pain, he had no idea what a dreadful

appearance he presented.

'Don't you know that you have a wound on your head?' asked Miss St.

John.

'Na! hev I?' said Robert, putting up his hand. 'But I maun

gang--there's nae help for 't,' he added.--'Gin I cud only win to my

ain room ohn Betty seen me!--Eh! mem, I hae blaudit (spoiled) a' yer

bonny goon. That's a sair vex.'

'Never mind it,' returned Miss St. John, smiling. 'It is of no

consequence. But you must come with me. I must see what I can do for

your head. Poor boy!'

'Eh, mem! but ye are kin'! Gin ye speik like that ye'll gar me greit.

Naebody ever spak' to me like that afore. Maybe ye kent my mamma.

Ye're sae like her.'

This word mamma was the only remnant of her that lingered in his

speech. Had she lived he would have spoken very differently. They were

now walking towards the house.

'No, I did not know your mamma. Is she dead?'

'Lang syne, mem. And sae they tell me is yours.'

'Yes; and my father too. Your father is alive, I hope?'

Robert made no answer. Miss St. John turned.

The boy had a strange look, and seemed struggling with something in

his throat. She thought he was going to faint again, and hurried him

into the drawing-room. Her aunt had not yet left her room, and her

uncle was out.

'Sit down,' she said--so kindly--and Robert sat down on the edge of a

chair. Then she left the room, but presently returned with a little

brandy. 'There,' she said, offering the glass, 'that will do you

good.'

'What is 't, mem?'

'Brandy. There's water in it, of course.'

'I daurna touch 't. Grannie cudna bide me to touch 't,'

So determined was he, that Miss St. John was forced to yield. Perhaps

she wondered that the boy who would deceive his grandmother about a

violin should be so immovable in regarding her pleasure in the matter

of a needful medicine. But in this fact I begin to see the very

Falconer of my manhood's worship.

'Eh, mem! gin ye wad play something upo' her,' he resumed, pointing to

the piano, which, although he had never seen one before, he at once

recognized, by some hidden mental operation, as the source of the

sweet sounds heard at the window, 'it wad du me mair guid than a haill

bottle o' brandy, or whusky either.'

'How do you know that?' asked Miss St. John, proceeding to sponge the

wound.

''Cause mony's the time I hae stud oot there i' the street,

hearkenin'. Dooble Sanny says 'at ye play jist as gin ye war my

gran'father's fiddle hersel', turned into the bonniest cratur ever God

made.'

'How did you get such a terrible cut?'

She had removed the hair, and found that the injury was severe.

The boy was silent. She glanced round in his face. He was staring as

if he saw nothing, heard nothing. She would try again.

'Did you fall? Or how did you cut your head?'

'Yes, yes, mem, I fell,' he answered, hastily, with an air of relief,

and possibly with some tone of gratitude for the suggestion of a true

answer.

'What made you fall?'

Utter silence again. She felt a kind of turn--I do not know another

word to express what I mean: the boy must have fits, and either could

not tell, or was ashamed to tell, what had befallen him. Thereafter

she too was silent, and Robert thought she was offended. Possibly he

felt a change in the touch of her fingers.

'Mem, I wad like to tell ye,' he said, 'but I daurna.'

'Oh! never mind,' she returned kindly.

'Wad ye promise nae to tell naebody?'

'I don't want to know,' she answered, confirmed in her suspicion, and

at the same time ashamed of the alteration of feeling which the

discovery had occasioned.

An uncomfortable silence followed, broken by Robert.

'Gin ye binna pleased wi' me, mem,' he said, 'I canna bide ye to gang

on wi' siccan a job 's that.'

How Miss St. John could have understood him, I cannot think; but she

did.

'Oh! very well,' she answered, smiling. 'Just as you please. Perhaps

you had better take this piece of plaster to Betty, and ask her to

finish the dressing for you.'

Robert took the plaster mechanically, and, sick at heart and

speechless, rose to go, forgetting even his bonny leddy in his grief.

'You had better take your violin with you,' said Miss St. John, urged

to the cruel experiment by a strong desire to see what the strange boy

would do.

He turned. The tears were streaming down his odd face. They went to

her heart, and she was bitterly ashamed of herself.

'Come along. Do sit down again. I only wanted to see what you would

do. I am very sorry,' she said, in a tone of kindness such as Robert

had never imagined.

He sat down instantly, saying,

'Eh, mem! it's sair to bide;' meaning, no doubt, the conflict between

his inclination to tell her all, and his duty to be silent.

The dressing was soon finished, his hair combed down over it, and

Robert looking once more respectable.

'Now, I think that will do,' said his nurse.

'Eh, thank ye, mem!' answered Robert, rising. 'Whan I'm able to play

upo' the fiddle as weel 's ye play upo' the piana, I'll come and play

at yer window ilka nicht, as lang 's ye like to hearken.'

She smiled, and he was satisfied. He did not dare again ask her to

play to him. But she said of herself, 'Now I will play something to

you, if you like,' and he resumed his seat devoutly.

When she had finished a lovely little air, which sounded to Robert

like the touch of her hands, and her breath on his forehead, she

looked round, and was satisfied, from the rapt expression of the boy's

countenance, that at least he had plenty of musical sensibility. As if

despoiled of volition, he stood motionless till she said,

'Now you had better go, or Betty will miss you.'

Then he made her a bow in which awkwardness and grace were curiously

mingled, and taking up his precious parcel, and holding it to his

bosom as if it had been a child for whom he felt an access of

tenderness, he slowly left the room and the house.

Not even to Shargar did he communicate his adventure. And he went no

more to the deserted factory to play there. Fate had again interposed

between him and his bonny leddy.

When he reached Bodyfauld he fancied his grandmother's eyes more

watchful of him than usual, and he strove the more to resist the

weariness, and even faintness, that urged him to go to bed. Whether he

was able to hide as well a certain trouble that clouded his spirit I

doubt. His wound he did manage to keep a secret, thanks to the care of

Miss St. John, who had dressed it with court-plaster.

When he woke the next morning, it was with the consciousness of having

seen something strange the night before, and only when he found that

he was not in his own room at his grandmother's, was he convinced that

it must have been a dream and no vision. For in the night, he had

awaked there as he thought, and the moon was shining with such

clearness, that although it did not shine into his room, he could see

the face of the clock, and that the hands were both together at the

top. Close by the clock stood the bureau, with its end against the

partition forming the head of his grannie's bed.

All at once he saw a tall man, in a blue coat and bright buttons,

about to open the lid of the bureau. The same moment he saw a little

elderly man in a brown coat and a brown wig, by his side, who sought

to remove his hand from the lock. Next appeared a huge stalwart

figure, in shabby old tartans, and laid his hand on the head of each.

But the wonder widened and grew; for now came a stately Highlander

with his broadsword by his side, and an eagle's feather in his bonnet,

who laid his hand on the other Highlander's arm.

When Robert looked in the direction whence this last had appeared, the

head of his grannie's bed had vanished, and a wild hill-side, covered

with stones and heather, sloped away into the distance. Over it passed

man after man, each with an ancestral air, while on the gray sea to

the left, galleys covered with Norsemen tore up the white foam, and

dashed one after the other up to the strand. How long he gazed, he did

not know, but when he withdrew his eyes from the extended scene, there

stood the figure of his father, still trying to open the lid of the

bureau, his grandfather resisting him, the blind piper with his hand

on the head of both, and the stately chief with his hand on the

piper's arm. Then a mist of forgetfulness gathered over the whole,

till at last he awoke and found himself in the little wooden chamber

at Bodyfauld, and not in the visioned room. Doubtless his loss of

blood the day before had something to do with the dream or vision,

whichever the reader may choose to consider it. He rose, and after a

good breakfast, found himself very little the worse, and forgot all

about his dream, till a circumstance which took place not long after

recalled it vividly to his mind.

The enchantment of Bodyfauld soon wore off. The boys had no time to

enter into the full enjoyment of country ways, because of those weary

lessons, over the getting of which Mrs. Falconer kept as strict a

watch as ever; while to Robert the evening journey, his violin and

Miss St. John left at Rothieden, grew more than tame. The return was

almost as happy an event to him as the first going. Now he could

resume his lessons with the soutar.

With Shargar it was otherwise. The freedom for so much longer from

Mrs. Falconer's eyes was in itself so much of a positive pleasure,

that the walk twice a day, the fresh air, and the scents and sounds of

the country, only came in as supplementary. But I do not believe the

boy even then had so much happiness as when he was beaten and starved

by his own mother. And Robert, growing more and more absorbed in his

own thoughts and pursuits, paid him less and less attention as the

weeks went on, till Shargar at length judged it for a time an evil day

on which he first had slept under old Ronald Falconer's kilt.

CHAPTER XVIII.

NATURE PUTS IN A CLAIM.

BEFORE the day of return arrived, Robert had taken care to remove the

violin from his bedroom, and carry it once more to its old retreat in

Shargar's garret. The very first evening, however, that grannie again

spent in her own arm-chair, he hied from the house as soon as it grew

dusk, and made his way with his brown-paper parcel to Sandy

Elshender's.

Entering the narrow passage from which his shop door opened, and

hearing him hammering away at a sole, he stood and unfolded his

treasure, then drew a low sigh from her with his bow, and awaited the

result. He heard the lap-stone fall thundering on the floor, and, like

a spider from his cavern, Dooble Sanny appeared in the door, with the

bend-leather in one hand, and the hammer in the other.

'Lordsake, man! hae ye gotten her again? Gie's a grup o' her!' he

cried, dropping leather and hammer.

'Na, na,' returned Robert, retreating towards the outer door. 'Ye maun

sweir upo' her that, whan I want her, I sall hae her ohn demur, or I

sanna lat ye lay roset upo' her.'

'I swear 't, Robert; I sweir 't upo' her,' said the soutar hurriedly,

stretching out both his hands as if to receive some human being into

his embrace.

Robert placed the violin in those grimy hands. A look of heavenly

delight dawned over the hirsute and dirt-besmeared countenance, which

drooped into tenderness as he drew the bow across the instrument, and

wiled from her a thin wail as of sorrow at their long separation. He

then retreated into his den, and was soon sunk in a trance, deaf to

everything but the violin, from which no entreaties of Robert, who

longed for a lesson, could rouse him; so that he had to go home

grievously disappointed, and unrewarded for the risk he had run in

venturing the stolen visit.

Next time, however, he fared better; and he contrived so well that,

from the middle of June to the end of August, he had two lessons a

week, mostly upon the afternoons of holidays. For these his master

thought himself well paid by the use of the instrument between. And

Robert made great progress.

Occasionally he saw Miss St. John in the garden, and once or twice met

her in the town; but her desire to find in him a pupil had been

greatly quenched by her unfortunate conjecture as to the cause of his

accident. She had, however, gone so far as to mention the subject to

her aunt, who assured her that old Mrs. Falconer would as soon consent

to his being taught gambling as music. The idea, therefore, passed

away; and beyond a kind word or two when she met him, there was no

further communication between them. But Robert would often dream of

waking from a swoon, and finding his head lying on her lap, and her

lovely face bending over him full of kindness and concern.

By the way, Robert cared nothing for poetry. Virgil was too

troublesome to be enjoyed; and in English he had met with nothing but

the dried leaves and gum-flowers of the last century. Miss Letty once

lent him The Lady of the Lake; but before he had read the first canto

through, his grandmother laid her hands upon it, and, without saying a

word, dropped it behind a loose skirting-board in the pantry, where

the mice soon made it a ruin sad to behold. For Miss Letty, having

heard from the woful Robert of its strange disappearance, and guessing

its cause, applied to Mrs. Falconer for the volume; who forthwith, the

tongs aiding, extracted it from its hole, and, without shade of

embarrassment, held it up like a drowned kitten before the eyes of

Miss Letty, intending thereby, no doubt, to impress her with the fate

of all seducing spirits that should attempt an entrance into her

kingdom: Miss Letty only burst into merry laughter over its fate. So

the lode of poetry failed for the present from Robert's life. Nor did

it matter much; for had he not his violin?

I have, I think, already indicated that his grandfather had been a

linen manufacturer. Although that trade had ceased, his family had

still retained the bleachery belonging to it, commonly called the

bleachfield, devoting it now to the service of those large calico

manufactures which had ruined the trade in linen, and to the whitening

of such yarn as the country housewives still spun at home, and the

webs they got woven of it in private looms. To Robert and Shargar it

was a wondrous pleasure when the pile of linen which the week had

accumulated at the office under the ga'le-room, was on Saturday heaped

high upon the base of a broad-wheeled cart, to get up on it and be

carried to the said bleachfield, which lay along the bank of the

river. Soft laid and high-borne, gazing into the blue sky, they

traversed the streets in a holiday triumph; and although, once

arrived, the manager did not fail to get some labour out of them, yet

the store of amusement was endless. The great wheel, which drove the

whole machinery; the plash-mill, or, more properly, wauk-mill--a word

Robert derived from the resemblance of the mallets to two huge feet,

and of their motion to walking--with the water plashing and squirting

from the blows of their heels; the beatles thundering in arpeggio upon

the huge cylinder round which the white cloth was wound--each was

haunted in its turn and season. The pleasure of the water itself was

inexhaustible. Here sweeping in a mass along the race; there divided

into branches and hurrying through the walls of the various houses;

here sliding through a wooden channel across the floor to fall into

the river in a half-concealed cataract, there bubbling up through the

bottom of a huge wooden cave or vat, there resting placid in another;

here gurgling along a spout; there flowing in a narrow canal through

the green expanse of the well-mown bleaehfield, or lifted from it in

narrow curved wooden scoops, like fairy canoes with long handles, and

flung in showers over the outspread yarn--the water was an endless

delight.

It is strange how some individual broidery or figure upon Nature's

garment will delight a boy long before he has ever looked Nature in

the face, or begun to love herself. But Robert was soon to become

dimly conscious of a life within these things--a life not the less

real that its operations on his mind had been long unrecognized.

On the grassy bank of the gently-flowing river, at the other edge of

whose level the little canal squabbled along, and on the grassy brae

which rose immediately from the canal, were stretched, close beside

each other, with scarce a stripe of green betwixt, the long white webs

of linen, fastened down to the soft mossy ground with wooden pegs,

whose tops were twisted into their edges. Strangely would they billow

in the wind sometimes, like sea-waves, frozen and enchanted flat,

seeking to rise and wallow in the wind with conscious depth and

whelming mass. But generally they lay supine, saturated with light and

its cleansing power. Falconer's jubilation in the white and green of a

little boat, as we lay, one bright morning, on the banks of the Thames

between Richmond and Twickenham, led to such a description of the

bleachfield that I can write about it as if I had known it myself.

One Saturday afternoon in the end of July, when the westering sun was

hotter than at midday, he went down to the lower end of the field,

where the river was confined by a dam, and plunged from the bank into

deep water. After a swim of half-an-hour, he ascended the higher part

of the field, and lay down upon a broad web to bask in the sun. In his

ears was the hush rather than rush of the water over the dam, the

occasional murmur of a belt of trees that skirted the border of the

field, and the dull continuous sound of the beatles at their work

below, like a persistent growl of thunder on the horizon.

Had Robert possessed a copy of Robinson Crusoe, or had his grandmother

not cast The Lady of the Lake, mistaking it for an idol, if not to the

moles and the bats, yet to the mice and the black-beetles, he might

have been lying reading it, blind and deaf to the face and the voice

of Nature, and years might have passed before a response awoke in his

heart. It is good that children of faculty, as distinguished from

capacity, should not have too many books to read, or too much of early

lessoning. The increase of examinations in our country will increase

its capacity and diminish its faculty. We shall have more compilers

and reducers and fewer thinkers; more modifiers and completers, and

fewer inventors.

He lay gazing up into the depth of the sky, rendered deeper and bluer

by the masses of white cloud that hung almost motionless below it,

until he felt a kind of bodily fear lest he should fall off the face

of the round earth into the abyss. A gentle wind, laden with pine

odours from the sun-heated trees behind him, flapped its light wing in

his face: the humanity of the world smote his heart; the great sky

towered up over him, and its divinity entered his soul; a strange

longing after something 'he knew not nor could name' awoke within him,

followed by the pang of a sudden fear that there was no such thing as

that which he sought, that it was all a fancy of his own spirit; and

then the voice of Shargar broke the spell, calling to him from afar to

come and see a great salmon that lay by a stone in the water. But once

aroused, the feeling was never stilled; the desire never left him;

sometimes growing even to a passion that was relieved only by a flood

of tears.

Strange as it may sound to those who have never thought of such things

save in connection with Sundays and Bibles and churches and sermons,

that which was now working in Falconer's mind was the first dull and

faint movement of the greatest need that the human heart

possesses--the need of the God-Man. There must be truth in the scent

of that pine-wood: some one must mean it. There must be a glory in

those heavens that depends not upon our imagination: some power

greater than they must dwell in them. Some spirit must move in that

wind that haunts us with a kind of human sorrow; some soul must look

up to us from the eye of that starry flower. It must be something

human, else not to us divine.

Little did Robert think that such was his need--that his soul was

searching after One whose form was constantly presented to him, but as

constantly obscured and made unlovely by the words without knowledge

spoken in the religious assemblies of the land; that he was longing

without knowing it on the Saturday for that from which on the Sunday

he would be repelled without knowing it. Years passed before he drew

nigh to the knowledge of what he sought.

For weeks the mood broken by the voice of his companion did not

return, though the forms of Nature were henceforth full of a pleasure

he had never known before. He loved the grass; the water was more

gracious to him; he would leave his bed early, that he might gaze on

the clouds of the east, with their borders gold-blasted with sunrise;

he would linger in the fields that the amber and purple, and green and

red, of the sunset, might not escape after the sun unseen. And as long

as he felt the mystery, the revelation of the mystery lay before and

not behind him.

And Shargar--had he any soul for such things? Doubtless; but how could

he be other than lives behind Robert? For the latter had

ancestors--that is, he came of people with a mental and spiritual

history; while the former had been born the birth of an animal; of a

noble sire, whose family had for generations filled the earth with

fire, famine, slaughter, and licentiousness; and of a wandering

outcast mother, who blindly loved the fields and woods, but retained

her affection for her offspring scarcely beyond the period while she

suckled them. The love of freedom and of wild animals that she had

given him, however, was far more precious than any share his male

ancestor had borne in his mental constitution. After his fashion he as

well as Robert enjoyed the sun and the wind and the water and the sky;

but he had sympathies with the salmon and the rooks and the wild

rabbits even stronger than those of Robert.

CHAPTER XIX.

ROBERT STEALS HIS OWN.

THE period of the hairst-play, that is, of the harvest holiday time,

drew near, and over the north of Scotland thousands of half-grown

hearts were beating with glad anticipation. Of the usual devices of

boys to cheat themselves into the half-belief of expediting a blessed

approach by marking its rate, Robert knew nothing: even the notching

of sticks was unknown at Rothieden; but he had a mode notwithstanding.

Although indifferent to the games of his school-fellows, there was one

amusement, a solitary one nearly, and therein not so good as most

amusements, into which he entered with the whole energy of his nature:

it was kite-flying. The moment that the hairst-play approached near

enough to strike its image through the eyes of his mind, Robert

proceeded to make his kite, or draigon, as he called it. Of how many

pleasures does pocket-money deprive the unfortunate possessor! What is

the going into a shop and buying what you want, compared with the

gentle delight of hours and days filled with gaining effort after the

attainment of your end? Never boy that bought his kite, even if the

adornment thereafter lay in his own hands, and the pictures were

gorgeous with colour and gilding, could have half the enjoyment of

Robert from the moment he went to the cooper's to ask for an old gird

or hoop, to the moment when he said 'Noo, Shargar!' and the kite rose

slowly from the depth of the aÃ«rial flood. The hoop was carefully

examined, the best portion cut away from it, that pared to a light

strength, its ends confined to the proper curve by a string, and then

away went Robert to the wright's shop. There a slip of wood, of proper

length and thickness, was readily granted to his request, free as the

daisies of the field. Oh! those horrid town conditions, where nothing

is given for the asking, but all sold for money! In Robert's kite the

only thing that cost money was the string to fly it with, and that the

grandmother willingly provided, for not even her ingenuity could

discover any evil, direct or implicated, in kite-flying. Indeed, I

believe the old lady felt not a little sympathy with the exultation of

the boy when he saw his kite far aloft, diminished to a speck in the

vast blue; a sympathy, it may be, rooted in the religious aspirations

which she did so much at once to rouse and to suppress in the bosom of

her grandchild. But I have not yet reached the kite-flying, for I have

said nothing of the kite's tail, for the sake of which principally I

began to describe the process of its growth.

As soon as the body of the dragon was completed, Robert attached to

its spine the string which was to take the place of its caudal

elongation, and at a proper distance from the body joined to the

string the first of the cross-pieces of folded paper which in this

animal represent the continued vertebral processes. Every morning, the

moment he issued from his chamber, he proceeded to the garret where

the monster lay, to add yet another joint to his tail, until at length

the day should arrive when, the lessons over for a blessed eternity of

five or six weeks, he would tip the whole with a piece of wood, to

which grass, quantum suff., might be added from the happy fields.

Upon this occasion the dragon was a monster one. With a little help

from Shargar, he had laid the skeleton of a six-foot specimen, and had

carried the body to a satisfactory completion.

The tail was still growing, having as yet only sixteen joints, when

Mr. Lammie called with an invitation for the boys to spend their

holidays with him. It was fortunate for Robert that he was in the room

when Mr. Lammie presented his petition, otherwise he would never have

heard of it till the day of departure arrived, and would thus have

lost all the delights of anticipation. In frantic effort to control

his ecstasy, he sped to the garret, and with trembling hands tied the

second joint of the day to the tail of the dragon--the first time he

had ever broken the law of its accretion. Once broken, that law was

henceforth an object of scorn, and the tail grew with frightful

rapidity. It was indeed a great dragon. And none of the paltry fields

about Rothieden should be honoured with its first flight, but from

Bodyfauld should the majestic child of earth ascend into the regions

of upper air.

My reader may here be tempted to remind me that Robert had been only

too glad to return to Rothieden from his former visit. But I must in

my turn remind him that the circumstances were changed. In the first

place, the fiddle was substituted for grannie; and in the second, the

dragon for the school.

The making of this dragon was a happy thing for Shargar, and a yet

happier thing for Robert, in that it introduced again for a time some

community of interest between them. Shargar was happier than he had

been for many a day because Robert used him; and Robert was yet

happier than Shargar in that his conscience, which had reproached him

for his neglect of him, was now silent. But not even his dragon had

turned aside his attentions from his violin; and many were the

consultations between the boys as to how best she might be transported

to Bodyfauld, where endless opportunities of holding communion with

her would not be wanting. The difficulty was only how to get her clear

of Rothieden.

The play commenced on a Saturday; but not till the Monday were they to

be set at liberty. Wearily the hours of mental labour and bodily

torpidity which the Scotch called the Sabbath passed away, and at

length the millennial morning dawned. Robert and Shargar were up

before the sun. But strenuous were the efforts they made to suppress

all indications of excitement, lest grannie, fearing the immoral

influence of gladness, should give orders to delay their departure for

an awfully indefinite period, which might be an hour, a day, or even a

week. Horrible conception! Their behaviour was so decorous that not

even a hinted threat escaped the lips of Mrs. Falconer.

They set out three hours before noon, carrying the great kite, and

Robert's school bag, of green baize, full of sundries: a cart from

Bodyfauld was to fetch their luggage later in the day. As soon as they

were clear of the houses, Shargar lay down behind a dyke with the

kite, and Robert set off at full speed for Dooble Sanny's shop, making

a half-circuit of the town to avoid the chance of being seen by

grannie or Betty. Having given due warning before, he found the

brown-paper parcel ready for him, and carried it off in fearful

triumph. He joined Shargar in safety, and they set out on their

journey as rich and happy a pair of tramps as ever tramped, having six

weeks of their own in their pockets to spend and not spare.

A hearty welcome awaited them, and they were soon revelling in the

glories of the place, the first instalment of which was in the shape

of curds and cream, with oatcake and butter, as much as they liked.

After this they would 'e'en to it like French falconers' with their

kite, for the wind had been blowing bravely all the morning, having

business to do with the harvest. The season of stubble not yet

arrived, they were limited to the pasturage and moorland, which,

however, large as their kite was, were spacious enough. Slowly the

great-headed creature arose from the hands of Shargar, and ascended

about twenty feet, when, as if seized with a sudden fit of wrath or

fierce indignation, it turned right round and dashed itself with

headlong fury to the earth, as if sooner than submit to such

influences a moment longer it would beat out its brains at once.

'It hasna half tail eneuch,' cried Robert. 'It's queer 'at things

winna gang up ohn hauden them doon. Pu' a guid han'fu' o' clover,

Shargar. She's had her fa', an' noo she'll gang up a' richt. She's

nane the waur o' 't.'

Upon the next attempt, the kite rose triumphantly. But just as it

reached the length of the string it shot into a faster current of air,

and Robert found himself first dragged along in spite of his efforts,

and then lifted from his feet. After carrying him a few yards, the

dragon broke its string, dropped him in a ditch, and, drifting away,

went fluttering and waggling downwards in the distance.

'Luik whaur she gangs, Shargar,' cried Robert, from the ditch.

Experience coming to his aid, Shargar took landmarks of the direction

in which it went; and ere long they found it with its tail entangled

in the topmost branches of a hawthorn tree, and its head beating the

ground at its foot. It was at once agreed that they would not fly it

again till they got some stronger string.

Having heard the adventure, Mr. Lammie produced a shilling from the

pocket of his corduroys, and gave it to Robert to spend upon the

needful string. He resolved to go to the town the next morning and

make a grand purchase of the same. During the afternoon he roamed

about the farm with his hands in his pockets, revolving if not many

memories, yet many questions, while Shargar followed like a pup at the

heels of Miss Lammie, to whom, during his former visit, he had become

greatly attached.

In the evening, resolved to make a confidant of Mr. Lammie, and indeed

to cast himself upon the kindness of the household generally, Robert

went up to his room to release his violin from its prison of brown

paper. What was his dismay to find--not his bonny leddy, but her poor

cousin, the soutar's auld wife! It was too bad. Dooble Sanny indeed!

He first stared, then went into a rage, and then came out of it to go

into a resolution. He replaced the unwelcome fiddle in the parcel, and

came down-stairs gloomy and still wrathful, but silent. The evening

passed over, and the inhabitants of the farmhouse went early to bed.

Robert tossed about fuming on his. He had not undressed.

About eleven o'clock, after all had been still for more than an hour,

he took his shoes in one hand and the brown parcel in the other, and

descending the stairs like a thief, undid the quiet wooden bar that

secured the door, and let himself out. All was darkness, for the moon

was not yet up, and he felt a strange sensation of ghostliness in

himself--awake and out of doors, when he ought to be asleep and

unconscious in bed. He had never been out so late before, and felt as

if walking in the region of the dead, existing when and where he had

no business to exist. For it was the time Nature kept for her own

quiet, and having once put her children to bed--hidden them away with

the world wiped out of them--enclosed them in her ebony box, as George

Herbert says--she did not expect to have her hours of undress and

meditation intruded upon by a venturesome school-boy. Yet she let him

pass. He put on his shoes and hurried to the road. He heard a horse

stamp in the stable, and saw a cat dart across the corn-yard as he

went through. Those were all the signs of life about the place.

It was a cloudy night and still. Nothing was to be heard but his own

footsteps. The cattle in the fields were all asleep. The larch and

spruce trees on the top of the hill by the foot of which his road

wound were still as clouds. He could just see the sky through their

stems. It was washed with the faintest of light, for the moon, far

below, was yet climbing towards the horizon. A star or two sparkled

where the clouds broke, but so little light was there, that, until he

had passed the moorland on the hill, he could not get the horror of

moss-holes, and deep springs covered with treacherous green, out of

his head. But he never thought of turning. When the fears of the way

at length fell back and allowed his own thoughts to rise, the sense of

a presence, or of something that might grow to a presence, was the

first to awake in him. The stillness seemed to be thinking all around

his head. But the way grew so dark, where it lay through a corner of

the pine-wood, that he had to feel the edge of the road with his foot

to make sure that he was keeping upon it, and the sense of the silence

vanished. Then he passed a farm, and the motions of horses came

through the dark, and a doubtful crow from a young inexperienced cock,

who did not yet know the moon from the sun. Then a sleepy low in his

ear startled him, and made him quicken his pace involuntarily.

By the time he reached Rothieden all the lights were out, and this was

just what he wanted.

The economy of Dooble Sanny's abode was this: the outer door was

always left on the latch at night, because several families lived in

the house; the soutar's workshop opened from the passage, close to the

outer door, therefore its door was locked; but the key hung on a nail

just inside the soutar's bedroom. All this Robert knew.

Arrived at the house, he lifted the latch, closed the door behind him,

took off his shoes once more, like a housebreaker, as indeed he was,

although a righteous one, and felt his way to and up the stair to the

bedroom. There was a sound of snoring within. The door was a little

ajar. He reached the key and descended, his heart beating more and

more wildly as he approached the realization of his hopes. Gently as

he could he turned it in the lock. In a moment more he had his hands

on the spot where the shoemaker always laid his violin. But his heart

sank within him: there was no violin there. A blank of dismay held him

both motionless and thoughtless; nor had he recovered his senses

before he heard footsteps, which he well knew, approaching in the

street. He slunk at once into a corner. Elshender entered, feeling his

way carefully, and muttering at his wife. He was tipsy, most likely,

but that had never yet interfered with the safety of his fiddle:

Robert heard its faint echo as he laid it gently down. Nor was he too

tipsy to lock the door behind him, leaving Robert incarcerated amongst

the old boots and leather and rosin.

For one moment only did the boy's heart fail him. The next he was in

action, for a happy thought had already struck him. Hastily, that he

might forestall sleep in the brain of the soutar, he undid his parcel,

and after carefully enveloping his own violin in the paper, took the

old wife of the soutar, and proceeded to perform upon her a trick

which in a merry moment his master had taught him, and which, not

without some feeling of irreverence, he had occasionally practised

upon his own bonny lady.

The shoemaker's room was overhead; its thin floor of planks was the

ceiling of the workshop. Ere Dooble Sanny was well laid by the side of

his sleeping wife, he heard a frightful sound from below, as of some

one tearing his beloved violin to pieces. No sound of rending

coffin-planks or rising dead would have been so horrible in the ears

of the soutar. He sprang from his bed with a haste that shook the

crazy tenement to its foundation.

The moment Robert heard that, he put the violin in its place, and took

his station by the door-cheek. The soutar came tumbling down the

stair, and rushed at the door, but found that he had to go back for

the key. When, with uncertain hand, he had opened at length, he went

straight to the nest of his treasure, and Robert slipping out

noiselessly, was in the next street before Dooble Sanny, having found

the fiddle uninjured, and not discovering the substitution, had

finished concluding that the whisky and his imagination had played him

a very discourteous trick between them, and retired once more to bed.

And not till Robert had cut his foot badly with a piece of glass, did

he discover that he had left his shoes behind him. He tied it up with

his handkerchief, and limped home the three miles, too happy to think

of consequences.

Before he had gone far, the moon floated up on the horizon, large, and

shaped like the broadside of a barrel. She stared at him in amazement

to see him out at such a time of the night. But he grasped his violin

and went on. He had no fear now, even when he passed again over the

desolate moss, although he saw the stagnant pools glimmering about him

in the moonlight. And ever after this he had a fancy for roaming at

night. He reached home in safety, found the door as he had left it,

and ascended to his bed, triumphant in his fiddle.

In the morning bloody prints were discovered on the stair, and traced

to the door of his room. Miss Lammie entered in some alarm, and found

him fast asleep on his bed, still dressed, with a brown-paper parcel

in his arms, and one of his feet evidently enough the source of the

frightful stain. She was too kind to wake him, and inquiry was

postponed till they met at breakfast, to which he descended

bare-footed, save for a handkerchief on the injured foot.

'Robert, my lad,' said Mr. Lammie, kindly, 'hoo cam ye by that bluidy

fut?'

Robert began the story, and, guided by a few questions from his host,

at length told the tale of the violin from beginning to end, omitting

only his adventure in the factory. Many a guffaw from Mr. Lammie

greeted its progress, and Miss Lammie laughed till the tears rolled

unheeded down her cheeks, especially when Shargar, emboldened by the

admiration Robert had awakened, imparted his private share in the

comedy, namely, the entombment of Boston in a fifth-fold state; for

the Lammies were none of the unco guid to be censorious upon such

exploits. The whole business advanced the boys in favour at Bodyfauld;

and the entreaties of Robert that nothing, should reach his

grandmother's ears were entirely unnecessary.

After breakfast Miss Lammie dressed the wounded foot. But what was to

be done for shoes, for Robert's Sunday pair had been left at home?

Under ordinary circumstances it would have been no great hardship to

him to go barefoot for the rest of the autumn, but the cut was rather

a serious one. So his feet were cased in a pair of Mr. Lammie's Sunday

boots, which, from their size, made it so difficult for him to get

along, that he did not go far from the doors, but revelled in the

company of his violin in the corn-yard amongst last year's ricks, in

the barn, and in the hayloft, playing all the tunes he knew, and

trying over one or two more from a very dirty old book of Scotch airs,

which his teacher had lent him.

In the evening, as they sat together after supper, Mr. Lammie said,

'Weel, Robert, hoo's the fiddle?'

'Fine, I thank ye, sir,' answered Robert.

'Lat's hear what ye can do wi' 't.'

Robert fetched the instrument and complied.

'That's no that ill,' remarked the farmer. 'But eh! man, ye suld hae

heard yer gran'father han'le the bow. That was something to hear--ance

in a body's life. Ye wad hae jist thoucht the strings had been drawn

frae his ain inside, he kent them sae weel, and han'led them sae fine.

He jist fan' (felt) them like wi' 's fingers throu' the bow an' the

horsehair an' a', an' a' the time he was drawin' the soun' like the

sowl frae them, an' they jist did onything 'at he likit. Eh! to hear

him play the Flooers o' the Forest wad hae garred ye greit.'

'Cud my father play?' asked Robert.

'Ay, weel eneuch for him. He could do onything he likit to try, better

nor middlin'. I never saw sic a man. He played upo' the bagpipes, an'

the flute, an' the bugle, an' I kenna what a'; but a'thegither they

cam' na within sicht o' his father upo' the auld fiddle. Lat's hae a

luik at her.'

He took the instrument in his hands reverently, turned it over and

over, and said,

'Ay, ay; it's the same auld mill, an' I wat it grun' (ground) bonny

meal.--That sma' crater noo 'ill be worth a hunner poun', I s'

warran',' he added, as he restored it carefully into Robert's hands,

to whom it was honey and spice to hear his bonny lady paid her due

honours. 'Can ye play the Flooers o' the Forest, no?' he added yet

again.

'Ay can I,' answered Robert, with some pride, and laid the bow on the

violin, and played the air through without blundering a single note.

'Weel, that's verra weel,' said Mr. Lammie. 'But it's nae mair like as

yer gran'father played it, than gin there war twa sawyers at it, ane

at ilka lug o' the bow, wi' the fiddle atween them in a saw-pit.'

Robert's heart sank within him; but Mr. Lammie went on:

'To hear the bow croudin' (cooing), and wailin', an' greitin' ower the

strings, wad hae jist garred ye see the lands o' braid Scotlan' wi' a'

the lasses greitin' for the lads that lay upo' reid Flodden side;

lasses to cut, and lasses to gether, and lasses to bin', and lasses to

stook, and lasses to lead, and no a lad amo' them a'. It's just the

murnin' o' women, doin' men's wark as weel 's their ain, for the men

that suld hae been there to du 't; and I s' warran' ye, no a word to

the orra (exceptional,over-all) lad that didna gang wi' the lave

(rest).'

Robert had not hitherto understood it--this wail of a pastoral and

ploughing people over those who had left their side to return no more

from the field of battle. But Mr. Lammie's description of his

grandfather's rendering laid hold of his heart.

'I wad raither be grutten for nor kissed,' said he, simply.

'Haud ye to that, my lad,' returned Mr. Lammie. 'Lat the lasses greit

for ye gin they like; but haud oot ower frae the kissin'. I wadna mell

wi' 't.'

'Hoot, father, dinna put sic nonsense i' the bairns' heids,' said Miss

Lammie.

'Whilk 's the nonsense, Aggy?' asked her father, slily. 'But I doobt,'

he added, 'he'll never play the Flooers o' the Forest as it suld be

playt, till he's had a taste o' the kissin', lass.'

'Weel, it's a queer instructor o' yowth, 'at says an' onsays i' the

same breith.'

'Never ye min'. I haena contradickit mysel' yet; for I hae said

naething. But, Robert, my man, ye maun pit mair sowl into yer

fiddlin'. Ye canna play the fiddle till ye can gar 't greit. It's unco

ready to that o' 'ts ain sel'; an' it's my opingon that there's no

anither instrument but the fiddle fit to play the Flooers o' the

Forest upo', for that very rizzon, in a' his Maijesty's dominions.--My

father playt the fiddle, but no like your gran'father.'

Robert was silent. He spent the whole of the next morning in

reiterated attempts to alter his style of playing the air in question,

but in vain--as far at least as any satisfaction to himself was the

result. He laid the instrument down in despair, and sat for an hour

disconsolate upon the bedside. His visit had not as yet been at all so

fertile in pleasure as he had anticipated. He could not fly his kite;

he could not walk; he had lost his shoes; Mr. Lammie had not approved

of his playing; and, although he had his will of the fiddle, he could

not get his will out of it. He could never play so as to please Miss

St. John. Nothing but manly pride kept him from crying. He was sorely

disappointed and dissatisfied; and the world might be dreary even at

Bodyfauld.

Few men can wait upon the bright day in the midst of the dull one. Nor

can many men even wait for it.

CHAPTER XX.

JESSIE HEWSON.

THE wound on Robert's foot festered, and had not yet healed when the

sickle was first put to the barley. He hobbled out, however, to the

reapers, for he could not bear to be left alone with his violin, so

dreadfully oppressive was the knowledge that he could not use it after

its nature. He began to think whether his incapacity was not a

judgment upon him for taking it away from the soutar, who could do so

much more with it, and to whom, consequently, it was so much more

valuable. The pain in his foot, likewise, had been very depressing;

and but for the kindness of his friends, especially of Miss Lammie, he

would have been altogether 'a weary wight forlorn.'

Shargar was happier than ever he had been in his life. His white face

hung on Miss Lammie's looks, and haunted her steps from spence

(store-room, as in Devonshire) to milk-house, and from milk-house to

chessel, surmounted by the glory of his red hair, which a farm-servant

declared he had once mistaken for a fun-buss (whin-bush) on fire. This

day she had gone to the field to see the first handful of barley cut,

and Shargar was there, of course.

It was a glorious day of blue and gold, with just wind enough to set

the barley-heads a-talking. But, whether from the heat of the sun, or

the pain of his foot operating on the general discouragement under

which he laboured, Robert turned faint all at once, and dragged

himself away to a cottage on the edge of the field.

It was the dwelling of a cottar, whose family had been settled upon

the farm of Bodyfauld from time immemorial. They were, indeed, like

other cottars, a kind of feudal dependents, occupying an acre or two

of the land, in return for which they performed certain stipulated

labour, called cottar-wark. The greater part of the family was

employed in the work of the farm, at the regular wages.

Alas for Scotland that such families are now to seek! Would that the

parliaments of our country held such a proportion of noble-minded men

as was once to be found in the clay huts on a hill-side, or grouped

about a central farm, huts whose wretched look would move the pity of

many a man as inferior to their occupants as a King Charles's lap-dog

is to a shepherd's colley. The utensils of their life were mean

enough: the life itself was often elixir vitae--a true family life,

looking up to the high, divine life. But well for the world that such

life has been scattered over it, east and west, the seed of fresh

growth in new lands. Out of offence to the individual, God brings good

to the whole; for he pets no nation, but trains it for the perfect

globular life of all nations--of his world--of his universe. As he

makes families mingle, to redeem each from its family selfishness, so

will he make nations mingle, and love and correct and reform and

develop each other, till the planet-world shall go singing through

space one harmony to the God of the whole earth. The excellence must

vanish from one portion, that it may be diffused through the whole.

The seed ripens on one favoured mound, and is scattered over the

plain. We console ourselves with the higher thought, that if Scotland

is worse, the world is better. Yea, even they by whom the offence

came, and who have first to reap the woe of that offence, because they

did the will of God to satisfy their own avarice in laying land to

land and house to house, shall not reap their punishment in having

their own will, and standing therefore alone in the earth when the

good of their evil deeds returns upon it; but the tears of men that

ascended to heaven in the heat of their burning dwellings shall

descend in the dew of blessing even on the hearts of them that kindled

the fire.--'Something too much of this.'

Robert lifted the latch, and walked into the cottage. It was not quite

so strange to him as it would be to most of my readers; still, he had

not been in such a place before. A girl who was stooping by the small

peat fire on the hearth looked up, and seeing that he was lame, came

across the heights and hollows of the clay floor to meet him. Robert

spoke so faintly that she could not hear.

'What's yer wull?' she asked; then, changing her tone,--'Eh! ye're no

weel,' she said. 'Come in to the fire. Tak a haud o' me, and come yer

wa's butt.'

She was a pretty, indeed graceful girl of about eighteen, with the

elasticity rather than undulation of movement which distinguishes the

peasant from the city girl. She led him to the chimla-lug (the ear of

the chimney), carefully levelled a wooden chair to the inequalities of

the floor, and said,

'Sit ye doon. Will I fess a drappy o' milk?'

'Gie me a drink o' water, gin ye please,' said Robert.

She brought it. He drank, and felt better. A baby woke in a cradle on

the other side of the fire, and began to cry. The girl went and took

him up; and then Robert saw what she was like. Light-brown hair

clustered about a delicately-coloured face and hazel eyes. Later in

the harvest her cheeks would be ruddy--now they were peach-coloured. A

white neck rose above a pink print jacket, called a wrapper; and the

rest of her visible dress was a blue petticoat. She ended in pretty,

brown bare feet. Robert liked her, and began to talk. If his

imagination had not been already filled, he would have fallen in love

with her, I dare say, at once; for, except Miss St. John, he had never

seen anything he thought so beautiful. The baby cried now and then.

'What ails the bairnie?' he asked.

'Ow, it's jist cuttin' its teeth. Gin it greits muckle, I maun jist

tak it oot to my mither. She'll sune quaiet it. Are ye haudin'

better?'

'Hoot, ay. I'm a' richt noo. Is yer mither shearin'?'

'Na. She's gatherin'. The shearin' 's some sair wark for her e'en noo.

I suld hae been shearin', but my mither wad fain hae a day o' the

hairst. She thocht it wud du her gude. But I s' warran' a day o' 't

'll sair (satisfy) her, and I s' be at it the morn. She's been unco

dowie (ailing) a' the summer; and sae has the bairnie.'

'Ye maun hae had a sair time o' 't, than.'

'Ay, some. But I aye got some sleep. I jist tuik the towie (string)

into the bed wi' me, and whan the bairnie grat, I waukit, an' rockit

it till 't fell asleep again. But whiles naething wad du but tak him

till 's mammie.'

All the time she was hushing and fondling the child, who went on

fretting when not actually crying.

'Is he yer brither, than?' asked Robert.

'Ay, what ither? I maun tak him, I see. But ye can sit there as lang

's ye like; and gin ye gang afore I come back, jist turn the key 'i

the door to lat onybody ken that there's naebody i' the hoose.'

Robert thanked her, and remained in the shadow by the chimney, which

was formed of two smoke-browned planks fastened up the wall, one on

each side, and an inverted wooden funnel above to conduct the smoke

through the roof. He sat for some time gloomily gazing at a spot of

sunlight which burned on the brown clay floor. All was still as death.

And he felt the white-washed walls even more desolate than if they had

been smoke-begrimed.

Looking about him, he found over his head something which he did not

understand. It was as big as the stump of a great tree. Apparently it

belonged to the structure of the cottage, but he could not, in the

imperfect light, and the dazzling of the sun-spot at which he had been

staring, make out what it was, or how it came to be up

there--unsupported as far as he could see. He rose to examine it,

lifted a bit of tarpaulin which hung before it, and found a rickety

box, suspended by a rope from a great nail in the wall. It had two

shelves in it full of books.

Now, although there were more books in Mr. Lammie's house than in his

grandmother's, the only one he had found that in the least enticed him

to read, was a translation of George Buchanan's History of Scotland.

This he had begun to read faithfully, believing every word of it, but

had at last broken down at the fiftieth king or so. Imagine, then, the

moon that arose on the boy when, having pulled a ragged and thumb-worn

book from among those of James Hewson the cottar, he, for the first

time, found himself in the midst of The Arabian Nights. I shrink from

all attempt to set forth in words the rainbow-coloured delight that

coruscated in his brain. When Jessie Hewson returned, she found him

seated where she had left him, so buried in his volume that he did not

lift his head when she entered.

'Ye hae gotten a buik,' she said.

'Ay have I,' answered Robert, decisively.

'It's a fine buik, that. Did ye ever see 't afore?'

'Na, never.'

'There's three wolums o' 't about, here and there,' said Jessie; and

with the child on one arm, she proceeded with the other hand to search

for them in the crap o' the wa', that is, on the top of the wall where

the rafters rest.

There she found two or three books, which, after examining them, she

placed on the dresser beside Robert.

'There's nane o' them there,' she said; 'but maybe ye wad like to luik

at that anes.'

Robert thanked her, but was too busy to feel the least curiosity about

any book in the world but the one he was reading. He read on, heart

and soul and mind absorbed in the marvels of the eastern skald; the

stories told in the streets of Cairo, amidst gorgeous costumes, and

camels, and white-veiled women, vibrating here in the heart of a

Scotch boy, in the darkest corner of a mud cottage, at the foot of a

hill of cold-loving pines, with a barefooted girl and a baby for his

companions.

But the pleasure he had been having was of a sort rather to expedite

than to delay the subjective arrival of dinner-time. There was,

however, happily no occasion to go home in order to appease his

hunger; he had but to join the men and women in the barley-field:

there was sure to be enough, for Miss Lammie was at the head of the

commissariat.

When he had had as much milk-porridge as he could eat, and a good

slice of swack (elastic) cheese, with a cap (wooden bowl) of ale, all

of which he consumed as if the good of them lay in the haste of their

appropriation, he hurried back to the cottage, and sat there reading

The Arabian Nights, till the sun went down in the orange-hued west,

and the gloamin' came, and with it the reapers, John and Elspet

Hewson, and their son George, to their supper and early bed.

John was a cheerful, rough, Roman-nosed, black-eyed man, who took

snuff largely, and was not careful to remove the traces of the habit.

He had a loud voice, and an original way of regarding things, which,

with his vivacity, made every remark sound like the proclamation of a

discovery.

'Are ye there, Robert?' said he, as he entered. Robert rose, absorbed

and silent.

'He's been here a' day, readin' like a colliginer,' said Jessie.

'What are ye readin' sae eident (diligent), man?' asked John.

'A buik o' stories, here,' answered Robert, carelessly, shy of being

supposed so much engrossed with them as he really was.

I should never expect much of a young poet who was not rather ashamed

of the distinction which yet he chiefly coveted. There is a modesty in

all young delight. It is wild and shy, and would hide itself, like a

boy's or maiden's first love, from the gaze of the people. Something

like this was Robert's feeling over The Arabian Nights.

'Ay,' said John, taking snuff from a small bone spoon, 'it's a gran'

buik that. But my son Charley, him 'at 's deid an' gane hame, wad hae

tell't ye it was idle time readin' that, wi' sic a buik as that ither

lyin' at yer elbuck.'

He pointed to one of the books Jessie had taken from the crap o' the

wa' and laid down beside him on the well-scoured dresser. Robert took

up the volume and opened it. There was no title-page.

'The Tempest?' he said. 'What is 't? Poetry?'

'Ay is 't. It's Shackspear.'

'I hae heard o' him,' said Robert. 'What was he?'

'A player kin' o' a chiel', wi' an unco sicht o' brains,' answered

John. 'He cudna hae had muckle time to gang skelpin' and sornin' aboot

the country like maist o' thae cattle, gin he vrote a' that, I'm

thinkin'.'

'Whaur did he bide?'

'Awa' in Englan'--maistly aboot Lonnon, I'm thinkin'. That's the place

for a' by-ordinar fowk, they tell me.'

'Hoo lang is 't sin he deid?'

'I dinna ken. A hunner year or twa, I s' warran'. It's a lang time.

But I'm thinkin' fowk than was jist something like what they are noo.

But I ken unco little aboot him, for the prent 's some sma', and I'm

some ill for losin' my characters, and sae I dinna win that far benn

wi' him. Geordie there 'll tell ye mair aboot him.'

But George Hewson had not much to communicate, for he had but lately

landed in Shakspere's country, and had got but a little way inland

yet. Nor did Robert much care, for his head was full of The Arabian

Nights. This, however, was his first introduction to Shakspere.

Finding himself much at home, he stopped yet a while, shared in the

supper, and resumed his seat in the corner when the book was brought

out for worship. The iron lamp, with its wick of rush-pith, which hung

against the side of the chimney, was lighted, and John sat down to

read. But as his eyes and the print, too, had grown a little dim with

years, the lamp was not enough, and he asked for a 'fir-can'le.' A

splint of fir dug from the peat-bog was handed to him. He lighted it

at the lamp, and held it in his hand over the page. Its clear resinous

flame enabled him to read a short psalm. Then they sang a most wailful

tune, and John prayed. If I were to give the prayer as he uttered it,

I might make my reader laugh, therefore I abstain, assuring him only

that, although full of long words--amongst the rest, aspiration and

ravishment--the prayer of the cheerful, joke-loving cottar contained

evidence of a degree of religious development rare, I doubt, amongst

bishops.

When Robert left the cottage, he found the sky partly clouded and the

air cold. The nearest way home was across the barley-stubble of the

day's reaping, which lay under a little hill covered with various

species of the pine. His own soul, after the restful day he had spent,

and under the reaction from the new excitement of the stories he had

been reading, was like a quiet, moonless night. The thought of his

mother came back upon him, and her written words, 'O Lord, my heart is

very sore'; and the thought of his father followed that, and he limped

slowly home, laden with mournfulness. As he reached the middle of the

field, the wind was suddenly there with a low sough from out of the

north-west. The heads of barley in the sheaves leaned away with a soft

rustling from before it; and Robert felt for the first time the

sadness of a harvest-field. Then the wind swept away to the

pine-covered hill, and raised a rushing and a wailing amongst its

thin-clad branches, and to the ear of Robert the trees were singing

over again in their night solitudes the air sung by the cottar's

family. When he looked to the north-west, whence the wind came, he saw

nothing but a pale cleft in the sky. The meaning, the music of the

night awoke in his soul; he forgot his lame foot, and the weight of

Mr. Lammie's great boots, ran home and up the stair to his own room,

seized his violin with eager haste, nor laid it down again till he

could draw from it, at will, a sound like the moaning of the wind over

the stubble-field. Then he knew that he could play the Flowers of the

Forest. The Wind that Shakes the Barley cannot have been named from

the barley after it was cut, but while it stood in the field: the

Flowers of the Forest was of the gathered harvest.

He tried the air once over in the dark, and then carried his violin

down to the room where Mr. and Miss Lammie sat.

'I think I can play 't noo, Mr. Lammie,' he said abruptly.

'Play what, callant?' asked his host.

'The Flooers o' the Forest.'

'Play awa' than.'

And Robert played--not so well as he had hoped. I dare say it was a

humble enough performance, but he gave something at least of the

expression Mr. Lammie desired. For, the moment the tune was over, he

exclaimed,

'Weel dune, Robert man! ye'll be a fiddler some day yet!'

And Robert was well satisfied with the praise.

'I wish yer mother had been alive,' the farmer went on. 'She wad hae

been rael prood to hear ye play like that. Eh! she likit the fiddle

weel. And she culd play bonny upo' the piana hersel'. It was something

to hear the twa o' them playing thegither, him on the fiddle--that

verra fiddle o' 's father's 'at ye hae i' yer han'--and her on the

piana. Eh! but she was a bonnie wuman as ever I saw, an' that quaiet!

It's my belief she never thocht aboot her ain beowty frae week's en'

to week's en', and that's no sayin' little--is 't, Aggy?'

'I never preten't ony richt to think aboot sic,' returned Miss Lammie,

with a mild indignation.

'That's richt, lass. Od, ye're aye i' the richt--though I say 't 'at

sudna.'

Miss Lammie must indeed have been good-natured, to answer only with a

genuine laugh. Shargar looked explosive with anger. But Robert would

fain hear more of his mother.

'What was my mother like, Mr. Lammie?' he asked.

'Eh, my man! ye suld hae seen her upon a bonnie bay mere that yer

father gae her. Faith! she sat as straught as a rash, wi' jist a hing

i' the heid o' her, like the heid o' a halm o' wild aits.'

'My father wasna that ill till her than?' suggested Robert.

'Wha ever daured say sic a thing?' returned Mr. Lammie, but in a tone

so far from satisfactory to Robert, that he inquired no more in that

direction.

I need hardly say that from that night Robert was more than ever

diligent with his violin.

CHAPTER XXI.

THE DRAGON.

NEXT day, his foot was so much better that he sent Shargar to

Rothieden to buy the string, taking with him Robert's school-bag, in

which to carry off his Sunday shoes; for as to those left at Dooble

Sanny's, they judged it unsafe to go in quest of them: the soutar

could hardly be in a humour fit to be intruded upon.

Having procured the string, Shargar went to Mrs. Falconer's. Anxious

not to encounter her, but, if possible, to bag the boots quietly, he

opened the door, peeped in, and seeing no one, made his way towards

the kitchen. He was arrested, however, as he crossed the passage by

the voice of Mrs. Falconer calling, 'Wha's that?' There she was at the

parlour door. It paralyzed him. His first impulse was to make a rush

and escape. But the boots--he could not go without at least an attempt

upon them. So he turned and faced her with inward trembling.

'Wha's that?' repeated the old lady, regarding him fixedly. 'Ow, it's

you! What duv ye want? Ye camna to see me, I'm thinkin'! What hae ye

i' that bag?'

'I cam to coff (buy) twine for the draigon,' answered Shargar.

'Ye had twine eneuch afore!'

'It bruik. It wasna strang eneuch.'

'Whaur got ye the siller to buy mair? Lat's see 't?'

Shargar took the string from the bag.

'Sic a sicht o' twine! What paid ye for 't?'

'A shillin'.'

'Whaur got ye the shillin'?'

'Mr. Lammie gae 't to Robert.'

'I winna hae ye tak siller frae naebody. It's ill mainners. Hae!' said

the old lady, putting her hand in her pocket, and taking out a

shilling. 'Hae,' she said. 'Gie Mr. Lammie back his shillin', an' tell

'im 'at I wadna hae ye learn sic ill customs as tak siller. It's

eneuch to gang sornin' upon 'im (exacting free quarters) as ye du, ohn

beggit for siller. Are they a' weel?'

'Ay, brawly,' answered Shargar, putting the shilling in his pocket.

In another moment Shargar had, without a word of adieu, embezzled the

shoes, and escaped from the house without seeing Betty. He went

straight to the shop he had just left, and bought another shilling's

worth of string.

When he got home, he concealed nothing from Robert, whom he found

seated in the barn, with his fiddle, waiting his return.

Robert started to his feet. He could appropriate his grandfather's

violin, to which, possibly, he might have shown as good a right as his

grandmother--certainly his grandfather would have accorded it him--but

her money was sacred.

'Shargar, ye vratch!' he cried, 'fess that shillin' here direckly. Tak

the twine wi' ye, and gar them gie ye back the shillin'.'

'They winna brak the bargain,' cried Shargar, beginning almost to

whimper, for a savoury smell of dinner was coming across the yard.

'Tell them it's stown siller, and they'll be in het watter aboot it

gin they dinna gie ye 't back.'

'I maun hae my denner first,' remonstrated Shargar.

But the spirit of his grandmother was strong in Robert, and in a

matter of rectitude there must be no temporizing. Therein he could be

as tyrannical as the old lady herself.

'De'il a bite or a sup s' gang ower your thrapple till I see that

shillin'.'

There was no help for it. Six hungry miles must be trudged by Shargar

ere he got a morsel to eat. Two hours and a half passed before he

reappeared. But he brought the shilling. As to how he recovered it,

Robert questioned him in vain. Shargar, in his turn, was obstinate.

'She's a some camstairy (unmanageable) wife, that grannie o' yours,'

said Mr. Lammie, when Robert returned the shilling with Mrs.

Falconer's message, 'but I reckon I maun pit it i' my pooch, for she

will hae her ain gait, an' I dinna want to strive wi' her. But gin ony

o' ye be in want o' a shillin' ony day, lads, as lang 's I'm abune the

yird--this ane 'll be grown twa, or maybe mair, 'gen that time.'

So saying, the farmer put the shilling into his pocket, and buttoned

it up.

The dragon flew splendidly now, and its strength was mighty. It was

Robert's custom to drive a stake in the ground, slanting against the

wind, and thereby tether the animal, as if it were up there grazing in

its own natural region. Then he would lie down by the stake and read

The Arabian Nights, every now and then casting a glance upward at the

creature alone in the waste air, yet all in his power by the string at

his side. Somehow the high-flown dragon was a bond between him and the

blue; he seemed nearer to the sky while it flew, or at least the

heaven seemed less far away and inaccessible. While he lay there

gazing, all at once he would find that his soul was up with the

dragon, feeling as it felt, tossing about with it in the torrents of

the air. Out at his eyes it would go, traverse the dim stairless

space, and sport with the wind-blown monster. Sometimes, to aid his

aspiration, he would take a bit of paper, make a hole in it, pass the

end of the string through the hole, and send the messenger scudding

along the line athwart the depth of the wind. If it stuck by the way,

he would get a telescope of Mr. Lammie's, and therewith watch its

struggles till it broke loose, then follow it careering up to the

kite. Away with each successive paper his imagination would fly, and a

sense of air, and height, and freedom settled from his play into his

very soul, a germ to sprout hereafter, and enrich the forms of his

aspirations. And all his after-memories of kite-flying were mingled

with pictures of eastern magnificence, for from the airy height of the

dragon his eyes always came down upon the enchanted pages of John

Hewson's book.

Sometimes, again, he would throw down his book, and sitting up with

his back against the stake, lift his bonny leddy from his side, and

play as he had never played in Rothieden, playing to the dragon aloft,

to keep him strong in his soaring, and fierce in his battling with the

winds of heaven. Then he fancied that the monster swooped and swept in

arcs, and swayed curving to and fro, in rhythmic response to the music

floating up through the wind.

What a full globated symbolism lay then around the heart of the boy in

his book, his violin, his kite!

CHAPTER XXII.

DR. ANDERSON.

ONE afternoon, as they were sitting at their tea, a footstep in the

garden approached the house, and then a figure passed the window. Mr.

Lammie started to his feet.

'Bless my sowl, Aggy! that's Anderson!' he cried, and hurried to the

door.

His daughter followed. The boys kept their seats. A loud and hearty

salutation reached their ears; but the voice of the farmer was all

they heard. Presently he returned, bringing with him the tallest and

slenderest man Robert had ever seen. He was considerably over six

feet, with a small head, and delicate, if not fine features, a gentle

look in his blue eyes, and a slow clear voice, which sounded as if it

were thinking about every word it uttered. The hot sun of India seemed

to have burned out everything self-assertive, leaving him quietly and

rather sadly contemplative.

'Come in, come in,' repeated Mr. Lammie, overflowing with glad

welcome. 'What'll ye hae? There's a frien' o' yer ain,' he continued,

pointing to Robert, 'an' a fine lad.' Then lowering his voice, he

added: 'A son o' poor Anerew's, ye ken, doctor.'

The boys rose, and Dr. Anderson, stretching his long arms across the

table, shook hands kindly with Robert and Shargar. Then he sat down

and began to help himself to the cakes (oat-cake), at which Robert

wondered, seeing there was 'white breid' on the table. Miss Lammie

presently came in with the teapot and some additional dainties, and

the boys took the opportunity of beginning at the beginning again.

Dr. Anderson remained for a few days at Bodyfauld, sending Shargar to

Rothieden for some necessaries from The Boar's Head, where he had left

his servant and luggage. During this time Mr. Lammie was much occupied

with his farm affairs, anxious to get his harvest in as quickly as

possible, because a change of weather was to be dreaded; so the doctor

was left a good deal to himself. He was fond of wandering about, but,

thoughtful as he was, did not object to the companionship which Robert

implicitly offered him: before many hours were over, the two were

friends.

Various things attracted Robert to the doctor. First, he was a

relation of his own, older than himself, the first he had known except

his father, and Robert's heart was one of the most dutiful. Second, or

perhaps I ought to have put this first, he was the only gentleman,

except Eric Ericson, whose acquaintance he had yet made. Third, he was

kind to him, and gentle to him, and, above all, respectful to him; and

to be respected was a new sensation to Robert altogether. And lastly,

he could tell stories of elephants and tiger hunts, and all The

Arabian Nights of India. He did not volunteer much talk, but Robert

soon found that he could draw him out.

But what attracted the man to the boy?

'Ah! Robert,' said the doctor one day, sadly, 'it's a sore thing to

come home after being thirty years away.'

He looked up at the sky, then all around at the hills: the face of

Nature alone remained the same. Then his glance fell on Robert, and he

saw a pair of black eyes looking up at him, brimful of tears. And thus

the man was drawn to the boy.

Robert worshipped Dr. Anderson. As long as he remained their visitor,

kite and violin and all were forgotten, and he followed him like a

dog. To have such a gentleman for a relation, was grand indeed. What

could he do for him? He ministered to him in all manner of trifles--a

little to the amusement of Dr. Anderson, but more to his pleasure, for

he saw that the boy was both large-hearted and lowly-minded: Dr.

Anderson had learned to read character, else he would never have been

the honour to his profession that he was.

But all the time Robert could not get him to speak about his father.

He steadily avoided the subject.

When he went away, the two boys walked with him to The Boar's Head,

caught a glimpse of his Hindoo attendant, much to their wonderment,

received from the doctor a sovereign apiece and a kind good-bye, and

returned to Bodyfauld.

Dr. Anderson remained a few days longer at Rothieden, and amongst

others visited Mrs. Falconer, who was his first cousin. What passed

between them Robert never heard, nor did his grandmother even allude

to the visit. He went by the mail-coach from Rothieden to Aberdeen,

and whether he should ever see him again Robert did not know.

He flew his kite no more for a while, but betook himself to the work

of the harvest-field, in which he was now able for a share. But his

violin was no longer neglected.

Day after day passed in the delights of labour, broken for Robert by

The Arabian Nights and the violin, and for Shargar by attendance upon

Miss Lammie, till the fields lay bare of their harvest, and the

night-wind of autumn moaned everywhere over the vanished glory of the

country, and it was time to go back to school.

CHAPTER XXIII.

AN AUTO DA FÃ.

THE morning at length arrived when Robert and Shargar must return to

Rothieden. A keen autumnal wind was blowing far-off feathery clouds

across a sky of pale blue; the cold freshened the spirits of the boys,

and tightened their nerves and muscles, till they were like

bow-strings. No doubt the winter was coming, but the sun, although his

day's work was short and slack, was still as clear as ever. So

gladsome was the world, that the boys received the day as a fresh

holiday, and strenuously forgot to-morrow. The wind blew straight from

Rothieden, and between sun and wind a bright thought awoke in Robert.

The dragon should not be carried--he should fly home.

After they had said farewell, in which Shargar seemed to suffer more

than Robert, and had turned the corner of the stable, they heard the

good farmer shouting after them,

'There'll be anither hairst neist year, boys,' which wonderfully

restored their spirits. When they reached the open road, Robert laid

his violin carefully into a broom-bush. Then the tail was unrolled,

and the dragon ascended steady as an angel whose work is done. Shargar

took the stick at the end of the string, and Robert resumed his

violin. But the creature was hard to lead in such a wind; so they made

a loop on the string, and passed it round Shargar's chest, and he

tugged the dragon home. Robert longed to take his share in the

struggle, but he could not trust his violin to Shargar, and so had to

walk beside ingloriously. On the way they laid their plans for the

accommodation of the dragon. But the violin was the greater

difficulty. Robert would not hear of the factory, for reasons best

known to himself, and there were serious objections to taking it to

Dooble Sanny. It was resolved that the only way was to seize the right

moment, and creep upstairs with it before presenting themselves to

Mrs. Falconer. Their intended manÅuvres with the kite would favour the

concealment of this stroke.

Before they entered the town they drew in the kite a little way, and

cut off a dozen yards of the string, which Robert put in his pocket,

with a stone tied to the end. When they reached the house, Shargar

went into the little garden and tied the string of the kite to the

paling between that and Captain Forsyth's. Robert opened the street

door, and having turned his head on all sides like a thief, darted

with his violin up the stairs. Having laid his treasure in one of the

presses in Shargar's garret, he went to his own, and from the skylight

threw the stone down into the captain's garden, fastening the other

end of the string to the bedstead. Escaping as cautiously as he had

entered, he passed hurriedly into their neighbour's garden, found the

stone, and joined Shargar. The ends were soon united, and the kite let

go. It sunk for a moment, then, arrested by the bedstead, towered

again to its former 'pride of place,' sailing over Rothieden, grand

and unconcerned, in the wastes of air.

But the end of its tether was in Robert's garret. And that was to him

a sense of power, a thought of glad mystery. There was henceforth,

while the dragon flew, a relation between the desolate little chamber,

in that lowly house buried among so many more aspiring abodes, and the

unmeasured depths and spaces, the stars, and the unknown heavens. And

in the next chamber lay the fiddle free once more,--yet another

magical power whereby his spirit could forsake the earth and mount

heavenwards.

All that night, all the next day, all the next night, the dragon flew.

Not one smile broke over the face of the old lady as she received

them. Was it because she did not know what acts of disobedience, what

breaches of the moral law, the two children of possible perdition

might have committed while they were beyond her care, and she must not

run the risk of smiling upon iniquity? I think it was rather that

there was no smile in her religion, which, while it developed the

power of a darkened conscience, overlaid and half-smothered all the

lovelier impulses of her grand nature. How could she smile? Did not

the world lie under the wrath and curse of God? Was not her own son in

hell for ever? Had not the blood of the Son of God been shed for him

in vain? Had not God meant that it should be in vain? For by the gift

of his Spirit could he not have enabled him to accept the offered

pardon? And for anything she knew, was not Robert going after him to

the place of misery? How could she smile?

'Noo be dooce,' she said, the moment she had shaken hands with them,

with her cold hands, so clean and soft and smooth. With a volcanic

heart of love, her outside was always so still and cold!--snow on the

mountain sides, hot vein-coursing lava within. For her highest duty

was submission to the will of God. Ah! if she had only known the God

who claimed her submission! But there is time enough for every heart

to know him.

'Noo be dooce,' she repeated, 'an' sit doon, and tell me aboot the

fowk at Bodyfauld. I houpe ye thankit them, or ye left, for their

muckle kindness to ye.'

The boys were silent.

'Didna ye thank them?'

'No, grannie; I dinna think 'at we did.'

'Weel, that was ill-faured o' ye. Eh! but the hert is deceitfu' aboon

a' thing, and desperately wicked. Who can know it? Come awa'. Come

awa'. Robert, festen the door.'

And she led them to the corner for prayer, and poured forth a

confession of sin for them and for herself, such as left little that

could have been added by her own profligate son, had he joined in the

prayer. Either there are no degrees in guilt, or the Scotch language

was equal only to the confession of children and holy women, and could

provide no more awful words for the contrition of the prodigal or the

hypocrite. But the words did little harm, for Robert's mind was full

of the kite and the violin, and was probably nearer God thereby than

if he had been trying to feel as wicked as his grandmother told God

that he was. Shargar was even more divinely employed at the time than

either; for though he had not had the manners to thank his benefactor,

his heart had all the way home been full of tender thoughts of Miss

Lammie's kindness; and now, instead of confessing sins that were not

his, he was loving her over and over, and wishing to be back with her

instead of with this awfully good woman, in whose presence there was

no peace, for all the atmosphere of silence and calm in which she sat.

Confession over, and the boys at liberty again, a new anxiety seized

them. Grannie must find out that Robert's shoes were missing, and what

account was to be given of the misfortune, for Robert would not, or

could not lie? In the midst of their discussion a bright idea flashed

upon Shargar, which, however, he kept to himself: he would steal them,

and bring them home in triumph, emulating thus Robert's exploit in

delivering his bonny leddy.

The shoemaker sat behind his door to be out of the draught: Shargar

might see a great part of the workshop without being seen, and he

could pick Robert's shoes from among a hundred. Probably they lay just

where Robert had laid them, for Dooble Sanny paid attention to any job

only in proportion to the persecution accompanying it.

So the next day Shargar contrived to slip out of school just as the

writing lesson began, for he had great skill in conveying himself

unseen, and, with his book-bag, slunk barefooted into the soutar's

entry.

The shop door was a little way open, and the red eyes of Shargar had

only the corner next it to go peering about in. But there he saw the

shoes. He got down on his hands and knees, and crept nearer. Yes, they

were beyond a doubt Robert's shoes. He made a long arm, like a beast

of prey, seized them, and, losing his presence of mind upon

possession, drew them too hastily towards him. The shoemaker saw them

as they vanished through the door, and darted after them. Shargar was

off at full speed, and Sandy followed with hue and cry. Every idle

person in the street joined in the pursuit, and all who were too busy

or too respectable to run crowded to door and windows. Shargar made

instinctively for his mother's old lair; but bethinking himself when

he reached the door, he turned, and, knowing nowhere else to go, fled

in terror to Mrs. Falconer's, still, however, holding fast by the

shoes, for they were Robert's.

As Robert came home from school, wondering what could have become of

his companion, he saw a crowd about his grandmother's door, and

pushing his way through it in some dismay, found Dooble Sanny and

Shargar confronting each other before the stern justice of Mrs.

Falconer.

'Ye're a leear,' the soutar was panting out. 'I haena had a pair o'

shune o' Robert's i' my han's this three month. Thae shune--lat me see

them--they're--Here's Robert himsel'. Are thae shune yours, noo,

Robert?'

'Ay are they. Ye made them yersel'.'

'Hoo cam they in my chop, than?'

'Speir nae mair quest'ons nor's worth answerin',' said Robert, with a

look meant to be significant. 'They're my shune, and I'll keep them.

Aiblins ye dinna aye ken wha's shune ye hae, or whan they cam in to

ye.'

'What for didna Shargar come an' speir efter them, than, in place o'

makin' a thief o' himsel' that gait?'

'Ye may haud yer tongue,' returned Robert, with yet more significance.

'I was aye a gowk (idiot),' said Shargar, in apologetic reflection,

looking awfully white, and afraid to lift an eye to Mrs. Falconer, yet

reassured a little by Robert's presence.

Some glimmering seemed now to have dawned upon the soutar, for he

began to prepare a retreat. Meantime Mrs. Falconer sat silent,

allowing no word that passed to escape her. She wanted to be at the

bottom of the mysterious affair, and therefore held her peace.

'Weel, I'm sure, Robert, ye never tellt me aboot the shune,' said

Alexander. 'I s' jist tak them back wi' me, and du what's wantit to

them. And I'm sorry that I hae gien ye this tribble, Mistress Faukner;

but it was a' that fule's wite there. I didna even ken it was him,

till we war near-han' the hoose.'

'Lat me see the shune,' said Mrs. Falconer, speaking almost for the

first time. 'What's the maitter wi' them?'

Examining the shoes, she saw they were in a perfectly sound state, and

this confirmed her suspicion that there was more in the affair than

had yet come out. Had she taken the straightforward measure of

examining Robert, she would soon have arrived at the truth. But she

had such a dread of causing a lie to be told, that she would adopt any

roundabout way rather than ask a plain question of a suspected

culprit. So she laid the shoes down beside her, saying to the soutar,

'There's naething amiss wi' the shune. Ye can lea' them.'

Thereupon Alexander went away, and Robert and Shargar would have given

more than their dinner to follow him. Grannie neither asked any

questions, however, nor made a single remark on what had passed.

Dinner was served and eaten, and the boys returned to their afternoon

school.

No sooner was she certain that they were safe under the

school-master's eye than the old lady put on her black silk bonnet and

her black woollen shawl, took her green cotton umbrella, which served

her for a staff, and, refusing Betty's proffered assistance, set out

for Dooble Sanny's shop.

As she drew near she heard the sounds of his violin. When she entered,

he laid his auld wife carefully aside, and stood in an expectant

attitude.

'Mr. Elshender, I want to be at the boddom o' this,' said Mrs.

Falconer.

'Weel, mem, gang to the boddom o' 't,' returned Dooble Sanny, dropping

on his stool, and taking his stone upon his lap and stroking it, as if

it had been some quadrupedal pet. Full of rough but real politeness to

women when in good humour, he lost all his manners along with his

temper upon the slightest provocation, and her tone irritated him.

'Hoo cam Robert's shune to be i' your shop?'

'Somebody bude till hae brocht them, mem. In a' my expairience, and

that's no sma', I never kent pair o' shune gang ohn a pair o' feet i'

the wame o' them.'

'Hoots! what kin' o' gait 's that to speyk till a body? Whase feet was

inside the shune?'

'De'il a bit o' me kens, mem.'

'Dinna sweir, whatever ye du.'

'De'il but I will sweir, mem; an' gin ye anger me, I'll jist sweir

awfu'.'

'I'm sure I hae nae wuss to anger ye, man! Canna ye help a body to win

at the boddom o' a thing ohn angert an' sworn?'

'Weel, I kenna wha brocht the shune, as I tellt ye a'ready.'

'But they wantit nae men'in'.'

'I micht hae men't them an' forgotten 't, mem.'

'Noo ye're leein'.'

'Gin ye gang on that gait, mem, I winna speyk a word o' trowth frae

this moment foret.'

'Jist tell me what ye ken aboot thae shune, an' I'll no say anither

word.'

'Weel, mem, I'll tell ye the trowth. The de'il brocht them in ae day

in a lang taings; and says he, "Elshender, men' thae shune for puir

Robby Faukner; an' dooble-sole them for the life o' ye; for that auld

luckie-minnie o' his 'ill sune hae him doon oor gait, and the grun' 's

het i' the noo; an' I dinna want to be ower sair upon him, for he's a

fine chield, an' 'll mak a fine fiddler gin he live lang eneuch."'

Mrs. Falconer left the shop without another word, but with an awful

suspicion which the last heedless words of the shoemaker had aroused

in her bosom. She left him bursting with laughter over his lapstone.

He caught up his fiddle and played The De'il's i' the Women lustily

and with expression. But he little thought what he had done.

As soon as she reached her own room, she went straight to her bed and

disinterred the bonny leddy's coffin. She was gone; and in her stead,

horror of horrors! lay in the unhallowed chest that body of divinity

known as Boston's Fourfold State. Vexation, anger, disappointment, and

grief possessed themselves of the old woman's mind. She ranged the

house like the 'questing beast' of the Round Table, but failed in

finding the violin before the return of the boys. Not a word did she

say all that evening, and their oppressed hearts foreboded ill. They

felt that there was thunder in the clouds, a sleeping storm in the

air; but how or when it would break they had no idea.

Robert came home to dinner the next day a few minutes before Shargar.

As he entered his grandmother's parlour, a strange odour greeted his

sense. A moment more, and he stood rooted with horror, and his hair

began to rise on his head. His violin lay on its back on the fire, and

a yellow tongue of flame was licking the red lips of a hole in its

belly. All its strings were shrivelled up save one, which burst as he

gazed. And beside, stern as a Druidess, sat his grandmother in her

chair, feeding her eyes with grim satisfaction on the detestable

sacrifice. At length the rigidity of Robert's whole being relaxed in

an involuntary howl like that of a wild beast, and he turned and

rushed from the house in a helpless agony of horror. Where he was

going he knew not, only a blind instinct of modesty drove him to hide

his passion from the eyes of men.

From her window Miss St. John saw him tearing like one demented along

the top walk of the captain's garden, and watched for his return. He

came far sooner than she expected.

Before he arrived at the factory, Robert began to hear strange sounds

in the desolate place. When he reached the upper floor, he found men

with axe and hammer destroying the old woodwork, breaking the old

jennies, pitching the balls of lead into baskets, and throwing the

spools into crates. Was there nothing but destruction in the world?

There, most horrible! his 'bonny leddy' dying of flames, and here, the

temple of his refuge torn to pieces by unhallowed hands! What could it

mean? Was his grandmother's vengeance here too? But he did not care.

He only felt like the dove sent from the ark, that there was no rest

for the sole of his foot, that there was no place to hide his head in

his agony--that he was naked to the universe; and like a heartless

wild thing hunted till its brain is of no more use, he turned and

rushed back again upon his track. At one end was the burning idol, at

the other the desecrated temple.

No sooner had he entered the captain's garden than Miss St. John met

him.

'What is the matter with you, Robert?' she asked, kindly.

'Oh, mem!' gasped Robert, and burst into a very storm of weeping.

It was long before he could speak. He cowered before Miss St. John as

if conscious of an unfriendly presence, and seeking to shelter himself

by her tall figure from his grandmother's eyes. For who could tell but

at the moment she might be gazing upon him from some window, or even

from the blue vault above? There was no escaping her. She was the

all-seeing eye personified--the eye of the God of the theologians of

his country, always searching out the evil, and refusing to

acknowledge the good. Yet so gentle and faithful was the heart of

Robert, that he never thought of her as cruel. He took it for granted

that somehow or other she must be right. Only what a terrible thing

such righteousness was! He stood and wept before the lady.

Her heart was sore for the despairing boy. She drew him to a little

summer-seat. He entered with her, and sat down, weeping still. She did

her best to soothe him. At last, sorely interrupted by sobs, he

managed to let her know the fate of his 'bonnie leddy.' But when he

came to the words, 'She's burnin' in there upo' granny's fire,' he

broke out once more with that wild howl of despair, and then, ashamed

of himself, ceased weeping altogether, though he could not help the

intrusion of certain chokes and sobs upon his otherwise even, though

low and sad speech.

Knowing nothing of Mrs. Falconer's character, Miss St. John set her

down as a cruel and heartless as well as tyrannical and bigoted old

woman, and took the mental position of enmity towards her. In a gush

of motherly indignation she kissed Robert on the forehead.

From that chrism he arose a king.

He dried his eyes; not another sob even broke from him; he gave one

look, but no word of gratitude, to Miss St. John; bade her good-bye;

and walked composedly into his grandmother's parlour, where the neck

of the violin yet lay upon the fire only half consumed. The rest had

vanished utterly.

'What are they duin' doon at the fact'ry, grannie?' he asked.

'What's wha duin', laddie?' returned his grandmother, curtly.

'They're takin' 't doon.'

'Takin' what doon?' she returned, with raised voice.

'Takin' doon the hoose.'

The old woman rose.

'Robert, ye may hae spite in yer hert for what I hae dune this

mornin', but I cud do no ither. An' it's an ill thing to tak sic

amen's o' me, as gin I had dune wrang, by garrin' me troo 'at yer

grandfather's property was to gang the gait o' 's auld, useless,

ill-mainnert scraich o' a fiddle.'

'She was the bonniest fiddle i' the country-side, grannie. And she

never gae a scraich in her life 'cep' whan she was han'let in a

mainner unbecomin'. But we s' say nae mair aboot her, for she's gane,

an' no by a fair strae-deith (death on one's own straw) either. She

had nae blude to cry for vengeance; but the snappin' o' her strings

an' the crackin' o' her banes may hae made a cry to gang far eneuch

notwithstandin'.'

The old woman seemed for one moment rebuked under her grandson's

eloquence. He had made a great stride towards manhood since the

morning.

'The fiddle's my ain,' she said, in a defensive tone. 'And sae is the

fact'ry,' she added, as if she had not quite reassured herself

concerning it.

'The fiddle's yours nae mair, grannie. And for the fact'ry--ye winna

believe me: gang and see yersel'.'

Therewith Robert retreated to his garret.

When he opened the door of it, the first thing he saw was the string

of his kite, which, strange to tell, so steady had been the wind, was

still up in the air--still tugging at the bedpost. Whether it was from

the stinging thought that the true sky-soarer, the violin, having been

devoured by the jaws of the fire-devil, there was no longer any

significance in the outward and visible sign of the dragon, or from a

dim feeling that the time of kites was gone by and manhood on the

threshold, I cannot tell; but he drew his knife from his pocket, and

with one down-stroke cut the string in twain. Away went the dragon,

free, like a prodigal, to his ruin. And with the dragon, afar into the

past, flew the childhood of Robert Falconer. He made one remorseful

dart after the string as it swept out of the skylight, but it was gone

beyond remeid. And never more, save in twilight dreams, did he lay

hold on his childhood again. But he knew better and better, as the

years rolled on, that he approached a deeper and holier childhood, of

which that had been but the feeble and necessarily vanishing type.

As the kite sank in the distance, Mrs. Falconer issued from the house,

and went down the street towards the factory.

Before she came back the cloth was laid for dinner, and Robert and

Shargar were both in the parlour awaiting her return. She entered

heated and dismayed, went into Robert's bedroom, and shut the door

hastily. They heard her open the old bureau. In a moment after she

came out with a more luminous expression upon her face than Robert had

ever seen it bear. It was as still as ever, but there was a strange

light in her eyes, which was not confined to her eyes, but shone in a

measure from her colourless forehead and cheeks as well. It was long

before Robert was able to interpret that change in her look, and that

increase of kindness towards himself and Shargar, apparently such a

contrast with the holocaust of the morning. Had they both been

Benjamins they could not have had more abundant platefuls than she

gave them that day. And when they left her to return to school,

instead of the usual 'Noo be douce,' she said, in gentle, almost

loving tones, 'Noo, be good lads, baith o' ye.'

The conclusion at which Falconer did arrive was that his grandmother

had hurried home to see whether the title-deeds of the factory were

still in her possession, and had found that they were gone--taken,

doubtless, by her son Andrew. At whatever period he had appropriated

them, he must have parted with them but recently. And the hope rose

luminous that her son had not yet passed into the region 'where all

life dies, death lives.' Terrible consolation! Terrible creed, which

made the hope that he was still on this side of the grave working

wickedness, light up the face of the mother, and open her hand in

kindness. Is it suffering, or is it wickedness, that is the awful

thing? 'Ah! but they are both combined in the other world.' And in

this world too, I answer; only, according to Mrs. Falconer's creed, in

the other world God, for the sake of the suffering, renders the

wickedness eternal!

The old factory was in part pulled down, and out of its remains a

granary constructed. Nor did the old lady interpose a word to arrest

the alienation of her property.

CHAPTER XXIV.

BOOT FOR BALE.

MARY ST. JOHN was the orphan daughter of an English clergyman, who had

left her money enough to make her at least independent. Mrs. Forsyth,

hearing that her niece was left alone in the world, had concluded that

her society would be a pleasure to herself and a relief to the

housekeeping. Even before her father's death, Miss St. John, having

met with a disappointment, and concluded herself dead to the world,

had been looking about for some way of doing good. The prospect of

retirement, therefore, and of being useful to her sick aunt, had drawn

her northwards.

She was now about six-and-twenty, filled with two passions--one for

justice, the other for music. Her griefs had not made her selfish, nor

had her music degenerated into sentiment. The gentle style of the

instruction she had received had never begotten a diseased

self-consciousness; and if her religion lacked something of the

intensity without which a character like hers could not be evenly

balanced, its force was not spent on the combating of unholy doubts

and selfish fears, but rose on the wings of her music in gentle

thanksgiving. Tears had changed her bright-hued hopes into a

dove-coloured submission, through which her mind was passing towards a

rainbow dawn such as she had never dreamed of. To her as yet the Book

of Common Prayer contained all the prayers that human heart had need

to offer; what things lay beyond its scope must lie beyond the scope

of religion. All such things must be parted with one day, and if they

had been taken from her very soon, she was the sooner free from the

painful necessity of watching lest earthly love should remove any of

the old landmarks dividing what was God's from what was only man's.

She had now retired within the pale of religion, and left the rest of

her being, as she thought, 'to dull forgetfulness a prey.'

She had little comfort in the society of her aunt. Indeed, she felt

strongly tempted to return again to England the same month, and seek a

divine service elsewhere. But it was not at all so easy then as it is

now for a woman to find the opportunity of being helpful in the world

of suffering.

Mrs. Forsyth was one of those women who get their own way by the very

vis inertiae of their silliness. No argument could tell upon her. She

was so incapable of seeing anything noble that her perfect

satisfaction with everything she herself thought, said, or did,

remained unchallenged. She had just illness enough to swell her

feeling of importance. She looked down upon Mrs. Falconer from such an

immeasurable height that she could not be indignant with her for

anything; she only vouchsafed a laugh now and then at her oddities,

holding no further communication with her than a condescending bend of

the neck when they happened to meet, which was not once a year. But,

indeed, she would have patronized the angel Gabriel, if she had had a

chance, and no doubt given him a hint or two upon the proper way of

praising God. For the rest, she was good-tempered, looked comfortable,

and quarrelled with nobody but her rough honest old bear of a husband,

whom, in his seventieth year, she was always trying to teach good

manners, with the frequent result of a storm of swearing.

But now Mary St. John was thoroughly interested in the strange boy

whose growing musical pinions were ever being clipped by the shears of

unsympathetic age and crabbed religion, and the idea of doing

something for him to make up for the injustice of his grandmother

awoke in her a slight glow of that interest in life which she sought

only in doing good. But although ere long she came to love the boy

very truly, and although Shargar's life was bound up in the favour of

Robert, yet neither stooping angel nor foot-following dog ever loved

the lad with the love of that old grandmother, who would for him have

given herself to the fire to which she had doomed his greatest

delight.

For some days Robert worked hard at his lessons, for he had nothing

else to do. Life was very gloomy now. If he could only go to sea, or

away to keep sheep on the stormy mountains! If there were only some

war going on, that he might list! Any fighting with the elements, or

with the oppressors of the nations, would make life worth having, a

man worth being. But God did not heed. He leaned over the world, a

dark care, an immovable fate, bearing down with the weight of his

presence all aspiration, all budding delights of children and young

persons: all must crouch before him, and uphold his glory with the

sacrificial death of every impulse, every admiration, every lightness

of heart, every bubble of laughter. Or--which to a mind like Robert's

was as bad--if he did not punish for these things, it was because they

came not within the sphere of his condescension, were not worth his

notice: of sympathy could be no question.

But this gloom did not last long. When souls like Robert's have been

ill-taught about God, the true God will not let them gaze too long

upon the Moloch which men have set up to represent him. He will turn

away their minds from that which men call him, and fill them with some

of his own lovely thoughts or works, such as may by degrees prepare

the way for a vision of the Father.

One afternoon Robert was passing the soutar's shop. He had never gone

near him since his return. But now, almost mechanically, he went in at

the open door.

'Weel, Robert, ye are a stranger. But what's the maitter wi' ye?

Faith! yon was an ill plisky ye played me to brak into my chop an'

steal the bonnie leddy.'

'Sandy,' said Robert, solemnly, 'ye dinna ken what ye hae dune by that

trick ye played me. Dinna ever mention her again i' my hearin'.'

'The auld witch hasna gotten a grup o' her again?' cried the

shoemaker, starting half up in alarm. 'She cam here to me aboot the

shune, but I reckon I sortit her!'

'I winna speir what ye said,' returned Robert. 'It's no maitter noo.'

And the tears rose to his eyes. His bonny lady!

'The Lord guide 's!' exclaimed the soutar. 'What is the maitter wi'

the bonnie leddy?'

'There's nae bonnie leddy ony mair. I saw her brunt to death afore my

verra ain een.'

The shoemaker sprang to his feet and caught up his paring knife.

'For God's sake, say 'at yer leein'!' he cried.

'I wish I war leein',' returned Robert.

The soutar uttered a terrible oath, and swore--

'I'll murder the auld--.' The epithet he ended with is too ugly to

write.

'Daur to say sic a word in ae breath wi' my grannie,' cried Robert,

snatching up the lapstone, 'an' I'll brain ye upo' yer ain

shop-flure.'

Sandy threw the knife on his stool, and sat down beside it. Robert

dropped the lapstone. Sandy took it up and burst into tears, which

before they were half down his face, turned into tar with the

blackness of the same.

'I'm an awfu' sinner,' he said, 'and vengeance has owerta'en me. Gang

oot o' my chop! I wasna worthy o' her. Gang oot, I say, or I'll kill

ye.'

Robert went. Close by the door he met Miss St. John. He pulled off his

cap, and would have passed her. But she stopped him.

'I am going for a walk a little way,' she said. 'Will you go with me?'

She had come out in the hope of finding him, for she had seen him go

up the street.

'That I wull,' returned Robert, and they walked on together.

When they were beyond the last house, Miss St. John said,

'Would you like to play on the piano, Robert?'

'Eh, mem!' said Robert, with a deep suspiration. Then, after a pause:

'But duv ye think I cud?'

'There's no fear of that. Let me see your hands.'

'They're some black, I doobt, mem,' he remarked, rubbing them hard

upon his trowsers before he showed them; 'for I was amaist cawin' oot

the brains o' Dooble Sanny wi' his ain lapstane. He's an ill-tongued

chield. But eh! mem, ye suld hear him play upo' the fiddle! He's

greitin' his een oot e'en noo for the bonnie leddy.'

Not discouraged by her inspection of his hands, black as they were,

Miss St. John continued,

'But what would your grandmother say?' she asked.

'She maun ken naething aboot it, mem. I can-not tell her a'thing. She

wad greit an' pray awfu', an' lock me up, I daursay. Ye see, she

thinks a' kin' o' music 'cep' psalm-singin' comes o' the deevil

himsel'. An' I canna believe that. For aye whan I see onything by

ordinar bonnie, sic like as the mune was last nicht, it aye gars me

greit for my brunt fiddle.'

'Well, you must come to me every day for half-an-hour at least, and I

will give you a lesson on my piano. But you can't learn by that. And

my aunt could never bear to hear you practising. So I'll tell you what

you must do. I have a small piano in my own room. Do you know there is

a door from your house into my room?'

'Ay,' said Robert. 'That hoose was my father's afore your uncle bought

it. My father biggit it.'

'Is it long since your father died?'

'I dinna ken.'

'Where did he die?'

'I dinna ken.'

'Do you remember it?'

'No, mem.'

'Well, if you will come to my room, you shall practise there. I shall

be down-stairs with my aunt. But perhaps I may look up now and then,

to see how you are getting on. I will leave the door unlocked, so that

you can come in when you like. If I don't want you, I will lock the

door. You understand? You mustn't be handling things, you know.'

''Deed, mem, ye may lippen (trust) to me. But I'm jist feared to lat

ye hear me lay a finger upo' the piana, for it's little I cud do wi'

my fiddle, an', for the piana! I'm feart I'll jist scunner (disgust)

ye.'

'If you really want to learn, there will be no fear of that,' returned

Miss St. John, guessing at the meaning of the word scunner. 'I don't

think I am doing anything wrong,' she added, half to herself, in a

somewhat doubtful tone.

''Deed no, mem. Ye're jist an angel unawares. For I maist think

sometimes that my grannie 'll drive me wud (mad); for there's naething

to read but guid buiks, an' naething to sing but psalms; an' there's

nae fun aboot the hoose but Betty; an' puir Shargar's nearhan'

dementit wi' 't. An' we maun pray till her whether we will or no. An'

there's no comfort i' the place but plenty to ate; an' that canna be

guid for onybody. She likes flooers, though, an' wad like me to gar

them grow; but I dinna care aboot it: they tak sic a time afore they

come to onything.'

Then Miss St. John inquired about Shargar, and began to feel rather

differently towards the old lady when she had heard the story. But how

she laughed at the tale, and how light-hearted Robert went home, are

neither to be told.

The next Sunday, the first time for many years, Dooble Sanny was at

church with his wife, though how much good he got by going would be a

serious question to discuss.

CHAPTER XXV.

THE GATES OF PARADISE.

ROBERT had his first lesson the next Saturday afternoon. Eager and

undismayed by the presence of Mrs, Forsyth, good-natured and

contemptuous--for had he not a protecting angel by him?--he hearkened

for every word of Miss St. John, combated every fault, and undermined

every awkwardness with earnest patience. Nothing delighted Robert so

much as to give himself up to one greater. His mistress was thoroughly

pleased, and even Mrs. Forsyth gave him two of her soft finger tips to

do something or other with--Robert did not know what, and let them go.

About eight o'clock that same evening, his heart beating like a

captured bird's, he crept from grannie's parlour, past the kitchen,

and up the low stair to the mysterious door. He had been trying for an

hour to summon up courage to rise, feeling as if his grandmother must

suspect where he was going. Arrived at the barrier, twice his courage

failed him; twice he turned and sped back to the parlour. A third time

he made the essay, a third time stood at the wondrous door--so long as

blank as a wall to his careless eyes, now like the door of the magic

Sesame that led to the treasure-cave of Ali Baba. He laid his hand on

the knob, withdrew it, thought he heard some one in the transe, rushed

up the garret stair, and stood listening, hastened down, and with a

sudden influx of determination opened the door, saw that the trap was

raised, closed the door behind him, and standing with his head on the

level of the floor, gazed into the paradise of Miss St. John's room.

To have one peep into such a room was a kind of salvation to the

half-starved nature of the boy. All before him was elegance, richness,

mystery. Womanhood radiated from everything. A fire blazed in the

chimney. A rug of long white wool lay before it. A little way off

stood the piano. Ornaments sparkled and shone upon the dressing-table.

The door of a wardrobe had swung a little open, and discovered the

sombre shimmer of a black silk dress. Something gorgeously red, a

China crape shawl, hung glowing beyond it. He dared not gaze any

longer. He had already been guilty of an immodesty. He hastened to

ascend, and seated himself at the piano.

Let my reader aid me for a moment with his imagination--reflecting

what it was to a boy like Robert, and in Robert's misery, to open a

door in his own meagre dwelling and gaze into such a room--free to

him. If he will aid me so, then let him aid himself by thinking that

the house of his own soul has such a door into the infinite beauty,

whether he has yet found it or not.

'Just think,' Robert said to himself, 'o' me in sic a place! It's a

pailace. It's a fairy pailace. And that angel o' a leddy bides here,

and sleeps there! I wonner gin she ever dreams aboot onything as bonny

's hersel'!'

Then his thoughts took another turn.

'I wonner gin the room was onything like this whan my mamma sleepit in

't? I cudna hae been born in sic a gran' place. But my mamma micht hae

weel lien here.'

The face of the miniature, and the sad words written below the hymn,

came back upon him, and he bowed his head upon his hands. He was

sitting thus when Miss St. John came behind him, and heard him murmur

the one word Mamma! She laid her hand on his shoulder. He started and

rose.

'I beg yer pardon, mem. I hae no business to be here, excep' to play.

But I cudna help thinkin' aboot my mother; for I was born in this

room, mem. Will I gang awa' again?'

He turned towards the door.

'No, no,' said Miss St. John. 'I only came to see if you were here. I

cannot stop now; but to-morrow you must tell me about your mother. Sit

down, and don't lose any more time. Your grandmother will miss you.

And then what would come of it?'

Thus was this rough diamond of a Scotch boy, rude in speech, but full

of delicate thought, gathered under the modelling influences of the

finished, refined, tender, sweet-tongued, and sweet-thoughted

Englishwoman, who, if she had been less of a woman, would have been

repelled by his uncouthness; if she had been less of a lady, would

have mistaken his commonness for vulgarity. But she was just, like the

type of womankind, a virgin-mother. She saw the nobility of his nature

through its homely garments, and had been, indeed, sent to carry on

the work from which his mother had been too early taken away.

'There's jist ae thing mem, that vexes me a wee, an' I dinna ken what

to think aboot it,' said Robert, as Miss St. John was leaving the

room. 'Maybe ye cud bide ae minute till I tell ye.'

'Yes, I can. What is it?'

'I'm nearhan' sure that whan I lea' the parlour, grannie 'ill think

I'm awa' to my prayers; and sae she'll think better o' me nor I

deserve. An' I canna bide that.'

'What should make you suppose that she will think so?'

'Fowk kens what ane anither's aboot, ye ken, mem.'

'Then she'll know you are not at your prayers.'

'Na. For sometimes I div gang to my prayers for a whilie like, but nae

for lang, for I'm nae like ane o' them 'at he wad care to hear sayin'

a lang screed o' a prayer till 'im. I hae but ae thing to pray aboot.'

'And what's that, Robert?'

One of his silences had seized him. He looked confused, and turned

away.

'Never mind,' said Miss St. John, anxious to relieve him, and

establish a comfortable relation between them; 'you will tell me

another time.'

'I doobt no, mem,' answered Robert, with what most people would think

an excess of honesty.

But Miss St. John made a better conjecture as to his apparent

closeness.

'At all events,' she said, 'don't mind what your grannie may think, so

long as you have no wish to make her think it. Good-night.'

Had she been indeed an angel from heaven, Robert could not have

worshipped her more. And why should he? Was she less God's messenger

that she had beautiful arms instead of less beautiful wings?

He practised his scales till his unaccustomed fingers were stiff, then

shut the piano with reverence, and departed, carefully peeping into

the disenchanted region without the gates to see that no enemy lay in

wait for him as he passed beyond them. He closed the door gently; and

in one moment the rich lovely room and the beautiful lady were behind

him, and before him the bare stair between two white-washed walls, and

the long flagged transe that led to his silent grandmother seated in

her arm-chair, gazing into the red coals--for somehow grannie's fire

always glowed, and never blazed--with her round-toed shoes pointed at

them from the top of her little wooden stool. He traversed the stair

and the transe, entered the parlour, and sat down to his open book as

though nothing had happened. But his grandmother saw the light in his

face, and did think he had just come from his prayers. And she blessed

God that he had put it into her heart to burn the fiddle.

The next night Robert took with him the miniature of his mother, and

showed it to Miss St. John, who saw at once that, whatever might be

his present surroundings, his mother must have been a lady. A certain

fancied resemblance in it to her own mother likewise drew her heart to

the boy. Then Robert took from his pocket the gold thimble, and said,

'This thimmel was my mamma's. Will ye tak it, mem, for ye ken it's o'

nae use to me.'

Miss St. John hesitated for a moment.

'I will keep it for you, if you like,' she said, for she could not

bear to refuse it.

'Na, mem; I want ye to keep it to yersel'; for I'm sure my mamma wad

hae likit you to hae 't better nor ony ither body.'

'Well, I will use it sometimes for your sake. But mind, I will not

take it from you; I will only keep it for you.'

'Weel, weel, mem; gin ye'll keep it till I speir for 't, that'll du

weel eneuch,' answered Robert, with a smile.

He laboured diligently; and his progress corresponded to his labour.

It was more than intellect that guided him: Falconer had genius for

whatever he cared for.

Meantime the love he bore his teacher, and the influence of her

beauty, began to mould him, in his kind and degree, after her

likeness, so that he grew nice in his person and dress, and smoothed

the roughness and moderated the broadness of his speech with the

amenities of the English which she made so sweet upon her tongue. He

became still more obedient to his grandmother, and more diligent at

school; gathered to himself golden opinions without knowing it, and

was gradually developing into a rustic gentleman.

Nor did the piano absorb all his faculties. Every divine influence

tends to the rounded perfection of the whole. His love of Nature grew

more rapidly. Hitherto it was only in summer that he had felt the

presence of a power in her and yet above her: in winter, now, the sky

was true and deep, though the world was waste and sad; and the tones

of the wind that roared at night about the goddess-haunted house, and

moaned in the chimneys of the lowly dwelling that nestled against it,

woke harmonies within him which already he tried to spell out

falteringly. Miss St. John began to find that he put expressions of

his own into the simple things she gave him to play, and even dreamed

a little at his own will when alone with the passive instrument.

Little did Mrs. Falconer think into what a seventh heaven of accursed

music she had driven her boy.

But not yet did he tell his friend, much as he loved and much as he

trusted her, the little he knew of his mother's sorrows and his

father's sins, or whose the hand that had struck him when she found

him lying in the waste factory.

For a time almost all his trouble about God went from him. Nor do I

think that this was only because he rarely thought of him at all: God

gave him of himself in Miss St. John. But words dropped now and then

from off the shelves where his old difficulties lay, and they fell

like seeds upon the heart of Miss St. John, took root, and rose in

thoughts: in the heart of a true woman the talk of a child even will

take life.

One evening Robert rose from the table, not unwatched of his

grandmother, and sped swiftly and silently through the dark, as was

his custom, to enter the chamber of enchantment. Never before had his

hand failed to alight, sure as a lark on its nest, upon the brass

handle of the door that admitted him to his paradise. It missed it

now, and fell on something damp, and rough, and repellent instead.

Horrible, but true suspicion! While he was at school that day, his

grandmother, moved by what doubt or by what certainty she never

revealed, had had the doorway walled up. He felt the place all over.

It was to his hands the living tomb of his mother's vicar on earth.

He returned to his book, pale as death, but said never a word. The

next day the stones were plastered over.

Thus the door of bliss vanished from the earth. And neither the boy

nor his grandmother ever said that it had been.

PART II.--HIS YOUTH.

CHAPTER I.

ROBERT KNOCKS--AND THE DOOR IS NOT OPENED.

THE remainder of that winter was dreary indeed. Every time Robert went

up the stair to his garret, he passed the door of a tomb. With that

gray mortar Mary St. John was walled up, like the nun he had read of

in the Marmion she had lent him. He might have rung the bell at the

street door, and been admitted into the temple of his goddess, but a

certain vague terror of his grannie, combined with equally vague

qualms of conscience for having deceived her, and the approach in the

far distance of a ghastly suspicion that violins, pianos, moonlight,

and lovely women were distasteful to the over-ruling Fate, and

obnoxious to the vengeance stored in the gray cloud of his providence,

drove him from the awful entrance of the temple of his Isis.

Nor did Miss St. John dare to make any advances to the dreadful old

lady. She would wait. For Mrs. Forsyth, she cared nothing about the

whole affair. It only gave her fresh opportunity for smiling

condescensions about 'poor Mrs. Falconer.' So Paradise was over and

gone.

But though the loss of Miss St. John and the piano was the last blow,

his sorrow did not rest there, but returned to brood over his bonny

lady. She was scattered to the winds. Would any of her ashes ever rise

in the corn, and moan in the ripening wind of autumn? Might not some

atoms of the bonny leddy creep into the pines on the hill, whose 'soft

and soul-like sounds' had taught him to play the Flowers of the Forest

on those strings which, like the nerves of an amputated limb, yet

thrilled through his being? Or might not some particle find its way by

winds and waters to sycamore forest of Italy, there creep up through

the channels of its life to some finely-rounded curve of noble tree,

on the side that ever looks sunwards, and be chosen once again by the

violin-hunter, to be wrought into a new and fame-gathering instrument?

Could it be that his bonny lady had learned her wondrous music in

those forests, from the shine of the sun, and the sighing of the winds

through the sycamores and pines? For Robert knew that the broad-leaved

sycamore, and the sharp, needle-leaved pine, had each its share in the

violin. Only as the wild innocence of human nature, uncorrupted by

wrong, untaught by suffering, is to that nature struggling out of

darkness into light, such and so different is the living wood, with

its sweetest tones of obedient impulse, answering only to the wind

which bloweth where it listeth, to that wood, chosen, separated,

individualized, tortured into strange, almost vital shape, after a law

to us nearly unknown, strung with strings from animal organizations,

and put into the hands of man to utter the feelings of a soul that has

passed through a like history. This Robert could not yet think, and

had to grow able to think it by being himself made an instrument of

God's music.

What he could think was that the glorious mystery of his bonny leddy

was gone for ever--and alas! she had no soul. Here was an eternal

sorrow. He could never meet her again. His affections, which must live

for ever, were set upon that which had passed away. But the child that

weeps because his mutilated doll will not rise from the dead, shall

yet find relief from his sorrow, a true relief, both human and divine.

He shall know that that which in the doll made him love the doll, has

not passed away. And Robert must yet be comforted for the loss of his

bonny leddy. If she had had a soul, nothing but her own self could

ever satisfy him. As she had no soul, another body might take her

place, nor occasion reproach of inconstancy.

But, in the meantime, the shears of Fate having cut the string of the

sky-soaring kite of his imagination, had left him with the stick in

his hand. And thus the rest of that winter was dreary enough. The glow

was out of his heart; the glow was out of the world. The bleak,

kindless wind was hissing through those pines that clothed the hill

above Bodyfauld, and over the dead garden, where in the summer time

the rose had looked down so lovingly on the heartsease. If he had

stood once more at gloaming in that barley-stubble, not even the wail

of Flodden-field would have found him there, but a keen sense of

personal misery and hopeless cold. Was the summer a lie?

Not so. The winter restrains, that the summer may have the needful

time to do its work well; for the winter is but the sleep of summer.

Now in the winter of his discontent, and in Nature finding no help,

Robert was driven inwards--into his garret, into his soul. There, the

door of his paradise being walled up, he began, vaguely, blindly, to

knock against other doors--sometimes against stone-walls and rocks,

taking them for doors--as travel-worn, and hence brain-sick men have

done in a desert of mountains. A door, out or in, he must find, or

perish.

It fell, too, that Miss St. John went to visit some friends who lived

in a coast town twenty miles off; and a season of heavy snow followed

by frost setting in, she was absent for six weeks, during which time,

without a single care to trouble him from without, Robert was in the

very desert of desolation. His spirits sank fearfully. He would pass

his old music-master in the street with scarce a recognition, as if

the bond of their relation had been utterly broken, had vanished in

the smoke of the martyred violin, and all their affection had gone

into the dust-heap of the past.

Dooble Sanny's character did not improve. He took more and more

whisky, his bouts of drinking alternating as before with fits of

hopeless repentance. His work was more neglected than ever, and his

wife having no money to spend even upon necessaries, applied in

desperation to her husband's bottle for comfort. This comfort, to do

him justice, he never grudged her; and sometimes before midday they

would both be drunk--a condition expedited by the lack of food. When

they began to recover, they would quarrel fiercely; and at last they

became a nuisance to the whole street. Little did the whisky-hating

old lady know to what god she had really offered up that violin--if

the consequences of the holocaust can be admitted as indicating the

power which had accepted it.

But now began to appear in Robert the first signs of a practical

outcome of such truth as his grandmother had taught him, operating

upon the necessities of a simple and earnest nature. Reality, however

lapt in vanity, or even in falsehood, cannot lose its power. It

is--the other is not. She had taught him to look up--that there was a

God. He would put it to the test. Not that he doubted it yet: he only

doubted whether there was a hearing God. But was not that worse? It

was, I think. For it is of far more consequence what kind of a God,

than whether a God or no. Let not my reader suppose I think it

possible there could be other than a perfect God--perfect--even to the

vision of his creatures, the faith that supplies the lack of vision

being yet faithful to that vision. I speak from Robert's point of

outlook. But, indeed, whether better or worse is no great matter, so

long as he would see it or what there was. He had no comfort, and,

without reasoning about it, he felt that life ought to have

comfort--from which point he began to conclude that the only thing

left was to try whether the God in whom his grandmother believed might

not help him. If the God would but hear him, it was all he had yet

learned to require of his Godhood. And that must ever be the first

thing to require. More demands would come, and greater answers he

would find. But now--if God would but hear him! If he spoke to him but

one kind word, it would be the very soul of comfort; he could no more

be lonely. A fountain of glad imaginations gushed up in his heart at

the thought. What if, from the cold winter of his life, he had but to

open the door of his garret-room, and, kneeling by the bare bedstead,

enter into the summer of God's presence! What if God spoke to him face

to face! He had so spoken to Moses. He sought him from no fear of the

future, but from present desolation; and if God came near to him, it

would not be with storm and tempest, but with the voice of a friend.

And surely, if there was a God at all, that is, not a power greater

than man, but a power by whose power man was, he must hear the voice

of the creature whom he had made, a voice that came crying out of the

very need which he had created. Younger people than Robert are capable

of such divine metaphysics. Hence he continued to disappear from his

grandmother's parlour at much the same hour as before. In the cold,

desolate garret, he knelt and cried out into that which lay beyond the

thought that cried, the unknowable infinite, after the God that may be

known as surely as a little child knows his mysterious mother. And

from behind him, the pale-blue, star-crowded sky shone upon his head,

through the window that looked upwards only.

Mrs. Falconer saw that he still went away as he had been wont, and

instituted observations, the result of which was the knowledge that he

went to his own room. Her heart smote her, and she saw that the boy

looked sad and troubled. There was scarce room in her heart for

increase of love, but much for increase of kindness, and she did

increase it. In truth, he needed the smallest crumb of comfort that

might drop from the table of God's 'feastful friends.'

Night after night he returned to the parlour cold to the very heart.

God was not to be found, he said then. He said afterwards that even

then 'God was with him though he knew it not.'

For the very first night, the moment that he knelt and cried, 'O

Father in heaven, hear me, and let thy face shine upon me'--like a

flash of burning fire the words shot from the door of his heart: 'I

dinna care for him to love me, gin he doesna love ilka body;' and no

more prayer went from the desolate boy that night, although he knelt

an hour of agony in the freezing dark. Loyal to what he had been

taught, he struggled hard to reduce his rebellious will to what he

supposed to be the will of God. It was all in vain. Ever a voice

within him--surely the voice of that God who he thought was not

hearing--told him that what he wanted was the love belonging to his

human nature, his human needs--not the preference of a

court-favourite. He had a dim consciousness that he would be a traitor

to his race if he accepted a love, even from God, given him as an

exception from his kind. But he did not care to have such a love. It

was not what his heart yearned for. It was not love. He could not love

such a love. Yet he strove against it all--fought for religion against

right as he could; struggled to reduce his rebellious feelings, to

love that which was unlovely, to choose that which was abhorrent,

until nature almost gave way under the effort. Often would he sink

moaning on the floor, or stretch himself like a corpse, save that it

was face downwards, on the boards of the bedstead. Night after night

he returned to the battle, but with no permanent success. What a

success that would have been! Night after night he came pale and worn

from the conflict, found his grandmother and Shargar composed, and in

the quietness of despair sat down beside them to his Latin version.

He little thought, that every night, at the moment when he stirred to

leave the upper room, a pale-faced, red-eyed figure rose from its seat

on the top of the stair by the door, and sped with long-legged

noiselessness to resume its seat by the grandmother before he should

enter. Shargar saw that Robert was unhappy, and the nearest he could

come to the sharing of his unhappiness was to take his place outside

the door within which he had retreated. Little, too, did Shargar, on

his part, think that Robert, without knowing it, was pleading for him

inside--pleading for him and for all his race in the weeping that

would not be comforted.

Robert had not the vaguest fancy that God was with him--the spirit of

the Father groaning with the spirit of the boy in intercession that

could not be uttered. If God had come to him then and comforted him

with the assurance of individual favour--but the very supposition is a

taking of his name in vain--had Robert found comfort in the fancied

assurance that God was his friend in especial, that some private

favour was granted to his prayers, that, indeed, would have been to be

left to his own inventions, to bring forth not fruits meet for

repentance, but fruits for which repentance alone is meet. But God was

with him, and was indeed victorious in the boy when he rose from his

knees, for the last time, as he thought, saying, 'I cannot yield--I

will pray no more.'--With a burst of bitter tears he sat down on the

bedside till the loudest of the storm was over, then dried his dull

eyes, in which the old outlook had withered away, and trod unknowingly

in the silent footsteps of Shargar, who was ever one corner in advance

of him, down to the dreary lessons and unheeded prayers; but, thank

God, not to the sleepless night, for some griefs bring sleep the

sooner.

My reader must not mistake my use of the words especial and private,

or suppose that I do not believe in an individual relation between

every man and God, yes, a peculiar relation, differing from the

relation between every other man and God! But this very individuality

and peculiarity can only be founded on the broadest truths of the

Godhood and the manhood.

Mrs. Falconer, ere she went to sleep, gave thanks that the boys had

been at their prayers together. And so, in a very deep sense, they

had.

And well they might have been; for Shargar was nearly as desolate as

Robert, and would certainly, had his mother claimed him now, have gone

on the tramp with her again. Wherein could this civilized life show

itself to him better than that to which he had been born? For clothing

he cared little, and he had always managed to kill his hunger or

thirst, if at longer intervals, then with greater satisfaction.

Wherein is the life of that man who merely does his eating and

drinking and clothing after a civilized fashion better than that of

the gipsy or tramp? If the civilized man is honest to boot, and gives

good work in return for the bread or turtle on which he dines, and the

gipsy, on the other hand, steals his dinner, I recognize the

importance of the difference; but if the rich man plunders the

community by exorbitant profits, or speculation with other people's

money, while the gipsy adds a fowl or two to the produce of his

tinkering; or, once again, if the gipsy is as honest as the honest

citizen, which is not so rare a case by any means as people imagine, I

return to my question: Wherein, I say, is the warm house, the windows

hung with purple, and the table covered with fine linen, more divine

than the tent or the blue sky, and the dipping in the dish? Why should

not Shargar prefer a life with the mother God had given him to a life

with Mrs. Falconer? Why should he prefer geography to rambling, or

Latin to Romany? His purposelessness and his love for Robert alone

kept him where he was.

The next evening, having given up his praying, Robert sat with his

Sallust before him. But the fount of tears began to swell, and the

more he tried to keep it down, the more it went on swelling till his

throat was filled with a lump of pain. He rose and left the room. But

he could not go near the garret. That door too was closed. He opened

the house door instead, and went out into the street. There, nothing

was to be seen but faint blue air full of moonlight, solid houses, and

shining snow. Bareheaded he wandered round the corner of the house to

the window whence first he had heard the sweet sounds of the

pianoforte. The fire within lighted up the crimson curtains, but no

voice of music came forth. The window was as dumb as the pale, faintly

befogged moon overhead, itself seeming but a skylight through which

shone the sickly light of the passionless world of the dead. Not a

form was in the street. The eyes of the houses gleamed here and there

upon the snow. He leaned his elbow on the window-sill behind which

stood that sealed fountain of lovely sound, looked up at the moon,

careless of her or of aught else in heaven or on earth, and sunk into

a reverie, in which nothing was consciously present but a stream of

fog-smoke that flowed slowly, listlessly across the face of the moon,

like the ghost of a dead cataract. All at once a wailful sound arose

in his head. He did not think for some time whether it was born in his

brain, or entered it from without. At length he recognized the Flowers

of the Forest, played as only the soutar could play it. But alas! the

cry responsive to his bow came only from the auld wife--no more from

the bonny leddy! Then he remembered that there had been a humble

wedding that morning on the opposite side of the way; in the street

department of the jollity of which Shargar had taken a small share by

firing a brass cannon, subsequently confiscated by Mrs. Falconer. But

this was a strange tune to play at a wedding! The soutar half-way to

his goal of drunkenness, had begun to repent for the fiftieth time

that year, had with his repentance mingled the memory of the bonny

leddy ruthlessly tortured to death for his wrong, and had glided from

a strathspey into that sorrowful moaning. The lament interpreted

itself to his disconsolate pupil as he had never understood it before,

not even in the stubble-field; for it now spoke his own feelings of

waste misery, forsaken loneliness. Indeed Robert learned more of music

in those few minutes of the foggy winter night and open street, shut

out of all doors, with the tones of an ancient grief and lamentation

floating through the blotted moonlight over his ever-present sorrow,

than he could have learned from many lessons even of Miss St. John. He

was cold to the heart, yet went in a little comforted.

Things had gone ill with him. Outside of Paradise, deserted of his

angel, in the frost and the snow, the voice of the despised violin

once more the source of a sad comfort! But there is no better

discipline than an occasional descent from what we count well-being,

to a former despised or less happy condition. One of the results of

this taste of damnation in Robert was, that when he was in bed that

night, his heart began to turn gently towards his old master. How much

did he not owe him, after all! Had he not acted ill and ungratefully

in deserting him? His own vessel filled to the brim with grief, had he

not let the waters of its bitterness overflow into the heart of the

soutar? The wail of that violin echoed now in Robert's heart, not for

Flodden, not for himself, but for the debased nature that drew forth

the plaint. Comrades in misery, why should they part? What right had

he to forsake an old friend and benefactor because he himself was

unhappy? He would go and see him the very next night. And he would

make friends once more with the much 'suffering instrument' he had so

wrongfully despised.

CHAPTER II.

THE STROKE.

THE following night, he left his books on the table, and the house

itself behind him, and sped like a grayhound to Dooble Sanny's shop,

lifted the latch, and entered.

By the light of a single dip set on a chair, he saw the shoemaker

seated on his stool, one hand lying on the lap of his leathern apron,

his other hand hanging down by his side, and the fiddle on the ground

at his feet. His wife stood behind him, wiping her eyes with her blue

apron. Through all its accumulated dirt, the face of the soutar looked

ghastly, and they were eyes of despair that he lifted to the face of

the youth as he stood holding the latch in his hand. Mrs. Alexander

moved towards Robert, drew him in, and gently closed the door behind

him, resuming her station like a sculptured mourner behind her

motionless husband.

'What on airth's the maitter wi' ye, Sandy?' said Robert.

'Eh, Robert!' returned the shoemaker, and a tone of affection tinged

the mournfulness with which he uttered the strange words--'eh, Robert!

the Almichty will gang his ain gait, and I'm in his grup noo.'

'He's had a stroke,' said his wife, without removing her apron from

her eyes.

'I hae gotten my pecks (blows),' resumed the soutar, in a despairing

voice, which gave yet more effect to the fantastic eccentricity of

conscience which from the midst of so many grave faults chose such a

one as especially bringing the divine displeasure upon him: 'I hae

gotten my pecks for cryin' doon my ain auld wife to set up your bonny

leddy. The tane's gane a' to aise an' stew (ashes and dust), an' frae

the tither,' he went on, looking down on the violin at his feet as if

it had been something dead in its youth--'an' frae the tither I canna

draw a cheep, for my richt han' has forgotten her cunnin' Man, Robert,

I canna lift it frae my side.'

'Ye maun gang to yer bed,' said Robert, greatly concerned.

'Ow, ay, I maun gang to my bed, and syne to the kirkyaird, and syne to

hell, I ken that weel eneuch. Robert, I lea my fiddle to you. Be guid

to the auld wife, man--better nor I hae been. An auld wife's better

nor nae fiddle.'

He stooped, lifted the violin with his left hand, gave it to Robert,

rose, and made for the door. They helped him up the creaking stair,

got him half-undressed, and laid him in his bed. Robert put the violin

on the top of a press within sight of the sufferer, left him groaning,

and ran for the doctor. Having seen him set out for the patient's

dwelling, he ran home to his grandmother.

Now while Robert was absent, occasion had arisen to look for him:

unusual occurrence, a visitor had appeared, no less a person than Mr.

Innes, the school-master. Shargar had been banished in consequence

from the parlour, and had seated himself outside Robert's room, never

doubting that Robert was inside. Presently he heard the bell ring, and

then Betty came up the stair, and said Robert was wanted. Thereupon

Shargar knocked at the door, and as there was neither voice nor

hearing, opened it, and found, with a well-known horror, that he had

been watching an empty room. He made no haste to communicate the fact.

Robert might return in a moment, and his absence from the house not be

discovered. He sat down on the bedstead and waited. But Betty came up

again, and before Shargar could prevent her, walked into the room with

her candle in her hand. In vain did Shargar intreat her to go and say

that Robert was coming. Betty would not risk the danger of discovery

in connivance, and descended to open afresh the fountain of the old

lady's anxiety. She did not, however, betray her disquietude to Mr.

Innes.

She had asked the school-master to visit her, in order that she might

consult him about Robert's future. Mr. Innes expressed a high opinion

of the boy's faculties and attainments, and strongly urged that he

should be sent to college. Mrs. Falconer inwardly shuddered at the

temptations to which this course would expose him; but he must leave

home or be apprentice to some trade. She would have chosen the latter,

I believe, but for religion towards the boy's parents, who would never

have thought of other than a profession for him. While the

school-master was dwelling on the argument that he was pretty sure to

gain a good bursary, and she would thus be relieved for four years,

probably for ever, from further expense on his account, Robert

entered.

'Whaur hae ye been, Robert?' asked Mrs. Falconer.

'At Dooble Sanny's,' answered the boy.

'What hae ye been at there?'

'Helpin' him till 's bed.'

'What's come ower him?'

'A stroke.'

'That's what comes o' playin' the fiddle.'

'I never heard o' a stroke comin' frae a fiddle, grannie. It comes oot

o' a clood whiles. Gin he had hauden till 's fiddle, he wad hae been

playin' her the nicht, in place o' 's airm lyin' at 's side like a

lang lingel (ligneul--shoemaker's thread).'

'Hm!' said his grandmother, concealing her indignation at this freedom

of speech, 'ye dinna believe in God's judgments!'

'Nae upo' fiddles,' returned Robert.

Mr. Innes sat and said nothing, with difficulty concealing his

amusement at this passage of arms.

It was but within the last few days that Robert had become capable of

speaking thus. His nature had at length arrived at the point of so far

casting off the incubus of his grandmother's authority as to assert

some measure of freedom and act openly. His very hopelessness of a

hearing in heaven had made him indifferent to things on earth, and

therefore bolder. Thus, strange as it may seem, the blessing of God

descended on him in the despair which enabled him to speak out and

free his soul from the weight of concealment. But it was not despair

alone that gave him strength. On his way home from the shoemaker's he

had been thinking what he could do for him; and had resolved, come of

it what might, that he would visit him every evening, and try whether

he could not comfort him a little by playing upon his violin. So that

it was loving-kindness towards man, as well as despair towards God,

that gave him strength to resolve that between him and his grandmother

all should be above-board from henceforth.

'Nae upo' fiddles,' Robert had said.

'But upo' them 'at plays them,' returned his grandmother.

'Na; nor upo' them 'at burns them,' retorted Robert--impudently it

must be confessed; for every man is open to commit the fault of which

he is least capable.

But Mrs. Falconer had too much regard to her own dignity to indulge

her feelings. Possibly too her sense of justice, which Falconer always

said was stronger than that of any other woman he had ever known, as

well as some movement of her conscience interfered. She was silent,

and Robert rushed into the breach which his last discharge had

effected.

'An' I want to tell ye, grannie, that I mean to gang an' play the

fiddle to puir Sanny ilka nicht for the best pairt o' an hoor; an'

excep' ye lock the door an' hide the key, I will gang. The puir sinner

sanna be desertit by God an' man baith.'

He scarcely knew what he was saying before it was out of his mouth;

and as if to cover it up, he hurried on.

'An' there's mair in 't.--Dr. Anderson gae Shargar an' me a sovereign

the piece. An' Dooble Sanny s' hae them, to haud him ohn deid o'

hunger an' cauld.'

'What for didna ye tell me 'at Dr. Anderson had gien ye sic a sicht o'

siller? It was ill-faured o' ye--an' him as weel.'

''Cause ye wad hae sent it back till 'im; an' Shargar and me we thocht

we wad raither keep it.'

'Considerin' 'at I'm at sae muckle expense wi' ye baith, it wadna hae

been ill-contrived to hae brocht the siller to me, an' latten me du

wi' 't as I thocht fit.--Gang na awa', laddie,' she added, as she saw

Robert about to leave the room.

'I'll be back in a minute, grannie,' returned Robert.

'He's a fine lad, that!' said Mr. Innes; 'an' guid 'll come o' 'm, and

that 'll be heard tell o'.'

'Gin he had but the grace o' God, there wadna be muckle to compleen

o',' acquiesced his grandmother.

'There's time eneuch for that, Mrs. Faukner. Ye canna get auld heids

upo' young shoothers, ye ken.'

''Deed for that maitter, ye may get mony an auld heid upo' auld

shoothers, and nae a spark o' grace in 't to lat it see hoo to lay

itsel' doon i' the grave.'

Robert returned before Mr. Innes had made up his mind as to whether

the old lady intended a personal rebuke.

'Hae, grannie,' he said, going up to her, and putting the two

sovereigns in her white palm.

He had found some difficulty in making Shargar give up his, else he

would have returned sooner.

'What's this o' 't, laddie?' said Mrs. Falconer. 'Hoots! I'm nae

gaein' to tak yer siller. Lat the puir soutar-craturs hae 't. But

dinna gie them mair nor a shillin' or twa at ance--jist to haud them

in life. They deserve nae mair. But they maunna sterve. And jist ye

tell them, laddie, at gin they spen' ae saxpence o' 't upo' whusky,

they s' get nae mair.'

'Ay, ay, grannie,' responded Robert, with a glimmer of gladness in his

heart. 'And what aboot the fiddlin', grannie?' he added, half

playfully, hoping for some kind concession therein as well.

But he had gone too far. She vouchsafed no reply, and her face grew

stern with offence. It was one thing to give bread to eat, another to

give music and gladness. No music but that which sprung from effectual

calling and the perseverance of the saints could be lawful in a world

that was under the wrath and curse of God. Robert waited in vain for a

reply.

'Gang yer wa's,' she said at length. 'Mr. Innes and me has some

business to mak an en' o', an' we want nae assistance.'

Robert rejoined Shargar, who was still bemoaning the loss of his

sovereign. His face brightened when he saw its well-known yellow shine

once more, but darkened again as soon as Robert told him to what

service it was now devoted.

'It's my ain,' he said, with a suppressed expostulatory growl.

Robert threw the coin on the floor.

'Tak yer filthy lucre!' he exclaimed with contempt, and turned to

leave Shargar alone in the garret with his sovereign.

'Bob!' Shargar almost screamed, 'tak it, or I'll cut my throat.'

This was his constant threat when he was thoroughly in earnest.

'Cut it, an' hae dune wi' 't,' said Robert cruelly.

Shargar burst out crying.

'Len' me yer knife, than, Bob,' he sobbed, holding out his hand.

Robert burst into a roar of laughter, caught up the sovereign from the

floor, sped with it to the baker's, who refused to change it because

he had no knowledge of anything representing the sum of twenty

shillings except a pound-note, succeeded in getting silver for it at

the bank, and then ran to the soutar's.

After he left the parlour, the discussion of his fate was resumed and

finally settled between his grandmother and the school-master. The

former, in regard of the boy's determination to befriend the shoemaker

in the matter of music as well as of money, would now have sent him at

once to the grammar-school in Old Aberdeen, to prepare for the

competition in the month of November; but the latter persuaded her

that if the boy gave his whole attention to Latin till the next

summer, and then went to the grammar-school for three months or so, he

would have an excellent chance of success. As to the violin, the

school-master said, wisely enough:

'He that will to Cupar maun to Cupar; and gin ye kep (intercept) him

upo' the shore-road, he'll tak to the hill-road; an' I s' warran' a

braw lad like Robert 'll get mony a ane in Ebberdeen 'll be ready

eneuch to gie him a lift wi' the fiddle, and maybe tak him into waur

company nor the puir bed-ridden soutar; an' wi' you an' me to hing on

to the tail o' 'im like, he canna gang ower the scar (cliff) afore he

learns wit.'

'Hm!' was the old lady's comprehensive response.

It was further arranged that Robert should be informed of their

conclusion, and so roused to effort in anticipation of the trial upon

which his course in life must depend.

Nothing could have been better for Robert than the prospect of a

college education. But his first thought at the news was not of the

delights of learning nor of the honourable course that would ensue,

but of Eric Ericson, the poverty-stricken, friendless descendant of

yarls and sea-rovers. He would see him--the only man that understood

him! Not until the passion of this thought had abated, did he begin to

perceive the other advantages before him. But so practical and

thorough was he in all his proposals and means, that ere half-an-hour

was gone, he had begun to go over his Rudiments again. He now wrote a

version, or translation from English into Latin, five times a week,

and read Caeser, Virgil, or Tacitus, every day. He gained permission

from his grandmother to remove his bed to his own garret, and there,

from the bedstead at which he no longer kneeled, he would often rise

at four in the morning, even when the snow lay a foot thick on the

skylight, kindle his lamp by means of a tinder-box and a splinter of

wood dipped in sulphur, and sitting down in the keen cold, turn half a

page of Addison into something as near Ciceronian Latin as he could

effect. This would take him from an hour and a half to two hours, when

he would tumble again into bed, blue and stiff, and sleep till it was

time to get up and go to the morning school before breakfast. His

health was excellent, else it could never have stood such treatment.

CHAPTER III.

'THE END CROWNS ALL'.

His sole relaxation almost lay in the visit he paid every evening to

the soutar and his wife. Their home was a wretched place; but

notwithstanding the poverty in which they were now sunk, Robert soon

began to see a change, like the dawning of light, an alba, as the

Italians call the dawn, in the appearance of something white here and

there about the room. Robert's visits had set the poor woman trying to

make the place look decent. It soon became at least clean, and there

is a very real sense in which cleanliness is next to godliness. If the

people who want to do good among the poor would give up patronizing

them, would cease from trying to convert them before they have gained

the smallest personal influence with them, would visit them as those

who have just as good a right to be here as they have, it would be all

the better for both, perhaps chiefly for themselves.

For the first week or so, Alexander, unable either to work or play,

and deprived of his usual consolation of drink, was very testy and

unmanageable. If Robert, who strove to do his best, in the hope of

alleviating the poor fellow's sufferings--chiefly those of the

mind--happened to mistake the time or to draw a false note from the

violin, Sandy would swear as if he had been the Grand Turk and Robert

one of his slaves. But Robert was too vexed with himself, when he gave

occasion to such an outburst, to mind the outburst itself. And

invariably when such had taken place, the shoemaker would ask

forgiveness before he went. Holding out his left hand, from which

nothing could efface the stains of rosin and lamp-black and heel-ball,

save the sweet cleansing of mother-earth, he would say,

'Robert, ye'll jist pit the sweirin' doon wi' the lave (rest), an'

score 't oot a'thegither. I'm an ill-tongued vratch, an' I'm beginnin'

to see 't. But, man, ye're jist behavin' to me like God himsel', an'

gin it warna for you, I wad jist lie here roarin' an' greitin' an'

damnin' frae mornin' to nicht.--Ye will be in the morn's night--willna

ye?' he would always end by asking with some anxiety.

'Of coorse I will,' Robert would answer.

'Gude nicht, than, gude nicht.--I'll try and get a sicht o' my sins

ance mair,' he added, one evening. 'Gin I could only be a wee bit

sorry for them, I reckon he wad forgie me. Dinna ye think he wad,

Robert?'

'Nae doobt, nae doobt,' answered Robert hurriedly. 'They a' say 'at

gin a man repents the richt gait, he'll forgie him.'

He could not say more than 'They say,' for his own horizon was all

dark, and even in saying this much he felt like a hypocrite. A

terrible waste, heaped thick with the potsherds of hope, lay outside

that door of prayer which he had, as he thought, nailed up for ever.

'An' what is the richt gait?' asked the soutar.

''Deed, that's mair nor I ken, Sandy,' answered Robert mournfully.

'Weel, gin ye dinna ken, what's to come o' me?' said Alexander

anxiously.

'Ye maun speir at himsel',' returned Robert, 'an' jist tell him 'at ye

dinna ken, but ye'll do onything 'at he likes.'

With these words he took his leave hurriedly, somewhat amazed to find

that he had given the soutar the strange advice to try just what he

had tried so unavailingly himself. And stranger still, he found

himself, before he reached home, praying once more in his heart--both

for Dooble Sanny and for himself. From that hour a faint hope was

within him that some day he might try again, though he dared not yet

encounter such effort and agony.

All this time he had never doubted that there was God; nor had he

ventured to say within himself that perhaps God was not good; he had

simply come to the conclusion that for him there was no approach to

the fountain of his being.

In the course of a fortnight or so, when his system had covered over

its craving after whisky, the irritability of the shoemaker almost

vanished. It might have been feared that his conscience would then

likewise relax its activity; but it was not so: it grew yet more

tender. He now began to give Robert some praise, and make allowances

for his faults, and Robert dared more in consequence, and played with

more spirit. I do not say that his style could have grown fine under

such a master, but at least he learned the difference between

slovenliness and accuracy, and between accuracy and expression, which

last is all of original that the best mere performer can claim.

One evening he was scraping away at Tullochgorum when Mr. Maccleary

walked in. Robert ceased. The minister gave him one searching glance,

and sat down by the bedside. Robert would have left the room.

'Dinna gang, Robert,' said Sandy, and Robert remained.

The clergyman talked very faithfully as far as the shoemaker was

concerned; though whether he was equally faithful towards God might be

questioned. He was one of those prudent men, who are afraid of dealing

out the truth freely lest it should fall on thorns or stony places.

Hence of course the good ground came in for a scanty share too.

Believing that a certain precise condition of mind was necessary for

its proper reception, he would endeavour to bring about that condition

first. He did not know that the truth makes its own nest in the ready

heart, and that the heart may be ready for it before the priest can

perceive the fact, seeing that the imposition of hands confers,

now-a-days at least, neither love nor common-sense. He therefore dwelt

upon the sins of the soutar, magnifying them and making them hideous,

in the idea that thus he magnified the law, and made it honourable,

while of the special tenderness of God to the sinner he said not a

word. Robert was offended, he scarcely knew why, with the minister's

mode of treating his friend; and after Mr. Maccleary had taken a far

kinder leave of them than God could approve, if he resembled his

representation, Robert sat still, oppressed with darkness.

'It's a' true,' said the soutar; 'but, man Robert, dinna ye think the

minister was some sair upo' me?'

'I duv think it,' answered Robert.

'Something beirs 't in upo' me 'at he wadna be sae sair upo' me

himsel'. There's something i' the New Testament, some gait, 'at's

pitten 't into my heid; though, faith, I dinna ken whaur to luik for

't. Canna ye help me oot wi' 't, man?'

Robert could think of nothing but the parable of the prodigal son.

Mrs. Alexander got him the New Testament, and he read it. She sat at

the foot of the bed listening.

'There!' cried the soutar, triumphantly, 'I telled ye sae! Not ae word

aboot the puir lad's sins! It was a' a hurry an' a scurry to get the

new shune upo' 'im, an' win at the calfie an' the fiddlin' an' the

dancin'.--O Lord,' he broke out, 'I'm comin' hame as fest 's I can;

but my sins are jist like muckle bauchles (shoes down at heel) upo' my

feet and winna lat me. I expec' nae ring and nae robe, but I wad fain

hae a fiddle i' my grup when the neist prodigal comes hame; an' gin I

dinna fiddle weel, it s' no be my wyte.--Eh, man! but that is what I

ca' gude, an' a' the minister said--honest man--'s jist blether till

't.--O Lord, I sweir gin ever I win up again, I'll put in ilka steek

(stitch) as gin the shune war for the feet o' the prodigal himsel'. It

sall be gude wark, O Lord. An' I'll never lat taste o' whusky intil my

mou'--nor smell o' whusky intil my nose, gin sae be 'at I can help

it--I sweir 't, O Lord. An' gin I binna raised up again--'

Here his voice trembled and ceased, and silence endured for a short

minute. Then he called his wife.

'Come here, Bell. Gie me a kiss, my bonny lass. I hae been an ill man

to you.'

'Na, na, Sandy. Ye hae aye been gude to me--better nor I deserved. Ye

hae been naebody's enemy but yer ain.'

'Haud yer tongue. Ye're speykin' waur blethers nor the minister,

honest man! I tell ye I hae been a damned scoon'rel to ye. I haena

even hauden my han's aff o' ye. And eh! ye war a bonny lass whan I

merried ye. I hae blaudit (spoiled) ye a'thegither. But gin I war up,

see gin I wadna gie ye a new goon, an' that wad be something to make

ye like yersel' again. I'm affrontet wi' mysel' 'at I had been sic a

brute o' a man to ye. But ye maun forgie me noo, for I do believe i'

my hert 'at the Lord's forgien me. Gie me anither kiss, lass. God be

praised, and mony thanks to you! Ye micht hae run awa' frae me lang or

noo, an' a'body wad hae said ye did richt.--Robert, play a spring.'

Absorbed in his own thoughts, Robert began to play The Ewie wi' the

Crookit Horn.

'Hoots! hoots!' cried Sandy angrily. 'What are ye aboot? Nae mair o'

that. I hae dune wi' that. What's i' the heid o' ye, man?'

'What'll I play than, Sandy?' asked Robert meekly.

'Play The Lan' o' the Leal, or My Nannie's awa,', or something o' that

kin'. I'll be leal to ye noo, Bell. An' we winna pree o' the whusky

nae mair, lass.'

'I canna bide the smell o' 't,' cried Bell, sobbing.

Robert struck in with The Lan' o' the Leal. When he had played it over

two or three times, he laid the fiddle in its place, and

departed--able just to see, by the light of the neglected candle, that

Bell sat on the bedside stroking the rosiny hand of her husband, the

rhinoceros-hide of which was yet delicate enough to let the love

through to his heart.

After this the soutar never called his fiddle his auld wife.

Robert walked home with his head sunk on his breast. Dooble Sanny, the

drinking, ranting, swearing soutar, was inside the wicket-gate; and he

was left outside for all his prayers, with the arrows from the castle

of Beelzebub sticking in his back. He would have another try some

day--but not yet--he dared not yet.

Henceforth Robert had more to do in reading the New Testament than in

the fiddle to the soutar, though they never parted without an air or

two. Sandy continued hopeful and generally cheerful, with alternations

which the reading generally fixed on the right side for the night.

Robert never attempted any comments, but left him to take from the

word what nourishment he could. There was no return of strength to the

helpless arm, and his constitution was gradually yielding.

The rumour got abroad that he was a 'changed character,'--how is not

far to seek, for Mr. Maccleary fancied himself the honoured instrument

of his conversion, whereas paralysis and the New Testament were the

chief agents, and even the violin had more share in it than the

minister. For the spirit of God lies all about the spirit of man like

a mighty sea, ready to rush in at the smallest chink in the walls that

shut him out from his own--walls which even the tone of a violin

afloat on the wind of that spirit is sometimes enough to rend from

battlement to base, as the blast of the rams' horns rent the walls of

Jericho. And now to the day of his death, the shoemaker had need of

nothing. Food, wine, and delicacies were sent him by many who, while

they considered him outside of the kingdom, would have troubled

themselves in no way about him. What with visits of condolence and

flattery, inquiries into his experience, and long prayers by his

bedside, they now did their best to send him back among the swine. The

soutar's humour, however, aided by his violin, was a strong antidote

against these evil influences.

'I doobt I'm gaein' to dee, Robert,' he said at length one evening as

the lad sat by his bedside.

'Weel, that winna do ye nae ill,' answered Robert, adding with just a

touch of bitterness--'ye needna care aboot that.'

'I do not care aboot the deein' o' 't. But I jist want to live lang

eneuch to lat the Lord ken 'at I'm in doonricht earnest aboot it. I

hae nae chance o' drinkin' as lang's I'm lyin' here.'

'Never ye fash yer heid aboot that. Ye can lippen (trust) that to him,

for it's his ain business. He'll see 'at ye're a' richt. Dinna ye

think 'at he'll lat ye aff.'

'The Lord forbid,' responded the soutar earnestly. 'It maun be a'

pitten richt. It wad be dreidfu' to be latten aff. I wadna hae him

content wi' cobbler's wark.--I hae 't,' he resumed, after a few

minutes' pause; 'the Lord's easy pleased, but ill to saitisfee. I'm

sair pleased wi' your playin', Robert, but it's naething like the

richt thing yet. It does me gude to hear ye, though, for a' that.'

The very next night he found him evidently sinking fast. Robert took

the violin, and was about to play, but the soutar stretched out his

one left hand, and took it from him, laid it across his chest and his

arm over it, for a few moments, as if he were bidding it farewell,

then held it out to Robert, saying,

'Hae, Robert. She's yours.--Death's a sair divorce.--Maybe they 'll

hae an orra3 fiddle whaur I'm gaein', though. Think o' a Rothieden

soutar playin' afore his grace!'

Robert saw that his mind was wandering, and mingled the paltry honours

of earth with the grand simplicities of heaven. He began to play The

Land o' the Leal. For a little while Sandy seemed to follow and

comprehend the tones, but by slow degrees the light departed from his

face. At length his jaw fell, and with a sigh, the body parted from

Dooble Sanny, and he went to God.

His wife closed mouth and eyes without a word, laid the two arms,

equally powerless now, straight by his sides, then seating herself on

the edge of the bed, said,

'Dinna bide, Robert. It's a' ower noo. He's gang hame. Gin I war only

wi' 'im wharever he is!'

She burst into tears, but dried her eyes a moment after, and seeing

that Robert still lingered, said,

'Gang, Robert, an' sen' Mistress Downie to me. Dinna greit--there's a

gude lad; but tak yer fiddle an' gang. Ye can be no more use.'

Robert obeyed. With his violin in his hand, he went home; and, with

his violin still in his hand, walked into his grandmother's parlour.

'Hoo daur ye bring sic a thing into my hoose?' she said, roused by the

apparent defiance of her grandson. 'Hoo daur ye, efter what's come an'

gane?'

''Cause Dooble Sanny's come and gane, grannie, and left naething but

this ahint him. And this ane's mine, whase ever the ither micht be.

His wife's left wi'oot a plack, an' I s' warran' the gude fowk o'

Rothieden winna mak sae muckle o' her noo 'at her man's awa'; for she

never was sic a randy as he was, an' the triumph o' grace in her 's

but sma', therefore. Sae I maun mak the best 'at I can o' the fiddle

for her. An' ye maunna touch this ane, grannie; for though ye way

think it richt to burn fiddles, ither fowk disna; and this has to do

wi' ither fowk, grannie; it's no atween you an' me, ye ken,' Robert

went on, fearful lest she might consider herself divinely commissioned

to extirpate the whole race of stringed instruments,--'for I maun sell

't for her.'

'Tak it oot o' my sicht,' said Mrs. Falconer, and said no more.

He carried the instrument up to his room, laid it on his bed, locked

his door, put the key in his pocket, and descended to the parlour.

'He's deid, is he?' said his grandmother, as he re-entered.

'Ay is he, grannie,' answered Robert. 'He deid a repentant man.'

'An' a believin'?' asked Mrs. Falconer.

'Weel, grannie, I canna say 'at he believed a' thing 'at ever was, for

a body michtna ken a' thing.'

'Toots, laddie! Was 't savin' faith?'

'I dinna richtly ken what ye mean by that; but I'm thinkin' it was

muckle the same kin' o' faith 'at the prodigal had; for they baith

rase an' gaed hame.'

''Deed, maybe ye're richt, laddie,' returned Mrs. Falconer, after a

moment's thought. 'We'll houp the best.'

All the remainder of the evening she sat motionless, with her eyes

fixed on the rug before her, thinking, no doubt, of the repentance and

salvation of the fiddler, and what hope there might yet be for her own

lost son.

The next day being Saturday, Robert set out for Bodyfauld, taking the

violin with him. He went alone, for he was in no mood for Shargar's

company. It was a fine spring day, the woods were budding, and the

fragrance of the larches floated across his way. There was a lovely

sadness in the sky, and in the motions of the air, and in the scent of

the earth--as if they all knew that fine things were at hand which

never could be so beautiful as those that had gone away. And Robert

wondered how it was that everything should look so different. Even

Bodyfauld seemed to have lost its enchantment, though his friends were

as kind as ever. Mr. Lammie went into a rage at the story of the lost

violin, and Miss Lammie cried from sympathy with Robert's distress at

the fate of his bonny leddy. Then he came to the occasion of his

visit, which was to beg Mr. Lammie, when next he went to Aberdeen, to

take the soutar's fiddle, and get what he could for it, to help his

widow.

'Poor Sanny!' said Robert, 'it never cam' intil 's heid to sell her,

nae mair nor gin she had been the auld wife 'at he ca'd her.'

Mr. Lammie undertook the commission; and the next time he saw Robert,

handed him ten pounds as the result of the negotiation. It was all

Robert could do, however, to get the poor woman to take the money. She

looked at it with repugnance, almost as if it had been the price of

blood. But Robert having succeeded in overcoming her scruples, she did

take it, and therewith provide a store of sweeties, and reels of

cotton, and tobacco, for sale in Sanny's workshop. She certainly did

not make money by her merchandise, for her anxiety to be honest rose

to the absurd; but she contrived to live without being reduced to prey

upon her own gingerbread and rock.

CHAPTER IV.

THE ABERDEEN GARRET.

MISS ST. JOHN had long since returned from her visit, but having heard

how much Robert was taken up with his dying friend, she judged it

better to leave her intended proposal of renewing her lessons alone

for the present. Meeting him, however, soon after Alexander's death,

she introduced the subject, and Robert was enraptured at the prospect

of the re-opening of the gates of his paradise. If he did not inform

his grandmother of the fact, neither did he attempt to conceal it; but

she took no notice, thinking probably that the whole affair would be

effectually disposed of by his departure. Till that period arrived, he

had a lesson almost every evening, and Miss St. John was surprised to

find how the boy had grown since the door was built up. Robert's

gratitude grew into a kind of worship.

The evening before his departure for Bodyfauld--whence his grandmother

had arranged that he should start for Aberdeen, in order that he might

have the company of Mr. Lammie, whom business drew thither about the

same time--as he was having his last lesson, Mrs. Forsyth left the

room. Thereupon Robert, who had been dejected all day at the thought

of the separation from Miss St. John, found his heart beating so

violently that he could hardly breathe. Probably she saw his emotion,

for she put her hand on the keys, as if to cover it by showing him how

some movement was to be better effected. He seized her hand and lifted

it to his lips. But when he found that instead of snatching it away,

she yielded it, nay gently pressed it to his face, he burst into

tears, and dropped on his knees, as if before a goddess.

'Hush, Robert! Don't be foolish,' she said, quietly and tenderly.

'Here is my aunt coming.'

The same moment he was at the piano again, playing My Bonny Lady Ann,

so as to astonish Miss St. John, and himself as well. Then he rose,

bade her a hasty good-night, and hurried away.

A strange conflict arose in his mind at the prospect of leaving the

old place, on every house of whose streets, on every swell of whose

surrounding hills he left the clinging shadows of thought and feeling.

A faintly purpled mist arose, and enwrapped all the past, changing

even his grayest troubles into tales of fairyland, and his deepest

griefs into songs of a sad music. Then he thought of Shargar, and what

was to become of him after he was gone. The lad was paler and his eyes

were redder than ever, for he had been weeping in secret. He went to

his grandmother and begged that Shargar might accompany him to

Bodyfauld.

'He maun bide at hame an' min' his beuks,' she answered; 'for he winna

hae them that muckle langer. He maun be doin' something for himsel'.'

So the next morning the boys parted--Shargar to school, and Robert to

Bodyfauld--Shargar left behind with his desolation, his sun gone down

in a west that was not even stormy, only gray and hopeless, and Robert

moving towards an east which reflected, like a faint prophecy, the

west behind him tinged with love, death, and music, but mingled the

colours with its own saffron of coming dawn.

When he reached Bodyfauld he marvelled to find that all its glory had

returned. He found Miss Lammie busy among the rich yellow pools in her

dairy, and went out into the garden, now in the height of its summer.

Great cabbage roses hung heavy-headed splendours towards purple-black

heartseases, and thin-filmed silvery pods of honesty; tall white

lilies mingled with the blossoms of currant bushes, and at their feet

the narcissi of old classic legend pressed their warm-hearted paleness

into the plebeian thicket of the many-striped gardener's garters. It

was a lovely type of a commonwealth indeed, of the garden and kingdom

of God. His whole mind was flooded with a sense of sunny wealth. The

farmer's neglected garden blossomed into higher glory in his soul. The

bloom and the richness and the use were all there; but instead of each

flower was a delicate ethereal sense or feeling about that flower. Of

these how gladly would he have gathered a posy to offer Miss St. John!

but, alas! he was no poet; or rather he had but the half of the poet's

inheritance--he could see: he could not say. But even if he had been

full of poetic speech, he would yet have found that the half of his

posy remained ungathered, for although we have speech enough now to be

'cousin to the deed,' as Chaucer says it must always be, we have not

yet enough speech to cousin the tenth part of our feelings. Let him

who doubts recall one of his own vain attempts to convey that which

made the oddest of dreams entrancing in loveliness--to convey that

aroma of thought, the conscious absence of which made him a fool in

his own eyes when he spoke such silly words as alone presented

themselves for the service. I can no more describe the emotion aroused

in my mind by a gray cloud parting over a gray stone, by the smell of

a sweetpea, by the sight of one of those long upright pennons of

striped grass with the homely name, than I can tell what the glory of

God is who made these things. The man whose poetry is like nature in

this, that it produces individual, incommunicable moods and conditions

of mind--a sense of elevated, tender, marvellous, and evanescent

existence, must be a poet indeed. Every dawn of such a feeling is a

light-brushed bubble rendering visible for a moment the dark unknown

sea of our being which lies beyond the lights of our consciousness,

and is the stuff and region of our eternal growth. But think what

language must become before it will tell dreams!--before it will

convey the delicate shades of fancy that come and go in the brain of a

child!--before it will let a man know wherein one face differeth from

another face in glory! I suspect, however, that for such purposes it

is rather music than articulation that is needful--that, with a hope

of these finer results, the language must rather be turned into music

than logically extended.

The next morning he awoke at early dawn, hearing the birds at his

window. He rose and went out. The air was clear and fresh as a

new-made soul. Bars of mottled cloud were bent across the eastern

quarter of the sky, which lay like a great ethereal ocean ready for

the launch of the ship of glory that was now gliding towards its edge.

Everything was waiting to conduct him across the far horizon to the

south, where lay the stored-up wonder of his coming life. The lark

sang of something greater than he could tell; the wind got up,

whispered at it, and lay down to sleep again; the sun was at hand to

bathe the world in the light and gladness alone fit to typify the

radiance of Robert's thoughts. The clouds that formed the shore of the

upper sea were already burning from saffron into gold. A moment more

and the first insupportable sting of light would shoot from behind the

edge of that low blue hill, and the first day of his new life would be

begun. He watched, and it came. The well-spring of day, fresh and

exuberant as if now first from the holy will of the Father of Lights,

gushed into the basin of the world, and the world was more glad than

tongue or pen can tell. The supernal light alone, dawning upon the

human heart, can exceed the marvel of such a sunrise.

And shall life itself be less beautiful than one of its days? Do not

believe it, young brother. Men call the shadow, thrown upon the

universe where their own dusky souls come between it and the eternal

sun, life, and then mourn that it should be less bright than the hopes

of their childhood. Keep thou thy soul translucent, that thou mayest

never see its shadow; at least never abuse thyself with the philosophy

which calls that shadow life. Or, rather would I say, become thou pure

in heart, and thou shalt see God, whose vision alone is life.

Just as the sun rushed across the horizon he heard the tramp of a

heavy horse in the yard, passing from the stable to the cart that was

to carry his trunk to the turnpike road, three miles off, where the

coach would pass. Then Miss Lammie came and called him to breakfast,

and there sat the farmer in his Sunday suit of black, already busy.

Robert was almost too happy to eat; yet he had not swallowed two

mouthfuls before the sun rose unheeded, the lark sang unheeded, and

the roses sparkled with the dew that bowed yet lower their heavy

heads, all unheeded. By the time they had finished, Mr. Lammie's gig

was at the door, and they mounted and followed the cart. Not even the

recurring doubt and fear that hollowness was at the heart of it all,

for that God could not mean such reinless gladness, prevented the

truth of the present joy from sinking deep into the lad's heart. In

his mind he saw a boat moored to a rock, with no one on board, heaving

on the waters of a rising tide, and waiting to bear him out on the sea

of the unknown. The picture arose of itself: there was no paradise of

the west in his imagination, as in that of a boy of the sixteenth

century, to authorize its appearance. It rose again and again; the dew

glittered as if the light were its own; the sun shone as he had never

seen him shine before; the very mare that sped them along held up her

head and stepped out as if she felt it the finest of mornings. Had she

also a future, poor old mare? Might there not be a paradise somewhere?

and if in the furthest star instead of next-door America, why, so much

the more might the Atlantis of the nineteenth century surpass Manoa

the golden of the seventeenth!

The gig and the cart reached the road together. One of the men who had

accompanied the cart took the gig; and they were left on the road-side

with Robert's trunk and box--the latter a present from Miss Lammie.

Their places had been secured, and the guard knew where he had to take

them up. Long before the coach appeared, the notes of his horn, as

like the colour of his red coat as the blindest of men could imagine,

came echoing from the side of the heathery, stony hill under which

they stood, so that Robert turned wondering, as if the chariot of his

desires had been coming over the top of Drumsnaig, to carry him into a

heaven where all labour was delight. But round the corner in front

came the four-in-hand red mail instead. She pulled up gallantly; the

wheelers lay on their hind quarters, and the leaders parted theirs

from the pole; the boxes were hoisted up; Mr. Lammie climbed, and

Robert scrambled to his seat; the horn blew; the coachman spake

oracularly; the horses obeyed; and away went the gorgeous symbol of

sovereignty careering through the submissive region. Nor did Robert's

delight abate during the journey--certainly not when he saw the blue

line of the sea in the distance, a marvel and yet a fact.

Mrs. Falconer had consulted the Misses Napier, who had many

acquaintances in Aberdeen, as to a place proper for Robert, and

suitable to her means. Upon this point Miss Letty, not without a

certain touch of design, as may appear in the course of my story, had

been able to satisfy her. In a small house of two floors and a garret,

in the old town, Mr. Lammie took leave of Robert.

It was from a garret window still, but a storm-window now that Robert

looked--eastward across fields and sand-hills, to the blue expanse of

waters--not blue like southern seas, but slaty blue, like the eyes of

northmen. It was rather dreary; the sun was shining from overhead now,

casting short shadows and much heat; the dew was gone up, and the lark

had come down; he was alone; the end of his journey was come, and was

not anything very remarkable. His landlady interrupted his gaze to

know what he would have for dinner, but he declined to use any

discretion in the matter. When she left the room he did not return to

the window, but sat down upon his box. His eye fell upon the other, a

big wooden cube. Of its contents he knew nothing. He would amuse

himself by making inquisition. It was nailed up. He borrowed a

screwdriver and opened it. At the top lay a linen bag full of oatmeal;

underneath that was a thick layer of oat-cake; underneath that two

cheeses, a pound of butter, and six pots of jam, which ought to have

tasted of roses, for it came from the old garden where the roses lived

in such sweet companionship with the currant bushes; underneath that,

&c.; and underneath, &c., a box which strangely recalled Shargar's

garret, and one of the closets therein. With beating heart he opened

it, and lo, to his marvel, and the restoration of all the fair day,

there was the violin which Dooble Sanny had left him when he forsook

her for--some one or other of the queer instruments of Fra Angelico's

angels?

In a flutter of delight he sat down on his trunk again and played the

most mournful of tunes. Two white pigeons, which had been talking to

each other in the heat on the roof, came one on each side of the

window and peeped into the room; and out between them, as he played,

Robert saw the sea, and the blue sky above it. Is it any wonder that,

instead of turning to the lying pages and contorted sentences of the

Livy which he had already unpacked from his box, he forgot all about

school, and college, and bursary, and went on playing till his

landlady brought up his dinner, which he swallowed hastily that he

might return to the spells of his enchantress!

CHAPTER V.

THE COMPETITION.

I COULD linger with gladness even over this part of my hero's history.

If the school work, was dry it was thorough. If that academy had no

sweetly shadowing trees; if it did stand within a parallelogram of low

stone walls, containing a roughly-gravelled court; if all the region

about suggested hot stones and sand--beyond still was the sea and the

sky; and that court, morning and afternoon, was filled with the shouts

of eager boys, kicking the football with mad rushings to and fro, and

sometimes with wounds and faintings--fit symbol of the equally

resultless ambition with which many of them would follow the game of

life in the years to come. Shock-headed Highland colts, and rough

Lowland steers as many of them were, out of that group, out of the

roughest of them, would emerge in time a few gentlemen--not of the

type of your trim, self-contained, clerical exquisite--but

large-hearted, courteous gentlemen, for whom a man may thank God. And

if the master was stern and hard, he was true; if the pupils feared

him, they yet cared to please him; if there might be found not a few

more widely-read scholars than he, it would be hard to find a better

teacher.

Robert leaned to the collar and laboured, not greatly moved by

ambition, but much by the hope of the bursary and the college life in

the near distance. Not unfrequently he would rush into the thick of

the football game, fight like a maniac for one short burst, and then

retire and look on. He oftener regarded than mingled. He seldom joined

his fellows after school hours, for his work lay both upon his

conscience and his hopes; but if he formed no very deep friendships

amongst them, at least he made no enemies, for he was not selfish, and

in virtue of the Celtic blood in him was invariably courteous. His

habits were in some things altogether irregular. He never went out for

a walk; but sometimes, looking up from his Virgil or his Latin

version, and seeing the blue expanse in the distance breaking into

white under the viewless wing of the summer wind, he would fling down

his dictionary or his pen, rush from his garret, and fly in a straight

line, like a sea-gull weary of lake and river, down to the waste shore

of the great deep. This was all that stood for the Arabian Nights of

moon-blossomed marvel; all the rest was Aberdeen days of Latin and

labour.

Slowly the hours went, and yet the dreaded, hoped-for day came

quickly. The quadrangle of the stone-crowned college grew more awful

in its silence and emptiness every time Robert passed it; and the

professors' houses looked like the sentry-boxes of the angels of

learning, soon to come forth and judge the feeble mortals who dared

present a claim to their recognition. October faded softly by, with

its keen fresh mornings, and cold memorial green-horizoned evenings,

whose stars fell like the stray blossoms of a more heavenly world,

from some ghostly wind of space that had caught them up on its awful

shoreless sweep. November came, 'chill and drear,' with its heartless,

hopeless nothingness; but as if to mock the poor competitors, rose,

after three days of Scotch mist, in a lovely 'halcyon day' of 'St.

Martin's summer,' through whose long shadows anxious young faces

gathered in the quadrangle, or under the arcade, each with his

Ainsworth's Dictionary, the sole book allowed, under his arm. But when

the sacrist appeared and unlocked the public school, and the

black-gowned professors walked into the room, and the door was left

open for the candidates to follow, then indeed a great awe fell upon

the assembly, and the lads crept into their seats as if to a trial for

life before a bench of the incorruptible. They took their places; a

portion of Robertson's History of Scotland was given them to turn into

Latin; and soon there was nothing to be heard in the assembly but the

turning of the leaves of dictionaries, and the scratching of pens

constructing the first rough copy of the Latinized theme.

It was done. Four weary hours, nearly five, one or two of which passed

like minutes, the others as if each minute had been an hour, went by,

and Robert, in a kind of desperation, after a final reading of the

Latin, gave in his paper, and left the room. When he got home, he

asked his landlady to get him some tea. Till it was ready he would

take his violin. But even the violin had grown dull, and would not

speak freely. He returned to the torture--took out his first copy, and

went over it once more. Horror of horrors! a maxie!--that is a maximus

error. Mary Queen of Scots had been left so far behind in the

beginning of the paper, that she forgot the rights of her sex in the

middle of it, and in the accusative of a future participle passive--I

do not know if more modern grammarians have a different name for the

growth--had submitted to be dum, and her rightful dam was henceforth

and for ever debarred.

He rose, rushed out of the house, down through the garden, across two

fields and a wide road, across the links, and so to the moaning lip of

the sea--for it was moaning that night. From the last bulwark of the

sandhills he dropped upon the wet sands, and there he paced up and

down--how long, God only, who was watching him, knew--with the low

limitless form of the murmuring lip lying out and out into the sinking

sky like the life that lay low and hopeless before him, for the want

at most of twenty pounds a year (that was the highest bursary then) to

lift him into a region of possible well-being. Suddenly a strange

phenomenon appeared within him. The subject hitherto became the object

to a new birth of consciousness. He began to look at himself. 'There's

a sair bit in there,' he said, as if his own bosom had been that of

another mortal. 'What's to be dune wi' 't? I doobt it maun bide it.

Weel, the crater had better bide it quaietly, and no cry oot. Lie

doon, an' hand yer tongue. Soror tua haud meretrix est, ye brute!' He

burst out laughing, after a doubtful and ululant fashion, I dare say;

but he went home, took up his auld wife, and played 'Tullochgorum'

some fifty times over, with extemporized variations.

The next day he had to translate a passage from Tacitus; after

executing which somewhat heartlessly, he did not open a Latin book for

a whole week. The very sight of one was disgusting to him. He wandered

about the New Town, along Union Street, and up and down the stairs

that led to the lower parts, haunted the quay, watched the vessels,

learned their forms, their parts and capacities, made friends with a

certain Dutch captain whom he heard playing the violin in his cabin,

and on the whole, notwithstanding the wretched prospect before him,

contrived to spend the week with considerable enjoyment. Nor does an

occasional episode of lounging hurt a life with any true claims to the

epic form.

The day of decision at length arrived. Again the black-robed powers

assembled, and again the hoping, fearing lads--some of them not lads,

men, and mere boys--gathered to hear their fate. Name after name was

called out;--a twenty pound bursary to the first, one of seventeen to

the next, three or four of fifteen and fourteen, and so on, for about

twenty, and still no Robert Falconer. At last, lagging wearily in the

rear, he heard his name, went up listlessly, and was awarded five

pounds. He crept home, wrote to his grandmother, and awaited her

reply. It was not long in coming; for although the carrier was

generally the medium of communication, Miss Letty had contrived to

send the answer by coach. It was to the effect that his grandmother

was sorry that he had not been more successful, but that Mr. Innes

thought it would be quite worth while to try again, and he must

therefore come home for another year.

This was mortifying enough, though not so bad as it might have been.

Robert began to pack his box. But before he had finished it he shut

the lid and sat upon it. To meet Miss St. John thus disgraced, was

more than he could bear. If he remained, he had a chance of winning

prizes at the end of the session, and that would more than repair his

honour. The five pound bursars were privileged in paying half fees;

and if he could only get some teaching, he could manage. But who would

employ a bejan when a magistrand might be had for next to nothing?

Besides, who would recommend him? The thought of Dr. Anderson flashed

into his mind, and he rushed from the house without even knowing where

he lived.

CHAPTER VI.

DR. ANDERSON AGAIN.

AT the Post-office he procured the desired information at once. Dr.

Anderson lived in Union Street, towards the western end of it.

Away went Robert to find the house. That was easy. What a grand house

of smooth granite and wide approach it was! The great door was opened

by a man-servant, who looked at the country boy from head to foot.

'Is the doctor in?' asked Robert.

'Yes.'

'I wad like to see him.'

'Wha will I say wants him?'

'Say the laddie he saw at Bodyfauld.'

The man left Robert in the hall, which was spread with tiger and

leopard skins, and had a bright fire burning in a large stove.

Returning presently, he led him through noiseless swing-doors covered

with cloth into a large library. Never had Robert conceived such

luxury. What with Turkey carpet, crimson curtains, easy-chairs,

grandly-bound books and morocco-covered writing-table, it seemed the

very ideal of comfort. But Robert liked the grandeur too much to be

abashed by it.

'Sit ye doon there,' said the servant, 'and the doctor 'ill be wi' ye

in ae minute.'

He was hardly out of the room before a door opened in the middle of

the books, and the doctor appeared in a long dressing-gown. He looked

inquiringly at Robert for one moment, then made two long strides like

a pair of eager compasses, holding out his hand.

'I'm Robert Faukner,' said the boy. 'Ye'll min', maybe, doctor, 'at ye

war verra kin' to me ance, and tellt me lots o' stories--at Bodyfauld,

ye ken.'

'I'm very glad to see you, Robert,' said Dr. Anderson. 'Of course I

remember you perfectly; but my servant did not bring your name, and I

did not know but it might be the other boy--I forget his name.'

'Ye mean Shargar, sir. It's no him.'

'I can see that,' said the doctor, laughing, 'although you are

altered. You have grown quite a man! I am very glad to see you,' he

repeated, shaking hands with him again. 'When did you come to town?'

'I hae been at the grammer school i' the auld toon for the last three

months,' said Robert.

'Three months!' exclaimed Dr. Anderson. 'And never came to see me till

now! That was too bad of you, Robert.'

'Weel, ye see, sir, I didna ken better. An' I had a heap to do, an' a'

for naething, efter a'. But gin I had kent 'at ye wad like to see me,

I wad hae likit weel to come to ye.'

'I have been away most of the summer,' said the doctor; 'but I have

been at home for the last month. You haven't had your dinner, have

you?'

'Weel, I dinna exackly ken what to say, sir. Ye see, I wasna that

sharp-set the day, sae I had jist a mou'fu' o' breid and cheese. I'm

turnin' hungry, noo, I maun confess.'

The doctor rang the bell.

'You must stop and dine with me.--Johnston,' he continued, as his

servant entered, 'tell the cook that I have a gentleman to dinner with

me to-day, and she must be liberal.'

'Guidsake, sir!' said Robert, 'dinna set the woman agen me.'

He had no intention of saying anything humorous, but Dr. Anderson

laughed heartily.

'Come into my room till dinner-time,' he said, opening the door by

which he had entered.

To Robert's astonishment, he found himself in a room bare as that of

the poorest cottage. A small square window, small as the window in

John Hewson's, looked out upon a garden neatly kept, but now 'having

no adorning but cleanliness.' The place was just the benn end of a

cottage. The walls were whitewashed, the ceiling was of bare boards,

and the floor was sprinkled with a little white sand. The table and

chairs were of common deal, white and clean, save that the former was

spotted with ink. A greater contrast to the soft, large,

richly-coloured room they had left could hardly be imagined. A few

bookshelves on the wall were filled with old books. A fire blazed

cheerily in the little grate. A bed with snow-white coverlet stood in

a recess.

'This is the nicest room in the house, Robert,' said the doctor. 'When

I was a student like you--'

Robert shook his head,

'I'm nae student yet,' he said; but the doctor went on:

'I had the benn end of my father's cottage to study in, for he treated

me like a stranger-gentleman when I came home from college. The father

respected the son for whose advantage he was working like a slave from

morning till night. My heart is sometimes sore with the gratitude I

feel to him. Though he's been dead for thirty years--would you believe

it, Robert?--well, I can't talk more about him now. I made this room

as like my father's benn end as I could, and I am happier here than

anywhere in the world.'

By this time Robert was perfectly at home. Before the dinner was ready

he had not only told Dr. Anderson his present difficulty, but his

whole story as far back as he could remember. The good man listened

eagerly, gazed at the boy with more and more of interest, which

deepened till his eyes glistened as he gazed, and when a ludicrous

passage intervened, welcomed the laughter as an excuse for wiping

them. When dinner was announced, he rose without a word and led the

way to the dining-room. Robert followed, and they sat down to a meal

simple enough for such a house, but which to Robert seemed a feast

followed by a banquet. For after they had done eating--on the doctor's

part a very meagre performance--they retired to his room again, and

then Robert found the table covered with a snowy cloth, and wine and

fruits arranged upon it.

It was far into the night before he rose to go home. As he passed

through a thick rain of pin-point drops, he felt that although those

cold granite houses, with glimmering dead face, stood like rows of

sepulchres, he was in reality walking through an avenue of homes. Wet

to the skin long before he reached Mrs. Fyvie's in the auld toon, he

was notwithstanding as warm as the under side of a bird's wing. For he

had to sit down and write to his grandmother informing her that Dr.

Anderson had employed him to copy for the printers a book of his upon

the Medical Boards of India, and that as he was going to pay him for

that and other work at a rate which would secure him ten shillings a

week, it would be a pity to lose a year for the chance of getting a

bursary next winter.

The doctor did want the manuscript copied; and he knew that the only

chance of getting Mrs. Falconer's consent to Robert's receiving any

assistance from him, was to make some business arrangement of the

sort. He wrote to her the same night, and after mentioning the

unexpected pleasure of Robert's visit, not only explained the

advantage to himself of the arrangement he had proposed, but set forth

the greater advantage to Robert, inasmuch as he would thus be able in

some measure to keep a hold of him. He judged that although Mrs.

Falconer had no great opinion of his religion, she would yet consider

his influence rather on the side of good than otherwise in the case of

a boy else abandoned to his own resources.

The end of it all was that his grandmother yielded, and Robert was

straightway a Bejan, or Yellow-beak.

Three days had he been clothed in the red gown of the Aberdeen

student, and had attended the Humanity and Greek class-rooms. On the

evening of the third day he was seated at his table preparing his

Virgil for the next, when he found himself growing very weary, and no

wonder, for, except the walk of a few hundred yards to and from the

college, he had had no open air for those three days. It was raining

in a persistent November fashion, and he thought of the sea, away

through the dark and the rain, tossing uneasily. Should he pay it a

visit? He sat for a moment,

Â Â Â Â This way and that dividing the swift mind,4

when his eye fell on his violin. He had been so full of his new

position and its requirements, that he had not touched it since the

session opened. Now it was just what he wanted. He caught it up

eagerly, and began to play. The power of the music seized upon him,

and he went on playing, forgetful of everything else, till a string

broke. It was all too short for further use. Regardless of the rain or

the depth of darkness to be traversed before he could find a

music-shop, he caught up his cap, and went to rush from the house.

His door opened immediately on the top step of the stair, without any

landing. There was a door opposite, to which likewise a few steps led

immediately up. The stairs from the two doors united a little below.

So near were the doors that one might stride across the fork. The

opposite door was open, and in it stood Eric Ericson.

CHAPTER VII.

ERIC ERICSON.

ROBERT sprang across the dividing chasm, clasped Ericson's hand in

both of his, looked up into his face, and stood speechless. Ericson

returned the salute with a still kindness--tender and still. His face

was like a gray morning sky of summer from whose level cloud-fields

rain will fall before noon.

'So it was you,' he said, 'playing the violin so well?'

'I was doin' my best,' answered Robert. 'But eh! Mr. Ericson, I wad

hae dune better gin I had kent ye was hearkenin'.'

'You couldn't do better than your best,' returned Eric, smiling.

'Ay, but yer best micht aye grow better, ye ken,' persisted Robert.

'Come into my room,' said Ericson. 'This is Friday night, and there is

nothing but chapel to-morrow. So we'll have talk instead of work.'

In another moment they were seated by a tiny coal fire in a room one

side of which was the slope of the roof, with a large, low skylight in

it looking seawards. The sound of the distant waves, unheard in

Robert's room, beat upon the drum of the skylight, through all the

world of mist that lay between it and them--dimly, vaguely--but ever

and again with a swell of gathered force, that made the distant tumult

doubtful no more.

'I am sorry I have nothing to offer you,' said Ericson.

'You remind me of Peter and John at the Beautiful Gate of the temple,'

returned Robert, attempting to speak English like the Northerner, but

breaking down as his heart got the better of him. 'Eh! Mr. Ericson,

gin ye kent what it is to me to see the face o' ye, ye wadna speyk

like that. Jist lat me sit an' leuk at ye. I want nae mair.'

A smile broke up the cold, sad, gray light of the young eagle-face.

Stern at once and gentle when in repose, its smile was as the summer

of some lovely land where neither the heat nor the sun shall smite

them. The youth laid his hand upon the boy's head, then withdrew it

hastily, and the smile vanished like the sun behind a cloud. Robert

saw it, and as if he had been David before Saul, rose instinctively

and said,

'I'll gang for my fiddle.--Hoots! I hae broken ane o' the strings. We

maun bide till the morn. But I want nae fiddle mysel' whan I hear the

great water oot there.'

'You're young yet, my boy, or you might hear voices in that water--!

I've lived in the sound of it all my days. When I can't rest at night,

I hear a moaning and crying in the dark, and I lie and listen till I

can't tell whether I'm a man or some God-forsaken sea in the sunless

north.'

'Sometimes I believe in naething but my fiddle,' answered Robert.

'Yes, yes. But when it comes into you, my boy! You won't hear much

music in the cry of the sea after that. As long as you've got it at

arm's length, it's all very well. It's interesting then, and you can

talk to your fiddle about it, and make poetry about it,' said Ericson,

with a smile of self-contempt. 'But as soon as the real earnest comes

that is all over. The sea-moan is the cry of a tortured world then.

Its hollow bed is the cup of the world's pain, ever rolling from side

to side and dashing over its lip. Of all that might be, ought to be,

nothing to be had!--I could get music out of it once. Look here. I

could trifle like that once.'

He half rose, then dropped on his chair. But Robert's believing eyes

justified confidence, and Ericson had never had any one to talk to. He

rose again, opened a cupboard at his side, took out some papers, threw

them on the table, and, taking his hat, walked towards the door.

'Which of your strings is broken?' he asked.

'The third,' answered Robert.

'I will get you one,' said Ericson; and before Robert could reply he

was down the stair. Robert heard him cough, then the door shut, and he

was gone in the rain and fog.

Bewildered, unhappy, ready to fly after him, yet irresolute, Robert

almost mechanically turned over the papers upon the little deal table.

He was soon arrested by the following verses, headed

A NOONDAY MELODY.

Everything goes to its rest;

Â The hills are asleep in the noon;

And life is as still in its nest

Â As the moon when she looks on a moon

In the depths of a calm river's breast

Â As it steals through a midnight in June.

The streams have forgotten the sea

Â In the dream of their musical sound;

The sunlight is thick on the tree,

Â And the shadows lie warm on the ground--

So still, you may watch them and see

Â Every breath that awakens around.

The churchyard lies still in the heat,

Â With its handful of mouldering bone;

As still as the long stalk of wheat

Â In the shadow that sits by the stone,

As still as the grass at my feet

Â When I walk in the meadows alone.

The waves are asleep on the main,

Â And the ships are asleep on the wave;

And the thoughts are as still in my brain

Â As the echo that sleeps in the cave;

All rest from their labour and pain--

Â Then why should not I in my grave?

His heart ready to burst with a sorrow, admiration, and devotion,

which no criticism interfered to qualify, Robert rushed out into the

darkness, and sped, fleet-footed, along the only path which Ericson

could have taken. He could not bear to be left in the house while his

friend was out in the rain.

He was sure of joining him before he reached the new town, for he was

fleet-footed, and there was a path only on one side of the way, so

that there was no danger of passing him in the dark. As he ran he

heard the moaning of the sea. There must be a storm somewhere, away in

the deep spaces of its dark bosom, and its lips muttered of its far

unrest. When the sun rose it would be seen misty and gray, tossing

about under the one rain cloud that like a thinner ocean overspread

the heavens--tossing like an animal that would fain lie down and be at

peace but could not compose its unwieldy strength.

Suddenly Robert slackened his speed, ceased running, stood, gazed

through the darkness at a figure a few yards before him.

An old wall, bowed out with age and the weight behind it, flanked the

road in this part. Doors in this wall, with a few steps in front of

them and more behind, led up into gardens upon a slope, at the top of

which stood the houses to which they belonged. Against one of these

doors the figure stood with its head bowed upon its hands. When Robert

was within a few feet, it descended and went on.

'Mr. Ericson!' exclaimed Robert. 'Ye'll get yer deith gin ye stan'

that gait i' the weet.'

'Amen,' said Ericson, turning with a smile that glimmered wan through

the misty night. Then changing his tone, he went on: 'What are you

after, Robert?'

'You,' answered Robert. 'I cudna bide to be left my lane whan I micht

be wi' ye a' the time--gin ye wad lat me. Ye war oot o' the hoose

afore I weel kent what ye was aboot. It's no a fit nicht for ye to be

oot at a', mair by token 'at ye're no the ablest to stan' cauld an'

weet.'

'I've stood a great deal of both in my time,' returned Ericson; 'but

come along. We'll go and get that fiddle-string.'

'Dinna ye think it wad be fully better to gang hame?' Robert ventured

to suggest.

'What would be the use? I'm in no mood for Plato to-night,' he

answered, trying hard to keep from shivering.

'Ye hae an ill cauld upo' ye,' persisted Robert; 'an' ye maun be as

weet 's a dishcloot.'

Ericson laughed--a strange, hollow laugh.

'Come along,' he said. 'A walk will do me good. We'll get the string,

and then you shall play to me. That will do me more good yet.'

Robert ceased opposing him, and they walked together to the new town.

Robert bought the string, and they set out, as he thought, to return.

But not yet did Ericson seem inclined to go home. He took the lead,

and they emerged upon the quay.

There were not many vessels. One of them was the Antwerp tub, already

known to Robert. He recognized her even in the dull light of the quay

lamps. Her captain being a prudent and well-to-do Dutchman, never

slept on shore; he preferred saving his money; and therefore, as the

friends passed, Robert caught sight of him walking his own deck and

smoking a long clay pipe before turning in.

'A fine nicht, capt'n,' said Robert.

'It does rain,' returned the captain. 'Will you come on board and have

one schnapps before you turn in?'

'I hae a frien' wi' me here,' said Robert, feeling his way.

'Let him come and be welcomed.'

Ericson making no objection, they went on board, and down into the

neat little cabin, which was all the roomier for the straightness of

the vessel's quarter. The captain got out a square, coffin-shouldered

bottle, and having respect to the condition of their garments, neither

of the young men refused his hospitality, though Robert did feel a

little compunction at the thought of the horror it would have caused

his grandmother. Then the Dutchman got out his violin and asked Robert

to play a Scotch air. But in the middle of it his eyes fell on

Ericson, and he stopped at once. Ericson was sitting on a locker,

leaning back against the side of the vessel: his eyes were open and

fixed, and he seemed quite unconscious of what was passing. Robert

fancied at first that the hollands he had taken had gone to his head,

but he saw at the same moment, from his glass, that he had scarcely

tasted the spirit. In great alarm they tried to rouse him, and at

length succeeded. He closed his eyes, opened them again, rose up, and

was going away.

'What's the maitter wi' ye, Mr. Ericson?' said Robert, in distress.

'Nothing, nothing,' answered Ericson, in a strange voice. 'I fell

asleep, I believe. It was very bad manners, captain. I beg your

pardon. I believe I am overtired.'

The Dutchman was as kind as possible, and begged Ericson to stay the

night and occupy his berth. But he insisted on going home, although he

was clearly unfit for such a walk. They bade the skipper good-night,

went on shore, and set out, Ericson leaning rather heavily upon

Robert's arm. Robert led him up Marischal Street.

The steep ascent was too much for Ericson. He stood still upon the

bridge and leaned over the wall of it. Robert stood beside, almost in

despair about getting him home.

'Have patience with me, Robert,' said Ericson, in his natural voice.

'I shall be better presently. I don't know what's come to me. If I had

been a Celt now, I should have said I had a touch of the second sight.

But I am, as far as I know, pure Northman.'

'What did you see?' asked Robert, with a strange feeling that miles of

the spirit world, if one may be allowed such a contradiction in words,

lay between him and his friend.

Ericson returned no answer. Robert feared he was going to have a

relapse; but in a moment more he lifted himself up and bent again to

the brae.

They got on pretty well till they were about the middle of the

Gallowgate.

'I can't,' said Ericson feebly, and half leaned, half fell against the

wall of a house.

'Come into this shop,' said Robert. 'I ken the man. He'll lat ye sit

doon.'

He managed to get him in. He was as pale as death. The bookseller got

a chair, and he sank into it. Robert was almost at his wit's end.

There was no such thing as a cab in Aberdeen for years and years after

the date of my story. He was holding a glass of water to Ericson's

lips,--when he heard his name, in a low earnest whisper, from the

door. There, round the door-cheek, peered the white face and red head

of Shargar.

'Robert! Robert!' said Shargar.

'I hear ye,' returned Robert coolly: he was too anxious to be

surprised at anything. 'Haud yer tongue. I'll come to ye in a minute.'

Ericson recovered a little, refused the whisky offered by the

bookseller, rose, and staggered out.

'If I were only home!' he said. 'But where is home?'

'We'll try to mak ane,' returned Robert. 'Tak a haud o' me. Lay yer

weicht upo' me.--Gin it warna for yer len'th, I cud cairry ye weel

eneuch. Whaur's that Shargar?' he muttered to himself, looking up and

down the gloomy street.

But no Shargar was to be seen. Robert peered in vain into every dark

court they crept past, till at length he all but came to the

conclusion that Shargar was only 'fantastical.'

When they had reached the hollow, and were crossing then canal-bridge

by Mount Hooly, Ericson's strength again failed him, and again he

leaned upon the bridge. Nor had he leaned long before Robert found

that he had fainted. In desperation he began to hoist the tall form

upon his back, when he heard the quick step of a runner behind him and

the words--

'Gie 'im to me, Robert; gie 'im to me. I can carry 'im fine.'

'Haud awa' wi' ye,' returned Robert; and again Shargar fell behind.

For a few hundred yards he trudged along manfully; but his strength,

more from the nature of his burden than its weight, soon gave way. He

stood still to recover. The same moment Shargar was by his side again.

'Noo, Robert,' he said, pleadingly.

Robert yielded, and the burden was shifted to Shargar's back.

How they managed it they hardly knew themselves; but after many

changes they at last got Ericson home, and up to his own room. He had

revived several times, but gone off again. In one of his faints,

Robert undressed him and got him into bed. He had so little to cover

him, that Robert could not help crying with misery. He himself was

well provided, and would gladly have shared with Ericson, but that was

hopeless. He could, however, make him warm in bed. Then leaving

Shargar in charge, he sped back to the new town to Dr. Anderson. The

doctor had his carriage out at once, wrapped Robert in a plaid and

brought him home with him.

Ericson came to himself, and seeing Shargar by his bedside, tried to

sit up, asking feebly,

'Where am I?'

'In yer ain bed, Mr. Ericson,' answered Shargar.

'And who are you?' asked Ericson again, bewildered.

Shargar's pale face no doubt looked strange under his crown of red

hair.

'Ow! I'm naebody.'

'You must be somebody, or else my brain's in a bad state,' returned

Ericson.

'Na, na, I'm naebody. Naething ava (at all). Robert 'll be hame in ae

meenit.--I'm Robert's tyke (dog),' concluded Shargar, with a sudden

inspiration.

This answer seemed to satisfy Ericson, for he closed his eyes and lay

still; nor did he speak again till Robert arrived with the doctor.

Poor food, scanty clothing, undue exertion in travelling to and from

the university, hard mental effort against weakness, disquietude of

mind, all borne with an endurance unconscious of itself, had reduced

Eric Ericson to his present condition. Strength had given way at last,

and he was now lying in the low border wash of a dead sea of fever.

The last of an ancient race of poor men, he had no relative but a

second cousin, and no means except the little he advanced him, chiefly

in kind, to be paid for when Eric had a profession. This cousin was in

the herring trade, and the chief assistance he gave him was to send

him by sea, from Wick to Aberdeen, a small barrel of his fish every

session. One herring, with two or three potatoes, formed his dinner as

long as the barrel lasted. But at Aberdeen or elsewhere no one carried

his head more erect than Eric Ericson--not from pride, but from

simplicity and inborn dignity; and there was not a man during his

curriculum more respected than he. An excellent classical scholar--as

scholarship went in those days--he was almost the only man in the

university who made his knowledge of Latin serve towards an

acquaintance with the Romance languages. He had gained a small

bursary, and gave lessons when he could.

But having no level channel for the outgoing of the waters of one of

the tenderest hearts that ever lived, those waters had sought to break

a passage upwards. Herein his experience corresponded in a

considerable degree to that of Robert; only Eric's more fastidious and

more instructed nature bred a thousand difficulties which he would

meet one by one, whereas Robert, less delicate and more robust, would

break through all the oppositions of theological science falsely so

called, and take the kingdom of heaven by force. But indeed the ruins

of the ever falling temple of theology had accumulated far more

heavily over Robert's well of life, than over that of Ericson: the

obstructions to his faith were those that rolled from the

disintegrating mountains of humanity, rather than the rubbish heaped

upon it by the careless masons who take the quarry whence they hew the

stones for the temple--built without hands eternal in the heavens.

When Dr. Anderson entered, Ericson opened his eyes wide. The doctor

approached, and taking his hand began to feel his pulse. Then first

Ericson comprehended his visit.

'I can't,' he said, withdrawing his hand. 'I am not so ill as to need

a doctor.'

'My dear sir,' said Dr. Anderson, courteously, 'there will be no

occasion to put you to any pain.'

'Sir,' said Eric, 'I have no money.'

The doctor laughed.

'And I have more than I know how to make a good use of.'

'I would rather be left alone,' persisted Ericson, turning his face

away.

'Now, my dear sir,' said the doctor, with gentle decision, 'that is

very wrong. With what face can you offer a kindness when your turn

comes, if you won't accept one yourself?'

Ericson held out his wrist. Dr. Anderson questioned, prescribed, and,

having given directions, went home, to call again in the morning.

And now Robert was somewhat in the position of the old woman who 'had

so many children she didn't know what to do.' Dr. Anderson ordered

nourishment for Ericson, and here was Shargar upon his hands as well!

Shargar and he could share, to be sure, and exist: but for Ericson--?

Not a word did Robert exchange with Shargar till he had gone to the

druggist's and got the medicine for Ericson, who, after taking it,

fell into a troubled sleep. Then, leaving the two doors open, Robert

joined Shargar in his own room. There he made up a good fire, and they

sat and dried themselves.

'Noo, Shargar,' said Robert at length, 'hoo cam ye here?'

His question was too like one of his grandmother's to be pleasant to

Shargar.

'Dinna speyk to me that gait, Robert, or I'll cut my throat' he

returned.

'Hoots! I maun ken a' aboot it,' insisted Robert, but with much

modified and partly convicted tone.

'Weel, I never said I wadna tell ye a' aboot it. The fac' 's this--an'

I'm no' up to the leein' as I used to be, Robert: I hae tried it ower

an' ower, but a lee comes rouch throw my thrapple (windpipe) noo.

Faith! I cud hae leed ance wi' onybody, barrin' the de'il. I winna

lee. I'm nae leein'. The fac's jist this: I cudna bide ahin' ye ony

langer.'

'But what, the muckle lang-tailed deevil! am I to do wi' ye?' returned

Robert, in real perplexity, though only pretended displeasure.

'Gie me something to ate, an' I'll tell ye what to do wi' me,'

answered Shargar. 'I dinna care a scart (scratch) what it is.'

Robert rang the bell and ordered some porridge, and while it was

preparing, Shargar told his story--how having heard a rumour of

apprenticeship to a tailor, he had the same night dropped from the

gable window to the ground, and with three halfpence in his pocket had

wandered and begged his way to Aberdeen, arriving with one halfpenny

left.

'But what am I to do wi' ye?' said Robert once more, in as much

perplexity as ever.

'Bide till I hae tellt ye, as I said I wad,' answered Shargar. 'Dinna

ye think I'm the haveless (careless and therefore helpless) crater I

used to be. I hae been in Aberdeen three days! Ay, an' I hae seen you

ilka day in yer reid goon, an' richt braw it is. Luik ye here!'

He put his hand in his pocket and pulled out what amounted to two or

three shillings, chiefly in coppers, which he exposed with triumph on

the table.

'Whaur got ye a' that siller, man?' asked Robert.

'Here and there, I kenna whaur; but I hae gien the weicht o' 't for 't

a' the same--rinnin' here an' rinnin' there, cairryin' boxes till an'

frae the smacks, an' doin' a'thing whether they bade me or no.

Yesterday mornin' I got thrippence by hingin' aboot the Royal afore

the coches startit. I luikit a' up and doon the street till I saw

somebody hine awa wi' a porkmanty. Till 'im I ran, an' he was an auld

man, an' maist at the last gasp wi' the weicht o' 't, an' gae me 't to

carry. An' wha duv ye think gae me a shillin' the verra first

nicht?--Wha but my brither Sandy?'

'Lord Rothie?'

'Ay, faith. I kent him weel eneuch, but little he kent me. There he

was upo' Black Geordie. He's turnin' auld noo.'

'Yer brither?'

'Na. He's young eneuch for ony mischeef; but Black Geordie. What on

earth gars him gang stravaguin' aboot upo' that deevil? I doobt he's a

kelpie, or a hell-horse, or something no canny o' that kin'; for

faith! brither Sandy's no ower canny himsel', I'm thinkin'. But

Geordie--the aulder the waur set (inclined). An' sae I'm thinkin' wi'

his maister.'

'Did ye iver see yer father, Shargar?'

'Na. Nor I dinna want to see 'im. I'm upo' my mither's side. But

that's naething to the pint. A' that I want o' you 's to lat me come

hame at nicht, an' lie upo' the flure here. I sweir I'll lie i' the

street gin ye dinna lat me. I'll sleep as soun' 's Peter MacInnes whan

Maccleary's preachin'. An' I winna ate muckle--I hae a dreidfu' pooer

o' aitin'--an' a' 'at I gether I'll fess hame to you, to du wi' 't as

ye like.--Man, I cairriet a heap o' things the day till the skipper o'

that boat 'at ye gaed intil wi' Maister Ericson the nicht. He's a fine

chiel' that skipper!'

Robert was astonished at the change that had passed upon Shargar. His

departure had cast him upon his own resources, and allowed the

individuality repressed by every event of his history, even by his

worship of Robert, to begin to develop itself. Miserable for a few

weeks, he had revived in the fancy that to work hard at school would

give him some chance of rejoining Robert. Thence, too, he had watched

to please Mrs. Falconer, and had indeed begun to buy golden opinions

from all sorts of people. He had a hope in prospect. But into the

midst fell the whisper of the apprenticeship like a thunderbolt out of

a clear sky. He fled at once.

'Weel, ye can hae my bed the nicht,' said Robert, 'for I maun sit up

wi' Mr. Ericson.'

''Deed I'll hae naething o' the kin'. I'll sleep upo' the flure, or

else upo' the door-stane. Man, I'm no clean eneuch efter what I've

come throu sin' I drappit frae the window-sill i' the ga'le-room. But

jist len' me yer plaid, an' I'll sleep upo' the rug here as gin I war

i' Paradees. An' faith, sae I am, Robert. Ye maun gang to yer bed some

time the nicht forby (besides), or ye winna be fit for yer wark the

morn. Ye can jist gie me a kick, an' I'll be up afore ye can gie me

anither.'

Their supper arrived from below, and, each on one side of the fire,

they ate the porridge, conversing all the while about old times--for

the youngest life has its old times, its golden age--and old

adventures,--Dooble Sanny, Betty, &c., &c. There were but two subjects

which Robert avoided--Miss St. John and the Bonnie Leddy. Shargar was

at length deposited upon the little bit of hearthrug which adorned

rather than enriched the room, with Robert's plaid of shepherd tartan

around him, and an Ainsworth's dictionary under his head for a pillow.

'Man, I fin' mysel' jist like a muckle colley (sheep-dog),' he said.

'Whan I close my een, I'm no sure 'at I'm no i' the inside o' yer auld

luckie-daiddie's kilt. The Lord preserve me frae ever sic a fricht

again as yer grannie an' Betty gae me the nicht they fand me in 't! I

dinna believe it's in natur' to hae sic a fricht twise in ae lifetime.

Sae I'll fa' asleep at ance, an' say nae mair--but as muckle o' my

prayers as I can min' upo' noo 'at grannie's no at my lug.'

'Haud yer impidence, an' yer tongue thegither,' said Robert. 'Min' 'at

my grannie's been the best frien' ye ever had.'

''Cep' my ain mither,' returned Shargar, with a sleepy doggedness in

his tone.

During their conference, Ericson had been slumbering. Robert had

visited him from time to time, but he had not awaked. As soon as

Shargar was disposed of, he took his candle and sat down by him. He

grew more uneasy. Robert guessed that the candle was the cause, and

put it out. Ericson was quieter. So Robert sat in the dark.

But the rain had now ceased. Some upper wind had swept the clouds from

the sky, and the whole world of stars was radiant over the earth and

its griefs.

'O God, where art thou?' he said in his heart, and went to his own

room to look out.

There was no curtain, and the blind had not been drawn down, therefore

the earth looked in at the storm-window. The sea neither glimmered nor

shone. It lay across the horizon like a low level cloud, out of which

came a moaning. Was this moaning all of the earth, or was there

trouble in the starry places too? thought Robert, as if already he had

begun to suspect the truth from afar--that save in the secret place of

the Most High, and in the heart that is hid with the Son of Man in the

bosom of the Father, there is trouble--a sacred

unrest--everywhere--the moaning of a tide setting homewards, even

towards the bosom of that Father.

CHAPTER VIII.

A HUMAN PROVIDENCE.

ROBERT kept himself thoroughly awake the whole night, and it was well

that he had not to attend classes in the morning. As the gray of the

world's reviving consciousness melted in at the window, the things

around and within him looked and felt ghastly. Nothing is liker the

gray dawn than the soul of one who has been watching by a sick bed all

the long hours of the dark, except, indeed, it be the first

glimmerings of truth on the mind lost in the dark of a godless life.

Ericson had waked often, and Robert had administered his medicine

carefully. But he had been mostly between sleeping and waking, and had

murmured strange words, whose passing shadows rather than glimmers

roused the imagination of the youth as with messages from regions

unknown.

As the light came he found his senses going, and went to his own room

again to get a book that he might keep himself awake by reading at the

window. To his surprise Shargar was gone, and for a moment he doubted

whether he had not been dreaming all that had passed between them the

night before. His plaid was folded up and laid upon a chair, as if it

had been there all night, and his Ainsworth was on the table. But

beside it was the money Shargar had drawn from his pockets.

About nine o'clock Dr. Anderson arrived, found Ericson not so much

worse as he had expected, comforted Robert, and told him he must go to

bed.

'But I cannot leave Mr. Ericson,' said Robert.

'Let your friend--what's his odd name?--watch him during the day.'

'Shargar, you mean, sir. But that's his nickname. His rale name they

say his mither says, is George Moray--wi' an o an' no a u-r.--Do you

see, sir?' concluded Robert significantly.

'No, I don't,' answered the doctor.

'They say he's a son o' the auld Markis's, that's it. His mither's a

randy wife 'at gangs aboot the country--a gipsy they say. There's nae

doobt aboot her. An' by a' accoonts the father's likly eneuch.'

'And how on earth did you come to have such a questionable companion?'

'Shargar's as fine a crater as ever God made,' said Robert warmly.

'Ye'll alloo 'at God made him, doctor; though his father an' mither

thochtna muckle aboot him or God either whan they got him atween them?

An' Shargar couldna help it. It micht ha' been you or me for that

maitter, doctor.'

'I beg your pardon, Robert,' said Dr. Anderson quietly, although

delighted with the fervour of his young kinsman: 'I only wanted to

know how he came to be your companion.'

'I beg your pardon, doctor--but I thoucht ye was some scunnert at it;

an' I canna bide Shargar to be luikit doon upo'. Luik here,' he

continued, going to his box, and bringing out Shargar's little heap of

coppers, in which two sixpences obscurely shone, 'he brocht a' that

hame last nicht, an' syne sleepit upo' the rug i' my room there. We'll

want a' 'at he can mak an' me too afore we get Mr. Ericson up again.'

'But ye haena tellt me yet,' said the doctor, so pleased with the lad

that he relapsed into the dialect of his youth, 'hoo ye cam to

forgather wi' 'im.'

'I tellt ye a' aboot it, doctor. It was a' my grannie's doin', God

bless her--for weel he may, an' muckle she needs 't.'

'Oh! yes; I remember now all your grandmother's part in the story,'

returned the doctor. 'But I still want to know how he came here.'

'She was gaein' to mak a taylor o' 'm: an' he jist ran awa', an' cam

to me.'

'It was too bad of him that--after all she had done for him.'

'Ow, 'deed no, doctor. Even whan ye boucht a man an' paid for him,

accordin' to the Jewish law, ye cudna mak a slave o' 'im for

a'thegither, ohn him seekin' 't himsel'.--Eh! gin she could only get

my father hame!' sighed Robert, after a pause.

'What should she want him home for?' asked Dr. Anderson, still making

conversation.

'I didna mean hame to Rothieden. I believe she cud bide never seein'

'im again, gin only he wasna i' the ill place. She has awfu' notions

aboot burnin' ill sowls for ever an' ever. But it's no hersel'. It's

the wyte o' the ministers. Doctor, I do believe she wad gang an' be

brunt hersel' wi' a great thanksgivin', gin it wad lat ony puir crater

oot o' 't--no to say my father. An' I sair misdoobt gin mony o' them

'at pat it in her heid wad do as muckle. I'm some feared they're like

Paul afore he was convertit: he wadna lift a stane himsel', but he

likit weel to stan' oot by an' luik on.'

A deep sigh, almost a groan, from the bed, reminded them that they

were talking too much and too loud for a sick-room. It was followed by

the words, muttered, but articulate,

'What's the good when you don't know whether there's a God at all?'

''Deed, that's verra true, Mr. Ericson,' returned Robert. 'I wish ye

wad fin' oot an' tell me. I wad be blithe to hear what ye had to say

anent it--gin it was ay, ye ken.'

Ericson went on murmuring, but inarticulately now.

'This won't do at all, Robert, my boy,' said Dr. Anderson. 'You must

not talk about such things with him, or indeed about anything. You

must keep him as quiet as ever you can.'

'I thocht he was comin' till himsel',' returned Robert. 'But I will

tak care, I assure ye, doctor. Only I'm feared I may fa' asleep the

nicht, for I was dooms sleepy this mornin'.'

'I will send Johnston as soon as I get home, and you must go to bed

when he comes.'

''Deed, doctor, that winna do at a'. It wad be ower mony strange faces

a'thegither. We'll get Mistress Fyvie to luik till 'im the day, an'

Shargar canna work the morn, bein' Sunday. An' I'll gang to my bed for

fear o' doin' waur, though I doobt I winna sleep i' the daylicht.'

Dr. Anderson was satisfied, and went home--cogitating much. This boy,

this cousin of his, made a vortex of good about him into which whoever

came near it was drawn. He seemed at the same time quite unaware of

anything worthy in his conduct. The good he did sprung from some

inward necessity, with just enough in it of the salt of choice to keep

it from losing its savour. To these cogitations of Dr. Anderson, I add

that there was no conscious exercise of religion in it--for there his

mind was all at sea. Of course I believe notwithstanding that religion

had much, I ought to say everything, to do with it. Robert had not yet

found in God a reason for being true to his fellows; but, if God was

leading him to be the man he became, how could any good results of

this leading be other than religion? All good is of God. Robert began

where he could. The first table was too high for him; he began with

the second. If a man love his brother whom he hath seen, the love of

God whom he hath not seen, is not very far off. These results in

Robert were the first outcome of divine facts and influences--they

were the buds of the fruit hereafter to be gathered in perfect

devotion. God be praised by those who know religion to be the truth of

humanity--its own truth that sets it free--not binds, and lops, and

mutilates it! who see God to be the father of every human soul--the

ideal Father, not an inventor of schemes, or the upholder of a court

etiquette for whose use he has chosen to desecrate the name of

justice!

To return to Dr. Anderson. I have had little opportunity of knowing

his history in India. He returned from it half-way down the hill of

life, sad, gentle, kind, and rich. Whence his sadness came, we need

not inquire. Some woman out in that fervid land may have darkened his

story--darkened it wronglessly, it may be, with coldness, or only with

death. But to return home without wife to accompany him or child to

meet him,--to sit by his riches like a man over a fire of straws in a

Siberian frost; to know that old faces were gone and old hearts

changed, that the pattern of things in the heavens had melted away

from the face of the earth, that the chill evenings of autumn were

settling down into longer and longer nights, and that no hope lay any

more beyond the mountains--surely this was enough to make a

gentle-minded man sad, even if the individual sorrows of his history

had gathered into gold and purple in the west. I say west advisedly.

For we are journeying, like our globe, ever towards the east. Death

and the west are behind us--ever behind us, and settling into the

unchangeable.

It was natural that he should be interested in the fine promise of

Robert, in whom he saw revived the hopes of his own youth, but in a

nature at once more robust and more ideal. Where the doctor was

refined, Robert was strong; where the doctor was firm with a firmness

he had cultivated, Robert was imperious with an imperiousness time

would mellow; where the doctor was generous and careful at once,

Robert gave his mite and forgot it. He was rugged in the simplicity of

his truthfulness, and his speech bewrayed him as altogether of the

people; but the doctor knew the hole of the pit whence he had been

himself digged. All that would fall away as the spiky shell from the

polished chestnut, and be reabsorbed in the growth of the grand

cone-flowering tree, to stand up in the sun and wind of the years a

very altar of incense. It is no wonder, I repeat, that he loved the

boy, and longed to further his plans. But he was too wise to overwhelm

him with a cataract of fortune instead of blessing him with the

merciful dew of progress.

'The fellow will bring me in for no end of expense,' he said, smiling

to himself, as he drove home in his chariot. 'The less he means it the

more unconscionable he will be. There's that Ericson--but that isn't

worth thinking of. I must do something for that queer protÃ©gÃ© of

his, though--that Shargar. The fellow is as good as a dog, and that's

saying not a little for him. I wonder if he can learn--or if he takes

after his father the marquis, who never could spell. Well, it is a

comfort to have something to do worth doing. I did think of endowing a

hospital; but I'm not sure that it isn't better to endow a good man

than a hospital. I'll think about it. I won't say anything about

Shargar either, till I see how he goes on. I might give him a job,

though, now and then. But where to fall in with him--prowling about

after jobs?'

He threw himself back in his seat, and laughed with a delight he had

rarely felt. He was a providence watching over the boys, who expected

nothing of him beyond advice for Ericson! Might there not be a

Providence that equally transcended the vision of men, shaping to

nobler ends the blocked-out designs of their rough-hewn marbles?

His thoughts wandered back to his friend the Brahmin, who died longing

for that absorption into deity which had been the dream of his life:

might not the Brahmin find the grand idea shaped to yet finer issues

than his aspiration had dared contemplate?--might he not inherit in

the purification of his will such an absorption as should intensify

his personality?

CHAPTER IX.

A HUMAN SOUL.

ERICSON lay for several weeks, during which time Robert and Shargar

were his only nurses. They contrived, by abridging both rest and

labour, to give him constant attendance. Shargar went to bed early and

got up early, so as to let Robert have a few hours' sleep before his

classes began. Robert again slept in the evening, after Shargar came

home, and made up for the time by reading while he sat by his friend.

Mrs. Fyvie's attendance was in requisition only for the hours when he

had to be at lectures. By the greatest economy of means, consisting of

what Shargar brought in by jobbing about the quay and the

coach-offices, and what Robert had from Dr. Anderson for copying his

manuscript, they contrived to procure for Ericson all that he wanted.

The shopping of the two boys, in their utter ignorance of such

delicacies as the doctor told them to get for him, the blunders they

made as to the shops at which they were to be bought, and the

consultations they held, especially about the preparing of the

prescribed nutriment, afforded them many an amusing retrospect in

after years. For the house was so full of lodgers, that Robert begged

Mrs. Fyvie to give herself no trouble in the matter. Her conscience,

however, was uneasy, and she spoke to Dr. Anderson; but he assured her

that she might trust the boys. What cooking they could not manage, she

undertook cheerfully, and refused to add anything to the rent on

Shargar's account.

Dr. Anderson watched everything, the two boys as much as his patient.

He allowed them to work on, sending only the wine that was necessary

from his own cellar. The moment the supplies should begin to fail, or

the boys to look troubled, he was ready to do more. About Robert's

perseverance he had no doubt: Shargar's faithfulness he wanted to

prove.

Robert wrote to his grandmother to tell her that Shargar was with him,

working hard. Her reply was somewhat cold and offended, but was

inclosed in a parcel containing all Shargar's garments, and ended with

the assurance that as long as he did well she was ready to do what she

could.

Few English readers will like Mrs. Falconer; but her grandchild

considered her one of the noblest women ever God made; and I, from his

account, am of the same mind. Her care was fixed

Â Â Â Â To fill her odorous lamp with deeds of light,

Â Â Â Â And hope that reaps not shame.

And if one must choose between the how and the what, let me have the

what, come of the how what may. I know of a man so sensitive, that he

shuts his ears to his sister's griefs, because it spoils his digestion

to think of them.

One evening Robert was sitting by the table in Ericson's room. Dr.

Anderson had not called that day, and he did not expect to see him

now, for he had never come so late. He was quite at his ease,

therefore, and busy with two things at once, when the doctor opened

the door and walked in. I think it is possible that he came up quietly

with some design of surprising him. He found him with a stocking on

one hand, a darning needle in the other, and a Greek book open before

him. Taking no apparent notice of him, he walked up to the bedside,

and Robert put away his work. After his interview with his patient was

over, the doctor signed to him to follow him to the next room. There

Shargar lay on the rug already snoring. It was a cold night in

December, but he lay in his under-clothing, with a single blanket

round him.

'Good training for a soldier,' said the doctor; 'and so was your work

a minute ago, Robert.'

'Ay,' answered Robert, colouring a little; 'I was readin' a bit o' the

Anabasis.'

The doctor smiled a far-off sly smile.

'I think it was rather the Katabasis, if one might venture to judge

from the direction of your labours.'

'Weel,' answered Robert, 'what wad ye hae me do? Wad ye hae me lat Mr.

Ericson gang wi' holes i' the heels o' 's hose, whan I can mak them a'

snod, an' learn my Greek at the same time? Hoots, doctor! dinna lauch

at me. I was doin' nae ill. A body may please themsel's--whiles

surely, ohn sinned.'

'But it's such waste of time! Why don't you buy him new ones?'

''Deed that's easier said than dune. I hae eneuch ado wi' my siller as

'tis; an' gin it warna for you, doctor, I do not ken what wad come o'

's; for ye see I hae no richt to come upo' my grannie for ither fowk.

There wad be nae en' to that.'

'But I could lend you the money to buy him some stockings.'

'An' whan wad I be able to pay ye, do ye think, doctor? In anither

warl' maybe, whaur the currency micht be sae different there wad be no

possibility o' reckonin' the rate o' exchange. Na, na.'

'But I will give you the money if you like.'

'Na, na. You hae dune eneuch already, an' mony thanks. Siller's no sae

easy come by to be wastit, as lang's a darn 'll do. Forbye, gin ye

began wi' his claes, ye wadna ken whaur to haud; for it wad jist be

the new claith upo' the auld garment: ye micht as weel new cleed him

at ance.'

'And why not if I choose, Mr. Falconer?'

'Speir ye that at him, an' see what ye'll get--a luik 'at wad fess a

corbie (carrion crow) frae the lift (sky). I wadna hae ye try that.

Some fowk's poverty maun be han'let jist like a sair place, doctor. He

canna weel compleen o' a bit darnin'.--He canna tak that ill,'

repeated Robert, in a tone that showed he yet felt some anxiety on the

subject; 'but new anes! I wadna like to be by whan he fand that oot.

Maybe he micht tak them frae a wuman; but frae a man body!--na, na; I

maun jist darn awa'. But I'll mak them dacent eneuch afore I hae dune

wi' them. A fiddler has fingers.'

The doctor smiled a pleased smile; but when he got into his carriage,

again he laughed heartily.

The evening deepened into night. Robert thought Ericson was asleep.

But he spoke.

'Who is that at the street door?' he said.

They were at the top of the house, and there was no window to the

street. But Ericson's senses were preternaturally acute, as is often

the case in such illnesses.

'I dinna hear onybody,' answered Robert.

'There was somebody,' returned Ericson.

From that moment he began to be restless, and was more feverish than

usual throughout the night.

Up to this time he had spoken little, was depressed with a suffering

to which he could give no name--not pain, he said--but such that he

could rouse no mental effort to meet it: his endurance was passive

altogether. This night his brain was more affected. He did not rave,

but often wandered; never spoke nonsense, but many words that would

have seemed nonsense to ordinary people: to Robert they seemed

inspired. His imagination, which was greater than any other of his

fine faculties, was so roused that he talked in verse--probably verse

composed before and now recalled. He would even pray sometimes in

measured lines, and go on murmuring petitions, till the words of the

murmur became undistinguishable, and he fell asleep. But even in his

sleep he would speak; and Robert would listen in awe; for such words,

falling from such a man, were to him as dim breaks of coloured light

from the rainbow walls of the heavenly city.

'If God were thinking me,' said Ericson, 'ah! But if he be only

dreaming me, I shall go mad.'

Ericson's outside was like his own northern clime--dark, gentle, and

clear, with gray-blue seas, and a sun that seems to shine out of the

past, and know nothing of the future. But within glowed a volcanic

angel of aspiration, fluttering his half-grown wings, and ever

reaching towards the heights whence all things are visible, and where

all passions are safe because true, that is divine. Iceland herself

has her Hecla.

Robert listened with keenest ear. A mist of great meaning hung about

the words his friend had spoken. He might speak more. For some minutes

he listened in vain, and was turning at last towards his book in

hopelessness, when he did speak yet again: Robert's ear soon detected

the rhythmic motion of his speech.

'Come in the glory of thine excellence;

Rive the dense gloom with wedges of clear light;

And let the shimmer of thy chariot wheels

Burn through the cracks of night.--So slowly, Lord,

To lift myself to thee with hands of toil,

Climbing the slippery cliff of unheard prayer!

Lift up a hand among my idle days--

One beckoning finger. I will cast aside

The clogs of earthly circumstance, and run

Up the broad highways where the countless worlds

Sit ripening in the summer of thy love.'

Breathless for fear of losing a word, Robert yet remembered that he

had seen something like these words in the papers Ericson had given

him to read on the night when his illness began. When he had fallen

asleep and silent, he searched and found the poem from which I give

the following extracts. He had not looked at the papers since that

night.

A PRAYER.

Â Â Â Â O Lord, my God, how long

Shall my poor heart pant for a boundless joy?

How long, O mighty Spirit, shall I hear

The murmur of Truth's crystal waters slide

From the deep caverns of their endless being,

But my lips taste not, and the grosser air

Choke each pure inspiration of thy will?

Â Â Â Â I would be a wind,

Whose smallest atom is a viewless wing,

All busy with the pulsing life that throbs

To do thy bidding; yea, or the meanest thing

That has relation to a changeless truth

Could I but be instinct with thee--each thought

The lightning of a pure intelligence,

And every act as the loud thunder-clap

Of currents warring for a vacuum.

Â Lord, clothe me with thy truth as with a robe.

Purge me with sorrow. I will bend my head,

And let the nations of thy waves pass over,

Bathing me in thy consecrated strength.

And let the many-voiced and silver winds

Pass through my frame with their clear influence.

O save me--I am blind; lo! thwarting shapes

Wall up the void before, and thrusting out

Lean arms of unshaped expectation, beckon

Down to the night of all unholy thoughts.

Â Â Â Â I have seen

Unholy shapes lop off my shining thoughts,

Which I had thought nursed in thine emerald light;

And they have lent me leathern wings of fear,

Of baffled pride and harrowing distrust;

And Godhead with its crown of many stars,

Its pinnacles of flaming holiness,

And voice of leaves in the green summer-time,

Has seemed the shadowed image of a self.

Then my soul blackened; and I rose to find

And grasp my doom, and cleave the arching deeps

Of desolation.

Â O Lord, my soul is a forgotten well;

Clad round with its own rank luxuriance;

A fountain a kind sunbeam searches for,

Sinking the lustre of its arrowy finger

Through the long grass its own strange virtue5

Hath blinded up its crystal eye withal:

Make me a broad strong river coming down

With shouts from its high hills, whose rocky hearts

Throb forth the joy of their stability

In watery pulses from their inmost deeps,

And I shall be a vein upon thy world,

Circling perpetual from the parent deep.

Â O First and Last, O glorious all in all,

In vain my faltering human tongue would seek

To shape the vesture of the boundless thought,

Summing all causes in one burning word;

Give me the spirit's living tongue of fire,

Whose only voice is in an attitude

Of keenest tension, bent back on itself

With a strong upward force; even as thy bow

Of bended colour stands against the north,

And, in an attitude to spring to heaven,

Lays hold of the kindled hills.

Â Â Â Â Most mighty One,

Confirm and multiply my thoughts of good;

Help me to wall each sacred treasure round

With the firm battlements of special action.

Alas my holy, happy thoughts of thee

Make not perpetual nest within my soul,

But like strange birds of dazzling colours stoop

The trailing glories of their sunward speed,

For one glad moment filling my blasted boughs

With the sunshine of their wings.

Â Â Â Â Make me a forest

Of gladdest life, wherein perpetual spring

Lifts up her leafy tresses in the wind.

Â Â Â Â Lo! now I see

Thy trembling starlight sit among my pines,

And thy young moon slide down my arching boughs

With a soft sound of restless eloquence.

And I can feel a joy as when thy hosts

Of trampling winds, gathering in maddened bands,

Roar upward through the blue and flashing day

Round my still depths of uncleft solitude.

Â Â Â Â Hear me, O Lord,

When the black night draws down upon my soul,

And voices of temptation darken down

The misty wind, slamming thy starry doors,

With bitter jests. 'Thou fool!' they seem to say

'Thou hast no seed of goodness in thee; all

Thy nature hath been stung right through and through.

Thy sin hath blasted thee, and made thee old.

Thou hadst a will, but thou hast killed it--dead--

And with the fulsome garniture of life

Built out the loathsome corpse. Thou art a child

Of night and death, even lower than a worm.

Gather the skirts up of thy shadowy self,

And with what resolution thou hast left,

Fall on the damned spikes of doom.'

Â Â Â Â O take me like a child,

If thou hast made me for thyself, my God,

And lead me up thy hills. I shall not fear

So thou wilt make me pure, and beat back sin

With the terrors of thine eye.

Â Â Â Â Lord hast thou sent

Thy moons to mock us with perpetual hope?

Lighted within our breasts the love of love,

To make us ripen for despair, my God?

Â Oh, dost thou hold each individual soul

Strung clear upon thy flaming rods of purpose?

Or does thine inextinguishable will

Stand on the steeps of night with lifted hand,

Filling the yawning wells of monstrous space

With mixing thought--drinking up single life

As in a cup? and from the rending folds

Of glimmering purpose, the gloom do all thy navied stars

Slide through the gloom with mystic melody,

Like wishes on a brow? Oh, is my soul,

Hung like a dew-drop in thy grassy ways,

Drawn up again into the rack of change,

Even through the lustre which created it?

O mighty one, thou wilt not smite me through

With scorching wrath, because my spirit stands

Bewildered in thy circling mysteries.

Here came the passage Robert had heard him repeat, and then the

following paragraph:

Lord, thy strange mysteries come thickening down

Upon my head like snow-flakes, shutting out

The happy upper fields with chilly vapour.

Shall I content my soul with a weak sense

Of safety? or feed my ravenous hunger with

Sore-purged hopes, that are not hopes, but fears

Clad in white raiment?

I know not but some thin and vaporous fog,

Fed with the rank excesses of the soul,

Mocks the devouring hunger of my life

With satisfaction: lo! the noxious gas

Feeds the lank ribs of gaunt and ghastly death

With double emptiness, like a balloon,

Borne by its lightness o'er the shining lands,

A wonder and a laughter.

Â The creeds lie in the hollow of men's hearts

Like festering pools glassing their own corruption:

The slimy eyes stare up with dull approval,

And answer not when thy bright starry feet

Move on the watery floors.

Â O wilt thou hear me when I cry to thee?

I am a child lost in a mighty forest;

The air is thick with voices, and strange hands

Reach through the dusk and pluck me by the skirts.

There is a voice which sounds like words from home,

But, as I stumble on to reach it, seems

To leap from rock to rock. Oh! if it is

Willing obliquity of sense, descend,

Heal all my wanderings, take me by the hand,

And lead me homeward through the shadows.

Â Let me not by my wilful acts of pride

Block up the windows of thy truth, and grow

A wasted, withered thing, that stumbles on

Down to the grave with folded hands of sloth

And leaden confidence.

There was more of it, as my type indicates. Full of faults, I have

given so much to my reader, just as it stood upon Ericson's blotted

papers, the utterance of a true soul 'crying for the light.' But I

give also another of his poems, which Robert read at the same time,

revealing another of his moods when some one of the clouds of holy

doubt and questioning love which so often darkened his sky, did at

length

Â Â Â Â Turn forth her silver lining on the night:

SONG.

They are blind and they are dead:

Â We will wake them as we go;

There are words have not been said;

Â There are sounds they do not know.

Â Â Â We will pipe and we will sing--

Â Â Â With the music and the spring,

Â Â Â Set their hearts a wondering.

They are tired of what is old:

Â We will give it voices new;

For the half hath not been told

Â Of the Beautiful and True.

Â Â Â Drowsy eyelids shut and sleeping!

Â Â Â Heavy eyes oppressed with weeping!

Â Â Â Flashes through the lashes leaping!

Ye that have a pleasant voice,

Â Hither come without delay;

Ye will never have a choice

Â Like to that ye have to-day:

Â Â Â Round the wide world we will go,

Â Â Â Singing through the frost and snow,

Â Â Â Till the daisies are in blow.

Ye that cannot pipe or sing,

Â Ye must also come with speed;

Ye must come and with you bring

Â Weighty words and weightier deed:

Â Â Â Helping hands and loving eyes,

Â Â Â These will make them truly wise--

Â Â Â Then will be our Paradise.

As Robert read, the sweetness of the rhythm seized upon him, and,

almost unconsciously, he read the last stanza aloud. Looking up from

the paper with a sigh of wonder and delight--there was the pale face

of Ericson gazing at him from the bed! He had risen on one arm,

looking like a dead man called to life against his will, who found the

world he had left already stranger to him than the one into which he

had but peeped.

'Yes,' he murmured; 'I could say that once. It's all gone now. Our

world is but our moods.'

He fell back on his pillow. After a little, he murmured again:

'I might fool myself with faith again. So it is better not. I would

not be fooled. To believe the false and be happy is the very belly of

misery. To believe the true and be miserable, is to be true--and

miserable. If there is no God, let me know it. I will not be fooled. I

will not believe in a God that does not exist. Better be miserable

because I am, and cannot help it.--O God!'

Yet in his misery, he cried upon God.

These words came upon Robert with such a shock of sympathy, that they

destroyed his consciousness for the moment, and when he thought about

them, he almost doubted if he had heard them. He rose and approached

the bed. Ericson lay with his eyes closed, and his face contorted as

by inward pain. Robert put a spoonful of wine to his lips. He

swallowed it, opened his eyes, gazed at the boy as if he did not know

him, closed them again, and lay still.

Some people take comfort from the true eyes of a dog--and a precious

thing to the loving heart is the love of even a dumb animal.6 What

comfort then must not such a boy as Robert have been to such a man as

Ericson! Often and often when he was lying asleep as Robert thought,

he was watching the face of his watcher. When the human soul is not

yet able to receive the vision of the God-man, God sometimes--might I

not say always?--reveals himself, or at least gives himself, in some

human being whose face, whose hands are the ministering angels of his

unacknowledged presence, to keep alive the fire of love on the altar

of the heart, until God hath provided the sacrifice--that is, until

the soul is strong enough to draw it from the concealing thicket. Here

were two, each thinking that God had forsaken him, or was not to be

found by him, and each the very love of God, commissioned to tend the

other's heart. In each was he present to the other. The one thought

himself the happiest of mortals in waiting upon his big brother, whose

least smile was joy enough for one day; the other wondered at the

unconscious goodness of the boy, and while he gazed at his ruddy-brown

face, believed in God.

For some time after Ericson was taken ill, he was too depressed and

miserable to ask how he was cared for. But by slow degrees it dawned

upon him that a heart deep and gracious, like that of a woman, watched

over him. True, Robert was uncouth, but his uncouthness was that of a

half-fledged angel. The heart of the man and the heart of the boy were

drawn close together. Long before Ericson was well he loved Robert

enough to be willing to be indebted to him, and would lie

pondering--not how to repay him, but how to return his kindness.

How much Robert's ambition to stand well in the eyes of Miss St. John

contributed to his progress I can only imagine; but certainly his

ministrations to Ericson did not interfere with his Latin and Greek. I

venture to think that they advanced them, for difficulty adds to

result, as the ramming of the powder sends the bullet the further. I

have heard, indeed, that when a carrier wants to help his horse up

hill, he sets a boy on his back.

Ericson made little direct acknowledgment to Robert: his tones, his

gestures, his looks, all thanked him; but he shrunk from words, with

the maidenly shamefacedness that belongs to true feeling. He would

even assume the authoritative, and send him away to his studies, but

Robert knew how to hold his own. The relation of elder brother and

younger was already established between them. Shargar likewise took

his share in the love and the fellowship, worshipping in that he

believed.

CHAPTER X.

A FATHER AND A DAUGHTER.

THE presence at the street door of which Ericson's over-acute sense

had been aware on a past evening, was that of Mr. Lindsay, walking

home with bowed back and bowed head from the college library, where he

was privileged to sit after hours as long as he pleased over books too

big to be comfortably carried home to his cottage. He had called to

inquire after Ericson, whose acquaintance he had made in the library,

and cultivated until almost any Friday evening Ericson was to be found

seated by Mr. Lindsay's parlour fire.

As he entered the room that same evening, a young girl raised herself

from a low seat by the fire to meet him. There was a faint rosy flush

on her cheek, and she held a volume in her hand as she approached her

father. They did not kiss: kisses were not a legal tender in Scotland

then: possibly there has been a depreciation in the value of them

since they were.

'I've been to ask after Mr. Ericson,' said Mr. Lindsay.

'And how is he?' asked the girl.

'Very poorly indeed,' answered her father.

'I am sorry. You'll miss him, papa.'

'Yes, my dear. Tell Jenny to bring my lamp.'

'Won't you have your tea first, papa?'

'Oh yes, if it's ready.'

'The kettle has been boiling for a long time, but I wouldn't make the

tea till you came in.'

Mr. Lindsay was an hour later than usual, but Mysie was quite unaware

of that: she had been absorbed in her book, too much absorbed even to

ring for better light than the fire afforded. When her father went to

put off his long, bifurcated greatcoat, she returned to her seat by

the fire, and forgot to make the tea. It was a warm, snug room, full

of dark, old-fashioned, spider-legged furniture; low-pitched, with a

bay-window, open like an ear to the cries of the German Ocean at

night, and like an eye during the day to look out upon its wide

expanse. This ear or eye was now curtained with dark crimson, and the

room, in the firelight, with the young girl for a soul to it, affected

one like an ancient book in which he reads his own latest thought.

Mysie was nothing over the middle height--delicately-fashioned, at

once slender and round, with extremities neat as buds. Her complexion

was fair, and her face pale, except when a flush, like that of a white

rose, overspread it. Her cheek was lovelily curved, and her face

rather short. But at first one could see nothing for her eyes. They

were the largest eyes; and their motion reminded one of those of

Sordello in the Purgatorio:

Â Â Â Â E nel muover degli occhi onesta e tarda:

they seemed too large to move otherwise than with a slow turning like

that of the heavens. At first they looked black, but if one ventured

inquiry, which was as dangerous as to gaze from the battlements of

Elsinore, he found them a not very dark brown. In her face, however,

especially when flushed, they had all the effect of what Milton

describes as

Â Â Â Â Quel sereno fulgor d'amabil nero.

A wise observer would have been a little troubled in regarding her

mouth. The sadness of a morbid sensibility hovered about it--the sign

of an imagination wrought upon from the centre of self. Her lips were

neither thin nor compressed--they closed lightly, and were richly

curved; but there was a mobility almost tremulous about the upper lip

that gave sign of the possibility of such an oscillation of feeling as

might cause the whole fabric of her nature to rock dangerously.

The moment her father re-entered, she started from her stool on the

rug, and proceeded to make the tea. Her father took no notice of her

neglect, but drew a chair to the table, helped himself to a piece of

oat-cake, hastily loaded it with as much butter as it could well

carry, and while eating it forgot it and everything else in the

absorption of a volume he had brought in with him from his study, in

which he was tracing out some genealogical thread of which he fancied

he had got a hold. Mysie was very active now, and lost the expression

of far-off-ness which had hitherto characterized her countenance;

till, having poured out the tea, she too plunged at once into her

novel, and, like her father, forgot everything and everybody near her.

Mr. Lindsay was a mild, gentle man, whose face and hair seemed to have

grown gray together. He was very tall, and stooped much. He had a

mouth of much sensibility, and clear blue eyes, whose light was rarely

shed upon any one within reach except his daughter--they were so

constantly bent downwards, either on the road as he walked, or on his

book as he sat. He had been educated for the church, but had never

risen above the position of a parish school-master. He had little or

no impulse to utterance, was shy, genial, and, save in reading,

indolent. Ten years before this point of my history he had been taken

up by an active lawyer in Edinburgh, from information accidentally

supplied by Mr. Lindsay himself, as the next heir to a property to

which claim was laid by the head of a county family of wealth.

Probabilities were altogether in his favour, when he gave up the

contest upon the offer of a comfortable annuity from the disputant. To

leave his schooling and his possible estate together, and sit down

comfortably by his own fireside, with the means of buying books, and

within reach of a good old library--that of King's College by

preference--was to him the sum of all that was desirable. The income

offered him was such that he had no doubt of laying aside enough for

his only child, Mysie; but both were so ill-fitted for saving, he from

looking into the past, she from looking into--what shall I call it? I

can only think of negatives--what was neither past, present, nor

future, neither material nor eternal, neither imaginative in any true

sense, nor actual in any sense, that up to the present hour there was

nothing in the bank, and only the money for impending needs in the

house. He could not be called a man of learning; he was only a great

bookworm; for his reading lay all in the nebulous regions of history.

Old family records, wherever he could lay hold upon them, were his

favourite dishes; old, musty books, that looked as if they knew

something everybody else had forgotten, made his eyes gleam, and his

white taper-fingered hand tremble with eagerness. With such a book in

his grasp he saw something ever beckoning him on, a dimly precious

discovery, a wonderful fact just the shape of some missing fragment in

the mosaic of one of his pictures of the past. To tell the truth,

however, his discoveries seldom rounded themselves into pictures,

though many fragments of the minutely dissected map would find their

places, whereupon he rejoiced like a mild giant refreshed with

soda-water. But I have already said more about him than his place

justifies; therefore, although I could gladly linger over the

portrait, I will leave it. He had taught his daughter next to nothing.

Being his child, he had the vague feeling that she inherited his

wisdom, and that what he knew she knew. So she sat reading novels,

generally trashy ones, while he knew no more of what was passing in

her mind than of what the Admirable Crichton might, at the moment, be

disputing with the angels.

I would not have my reader suppose that Mysie's mind was corrupted. It

was so simple and childlike, leaning to what was pure, and looking up

to what was noble, that anything directly bad in the books she

happened--for it was all haphazard--to read, glided over her as a

black cloud may glide over a landscape, leaving it sunny as before.

I cannot therefore say, however, that she was nothing the worse. If

the darkening of the sun keep the fruits of the earth from growing,

the earth is surely the worse, though it be blackened by no deposit of

smoke. And where good things do not grow, the wild and possibly

noxious will grow more freely. There may be no harm in the yellow

tanzie--there is much beauty in the red poppy; but they are not good

for food. The result in Mysie's case would be this--not that she would

call evil good and good evil, but that she would take the beautiful

for the true and the outer shows of goodness for goodness itself--not

the worst result, but bad enough, and involving an awful amount of

suffering and possibly of defilement. He who thinks to climb the hill

of happiness thus, will find himself floundering in the blackest bog

that lies at the foot of its precipices. I say he, not she, advisedly.

All will acknowledge it of the woman: it is as true of the man, though

he may get out easier. Will he? I say, checking myself. I doubt it

much. In the world's eye, yes; but in God's? Let the question remain

unanswered.

When he had eaten his toast, and drunk his tea, apparently without any

enjoyment, Mr. Lindsay rose with his book in his hand, and withdrew to

his study.

He had not long left the room when Mysie was startled by a loud knock

at the back door, which opened on a lane, leading along the top of the

hill. But she had almost forgotten it again, when the door of the room

opened, and a gentleman entered without any announcement--for Jenny

had never heard of the custom. When she saw him, Mysie started from

her seat, and stood in visible embarrassment. The colour went and came

on her lovely face, and her eyelids grew very heavy. She had never

seen the visitor before: whether he had ever seen her before, I cannot

certainly say. She felt herself trembling in his presence, while he

advanced with perfect composure. He was a man no longer young, but in

the full strength and show of manhood--the Baron of Rothie. Since the

time of my first description of him, he had grown a moustache, which

improved his countenance greatly, by concealing his upper lip with its

tusky curves. On a girl like Mysie, with an imagination so cultivated,

and with no opportunity of comparing its fancies with reality, such a

man would make an instant impression.

'I beg your pardon, Miss--Lindsay, I presume?--for intruding upon you

so abruptly. I expected to see your father--not one of the graces.'

She blushed all the colour of her blood now. The baron was quite

enough like the hero of whom she had just been reading to admit of her

imagination jumbling the two. Her book fell. He lifted it and laid it

on the table. She could not speak even to thank him. Poor Mysie was

scarcely more than sixteen.

'May I wait here till your father is informed of my visit?' he asked.

Her only answer was to drop again upon her low stool.

Now Jenny had left it to Mysie to acquaint her father with the fact of

the baron's presence; but before she had time to think of the

necessity of doing something, he had managed to draw her into

conversation. He was as great a hypocrite as ever walked the earth,

although he flattered himself that he was none, because he never

pretended to cultivate that which he despised--namely, religion. But

he was a hypocrite nevertheless; for the falser he knew himself, the

more honour he judged it to persuade women of his truth.

It is unnecessary to record the slight, graceful, marrowless talk into

which he drew Mysie, and by which he both bewildered and bewitched

her. But at length she rose, admonished by her inborn divinity, to

seek her father. As she passed him, the baron took her hand and kissed

it. She might well tremble. Even such contact was terrible. Why?

Because there was no love in it. When the sense of beauty which God

had given him that he might worship, awoke in Lord Rothie, he did not

worship, but devoured, that he might, as he thought, possess! The

poison of asps was under those lips. His kiss was as a kiss from the

grave's mouth, for his throat was an open sepulchre. This was all in

the past, reader. Baron Rothie was a foam-flake of the court of the

Prince Regent. There are no such men now-a-days! It is a shame to

speak of such, and therefore they are not! Decency has gone so far to

abolish virtue. Would to God that a writer could be decent and honest!

St. Paul counted it a shame to speak of some things, and yet he did

speak of them--because those to whom he spoke did them.

Lord Rothie had, in five minutes, so deeply interested Mr. Lindsay in

a question of genealogy, that he begged his lordship to call again in

a few days, when he hoped to have some result of research to

communicate.

One of the antiquarian's weaknesses, cause and result both of his

favourite pursuits, was an excessive reverence for rank. Had its

claims been founded on mediated revelation, he could not have honoured

it more. Hence when he communicated to his daughter the name of their

visitor, it was 'with bated breath and whispering humbleness,' which

deepened greatly the impression made upon her by the presence and

conversation of the baron. Mysie was in danger.

Shargar was late that evening, for he had a job that detained him. As

he handed over his money to Robert, he said,

'I saw Black Geordie the nicht again, stan'in' at a back door, an'

Jock Mitchell, upo' Reid Rorie, haudin' him.'

'Wha's Jock Mitchell?' asked Robert.

'My brither Sandy's ill-faured groom,' answered Shargar. 'Whatever

mischeef Sandy's up till, Jock comes in i' the heid or tail o' 't.'

'I wonner what he's up till noo.'

'Faith! nae guid. But I aye like waur to meet Sandy by himsel' upo'

that reekit deevil o' his. Man, it's awfu' whan Black Geordie turns

the white o' 's ee, an' the white o' 's teeth upo' ye. It's a' the

white 'at there is about 'im.'

'Wasna yer brither i' the airmy, Shargar?'

'Ow, 'deed ay. They tell me he was at Watterloo. He's a cornel, or

something like that.'

'Wha tellt ye a' that?'

'My mither whiles,' answered Shargar.

CHAPTER XI.

ROBERT'S VOW.

ERICSON was recovering slowly. He could sit up in bed the greater part

of the day, and talk about getting out of it. He was able to give

Robert an occasional help with his Greek, and to listen with pleasure

to his violin. The night-watching grew less needful, and Ericson would

have dispensed with it willingly, but Robert would not yet consent.

But Ericson had seasons of great depression, during which he could not

away with music, or listen to the words of the New Testament. During

one of these Robert had begun to read a chapter to him, in the faint

hope that he might draw some comfort from it.

'Shut the book,' he said. 'If it were the word of God to men, it would

have brought its own proof with it.'

'Are ye sure it hasna?' asked Robert.

'No,' answered Ericson. 'But why should a fellow that would give his

life--that's not much, but it's all I've got--to believe in God, not

be able? Only I confess that God in the New Testament wouldn't satisfy

me. There's no help. I must just die, and go and see.--She'll be left

without anybody. 'What does it matter? She would not mind a word I

said. And the God they talk about will just let her take her own way.

He always does.'

He had closed his eyes and forgotten that Robert heard him. He opened

them now, and fixed them on him with an expression that seemed to ask,

'Have I been saying anything I ought not?'

Robert knelt by the bedside, and said, slowly, with strongly repressed

emotion,

'Mr. Ericson, I sweir by God, gin there be ane, that gin ye dee, I'll

tak up what ye lea' ahin' ye. Gin there be onybody ye want luikit

efter, I'll luik efter her. I'll do what I can for her to the best o'

my abeelity, sae help me God--aye savin' what I maun do for my ain

father, gin he be in life, to fess (bring) him back to the richt gait,

gin there be a richt gait. Sae ye can think aboot whether there's

onything ye wad like to lippen till me.'

A something grew in Ericson's eyes as Robert spoke. Before he had

finished, they beamed on the boy.

'I think there must be a God somewhere after all,' he said, half

soliloquizing. 'I should be sorry you hadn't a God, Robert. Why should

I wish it for your sake? How could I want one for myself if there

never was one? If a God had nothing to do with my making, why should I

feel that nobody but God can set things right? Ah! but he must be such

a God as I could imagine--altogether, absolutely true and good. If we

came out of nothing, we could not invent the idea of a God--could we,

Robert? Nothing would be our God. If we come from God, nothing is more

natural, nothing so natural, as to want him, and when we haven't got

him, to try to find him.--What if he should be in us after all, and

working in us this way? just this very way of crying out after him?'

'Mr. Ericson,' cried Robert, 'dinna say ony mair 'at ye dinna believe

in God. Ye duv believe in 'im--mair, I'm thinkin', nor onybody 'at I

ken, 'cep', maybe, my grannie--only hers is a some queer kin' o' a God

to believe in. I dinna think I cud ever manage to believe in him

mysel'.'

Ericson sighed and was silent. Robert remained kneeling by his

bedside, happier, clearer-headed, and more hopeful than he had ever

been. What if all was right at the heart of things--right, even as a

man, if he could understand, would say was right; right, so that a man

who understood in part could believe it to be ten times more right

than he did understand! Vaguely, dimly, yet joyfully, Robert saw

something like this in the possibility of things. His heart was full,

and the tears filled his eyes. Ericson spoke again.

'I have felt like that often for a few moments,' he said; 'but always

something would come and blow it away. I remember one spring

morning--but if you will bring me that bundle of papers, I will show

you what, if I can find it, will let you understand--'

Robert rose, went to the cupboard, and brought the pile of loose

leaves. Ericson turned them over, and, Robert was glad to see, now and

then sorted them a little. At length he drew out a sheet, carelessly

written, carelessly corrected, and hard to read.

'It is not finished, or likely to be,' he said, as he put the paper in

Robert's hand.

'Won't you read it to me yourself, Mr. Ericson?' suggested Robert.

'I would sooner put it in the fire,' he answered--'it's fate, anyhow.

I don't know why I haven't burnt them all long ago. Rubbish, and

diseased rubbish! Read it yourself, or leave it.'

Eagerly Robert took it, and read. The following was the best he could

make of it:

Oh that a wind would call

From the depths of the leafless wood!

Oh that a voice would fall

On the ear of my solitude!

Far away is the sea,

With its sound and its spirit-tone:

Over it white clouds flee,

But I am alone, alone.

Straight and steady and tall

The trees stand on their feet;

Fast by the old stone wall

The moss grows green and sweet;

But my heart is full of fears,

For the sun shines far away;

And they look in my face through tears,

And the light of a dying day.

My heart was glad last night,

As I pressed it with my palm;

Its throb was airy and light

As it sang some spirit-psalm;

But it died away in my breast

As I wandered forth to-day--

As a bird sat dead on its nest,

While others sang on the spray.

O weary heart of mine,

Is there ever a truth for thee?

Will ever a sun outshine

But the sun that shines on me?

Away, away through the air

The clouds and the leaves are blown;

And my heart hath need of prayer,

For it sitteth alone, alone.

And Robert looked with sad reverence at Ericson,--nor ever thought

that there was one who, in the face of the fact, and in recognition of

it, had dared say, 'Not a sparrow shall fall on the ground without

your Father.' The sparrow does fall--but he who sees it is yet the

Father.

And we know only the fall, and not the sparrow.

CHAPTER XII.

THE GRANITE CHURCH.

THE next day was Sunday. Robert sat, after breakfast, by his friend's

bed.

'You haven't been to church for a long time, Robert: wouldn't you like

to go to-day?' said Ericson.

'I dinna want to lea' you, Mr. Ericson; I can bide wi' ye a' day the

day, an' that's better nor goin' to a' the kirks in Aberdeen.'

'I should like you to go to-day, though; and see if, after all, there

may not be a message for us. If the church be the house of God, as

they call it, there should be, now and then at least, some sign of a

pillar of fire about it, some indication of the presence of God whose

house it is. I wish you would go and see. I haven't been to church for

a long time, except to the college-chapel, and I never saw anything

more than a fog there.'

'Michtna the fog be the torn-edge like, o' the cloody pillar?'

suggested Robert.

'Very likely,' assented Ericson; 'for, whatever truth there may be in

Christianity, I'm pretty sure the mass of our clergy have never got

beyond Judaism. They hang on about the skirts of that cloud for ever.'

'Ye see, they think as lang 's they see the fog, they hae a grup o'

something. But they canna get a grup o' the glory that excelleth, for

it's not to luik at, but to lat ye see a' thing.'

Ericson regarded him with some surprise. Robert hastened to be honest.

'It's no that I ken onything aboot it, Mr. Ericson. I was only

bletherin' (talking nonsense)--rizzonin' frae the twa symbols o' the

cloud an' the fire--kennin' nothing aboot the thing itsel'. I'll awa'

to the kirk, an' see what it's like. Will I gie ye a buik afore I

gang?'

'No, thank you. I'll just lie quiet till you come back--if I can.'

Robert instructed Shargar to watch for the slightest sound from the

sick-room, and went to church.

As he approached the granite cathedral, the only one in the world, I

presume, its stern solidity, so like the country and its men, laid

hold of his imagination for the first time. No doubt the necessity

imposed by the unyielding material had its share, and that a large

one, in the character of the building: whence else that simplest of

west windows, seven lofty, narrow slits of light, parted by granite

shafts of equal width, filling the space between the corner buttresses

of the nave, and reaching from door to roof? whence else the absence

of tracery in the windows--except the severely gracious curves into

which the mullions divide?--But this cause could not have determined

those towers, so strong that they might have borne their granite

weight soaring aloft, yet content with the depth of their foundation,

and aspiring not. The whole aspect of the building is an outcome, an

absolute blossom of the northern nature.

There is but the nave of the church remaining. About 1680, more than a

century after the Reformation, the great tower fell, destroying the

choir, chancel, and transept, which have never been rebuilt. May the

reviving faith of the nation in its own history, and God at the heart

of it, lead to the restoration of this grand old monument of the

belief of their fathers. Deformed as the interior then was with

galleries, and with Gavin Dunbar's flat ceiling, an awe fell upon

Robert as he entered it. When in after years he looked down from

between the pillars of the gallery, that creeps round the church

through the thickness of the wall, like an artery, and recalled the

service of this Sunday morning, he felt more strongly than ever that

such a faith had not reared that cathedral. The service was like the

church only as a dead body is like a man. There was no fervour in it,

no aspiration. The great central tower was gone.

That morning prayers and sermon were philosophically dull, and

respectable as any after-dinner speech. Nor could it well be

otherwise: one of the favourite sayings of its minister was, that a

clergyman is nothing but a moral policeman. As such, however, he more

resembled one of Dogberry's watch. He could not even preach hell with

any vigour; for as a gentleman he recoiled from the vulgarity of the

doctrine, yielding only a few feeble words on the subject as a sop to

the Cerberus that watches over the dues of the Bible--quite unaware

that his notion of the doctrine had been drawn from the Ãneid, and not

from the Bible.

'Well, have you got anything, Robert?' asked Ericson, as he entered

his room.

'Nothing,' answered Robert.

'What was the sermon about?'

'It was all to prove that God is a benevolent being.'

'Not a devil, that is,' answered Ericson. 'Small consolation that.'

'Sma' eneuch,' responded Robert. 'I cudna help thinkin' I kent mony a

tyke (dog) that God had made wi' mair o' what I wad ca' the divine

natur' in him nor a' that Dr. Soulis made oot to be in God himsel'. He

had no ill intentions wi' us--it amuntit to that. He wasna ill-willy,

as the bairns say. But the doctor had some sair wark, I thoucht, to

mak that oot, seein' we war a' the children o' wrath, accordin' to

him, born in sin, and inheritin' the guilt o' Adam's first trespass. I

dinna think Dr. Soulis cud say that God had dune the best he cud for

's. But he never tried to say onything like that. He jist made oot

that he was a verra respectable kin' o' a God, though maybe no a'thing

we micht wuss. We oucht to be thankfu' that he gae's a wee blink o' a

chance o' no bein' brunt to a' eternity, wi' nae chance ava. I dinna

say that he said that, but that's what it a' seemed to me to come

till. He said a hantle aboot the care o' Providence, but a' the gude

that he did seemed to me to be but a haudin' aff o' something ill that

he had made as weel. Ye wad hae thocht the deevil had made the warl',

and syne God had pitten us intil 't, and jist gied a bit wag o' 's

han' whiles to haud the deevil aff o' 's whan he was like to destroy

the breed a'thegither. For the grace that he spak aboot, that was less

nor the nature an' the providence. I cud see unco little o' grace

intil 't.'

Here Ericson broke in--fearful, apparently, lest his boyfriend should

be actually about to deny the God in whom he did not himself believe.

'Robert,' he said solemnly, 'one thing is certain: if there be a God

at all, he is not like that. If there be a God at all, we shall know

him by his perfection--his grand perfect truth, fairness, love--a love

to make life an absolute good--not a mere accommodation of

difficulties, not a mere preponderance of the balance on the side of

well-being. Love only could have been able to create. But they don't

seem jealous for the glory of God, those men. They don't mind a speck,

or even a blot, here and there upon him. The world doesn't make them

miserable. They can get over the misery of their fellow-men without

being troubled about them, or about the God that could let such things

be.7 They represent a God who does wonderfully well, on the whole,

after a middling fashion. I want a God who loves perfectly. He may

kill; he may torture even; but if it be for love's sake, Lord, here am

I. Do with me as thou wilt.'

Had Ericson forgotten that he had no proof of such a God? The next

moment the intellectual demon was awake.

'But what's the good of it all?' he said. 'I don't even know that

there is anything outside of me.'

'Ye ken that I'm here, Mr. Ericson,' suggested Robert.

'I know nothing of the sort. You may be another phantom--only

clearer.'

'Ye speik to me as gin ye thocht me somebody.'

'So does the man to his phantoms, and you call him mad. It is but a

yielding to the pressure of constant suggestion. I do not know--I

cannot know if there is anything outside of me.'

'But gin there warna, there wad be naebody for ye to love, Mr.

Ericson.'

'Of course not.'

'Nor naebody to love you, Mr. Ericson.'

'Of course not.'

'Syne ye wad be yer ain God, Mr. Ericson.'

'Yes. That would follow.'

'I canna imagine a waur hell--closed in amo' naething--wi' naething a'

aboot ye, luikin' something a' the time--kennin' 'at it 's a' a lee,

and nae able to win clear o' 't.'

'It is hell, my boy, or anything worse you can call it.'

'What for suld ye believe that, than, Mr. Ericson? I wadna believe sic

an ill thing as that. I dinna think I cud believe 't, gin ye war to

pruv 't to me.'

'I don't believe it. Nobody could prove that either, even if it were

so. I am only miserable that I can't prove the contrary.'

'Suppose there war a God, Mr. Ericson, do ye think ye bude (behoved)

to be able to pruv that? Do ye think God cud stan' to be pruved as gin

he war something sma' eneuch to be turned roon' and roon', and luikit

at upo' ilka side? Gin there war a God, wadna it jist be sae--that we

cudna prove him to be, I mean?'

'Perhaps. That is something. I have often thought of that. But then

you can't prove anything about it.'

'I canna help thinkin' o' what Mr. Innes said to me ance. I was but a

laddie, but I never forgot it. I plaguit him sair wi' wantin' to

unnerstan' ilka thing afore I wad gang on wi' my questons (sums). Says

he, ae day, "Robert, my man, gin ye will aye unnerstan' afore ye du as

ye're tellt, ye'll never unnerstan' onything. But gin ye du the thing

I tell ye, ye'll be i' the mids o' 't afore ye ken 'at ye're gaein'

intil 't." I jist thocht I wad try him. It was at lang division that I

boglet maist. Weel, I gaed on, and I cud du the thing weel eneuch, ohn

made ae mistak. And aye I thocht the maister was wrang, for I never

kent the rizzon o' a' that beginnin' at the wrang en', an' takin' doon

an' substrackin', an' a' that. Ye wad hardly believe me, Mr. Ericson:

it was only this verra day, as I was sittin' i' the kirk--it was a

lang psalm they war singin'--that ane wi' the foxes i' the tail o'

't--lang division came into my heid again; and first aye bit

glimmerin' o' licht cam in, and syne anither, an' afore the psalm was

dune I saw throu' the haill process o' 't. But ye see, gin I hadna

dune as I was tauld, and learnt a' aboot hoo it was dune aforehan', I

wad hae had naething to gang rizzonin' aboot, an' wad hae fun' oot

naething.'

'That's good, Robert. But when a man is dying for food, he can't

wait.'

'He micht try to get up and luik, though. He needna bide in 's bed

till somebody comes an' sweirs till him 'at he saw a haddie (haddock)

i' the press.'

'I have been looking, Robert--for years.'

'Maybe, like me, only for the rizzon o' 't, Mr. Ericson--gin ye'll

forgie my impidence.'

'But what's to be done in this case, Robert? Where's the work that you

can do in order to understand? Where's your long division, man?'

'Ye're ayont me noo. I canna tell that, Mr. Ericson. It canna be

gaein' to the kirk, surely. Maybe it micht be sayin' yer prayers and

readin' yer Bible.'

Ericson did not reply, and the conversation dropped. Is it strange

that neither of these disciples should have thought of turning to the

story of Jesus, finding some word that he had spoken, and beginning to

do that as a first step towards a knowledge of the doctrine that Jesus

was the incarnate God, come to visit his people--a very unlikely thing

to man's wisdom, yet an idea that has notwithstanding ascended above

man's horizon, and shown itself the grandest idea in his firmament?

In the evening Ericson asked again for his papers, from which he

handed Robert the following poem:--

WORDS IN THE NIGHT.

I woke at midnight, and my heart,

My beating heart said this to me:

Thou seest the moon how calm and bright

The world is fair by day and night,

But what is that to thee?

One touch to me--down dips the light

Over the land and sea.

All is mine, all is my own!

Toss the purple fountain high!

The breast of man is a vat of stone;

I am alive, I, only I!

One little touch and all is dark;

The winter with its sparkling moons

The spring with all her violets,

The crimson dawns and rich sunsets,

The autumn's yellowing noons.

I only toss my purple jets,

And thou art one that swoons

Upon a night of gust and roar,

Shipwrecked among the waves, and seems

Across the purple hills to roam;

Sweet odours touch him from the foam,

And downward sinking still he dreams

He walks the clover field at home,

And hears the rattling teams.

All is mine; all is my own!

Toss the purple fountain high!

The breast of man is a vat of stone;

I am alive, I, only I!

Thou hast beheld a throated fountain spout

Full in the air, and in the downward spray

A hovering Iris span the marble tank,

Which as the wind came, ever rose and sank

Violet and red; so my continual play

Makes beauty for the Gods with many a prank

Of human excellence, while they,

Weary of all the noon, in shadows sweet

Supine and heavy-eyed rest in the boundless heat:

Let the world's fountain play!

Beauty is pleasant in the eyes of Jove;

Betwixt the wavering shadows where he lies

He marks the dancing column with his eyes

Celestial, and amid his inmost grove

Upgathers all his limbs, serenely blest,

Lulled by the mellow noise of the great world's unrest.

One heart beats in all nature, differing

But in the work it works; its doubts and clamours

Are but the waste and brunt of instruments

Wherewith a work is done; or as the hammers

On forge Cyclopean plied beneath the rents

Of lowest Etna, conquering into shape

The hard and scattered ore:

Choose thou narcotics, and the dizzy grape

Outworking passion, lest with horrid crash

Thy life go from thee in a night of pain.

So tutoring thy vision, shall the flash

Of dove white-breasted be to thee no more

Than a white stone heavy upon the plain.

Hark the cock crows loud!

And without, all ghastly and ill,

Like a man uplift in his shroud,

The white white morn is propped on the hill;

And adown from the eaves, pointed and chill,

The icicles 'gin to glitter;

And the birds with a warble short and shrill,

Pass by the chamber-window still--

With a quick uneasy twitter.

Let me pump warm blood, for the cold is bitter;

And wearily, wearily, one by one,

Men awake with the weary sun.

Life is a phantom shut in thee;

I am the master and keep the key;

So let me toss thee the days of old,

Crimson and orange and green and gold;

So let me fill thee yet again

With a rush of dreams from my spout amain;

For all is mine; all is my own;

Toss the purple fountain high!

The breast of man is a vat of stone;

And I am alive, I, only I.

Robert having read, sat and wept in silence. Ericson saw him, and said

tenderly,

'Robert, my boy, I'm not always so bad as that. Read this one--though

I never feel like it now. Perhaps it may come again some day, though.

I may once more deceive myself and be happy.'

'Dinna say that, Mr. Ericson. That's waur than despair. That's flat

unbelief. Ye no more ken that ye're deceivin' yersel' than ye ken that

ye're no doin' 't.'

Ericson did not reply; and Robert read the following sonnet aloud,

feeling his way delicately through its mazes:--

Lie down upon the ground, thou hopeless one!

Press thy face in the grass, and do not speak.

Dost feel the green globe whirl? Seven times a week

Climbeth she out of darkness to the sun,

Which is her god; seven times she doth not shun

Awful eclipse, laying her patient cheek

Upon a pillow ghost-beset with shriek

Of voices utterless which rave and run

Through all the star-penumbra, craving light

And tidings of the dawn from East and West.

Calmly she sleepeth, and her sleep is blest

With heavenly visions, and the joy of Night

Treading aloft with moons. Nor hath she fright

Though cloudy tempests beat upon her breast.

Ericson turned his face to the wall, and Robert withdrew to his own

chamber.

CHAPTER XIII.

SHARGAR'S ARM.

NOT many weeks passed before Shargar knew Aberdeen better than most

Aberdonians. From the Pier-head to the Rubislaw Road, he knew, if not

every court, yet every thoroughfare and short cut. And Aberdeen began

to know him. He was very soon recognized as trustworthy, and had

pretty nearly as much to do as he could manage. Shargar, therefore,

was all over the city like a cracker, and could have told at almost

any hour where Dr. Anderson was to be found--generally in the lower

parts of it, for the good man visited much among the poor; giving them

almost exclusively the benefit of his large experience. Shargar

delighted in keeping an eye upon the doctor, carefully avoiding to

show himself.

One day as he was hurrying through the Green (a non virendo) on a

mission from the Rothieden carrier, he came upon the doctor's chariot

standing in one of the narrowest streets, and, as usual, paused to

contemplate the equipage and get a peep of the owner. The morning was

very sharp. There was no snow, but a cold fog, like vaporized

hoar-frost, filled the air. It was weather in which the East Indian

could not venture out on foot, else he could have reached the place by

a stair from Union Street far sooner than he could drive thither. His

horses apparently liked the cold as little as himself. They had been

moving about restlessly for some time before the doctor made his

appearance. The moment he got in and shut the door, one of them

reared, while the other began to haul on his traces, eager for a

gallop. Something about the chain gave way, the pole swerved round

under the rearing horse, and great confusion and danger would have

ensued, had not Shargar rushed from his coign of vantage, sprung at

the bit of the rearing horse, and dragged him off the pole, over which

he was just casting his near leg. As soon as his feet touched the

ground he too pulled, and away went the chariot and down went Shargar.

But in a moment more several men had laid hold of the horses' heads,

and stopped them.

'Oh Lord!' cried Shargar, as he rose with his arm dangling by his

side, 'what will Donal' Joss say? I'm like to swarf (faint). Haud awa'

frae that basket, ye wuddyfous (withy-fowls, gallows-birds),' he

cried, darting towards the hamper he had left in the entry of a court,

round which a few ragged urchins had gathered; but just as he reached

it he staggered and fell. Nor did he know anything more till he found

the carriage stopping with himself and the hamper inside it.

As soon as the coachman had got his harness put to rights, the doctor

had driven back to see how the lad had fared, for he had felt the

carriage go over something. They had found him lying beside his

hamper, had secured both, and as a preliminary measure were proceeding

to deliver the latter.

'Whaur am I? whaur the deevil am I?' cried Shargar, jumping up and

falling back again.

'Don't you know me, Moray?' said the doctor, for he felt shy of

calling the poor boy by his nickname: he had no right to do so.

'Na, I dinna ken ye. Lat me awa'.--I beg yer pardon, doctor: I thocht

ye was ane o' thae wuddyfous rinnin' awa' wi' Donal' Joss's basket. Eh

me! sic a stoun' i' my airm! But naebody ca's me Moray. They a' ca' me

Shargar. What richt hae I to be ca'd Moray?' added the poor boy,

feeling, I almost believe for the first time, the stain upon his

birth. Yet ye had as good a right before God to be called Moray as any

other son of that worthy sire, the Baron of Rothie included. Possibly

the trumpet-blowing angels did call him Moray, or some better name.

'The coachman will deliver your parcel, Moray,' said the doctor, this

time repeating the name with emphasis.

'Deil a bit o' 't!' cried Shargar. 'He daurna lea' his box wi' thae

deevils o' horses. What gars he keep sic horses, doctor? They'll play

some mischeef some day.'

'Indeed, they've played enough already, my poor boy. They've broken

your arm.'

'Never min' that. That's no muckle. Ye're welcome, doctor, to my twa

airms for what ye hae dune for Robert an' that lang-leggit frien' o'

his--the Lord forgie me--Mr. Ericson. But ye maun jist pay him what I

canna mak for a day or twa, till 't jines again--to haud them gaein',

ye ken.--It winna be muckle to you, doctor,' added Shargar,

beseechingly.

'Trust me for that, Moray,' returned Dr. Anderson. 'I owe you a good

deal more than that. My brains might have been out by this time.'

'The Lord be praised!' said Shargar, making about his first profession

of Christianity. 'Robert 'ill think something o' me noo.'

During this conversation the coachman sat expecting some one to appear

from the shop, and longing to pitch into the 'camstary' horse, but not

daring to lift his whip beyond its natural angle. No one came. All at

once Shargar knew where he was.

'Guid be here! we're at Donal's door! Guid day to ye, doctor; an' I'm

muckle obleeged to ye. Maybe, gin ye war comin' oor gait, the morn, or

the neist day, to see Maister Ericson, ye wad tie up my airm, for it

gangs wallopin' aboot, an' that canna be guid for the stickin' o' 't

thegither again.'

'My poor boy! you don't think I'm going to leave you here, do you?'

said the doctor, proceeding to open the carriage-door.

'But whaur's the hamper?' said Shargar, looking about him in dismay.

'The coachman has got it on the box,' answered the doctor.

'Eh! that'll never do. Gin thae rampaugin' brutes war to tak a start

again, what wad come o' the bit basket? I maun get it doon direckly.'

'Sit still. I will get it down, and deliver it myself.' As he spoke

the doctor got out.

'Tak care o' 't, sir; tak care o' 't. William Walker said there was a

jar o' drained hinney i' the basket; an' the bairns wad miss 't sair

gin 't war spult.'

'I will take good care of it,' responded the doctor.

He delivered the basket, returned to the carriage, and told the

coachman to drive home.

'Whaur are ye takin' me till?' exclaimed Shargar. 'Willie hasna payed

me for the parcel.'

'Never mind Willie. I'll pay you,' said the doctor.

'But Robert wadna like me to tak siller whaur I did nae wark for 't,'

objected Shargar. 'He's some pernickety (precise)--Robert. But I'll

jist say 'at ye garred me, doctor. Maybe that 'll saitisfee him. An'

faith! I'm queer aboot my left fin here.'

'We'll soon set it all right,' said the doctor.

When they reached his house he led the way to his surgery, and there

put the broken limb in splints. He then told Johnston to help the

patient to bed.

'I maun gang hame,' objected Shargar. 'What wad Robert think?'

'I will tell him all about it,' said the doctor.

'Yersel, sir?' stipulated Shargar.

'Yes, myself.'

'Afore nicht?'

'Directly,' answered the doctor, and Shargar yielded.

'But what will Robert say?' were his last words, as he fell asleep,

appreciating, no doubt, the superiority of the bed to his usual lair

upon the hearthrug.

Robert was delighted to hear how well Shargar had acquitted himself.

Followed a small consultation about him; for the accident had ripened

the doctor's intentions concerning the outcast.

'As soon as his arm is sound again, he shall go to the

grammar-school,' he said.

'An' the college?' asked Robert.

'I hope so,' answered the doctor. 'Do you think he will do well? He

has plenty of courage, at all events, and that is a fine thing.'

'Ow ay,' answered Robert; 'he's no ill aff for smeddum (spirit)--that

is, gin it be for ony ither body. He wad never lift a han' for

himsel'; an' that's what garred me tak till him sae muckle. He's a

fine crater. He canna gang him lane, but he'll gang wi' onybody--and

haud up wi' him.'

'What do you think him fit for, then?'

Now Robert had been building castles for Shargar out of the hopes

which the doctor's friendliness had given him. Therefore he was ready

with his answer.

'Gin ye cud ensure him no bein' made a general o', he wad mak a gran'

sojer. Set's face foret, and say "quick mairch," an' he'll ca his

bagonet throu auld Hornie. But lay nae consequences upo' him, for he

cudna stan' unner them.'

Dr. Anderson laughed, but thought none the less, and went home to see

how his patient was getting on.

CHAPTER XIV.

MYSIE'S FACE.

MEANTIME Ericson grew better. A space of hard, clear weather, in which

everything sparkled with frost and sunshine, did him good. But not yet

could he use his brain. He turned with dislike even from his friend

Plato. He would sit in bed or on his chair by the fireside for hours,

with his hands folded before him, and his eyelids drooping, and let

his thoughts flow, for he could not think. And that these thoughts

flowed not always with other than sweet sounds over the stones of

question, the curves of his lip would testify to the friendly, furtive

glance of the watchful Robert. None but the troubled mind knows its

own consolations; and I believe the saddest life has its own

presence--however it may be unrecognized as such--of the upholding

Deity. Doth God care for the hairs that perish from our heads? To a

mind like Ericson's the remembered scent, the recurring vision of a

flower loved in childhood, is enough to sustain anxiety with beauty,

for the lovely is itself healing and hope-giving, because it is the

form and presence of the true. To have such a presence is to be; and

while a mind exists in any high consciousness, the intellectual

trouble that springs from the desire to know its own life, to be

assured of its rounded law and security, ceases, for the desire itself

falls into abeyance.

But although Ericson was so weak, he was always able and ready to help

Robert in any difficulty not unfrequently springing from his imperfect

preparation in Greek; for while Mr. Innes was an excellent Latin

scholar, his knowledge of Greek was too limited either to compel

learning or inspire enthusiasm, And with the keen instinct he

possessed in everything immediate between man and man, Robert would

sometimes search for a difficulty in order to request its solution;

for then Ericson would rouse himself to explain as few men could have

explained: where a clear view was to be had of anything, Ericson

either had it or knew that he had it not. Hence Robert's progress was

good; for one word from a wise helper will clear off a whole

atmosphere of obstructions.

At length one day when Robert came home he found him seated at the

table, with his slate, working away at the Differential Calculus.

After this he recovered more rapidly, and ere another week was over

began to attend one class a day. He had been so far in advance before,

that though he could not expect prizes, there was no fear of his

passing.

One morning, Robert, coming out from a lecture, saw Ericson in the

quadrangle talking to an elderly gentleman. When they met in the

afternoon Ericson told him that that was Mr. Lindsay, and that he had

asked them both to spend the evening at his house. Robert would go

anywhere to be with his friend.

He got out his Sunday clothes, and dressed himself with anxiety: he

had visited scarcely at all, and was shy and doubtful. He then sat

down to his books, till Ericson came to his door--dressed, and hence

in Robert's eyes ceremonial--a stately, graceful gentleman. Renewed

awe came upon him at the sight, and renewed gratitude. There was a

flush on Ericson's cheek, and a fire in his eye. Robert had never seen

him look so grand. But there was a something about him that rendered

him uneasy--a look that made Ericson seem strange, as if his life lay

in some far-off region.

'I want you to take your violin with you, Robert,' he said.

'Hoots!' returned Robert, 'hoo can I do that? To tak her wi' me the

first time I gang to a strange hoose, as gin I thocht a'body wad think

as muckle o' my auld wife as I do mysel'! That wadna be mainners--wad

it noo, Mr. Ericson?'

'But I told Mr. Lindsay that you could play well. The old gentleman is

fond of Scotch tunes, and you will please him if you take it.'

'That maks a' the differ,' answered Robert.

'Thank you,' said Ericson, as Robert went towards his instrument; and,

turning, would have walked from the house without any additional

protection.

'Whaur are ye gaein' that gait, Mr. Ericson? Tak yer plaid, or ye'll

be laid up again, as sure's ye live.'

'I'm warm enough,' returned Ericson.

'That's naething. The cauld 's jist lyin' i' the street like a verra

deevil to get a grup o' ye. Gin ye dinna pit on yer plaid, I winna tak

my fiddle.'

Ericson yielded; and they set out together.

I will account for Ericson's request about the violin.

He went to the episcopal church on Sundays, and sat where he could see

Mysie--sat longing and thirsting ever till the music returned. Yet the

music he never heard; he watched only its transmutation into form,

never taking his eyes off Mysie's face. Reflected thence in a

metamorphosed echo, he followed all its changes. Never was one

powerless to produce it more strangely responsive to its influence.

She had no voice; she had never been taught the use of any instrument.

A world of musical feeling was pent up in her, and music raised the

suddener storms in her mobile nature, that she was unable to give that

feeling utterance. The waves of her soul dashed the more wildly

against their shores, inasmuch as those shores were precipitous, and

yielded no outlet to the swelling waters. It was that his soul might

hover like a bird of Paradise over the lovely changes of her

countenance, changes more lovely and frequent than those of an English

May, that Ericson persuaded Robert to take his violin.

The last of the sunlight was departing, and a large full moon was

growing through the fog on the horizon. The sky was almost clear of

clouds, and the air was cold and penetrating. Robert drew Eric's plaid

closer over his chest. Eric thanked him lightly, but his voice sounded

eager; and it was with a long hasty stride that he went up the hill

through the gathering of the light frosty mist. He stopped at the

stair upon which Robert had found him that memorable night. They went

up. The door had been left on the latch for their entrance. They went

up more steps between rocky walls. When in after years he read the

Purgatorio, as often as he came to one of its ascents, Robert saw this

stair with his inward eye. At the top of the stair was the garden,

still ascending, and at the top of the garden shone the glow of Mr.

Lindsay's parlour through the red-curtained window. To Robert it shone

a refuge for Ericson from the night air; to Ericson it shone the

casket of the richest jewel of the universe. Well might the ruddy glow

stream forth to meet him! Only in glowing red could such beauty be

rightly closed. With trembling hand he knocked at the door.

They were shown at once into the parlour. Mysie was putting away her

book as they entered, and her back was towards them. When she turned,

it seemed even to Robert as if all the light in the room came only

from her eyes. But that light had been all gathered out of the novel

she had just laid down. She held out her hand to Eric, and her sweet

voice was yet more gentle than wont, for he had been ill. His face

flushed at the tone. But although she spoke kindly, he could hardly

have fancied that she showed him special favour.

Robert stood with his violin under his arm, feeling as awkward as if

he had never handled anything more delicate than a pitchfork. But

Mysie sat down to the table, and began to pour out the tea, and he

came to himself again. Presently her father entered. His greeting was

warm and mild and sleepy. He had come from poring over Spotiswood, in

search of some Will o' the wisp or other, and had grown stupid from

want of success. But he revived after a cup of tea, and began to talk

about northern genealogies; and Ericson did his best to listen. Robert

wondered at the knowledge he displayed: he had been tutor the

foregoing summer in one of the oldest and poorest, and therefore

proudest families in Caithness. But all the time his host talked

Ericson's eyes hovered about Mysie, who sat gazing before her with

look distraught, with wide eyes and scarce-moving eyelids, beholding

something neither on sea or shore; and Mr. Lindsay would now and then

correct Ericson in some egregious blunder; while Mysie would now and

then start awake and ask Robert or Ericson to take another cup of tea.

Before the sentence was finished, however, she would let it die away,

speaking the last words mechanically, as her consciousness relapsed

into dreamland. Had not Robert been with Ericson, he would have found

it wearisome enough; and except things took a turn, Ericson could

hardly be satisfied with the pleasure of the evening. Things did take

a turn.

'Robert has brought his fiddle,' said Ericson, as the tea was removed.

'I hope he will be kind enough to play something,' said Mr. Lindsay.

'I'll do that,' answered Robert, with alacrity. 'But ye maunna expec'

ower muckle, for I'm but a prentice-han',' he added, as he got the

instrument ready.

Before he had drawn the bow once across it, attention awoke in Mysie's

eyes; and before he had finished playing, Ericson must have had quite

as much of the 'beauty born of murmuring sound' as was good for him.

Little did Mysie think of the sky of love, alive with silent thoughts,

that arched over her. The earth teems with love that is unloved. The

universe itself is one sea of infinite love, from whose consort of

harmonies if a stray note steal across the sense, it starts

bewildered.

Robert played better than usual. His touch grew intense, and put on

all its delicacy, till it was like that of the spider, which, as Pope

so admirably says,

Â Â Â Â Feels at each thread, and lives along the line.

And while Ericson watched its shadows, the music must have taken hold

of him too; for when Robert ceased, he sang a wild ballad of the

northern sea, to a tune strange as itself. It was the only time Robert

ever heard him sing. Mysie's eyes grew wider and wider as she

listened. When it was over,

'Did ye write that sang yersel', Mr. Ericson?' asked Robert.

'No,' answered Ericson. 'An old shepherd up in our parts used to say

it to me when I was a boy.'

'Didna he sing 't?' Robert questioned further.

'No, he didn't. But I heard an old woman crooning it to a child in a

solitary cottage on the shore of Stroma, near the Swalchie whirlpool,

and that was the tune she sang it to, if singing it could be called.'

'I don't quite understand it, Mr. Ericson,' said Mysie. 'What does it

mean?'

'There was once a beautiful woman lived there-away,' began

Ericson.--But I have not room to give the story as he told it,

embellishing it, no doubt, as with such a mere tale was lawful enough,

from his own imagination. The substance was that a young man fell in

love with a beautiful witch, who let him go on loving her till he

cared for nothing but her, and then began to kill him by laughing at

him. For no witch can fall in love herself, however much she may like

to be loved. She mocked him till he drowned himself in a pool on the

seashore. Now the witch did not know that; but as she walked along the

shore, looking for things, she saw his hand lying over the edge of a

rocky basin. Nothing is more useful to a witch than the hand of a man,

so she went to pick it up. When she found it fast to an arm, she would

have chopped it off, but seeing whose it was, she would, for some

reason or other best known to a witch, draw off his ring first. For it

was an enchanted ring which she had given him to bewitch his love, and

now she wanted both it and the hand to draw to herself the lover of a

young maiden whom she hated. But the dead hand closed its fingers upon

hers, and her power was powerless against the dead. And the tide came

rushing up, and the dead hand held her till she was drowned. She lies

with her lover to this day at the bottom of the Swalchie whirlpool;

and when a storm is at hand, strange moanings rise from the pool, for

the youth is praying the witch lady for her love, and she is praying

him to let go her hand.

While Ericson told the story the room still glimmered about Robert as

if all its light came from Mysie's face, upon which the flickering

firelight alone played. Mr. Lindsay sat a little back from the rest,

with an amused expression: legends of such sort did not come within

the scope of his antiquarian reach, though he was ready enough to

believe whatever tempted his own taste, let it be as destitute of

likelihood as the story of the dead hand. When Ericson ceased, Mysie

gave a deep sigh, and looked full of thought, though I daresay it was

only feeling. Mr. Lindsay followed with an old tale of the Sinclairs,

of which he said Ericson's reminded him, though the sole association

was that the foregoing was a Caithness story, and the Sinclairs are a

Caithness family. As soon as it was over, Mysie, who could not hide

all her impatience during its lingering progress, asked Robert to play

again. He took up his violin, and with great expression gave the air

of Ericson's ballad two or three times over, and then laid down the

instrument. He saw indeed that it was too much for Mysie, affecting

her more, thus presented after the story, than the singing of the

ballad itself. Thereupon Ericson, whose spirits had risen greatly at

finding that he could himself secure Mysie's attention, and produce

the play of soul in feature which he so much delighted to watch,

offered another story; and the distant rush of the sea, borne

occasionally into the 'grateful gloom' upon the cold sweep of a

February wind, mingled with one tale after another, with which he

entranced two of his audience, while the third listened mildly

content.

The last of the tales Ericson told was as follows:--

'One evening-twilight in spring, a young English student, who had

wandered northwards as far as the outlying fragments of Scotland

called the Orkney and Shetland islands, found himself on a small

island of the latter group, caught in a storm of wind and hail, which

had come on suddenly. It was in vain to look about for any shelter;

for not only did the storm entirely obscure the landscape, but there

was nothing around him save a desert moss.

'At length, however, as he walked on for mere walking's sake, he found

himself on the verge of a cliff, and saw, over the brow of it, a few

feet below him, a ledge of rock, where he might find some shelter from

the blast, which blew from behind. Letting himself down by his hands,

he alighted upon something that crunched beneath his tread, and found

the bones of many small animals scattered about in front of a little

cave in the rock, offering the refuge he sought, He went in, and sat

upon a stone. The storm increased in violence, and as the darkness

grew he became uneasy, for he did not relish the thought of spending

the night in the cave. He had parted from his companions on the

opposite side of the island, and it added to his uneasiness that they

must be full of apprehension about him. At last there came a lull in

the storm, and the same instant he heard a footfall, stealthy and

light as that of a wild beast, upon the bones at the mouth of the

cave. He started up in some fear, though the least thought might have

satisfied him that there could be no very dangerous animals upon the

island. Before he had time to think, however, the face of a woman

appeared in the opening. Eagerly the wanderer spoke. She started at

the sound of his voice. He could not see her well, because she was

turned towards the darkness of the cave.

'"Will you tell me how to find my way across the moor to Shielness?"

he asked.

'"You cannot find it to-night," she answered, in a sweet tone, and

with a smile that bewitched him, revealing the whitest of teeth.

'"What am I to do, then?" he asked.

'"My mother will give you shelter, but that is all she has to offer."

'"And that is far more than I expected a minute ago," he replied. "I

shall be most grateful."

'She turned in silence and left the cave. The youth followed.

'She was barefooted, and her pretty brown feet went catlike over the

sharp stones, as she led the way down a rocky path to the shore. Her

garments were scanty and torn, and her hair blew tangled in the wind.

She seemed about five-and-twenty, lithe and small. Her long fingers

kept clutching and pulling nervously at her skirts as she went. Her

face was very gray in complexion, and very worn, but delicately

formed, and smooth-skinned. Her thin nostrils were tremulous as

eyelids, and her lips, whose curves were faultless, had no colour to

give sign of indwelling blood. What her eyes were like he could not

see, for she had never lifted the delicate films of her eyelids.

'At the foot of the cliff they came upon a little hut leaning against

it, and having for its inner apartment a natural hollow within it.

Smoke was spreading over the face of the rock, and the grateful odour

of food gave hope to the hungry student. His guide opened the door of

the cottage; he followed her in, and saw a woman bending over a fire

in the middle of the floor. On the fire lay a large fish boiling. The

daughter spoke a few words, and the mother turned and welcomed the

stranger. She had an old and very wrinkled, but honest face, and

looked troubled. She dusted the only chair in the cottage, and placed

it for him by the side of the fire, opposite the one window, whence he

saw a little patch of yellow sand over which the spent waves spread

themselves out listlessly. Under this window was a bench, upon which

the daughter threw herself in an unusual posture, resting her chin

upon her hand. A moment after the youth caught the first glimpse of

her blue eyes. They were fixed upon him with a strange look of greed,

amounting to craving, but as if aware that they belied or betrayed

her, she dropped them instantly. The moment she veiled them, her face,

notwithstanding its colourless complexion, was almost beautiful.

'When the fish was ready the old woman wiped the deal table, steadied

it upon the uneven floor, and covered it with a piece of fine

table-linen. She then laid the fish on a wooden platter, and invited

the guest to help himself. Seeing no other provision, he pulled from

his pocket a hunting-knife, and divided a portion from the fish,

offering it to the mother first.

'"Come, my lamb," said the old woman; and the daughter approached the

table. But her nostrils and mouth quivered with disgust.

'The next moment she turned and hurried from the hut.

'"She doesn't like fish," said the old woman, "and I haven't anything

else to give her."

'"She does not seem in good health," he rejoined.

'The woman answered only with a sigh, and they ate their fish with the

help of a little rye-bread. As they finished their supper, the youth

heard the sound as of the pattering of a dog's feet upon the sand

close to the door; but ere he had time to look out of the window, the

door opened and the young woman entered. She looked better, perhaps

from having just washed her face. She drew a stool to the corner of

the fire opposite him. But as she sat down, to his bewilderment, and

even horror, the student spied a single drop of blood on her white

skin within her torn dress. The woman brought out a jar of whisky, put

a rusty old kettle on the fire, and took her place in front of it. As

soon as the water boiled, she proceeded to make some toddy in a wooden

bowl.

'Meantime the youth could not take his eyes off the young woman, so

that at length he found himself fascinated, or rather bewitched. She

kept her eyes for the most part veiled with the loveliest eyelids

fringed with darkest lashes, and he gazed entranced; for the red glow

of the little oil-lamp covered all the strangeness of her complexion.

But as soon as he met a stolen glance out of those eyes unveiled, his

soul shuddered within him. Lovely face and craving eyes alternated

fascination and repulsion.

'The mother placed the bowl in his hands. He drank sparingly, and

passed it to the girl. She lifted it to her lips, and as she

tasted--only tasted it--looked at him. He thought the drink must have

been drugged and have affected his brain. Her hair smoothed itself

back, and drew her forehead backwards with it; while the lower part of

her face projected towards the bowl, revealing, ere she sipped, her

dazzling teeth in strange prominence. But the same moment the vision

vanished; she returned the vessel to her mother, and rising, hurried

out of the cottage.

'Then, the old woman pointed to a bed of heather in one corner with a

murmured apology; and the student, wearied both with the fatigues of

the day and the strangeness of the night, threw himself upon it,

wrapped in his cloak. The moment he lay down, the storm began afresh,

and the wind blew so keenly through the crannies of the hut, that it

was only by drawing his cloak over his head that he could protect

himself from its currents. Unable to sleep, he lay listening to the

uproar which grew in violence, till the spray was dashing against the

window. At length the door opened, and the young woman came in, made

up the fire, drew the bench before it, and lay down in the same

strange posture, with her chin propped on her hand and elbow, and her

face turned towards the youth. He moved a little; she dropped her

head, and lay on her face, with her arms crossed beneath her forehead.

The mother had disappeared.

'Drowsiness crept over him. A movement of the bench roused him, and he

fancied he saw some four-footed creature as tall as a large dog trot

quietly out of the door. He was sure he felt a rush of cold wind.

Gazing fixedly through the darkness, he thought he saw the eyes of the

damsel encountering his, but a glow from the falling together of the

remnants of the fire, revealed clearly enough that the bench was

vacant. Wondering what could have made her go out in such a storm, he

fell fast asleep.

'In the middle of the night he felt a pain in his shoulder, came broad

awake, and saw the gleaming eyes and grinning teeth of some animal

close to his face. Its claws were in his shoulder, and its mouth was

in the act of seeking his throat. Before it had fixed its fangs,

however, he had its throat in one hand, and sought his knife with the

other. A terrible struggle followed; but regardless of the tearing

claws, he found and opened his knife. He had made one futile stab, and

was drawing it for a surer, when, with a spring of the whole body, and

one wildly-contorted effort, the creature twisted its neck from his

hold, and with something betwixt a scream and a howl, darted from him.

Again he heard the door open; again the wind blew in upon him, and it

continued blowing; a sheet of spray dashed across the floor, and over

his face. He sprung from his couch and bounded to the door.

'It was a wild night--dark, but for the flash of whiteness from the

waves as they broke within a few yards of the cottage; the wind was

raving, and the rain pouring down the air. A gruesome sound as of

mingled weeping and howling came from somewhere in the dark. He turned

again into the hut and closed the door, but could find no way of

securing it.

'The lamp was nearly out, and he could not be certain whether the form

of the young woman was upon the bench or not. Overcoming a strong

repugnance, he approached it, and put out his hands--there was nothing

there. He sat down and waited for the daylight: he dared not sleep any

more.

'When the day dawned at length, he went out yet again, and looked

around. The morning was dim and gusty and gray. The wind had fallen,

but the waves were tossing wildly. He wandered up and down the little

strand, longing for more light.

'At length he heard a movement in the cottage. By and by the voice of

the old woman called to him from the door.

'"You're up early, sir. I doubt you didn't sleep well."

'"Not very well," he answered. "But where is your daughter?"

'"She's not awake yet," said the mother. "I'm afraid I have but a poor

breakfast for you. But you'll take a dram and a bit of fish. It's all

I've got."

'Unwilling to hurt her, though hardly in good appetite, he sat down at

the table. While they were eating the daughter came in, but turned her

face away and went to the further end of the hut. When she came

forward after a minute or two, the youth saw that her hair was

drenched, and her face whiter than before. She looked ill and faint,

and when she raised her eyes, all their fierceness had vanished, and

sadness had taken its place. Her neck was now covered with a cotton

handkerchief. She was modestly attentive to him, and no longer shunned

his gaze. He was gradually yielding to the temptation of braving

another night in the hut, and seeing what would follow, when the old

woman spoke.

'"The weather will be broken all day, sir," she said. "You had better

be going, or your friends will leave without you."

'Ere he could answer, he saw such a beseeching glance on the face of

the girl, that he hesitated, confused. Glancing at the mother, he saw

the flash of wrath in her face. She rose and approached her daughter,

with her hand lifted to strike her. The young woman stooped her head

with a cry. He darted round the table to interpose between them. But

the mother had caught hold of her; the handkerchief had fallen from

her neck; and the youth saw five blue bruises on her lovely

throat--the marks of the four fingers and the thumb of a left hand.

With a cry of horror he rushed from the house, but as he reached the

door he turned. His hostess was lying motionless on the floor, and a

huge gray wolf came bounding after him.'

An involuntary cry from Mysie interrupted the story-teller. He changed

his tone at once.

'I beg your pardon, Miss Lindsay, for telling you such a horrid tale.

Do forgive me. I didn't mean to frighten you more than a little.'

'Only a case of lycanthropia,' remarked Mr. Lindsay, as coolly as if

that settled everything about it and lycanthropia, horror and all, at

once.

'Do tell us the rest,' pleaded Mysie, and Ericson resumed.

'There was no weapon at hand; and if there had been, his inborn

chivalry would never have allowed him to harm a woman even under the

guise of a wolf. Instinctively, he set himself firm, leaning a little

forward, with half outstretched arms, and hands curved ready to clutch

again at the throat upon which he had left those pitiful marks. But

the creature as she sprang eluded his grasp, and just as he expected

to feel her fangs, he found a woman weeping on his bosom, with her

arms around his neck. The next instant, the gray wolf broke from him,

and bounded howling up the cliff. Recovering himself as he best might,

the youth followed, for it was the only way to the moor above, across

which he must now make his way to find his companions.

'All at once he heard the sound of a crunching of bones--not as if a

creature was eating them, but as if they were ground by the teeth of

rage and disappointment: looking up, he saw close above him the mouth

of the little cavern in which he had taken refuge the day before.

Summoning all his resolution, he passed it slowly and softly. From

within came the sounds of a mingled moaning and growling.

'Having reached the top, he ran at full speed for some distance across

the moor before venturing to look behind him. When at length he did so

he saw, against the sky, the girl standing on the edge of the cliff,

wringing her hands. One solitary wail crossed the space between. She

made no attempt to follow him, and he reached the opposite shore in

safety.'

Mysie tried to laugh, but succeeded badly. Robert took his violin, and

its tones had soon swept all the fear from her face, leaving in its

stead a trouble that has no name--the trouble of wanting one knows not

what--or how to seek it.

It was now time to go home. Mysie gave each an equally warm good-night

and thanks, Mr. Lindsay accompanied them to the door, and the students

stepped into the moonlight. Across the links the sound of the sea came

with a swell.

As they went down the garden, Ericson stopped. Robert thought he was

looking back to the house, and went on. When Ericson joined him, he

was pale as death.

'What is the maitter wi' ye, Mr. Ericson?' he asked in terror.

'Look there!' said Ericson, pointing, not to the house, but to the

sky.

Robert looked up. Close about the moon were a few white clouds. Upon

these white clouds, right over the moon, and near as the eyebrow to an

eye, hung part of an opalescent halo, bent into the rude, but

unavoidable suggestion of an eyebrow; while, close around the edge of

the moon, clung another, a pale storm-halo. To this pale iris and

faint-hued eyebrow the full moon itself formed the white pupil: the

whole was a perfect eye of ghastly death, staring out of the winter

heaven. The vision may never have been before, may never have been

again, but this Ericson and Robert saw that night.

CHAPTER XV.

THE LAST OF THE COALS.

THE next Sunday Robert went with Ericson to the episcopal chapel, and

for the first time in his life heard the epic music of the organ. It

was a new starting-point in his life. The worshipping instrument

flooded his soul with sound, and he stooped beneath it as a bather on

the shore stoops beneath the broad wave rushing up the land. But I

will not linger over this portion of his history. It is enough to say

that he sought the friendship of the organist, was admitted to the

instrument; touched, trembled, exulted; grew dissatisfied, fastidious,

despairing; gathered hope and tried again, and yet again; till at

last, with constantly-recurring fits of self-despite, he could not

leave the grand creature alone. It became a rival even to his violin.

And once before the end of March, when the organist was ill, and

another was not to be had, he ventured to occupy his place both at

morning and evening service.

Dr. Anderson kept George Moray in bed for a few days, after which he

went about for a while with his arm in a sling. But the season of

bearing material burdens was over for him now. Dr. Anderson had an

interview with the master of the grammar-school; a class was assigned

to Moray, and with a delight, resting chiefly on his social

approximation to Robert, which in one week elevated the whole

character of his person and countenance and bearing, George Moray bent

himself to the task of mental growth. Having good helpers at home, and

his late-developed energy turning itself entirely into the new

channel, he got on admirably. As there was no other room to be had in

Mrs. Fyvie's house, he continued for the rest of the session to sleep

upon the rug, for he would not hear of going to another house. The

doctor had advised Robert to drop the nickname as much as possible;

but the first time he called him Moray, Shargar threatened to cut his

throat, and so between the two the name remained.

I presume that by this time Doctor Anderson had made up his mind to

leave his money to Robert, but thought it better to say nothing about

it, and let the boy mature his independence. He had him often to his

house. Ericson frequently accompanied him; and as there was a good

deal of original similarity between the doctor and Ericson, the latter

soon felt his obligation no longer a burden. Shargar likewise, though

more occasionally, made one of the party, and soon began, in his new

circumstances, to develop the manners of a gentleman. I say develop

advisedly, for Shargar had a deep humanity in him, as abundantly

testified by his devotion to Robert, and humanity is the body of which

true manners is the skin and ordinary manifestation: true manners are

the polish which lets the internal humanity shine through, just as the

polish on marble reveals its veined beauty. Many talks did the elderly

man hold with the three youths, and his experience of life taught

Ericson and Robert much, especially what he told them about his

Brahmin friend in India. Moray, on the other hand, was chiefly

interested in his tales of adventure when on service in the Indian

army, or engaged in the field sports of that region so prolific in

monsters. His gipsy blood and lawless childhood, spent in wandering

familiarity with houseless nature, rendered him more responsive to

these than the others, and his kindled eye and pertinent remarks

raised in the doctor's mind an early question whether a commission in

India might not be his best start in life.

Between Ericson and Robert, as the former recovered his health,

communication from the deeper strata of human need became less

frequent. Ericson had to work hard to recover something of his leeway;

Robert had to work hard that prizes might witness for him to his

grandmother and Miss St. John. To the latter especially, as I think I

have said before, he was anxious to show well, wiping out the blot, as

he considered it, of his all but failure in the matter of a bursary.

For he looked up to her as to a goddess who just came near enough to

the earth to be worshipped by him who dwelt upon it.

The end of the session came nigh. Ericson passed his examinations with

honour. Robert gained the first Greek and third Latin prize. The

evening of the last day arrived, and on the morrow the students would

be gone--some to their homes of comfort and idleness, others to hard

labour in the fields; some to steady reading, perhaps to school again

to prepare for the next session, and others to be tutors all the

summer months, and return to the wintry city as to freedom and life.

Shargar was to remain at the grammar-school.

That last evening Robert sat with Ericson in his room. It was a cold

night--the night of the last day of March. A bitter wind blew about

the house, and dropped spiky hailstones upon the skylight. The friends

were to leave on the morrow, but to leave together; for they had

already sent their boxes, one by the carrier to Rothieden, the other

by a sailing vessel to Wick, and had agreed to walk together as far as

Robert's home, where he was in hopes of inducing his friend to remain

for a few days if he found his grandmother agreeable to the plan.

Shargar was asleep on the rug for the last time, and Robert had

brought his coal-scuttle into Ericson's room to combine their scanty

remains of well-saved fuel in a common glow, over which they now sat.

'I wonder what my grannie 'ill say to me,' said Robert.

'She'll be very glad to see you, whatever she may say,' remarked

Ericson.

'She'll say "Noo, be dooce," the minute I hae shacken hands wi' her,'

said Robert.

'Robert,' returned Ericson solemnly, 'if I had a grandmother to go

home to, she might box my ears if she liked--I wouldn't care. You do

not know what it is not to have a soul belonging to you on the face of

the earth. It is so cold and so lonely!'

'But you have a cousin, haven't you?' suggested Robert.

Ericson laughed, but good-naturedly.

'Yes,' he answered, 'a little man with a fishy smell, in a blue

tail-coat with brass buttons, and a red and black nightcap.'

'But,' Robert ventured to hint, 'he might go in a kilt and top-boots,

like Satan in my grannie's copy o' the Paradise Lost, for onything I

would care.'

'Yes, but he's just like his looks. The first thing he'll do the next

morning after I go home, will be to take me into his office, or shop,

as he calls it, and get down his books, and show me how many barrels

of herring I owe him, with the price of each. To do him justice, he

only charges me wholesale.'

'What'll he do that for?'

'To urge on me the necessity of diligence, and the choice of a

profession,' answered Ericson, with a smile of mingled sadness and

irresolution. 'He will set forth what a loss the interest of the money

is, even if I should pay the principal; and remind me that although he

has stood my friend, his duty to his own family imposes limits. And he

has at least a couple of thousand pounds in the county bank. I don't

believe he would do anything for me but for the honour it will be to

the family to have a professional man in it. And yet my father was the

making of him.'

'Tell me about your father. What was he?'

'A gentle-minded man, who thought much and said little. He farmed the

property that had been his father's own, and is now leased by my fishy

cousin afore mentioned.'

'And your mother?'

'She died just after I was born, and my father never got over it.'

'And you have no brothers or sisters?'

'No, not one. Thank God for your grandmother, and do all you can to

please her.'

A silence followed, during which Robert's heart swelled and heaved

with devotion to Ericson; for notwithstanding his openness, there was

a certain sad coldness about him that restrained Robert from letting

out all the tide of his love. The silence became painful, and he broke

it abruptly.

'What are you going to be, Mr. Ericson?'

'I wish you could tell me, Robert. What would you have me to be? Come

now.'

Robert thought for a moment.

'Weel, ye canna be a minister, Mr. Ericson, 'cause ye dinna believe in

God, ye ken,' he said simply.

'Don't say that, Robert,' Ericson returned, in a tone of pain with

which no displeasure was mingled. 'But you are right. At best I only

hope in God; I don't believe in him.'

'I'm thinkin' there canna be muckle differ atween houp an' faith,'

said Robert. 'Mony a ane 'at says they believe in God has unco little

houp o' onything frae 's han', I'm thinkin'.'

My reader may have observed a little change for the better in Robert's

speech. Dr. Anderson had urged upon him the necessity of being able at

least to speak English; and he had been trying to modify the antique

Saxon dialect they used at Rothieden with the newer and more refined

English. But even when I knew him, he would upon occasion, especially

when the subject was religion or music, fall back into the broadest

Scotch. It was as if his heart could not issue freely by any other

gate than that of his grandmother tongue.

Fearful of having his last remark contradicted--for he had an

instinctive desire that it should lie undisturbed where he had cast it

in the field of Ericson's mind, he hurried to another question.

'What for shouldna ye be a doctor?'

'Now you'll think me a fool, Robert, if I tell you why.'

'Far be it frae me to daur think sic a word, Mr. Ericson!' said Robert

devoutly.

'Well, I'll tell you, whether or not,' returned Ericson. 'I could, I

believe, amputate a living limb with considerable coolness; but put a

knife in a dead body I could not.'

'I think I know what you mean. Then you must he a lawyer.'

'A lawyer! O Lord!' said Ericson.

'Why not?' asked Robert, in some wonderment; for he could not imagine

Ericson acting from mere popular prejudice or fancy.

'Just think of spending one's life in an atmosphere of squabbles. It's

all very well when one gets to be a judge and dispense justice;

but--well, it's not for me. I could not do the best for my clients.

And a lawyer has nothing to do with the kingdom of heaven--only with

his clients. He must be a party-man. He must secure for one so often

at the loss of the rest. My duty and my conscience would always be at

strife.'

'Then what will you be, Mr. Ericson?'

'To tell the truth, I would rather be a watchmaker than anything else

I know. I might make one watch that would go right, I suppose, if I

lived long enough. But no one would take an apprentice of my age. So I

suppose I must be a tutor, knocked about from one house to another,

patronized by ex-pupils, and smiled upon as harmless by mammas and

sisters to the end of the chapter. And then something of a pauper's

burial, I suppose. Che sara sara.'

Ericson had sunk into one of his worst moods. But when he saw Robert

looking unhappy, he changed his tone, and would be--what he could not

be--merry.

'But what's the use of talking about it?' he said. 'Get your fiddle,

man, and play The Wind that shakes the Barley.'

'No, Mr. Ericson,' answered Robert; 'I have no heart for the fiddle. I

would rather have some poetry.'

'Oh!--Poetry!' returned Ericson, in a tone of contempt--yet not very

hearty contempt.

'We're gaein' awa', Mr. Ericson,' said Robert; 'an' the Lord 'at we

ken naething aboot alane kens whether we'll ever meet again i' this

place. And sae--'

'True enough, my boy,' interrupted Ericson. 'I have no need to trouble

myself about the future. I believe that is the real secret of it after

all. I shall never want a profession or anything else.'

'What do you mean, Mr. Ericson?' asked Robert, in half-defined terror.

'I mean, my boy, that I shall not live long. I know that--thank God!'

'How do you know it?'

'My father died at thirty, and my mother at six-and-twenty, both of

the same disease. But that's not how I know it.'

'How do you know it then?'

Ericson returned no answer. He only said--

'Death will be better than life. One thing I don't like about it

though,' he added, 'is the coming on of unconsciousness. I cannot bear

to lose my consciousness even in sleep. It is such a terrible thing!'

'I suppose that's ane o' the reasons that we canna be content withoot

a God,' responded Robert. 'It's dreidfu' to think even o' fa'in'

asleep withoot some ane greater an' nearer than the me watchin' ower

't. But I'm jist sayin' ower again what I hae read in ane o' your

papers, Mr. Ericson. Jist lat me luik.'

Venturing more than he had ever yet ventured, Robert rose and went to

the cupboard where Ericson's papers lay. His friend did not check him.

On the contrary, he took the papers from his hand, and searched for

the poem indicated.

'I'm not in the way of doing this sort of thing, Robert,' he said.

'I know that,' answered Robert.

And Ericson read.

SLEEP.

Oh, is it Death that comes

To have a foretaste of the whole?

Â To-night the planets and the stars

Â Will glimmer through my window-bars,

But will not shine upon my soul.

For I shall lie as dead,

Though yet I am above the ground;

Â All passionless, with scarce a breath,

Â With hands of rest and eyes of death,

I shall be carried swiftly round.

Or if my life should break

The idle night with doubtful gleams

Â Through mossy arches will I go,

Â Through arches ruinous and low,

And chase the true and false in dreams.

Why should I fall asleep?

When I am still upon my bed,

Â The moon will shine, the winds will rise,

Â And all around and through the skies

The light clouds travel o'er my head.

O, busy, busy things!

Ye mock me with your ceaseless life;

Â For all the hidden springs will flow,

Â And all the blades of grass will grow,

When I have neither peace nor strife.

And all the long night through,

The restless streams will hurry by;

Â And round the lands, with endless roar,

Â The white waves fall upon the shore,

And bit by bit devour the dry.

Even thus, but silently,

Eternity, thy tide shall flow--

Â And side by side with every star

Â Thy long-drawn swell shall bear me far,

An idle boat with none to row.

My senses fail with sleep;

My heart beats thick; the night is noon;

Â And faintly through its misty folds

Â I hear a drowsy clock that holds

Its converse with the waning moon.

Oh, solemn mystery!

That I should be so closely bound

Â With neither terror nor constraint

Â Without a murmur of complaint,

And lose myself upon such ground!

'Rubbish!' said Ericson, as he threw down the sheets, disgusted with

his own work, which so often disappoints the writer, especially if he

is by any chance betrayed into reading it aloud.

'Dinna say that, Mr. Ericson,' returned Robert. 'Ye maunna say that.

Ye hae nae richt to lauch at honest wark, whether it be yer ain or ony

ither body's. The poem noo--'

'Don't call it a poem,' interrupted Ericson. 'It's not worthy of the

name.'

'I will ca' 't a poem,' persisted Robert; 'for it's a poem to me,

whatever it may be to you. An' hoo I ken 'at it's a poem is jist this:

it opens my een like music to something I never saw afore.'

'What is that?' asked Ericson, not sorry to be persuaded that there

might after all be some merit in the productions painfully despised of

himself.

'Jist this: it's only whan ye dinna want to fa' asleep 'at it luiks

fearsome to ye. An' maybe the fear o' death comes i' the same way:

we're feared at it 'cause we're no a'thegither ready for 't; but whan

the richt time comes, it'll be as nat'ral as fa'in' asleep whan we're

doonricht sleepy. Gin there be a God to ca' oor Father in heaven, I'm

no thinkin' that he wad to sae mony bonny tunes pit a scraich for the

hinder end. I'm thinkin', gin there be onything in 't ava--ye ken I'm

no sayin', for I dinna ken--we maun jist lippen till him to dee dacent

an' bonny, an' nae sic strange awfu' fash aboot it as some fowk wad

mak a religion o' expeckin'.'

Ericson looked at Robert with admiration mingled with something akin

to merriment.

'One would think it was your grandfather holding forth, Robert,' he

said. 'How came you to think of such things at your age?'

'I'm thinkin',' answered Robert, 'ye warna muckle aulder nor mysel'

whan ye took to sic things, Mr. Ericson. But, 'deed, maybe my

luckie-daddie (grandfather) pat them i' my heid, for I had a heap ado

wi' his fiddle for a while. She's deid noo.'

Not understanding him, Ericson began to question, and out came the

story of the violins. They talked on till the last of their coals was

burnt out, and then they went to bed.

Shargar had undertaken to rouse them early, that they might set out on

their long walk with a long day before them. But Robert was awake

before Shargar. The all but soulless light of the dreary season awoke

him, and he rose and looked out. Aurora, as aged now as her loved

Tithonus, peered, gray-haired and desolate, over the edge of the

tossing sea, with hardly enough of light in her dim eyes to show the

broken crests of the waves that rushed shorewards before the wind of

her rising. Such an east wind was the right breath to issue from such

a pale mouth of hopeless revelation as that which opened with dead

lips across the troubled sea on the far horizon. While he gazed, the

east darkened; a cloud of hail rushed against the window; and Robert

retreated to his bed. But ere he had fallen asleep, Ericson was beside

him; and before he was dressed, Ericson appeared again, with his stick

in his hand. They left Shargar still asleep, and descended the stairs,

thinking to leave the house undisturbed. But Mrs. Fyvie was watching

for them, and insisted on their taking the breakfast she had prepared.

They then set out on their journey of forty miles, with half a loaf in

their pockets, and money enough to get bread and cheese, and a bottle

of the poorest ale, at the far-parted roadside inns.

When Shargar awoke, he wept in desolation, then crept into Robert's

bed, and fell fast asleep again.

CHAPTER XVI.

A STRANGE NIGHT.

THE youths had not left the city a mile behind, when a thick snowstorm

came on. It did not last long, however, and they fought their way

through it into a glimpse of sun. To Robert, healthy, powerful, and

except at rare times, hopeful, it added to the pleasure of the journey

to contend with the storm, and there was a certain steely indifference

about Ericson that carried him through. They trudged on steadily for

three hours along a good turnpike road, with great black masses of

cloud sweeping across the sky, which now sent them a glimmer of

sunlight, and now a sharp shower of hail. The country was very

dreary--a succession of undulations rising into bleak moorlands, and

hills whose heather would in autumn flush the land with glorious

purple, but which now looked black and cheerless, as if no sunshine

could ever warm them. Now and then the moorland would sweep down to

the edge of the road, diversified with dark holes from which peats

were dug, and an occasional quarry of gray granite. At one moment

endless pools would be shining in the sunlight, and the next the hail

would be dancing a mad fantastic dance all about them: they pulled

their caps over their brows, bent their heads, and struggled on.

At length they reached their first stage, and after a meal of bread

and cheese and an offered glass of whisky, started again on their

journey. They did not talk much, for their force was spent on their

progress.

After some consultation whether to keep the road or take a certain

short cut across the moors, which would lead them into it again with a

saving of several miles, the sun shining out with a little stronger

promise than he had yet given, they resolved upon the latter. But in

the middle of the moorland the wind and the hail came on with

increased violence, and they were glad to tack from one to another of

the huge stones that lay about, and take a short breathing time under

the lee of each; so that when they recovered the road, they had lost

as many miles in time and strength as they had saved in distance. They

did not give in, however, but after another rest and a little more

refreshment, started again.

The evening was now growing dusk around them, and the fatigue of the

day was telling so severely on Ericson, that when in the twilight they

heard the blast of a horn behind them, and turning saw the two flaming

eyes of a well-known four-horse coach come fluctuating towards them,

Robert insisted on their getting up and riding the rest of the way.

'But I can't afford it,' said Ericson.

'But I can,' said Robert.

'I don't doubt it,' returned Ericson. 'But I owe you too much

already.'

'Gin ever we win hame--I mean to the heart o' hame--ye can pay me

there.'

'There will be no need then.'

'Whaur's the need than to mak sic a wark aboot a saxpence or twa

atween this and that? I thocht ye cared for naething that time or

space or sense could grip or measure. Mr. Ericson, ye're no half sic a

philosopher as ye wad set up for.--Hillo!'

Ericson laughed a weary laugh, and as the coach stopped in obedience

to Robert's hail, he scrambled up behind.

The guard knew Robert, was pitiful over the condition of the

travellers, would have put them inside, but that there was a lady

there, and their clothes were wet, got out a great horse-rug and

wrapped Robert in it, put a spare coat of his own, about an inch

thick, upon Ericson, drew out a flask, took a pull at it, handed it to

his new passengers, and blew a vigorous blast on his long horn, for

they were approaching a desolate shed where they had to change their

weary horses for four fresh thorough-breds.

Away they went once more, careering through the gathering darkness. It

was delightful indeed to have to urge one weary leg past the other no

more, but be borne along towards food, fire, and bed. But their

adventures were not so nearly over as they imagined. Once more the

hail fell furiously--huge hailstones, each made of many, half-melted

and welded together into solid lumps of ice. The coachman could

scarcely hold his face to the shower, and the blows they received on

their faces and legs, drove the thin-skinned, high-spirited horses

nearly mad. At length they would face it no longer. At a turn in the

road, where it crossed a brook by a bridge with a low stone wall, the

wind met them right in the face with redoubled vehemence; the leaders

swerved from it, and were just rising to jump over the parapet, when

the coachman, whose hands were nearly insensible with cold, threw his

leg over the reins, and pulled them up. One of the leaders reared, and

fell backwards; one of the wheelers kicked vigorously; a few moments,

and in spite of the guard at their heads, all was one struggling mass

of bodies and legs, with a broken pole in the midst. The few

passengers got down; and Robert, fearing that yet worse might happen

and remembering the lady, opened the door. He found her quite

composed. As he helped her out,

'What is the matter?' asked the voice dearest to him in the world--the

voice of Miss St. John.

He gave a cry of delight. Wrapped in the horse-cloth, Miss St. John

did not know him.

'What is the matter?' she repeated.

'Ow, naething, mem--naething. Only I doobt we winna get ye hame the

nicht.'

'Is it you, Robert?' she said, gladly recognizing his voice.

'Ay, it's me, and Mr. Ericson. We'll tak care o' ye, mem.'

'But surely we shall get home!'

Robert had heard the crack of the breaking pole.

''Deed, I doobt no.'

'What are we to do, then?'

'Come into the lythe (shelter) o' the bank here, oot o' the gait o'

thae brutes o' horses,' said Robert, taking off his horse-cloth and

wrapping her in it.

The storm hissed and smote all around them. She took Robert's arm.

Followed by Ericson, they left the coach and the struggling horses,

and withdrew to a bank that overhung the road. As soon as they were

out of the wind, Robert, who had made up his mind, said,

'We canna be mony yairds frae the auld hoose o' Bogbonnie. We micht

win throu the nicht there weel eneuch. I'll speir at the gaird, the

minute the horses are clear. We war 'maist ower the brig, I heard the

coachman say.'

'I know quite well where the old house is,' said Ericson. 'I went in

the last time I walked this way.'

'Was the door open?' asked Robert.

'I don't know,' answered Ericson. 'I found one of the windows open in

the basement.'

'We'll get the len' o' ane o' the lanterns, an' gang direckly. It

canna be mair nor the breedth o' a rig or twa frae the burn.'

'I can take you by the road,' said Ericson.

'It will be very cold,' said Miss St. John,--already shivering, partly

from disquietude.

'There's timmer eneuch there to haud 's warm for a twalmonth,' said

Robert.

He went back to the coach. By this time the horses were nearly

extricated. Two of them stood steaming in the lamplight, with their

sides going at twenty bellows' speed. The guard would not let him have

one of the coach lamps, but gave him a small lantern of his own. When

he returned with it, he found Ericson and Miss St. John talking

together.

Ericson led the way, and the others followed.

'Whaur are ye gaein', gentlemen?' asked the guard, as they passed the

coach.

'To the auld hoose,' answered Robert.

'Ye canna do better. I maun bide wi' the coch till the lave gang back

to Drumheid wi' the horses, on' fess anither pole. Faith, it'll be

weel into the mornin' or we win oot o' this. Tak care hoo ye gang.

There's holes i' the auld hoose, I doobt.'

'We'll tak gude care, ye may be sure, Hector,' said Robert, as they

left the bridge.

The house to which Ericson was leading them was in the midst of a

field. There was just light enough to show a huge mass standing in the

dark, without a tree or shelter of any sort. When they reached it, all

that Miss St. John could distinguish was a wide broken stair leading

up to the door, with glimpses of a large, plain, ugly, square front.

The stones of the stair sloped and hung in several directions; but it

was plain to a glance that the place was dilapidated through

extraordinary neglect, rather than by the usual wear of time. In fact,

it belonged only to the beginning of the preceding century, somewhere

in Queen Anne's time. There was a heavy door to it, but fortunately

for Miss St. John, who would not quite have relished getting in at the

window of which Ericson had spoken, it stood a little ajar. The wind

roared in the gap and echoed in the empty hall into which they now

entered. Certainly Robert was right: there was wood enough to keep

them warm; for that hall, and every room into which they went, from

top to bottom of the huge house, was lined with pine. No paint-brush

had ever passed upon it. Neither was there a spot to be seen upon the

grain of the wood: it was clean as the day when the house was

finished, only it had grown much browner. A close gallery, with

window-frames which had never been glazed, at one story's height,

leading across from the one side of the first floor to the other,

looked down into the great echoing hall, which rose in the centre of

the building to the height of two stories; but this was unrecognizable

in the poor light of the guard's lantern. All the rooms on every floor

opened each into the other;--but why should I give such a minute

description, making my reader expect a ghost story, or at least a

nocturnal adventure? I only want him to feel something of what our

party felt as they entered this desolate building, which, though some

hundred and twenty years old, bore not a single mark upon the smooth

floors or spotless walls to indicate that article of furniture had

ever stood in it, or human being ever inhabited it. There was a

strange and unusual horror about the place--a feeling quite different

from that belonging to an ancient house, however haunted it might be.

It was like a body that had never had a human soul in it. There was no

sense of a human history about it. Miss St. John's feeling of eeriness

rose to the height when, in wandering through the many rooms in search

of one where the windows were less broken, she came upon one spot in

the floor. It was only a hole worn down through floor after floor,

from top to bottom, by the drip of the rains from the broken roof: it

looked like the disease of the desolate place, and she shuddered.

Here they must pass the night, with the wind roaring awfully through

the echoing emptiness, and every now and then the hail clashing

against what glass remained in the windows. They found one room with

the window well boarded up, for until lately some care had been taken

of the place to keep it from the weather. There Robert left his

companions, who presently heard the sounds of tearing and breaking

below, necessity justifying him in the appropriation of some of the

wood-work for their own behoof. He tore a panel or two from the walls,

and returning with them, lighted a fire on the empty hearth, where,

from the look of the stone and mortar, certainly never fire had blazed

before. The wood was dry as a bone, and burnt up gloriously.

Then first Robert bethought himself that they had nothing to eat. He

himself was full of merriment, and cared nothing about eating; for had

he not Miss St. John and Ericson there? but for them something must be

provided. He took his lantern and went back through the storm. The

hail had ceased, but the wind blew tremendously. The coach stood upon

the bridge like a stranded vessel, its two lamps holding doubtful

battle with the wind, now flaring out triumphantly, now almost

yielding up the ghost. Inside, the guard was snoring in defiance of

the pother o'er his head.

'Hector! Hector!' cried Robert.

'Ay, ay,' answered Hector. 'It's no time to wauken yet.'

'Hae ye nae basket, Hector, wi' something to eat in 't--naething

gaein' to Rothieden 'at a body micht say by yer leave till?'

'Ow! it's you, is 't?' returned Hector, rousing himself. 'Na. Deil

ane. An' gin I had, I daurna gie ye 't.'

'I wad mak free to steal 't, though, an' tak my chance,' said Robert.

'But ye say ye hae nane?'

'Nane, I tell ye. Ye winna hunger afore the mornin', man.'

'I'll stan' hunger as weel 's you ony day, Hector. It's no for mysel'.

There's Miss St. John.'

'Hoots!' said Hector, peevishly, for he wanted to go to sleep again,

'gang and mak luve till her. Nae lass 'll think o' meat as lang 's ye

do that. That 'll haud her ohn hungert.'

The words were like blasphemy in Robert's ear. He make love to Miss

St. John! He turned from the coach-door in disgust. But there was no

place he knew of where anything could be had, and he must return

empty-handed.

The light of the fire shone through a little hole in the boards that

closed the window. His lamp had gone out, but, guided by that, he

found the road again, and felt his way up the stairs. When he entered

the room he saw Miss St. John sitting on the floor, for there was

nowhere else to sit, with the guard's coat under her. She had taken

off her bonnet. Her back leaned against the side of the chimney, and

her eyes were bent thoughtfully on the ground. In their shine Robert

read instinctively that Ericson had said something that had set her

thinking. He lay on the floor at some distance, leaning on his elbow,

and his eye had the flash in it that indicates one who has just ceased

speaking. They had not found his absence awkward at least.

'I hae been efter something to eat,' said Robert; 'but I canna fa' in

wi' onything. We maun jist tell stories or sing sangs, as fowk do in

buiks, or else Miss St. John 'ill think lang.'

They did sing songs, and they did tell stories. I will not trouble my

reader with more than the sketch of one which Robert told--the story

of the old house wherein they sat--a house without a history, save the

story of its no history. It had been built for the jointure-house of a

young countess, whose husband was an old man. A lover to whom she had

turned a deaf ear had left the country, begging ere he went her

acceptance of a lovely Italian grayhound. She was weak enough to

receive the animal. Her husband died the same year, and before the end

of it the dog went mad, and bit her. According to the awful custom of

the time they smothered her between two feather-beds, just as the

house of Bogbonnie was ready to receive her furniture, and become her

future dwelling. No one had ever occupied it.

If Miss St. John listened to story and song without as much show of

feeling as Mysie Lindsay would have manifested, it was not that she

entered into them less deeply. It was that she was more, not felt

less.

Listening at her window once with Robert, Eric Ericson had heard Mary

St. John play: this was their first meeting. Full as his mind was of

Mysie, he could not fail to feel the charm of a noble, stately

womanhood that could give support, instead of rousing sympathy for

helplessness. There was in the dignified simplicity of Mary St. John

that which made every good man remember his mother; and a good man

will think this grand praise, though a fast girl will take it for a

doubtful compliment.

Seeing her begin to look weary, the young men spread a couch for her

as best they could, made up the fire, and telling her they would be in

the hall below, retired, kindled another fire, and sat down to wait

for the morning. They held a long talk. At length Robert fell asleep

on the floor.

Ericson rose. One of his fits of impatient doubt was upon him. In the

dying embers of the fire he strode up and down the waste hall, with

the storm raving around it. He was destined to an early death; he

would leave no one of his kin to mourn for him; the girl whose fair

face had possessed his imagination, would not give one sigh to his

memory, wandering on through the regions of fancy all the same; and

the death-struggle over, he might awake in a godless void, where,

having no creative power in himself, he must be tossed about, a

conscious yet helpless atom, to eternity. It was not annihilation he

feared, although he did shrink from the thought of unconsciousness; it

was life without law that he dreaded, existence without the bonds of a

holy necessity, thought without faith, being without God.

For all her fatigue Miss St. John could not sleep. The house quivered

in the wind which howled more and more madly through its long passages

and empty rooms; and she thought she heard cries in the midst of the

howling. In vain she reasoned with herself: she could not rest. She

rose and opened the door of her room, with a vague notion of being

nearer to the young men.

It opened upon the narrow gallery, already mentioned as leading from

one side of the first floor to the other at mid-height along the end

of the hall. The fire below shone into this gallery, for it was

divided from the hall only by a screen of crossing bars of wood, like

unglazed window-frames, possibly intended to hold glass. Of the

relation of the passage to the hall Mary St. John knew nothing, till,

approaching the light, she found herself looking down into the red

dusk below. She stood riveted; for in the centre of the hall, with his

hands clasped over his head like the solitary arch of a ruined Gothic

aisle, stood Ericson.

His agony had grown within him--the agony of the silence that brooded

immovable throughout the infinite, whose sea would ripple to no breath

of the feeble tempest of his prayers. At length it broke from him in

low but sharp sounds of words.

'O God,' he said, 'if thou art, why dost thou not speak? If I am thy

handiwork--dost thou forget that which thou hast made?'

He paused, motionless, then cried again:

'There can be no God, or he would hear.'

'God has heard me!' said a full-toned voice of feminine tenderness

somewhere in the air. Looking up, Ericson saw the dim form of Mary St.

John half-way up the side of the lofty hall. The same moment she

vanished--trembling at the sound of her own voice.

Thus to Ericson as to Robert had she appeared as an angel.

And was she less of a divine messenger because she had a human body,

whose path lay not through the air? The storm of misery folded its

wings in Eric's bosom, and, at the sound of her voice, there was a

great calm. Nor if we inquire into the matter shall we find that such

an effect indicated anything derogatory to the depth of his feelings

or the strength of his judgment. It is not through the judgment that a

troubled heart can be set at rest. It needs a revelation, a vision; a

something for the higher nature that breeds and infolds the intellect,

to recognize as of its own, and lay hold of by faithful hope. And what

fitter messenger of such hope than the harmonious presence of a woman,

whose form itself tells of highest law, and concord, and uplifting

obedience; such a one whose beauty walks the upper air of noble

loveliness; whose voice, even in speech, is one of the 'sphere-born

harmonious sisters? The very presence of such a being gives Unbelief

the lie, deep as the throat of her lying. Harmony, which is beauty and

law, works necessary faith in the region capable of truth. It needs

the intervention of no reasoning. It is beheld. This visible Peace,

with that voice of woman's truth, said, 'God has heard me!' What

better testimony could an angel have brought him? Or why should an

angel's testimony weigh more than such a woman's? The mere

understanding of a man like Ericson would only have demanded of an

angel proof that he was an angel, proof that angels knew better than

he did in the matter in question, proof that they were not easy-going

creatures that took for granted the rumours of heaven. The best that a

miracle can do is to give hope; of the objects of faith it can give no

proof; one spiritual testimony is worth a thousand of them. For to

gain the sole proof of which these truths admit, a man must grow into

harmony with them. If there are no such things he cannot become

conscious of a harmony that has no existence; he cannot thus deceive

himself; if there are, they must yet remain doubtful until the harmony

between them and his own willing nature is established. The perception

of this harmony is their only and incommunicable proof. For this

process time is needful; and therefore we are saved by hope. Hence it

is no wonder that before another half-hour was over, Ericson was

asleep by Robert's side.

They were aroused in the cold gray light of the morning by the blast

of Hector's horn. Miss St. John was ready in a moment. The coach was

waiting for them at the end of the grassy road that led from the

house. Hector put them all inside. Before they reached Rothieden the

events of the night began to wear the doubtful aspect of a dream. No

allusion was made to what had occurred while Robert slept; but all the

journey Ericson felt towards Miss St. John as Wordsworth felt towards

the leech-gatherer, who, he says, was

Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â like a man from some far region sent,

Â Â Â Â To give me human strength, by apt admonishment.

And Robert saw a certain light in her eyes which reminded him of how

she looked when, having repented of her momentary hardness towards

him, she was ministering to his wounded head.

CHAPTER XVII.

HOME AGAIN.

WHEN Robert opened the door of his grandmother's parlour, he found the

old lady seated at breakfast. She rose, pushed back her chair, and met

him in the middle of the room; put her old arms round him, offered her

smooth white cheek to him, and wept. Robert wondered that she did not

look older; for the time he had been away seemed an age, although in

truth only eight months.

'Hoo are ye, laddie?' she said. 'I'm richt glaid, for I hae been

thinkin' lang to see ye. Sit ye doon.'

Betty rushed in, drying her hands on her apron. She had not heard him

enter.

'Eh losh!' she cried, and put her wet apron to her eyes. 'Sic a man as

ye're grown, Robert! A puir body like me maunna be speykin to ye noo.'

'There's nae odds in me, Betty,' returned Robert.

''Deed but there is. Ye're sax feet an' a hairy ower, I s' warran'.'

'I said there was nae odds i' me, Betty,' persisted Robert, laughing.

'I kenna what may be in ye,' retorted Betty; 'but there's an unco'

odds upo' ye.'

'Haud yer tongue, Betty,' said her mistress. 'Ye oucht to ken better

nor stan' jawin' wi' young men. Fess mair o' the creamy cakes.'

'Maybe Robert wad like a drappy o' parritch.'

'Onything, Betty,' said Robert. 'I'm at deith's door wi' hunger.'

'Rin, Betty, for the cakes. An' fess a loaf o' white breid; we canna

bide for the parritch.'

Robert fell to his breakfast, and while he ate--somewhat

ravenously--he told his grandmother the adventures of the night, and

introduced the question whether he might not ask Ericson to stay a few

days with him.

'Ony frien' o' yours, laddie,' she replied, qualifying her words only

with the addition--'gin he be a frien'.--Whaur is he noo?'

'He's up at Miss Naper's.'

'Hoots! What for didna ye fess him in wi' ye?--Betty!'

'Na, na, grannie. The Napers are frien's o' his. We maunna interfere

wi' them. I'll gang up mysel' ance I hae had my brakfast.'

'Weel, weel, laddie. Eh! I'm blythe to see ye! Hae ye gotten ony

prizes noo?'

'Ay have I. I'm sorry they're nae baith o' them the first. But I hae

the first o' ane an' the third o' the ither.'

'I am pleased at that, Robert. Ye'll be a man some day gin ye haud

frae drink an' frae--frae leein'.'

'I never tellt a lee i' my life, grannie.'

'Na. I dinna think 'at ever ye did.--An' what's that crater Shargar

aboot?'

'Ow, jist gaein' to be a croon o' glory to ye, grannie. He vroucht

like a horse till Dr. Anderson took him by the han', an' sent him to

the schuil. An' he's gaein' to mak something o' 'im, or a' be dune.

He's a fine crater, Shargar.'

'He tuik a munelicht flittin' frae here,' rejoined the old lady, in a

tone of offence. 'He micht hae said gude day to me, I think.'

'Ye see he was feart at ye, grannie.'

'Feart at me, laddie! Wha ever was feart at me? I never feart onybody

i' my life.'

So little did the dear old lady know that she was a terror to her

neighbourhood!--simply because, being a law to herself, she would

therefore be a law to other people,--a conclusion that cannot be

concluded.

Mrs. Falconer's courtesy did not fail. Her grandson had ceased to be a

child; her responsibility had in so far ceased; her conscience was

relieved at being rid of it; and the humanity of her great heart came

out to greet the youth. She received Ericson with perfect hospitality,

made him at home as far as the stately respect she showed him would

admit of his being so, and confirmed in him the impression of her

which Robert had given him. They held many talks together; and such

was the circumspection of Ericson that, not saying a word he did not

believe, he so said what he did believe, or so avoided the points upon

which they would have differed seriously, that although his theology

was of course far from satisfying her, she yet affirmed her conviction

that the root of the matter was in him. This distressed Ericson,

however, for he feared he must have been deceitful, if not

hypocritical.

It was with some grumbling that the Napiers, especially Miss Letty,

parted with him to Mrs. Falconer. The hearts of all three had so taken

to the youth, that he found himself more at home in that hostelry than

anywhere else in the world. Miss Letty was the only one that spoke

lightly of him--she even went so far as to make good-natured game of

him sometimes--all because she loved him more than the others--more

indeed than she cared to show, for fear of exposing 'an old woman's

ridiculous fancy,' as she called her predilection.--'A lang-leggit,

prood, landless laird,' she would say, with a moist glimmer in her

loving eyes, 'wi' the maist ridiculous feet ye ever saw--hardly room

for the five taes atween the twa! Losh!'

When Robert went forth into the streets, he was surprised to find how

friendly every one was. Even old William MacGregor shook him kindly by

the hand, inquired after his health, told him not to study too hard,

informed him that he had a copy of a queer old book that he would like

to see, &c., &c. Upon reflection Robert discovered the cause: though

he had scarcely gained a bursary, he had gained prizes; and in a

little place like Rothieden--long may there be such places!--everybody

with any brains at all took a share in the distinction he had merited.

Ericson stayed only a few days. He went back to the twilight of the

north, his fishy cousin, and his tutorship at Sir Olaf Petersen's.

Robert accompanied him ten miles on his journey, and would have gone

further, but that he was to play on his violin before Miss St. John

the next day for the first time.

When he told his grandmother of the appointment he had made, she only

remarked, in a tone of some satisfaction,

'Weel, she's a fine lass, Miss St. John; and gin ye tak to ane

anither, ye canna do better.'

But Robert's thoughts were so different from Mrs. Falconer's that he

did not even suspect what she meant. He no more dreamed of marrying

Miss St. John than of marrying his forbidden grandmother. Yet she was

no loss at this period the ruling influence of his life; and if it had

not been for the benediction of her presence and power, this part of

his history too would have been torn by inward troubles. It is not

good that a man should batter day and night at the gate of heaven.

Sometimes he can do nothing else, and then nothing else is worth

doing; but the very noise of the siege will sometimes drown the still

small voice that calls from the open postern. There is a door wide to

the jewelled wall not far from any one of us, even when he least can

find it.

Robert, however, notwithstanding the pedestal upon which Miss St. John

stood in his worshipping regard, began to be aware that his feeling

towards her was losing something of its placid flow, and I doubt

whether Miss St. John did not now and then see that in his face which

made her tremble a little, and doubt whether she stood on safe ground

with a youth just waking into manhood--tremble a little, not for

herself, but for him. Her fear would have found itself more than

justified, if she had surprised him kissing her glove, and then

replacing it where he had found it, with the air of one consciously

guilty of presumption.

Possibly also Miss St. John may have had to confess to herself that

had she not had her history already, and been ten years his senior,

she might have found no little attraction in the noble bearing and

handsome face of young Falconer. The rest of his features had now

grown into complete harmony of relation with his whilom premature and

therefore portentous nose; his eyes glowed and gleamed with humanity,

and his whole countenance bore self-evident witness of being a true

face and no mask, a revelation of his individual being, and not a mere

inheritance from a fine breed of fathers and mothers. As it was, she

could admire and love him without danger of falling in love with him;

but not without fear lest he should not assume the correlative

position. She saw no way of prevention, however, without running a

risk of worse. She shrunk altogether from putting on anything; she

abhorred tact, and pretence was impracticable with Mary St. John. She

resolved that if she saw any definite ground for uneasiness she would

return to England, and leave any impression she might have made to

wear out in her absence and silence. Things did not seem to render

this necessary yet.

Meantime the violin of the dead shoemaker blended its wails with the

rich harmonies of Mary St. John's piano, and the soul of Robert went

forth upon the level of the sound and hovered about the beauty of his

friend. Oftener than she approved was she drawn by Robert's eagerness

into these consorts.

But the heart of the king is in the hands of the Lord.

While Robert thus once more for a season stood behind the cherub with

the flaming sword, Ericson was teaching two stiff-necked youths in a

dreary house in the midst of one of the moors of Caithness. One day he

had a slight attack of blood-spitting, and welcomed it as a sign from

what heaven there might be beyond the grave.

He had not received the consolation of Miss St. John without, although

unconsciously, leaving something in her mind in return. No human being

has ever been allowed to occupy the position of a pure benefactor. The

receiver has his turn, and becomes the giver. From her talk with

Ericson, and even more from the influence of his sad holy doubt, a

fresh touch of the actinism of the solar truth fell upon the living

seed in her heart, and her life burst forth afresh, began to bud in

new questions that needed answers, and new prayers that sought them.

But she never dreamed that Robert was capable of sympathy with such

thoughts and feelings: he was but a boy. Nor in power of dealing with

truth was he at all on the same level with her, for however poor he

might have considered her theories, she had led a life hitherto, had

passed through sorrow without bitterness, had done her duty without

pride, had hoped without conceit of favour, had, as she believed,

heard the voice of God saying, 'This is the way.' Hence she was not

afraid when the mists of prejudice began to rise from around her path,

and reveal a country very different from what she had fancied it. She

was soon able to perceive that it was far more lovely and full of

righteousness and peace than she had supposed. But this anticipates;

only I shall have less occasion to speak of Miss St. John by the time

she has come into this purer air of the uphill road.

Robert was happier than he ever could have expected to be in his

grandmother's house. She treated him like an honoured guest, let him

do as he would, and go where he pleased. Betty kept the gable-room in

the best of order for him, and, pattern of housemaids, dusted his

table without disturbing his papers. For he began to have papers; nor

were they occupied only with the mathematics to which he was now

giving his chief attention, preparing, with the occasional help of Mr.

Innes, for his second session.

He had fits of wandering, though; visited all the old places; spent a

week or two more than once at Bodyfauld; rode Mr. Lammie's half-broke

filly; revelled in the glories of the summer once more; went out to

tea occasionally, or supped with the school-master; and, except going

to church on Sunday, which was a weariness to every inch of flesh upon

his bones, enjoyed everything.

CHAPTER XVIII.

A GRAVE OPENED.

ONE thing that troubled Robert on this his return home, was the

discovery that the surroundings of his childhood had deserted him.

There they were, as of yore, but they seemed to have nothing to say to

him--no remembrance of him. It was not that everything looked small

and narrow; it was not that the streets he saw from his new quarters,

the gable-room, were awfully still after the roar of Aberdeen, and a

passing cart seemed to shudder at the loneliness of the noise itself

made; it was that everything seemed to be conscious only of the past

and care nothing for him now. The very chairs with their inlaid backs

had an embalmed look, and stood as in a dream. He could pass even the

walled-up door without emotion, for all the feeling that had been

gathered about the knob that admitted him to Mary St. John, had

transferred itself to the brass bell-pull at her street-door.

But one day, after standing for a while at the window, looking down on

the street where he had first seen the beloved form of Ericson, a

certain old mood began to revive in him. He had been working at

quadratic equations all the morning; he had been foiled in the attempt

to find the true algebraic statement of a very tough question

involving various ratios; and, vexed with himself, he had risen to

look out, as the only available zeitvertreib. It was one of those

rainy days of spring which it needs a hopeful mood to distinguish from

autumnal ones--dull, depressing, persistent: there might be sunshine

in Mercury or Venus--but on the earth could be none, from his right

hand round by India and America to his left; and certainly there was

none between--a mood to which all sensitive people are liable who have

not yet learned by faith in the everlasting to rule their own spirits.

Naturally enough his thoughts turned to the place where he had

suffered most--his old room in the garret. Hitherto he had shrunk from

visiting it; but now he turned away from the window, went up the steep

stairs, with their one sharp corkscrew curve, pushed the door, which

clung unwillingly to the floor, and entered. It was a nothing of a

place--with a window that looked only to heaven. There was the empty

bedstead against the wall, where he had so often kneeled, sending

forth vain prayers to a deaf heaven! Had they indeed been vain

prayers, and to a deaf heaven? or had they been prayers which a

hearing God must answer not according to the haste of the praying

child, but according to the calm course of his own infinite law of

love?

Here, somehow or other, the things about him did not seem so much

absorbed in the past, notwithstanding those untroubled rows of papers

bundled in red tape. True, they looked almost awful in their lack of

interest and their non-humanity, for there is scarcely anything that

absolutely loses interest save the records of money; but his mother's

workbox lay behind them. And, strange to say, the side of that bed

drew him to kneel down: he did not yet believe that prayer was in

vain. If God had not answered him before, that gave no certainty that

he would not answer him now. It was, he found, still as rational as it

had ever been to hope that God would answer the man that cried to him.

This came, I think, from the fact that God had been answering him all

the time, although he had not recognized his gifts as answers. Had he

not given him Ericson, his intercourse with whom and his familiarity

with whose doubts had done anything but quench his thirst after the

higher life? For Ericson's, like his own, were true and good and

reverent doubts, not merely consistent with but in a great measure

springing from devoutness and aspiration. Surely such doubts are far

more precious in the sight of God than many beliefs?

He kneeled and sent forth one cry after the Father, arose, and turned

towards the shelves, removed some of the bundles of letters, and drew

out his mother's little box.

There lay the miniature, still and open-eyed as he had left it. There

too lay the bit of paper, brown and dry, with the hymn and the few

words of sorrow written thereon. He looked at the portrait, but did

not open the folded paper. Then first he thought whether there might

not be something more in the box: what he had taken for the bottom

seemed to be a tray. He lifted it by two little ears of ribbon, and

there, underneath, lay a letter addressed to his father, in the same

old-fashioned handwriting as the hymn. It was sealed with brown wax,

full of spangles, impressed with a bush of something--he could not

tell whether rushes or reeds or flags. Of course he dared not open it.

His holy mother's words to his erring father must be sacred even from

the eyes of their son. But what other or fitter messenger than himself

could bear it to its destination? It was for this that he had been

guided to it.

For years he had regarded the finding of his father as the first duty

of his manhood: it was as if his mother had now given her sanction to

the quest, with this letter to carry to the husband who, however he

might have erred, was yet dear to her. He replaced it in the box, but

the box no more on the forsaken shelf with its dreary barricade of

soulless records. He carried it with him, and laid it in the bottom of

his box, which henceforth he kept carefully locked: there lay as it

were the pledge of his father's salvation, and his mother's redemption

from an eternal grief.

He turned to his equation: it had cleared itself up; he worked it out

in five minutes. Betty came to tell him that the dinner was ready, and

he went down, peaceful and hopeful, to his grandmother.

While at home he never worked in the evenings: it was bad enough to

have to do so at college. Hence nature had a chance with him again.

Blessings on the wintry blasts that broke into the first youth of

Summer! They made him feel what summer was! Blessings on the cheerless

days of rain, and even of sleet and hail, that would shove the

reluctant year back into January. The fair face of Spring, with her

tears dropping upon her quenchless smiles, peeped in suppressed

triumph from behind the growing corn and the budding sallows on the

river-bank. Nay, even when the snow came once more in defiance of

calendars, it was but a background from which the near genesis should

'stick fiery off.'

In general he had a lonely walk after his lesson with Miss St. John

was over: there was no one at Rothieden to whom his heart and

intellect both were sufficiently drawn to make a close friendship

possible. He had companions, however: Ericson had left his papers with

him. The influence of these led him into yet closer sympathy with

Nature and all her moods; a sympathy which, even in the stony heart of

London, he not only did not lose but never ceased to feel. Even there

a breath of wind would not only breathe upon him, it would breathe

into him; and a sunset seen from the Strand was lovely as if it had

hung over rainbow seas. On his way home he would often go into one of

the shops where the neighbours congregated in the evenings, and hold a

little talk; and although, with Miss St. John filling his heart, his

friend's poems his imagination, and geometry and algebra his

intellect, great was the contrast between his own inner mood and the

words by which he kept up human relations with his townsfolk, yet in

after years he counted it one of the greatest blessings of a lowly

birth and education that he knew hearts and feelings which to

understand one must have been young amongst them. He would not have

had a chance of knowing such as these if he had been the son of Dr.

Anderson and born in Aberdeen.

CHAPTER XIX.

ROBERT MEDIATES.

ONE lovely evening in the first of the summer Miss St. John had

dismissed him earlier than usual, and he had wandered out for a walk.

After a round of a couple of miles, he returned by a fir-wood, through

which went a pathway. He had heard Mary St. John say that she was

going to see the wife of a labourer who lived at the end of this path.

In the heart of the trees it was growing very dusky; but when he came

to a spot where they stood away from each other a little space, and

the blue sky looked in from above with one cloud floating in it from

which the rose of the sunset was fading, he seated himself on a little

mound of moss that had gathered over an ancient stump by the footpath,

and drew out his friend's papers. Absorbed in his reading, he was not

aware of an approach till the rustle of silk startled him. He lifted

up his eyes, and saw Miss St. John a few yards from him on the

pathway. He rose.

'It's almost too dark to read now, isn't it, Robert?' she said.

'Ah!' said. Robert, 'I know this writing so well that I could read it

by moonlight. I wish I might read some of it to you. You would like

it.'

'May I ask whose it is, then? Poetry, too!'

'It's Mr. Ericson's. But I'm feared he wouldna like me to read it to

anybody but myself. And yet--'

'I don't think he would mind me,' returned Miss St. John. 'I do know

him a little. It is not as if I were quite a stranger, you know. Did

he tell you not?'

'No. But then he never thought of such a thing. I don't know if it's

fair, for they are carelessly written, and there are words and lines

here and there that I am sure he would alter if he cared for them ae

hair.'

'Then if he doesn't care for them, he won't mind my hearing them.

There!' she said, seating herself on the stump. 'You sit down on the

grass and read me--one at least.'

'You'll remember they were never intended to be read?' urged Robert,

not knowing what he was doing, and so fulfilling his destiny.

'I will be as jealous of his honour as ever you can wish,' answered

Miss St. John gaily.

Robert laid himself on the grass at her feet, and read:--

MY TWO GENIUSES.

One is a slow and melancholy maid:

I know not if she cometh from the skies,

Or from the sleepy gulfs, but she will rise

Often before me in the twilight shade

Holding a bunch of poppies, and a blade

Of springing wheat: prostrate my body lies

Before her on the turf, the while she ties

A fillet of the weed about my head;

And in the gaps of sleep I seem to hear

A gentle rustle like the stir of corn,

And words like odours thronging to my ear:

'Lie still, beloved, still until the morn;

Lie still with me upon this rolling sphere,

Still till the judgment--thou art faint and worn.'

The other meets me in the public throng:

Her hair streams backward from her loose attire;

She hath a trumpet and an eye of fire;

She points me downward steadily and long--

'There is thy grave--arise, my son, be strong!

Hands are upon thy crown; awake, aspire

To immortality; heed not the lyre

Of the enchantress, nor her poppy-song;

But in the stillness of the summer calm,

Tremble for what is godlike in thy being.

Listen awhile, and thou shalt hear the psalm

Of victory sung by creatures past thy seeing;

And from far battle-fields there comes the neighing

Of dreadful onset, though the air is balm.'

Maid with the poppies, must I let thee go?

Alas! I may not; thou art likewise dear;

I am but human, and thou hast a tear,

When she hath nought but splendour, and the glow

Of a wild energy that mocks the flow

Of the poor sympathies which keep us here.

Lay past thy poppies, and come twice as near,

And I will teach thee, and thou too shalt grow;

And thou shalt walk with me in open day

Through the rough thoroughfares with quiet grace;

And the wild-visaged maid shall lead the way,

Timing her footsteps to a gentler pace,

As her great orbs turn ever on thy face,

Drinking in draughts of loving help alway.

Miss St. John did not speak.

'War ye able to follow him?' asked Robert.

'Quite, I assure you,' she answered, with a tremulousness in her voice

which delighted Robert as evidence of his friend's success.

'But they're nae a' so easy to follow, I can tell ye, mem. Just

hearken to this,' he said, with some excitement.

Â Â Â Â When the storm was proudest,

Â Â Â Â And the wind was loudest,

I heard the hollow caverns drinking down below;

Â Â Â Â When the stars were bright,

Â Â Â Â And the ground was white,

I heard the grasses springing underneath the snow.

Â Â Â Â Many voices spake--

Â Â Â Â The river to the lake,

The iron-ribbed sky was talking to the sea;

Â Â Â Â And every starry spark

Â Â Â Â Made music with the dark,

And said how bright and beautiful everything must be.

'That line, mem,' remarked Robert, ''s only jist scrattit in, as gin

he had no intention o' leavin' 't, an' only set it there to keep room

for anither. But we'll jist gang on wi' the lave o' 't. I ouchtna to

hae interruppit it.'

Â Â Â Â When the sun was setting,

Â Â Â Â All the clouds were getting

Beautiful and silvery in the rising moon;

Â Â Â Â Beneath the leafless trees

Â Â Â Â Wrangling in the breeze,

I could hardly see them for the leaves of June.

Â Â Â Â When the day had ended,

Â Â Â Â And the night descended,

I heard the sound of streams that I heard not through the day

Â Â Â Â And every peak afar,

Â Â Â Â Was ready for a star,

And they climbed and rolled around until the morning gray.

Â Â Â Â Then slumber soft and holy

Â Â Â Â Came down upon me slowly;

And I went I know not whither, and I lived I know not how;

Â Â Â Â My glory had been banished,

Â Â Â Â For when I woke it vanished,

But I waited on it's coming, and I am waiting now.

'There!' said Robert, ending, 'can ye mak onything o' that, Miss St.

John?'

'I don't say I can in words,' she answered; 'but I think I could put

it all into music.'

'But surely ye maun hae some notion o' what it's aboot afore you can

do that.'

'Yes; but I have some notion of what it's about, I think. Just lend it

to me; and by the time we have our next lesson, you will see whether

I'm not able to show you I understand it. I shall take good care of

it,' she added, with a smile, seeing Robert's reluctance to part with

it. 'It doesn't matter my having it, you know, now that you've read it

to me, I want to make you do it justice.--But it's quite time I were

going home. Besides, I really don't think you can see to read any

more.'

'Weel, it's better no to try, though I hae them maistly upo' my

tongue: I might blunder, and that wad blaud them.--Will you let me go

home with you?' he added, in pure tremulous English.

'Certainly, if you like,' she answered; and they walked towards the

town.

Robert opened the fountain of his love for Ericson, and let it gush

like a river from a hillside. He talked on and on about him, with

admiration, gratitude, devotion. And Miss St. John was glad of the

veil of the twilight over her face as she listened, for the boy's

enthusiasm trembled through her as the wind through an Ãolian harp.

Poor Robert! He did not know, I say, what he was doing, and so was

fulfilling his sacred destiny.

'Bring your manuscripts when you come next,' she said, as they walked

along--gently adding, 'I admire your friend's verses very much, and

should like to hear more of them.'

'I'll be sure an' do that,' answered Robert, in delight that he had

found one to sympathize with him in his worship of Ericson, and that

one his other idol.

When they reached the town, Miss St. John, calling to mind its natural

propensity to gossip, especially on the evening of a market-day, when

the shopkeepers, their labours over, would be standing in a

speculative mood at their doors, surrounded by groups of friends and

neighbours, felt shy of showing herself on the square with Robert, and

proposed that they should part, giving as a by-the-bye reason that she

had a little shopping to do as she went home. Too simple to suspect

the real reason, but with a heart that delighted in obedience, Robert

bade her good-night at once, and took another way.

As he passed the door of Merson the haberdasher's shop, there stood

William MacGregor, the weaver, looking at nothing and doing nothing.

We have seen something of him before: he was a remarkable compound of

good nature and bad temper. People were generally afraid of him,

because he had a biting satire at his command, amounting even to wit,

which found vent in verse--not altogether despicable even from a

literary point of view. The only person he, on his part, was afraid

of, was his own wife; for upon her, from lack of apprehension, his

keenest irony fell, as he said, like water on a duck's back, and in

respect of her he had, therefore, no weapon of offence to strike

terror withal. Her dulness was her defence. He liked Robert. When he

saw him, he wakened up, laid hold of him by the button, and drew him

in.

'Come in, lad,' he said, 'an' tak a pinch. I'm waitin' for Merson.' As

he spoke he took from his pocket his mull, made of the end of a ram's

horn, and presented it to Robert, who accepted the pledge of

friendship. While he was partaking, MacGregor drew himself with some

effort upon the counter, saying in a half-comical, half-admonitory

tone,

'Weel, and hoo's the mathematics, Robert?'

'Thrivin',' answered Robert, falling into his humour.

'Weel, that's verra weel. Duv ye min', Robert, hoo, whan ye was aboot

the age o' aucht year aul', ye cam to me ance at my shop aboot

something yer gran'mither, honest woman, wantit, an' I, by way o'

takin' my fun o' ye, said to ye, "Robert, ye hae grown desperate;

ye're a man clean; ye hae gotten the breeks on." An' says ye, "Ay, Mr.

MacGregor, I want naething noo but a watch an' a wife"?'

'I doobt I've forgotten a' aboot it, Mr. MacGregor,' answered Robert.

'But I've made some progress, accordin' to your story, for Dr.

Anderson, afore I cam hame, gae me a watch. An' a fine crater it is,

for it aye does its best, an' sae I excuse its shortcomin's.'

'There's just ae thing, an' nae anither,' returned the manufacturer,

'that I cannot excuse in a watch. Gin a watch gangs ower fest, ye fin'

't oot. Gin she gangs ower slow, ye fin' 't oot, an' ye can aye

calculate upo' 't correck eneuch for maitters sublunairy, as Mr.

Maccleary says. An' gin a watch stops a'thegither, ye ken it's

failin', an' ye ken whaur it sticks, an' a' 'at ye say 's "Tut, tut,

de'il hae 't for a watch!" But there's ae thing that God nor man canna

bide in a watch, an' that's whan it stan's still for a bittock, an'

syne gangs on again. Ay, ay! tic, tic, tic! wi' a fair face and a

leein' hert. It wad gar ye believe it was a' richt, and time for

anither tum'ler, whan it's twal o'clock, an' the kirkyaird fowk

thinkin' aboot risin'. Fegs, I had a watch o' my father's, an' I

regairdit it wi' a reverence mair like a human bein': the second time

it played me that pliskie, I dang oot its guts upo' the

loupin'-on-stane at the door o' the chop. But lat the watch sit:

whaur's the wife? Ye canna be a man yet wantin' the wife--by yer ain

statement.'

'The watch cam unsoucht, Mr. MacGregor, an' I'm thinkin' sae maun the

wife,' answered Robert, laughing.

'Preserve me for ane frae a wife that comes unsoucht,' returned the

weaver. 'But, my lad, there may be some wives that winna come whan

they are soucht. Preserve me frae them too!--Noo, maybe ye dinna ken

what I mean--but tak ye tent what ye're aboot. Dinna ye think 'at ilka

bonnie lass 'at may like to haud a wark wi' ye 's jist ready to mairry

ye aff han' whan ye say, "Noo, my dawtie."--An' ae word mair, Robert:

Young men, especially braw lads like yersel', 's unco ready to fa' in

love wi' women fit to be their mithers. An' sae ye see--'

He was interrupted by the entrance of a girl. She had a shawl over her

head, notwithstanding it was summer weather, and crept in

hesitatingly, as if she were not quite at one with herself as to her

coming purchase. Approaching a boy behind the counter on the opposite

side of the shop, she asked for something, and he proceeded to serve

her. Robert could not help thinking, from the one glimpse of her face

he had got through the dusk, that he had seen her before. Suddenly the

vision of an earthen floor with a pool of brown sunlight upon it, bare

feet, brown hair, and soft eyes, mingled with a musk odour wafted from

Arabian fairyland, rose before him: it was Jessie Hewson.

'I ken that lassie,' he said, and moved to get down from the counter

on which he too had seated himself.

'Na, na,' whispered the manufacturer, laying, like the Ancient

Mariner, a brown skinny hand of restraint upon Robert's arm--'na, na,

never heed her. Ye maunna speyk to ilka lass 'at ye ken.--Poor thing!

she's been doin' something wrang, to gang slinkin' aboot i' the

gloamin' like a baukie (bat), wi' her plaid ower her heid. Dinna fash

wi' her.'

'Nonsense!' returned Robert, with indignation. 'What for shouldna I

speik till her? She's a decent lassie--a dochter o' James Hewson, the

cottar at Bodyfauld. I ken her fine.'

He said this in a whisper; but the girl seemed to hear it, for she

left the shop with a perturbation which the dimness of the late

twilight could not conceal. Robert hesitated no longer, but followed

her, heedless of the louder expostulations of MacGregor. She was

speeding away down the street, but he took longer strides than she,

and was almost up with her, when she drew her shawl closer about her

head, and increased her pace.

'Jessie!' said Robert, in a tone of expostulation. But she made no

answer. Her head sunk lower on her bosom, and she hurried yet faster.

He gave a long stride or two and laid his hand on her shoulder. She

stood still, trembling.

'Jessie, dinna ye ken me--Robert Faukner? Dinna be feart at me. What's

the maitter wi' ye, 'at ye winna speik till a body? Hoo's a' the fowk

at hame?'

She burst out crying, cast one look into Robert's face, and fled. What

a change was in that face? The peach-colour was gone from her cheek;

it was pale and thin. Her eyes were hollow, with dark shadows under

them, the shadows of a sad sunset. A foreboding of the truth arose in

his heart, and the tears rushed up into his eyes. The next moment the

eidolon of Mary St. John, moving gracious and strong, clothed in

worship and the dignity which is its own defence, appeared beside that

of Jessie Hewson, her bowed head shaken with sobs, and her weak limbs

urged to ungraceful flight. As if walking in the vision of an eternal

truth, he went straight to Captain Forsyth's door.

'I want to speak to Miss St. John, Isie,' said Robert.

'She'll be doon in a minit.'

'But isna yer mistress i' the drawin'-room?--I dinna want to see her.'

'Ow, weel,' said the girl, who was almost fresh from the country,

'jist rin up the stair, an' chap at the door o' her room.'

With the simplicity of a child, for what a girl told him to do must be

right, Robert sped up the stair, his heart going like a fire-engine.

He had never approached Mary's room from this side, but instinct or

something else led him straight to her door. He knocked.

'Come in,' she said, never doubting it was the maid, and Robert

entered.

She was brushing her hair by the light of a chamber candle. Robert was

seized with awe, and his limbs trembled. He could have kneeled before

her--not to beg forgiveness, he did not think of that--but to worship,

as a man may worship a woman. It is only a strong, pure heart like

Robert's that ever can feel all the inroad of the divine mystery of

womanhood. But he did not kneel. He had a duty to perform. A flush

rose in Miss St. John's face, and sank away, leaving it pale. It was

not that she thought once of her own condition, with her hair loose on

her shoulders, but, able only to conjecture what had brought him

thither, she could not but regard Robert's presence with dismay. She

stood with her ivory brush in her right hand uplifted, and a great

handful of hair in her left. She was soon relieved, however, although

what with his contemplated intercession, the dim vision of Mary's

lovely face between the masses of her hair, and the lavender odour

that filled the room--perhaps also a faint suspicion of impropriety

sufficient to give force to the rest--Robert was thrown back into the

abyss of his mother-tongue, and out of this abyss talked like a

Behemoth.

'Robert!' said Mary, in a tone which, had he not been so eager after

his end, he might have interpreted as one of displeasure.

'Ye maun hearken till me, mem.--Whan I was oot at Bodyfauld,' he began

methodically, and Mary, bewildered, gave one hasty brush to her

handful of hair and again stood still: she could imagine no connection

between this meeting and their late parting--'Whan I was was oot at

Bodyfauld ae simmer, I grew acquant wi' a bonnie lassie there, the

dochter o' Jeames Hewson, an honest cottar, wi' Shakspeare an' the

Arabian Nichts upo' a skelf i' the hoose wi' 'im. I gaed in ae day

whan I wasna weel; an' she jist ministert to me, as nane ever did but

yersel', mem. An' she was that kin' an' mither-like to the wee bit

greitin' bairnie 'at she had to tak care o' 'cause her mither was oot

wi' the lave shearin'! Her face was jist like a simmer day, an' weel I

likit the luik o' the lassie!--I met her again the nicht. Ye never saw

sic a change. A white face, an' nothing but greitin' to come oot o'

her. She ran frae me as gin I had been the de'il himsel'. An' the

thocht o' you, sae bonnie an' straucht an' gran', cam ower me.'

Yielding to a masterful impulse, Robert did kneel now. As if sinner,

and not mediator, he pressed the hem of her garment to his lips.

'Dinna be angry at me, Miss St. John,' he pleaded, 'but be mercifu' to

the lassie. Wha's to help her that can no more luik a man i' the face,

but the clear-e'ed lass that wad luik the sun himsel' oot o' the lift

gin he daured to say a word against her. It's ae woman that can uphaud

anither. Ye ken what I mean, an' I needna say mair.'

He rose and turned to leave the room.

Bewildered and doubtful, Miss St. John did not know what to answer,

but felt that she must make some reply.

'You haven't told me where to find the girl, or what you want me to do

with her.'

'I'll fin' oot whaur she bides,' he said, moving again towards the

door.

'But what am I to do with her, Robert?'

'That's your pairt. Ye maun fin' oot what to do wi' her. I canna tell

ye that. But gin I was you, I wad gie her a kiss to begin wi'. She's

nane o' yer brazen-faced hizzies, yon. A kiss wad be the savin' o'

her.'

'But you may be--. But I have nothing to go upon. She would resent my

interference.'

'She's past resentin' onything. She was gaein' aboot the toon like ane

o' the deid 'at hae naething to say to onybody, an' naebody onything

to say to them. Gin she gangs on like that she'll no be alive lang.'

That night Jessie Hewson disappeared. A mile or two up the river under

a high bank, from which the main current had receded, lay an awful,

swampy place--full of reeds, except in the middle where was one round

space full of dark water and mud. Near this Jessie Hewson was seen

about an hour after Robert had thus pled for her with his angel.

The event made a deep impression upon Robert. The last time that he

saw them, James and his wife were as cheerful as usual, and gave him a

hearty welcome. Jessie was in service, and doing well, they said. The

next time he opened the door of the cottage it was like the entrance

to a haunted tomb. Not a smile was in the place. James's cheeriness

was all gone. He was sitting at the table with his head leaning on his

hand. His Bible was open before him, but he was not reading a word.

His wife was moving listlessly about. They looked just as Jessie had

looked that night--as if they had died long ago, but somehow or other

could not get into their graves and be at rest. The child Jessie had

nursed with such care was toddling about, looking rueful with loss.

George had gone to America, and the whole of that family's joy had

vanished from the earth.

The subject was not resumed between Miss St. John and Robert. The next

time he saw her, he knew by her pale troubled face that she had heard

the report that filled the town; and she knew by his silence that it

had indeed reference to the same girl of whom he had spoken to her.

The music would not go right that evening. Mary was distraite, and

Robert was troubled. It was a week or two before there came a change.

When the turn did come, over his being love rushed up like a

spring-tide from the ocean of the Infinite.

He was accompanying her piano with his violin. He made blunders, and

her playing was out of heart. They stopped as by consent, and a

moment's silence followed. All at once she broke out with something

Robert had never heard before. He soon found that it was a fantasy

upon Ericson's poem. Ever through a troubled harmony ran a silver

thread of melody from far away. It was the caverns drinking from the

tempest overhead, the grasses growing under the snow, the stars making

music with the dark, the streams filling the night with the sounds the

day had quenched, the whispering call of the dreams left behind in

'the fields of sleep,'--in a word, the central life pulsing in aeonian

peace through the outer ephemeral storms. At length her voice took up

the theme. The silvery thread became song, and through all the

opposing, supporting harmonies she led it to the solution of a close

in which the only sorrow was in the music itself, for its very life is

an 'endless ending.' She found Robert kneeling by her side. As she

turned from the instrument his head drooped over her knee. She laid

her hand on his clustering curls, bethought herself, and left the

room. Robert wandered out as in a dream. At midnight he found himself

on a solitary hill-top, seated in the heather, with a few tiny

fir-trees about him, and the sounds of a wind, ethereal as the stars

overhead, flowing through their branches: he heard the sound of it,

but it did not touch him.

Where was God?

In him and his question.

CHAPTER XX.

ERICSON LOSES TO WIN.

IF Mary St. John had been an ordinary woman, and if, notwithstanding,

Robert had been in love with her, he would have done very little in

preparation for the coming session. But although she now possessed

him, although at times he only knew himself as loving her, there was

such a mountain air of calm about her, such an outgoing divinity of

peace, such a largely moulded harmony of being, that he could not love

her otherwise than grandly. For her sake, weary with loving her, he

would yet turn to his work, and, to be worthy of her, or rather, for

he never dreamed of being worthy of her, to be worthy of leave to love

her, would forget her enough to lay hold of some abstract truth of

lines, angles, or symbols. A strange way of being in love, reader? You

think so? I would there were more love like it: the world would be

centuries nearer its redemption if a millionth part of the love in it

were of the sort. All I insist, however, on my reader's believing is,

that it showed, in a youth like Robert, not less but more love that he

could go against love's sweetness for the sake of love's greatness.

Literally, not figuratively, Robert would kiss the place where her

foot had trod; but I know that once he rose from such a kiss 'to trace

the hyperbola by means of a string.'

It had been arranged between Ericson and Robert, in Miss Napier's

parlour, the old lady knitting beside, that Ericson should start, if

possible, a week earlier than usual, and spend the difference with

Robert at Rothieden. But then the old lady had opened her mouth and

spoken. And I firmly believe, though little sign of tenderness passed

between them, it was with an elder sister's feeling for Letty's

admiration of the 'lan'less laird,' that she said as follows:--

'Dinna ye think, Mr. Ericson, it wad be but fair to come to us neist

time? Mistress Faukner, honest lady, an' lang hae I kent her, 's no

sae auld a frien' to you, Mr. Ericson, as oorsel's--nae offence to

her, ye ken. A'body canna be frien's to a'body, ane as lang 's

anither, ye ken.'

''Deed I maun alloo, Miss Naper,' interposed Robert, 'it's only fair.

Ye see, Mr. Ericson, I cud see as muckle o' ye almost, the tae way as

the tither. Miss Naper maks me welcome as weel's you.'

'An' I will mak ye welcome, Robert, as lang's ye're a gude lad, as ye

are, and gang na efter--nae ill gait. But lat me hear o' yer doin' as

sae mony young gentlemen do, espeacially whan they're ta'en up by

their rich relations, an', public-hoose as this is, I'll close the

door o' 't i' yer face.'

'Bless me, Miss Naper!' said Robert, 'what hae I dune to set ye at me

that gait? Faith, I dinna ken what ye mean.'

'Nae mair do I, laddie. I hae naething against ye whatever. Only ye

see auld fowk luiks aheid, an' wad fain be as sure o' what's to come

as o' what's gane.'

'Ye maun bide for that, I doobt,' said Robert.

'Laddie,' retorted Miss Napier, 'ye hae mair sense nor ye hae ony

richt till. Haud the tongue o' ye. Mr. Ericson 's to come here neist.'

And the old lady laughed such good humour into her stocking-sole, that

the foot destined to wear it ought never to have been cold while it

lasted. So it was then settled; and a week before Robert was to start

for Aberdeen, Ericson walked into The Boar's Head. Half-an-hour after

that, Crookit Caumill was shown into the ga'le-room with the message

to Maister Robert that Maister Ericson was come, and wanted to see

him.

Robert pitched Hutton's Mathematics into the grate, sprung to his

feet, all but embraced Crookit Caumill on the spot, and was deterred

only by the perturbed look the man wore. Crookit Caumill was a very

human creature, and hadn't a fault but the drink, Miss Napier said.

And very little of that he would have had if she had been as active as

she was willing.

'What's the maitter, Caumill?' asked Robert, in considerable alarm.

'Ow, naething, sir,' returned Campbell.

'What gars ye look like that, than?' insisted Robert.

'Ow, naething. But whan Miss Letty cried doon the close upo' me, she

had her awpron till her een, an' I thocht something bude to be wrang;

but I hadna the hert to speir.'

Robert darted to the door, and rushed to the inn, leaving Caumill

describing iambi on the road behind him.

When he reached The Boar's Head there was nobody to be seen. He darted

up the stair to the room where he had first waited upon Ericson.

Three or four maids stood at the door. He asked no question, but went

in, a dreadful fear at his heart. Two of the sisters and Dr. Gow stood

by the bed.

Ericson lay upon it, clear-eyed, and still. His cheek was flushed. The

doctor looked round as Robert entered.

'Robert,' he said, 'you must keep your friend here quiet. He's broken

a blood-vessel--walked too much, I suppose. He'll be all right soon, I

hope; but we can't be too careful. Keep him quiet--that's the main

thing. He mustn't speak a word.'

So saying he took his leave.

Ericson held out his thin hand. Robert grasped it. Ericson's lips

moved as if he would speak.

'Dinna speik, Mr. Ericson,' said Miss Letty, whose tears were flowing

unheeded down her cheeks, 'dinna speik. We a' ken what ye mean an'

what ye want wi'oot that.'

Then she turned to Robert, and said in a whisper,

'Dr. Gow wadna hae ye sent for; but I kent weel eneuch 'at he wad be

a' the quaieter gin ye war here. Jist gie a chap upo' the flure gin ye

want onything, an' I'll be wi' ye in twa seconds.'

The sisters went away. Robert drew a chair beside the bed, and once

more was nurse to his friend. The doctor had already bled him at the

arm: such was the ordinary mode of treatment then.

Scarcely was he seated, when Ericson spoke--a smile flickering over

his worn face.

'Robert, my boy,' he said.

'Dinna speak,' said Robert, in alarm; 'dinna speak, Mr. Ericson.'

'Nonsense,' returned Ericson, feebly. 'They're making a work about

nothing. I've done as much twenty times since I saw you last, and I'm

not dead yet. But I think it's coming.'

'What's coming?' asked Robert, rising in alarm.

'Nothing,' answered Ericson, soothingly,--'only death.--I should like

to see Miss St. John once before I die. Do you think she would come

and see me if I were really dying?'

'I'm sure she wad. But gin ye speik like this, Miss Letty winna lat me

come near ye, no to say her. Oh, Mr. Ericson! gin ye dee, I sanna care

to live.'

Bethinking himself that such was not the way to keep Ericson quiet, he

repressed his emotion, sat down behind the curtain, and was silent.

Ericson fell fast asleep. Robert crept from the room, and telling Miss

Letty that he would return presently, went to Miss St. John.

'How can I go to Aberdeen without him?' he thought as he walked down

the street.

Neither was a guide to the other; but the questioning of two may give

just the needful points by which the parallax of a truth may be

gained.

'Mr. Ericson's here, Miss St. John,' he said, the moment he was shown

into her presence.

Her face flushed. Robert had never seen her look so beautiful.

'He's verra ill,' he added.

Her face grew pale--very pale.

'He asked if I thought you would go and see him--that is if he were

going to die.'

A sunset flush, but faint as on the clouds of the east, rose over her

pallor.

'I will go at once,' she said, rising.

'Na, na,' returned Robert, hastily. 'It has to be manage. It's no to

be dune a' in a hurry. For ae thing, there's Dr. Gow says he maunna

speak ae word; and for anither, there's Miss Letty 'ill jist be like a

watch-dog to haud a'body oot ower frae 'im. We maun bide oor time. But

gin ye say ye'll gang, that 'll content him i' the meantime. I'll tell

him.'

'I will go any moment,' she said. 'Is he very ill?'

'I'm afraid he is. I doobt I'll hae to gang to Aberdeen withoot him.'

A week after, though he was better, his going was out of the question.

Robert wanted to stay with him, but he would not hear of it. He would

follow in a week or so, he said, and Robert must start fair with the

rest of the semies.

But all the removal he was ever able to bear was to the 'red room,'

the best in the house, opening, as I have already mentioned, from an

outside stair in the archway. They put up a great screen inside the

door, and there the lan'less laird lay like a lord.

CHAPTER XXI.

SHARGAR ASPIRES.

ROBERT'S heart was dreary when he got on the box-seat of the

mail-coach at Rothieden--it was yet drearier when he got down at The

Royal Hotel in the street of Ben Accord--and it was dreariest of all

when he turned his back on Ericson's, and entered his own room at Mrs.

Fyvie's.

Shargar had met him at the coach. Robert had scarcely a word to say to

him. And Shargar felt as dreary as Robert when he saw him sit down,

and lay his head on the table without a word.

'What's the maitter wi' ye, Robert?' he faltered out at last. 'Gin ye

dinna speyk to me, I'll cut my throat. I will, faith!'

'Haud yer tongue wi' yer nonsense, Shargar. Mr. Ericson's deein'.'

'O lord!' said Shargar, and said nothing more for the space of ten

minutes.

Then he spoke again--slowly and sententiously.

'He hadna you to tak care o' him, Robert. Whaur is he?'

'At The Boar's Heid.'

'That's weel. He'll be luikit efter there.'

'A body wad like to hae their ain han' in 't, Shargar.'

'Ay. I wiss we had him here again.'

The ice of trouble thus broken, the stream of talk flowed more freely.

'Hoo are ye gettin' on at the schule, man?' asked Robert.

'Nae that ill,' answered Shargar. 'I was at the heid o' my class

yesterday for five meenits.'

'An' hoo did ye like it?'

'Man, it was fine. I thocht I was a gentleman a' at ance.'

'Haud ye at it, man,' said Robert, as if from the heights of age and

experience, 'and maybe ye will be a gentleman some day.'

'Is 't poassible, Robert? A crater like me grow intil a gentleman?'

said Shargar, with wide eyes.

'What for no?' returned Robert.

'Eh, man!' said Shargar.

He stood up, sat down again, and was silent.

'For ae thing,' resumed Robert, after a pause, during which he had

been pondering upon the possibilities of Shargar's future--'for ae

thing, I doobt whether Dr. Anderson wad hae ta'en ony fash aboot ye,

gin he hadna thocht ye had the makin' o' a gentleman i' ye.'

'Eh, man!' said Shargar.

He stood up again, sat down again, and was finally silent.

Next day Robert went to see Dr. Anderson, and told him about Ericson.

The doctor shook his head, as doctors have done in such cases from

Ãsculapius downwards. Robert pressed no further questions.

'Will he be taken care of where he is?' asked the doctor.

'Guid care o',' answered Robert.

'Has he any money, do you think?'

'I hae nae doobt he has some, for he's been teachin' a' the summer.

The like o' him maun an' will work whether they're fit or no.'

'Well, at all events, you write, Robert, and give him the hint that

he's not to fash himself about money, for I have more than he'll want.

And you may just take the hint yourself at the same time, Robert, my

boy,' he added in, if possible, a yet kinder tone.

Robert's way of showing gratitude was the best way of all. He returned

kindness with faith.

'Gin I be in ony want, doctor, I'll jist rin to ye at ance. An' gin I

want ower muckle ye maun jist say na.'

'That's a good fellow. You take things as a body means them.'

'But hae ye naething ye wad like me to do for ye this session, sir?'

'No. I won't have you do anything but your own work. You have more to

do than you had last year. Mind your work; and as often as you get

tired over your books, shut them up and come to me. You may bring

Shargar with you sometimes, but we must take care and not make too

much of him all at once.'

'Ay, ay, doctor. But he's a fine crater, Shargar, an' I dinna think

he'll be that easy to blaud. What do you think he's turnin' ower i'

that reid heid o' his noo?'

'I can't tell that. But there's something to come out of the red head,

I do believe. What is he thinking of?'

'Whether it be possible for him ever to be a gentleman. Noo I tak that

for a good sign i' the likes o' him.'

'No doubt of it. What did you say to him?'

'I tellt him 'at hoo I didna think ye wad hae ta'en sae muckle fash

gin ye hadna had some houps o' the kin' aboot him.'

'You said well. Tell him from me that I expect him to be a gentleman.

And by the way, Robert, do try a little, as I think I said to you once

before, to speak English. I don't mean that you should give up Scotch,

you know.'

'Weel, sir, I hae been tryin'; but what am I to do whan ye speyk to me

as gin ye war my ain father? I canna min' upo' a word o' English whan

ye do that.'

Dr. Anderson laughed, but his eyes glittered.

Robert found Shargar busy over his Latin version. With a 'Weel,

Shargar,' he took his books and sat down. A few moments after, Shargar

lifted his head, stared a while at Robert, and then said,

'Duv you railly think it, Robert?'

'Think what? What are ye haverin' at, ye gowk?'

'Duv ye think 'at I ever could grow intil a gentleman?'

'Dr. Anderson says he expecs 't o' ye.'

'Eh, man!'

A long pause followed, and Shargar spoke again.

'Hoo am I to begin, Robert?'

'Begin what?'

'To be a gentleman.'

Robert scratched his head, like Brutus, and at length became oracular.

'Speyk the truth,' he said.

'I'll do that. But what aboot--my father?'

'Naebody 'ill cast up yer father to ye. Ye need hae nae fear o' that.'

'My mither, than?' suggested Shargar, with hesitation.

'Ye maun haud yer face to the fac'.'

'Ay, ay. But gin they said onything, ye ken--aboot her.'

'Gin ony man-body says a word agen yer mither, ye maun jist knock him

doon upo' the spot.'

'But I michtna be able.'

'Ye could try, ony gait.'

'He micht knock me down, ye ken.'

'Weel, gae doon than.'

'Ay.'

This was all the instruction Robert ever gave Shargar in the duties of

a gentleman. And I doubt whether Shargar sought further enlightenment

by direct question of any one. He worked harder than ever; grew

cleanly in his person, even to fastidiousness; tried to speak English;

and a wonderful change gradually, but rapidly, passed over his outer

man. He grew taller and stronger, and as he grew stronger, his legs

grew straighter, till the defect of approximating knees, the

consequence of hardship, all but vanished. His hair became darker, and

the albino look less remarkable, though still he would remind one of a

vegetable grown in a cellar.

Dr. Anderson thought it well that he should have another year at the

grammar-school before going to college.--Robert now occupied Ericson's

room, and left his own to Shargar.

Robert heard every week from Miss St. John about Ericson. Her reports

varied much; but on the whole he got a little better as the winter

went on. She said that the good women at The Boar's Head paid him

every attention: she did not say that almost the only way to get him

to eat was to carry him delicacies which she had prepared with her own

hands.

She had soon overcome the jealousy with which Miss Letty regarded her

interest in their guest, and before many days had passed she would

walk into the archway and go up to his room without seeing any one,

except the sister whom she generally found there. By what gradations

their intimacy grew I cannot inform my reader, for on the events lying

upon the boundary of my story, I have received very insufficient

enlightenment; but the result it is easy to imagine. I have already

hinted at an early disappointment of Miss St. John. She had grown

greatly since, and her estimate of what she had lost had altered

considerably in consequence. But the change was more rapid after she

became acquainted with Ericson. She would most likely have found the

young man she thought she was in love with in the days gone by a very

commonplace person now. The heart which she had considered dead to the

world had, even before that stormy night in the old house, begun to

expostulate against its owner's mistake, by asserting a fair

indifference to that portion of its past history. And now, to her

large nature the simplicity, the suffering, the patience, the

imagination, the grand poverty of Ericson, were irresistibly

attractive. Add to this that she became his nurse, and soon saw that

he was not indifferent to her--and if she fell in love with him as

only a full-grown woman can love, without Ericson's lips saying

anything that might not by Love's jealousy be interpreted as only of

grateful affection, why should she not?

And what of Marjory Lindsay? Ericson had not forgotten her. But the

brightest star must grow pale as the sun draws near; and on Ericson

there were two suns rising at once on the low sea-shore of life

whereon he had been pacing up and down moodily for three-and-twenty

years, listening evermore to the unprogressive rise and fall of the

tidal waves, all talking of the eternal, all unable to reveal it--the

sun of love and the sun of death. Mysie and he had never met. She

pleased his imagination; she touched his heart with her helplessness;

but she gave him no welcome to the shrine of her beauty: he loved

through admiration and pity. He broke no faith to her; for he had

never offered her any save in looks, and she had not accepted it. She

was but a sickly plant grown in a hot-house. On his death-bed he found

a woman a hiding-place from the wind, a covert from the tempest, the

shadow of a great rock in a weary land! A strong she-angel with mighty

wings, Mary St. John came behind him as he fainted out of life,

tempered the burning heat of the Sun of Death, and laid him to sleep

in the cool twilight of her glorious shadow. In the stead of trouble

about a wilful, thoughtless girl, he found repose and protection and

motherhood in a great-hearted woman.

For Ericson's sake, Robert made some effort to preserve the

acquaintance of Mr. Lindsay and his daughter. But he could hardly keep

up a conversation with Mr. Lindsay, and Mysie showed herself utterly

indifferent to him even in the way of common friendship. He told her

of Ericson's illness: she said she was sorry to hear it, and looked

miles away. He could never get within a certain atmosphere of--what

shall I call it? avertedness that surrounded her. She had always lived

in a dream of unrealities; and the dream had almost devoured her life.

One evening Shargar was later than usual in coming home from the walk,

or ramble rather, without which he never could settle down to his

work. He knocked at Robert's door.

'Whaur do ye think I've been, Robert?'

'Hoo suld I ken, Shargar?' answered Robert, puzzling over a problem.

'I've been haein' a glaiss wi' Jock Mitchell.'

'Wha's Jock Mitchell?'

'My brither Sandy's groom, as I tellt ye afore.'

'Ye dinna think I can min' a' your havers, Shargar. Whaur was the

comin' gentleman whan ye gaed to drink wi' a chield like that, wha,

gin my memory serves me, ye tauld me yersel' was i' the mids o' a' his

maister's deevilry?'

'Yer memory serves ye weel eneuch to be doon upo' me,' said Shargar.

'But there's a bit wordy 'at they read at the cathedral kirk the last

Sunday 'at's stucken to me as gin there was something by ordinar' in

't.'

'What's that?' asked Robert, pretending to go on with his calculations

all the time.

'Ow, nae muckle; only this: "Judge not, that ye be not judged."--I

took a lesson frae Jeck the giant-killer, wi' the Welsh giant--was 't

Blunderbore they ca'd him?--an' poored the maist o' my glaiss doon my

breist. It wasna like ink; it wadna du my sark ony ill.'

'But what garred ye gang wi' 'im at a'? He wasna fit company for a

gentleman.'

'A gentleman 's some saft gin he be ony the waur o' the company he

gangs in till. There may be rizzons, ye ken. Ye needna du as they du.

Jock Mitchell was airin' Reid Rorie an' Black Geordie. An' says I--for

I wantit to ken whether I was sic a breme-buss (broom-bush) as I used

to be--says I, "Hoo are ye, Jock Mitchell?" An' says Jock, "Brawly.

Wha the deevil are ye?" An' says I, "Nae mair o' a deevil nor yersel',

Jock Mitchell, or Alexander, Baron Rothie, either--though maybe that's

no little o' ane." "Preserve me!" cried Jock, "it's Shargar."--"Nae

mair o' that, Jock," says I. "Gin I bena a gentleman, or a' be

dune,"--an' there I stack, for I saw I was a muckle fule to lat oot

onything o' the kin' to Jock. And sae he seemed to think, too, for he

brak oot wi' a great guffaw; an' to win ower 't, I jined, an' leuch as

gin naething was farrer aff frae my thochts than ever bein' a

gentleman. "Whaur do ye pit up, Jock?" I said. "Oot by here," he

answert, "at Luckie Maitlan's."--"That's a queer place for a baron to

put up, Jock," says I. "There's rizzons," says he, an' lays his

forefinger upo' the side o' 's nose, o' whilk there was hardly eneuch

to haud it ohn gane intil the opposit ee. "We're no far frae there,"

says I--an' deed I can hardly tell ye, Robert, what garred me say sae,

but I jist wantit to ken what that gentleman-brither o' mine was

efter; "tak the horse hame," says I--"I'll jist loup upo' Black

Geordie--an' we'll hae a glaiss thegither. I'll stan' treat." Sae he

gae me the bridle, an' I lap on. The deevil tried to get a moufu' o'

my hip, but, faith! I was ower swack for 'im; an' awa we rade.'

'I didna ken 'at ye cud ride, Shargar.'

'Hoots! I cudna help it. I was aye takin' the horse to the watter at

The Boar's Heid, or The Royal Oak, or Lucky Happit's, or The Aucht an'

Furty. That's hoo I cam to ken Jock sae weel. We war guid eneuch

frien's whan I didna care for leein' or sweirin', an' sic like.'

'And what on earth did ye want wi' 'im noo?'

'I tell ye I wantit to ken what that ne'er-do-weel brither o' mine was

efter. I had seen the horses stan'in' aboot twa or three times i' the

gloamin'; an' Sandy maun be aboot ill gin he be aboot onything.'

'What can 't maitter to you, Shargar, what a man like him 's aboot?'

'Weel, ye see, Robert, my mither aye broucht me up to ken a' 'at fowk

was aboot, for she said ye cud never tell whan it micht turn oot to

the weelfaur o' yer advantage--gran' words!--I wonner whaur she

forgathert wi' them. But she was a terrible wuman, my mither, an' kent

a heap o' things--mair nor 'twas gude to ken, maybe. She gaed aboot

the country sae muckle, an' they say the gipsies she gaed amang 's a

dreadfu' auld fowk, an' hae the wisdom o' the Egyptians 'at Moses wad

hae naething to do wi'.'

'Whaur is she noo?'

'I dinna ken. She may turn up ony day.'

'There's ae thing, though, Shargar: gin ye want to be a gentleman, ye

maunna gang keekin' that gate intil ither fowk's affairs.'

'Weel, I maun gie 't up. I winna say a word o' what Jock Mitchell

tellt me aboot Lord Sandy.'

'Ow, say awa'.'

'Na, na; ye wadna like to hear aboot ither fowk's affairs. My mither

tellt me he did verra ill efter Watterloo till a fremt (stranger) lass

at Brussels. But that's neither here nor there. I maun set aboot my

version, or I winna get it dune the nicht.'

'What is Lord Sandy after? What did the rascal tell you? Why do you

make such a mystery of it?' said Robert, authoritatively, and in his

best English.

''Deed I cudna mak naething o' 'm. He winkit an' he mintit (hinted)

an' he gae me to unnerstan' 'at the deevil was efter some lass or

ither, but wha--my lad was as dumb 's the graveyard about that. Gin I

cud only win at that, maybe I cud play him a plisky. But he coupit

ower three glasses o' whusky, an' the mair he drank the less he wad

say. An' sae I left him.'

'Well, take care what you're about, Shargar. I don't think Dr.

Anderson would like you to be in such company,' said Robert; and

Shargar departed to his own room and his version.

Towards the end of the session Miss St. John's reports of Ericson were

worse. Yet he was very hopeful himself, and thought he was getting

better fast. Every relapse he regarded as temporary; and when he got a

little better, thought he had recovered his original position. It was

some relief to Miss St. John to communicate her anxiety to Robert.

After the distribution of the prizes, of which he gained three, Robert

went the same evening to visit Dr. Anderson, intending to go home the

next day. The doctor gave him five golden sovereigns--a rare sight in

Scotland. Robert little thought in what service he was about to spend

them.

CHAPTER XXII.

ROBERT IN ACTION.

IT was late when he left his friend. As he walked through the

Gallowgate, an ancient narrow street, full of low courts, some one

touched him upon the arm. He looked round. It was a young woman. He

turned again to walk on.

'Mr Faukner,' she said, in a trembling voice, which Robert thought he

had heard before.

He stopped.

'I don't know you,' he said. 'I can't see your face. Tell me who you

are.'

She returned no answer, but stood with her head aside. He could see

that her hands shook.

'What do you want with me--if you won't say who you are?'

'I want to tell you something,' she said; 'but I canna speyk here.

Come wi' me.'

'I won't go with you without knowing who you are or where you're going

to take me.'

'Dinna ye ken me?' she said pitifully, turning a little towards the

light of the gas-lamp, and looking up in his face.

'It canna be Jessie Hewson?' said Robert, his heart swelling at the

sight of the pale worn countenance of the girl.

'I was Jessie Hewson ance,' she said, 'but naebody here kens me by

that name but yersel'. Will ye come in? There's no a crater i' the

hoose but mysel'.'

Robert turned at once. 'Go on,' he said.

She led the way up a narrow stone stair between two houses. A door

high up in the gable admitted them. The boards bent so much under his

weight that Robert feared the floor would fall.

'Bide ye there, sir, till I fess a licht,' she said.

This was Robert's first introduction to a phase of human life with

which he became familiar afterwards.

'Mind hoo ye gang, sir,' she resumed, returning with a candle.

'There's nae flurin' there. Haud i' the middle efter me, or ye'll gang

throu.'

She led him into a room, with nothing in it but a bed, a table, and a

chair. On the table was a half-made shirt. In the bed lay a tiny baby,

fast asleep. It had been locked up alone in the dreary garret. Robert

approached to look at the child, for his heart felt very warm to poor

Jessie.

'A bonnie bairnie,' he said,

'Isna he, sir? Think o' 'im comin' to me! Nobody can tell the mercy o'

't. Isna it strange that the verra sin suld bring an angel frae haven

upo' the back o' 't to uphaud an' restore the sinner? Fowk thinks it's

a punishment; but eh me! it's a mercifu' ane. It's a wonner he didna

think shame to come to me. But he cam to beir my shame.'

Robert wondered at her words. She talked of her sin with such a meek

openness! She looked her shame in the face, and acknowledged it hers.

Had she been less weak and worn, perhaps she could not have spoken

thus.

'But what am I aboot!' she said, checking herself. 'I didna fess ye

here to speyk aboot mysel'. He's efter mair mischeef, and gin onything

cud be dune to haud him frae 't--'

'Wha's efter mischeef, Jessie?' interrupted Robert.

'Lord Rothie. He's gaein' aff the nicht in Skipper Hornbeck's boat to

Antwerp, I think they ca' 't, an' a bonnie young leddy wi' 'im. They

war to sail wi' the first o' the munelicht.--Surely I'm nae ower

late,' she added, going to the window. 'Na, the mune canna be up yet.'

'Na,' said Robert; 'I dinna think she rises muckle afore twa o'clock

the nicht. But hoo ken ye? Are ye sure o' 't? It's an awfu' thing to

think o'.'

'To convence ye, I maun jist tell ye the trowth. The hoose we're in

hasna a gude character. We're middlin' dacent up here; but the lave o'

the place is dreadfu'. Eh for the bonnie leys o' Bodyfauld! Gin ye see

my father, tell him I'm nane waur than I was.'

'They think ye droont i' the Dyer's Pot, as they ca' 't.'

'There I am again!' she said--'miles awa' an' nae time to be lost!--My

lord has a man they ca' Mitchell. Ower weel I ken him. There's a wuman

doon the stair 'at he comes to see whiles; an' twa or three nichts

ago, I heard them lauchin' thegither. Sae I hearkened. They war baith

some fou, I'm thinkin'. I cudna tell ye a' 'at they said. That's a

punishment noo, gin ye like--to see and hear the warst o' yer ain ill

doin's. He tellt the limmer a heap o' his lord's secrets. Ay, he tellt

her aboot me, an' hoo I had gane and droont mysel'. I could hear

'maist ilka word 'at he said; for ye see the flurin' here 's no verra

soon', and I was jist 'at I cudna help hearkenin'. My lord's aff the

nicht, as I tell ye. It's a queer gait, but a quaiet, he thinks, nae

doobt. Gin onybody wad but tell her hoo mony een the baron's made sair

wi' greitin'!'

'But hoo's that to be dune?' said Robert.

'I dinna ken. But I hae been watchin' to see you ever sin' syne. I hae

seen ye gang by mony a time. Ye're the only man I ken 'at I could

speyk till aboot it. Ye maun think what ye can do. The warst o' 't is

I canna tell wha she is or whaur she bides.'

'In that case, I canna see what's to be dune.'

'Cudna ye watch them aboord, an' slip a letter intil her han'? Or ye

cud gie 't to the skipper to gie her.'

'I ken the skipper weel eneuch. He's a respectable man. Gin he kent

what the baron was efter, he wadna tak him on boord.'

'That wad do little guid. He wad only hae her aff some ither gait.'

'Weel,' said Robert, rising, 'I'll awa' hame, an' think aboot it as I

gang.--Wad ye tak a feow shillin's frae an auld frien'?' he added with

hesitation, putting his hand in his pocket.

'Na--no a baubee,' she answered. 'Nobody sall say it was for mysel' I

broucht ye here. Come efter me, an' min' whaur ye pit doon yer feet.

It's no sicker.'

She led him to the door. He bade her good-night.

'Tak care ye dinna fa' gaein' doon the stair. It's maist as steep 's a

wa'.'

As Robert came from between the houses, he caught a glimpse of a man

in a groom's dress going in at the street door of that he had left.

All the natural knighthood in him was roused. But what could he do? To

write was a sneaking way. He would confront the baron. The baron and

the girl would both laugh at him. The sole conclusion he could arrive

at was to consult Shargar.

He lost no time in telling him the story.

'I tauld ye he was up to some deevilry or ither,' said Shargar. 'I can

shaw ye the verra hoose he maun be gaein' to tak her frae.'

'Ye vratch! what for didna ye tell me that afore?'

'Ye wadna hear aboot ither fowk's affairs. Na, not you! But some fowk

has no richt to consideration. The verra stanes they say 'ill cry oot

ill secrets like brither Sandy's.'

'Whase hoose is 't?'

'I dinna ken. I only saw him come oot o' 't ance, an' Jock Mitchell

was haudin' Black Geordie roon' the neuk. It canna be far frae Mr.

Lindsay's 'at you an' Mr. Ericson used to gang till.'

'Come an' lat me see 't direckly,' cried Robert, starting up, with a

terrible foreboding at his heart.

They were in the street in a moment. Shargar led the way by a country

lane to the top of the hill on the right, and then turning to the

left, brought him to some houses standing well apart from each other.

It was a region unknown to Robert. They were the backs of the houses

of which Mr. Lindsay's was one.

'This is the hoose,' said Shargar.

Robert rushed into action. He knocked at the door. Mr. Lindsay's Jenny

opened it.

'Is yer mistress in, Jenny?' he asked at once.

'Na. Ay. The maister's gane to Bors Castle.'

'It's Miss Lindsay I want to see.'

'She's up in her ain room wi' a sair heid.'

Robert looked her hard in the face, and knew she was lying.

'I want to see her verra partic'lar,' he said.

'Weel, ye canna see her,' returned Jenny angrily. 'I'll tell her

onything ye like.'

Concluding that little was to be gained by longer parley, but quite

uncertain whether Mysie was in the house or not, Robert turned to

Shargar, took him by the arm, and walked away in silence. When they

were beyond earshot of Jenny, who stood looking after them,

'Ye're sure that's the hoose, Shargar?' said Robert quietly.

'As sure's deith, and maybe surer, for I saw him come oot wi' my ain

een.'

'Weel, Shargar, it's grown something awfu' noo. It's Miss Lindsay. Was

there iver sic a villain as that Lord Rothie--that brither o' yours!'

'I disoun 'im frae this verra 'oor,' said Shargar solemnly.

'Something maun be dune. We'll awa' to the quay, an' see what'll turn

up. I wonner hoo's the tide.'

'The tide's risin'. They'll never try to win oot till it's slack

watter--furbye 'at the Amphitrite, for as braid 's she is, and her

bows modelled efter the cheeks o' a resurrection cherub upo' a

gravestane, draws a heap o' watter: an' the bar they say 's waur to

win ower nor usual: it's been gatherin' again.'

As they spoke, the boys were making for the new town, eagerly. Just

opposite where the Amphitrite lay was a public-house: into that they

made up their minds to go, and there to write a letter, which they

would give to Miss Lindsay if they could, or, if not, leave with

Skipper Hoornbeek. Before they reached the river, a thick rain of

minute drops began to fall, rendering the night still darker, so that

they could scarcely see the vessels from the pavement on the other

side of the quay, along which they were hurrying, to avoid the cables,

rings, and stone posts that made its margin dangerous in the dim

light. When they came to The Smack Inn they crossed right over to

reach the Amphitrite. A growing fear kept them silent as they

approached her berth. It was empty. They turned and stared at each

other in dismay.

One of those amphibious animals that loiter about the borders of the

water was seated on a stone smoking, probably fortified against the

rain by the whisky inside him.

'Whaur's the Amphitrite, Alan?' asked Shargar, for Robert was dumb

with disappointment and rage.

'Half doon to Stanehive by this time, I'm thinkin',' answered Alan.

'For a brewin' tub like her, she fummles awa nae ill wi' a licht win'

astarn o' her. But I'm doobtin' afore she win across the herrin-pot

her fine passengers 'll win at the boddom o' their stamacks. It's like

to blaw a bonnetfu', and she rows awfu' in ony win'. I dinna think she

cud capsize, but for wamlin' she's waur nor a bairn with the grips.'

In absolute helplessness, the boys had let him talk on: there was

nothing more to be done; and Alan was in a talkative mood.

'Fegs! gin 't come on to blaw,' he resumed, 'I wadna wonner gin they

got the skipper to set them ashore at Stanehive. I heard auld Horny

say something aboot lyin' to there for a bit, to tak a keg or

something aboord.'

The boys looked at each other, bade Alan good-night, and walked away.

'Hoo far is 't to Stonehaven, Shargar?' said Robert.

'I dinna richtly ken. Maybe frae twal to fifteen mile.'

Robert stood still. Shargar saw his face pale as death, and contorted

with the effort to control his feelings.

'Shargar,' he said, 'what am I to do? I vowed to Mr. Ericson that, gin

he deid, I wad luik efter that bonny lassie. An' noo whan he's lyin'

a' but deid, I hae latten her slip throu' my fingers wi' clean

carelessness. What am I to do? Gin I cud only win to Stonehaven afore

the Amphitrite! I cud gang aboord wi' the keg, and gin I cud do

naething mair, I wad hae tried to do my best. Gin I do naething, my

hert 'll brak wi' the weicht o' my shame.'

Shargar burst into a roar of laughter. Robert was on the point of

knocking him down, but took him by the throat as a milder proceeding,

and shook him.

'Robert! Robert!' gurgled Shargar, as soon as his choking had overcome

his merriment, 'ye're an awfu' Hielan'man. Hearken to me. I beg--g--g

yer pardon. What I was thinkin' o' was--'

Robert relaxed his hold. But Shargar, notwithstanding the lesson

Robert had given him, could hardly speak yet for the enjoyment of his

own device.

'Gin we could only get rid o' Jock Mitchell!--' he crowed; and burst

out again.

'He's wi' a wuman i' the Gallowgate,' said Robert.

'Losh, man!' exclaimed Shargar, and started off at full speed.

He was no match for his companion, however.

'Whaur the deevil are ye rinnin' till, ye wirrycow (scarecrow)?'

panted Robert, as he laid hold of his collar.

'Lat me gang, Robert,' gasped Shargar. 'Losh, man! ye'll be on Black

Geordie in anither ten meenits, an' me ahin' ye upo' Reid Rorie. An'

faith gin we binna at Stanehive afore the Dutchman wi' 's boddom

foremost, it'll be the faut o' the horse and no o' the men.'

Robert's heart gave a bound of hope.

'Hoo 'ill ye get them, Shargar?' he asked eagerly.

'Steal them,' answered Shargar, struggling to get away from the grasp

still upon his collar.

'We micht be hanged for that.'

'Weel, Robert, I'll tak a' the wyte o' 't. Gin it hadna been for you,

I micht ha' been hangt by this time for ill doin': for your sake I'll

be hangt for weel doin', an' welcome. Come awa'. To steal a mairch

upo' brither Sandy wi' aucht (eight) horse-huves o' 's ain! Ha! ha!

ha!'

They sped along, now running themselves out of breath, now walking

themselves into it again, until they reached a retired hostelry

between the two towns. Warning Robert not to show himself, Shargar

disappeared round the corner of the house.

Robert grew weary, and then anxious. At length Shargar's face came

through the darkness.

'Robert,' he whispered, 'gie 's yer bonnet. I'll be wi' ye in a moment

noo.'

Robert obeyed, too anxious to question him. In about three minutes

more Shargar reappeared, leading what seemed the ghost of a black

horse; for Robert could see only his eyes, and his hoofs made scarcely

any noise. How he had managed it with a horse of Black Geordie's

temper, I do not know, but some horses will let some persons do

anything with them: he had drawn his own stockings over his fore feet,

and tied their two caps upon his hind hoofs.

'Lead him awa' quaietly up the road till I come to ye,' said Shargar,

as he took the mufflings off the horse's feet. 'An' min' 'at he doesna

tak a nip o' ye. He's some ill for bitin'. I'll be efter ye direckly.

Rorie's saiddlet an' bridled. He only wants his carpet-shune.'

Robert led the horse a few hundred yards, then stopped and waited.

Shargar soon joined him, already mounted on Red Roderick.

'Here's yer bonnet, Robert. It's some foul, I doobt. But I cudna help

it. Gang on, man. Up wi' ye. Maybe I wad hae better keepit Geordie

mysel'. But ye can ride. Ance ye're on, he canna bite ye.'

But Robert needed no encouragement from Shargar. In his present mood

he would have mounted a griffin. He was on horseback in a moment. They

trotted gently through the streets, and out of the town. Once over the

Dee, they gave their horses the rein, and off they went through the

dark drizzle. Before they got half-way they were wet to the skin; but

little did Robert, or Shargar either, care for that. Not many words

passed between them.

'Hoo 'ill ye get the horse (plural) in again, Shargar?' asked Robert.

'Afore I get them back,' answered Shargar, 'they'll be tired eneuch to

gang hame o' themsel's. Gin we had only had the luck to meet

Jock!--that wad hae been gran'.'

'What for that?'

'I wad hae cawed Reid Rorie ower the heid o' 'm, an' left him

lyin'--the coorse villain!'

The horses never flagged till they drew up in the main street of

Stonehaven. Robert ran down to the harbour to make inquiry, and left

Shargar to put them up.

The moon had risen, but the air was so full of vapour that she only

succeeded in melting the darkness a little. The sea rolled in front,

awful in its dreariness, under just light enough to show a something

unlike the land. But the rain had ceased, and the air was clearer.

Robert asked a solitary man, with a telescope in his hand, whether he

was looking out for the Amphitrite. The man asked him gruffly in

return what he knew of her. Possibly the nature of the keg to be put

on board had something to do with his Scotch reply. Robert told him he

was a friend of the captain, had missed the boat, and would give any

one five shillings to put him on board. The man went away and returned

with a companion. After some further questioning and bargaining, they

agreed to take him. Robert loitered about the pier full of impatience.

Shargar joined him.

Day began to break over the waves. They gleamed with a blue-gray

leaden sheen. The men appeared coming along the harbour, and descended

by a stair into a little skiff, where a barrel, or something like one,

lay under a tarpaulin. Robert bade Shargar good-bye, and followed.

They pushed off, rowed out into the bay, and lay on their oars waiting

for the vessel. The light grew apace, and Robert fancied he could

distinguish the two horses with one rider against the sky on the top

of the cliffs, moving northwards. Turning his eyes to the sea, he saw

the canvas of the brig, and his heart beat fast. The men bent to their

oars. She drew nearer, and lay to. When they reached her he caught the

rope the sailors threw, was on board in a moment, and went aft to the

captain. The Dutchman stared. In a few words Robert made him

understand his object, offering to pay for his passage, but the good

man would not hear of it. He told him that the lady and gentleman had

come on board as brother and sister: the baron was too knowing to run

his head into the noose of Scotch law.

'I cannot throw him over the board,' said the skipper; 'and what am I

to do? I am afraid it is of no use. Ah! poor thing!'

By this time the vessel was under way. The wind freshened. Mysie had

been ill ever since they left the month of the river: now she was much

worse. Before another hour passed, she was crying to be taken home to

her papa. Still the wind increased, and the vessel laboured much.

Robert never felt better, and if it had not been for the cause of his

sea-faring, would have thoroughly enjoyed it. He put on some sea-going

clothes of the captain's, and set himself to take his share in working

the brig, in which he was soon proficient enough to be useful. When

the sun rose, they were in a tossing wilderness of waves. With the

sunrise, Robert began to think he had been guilty of a great folly.

For what could he do? How was he to prevent the girl from going off

with her lover the moment they landed? But his poor attempt would

verify his willingness.

The baron came on deck now and then, looking bored. He had not

calculated on having to nurse the girl. Had Mysie been well, he could

have amused himself with her, for he found her ignorance interesting.

As it was, he felt injured, and indeed disgusted at the result of the

experiment.

On the third day the wind abated a little; but towards night it blew

hard again, and it was not until they reached the smooth waters of the

Scheldt that Mysie made her appearance on deck, looking dreadfully

ill, and altogether like a miserable, unhappy child. Her beauty was

greatly gone, and Lord Rothie did not pay her much attention.

Robert had as yet made no attempt to communicate with her, for there

was scarcely a chance of her concealing a letter from the baron. But

as soon as they were in smooth water, he wrote one, telling her in the

simplest language that the baron was a bad man, who had amused himself

by making many women fall in love with him, and then leaving them

miserable: he knew one of them himself.

Having finished his letter, he began to look abroad over the smooth

water, and the land smooth as the water. He saw tall poplars, the

spires of the forest, and rows of round-headed dumpy trees, like

domes. And he saw that all the buildings like churches, had either

spires like poplars, or low round domes like those other trees. The

domes gave an eastern aspect to the country. The spire of Antwerp

cathedral especially had the poplar for its model. The pinnacles which

rose from the base of each successive start of its narrowing height

were just the clinging, upright branches of the poplar--a lovely

instance of Art following Nature's suggestion.

CHAPTER XXIII.

ROBERT FINDS A NEW INSTRUMENT.

AT length the vessel lay alongside the quay, and as Mysie stepped from

its side the skipper found an opportunity of giving her Robert's

letter. It was the poorest of chances, but Robert could think of no

other. She started on receiving it, but regarding the skipper's

significant gestures put it quietly away. She looked anything but

happy, for her illness had deprived her of courage, and probably

roused her conscience. Robert followed the pair, saw them enter The

Great Labourer--what could the name mean? could it mean The Good

Shepherd?--and turned away helpless, objectless indeed, for he had

done all that he could, and that all was of no potency. A world of

innocence and beauty was about to be hurled from its orbit of light

into the blackness of outer chaos; he knew it, and was unable to speak

word or do deed that should frustrate the power of a devil who so

loved himself that he counted it an honour to a girl to have him for

her ruin. Her after life had no significance for him, save as a trophy

of his victory. He never perceived that such victory was not yielded

to him; that he gained it by putting on the garments of light; that if

his inward form had appeared in its own ugliness, not one of the women

whose admiration he had secured would not have turned from him as from

the monster of an old tale.

Robert wandered about till he was so weary that his head ached with

weariness. At length he came upon the open space before the cathedral,

whence the poplar-spire rose aloft into a blue sky flecked with white

clouds. It was near sunset, and he could not see the sun, but the

upper half of the spire shone glorious in its radiance. From the top

his eye sank to the base. In the base was a little door half open.

Might not that be the lowly narrow entrance through the shadow up to

the sun-filled air? He drew near with a kind of tremor, for never

before had he gazed upon visible grandeur growing out of the human

soul, in the majesty of everlastingness--a tree of the Lord's

planting. Where had been but an empty space of air and light and

darkness, had risen, and had stood for ages, a mighty wonder awful to

the eye, solid to the hand. He peeped through the opening of the door:

there was the foot of a stair--marvellous as the ladder of Jacob's

dream--turning away towards the unknown. He pushed the door and

entered. A man appeared and barred his advance. Robert put his hand in

his pocket and drew out some silver. The man took one piece--looked at

it--turned it over--put it in his pocket, and led the way up the

stair. Robert followed and followed and followed.

He came out of stone walls upon an airy platform whence the spire

ascended heavenwards. His conductor led upward still, and he followed,

winding within a spiral network of stone, through which all the world

looked in. Another platform, and yet another spire springing from its

basement. Still up they went, and at length stood on a circle of stone

surrounding like a coronet the last base of the spire which lifted its

apex untrodden. Then Robert turned and looked below. He grasped the

stones before him. The loneliness was awful.

There was nothing between him and the roofs of the houses, four

hundred feet below, but the spot where he stood. The whole city, with

its red roofs, lay under him. He stood uplifted on the genius of the

builder, and the town beneath him was a toy. The all but featureless

flat spread forty miles on every side, and the roofs of the largest

buildings below were as dovecots. But the space between was alive with

awe--so vast, so real!

He turned and descended, winding through the network of stone which

was all between him and space. The object of the architect must have

been to melt away the material from before the eyes of the spirit. He

hung in the air in a cloud of stone. As he came in his descent within

the ornaments of one of the basements, he found himself looking

through two thicknesses of stone lace on the nearing city. Down there

was the beast of prey and his victim; but for the moment he was above

the region of sorrow. His weariness and his headache had vanished

utterly. With his mind tossed on its own speechless delight, he was

slowly descending still, when he saw on his left hand a door ajar. He

would look what mystery lay within. A push opened it. He discovered

only a little chamber lined with wood. In the centre stood

something--a bench-like piece of furniture, plain and worn. He

advanced a step; peered over the top of it; saw keys, white and black;

saw pedals below: it was an organ! Two strides brought him in front of

it. A wooden stool, polished and hollowed with centuries of use, was

before it. But where was the bellows? That might be down hundreds of

steps below, for he was half-way only to the ground. He seated himself

musingly, and struck, as he thought, a dumb chord. Responded, up in

the air, far overhead, a mighty booming clang. Startled, almost

frightened, even as if Mary St. John had said she loved him, Robert

sprung from the stool, and, without knowing why, moved only by the

chastity of delight, flung the door to the post. It banged and

clicked. Almost mad with the joy of the titanic instrument, he seated

himself again at the keys, and plunged into a tempest of clanging

harmony. One hundred bells hang in that tower of wonder, an instrument

for a city, nay, for a kingdom. Often had Robert dreamed that he was

the galvanic centre of a thunder-cloud of harmony, flashing off from

every finger the willed lightning tone: such was the unexpected scale

of this instrument--so far aloft in the sunny air rang the responsive

notes, that his dream appeared almost realized. The music, like a

fountain bursting upwards, drew him up and bore him aloft. From the

resounding cone of bells overhead he no longer heard their tones

proceed, but saw level-winged forms of light speeding off with a

message to the nations. It was only his roused phantasy; but a sweet

tone is nevertheless a messenger of God; and a right harmony and

sequence of such tones is a little gospel.

At length he found himself following, till that moment unconsciously,

the chain of tunes he well remembered having played on his violin the

night he went first with Ericson to see Mysie, ending with his strange

chant about the witch lady and the dead man's hand.

Ere he had finished the last, his passion had begun to fold its wings,

and he grew dimly aware of a beating at the door of the solitary

chamber in which he sat. He knew nothing of the enormity of which he

was guilty--presenting unsought the city of Antwerp with a glorious

phantasia. He did not know that only upon grand, solemn, world-wide

occasions, such as a king's birthday or a ball at the HÃ´tel de Ville,

was such music on the card. When he flung the door to, it had closed

with a spring lock, and for the last quarter of an hour three

gens-d'arme, commanded by the sacristan of the tower, had been

thundering thereat. He waited only to finish the last notes of the

wild Orcadian chant, and opened the door. He was seized by the collar,

dragged down the stair into the street, and through a crowd of

wondering faces--poor unconscious dreamer! it will not do to think on

the house-top even, and you had been dreaming very loud indeed in the

church spire--away to the bureau of the police.

CHAPTER XXIV.

DEATH.

I NEED not recount the proceedings of the Belgian police; how they

interrogated Robert concerning a letter from Mary St. John which they

found in an inner pocket; how they looked doubtful over a copy of

Horace that lay in his coat, and put evidently a momentous question

about some algebraical calculations on the fly-leaf of it. Fortunately

or unfortunately--I do not know which--Robert did not understand a

word they said to him. He was locked up, and left to fret for nearly a

week; though what he could have done had he been at liberty, he knew

as little as I know. At last, long after it was useless to make any

inquiry about Miss Lindsay, he was set at liberty. He could just pay

for a steerage passage to London, whence he wrote to Dr. Anderson for

a supply, and was in Aberdeen a few days after.

This was Robert's first cosmopolitan experience. He confided the whole

affair to the doctor, who approved of all, saying it could have been

of no use, but he had done right. He advised him to go home at once,

for he had had letters inquiring after him. Ericson was growing

steadily worse--in fact, he feared Robert might not see him alive.

If this news struck Robert to the heart, his pain was yet not without

some poor alleviation:--he need not tell Ericson about Mysie, but

might leave him to find out the truth when, free of a dying body, he

would be better able to bear it. That very night he set off on foot

for Rothieden. There was no coach from Aberdeen till eight the

following morning, and before that he would be there.

It was a dreary journey without Ericson. Every turn of the road

reminded him of him. And Ericson too was going a lonely unknown way.

Did ever two go together upon that way? Might not two die together and

not lose hold of each other all the time, even when the sense of the

clasping hands was gone, and the soul had withdrawn itself from the

touch? Happy they who prefer the will of God to their own even in

this, and would, as the best friend, have him near who can be

near--him who made the fourth in the fiery furnace! Fable or fact,

reader, I do not care. The One I mean is, and in him I hope.

Very weary was Robert when he walked into his grandmother's house.

Betty came out of the kitchen at the sound of his entrance.

'Is Mr. Ericson--?'

'Na; he's nae deid,' she answered. 'He'll maybe live a day or twa,

they say.'

'Thank God!' said Robert, and went to his grandmother.

'Eh, laddie!' said Mrs. Falconer, the first greetings over, 'ane 's

ta'en an' anither 's left! but what for 's mair nor I can faddom.

There's that fine young man, Maister Ericson, at deith's door; an'

here am I, an auld runklet wife, left to cry upo' deith, an' he winna

hear me.'

'Cry upo' God, grannie, an' no upo' deith,' said Robert, catching at

the word as his grandmother herself might have done. He had no such

unfair habit when I knew him, and always spoke to one's meaning, not

one's words. But then he had a wonderful gift of knowing what one's

meaning was.

He did not sit down, but, tired as he was, went straight to The Boar's

Head. He met no one in the archway, and walked up to Ericson's room.

When he opened the door, he found the large screen on the other side,

and hearing a painful cough, lingered behind it, for he could not

control his feelings sufficiently. Then he heard a voice--Ericson's

voice; but oh, how changed!--He had no idea that he ought not to

listen.

'Mary,' the voice said, 'do not look like that. I am not suffering. It

is only my body. Your arm round me makes me so strong! Let me lay my

head on your shoulder.'

A brief pause followed.

'But, Eric,' said Mary's voice, 'there is one that loves you better

than I do.'

'If there is,' returned Ericson, feebly, 'he has sent his angel to

deliver me.'

'But you do believe in him, Eric?'

The voice expressed anxiety no less than love.

'I am going to see. There is no other way. When I find him, I shall

believe in him. I shall love him with all my heart, I know. I love the

thought of him now.'

'But that's not himself, my--darling!' she said.

'No. But I cannot love himself till I find him. Perhaps there is no

Jesus.'

'Oh, don't say that. I can't bear to hear you talk so,'

'But, dear heart, if you're so sure of him, do you think he would turn

me away because I don't do what I can't do? I would if I could with

all my heart. If I were to say I believed in him, and then didn't

trust him, I could understand it. But when it's only that I'm not sure

about what I never saw, or had enough of proof to satisfy me of, how

can he be vexed at that? You seem to me to do him great wrong, Mary.

Would you now banish me for ever, if I should, when my brain is

wrapped in the clouds of death, forget you along with everything else

for a moment?'

'No, no, no. Don't talk like that, Eric, dear. There may be reasons,

you know.'

'I know what they say well enough. But I expect Him, if there is a

Him, to be better even than you, my beautiful--and I don't know a

fault in you, but that you believe in a God you can't trust. If I

believed in a God, wouldn't I trust him just? And I do hope in him.

We'll see, my darling. When we meet again I think you'll say I was

right.'

Robert stood like one turned into marble. Deep called unto deep in his

soul. The waves and the billows went over him.

Mary St. John answered not a word. I think she must have been

conscience-stricken. Surely the Son of Man saw nearly as much faith in

Ericson as in her. Only she clung to the word as a bond that the Lord

had given her: she would rather have his bond.

Ericson had another fit of coughing. Robert heard the rustling of

ministration. But in a moment the dying man again took up the word. He

seemed almost as anxious about Mary's faith as she was about his.

'There's Robert,' he said: 'I do believe that boy would die for me,

and I never did anything to deserve it. Now Jesus Christ must be as

good as Robert at least. I think he must be a great deal better, if

he's Jesus Christ at all. Now Robert might be hurt if I didn't believe

in him. But I've never seen Jesus Christ. It's all in an old book,

over which the people that say they believe in it the most, fight like

dogs and cats. I beg your pardon, my Mary; but they do, though the

words are ugly.'

'Ah! but if you had tried it as I've tried it, you would know better,

Eric.'

'I think I should, dear. But it's too late now. I must just go and

see. There's no other way left.'

The terrible cough came again. As soon as the fit was over, with a

grand despair in his heart, Robert went from behind the screen.

Ericson was on a couch. His head lay on Mary St. John's bosom. Neither

saw him.

'Perhaps,' said Ericson, panting with death, 'a kiss in heaven may be

as good as being married on earth, Mary.'

She saw Robert and did not answer. Then Eric saw him. He smiled; but

Mary grew very pale.

Robert came forward, stooped and kissed Ericson's forehead, kneeled

and kissed Mary's hand, rose and went out.

From that moment they were both dead to him. Dead, I say--not lost,

not estranged, but dead--that is, awful and holy. He wept for Eric. He

did not weep for Mary yet. But he found a time.

Ericson died two days after.

Here endeth Robert's youth.

CHAPTER XXV.

IN MEMORIAM.

IN memory of Eric Ericson, I add a chapter of sonnets gathered from

his papers, almost desiring that those only should read them who turn

to the book a second time. How his papers came into my possession,

will be explained afterwards.

Tumultuous rushing o'er the outstretched plains;

A wildered maze of comets and of suns;

The blood of changeless God that ever runs

With quick diastole up the immortal veins;

A phantom host that moves and works in chains;

A monstrous fiction which, collapsing, stuns

The mind to stupor and amaze at once;

A tragedy which that man best explains

Who rushes blindly on his wild career

With trampling hoofs and sound of mailed war,

Who will not nurse a life to win a tear,

But is extinguished like a falling star:--

Such will at times this life appear to me,

Until I learn to read more perfectly.

HOM. IL. v. 403.

If thou art tempted by a thought of ill,

Crave not too soon for victory, nor deem

Thou art a coward if thy safety seem

To spring too little from a righteous will:

For there is nightmare on thee, nor until

Thy soul hath caught the morning's early gleam

Seek thou to analyze the monstrous dream

By painful introversion; rather fill

Thine eye with forms thou knowest to be truth:

But see thou cherish higher hope than this;

A hope hereafter that thou shalt be fit

Calm-eyed to face distortion, and to sit

Transparent among other forms of youth

Who own no impulse save to God and bliss.

And must I ever wake, gray dawn, to know

Thee standing sadly by me like a ghost?

I am perplexed with thee, that thou shouldst cost

This Earth another turning: all aglow

Thou shouldst have reached me, with a purple show

Along far-mountain tops: and I would post

Over the breadth of seas though I were lost

In the hot phantom-chase for life, if so

Thou camest ever with this numbing sense

Of chilly distance and unlovely light;

Waking this gnawing soul anew to fight

With its perpetual load: I drive thee hence--

I have another mountain-range from whence

Bursteh a sun unutterably bright.

GALILEO.

'And yet it moves!' Ah, Truth, where wert thou then,

When all for thee they racked each piteous limb?

Wert though in Heaven, and busy with thy hymn,

When those poor hands convulsed that held thy pen?

Art thou a phantom that deceivest men

To their undoing? or dost thou watch him

Pale, cold, and silent in his dungeon dim?

And wilt thou ever speak to him again?

'It moves, it moves! Alas, my flesh was weak;

That was a hideous dream! I'll cry aloud

How the green bulk wheels sunward day by day!

Ah me! ah me! perchance my heart was proud

That I alone should know that word to speak;

And now, sweet Truth, shine upon these, I pray.'

If thou wouldst live the Truth in very deed,

Thou hast thy joy, but thou hast more of pain.

Others will live in peace, and thou be fain

To bargain with despair, and in thy need

To make thy meal upon the scantiest weed.

These palaces, for thee they stand in vain;

Thine is a ruinous hut; and oft the rain

Shall drench thee in the midnight; yea the speed

Of earth outstrip thee pilgrim, while thy feet

Move slowly up the heights. Yet will there come

Through the time-rents about thy moving cell,

An arrow for despair, and oft the hum

Of far-off populous realms where spirits dwell.

TO * * * *

Speak, Prophet of the Lord! We may not start

To find thee with us in thine ancient dress,

Haggard and pale from some bleak wilderness,

Empty of all save God and thy loud heart:

Nor with like rugged message quick to dart

Into the hideous fiction mean and base:

But yet, O prophet man, we need not less,

But more of earnest; though it is thy part

To deal in other words, if thou wouldst smite

The living Mammon, seated, not as then

In bestial quiescence grimly dight,

But thrice as much an idol-god as when

He stared at his own feet from morn to night.8

THE WATCHER.

From out a windy cleft there comes a gaze

Of eyes unearthly which go to and fro

Upon the people's tumult, for below

The nations smite each other: no amaze

Troubles their liquid rolling, or affrays

Their deep-set contemplation: steadily glow

Those ever holier eye-balls, for they grow

Liker unto the eyes of one that prays.

And if those clasped hands tremble, comes a power

As of the might of worlds, and they are holden

Blessing above us in the sunrise golden;

And they will be uplifted till that hour

Of terrible rolling which shall rise and shake

This conscious nightmare from us and we wake.

THE BELOVED DISCIPLE.

One do I see and twelve; but second there

Methinks I know thee, thou beloved one;

Not from thy nobler port, for there are none

More quiet-featured; some there are who bear

Their message on their brows, while others wear

A look of large commission, nor will shun

The fiery trial, so their work is done:

But thou hast parted with thine eyes in prayer--

Unearthly are they both; and so thy lips

Seem like the porches of the spirit land;

For thou hast laid a mighty treasure by,

Unlocked by Him in Nature, and thine eye

Burns with a vision and apocalypse

Thy own sweet soul can hardly understand.

A Boanerges too! Upon my heart

It lay a heavy hour: features like thine

Should glow with other message than the shine

Of the earth-burrowing levin, and the start

That cleaveth horrid gulfs. Awful and swart

A moment stoodest thou, but less divine--

Brawny and clad in ruin!--till with mine

Thy heart made answering signals, and apart

Beamed forth thy two rapt eye-balls doubly clear,

And twice as strong because thou didst thy duty,

And though affianced to immortal Beauty,

Hiddest not weakly underneath her veil

The pest of Sin and Death which maketh pale:

Henceforward be thy spirit doubly dear.9

THE LILY OF THE VALLEY.

There is not any weed but hath its shower,

There is not any pool but hath its star;

And black and muddy though the waters are,

We may not miss the glory of a flower,

And winter moons will give them magic power

To spin in cylinders of diamond spar;

And everything hath beauty near and far,

And keepeth close and waiteth on its hour.

And I when I encounter on my road

A human soul that looketh black and grim,

Shall I more ceremonious be than God?

Shall I refuse to watch one hour with him

Who once beside our deepest woe did bud

A patient watching flower about the brim.

'Tis not the violent hands alone that bring

The curse, the ravage, and the downward doom

Although to these full oft the yawning tomb

Owes deadly surfeit; but a keener sting,

A more immortal agony, will cling

To the half-fashioned sin which would assume

Fair Virtue's garb. The eye that sows the gloom

With quiet seeds of Death henceforth to spring

What time the sun of passion burning fierce

Breaks through the kindly cloud of circumstance;

The bitter word, and the unkindly glance,

The crust and canker coming with the years,

Are liker Death than arrows, and the lance

Which through the living heart at once doth pierce.

SPOKEN OF SEVERAL PHILOSOPHERS.

I pray you, all ye men, who put your trust

In moulds and systems and well-tackled gear,

Holding that Nature lives from year to year

In one continual round because she must--

Set me not down, I pray you, in the dust

Of all these centuries, like a pot of beer,

A pewter-pot disconsolately clear,

Which holds a potful, as is right and just.

I will grow clamorous--by the rood, I will,

If thus ye use me like a pewter pot.

Good friend, thou art a toper and a sot--

I will not be the lead to hold thy swill,

Nor any lead: I will arise and spill

Thy silly beverage, spill it piping hot.

Nature, to him no message dost thou bear,

Who in thy beauty findeth not the power

To gird himself more strongly for the hour

Of night and darkness. Oh, what colours rare

The woods, the valleys, and the mountains wear

To him who knows thy secret, and in shower

And fog, and ice-cloud, hath a secret bower

Where he may rest until the heavens are fair!

Not with the rest of slumber, but the trance

Of onward movement steady and serene,

Where oft in struggle and in contest keen

His eyes will opened be, and all the dance

Of life break on him, and a wide expanse

Roll upward through the void, sunny and green.

TO JUNE.

Ah, truant, thou art here again, I see!

For in a season of such wretched weather

I thought that thou hadst left us altogether,

Although I could not choose but fancy thee

Skulking about the hill-tops, whence the glee

Of thy blue laughter peeped at times, or rather

Thy bashful awkwardness, as doubtful whether

Thou shouldst be seen in such a company

Of ugly runaways, unshapely heaps

Of ruffian vapour, broken from restraint

Of their slim prison in the ocean deeps.

But yet I may not, chide: fall to thy books,

Fall to immediately without complaint--

There they are lying, hills and vales and brooks.

WRITTEN ABOUT THE LONGEST DAY.

Summer, sweet Summer, many-fingered Summer!

We hold thee very dear, as well we may:

It is the kernel of the year to-day--

All hail to thee! Thou art a welcome corner!

If every insect were a fairy drummer,

And I a fifer that could deftly play,

We'd give the old Earth such a roundelay

That she would cast all thought of labour from her

Ah! what is this upon my window-pane?

Some sulky drooping cloud comes pouting up,

Stamping its glittering feet along the plain!

Well, I will let that idle fancy drop.

Oh, how the spouts are bubbling with the rain!

And all the earth shines like a silver cup!

ON A MIDGE.

Whence do ye come, ye creature? Each of you

Is perfect as an angel; wings and eyes

Stupendous in their beauty--gorgeous dyes

In feathery fields of purple and of blue!

Would God I saw a moment as ye do!

I would become a molecule in size,

Rest with you, hum with you, or slanting rise

Along your one dear sunbeam, could I view

The pearly secret which each tiny fly,

Each tiny fly that hums and bobs and stirs,

Hides in its little breast eternally

From you, ye prickly grim philosophers,

With all your theories that sound so high:

Hark to the buzz a moment, my good sirs!

ON A WATERFALL.

Here stands a giant stone from whose far top

Comes down the sounding water. Let me gaze

Till every sense of man and human ways

Is wrecked and quenched for ever, and I drop

Into the whirl of time, and without stop

Pass downward thus! Again my eyes I raise

To thee, dark rock; and through the mist and haze

My strength returns when I behold thy prop

Gleam stern and steady through the wavering wrack

Surely thy strength is human, and like me

Thou bearest loads of thunder on thy back!

And, lo, a smile upon thy visage black--

A breezy tuft of grass which I can see

Waving serenely from a sunlit crack!

Above my head the great pine-branches tower

Backwards and forwards each to the other bends,

Beckoning the tempest-cloud which hither wends

Like a slow-laboured thought, heavy with power;

Hark to the patter of the coming shower!

Let me be silent while the Almighty sends

His thunder-word along; but when it ends

I will arise and fashion from the hour

Words of stupendous import, fit to guard

High thoughts and purposes, which I may wave,

When the temptation cometh close and hard,

Like fiery brands betwixt me and the grave

Of meaner things--to which I am a slave

If evermore I keep not watch and ward.

I do remember how when very young,

I saw the great sea first, and heard its swell

As I drew nearer, caught within the spell

Of its vast size and its mysterious tongue.

How the floor trembled, and the dark boat swung

With a man in it, and a great wave fell

Within a stone's cast! Words may never tell

The passion of the moment, when I flung

All childish records by, and felt arise

A thing that died no more! An awful power

I claimed with trembling hands and eager eyes,

Mine, mine for ever, an immortal dower.--

The noise of waters soundeth to this hour,

When I look seaward through the quiet skies.

ON THE SOURCE OF THE ARVE.

Hear'st thou the dash of water loud and hoarse

With its perpetual tidings upward climb,

Struggling against the wind? Oh, how sublime!

For not in vain from its portentous source,

Thy heart, wild stream, hath yearned for its full force,

But from thine ice-toothed caverns dark as time

At last thou issuest, dancing to the rhyme

Of thy outvolleying freedom! Lo, thy course

Lies straight before thee as the arrow flies,

Right to the ocean-plains. Away, away!

Thy parent waits thee, and her sunset dyes

Are ruffled for thy coming, and the gray

Of all her glittering borders flashes high

Against the glittering rocks: oh, haste, and fly!

PART III.--HIS MANHOOD.

CHAPTER I.

IN THE DESERT.

A LIFE lay behind Robert Falconer, and a life lay before him. He stood

on a shoal between.

The life behind him was in its grave. He had covered it over and

turned away. But he knew it would rise at night.

The life before him was not yet born; and what should issue from that

dull ghastly unrevealing fog on the horizon, he did not care. Thither

the tide setting eastward would carry him, and his future must be

born. All he cared about was to leave the empty garments of his dead

behind him--the sky and the fields, the houses and the gardens which

those dead had made alive with their presence. Travel, motion, ever

on, ever away, was the sole impulse in his heart. Nor had the thought

of finding his father any share in his restlessness.

He told his grandmother that he was going back to Aberdeen. She looked

in his face with surprise, but seeing trouble there, asked no

questions. As if walking in a dream, he found himself at Dr.

Anderson's door.

'Why, Robert,' said the good man, 'what has brought you back? Ah! I

see. Poor Ericson! I am very sorry, my boy. What can I do for you?'

'I can't go on with my studies now, sir,' answered Robert. 'I have

taken a great longing for travel. Will you give me a little money and

let me go?'

'To be sure I will. Where do you want to go?'

'I don't know. Perhaps as I go I shall find myself wanting to go

somewhere. You're not afraid to trust me, are you, sir?'

'Not in the least, Robert. I trust you perfectly. You shall do just as

you please.--Have you any idea, how much money you will want?'

'No. Give me what you are willing I should spend: I will go by that.'

'Come along to the bank then. I will give you enough to start with.

Write at once when you want more. Don't be too saving. Enjoy yourself

as well as you can. I shall not grudge it.'

Robert smiled a wan smile at the idea of enjoying himself. His friend

saw it, but let it pass. There was no good in persuading a man whose

grief was all he had left, that he must ere long part with that too.

That would have been in lowest deeps of sorrow to open a yet lower

deep of horror. But Robert would have refused, and would have been

right in refusing to believe with regard to himself what might be true

in regard to most men. He might rise above his grief; he might learn

to contain his grief; but lose it, forget it?--never.

He went to bid Shargar farewell. As soon as he had a glimpse of what

his friend meant, he burst out in an agony of supplication.

'Tak me wi' ye, Robert,' he cried. 'Ye're a gentleman noo. I'll be yer

man. I'll put on a livery coat, an' gang wi' ye. I'll awa' to Dr.

Anderson. He's sure to lat me gang.'

'No, Shargar,' said Robert, 'I can't have you with me. I've come into

trouble, Shargar, and I must fight it out alone.'

'Ay, ay; I ken. Puir Mr. Ericson!'

'There's nothing the matter with Mr. Ericson. Don't ask me any

questions. I've said more to you now than I've said to anybody

besides.'

'That is guid o' you, Robert. But am I never to see ye again?'

'I don't know. Perhaps we may meet some day.'

'Perhaps is nae muckle to say, Robert,' protested Shargar.

'It's more than can be said about everything, Shargar,' returned

Robert, sadly.

'Weel, I maun jist tak it as 't comes,' said Shargar, with a

despairing philosophy derived from the days when his mother thrashed

him. 'But, eh! Robert, gin it had only pleased the Almichty to sen' me

into the warl' in a some respectable kin' o' a fashion!'

'Wi' a chance a' gaein' aboot the country like that curst villain yer

brither, I suppose?' retorted Robert, rousing himself for a moment.

'Na, na,' responded Shargar. 'I'll stick to my ain mither. She never

learned me sic tricks.'

'Do ye that. Ye canna compleen o' God. It's a' richt as far 's ye're

concerned. Gin he dinna something o' ye yet, it'll be your wyte, no

his, I'm thinkin'.'

They walked to Dr. Anderson's together, and spent the night there. In

the morning Robert got on the coach for Edinburgh.

I cannot, if I would, follow him on his travels. Only at times, when

the conversation rose in the dead of night, by some Jacob's ladder of

blessed ascent, into regions where the heart of such a man could open

as in its own natural clime, would a few words cause the clouds that

enveloped this period of his history to dispart, and grant me a peep

into the phantasm of his past. I suspect, however, that much of it

left upon his mind no recallable impressions. I suspect that much of

it looked to himself in the retrospect like a painful dream, with only

certain objects and occurrences standing prominent enough to clear the

moonlight mist enwrapping the rest.

What the precise nature of his misery was I shall not even attempt to

conjecture. That would be to intrude within the holy place of a human

heart. One thing alone I will venture to affirm--that bitterness

against either of his friends, whose spirits rushed together and left

his outside, had no place in that noble nature. His fate lay behind

him, like the birth of Shargar, like the death of Ericson, a decree.

I do not even know in what direction he first went. That he had seen

many cities and many countries was apparent from glimpses of ancient

streets, of mountain-marvels, of strange constellations, of things in

heaven and earth which no one could have seen but himself, called up

by the magic of his words. A silent man in company, he talked much

when his hour of speech arrived. Seldom, however, did he narrate any

incident save in connection with some truth of human nature, or fact

of the universe.

I do know that the first thing he always did on reaching any new place

was to visit the church with the loftiest spire; but he never looked

into the church itself until he had left the earth behind him as far

as that church would afford him the possibility of ascent. Breathing

the air of its highest region, he found himself vaguely strengthened,

yes comforted. One peculiar feeling he had, into which I could enter

only upon happy occasion, of the presence of God in the wind. He said

the wind up there on the heights of human aspiration always made him

long and pray. Asking him one day something about his going to church

so seldom, he answered thus:

'My dear boy, it does me ten times more good to get outside the spire

than to go inside the church. The spire is the most essential, and

consequently the most neglected part of the building. It symbolizes

the aspiration without which no man's faith can hold its own. But the

effort of too many of her priests goes to conceal from the worshippers

the fact that there is such a stair, with a door to it out of the

church. It looks as if they feared their people would desert them for

heaven. But I presume it arises generally from the fact that they know

of such an ascent themselves, only by hearsay. The knowledge of God is

good, but the church is better!'

'Could it be,' I ventured to suggest, 'that, in order to ascend, they

must put off the priests' garments?'

'Good, my boy!' he answered. 'All are priests up there, and must be

clothed in fine linen, clean and white--the righteousness of

saints--not the imputed righteousness of another,--that is a lying

doctrine--but their own righteousness which God has wrought in them by

Christ.' I never knew a man in whom the inward was so constantly

clothed upon by the outward, whose ordinary habits were so symbolic of

his spiritual tastes, or whose enjoyment of the sight of his eyes and

the hearing of his ears was so much informed by his highest feelings.

He regarded all human affairs from the heights of religion, as from

their church-spires he looked down on the red roofs of Antwerp, on the

black roofs of Cologne, on the gray roofs of Strasburg, or on the

brown roofs of Basel--uplifted for the time above them, not in

dissociation from them.

On the base of the missing twin-spire at Strasburg, high over the roof

of the church, stands a little cottage--how strange its white muslin

window-curtains look up there! To the day of his death he cherished

the fancy of writing a book in that cottage, with the grand city to

which London looks a modern mushroom, its thousand roofs with row upon

row of windows in them--often five garret stories, one above the

other, and its thickets of multiform chimneys, the thrones and

procreant cradles of the storks, marvellous in history, habit, and

dignity--all below him.

He was taken ill at Valence and lay there for a fortnight, oppressed

with some kind of low fever. One night he awoke from a refreshing

sleep, but could not sleep again. It seemed to him afterwards as if he

had lain waiting for something. Anyhow something came. As it were a

faint musical rain had invaded his hearing; but the night was clear,

for the moon was shining on his window-blind. The sound came nearer,

and revealed itself a delicate tinkling of bells. It drew nearer still

and nearer, growing in sweet fulness as it came, till at length a slow

torrent of tinklings went past his window in the street below. It was

the flow of a thousand little currents of sound, a gliding of silvery

threads, like the talking of water-ripples against the side of a barge

in a slow canal--all as soft as the moonlight, as exquisite as an

odour, each sound tenderly truncated and dull. A great multitude of

sheep was shifting its quarters in the night, whence and whither and

why he never knew. To his heart they were the messengers of the Most

High. For into that heart, soothed and attuned by their thin harmony,

not on the wind that floated without breaking their lovely message,

but on the ripples of the wind that bloweth where it listeth, came the

words, unlooked for, their coming unheralded by any mental

premonition, 'My peace I give unto you.' The sounds died slowly away

in the distance, fainting out of the air, even as they had grown upon

it, but the words remained.

In a few moments he was fast asleep, comforted by pleasure into

repose; his dreams were of gentle self-consoling griefs; and when he

awoke in the morning--'My peace I give unto you,' was the first

thought of which he was conscious. It may be that the sound of the

sheep-bells made him think of the shepherds that watched their flocks

by night, and they of the multitude of the heavenly host, and they of

the song--'On earth peace': I do not know. The important point is not

how the words came, but that the words remained--remained until he

understood them, and they became to him spirit and life.

He soon recovered strength sufficiently to set out again upon his

travels, great part of which he performed on foot. In this way he

reached Avignon. Passing from one of its narrow streets into an open

place in the midst, all at once he beheld, towering above him, on a

height that overlooked the whole city and surrounding country, a great

crucifix. The form of the Lord of Life still hung in the face of

heaven and earth. He bowed his head involuntarily. No matter that when

he drew nearer the power of it vanished. The memory of it remained

with its first impression, and it had a share in what followed.

He made his way eastward towards the Alps. As he walked one day about

noon over a desolate heath-covered height, reminding him not a little

of the country of his childhood, the silence seized upon him. In the

midst of the silence arose the crucifix, and once more the words which

had often returned upon him sounded in the ears of the inner hearing,

'My peace I give unto you.' They were words he had known from the

earliest memorial time. He had heard them in infancy, in childhood, in

boyhood, in youth: now first in manhood it flashed upon him that the

Lord did really mean that the peace of his soul should be the peace of

their souls; that the peace wherewith his own soul was quiet, the

peace at the very heart of the universe, was henceforth theirs--open

to them, to all the world, to enter and be still. He fell upon his

knees, bowed down in the birth of a great hope, held up his hands

towards heaven, and cried, 'Lord Christ, give me thy peace.'

He said no more, but rose, caught up his stick, and strode forward,

thinking.

He had learned what the sentence meant; what that was of which it

spoke he had not yet learned. The peace he had once sought, the peace

that lay in the smiles and tenderness of a woman, had 'overcome him

like a summer cloud,' and had passed away. There was surely a deeper,

a wider, a grander peace for him than that, if indeed it was the same

peace wherewith the king of men regarded his approaching end, that he

had left as a heritage to his brothers. Suddenly he was aware that the

earth had begun to live again. The hum of insects arose from the heath

around him; the odour of its flowers entered his dulled sense; the

wind kissed him on the forehead; the sky domed up over his head; and

the clouds veiled the distant mountain tops like the smoke of incense

ascending from the altars of the worshipping earth. All Nature began

to minister to one who had begun to lift his head from the baptism of

fire. He had thought that Nature could never more be anything to him;

and she was waiting on him like a mother. The next moment he was

offended with himself for receiving ministrations the reaction of

whose loveliness might no longer gather around the form of Mary St.

John. Every wavelet of scent, every toss of a flower's head in the

breeze, came with a sting in its pleasure--for there was no woman to

whom they belonged. Yet he could not shut them out, for God and not

woman is the heart of the universe. Would the day ever come when the

loveliness of Mary St. John, felt and acknowledged as never before,

would be even to him a joy and a thanksgiving? If ever, then because

God is the heart of all.

I do not think this mood, wherein all forms of beauty sped to his soul

as to their own needful centre, could have lasted over many miles of

his journey. But such delicate inward revelations are none the less

precious that they are evanescent. Many feelings are simply too good

to last--using the phrase not in the unbelieving sense in which it is

generally used, expressing the conviction that God is a hard father,

fond of disappointing his children, but to express the fact that

intensity and endurance cannot yet coexist in the human economy. But

the virtue of a mood depends by no means on its immediate presence.

Like any other experience, it may be believed in, and, in the absence

which leaves the mind free to contemplate it, work even more good than

in its presence.

At length he came in sight of the Alpine regions. Far off, the heads

of the great mountains rose into the upper countries of cloud, where

the snows settled on their stony heads, and the torrents ran out from

beneath the frozen mass to gladden the earth below with the faith of

the lonely hills. The mighty creatures lay like grotesque animals of a

far-off titanic time, whose dead bodies had been first withered into

stone, then worn away by the storms, and covered with shrouds and

palls of snow, till the outlines of their forms were gone, and only

rough shapes remained like those just blocked out in the sculptor's

marble, vaguely suggesting what the creatures had been, as the corpse

under the sheet of death is like a man. He came amongst the valleys at

their feet, with their blue-green waters hurrying seawards--from stony

heights of air into the mass of 'the restless wavy plain'; with their

sides of rock rising in gigantic terrace after terrace up to the

heavens; with their scaling pines, erect and slight, cone-head

aspiring above cone-head, ambitious to clothe the bare mass with

green, till failing at length in their upward efforts, the savage rock

shot away and beyond and above them, the white and blue glaciers

clinging cold and cruel to their ragged sides, and the dead blank of

whiteness covering their final despair. He drew near to the lower

glaciers, to find their awful abysses tremulous with liquid blue, a

blue tender and profound as if fed from the reservoir of some hidden

sky intenser than ours; he rejoiced over the velvety fields dotted

with the toy-like houses of the mountaineers; he sat for hours

listening by the side of their streams; he grew weary, felt oppressed,

longed for a wider outlook, and began to climb towards a mountain

village of which he had heard from a traveller, to find solitude and

freedom in an air as lofty as if he climbed twelve of his beloved

cathedral spires piled up in continuous ascent.

After ascending for hours in zigzags through pine woods, where the

only sound was of the little streams trotting down to the valley

below, or the distant hush of some thin waterfall, he reached a level,

and came out of the woods. The path now led along the edge of a

precipice descending sheer to the uppermost terrace of the valley he

had left. The valley was but a cleft in the mass of the mountain: a

little way over sank its other wall, steep as a plumb-line could have

made it, of solid rock. On his right lay green fields of clover and

strange grasses. Ever and anon from the cleft steamed up great

blinding clouds of mist, which now wandered about over the nations of

rocks on the mountain side beyond the gulf, now wrapt himself in their

bewildering folds. In one moment the whole creation had vanished, and

there seemed scarce existence enough left for more than the following

footstep; the next, a mighty mountain stood in front, crowned with

blinding snow, an awful fact; the lovely heavens were over his head,

and the green sod under his feet; the grasshoppers chirped about him,

and the gorgeous butterflies flew. From regions far beyond came the

bells of the kine and the goats. He reached a little inn, and there

took up his quarters.

I am able to be a little minute in my description, because I have

since visited the place myself. Great heights rise around it on all

sides. It stands as between heaven and hell, suspended between peaks

and gulfs. The wind must roar awfully there in the winter; but the

mountains stand away with their avalanches, and all the summer long

keep the cold off the grassy fields.

The same evening, he was already weary. The next morning it rained. It

rained fiercely all day. He would leave the place on the morrow. In

the evening it began to clear up. He walked out. The sun was setting.

The snow-peaks were faintly tinged with rose, and the ragged masses of

vapour that hung lazy and leaden-coloured about the sides of the

abyss, were partially dyed a sulky orange red. Then all faded into

gray. But as the sunlight vanished, a veil sank from the face of the

moon, already half-way to the zenith, and she gathered courage and

shone, till the mountain looked lovely as a ghost in the gleam of its

snow and the glimmer of its glaciers. 'Ah!' thought Falconer, 'such a

peace at last is all a man can look for--the repose of a spectral

Elysium, a world where passion has died away, and only the dim ghost

of its memory to disturb with a shadowy sorrow the helpless content of

its undreaming years. The religion that can do but this much is not a

very great or very divine thing. The human heart cannot invent a

better it may be, but it can imagine grander results.

He did not yet know what the religion was of which he spoke. As well

might a man born stone-deaf estimate the power of sweet sounds, or he

who knows not a square from a circle pronounce upon the study of

mathematics.

The next morning rose brilliant--an ideal summer day. He would not go

yet; he would spend one day more in the place. He opened his valise to

get some lighter garments. His eye fell on a New Testament. Dr.

Anderson had put it there. He had never opened it yet, and now he let

it lie. Its time had not yet come. He went out.

Walking up the edge of the valley, he came upon a little stream whose

talk he had heard for some hundred yards. It flowed through a grassy

hollow, with steeply sloping sides. Water is the same all the world

over; but there was more than water here to bring his childhood back

to Falconer. For at the spot where the path led him down to the burn,

a little crag stood out from the bank,--a gray stone like many he knew

on the stream that watered the valley of Rothieden: on the top of the

stone grew a little heather; and beside it, bending towards the water,

was a silver birch. He sat down on the foot of the rock, shut in by

the high grassy banks from the gaze of the awful mountains. The sole

unrest was the run of the water beside him, and it sounded so homely,

that he began to jabber Scotch to it. He forgot that this stream was

born in the clouds, far up where that peak rose into the air behind

him; he did not know that a couple of hundred yards from where he sat,

it tumbled headlong into the valley below: with his country's

birch-tree beside him, and the rock crowned with its tuft of heather

over his head, the quiet as of a Sabbath afternoon fell upon him--that

quiet which is the one altogether lovely thing in the Scotch

Sabbath--and once more the words arose in his mind, 'My peace I give

unto you.'

Now he fell a-thinking what this peace could be. And it came into his

mind as he thought, that Jesus had spoken in another place about

giving rest to those that came to him, while here he spoke about 'my

peace.' Could this my mean a certain kind of peace that the Lord

himself possessed? Perhaps it was in virtue of that peace, whatever it

was, that he was the Prince of Peace. Whatever peace he had must be

the highest and best peace--therefore the one peace for a man to seek,

if indeed, as the words of the Lord seemed to imply, a man was capable

of possessing it. He remembered the New Testament in his box, and,

resolving to try whether he could not make something more out of it,

went back to the inn quieter in heart than since he left his home. In

the evening he returned to the brook, and fell to searching the story,

seeking after the peace of Jesus.

He found that the whole passage stood thus:--

'Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world

giveth give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it

be afraid.'

He did not leave the place for six weeks. Every day he went to the

burn, as he called it, with his New Testament; every day tried yet

again to make out something more of what the Saviour meant. By the end

of the month it had dawned upon him, he hardly knew how, that the

peace of Jesus (although, of course, he could not know what it was

like till he had it) must have been a peace that came from the doing

of the will of his Father. From the account he gave of the discoveries

he then made, I venture to represent them in the driest and most exact

form that I can find they will admit of. When I use the word

discoveries, I need hardly say that I use it with reference to

Falconer and his previous knowledge. They were these:--that Jesus

taught--

First,--That a man's business is to do the will of God:

Second,--That God takes upon himself the care of the man:

Third,--Therefore, that a man must never be afraid of anything;

and so,

Fourth,--be left free to love God with all his heart, and his

neighbour as himself.

But one day, his thoughts having cleared themselves a little upon

these points, a new set of questions arose with sudden

inundation--comprised in these two:--

'How can I tell for certain that there ever was such a man? How am I

to be sure that such as he says is the mind of the maker of these

glaciers and butterflies?'

All this time he was in the wilderness as much as Moses at the back of

Horeb, or St. Paul when he vanishes in Arabia: and he did nothing but

read the four gospels and ponder over them. Therefore it is not

surprising that he should have already become so familiar with the

gospel story, that the moment these questions appeared, the following

words should dart to the forefront of his consciousness to meet

them:--

'If any man will do his will, he shall know of the doctrine, whether

it be of God, or whether I speak of myself.'

Here was a word of Jesus himself, announcing the one means of arriving

at a conviction of the truth or falsehood of all that he said, namely,

the doing of the will of God by the man who would arrive at such

conviction.

The next question naturally was: What is this will of God of which

Jesus speaks? Here he found himself in difficulty. The theology of his

grandmother rushed in upon him, threatening to overwhelm him with

demands as to feeling and inward action from which his soul turned

with sickness and fainting. That they were repulsive to him, that they

appeared unreal, and contradictory to the nature around him, was no

proof that they were not of God. But on the other hand, that they

demanded what seemed to him unjust,--that these demands were founded

on what seemed to him untruth attributed to God, on ways of thinking

and feeling which are certainly degrading in a man,--these were

reasons of the very highest nature for refusing to act upon them so

long as, from whatever defects it might be in himself, they bore to

him this aspect. He saw that while they appeared to be such, even

though it might turn out that he mistook them, to acknowledge them

would be to wrong God. But this conclusion left him in no better

position for practice than before.

When at length he did see what the will of God was, he wondered, so

simple did it appear, that he had failed to discover it at once. Yet

not less than a fortnight had he been brooding and pondering over the

question, as he wandered up and down that burnside, or sat at the foot

of the heather-crowned stone and the silver-barked birch, when the

light began to dawn upon him. It was thus.

In trying to understand the words of Jesus by searching back, as it

were, for such thoughts and feelings in him as would account for the

words he spoke, the perception awoke that at least he could not have

meant by the will of God any such theological utterances as those

which troubled him. Next it grew plain that what he came to do, was

just to lead his life. That he should do the work, such as recorded,

and much besides, that the Father gave him to do--this was the will of

God concerning him. With this perception arose the conviction that

unto every man whom God had sent into the world, he had given a work

to do in that world. He had to lead the life God meant him to lead.

The will of God was to be found and done in the world. In seeking a

true relation to the world, would he find his relation to God?

The time for action was come.

He rose up from the stone of his meditation, took his staff in his

hand, and went down the mountain, not knowing whither he went. And

these were some of his thoughts as he went:

'If it was the will of God who made me and her, my will shall not be

set against his. I cannot be happy, but I will bow my head and let his

waves and his billows go over me. If there is such a God, he knows

what a pain I bear. His will be done. Jesus thought it well that his

will should be done to the death. Even if there be no God, it will be

grand to be a disciple of such a man, to do as he says, think as he

thought--perhaps come to feel as he felt.'

My reader may wonder that one so young should have been able to think

so practically--to the one point of action. But he was in earnest, and

what lay at the root of his character, at the root of all that he did,

felt, and became, was childlike simplicity and purity of nature. If

the sins of his father were mercifully visited upon him, so likewise

were the grace and loveliness of his mother. And between the two,

Falconer had fared well.

As he descended the mountain, the one question was--his calling. With

the faintest track to follow, with the clue of a spider's thread to

guide him, he would have known that his business was to set out at

once to find, and save his father. But never since the day when the

hand of that father smote him, and Mary St. John found him bleeding on

the floor, had he heard word or conjecture concerning him. If he were

to set out to find him now, it would be to search the earth for one

who might have vanished from it years ago. He might as well search the

streets of a great city for a lost jewel. When the time came for him

to find his father, if such an hour was written in the decrees of--I

dare not say Fate, for Falconer hated the word--if such was the will

of God, some sign would be given him--that is, some hint which he

could follow with action. As he thought and thought it became

gradually plainer that he must begin his obedience by getting ready

for anything that God might require of him. Therefore he must go on

learning till the call came.

But he shivered at the thought of returning to Aberdeen. Might he not

continue his studies in Germany? Would that not be as good--possibly,

from the variety of the experience, better? But how was it to be

decided? By submitting the matter to the friend who made either

possible. Dr. Anderson had been to him as a father: he would be guided

by his pleasure.

He wrote, therefore, to Dr. Anderson, saying that he would return at

once if he wished it, but that he would greatly prefer going to a

German university for two years. The doctor replied that of course he

would rather have him at home, but that he was confident Robert knew

best what was best for himself; therefore he had only to settle where

he thought proper, and the next summer he would come and see him, for

he was not tied to Aberdeen any more than Robert.

CHAPTER II.

HOME AGAIN.

FOUR years passed before Falconer returned to his native country,

during which period Dr. Anderson had visited him twice, and shown

himself well satisfied with his condition and pursuits. The doctor had

likewise visited Rothieden, and had comforted the heart of the

grandmother with regard to her Robert. From what he learned upon this

visit, he had arrived at a true conjecture, I believe, as to the cause

of the great change which had suddenly taken place in the youth. But

he never asked Robert a question leading in the direction of the grief

which he saw the healthy and earnest nature of the youth gradually

assimilating into his life. He had too much respect for sorrow to

approach it with curiosity. He had learned to put off his shoes when

he drew nigh the burning bush of human pain.

Robert had not settled at any of the universities, but had moved from

one to the other as he saw fit, report guiding him to the men who

spoke with authority. The time of doubt and anxious questioning was

far from over, but the time was long gone by--if in his case it had

ever been--when he could be like a wave of the sea, driven of the wind

and tossed. He had ever one anchor of the soul, and he found that it

held--the faith of Jesus (I say the faith of Jesus, not his own faith

in Jesus), the truth of Jesus, the life of Jesus. However his

intellect might be tossed on the waves of speculation and criticism,

he found that the word the Lord had spoken remained steadfast; for in

doing righteously, in loving mercy, in walking humbly, the conviction

increased that Jesus knew the very secret of human life. Now and then

some great vision gleamed across his soul of the working of all things

towards a far-off goal of simple obedience to a law of life, which God

knew, and which his son had justified through sorrow and pain. Again

and again the words of the Master gave him a peep into a region where

all was explicable, where all that was crooked might be made straight,

where every mountain of wrong might be made low, and every valley of

suffering exalted. Ever and again some one of the dark perplexities of

humanity began to glimmer with light in its inmost depth. Nor was he

without those moments of communion when the creature is lifted into

the secret place of the Creator.

Looking back to the time when it seemed that he cried and was not

heard, he saw that God had been hearing, had been answering, all the

time; had been making him capable of receiving the gift for which he

prayed. He saw that intellectual difficulty encompassing the highest

operations of harmonizing truth, can no more affect their reality than

the dulness of chaos disprove the motions of the wind of God over the

face of its waters. He saw that any true revelation must come out of

the unknown in God through the unknown in man. He saw that its truths

must rise in the man as powers of life, and that only as that life

grows and unfolds can the ever-lagging intellect gain glimpses of

partial outlines fading away into the infinite--that, indeed, only in

material things and the laws that belong to them, are outlines

possible--even there, only in the picture of them which the mind that

analyzes them makes for itself, not in the things themselves.

At the close of these four years, with his spirit calm and hopeful,

truth his passion, and music, which again he had resumed and

diligently cultivated, his pleasure, Falconer returned to Aberdeen. He

was received by Dr. Anderson as if he had in truth been his own son.

In the room stood a tall figure, with its back towards them, pocketing

its handkerchief. The next moment the figure turned, and--could it

be?--yes, it was Shargar. Doubt lingered only until he opened his

mouth, and said 'Eh, Robert!' with which exclamation he threw himself

upon him, and after a very undignified fashion began crying heartily.

Tall as he was, Robert's great black head towered above him, and his

shoulders were like a rock against which Shargar's slight figure

leaned. He looked down like a compassionate mastiff upon a distressed

Italian grayhound. His eyes shimmered with feeling, but Robert's

tears, if he ever shed any, were kept for very solemn occasions. He

was more likely to weep for awful joy than for any sufferings either

in himself or others. 'Shargar!' pronounced in a tone full of a

thousand memories, was all the greeting he returned; but his great

manly hand pressed Shargar's delicate long-fingered one with a grasp

which must have satisfied his friend that everything was as it had

been between them, and that their friendship from henceforth would

take a new start. For with all that Robert had seen, thought, and

learned, now that the bitterness of loss had gone by, the old times

and the old friends were dearer. If there was any truth in the

religion of God's will, in which he was a disciple, every moment of

life's history which had brought soul in contact with soul, must be

sacred as a voice from behind the veil. Therefore he could not now

rest until he had gone to see his grandmother.

'Will you come to Rothieden with me, Shargar? I beg your pardon--I

oughtn't to keep up an old nickname,' said Robert, as they sat that

evening with the doctor, over a tumbler of toddy.

'If you call me anything else, I'll cut my throat, Robert, as I told

you before. If any one else does,' he added, laughing, 'I'll cut his

throat.'

'Can he go with me, doctor?' asked Robert, turning to their host.

'Certainly. He has not been to Rothieden since he took his degree.

He's an A.M. now, and has distinguished himself besides. You'll see

him in his uniform soon, I hope. Let's drink his health, Robert. Fill

your glass.'

The doctor filled his glass slowly and solemnly. He seldom drank even

wine, but this was a rare occasion. He then rose, and with equal

slowness, and a tremor in his voice which rendered it impossible to

imagine the presence of anything but seriousness, said,

'Robert, my son, let's drink the health of George Moray, Gentleman.

Stand up.'

Robert rose, and in his confusion Shargar rose too, and sat down

again, blushing till his red hair looked yellow beside his cheeks. The

men repeated the words, 'George Moray, Gentleman,' emptied their

glasses, and resumed their seats. Shargar rose trembling, and tried in

vain to speak. The reason in part was, that he sought to utter himself

in English.

'Hoots! Damn English!' he broke out at last. 'Gin I be a gentleman,

Dr. Anderson and Robert Falconer, it's you twa 'at's made me ane, an'

God bless ye, an' I'm yer hoomble servant to a' etairnity.'

So saying, Shargar resumed his seat, filled his glass with trembling

hand, emptied it to hide his feelings, but without success, rose once

more, and retreated to the hall for a space.

The next morning Robert and Shargar got on the coach and went to

Rothieden. Robert turned his head aside as they came near the bridge

and the old house of Bogbonnie. But, ashamed of his weakness, he

turned again and looked at the house. There it stood, all the same,--a

thing for the night winds to howl in, and follow each other in mad

gambols through its long passages and rooms, so empty from the first

that not even a ghost had any reason for going there--a place almost

without a history--dreary emblem of so many empty souls that have

hidden their talent in a napkin, and have nothing to return for it

when the Master calls them. Having looked this one in the face, he

felt stronger to meet those other places before which his heart

quailed yet more. He knew that Miss St. John had left soon after

Ericson's death: whether he was sorry or glad that he should not see

her he could not tell. He thought Rothieden would look like Pompeii, a

city buried and disinterred; but when the coach drove into the long

straggling street, he found the old love revive, and although the

blood rushed back to his heart when Captain Forsyth's house came in

view, he did not turn away, but made his eyes, and through them his

heart, familiar with its desolation. He got down at the corner, and

leaving Shargar to go on to The Boar's Head and look after the

luggage, walked into his grandmother's house and straight into her

little parlour. She rose with her old stateliness when she saw a

stranger enter the room, and stood waiting his address.

'Weel, grannie,' said Robert, and took her in his arms.

'The Lord's name be praised!' faltered she. 'He's ower guid to the

likes o' me.'

And she lifted up her voice and wept.

She had been informed of his coming, but she had not expected him till

the evening; he was much altered, and old age is slow.

He had hardly placed her in her chair, when Betty came in. If she had

shown him respect before, it was reverence now.

'Eh, sir!' she said, 'I didna ken it was you, or I wadna hae come into

the room ohn chappit at the door. I'll awa' back to my kitchie.'

So saying, she turned to leave the room.

'Hoots! Betty,' cried Robert, 'dinna be a gowk. Gie 's a grip o yer

han'.'

Betty stood staring and irresolute, overcome at sight of the manly

bulk before her.

'Gin ye dinna behave yersel', Betty, I'll jist awa' ower to

Muckledrum, an' hae a caw (drive) throu the sessions-buik.'

Betty laughed for the first time at the awful threat, and the ice once

broken, things returned to somewhat of their old footing.

I must not linger on these days. The next morning Robert paid a visit

to Bodyfauld, and found that time had there flowed so gently that it

had left but few wrinkles and fewer gray hairs. The fields, too, had

little change to show; and the hill was all the same, save that its

pines had grown. His chief mission was to John Hewson and his wife.

When he left for the continent, he was not so utterly absorbed in his

own griefs as to forget Jessie. He told her story to Dr. Anderson, and

the good man had gone to see her the same day.

In the evening, when he knew he should find them both at home, he

walked into the cottage. They were seated by the fire, with the same

pot hanging on the same crook for their supper. They rose, and asked

him to sit down, but did not know him. When he told them who he was,

they greeted him warmly, and John Hewson smiled something of the old

smile, but only like it, for it had no 'rays proportionately

delivered' from his mouth over his face.

After a little indifferent chat, Robert said,

'I came through Aberdeen yesterday, John.'

At the very mention of Aberdeen, John's head sunk. He gave no answer,

but sat looking in the fire. His wife rose and went to the other end

of the room, busying herself quietly about the supper. Robert thought

it best to plunge into the matter at once.

'I saw Jessie last nicht,' he said.

Still there was no reply. John's face had grown hard as a stone face,

but Robert thought rather from the determination to govern his

feelings than from resentment.

'She's been doin' weel ever sin' syne,' he added.

Still no word from either; and Robert fearing some outburst of

indignation ere he had said his say, now made haste.

'She's been a servant wi' Dr. Anderson for four year noo, an' he's

sair pleased wi' her. She's a fine woman. But her bairnie's deid, an'

that was a sair blow till her.'

He heard a sob from the mother, but still John made no sign.

'It was a bonnie bairnie as ever ye saw. It luikit in her face, she

says, as gin it kent a' aboot it, and had only come to help her throu

the warst o' 't; for it gaed hame 'maist as sune's ever she was richt

able to thank God for sen'in' her sic an angel to lead her to

repentance.'

'John,' said his wife, coming behind his chair, and laying her hand on

his shoulder, 'what for dinna ye speyk? Ye hear what Maister Faukner

says.--Ye dinna think a thing's clean useless 'cause there may be a

spot upo' 't?' she added, wiping her eyes with her apron.

'A spot upo' 't?' cried John, starting to his feet. 'What ca' ye a

spot?--Wuman, dinna drive me mad to hear ye lichtlie the glory o'

virginity.'

'That's a' verra weel, John,' interposed Robert quietly; 'but there

was ane thocht as muckle o' 't as ye do, an' wad hae been ashamed to

hear ye speak that gait aboot yer ain dauchter'

'I dinna unnerstan' ye,' returned Hewson, looking raised-like at him.

'Dinna ye ken, man, that amo' them 'at kent the Lord best whan he cam

frae haiven to luik efter his ain--to seek and to save, ye ken--amo'

them 'at cam roon aboot him to hearken till 'im, was lasses 'at had

gane the wrang gait a'thegither,--no like your bonnie Jessie 'at fell

but ance. Man, ye're jist like Simon the Pharisee, 'at was sae

scunnert at oor Lord 'cause he loot the wuman 'at was a sinner tak her

wull o' 's feet--the feet 'at they war gaein' to tak their wull o'

efter anither fashion afore lang. He wad hae shawn her the door--Simon

wad--like you, John; but the Lord tuik her pairt. An' lat me tell you,

John--an' I winna beg yer pardon for sayin' 't, for it's God's

trowth--lat me tell you, 'at gin ye gang on that gait ye'll be sidin'

wi' the Pharisee, an' no wi' oor Lord. Ye may lippen to yer wife, ay,

an' to Jessie hersel', that kens better nor eyther o' ye, no to mak

little o' virginity. Faith! they think mair o' 't than ye do, I'm

thinkin', efter a'; only it's no a thing to say muckle aboot. An' it's

no to stan' for a'thing, efter a'.'

Silence followed. John sat down again, and buried his face in his

hands. At length he murmured from between them,

'The lassie's weel?'

'Ay,' answered Robert; and silence followed again.

'What wad ye hae me do?' asked John, lifting his head a little.

'I wad hae ye sen' a kin' word till her. The lassie's hert's jist

longin' efter ye. That's a'. And that's no ower muckle.'

''Deed no,' assented the mother.

John said nothing. But when his visitor rose he bade him a warm

good-night.

When Robert returned to Aberdeen he was the bearer of such a message

as made poor Jessie glad at heart. This was his first experience of

the sort.

When he left the cottage, he did not return to the house, but threaded

the little forest of pines, climbing the hill till he came out on its

bare crown, where nothing grew but heather and blaeberries. There he

threw himself down, and gazed into the heavens. The sun was below the

horizon; all the dazzle was gone out of the gold, and the roses were

fast fading; the downy blue of the sky was trembling into stars over

his head; the brown dusk was gathering in the air; and a wind full of

gentleness and peace came to him from the west. He let his thoughts go

where they would, and they went up into the abyss over his head.

'Lord, come to me,' he cried in his heart, 'for I cannot go to thee.

If I were to go up and up through that awful space for ages and ages,

I should never find thee. Yet there thou art. The tenderness of thy

infinitude looks upon me from those heavens. Thou art in them and in

me. Because thou thinkest, I think. I am thine--all thine. I abandon

myself to thee. Fill me with thyself. When I am full of thee, my

griefs themselves will grow golden in thy sunlight. Thou holdest them

and their cause, and wilt find some nobler atonement between them than

vile forgetfulness and the death of love. Lord, let me help those that

are wretched because they do not know thee. Let me tell them that

thou, the Life, must needs suffer for and with them, that they may be

partakers of thy ineffable peace. My life is hid in thine: take me in

thy hand as Gideon bore the pitcher to the battle. Let me be broken if

need be, that thy light may shine upon the lies which men tell them in

thy name, and which eat away their hearts.'

Having persuaded Shargar to remain with Mrs. Falconer for a few days,

and thus remove the feeling of offence she still cherished because of

his 'munelicht flittin',' he returned to Dr. Anderson, who now

unfolded his plans for him. These were, that he should attend the

medical classes common to the two universities, and at the same time

accompany him in his visits to the poor. He did not at all mean, he

said, to determine Robert's life as that of a medical man, but from

what he had learned of his feelings, he was confident that a knowledge

of medicine would be invaluable to him. I think the good doctor must

have foreseen the kind of life which Falconer would at length choose

to lead, and with true and admirable wisdom, sought to prepare him for

it. However this may be, Robert entertained the proposal gladly, went

into the scheme with his whole heart, and began to widen that

knowledge of and sympathy with the poor which were the foundation of

all his influence over them.

For a time, therefore, he gave a diligent and careful attendance upon

lectures, read sufficiently, took his rounds with Dr. Anderson, and

performed such duties as he delegated to his greater strength. Had the

healing art been far less of an enjoyment to him than it was, he could

yet hardly have failed of great progress therein; but seeing that it

accorded with his best feelings, profoundest theories, and loftiest

hopes, and that he received it as a work given him to do, it is not

surprising that a certain faculty of cure, almost partaking of the

instinctive, should have been rapidly developed in him, to the wonder

and delight of his friend and master.

In this labour he again spent about four years, during which time he

gathered much knowledge of human nature, learning especially to judge

it from no stand-point of his own, but in every individual case to

take a new position whence the nature and history of the man should

appear in true relation to the yet uncompleted result. He who cannot

feel the humanity of his neighbour because he is different from

himself in education, habits, opinions, morals, circumstances,

objects, is unfit, if not unworthy, to aid him.

Within this period Shargar had gone out to India, where he had

distinguished himself particularly on a certain harassing march.

Towards the close of the four years he had leave of absence, and was

on his way home. About the same time Robert, in consequence of a fever

brought on by over-fatigue, was in much need of a holiday; and Dr.

Anderson proposed that he should meet Moray at Southampton.

Shargar had no expectation of seeing him, and his delight, not greater

on that account, broke out more wildly. No thinnest film had grown

over his heart, though in all else he was considerably changed. The

army had done everything that was wanted for his outward show of man.

The drawling walk had vanished, and a firm step and soldierly stride

had taken its place; his bearing was free, yet dignified; his high

descent came out in the ease of his carriage and manners: there could

be no doubt that at last Shargar was a gentleman. His hair had changed

to a kind of red chestnut. His complexion was much darkened with the

Indian sun. His eyes, too, were darker, and no longer rolled slowly

from one object to another, but indicated by their quick glances a

mind ready to observe and as ready to resolve. His whole appearance

was more than prepossessing--it was even striking.

Robert was greatly delighted with the improvement in him, and far more

when he found that his mind's growth had at least kept pace with his

body's change. It would be more correct to say that it had preceded

and occasioned it; for however much the army may be able to do in that

way, it had certainly, in Moray's case, only seconded the law of

inward growth working outward show.

The young men went up to London together, and great was the pleasure

they had in each other's society, after so long a separation in which

their hearts had remained unchanged while their natures had grown both

worthy and capable of more honour and affection. They had both much to

tell; for Robert was naturally open save in regard to his grief; and

Shargar was proud of being able to communicate with Robert from a

nearer level, in virtue of now knowing many things that Robert could

not know. They went together to a hotel in St. Paul's Churchyard.

CHAPTER III.

A MERE GLIMPSE.

AT the close of a fortnight, Falconer thought it time to return to his

duties in Aberdeen. The day before the steamer sailed, they found

themselves, about six o'clock, in Gracechurch Street. It was a fine

summer evening. The street was less crowded than earlier in the

afternoon, although there was a continuous stream of waggons,

omnibuses, and cabs both ways. As they stood on the curbstone, a

little way north of Lombard Street, waiting to cross--

'You see, Shargar,' said Robert, 'Nature will have her way. Not all

the hurry and confusion and roar can keep the shadows out. Look:

wherever a space is for a moment vacant, there falls a shadow, as

grotesque, as strange, as full of unutterable things as any shadow on

a field of grass and daisies.'

'I remember feeling the same kind of thing in India,' returned

Shargar, 'where nothing looked as if it belonged to the world I was

born in, but my own shadow. In such a street as this, however, all the

shadows look as if they belonged to another world, and had no business

here.'

'I quite feel that,' returned Falconer. 'They come like angels from

the lovely west and the pure air, to show that London cannot hurt

them, for it too is within the Kingdom of God--to teach the lovers of

nature, like the old orthodox Jew, St. Peter, that they must not call

anything common or unclean.'

Shargar made no reply, and Robert glanced round at him. He was staring

with wide eyes into, not at the crowd of vehicles that filled the

street. His face was pale, and strangely like the Shargar of old days.

'What's the matter with you?' Robert asked in some bewilderment.

Receiving no answer, he followed Shargar's gaze, and saw a strange

sight for London city.

In the middle of the crowd of vehicles, with an omnibus before them,

and a brewer's dray behind them, came a line of three donkey-carts,

heaped high with bundles and articles of gipsy-gear. The foremost was

conducted by a middle-aged woman of tall, commanding aspect, and

expression both cunning and fierce. She walked by the donkey's head

carrying a short stick, with which she struck him now and then, but

which she oftener waved over his head like the truncheon of an excited

marshal on the battle-field, accompanying its movements now with loud

cries to the animal, now with loud response to the chaff of the

omnibus conductor, the dray driver, and the tradesmen in carts about

her. She was followed by a very handsome, olive-complexioned,

wild-looking young woman, with her black hair done up in a red

handkerchief, who conducted her donkey more quietly. Both seemed as

much at home in the roar of Gracechurch Street as if they had been

crossing a wild common. A loutish-looking young man brought up the

rear with the third donkey. From the bundles on the foremost cart

peeped a lovely, fair-haired, English-looking child.

Robert took all this in in a moment. The same moment Shargar's spell

was broken.

'Lord, it is my mither!' he cried, and darted under a horse's neck

into the middle of the ruck.

He needled his way through till he reached the woman. She was swearing

at a cabman whose wheel had caught the point of her donkey's shaft,

and was hauling him round. Heedless of everything, Shargar threw his

arms about her, crying,

'Mither! mither!'

'Nane o' yer blastit humbug!' she exclaimed, as, with a vigorous throw

and a wriggle, she freed herself from his embrace and pushed him away.

The moment she had him at arm's length, however, her hand closed upon

his arm, and her other hand went up to her brow. From underneath it

her eyes shot up and down him from head to foot, and he could feel her

hand closing and relaxing and closing again, as if she were trying to

force her long nails into his flesh. He stood motionless, waiting the

result of her scrutiny, utterly unconscious that he caused a

congestion in the veins of London, for every vehicle within sight of

the pair had stopped. Falconer said a strange silence fell upon the

street, as if all the things in it had been turned into shadows.

A rough voice, which sounded as if all London must have heard it,

broke the silence. It was the voice of the cabman who had been in

altercation with the woman. Bursting into an insulting laugh, he used

words with regard to her which it is better to leave unrecorded. The

same instant Shargar freed himself from her grasp, and stood by the

fore wheel of the cab.

'Get down!' he said, in a voice that was not the less impressive that

it was low and hoarse.

The fellow saw what he meant, and whipped his horse. Shargar sprung on

the box, and dragged him down all but headlong.

'Now,' he said, 'beg my mother's pardon.'

'Be damned if I do, &c., &c.,' said the cabman.

'Then defend yourself,' said Shargar. 'Robert.'

Falconer was watching it all, and was by his side in a moment.

'Come on, you, &c., &c.,' cried the cabman, plucking up heart and

putting himself in fighting shape. He looked one of those insolent

fellows whom none see discomfited more gladly than the honest men of

his own class. The same moment he lay between his horse's feet.

Shargar turned to Robert, and saying only, 'There, Robert!' turned

again towards the woman. The cabman rose bleeding, and, desiring no

more of the same, climbed on his box, and went off, belabouring his

horse, and pursued by a roar from the street, for the spectators were

delighted at his punishment.

'Now, mother,' said Shargar, panting with excitement.

'What ca' they ye?' she asked, still doubtful, but as proud of being

defended as if the coarse words of her assailant had had no truth in

them. 'Ye canna be my lang-leggit Geordie.'

'What for no?'

'Ye're a gentleman, faith!'

'An' what for no, again?' returned Shargar, beginning to smile.

'Weel, it's weel speired. Yer father was ane ony gait--gin sae be 'at

ye are as ye say.'

Moray put his head close to hers, and whispered some words that nobody

heard but herself.

'It's ower lang syne to min' upo' that,' she said in reply, with a

look of cunning consciousness ill settled upon her fine features. 'But

ye can be naebody but my Geordie. Haith, man!' she went on, regarding

him once more from head to foot, 'but ye're a credit to me, I maun

alloo. Weel, gie me a sovereign, an' I s' never come near ye.'

Poor Shargar in his despair turned half mechanically towards Robert.

He felt that it was time to interfere.

'You forget, mother,' said Shargar, turning again to her, and speaking

English now, 'it was I that claimed you, and not you that claimed me.'

She seemed to have no idea of what he meant.

'Come up the road here, to oor public, an' tak a glaiss, wuman,' said

Falconer. 'Dinna haud the fowk luikin' at ye.'

The temptation of a glass of something strong, and the hope of getting

money out of them, caused an instant acquiescence. She said a few

words to the young woman, who proceeded at once to tie her donkey's

head to the tail of the other cart.

'Shaw the gait than,' said the elder, turning again to Falconer.

Shargar and he led the way to St. Paul's Churchyard, and the woman

followed faithfully. The waiter stared when they entered.

'Bring a glass of whisky,' said Falconer, as he passed on to their

private room. When the whisky arrived, she tossed it off, and looked

as if she would like another glass.

'Yer father 'ill hae ta'en ye up, I'm thinkin', laddie?' she said,

turning to her son.

'No,' answered Shargar, gloomily. 'There's the man that took me up.'

'An' wha may ye be?' she asked, turning to Falconer.

'Mr. Falconer,' said Shargar.

'No a son o' Anerew Faukner?' she asked again, with evident interest.

'The same,' answered Robert.

'Well, Geordie,' she said, turning once more to her son, 'it's like

mither, like father to the twa o' ye.'

'Did you know my father?' asked Robert, eagerly.

Instead of answering him she made another remark to her son.

'He needna be ashamed o' your company, ony gait--queer kin' o' a

mither 'at I am.'

'He never was ashamed of my company,' said Shargar, still gloomily.

'Ay, I kent yer father weel eneuch,' she said, now answering

Robert--'mair by token 'at I saw him last nicht. He was luikin' nae

that ill.'

Robert sprung from his seat, and caught her by the arm.

'Ow! ye needna gang into sic a flurry. He'll no come near ye, I s'

warran'.'

'Tell me where he is,' said Robert. 'Where did you see him? I'll gie

ye a' 'at I hae gin ye'll tak me till him.'

'Hooly! hooly! Wha's to gang luikin' for a thrum in a hay-sow?'

returned she, coolly. 'I only said 'at I saw him.'

'But are ye sure it was him?' asked Falconer.

'Ay, sure eneuch,' she answered.

'What maks ye sae sure?'

''Cause I never was vrang yet. Set a man ance atween my twa een, an'

that 'll be twa 'at kens him whan 's ain mither 's forgotten 'im.'

'Did you speak to him?'

'Maybe ay, an' maybe no. I didna come here to be hecklet afore a

jury.'

'Tell me what he's like,' said Robert, agitated with eager hope.

'Gin ye dinna ken what he's like, what for suld ye tak the trouble to

speir? But 'deed ye'll ken what he's like whan ye fa' in wi' him,' she

added, with a vindictive laugh--vindictive because he had given her

only one glass of strong drink.

With the laugh she rose, and made for the door. They rose at the same

moment to detain her. Like one who knew at once to fight and flee, she

turned and stunned them as with a blow.

'She's a fine yoong thing, yon sister o' yours, Geordie. She'll be

worth siller by the time she's had a while at the schuil.'

The men looked at each other aghast. When they turned their eyes she

had vanished. They rushed to the door, and, parting, searched in both

directions. But they were soon satisfied that it was of no use.

Probably she had found a back way into Paternoster Row, whence the

outlets are numerous.

CHAPTER IV.

THE DOCTOR'S DEATH.

BUT now that Falconer had a ground, even thus shadowy, for hoping--I

cannot say believing--that his father might be in London, he could not

return to Aberdeen. Moray, who had no heart to hunt for his mother,

left the next day by the steamer. Falconer took to wandering about the

labyrinthine city, and in a couple of months knew more about the

metropolis--the west end excepted--than most people who had lived

their lives in it. The west end is no doubt a considerable exception

to make, but Falconer sought only his father, and the west end was the

place where he was least likely to find him. Day and night he wandered

into all sorts of places: the worse they looked the more attractive he

found them. It became almost a craze with him. He could not pass a

dirty court or low-browed archway. He might be there. Or he might have

been there. Or it was such a place as he would choose for shelter. He

knew to what such a life as his must have tended.

At first he was attracted only by tall elderly men. Such a man he

would sometimes follow till his following made him turn and demand his

object. If there was no suspicion of Scotch in his tone, Falconer

easily apologized. If there was, he made such replies as might lead to

some betrayal. He could not defend the course he was adopting: it had

not the shadow of probability upon its side. Still the greatest

successes the world has ever beheld had been at one time the greatest

improbabilities! He could not choose but go on, for as yet he could

think of no other way.

Neither could a man like Falconer long confine his interest to this

immediate object, especially after he had, in following it, found

opportunity of being useful. While he still made it his main object to

find his father, that object became a centre from which radiated a

thousand influences upon those who were as sheep that had no shepherd.

He fell back into his old ways at Aberdeen, only with a boundless

sphere to work in, and with the hope of finding his father to hearten

him. He haunted the streets at night, went into all places of

entertainment, often to the disgust of senses and soul, and made his

way into the lowest forms of life without introduction or protection.

There was a certain stately air of the hills about him which was often

mistaken for country inexperience, and men thought in consequence to

make gain or game of him. But such found their mistake, and if not

soon, then the more completely. Far from provoking or even meeting

hostility, he soon satisfied those that persisted, that it was

dangerous. In two years he became well known to the poor of a large

district, especially on both sides of Shoreditch, for whose sake he

made the exercise of his profession though not an object yet a ready

accident.

He lived in lodgings in John Street--the same in which I found him

when I came to know him. He made few acquaintances, and they were

chiefly the house-surgeons of hospitals--to which he paid frequent

visits.

He always carried a book in his pocket, but did not read much. On

Sundays he generally went to some one of the many lonely heaths or

commons of Surrey with his New Testament. When weary in London, he

would go to the reading-room of the British Museum for an hour or two.

He kept up a regular correspondence with Dr. Anderson.

At length he received a letter from him, which occasioned his

immediate departure for Aberdeen. Until now, his friend, who was

entirely satisfied with his mode of life, and supplied him freely with

money, had not even expressed a wish to recall him, though he had

often spoken of visiting him in London. It now appeared that,

unwilling to cause him any needless anxiety, he had abstained from

mentioning the fact that his health had been declining. He had got

suddenly worse, and Falconer hastened to obey the summons he had sent

him in consequence.

With a heavy heart he walked up to the hospitable door, recalling as

he ascended the steps how he had stood there a helpless youth, in want

of a few pounds to save his hopes, when this friend received him and

bid him God-speed on the path he desired to follow. In a moment more

he was shown into the study, and was passing through it to go to the

cottage-room, when Johnston laid his hand on his arm.

'The maister's no up yet, sir,' he said, with a very solemn look.

'He's been desperate efter seein' ye, and I maun gang an' lat him ken

'at ye're here at last, for fear it suld be ower muckle for him,

seein' ye a' at ance. But eh, sir!' he added, the tears gathering in

his eyes, 'ye'll hardly ken 'im. He's that changed!'

Johnston left the study by the door to the cottage--Falconer had never

known the doctor sleep there--and returning a moment after, invited

him to enter. In the bed in the recess--the room unchanged, with its

deal table, and its sanded floor--lay the form of his friend. Falconer

hastened to the bedside, kneeled down, and took his hand speechless.

The doctor was silent too, but a smile overspread his countenance, and

revealed his inward satisfaction. Robert's heart was full, and he

could only gaze on the worn face. At length he was able to speak.

'What for didna ye sen' for me?' he said. 'Ye never tellt me ye was

ailin'.'

'Because you were doing good, Robert, my boy; and I who had done so

little had no right to interrupt what you were doing. I wonder if God

will give me another chance. I would fain do better. I don't think I

could sit singing psalms to all eternity,' he added with a smile.

'Whatever good I may do afore my turn comes, I hae you to thank for

't. Eh, doctor, gin it hadna been for you!'

Robert's feelings overcame him. He resumed, brokenly,

'Ye gae me a man to believe in, whan my ain father had forsaken me,

and my frien' was awa to God. Ye hae made me, doctor. Wi' meat an'

drink an' learnin' an' siller, an' a'thing at ance, ye hae made me.'

'Eh, Robert!' said the dying man, half rising on his elbow, 'to think

what God maks us a' to ane anither! My father did ten times for me

what I hae dune for you. As I lie here thinkin' I may see him afore a

week's ower, I'm jist a bairn again.'

As he spoke, the polish of his speech was gone, and the social

refinement of his countenance with it. The face of his ancestors, the

noble, sensitive, heart-full, but rugged, bucolic, and weather-beaten

through centuries of windy ploughing, hail-stormed sheep-keeping,

long-paced seed-sowing, and multiform labour, surely not less

honourable in the sight of the working God than the fighting of the

noble, came back in the face of the dying physician. From that hour to

his death he spoke the rugged dialect of his fathers.

A day or two after this, Robert again sitting by his bedside,

'I dinna ken,' he said, 'whether it's richt--but I hae nae fear o'

deith, an' yet I canna say I'm sure aboot onything. I hae seen mony a

ane dee that cud hae no faith i' the Saviour; but I never saw that

fear that some gude fowk wud hae ye believe maun come at the last. I

wadna like to tak to ony papistry; but I never cud mak oot frae the

Bible--and I read mair at it i' the jungle than maybe ye wad

think--that it's a' ower wi' a body at their deith. I never heard them

bring foret ony text but ane--the maist ridiculous hash 'at ever ye

heard--to justifee 't.'

'I ken the text ye mean--"As the tree falleth so it shall lie," or

something like that--'at they say King Solomon wrote, though better

scholars say his tree had fa'en mony a lang year afore that text saw

the licht. I dinna believe sic a thocht was i' the man's heid when he

wrote it. It is as ye say--ower contemptible to ca' an argument. I'll

read it to ye ance mair.'

Robert got his Bible, and read the following portion from that

wonderful book, so little understood, because it is so full of

wisdom--the Book of Ecclesiastes:--

'Cast thy bread upon the waters: for thou shalt find it after many

days.

'Give a portion to seven, and also to eight; for thou knowest not what

evil shall be upon the earth.

'If the clouds be full of rain, they empty themselves upon the earth:

and if the tree fall toward the south, or toward the north, in the

place where the tree falleth, there it shall be.

'He that observeth the wind shall not sow; and he that regardeth the

clouds shall not reap.

'As thou knowest not what is the way of the spirit, nor how the bones

do grow in the womb of her that is with child: even so thou knowest

not the works of God who maketh all.

'In the morning sow thy seed, and in the evening withhold not thine

hand: for thou knowest not whether shall prosper, either this or that,

or whether they both shall be alike good.'

'Ay, ay; that's it,' said Dr. Anderson. 'Weel, I maun say again that

they're ill aff for an argument that taks that for ane upo' sic a

momentous subjec'. I prefer to say, wi' the same auld man, that I know

not the works of God who maketh all. But I wish I could say I believed

onything for certain sure. But whan I think aboot it--wad ye believe

't? the faith o' my father's mair to me nor ony faith o' my ain. That

soonds strange. But it's this: I'm positeeve that that godly great

auld man kent mair aboot a' thae things--I cud see 't i' the face o'

'm--nor ony ither man 'at ever I kent. An' it's no by comparison only.

I'm sure he did ken. There was something atween God and him. An' I

think he wasna likely to be wrang; an' sae I tak courage to believe as

muckle as I can, though maybe no sae muckle as I fain wad.'

Robert, who from experience of himself, and the observations he had

made by the bedsides of not a few dying men and women, knew well that

nothing but the truth itself can carry its own conviction; that the

words of our Lord are a body as it were in which the spirit of our

Lord dwells, or rather the key to open the heart for the entrance of

that spirit, turned now from all argumentation to the words of Jesus.

He himself had said of them, 'They are spirit and they are life;' and

what folly to buttress life and spirit with other powers than their

own! From that day to the last, as often and as long as the dying man

was able to listen to him, he read from the glad news just the words

of the Lord. As he read thus, one fading afternoon, the doctor broke

out with,

'Eh, Robert, the patience o' him! He didna quench the smokin' flax.

There's little fire aboot me, but surely I ken in my ain hert some o'

the risin' smoke o' the sacrifice. Eh! sic words as they are! An' he

was gaein' doon to the grave himsel', no half my age, as peacefu',

though the road was sae rouch, as gin he had been gaein' hame till 's

father.'

'Sae he was,' returned Robert.

'Ay; but here am I lyin' upo' my bed, slippin' easy awa. An' there was

he--'

The old man ceased. The sacred story was too sacred for speech. Robert

sat with the New Testament open before him on the bed.

'The mair the words o' Jesus come into me,' the doctor began again,

'the surer I am o' seein' my auld Brahmin frien', Robert. It's true I

thought his religion not only began but ended inside him. It was a' a

booin' doon afore and an aspirin' up into the bosom o' the infinite

God. I dinna mean to say 'at he wasna honourable to them aboot him.

And I never saw in him muckle o' that pride to the lave (rest) that

belangs to the Brahmin. It was raither a stately kin'ness than that

condescension which is the vice o' Christians. But he had naething to

do wi' them. The first comman'ment was a' he kent. He loved God--nae a

God like Jesus Christ, but the God he kent--and that was a' he could.

The second comman'ment--that glorious recognition o' the divine in

humanity makin' 't fit and needfu' to be loved, that claim o' God upon

and for his ain bairns, that love o' the neebour as yer'sel--he didna

ken. Still there was religion in him; and he who died for the sins o'

the whole world has surely been revealed to him lang er' noo, and

throu the knowledge o' him, he noo dwalls in that God efter whom he

aspired.'

Here was the outcome of many talks which Robert and the doctor had had

together, as they laboured amongst the poor.

'Did ye never try,' Robert asked, 'to lat him ken aboot the comin' o'

God to his world in Jesus Christ?'

'I couldna do muckle that way honestly, my ain faith was sae poor and

sma'. But I tellt him what Christians believed. I tellt him aboot the

character and history o' Christ. But it didna seem to tak muckle hauld

o' him. It wasna interesstin' till him. Just ance whan I tellt him

some things he had said aboot his relation to God--sic as, "I and my

Father are one,"--and aboot the relation o' a' his disciples to God

and himsel'--"I in them, and thou in me, that they may be made perfect

in one," he said, wi' a smile, "The man was a good Brahmin."

'It's little,' said Robert, 'the one great commandment can do withoot

the other. It's little we can ken what God to love, or hoo to love

him, withoot "thy neighbour as thyself." Ony ane o' them withoot the

ither stan's like the ae factor o' a multiplication, or ae wing upo' a

laverock (lark).'

Towards the close of the week, he grew much feebler. Falconer scarcely

left his room. He woke one midnight, and murmured as follows, with

many pauses for breath and strength:

'Robert, my time's near, I'm thinkin'; for, wakin' an' sleepin', I'm a

bairn again. I can hardly believe whiles 'at my father hasna a grup o'

my han'. A meenute ago I was traivellin' throu a terrible driftin' o'

snaw--eh, hoo it whustled and sang! and the cauld o' 't was stingin';

but my father had a grup o' me, an' I jist despised it, an' was

stampin' 't doon wi' my wee bit feet, for I was like saven year auld

or thereaboots. An' syne I thocht I heard my mither singin', and kent

by that that the ither was a dream. I'm thinkin' a hantle 'ill luik

dreamy afore lang. Eh! I wonner what the final waukin' 'ill be like.'

After a pause he resumed,

'Robert, my dear boy, ye're i' the richt gait. Haud on an' lat

naething turn ye aside. Man, it's a great comfort to me to think that

ye're my ain flesh and blude, an' nae that far aff. My father an' your

great-gran'father upo' the gran'mither's side war ain brithers. I

wonner hoo far doon it wad gang. Ye're the only ane upo' my father's

side, you and yer father, gin he be alive, that I hae sib to me. My

will's i' the bottom drawer upo' the left han' i' my writin' table i'

the leebrary:--I hae left ye ilka plack 'at I possess. Only there's ae

thing that I want ye to do. First o' a', ye maun gang on as yer doin'

in London for ten year mair. Gin deein' men hae ony o' that foresicht

that's been attreebuted to them in a' ages, it's borne in upo' me that

ye wull see yer father again. At a' events, ye'll be helpin' some

ill-faured sowls to a clean face and a bonny. But gin ye dinna fa' in

wi' yer father within ten year, ye maun behaud a wee, an' jist pack up

yer box, an' gang awa' ower the sea to Calcutta, an' du what I hae

tellt ye to do i' that wull. I bind ye by nae promise, Robert, an' I

winna hae nane. Things micht happen to put ye in a terrible difficulty

wi' a promise. I'm only tellin' ye what I wad like. Especially gin ye

hae fund yer father, ye maun gang by yer ain jeedgment aboot it, for

there 'll be a hantle to do wi' him efter ye hae gotten a grup o' 'im.

An' noo, I maun lie still, an' maybe sleep again, for I hae spoken

ower muckle.'

Hoping that he would sleep and wake yet again, Robert sat still. After

an hour, he looked, and saw that, although hitherto much oppressed, he

was now breathing like a child. There was no sign save of past

suffering: his countenance was peaceful as if he had already entered

into his rest. Robert withdrew, and again seated himself. And the

great universe became to him as a bird brooding over the breaking

shell of the dying man.

On either hand we behold a birth, of which, as of the moon, we see but

half. We are outside the one, waiting for a life from the unknown; we

are inside the other, watching the departure of a spirit from the womb

of the world into the unknown. To the region whither he goes, the man

enters newly born. We forget that it is a birth, and call it a death.

The body he leaves behind is but the placenta by which he drew his

nourishment from his mother Earth. And as the child-bed is watched on

earth with anxious expectancy, so the couch of the dying, as we call

them, may be surrounded by the birth-watchers of the other world,

waiting like anxious servants to open the door to which this world is

but the wind-blown porch.

Extremes meet. As a man draws nigh to his second birth, his heart

looks back to his childhood. When Dr. Anderson knew that he was dying,

he retired into the simulacrum of his father's benn end.

As Falconer sat thinking, the doctor spoke. They were low, faint,

murmurous sounds, for the lips were nearly at rest. Wanted no more for

utterance, they were going back to the holy dust, which is God's yet.

'Father, father!' he cried quickly, in the tone and speech of a Scotch

laddie, 'I'm gaein' doon. Haud a grup o' my han'.'

When Robert hurried to the bedside, he found that the last breath had

gone in the words. The thin right hand lay partly closed, as if it had

been grasping a larger hand. On the face lay confidence just ruffled

with apprehension: the latter melted away, and nothing remained but

that awful and beautiful peace which is the farewell of the soul to

its servant.

Robert knelt and thanked God for the noble man.

CHAPTER V.

A TALK WITH GRANNIE.

DR. ANDERSON'S body was, according to the fine custom of many of the

people of Aberdeen, borne to the grave by twelve stalwart men in

black, with broad round bonnets on their heads, the one-half relieving

the other--a privilege of the company of shore-porters. Their exequies

are thus freed from the artificial, grotesque, and pagan horror given

by obscene mutes, frightful hearse, horses, and feathers. As soon as,

in the beautiful phrase of the Old Testament, John Anderson was thus

gathered to his fathers, Robert went to pay a visit to his

grandmother.

Dressed to a point in the same costume in which he had known her from

childhood, he found her little altered in appearance. She was one of

those who instead of stooping with age, settle downwards: she was

still as erect as ever, though shorter. Her step was feebler, and when

she prayed, her voice quavered more. On her face sat the same settled,

almost hard repose, as ever; but her behaviour was still more gentle

than when he had seen her last. Notwithstanding, however, that time

had wrought so little change in her appearance, Robert felt that

somehow the mist of a separation between her world and his was

gathering; that she was, as it were, fading from his sight and

presence, like the moon towards 'her interlunar cave.' Her face was

gradually turning from him towards the land of light.

'I hae buried my best frien' but yersel', grannie,' he said, as he

took a chair close by her side, where he used to sit when he read the

Bible and Boston to her.

'I trust he's happy. He was a douce and a weel-behaved man; and ye hae

rizzon to respec' his memory. Did he dee the deith o' the richteous,

think ye, laddie?'

'I do think that, grannie. He loved God and his Saviour.'

'The Lord be praised!' said Mrs. Falconer. 'I had guid houps o' 'im in

's latter days. And fowk says he's made a rich man o' ye, Robert?'

'He's left me ilka thing, excep' something till 's servan's--wha hae

weel deserved it.'

'Eh, Robert! but it's a terrible snare. Siller 's an awfu' thing. My

puir Anerew never begud to gang the ill gait, till he began to hae

ower muckle siller. But it badena lang wi' 'im.'

'But it's no an ill thing itsel', grannie; for God made siller as weel

's ither things.'

'He thinksna muckle o' 't, though, or he wad gie mair o' 't to some

fowk. But as ye say, it's his, and gin ye hae grace to use 't aricht,

it may be made a great blessin' to yersel' and ither fowk. But eh,

laddie! tak guid tent 'at ye ride upo' the tap o' 't, an' no lat it

rise like a muckle jaw (billow) ower yer heid; for it's an awfu' thing

to be droont in riches.'

'Them 'at prays no to be led into temptation hae a chance--haena they,

grannie?'

'That hae they, Robert. And to be plain wi' ye, I haena that muckle

fear o' ye; for I hae heard the kin' o' life 'at ye hae been leadin'.

God's hearkent to my prayers for you; and gin ye gang on as ye hae

begun, my prayers, like them o' David the son o' Jesse, are endit.

Gang on, my dear lad, gang on to pluck brands frae the burnin'. Haud

oot a helpin' han' to ilka son and dauchter o' Adam 'at will tak a

grip o' 't. Be a burnin' an' a shinin' licht, that men may praise, no

you, for ye're but clay i' the han's o' the potter, but yer Father in

heaven. Tak the drunkard frae his whusky, the deboshed frae his

debosh, the sweirer frae his aiths, the leear frae his lees; and giena

ony o' them ower muckle o' yer siller at ance, for fear 'at they grow

fat an' kick an' defy God and you. That's my advice to ye, Robert.'

'And I houp I'll be able to haud gey and near till 't, grannie, for

it's o' the best. But wha tellt ye what I was aboot in Lonnon?'

'Himsel'.'

'Dr. Anderson?'

'Ay, jist himsel'. I hae had letter upo' letter frae 'im aboot you and

a' 'at ye was aboot. He keepit me acquant wi' 't a'.'

This fresh proof of his friend's affection touched Robert deeply. He

had himself written often to his grandmother, but he had never entered

into any detail of his doings, although the thought of her was ever at

hand beside the thought of his father.

'Do ye ken, grannie, what's at the hert o' my houps i' the meesery an'

degradation that I see frae mornin' to nicht, and aftener yet frae

nicht to mornin' i' the back closes and wynds o' the great city?'

'I trust it's the glory o' God, laddie.'

'I houp that's no a'thegither wantin', grannie. For I love God wi' a'

my hert. But I doobt it's aftener the savin' o' my earthly father nor

the glory o' my heavenly ane that I'm thinkin' o'.'

Mrs. Falconer heaved a deep sigh.

'God grant ye success, Robert,' she said. 'But that canna be richt.'

'What canna be richt?'

'No to put the glory o' God first and foremost.'

'Weel, grannie; but a body canna rise to the heicht o' grace a' at

ance, nor yet in ten, or twenty year. Maybe gin I do richt, I may be

able to come to that or a' be dune. An' efter a', I'm sure I love God

mair nor my father. But I canna help thinkin' this, that gin God

heardna ae sang o' glory frae this ill-doin' earth o' his, he wadna be

nane the waur; but--'

'Hoo ken ye that?' interrupted his grandmother.

'Because he wad be as gude and great and grand as ever.'

'Ow ay.'

'But what wad come o' my father wantin' his salvation? He can waur

want that, remainin' the slave o' iniquity, than God can want his

glory. Forby, ye ken there's nae glory to God like the repentin' o' a

sinner, justifeein' God, an' sayin' till him--"Father, ye're a' richt,

an' I'm a' wrang." What greater glory can God hae nor that?'

'It's a' true 'at ye say. But still gin God cares for that same glory,

ye oucht to think o' that first, afore even the salvation o' yer

father.'

'Maybe ye're richt, grannie. An' gin it be as ye say--he's promised to

lead us into a' trowth, an' he'll lead me into that trowth. But I'm

thinkin' it's mair for oor sakes than his ain 'at he cares aboot his

glory. I dinna believe 'at he thinks aboot his glory excep' for the

sake o' the trowth an' men's herts deein' for want o' 't.'

Mrs. Falconer thought for a moment.

'It may be 'at ye're richt, laddie; but ye hae a way o' sayin' things

'at 's some fearsome.'

'God's nae like a prood man to tak offence, grannie. There's naething

pleases him like the trowth, an' there's naething displeases him like

leein', particularly whan it's by way o' uphaudin' him. He wants nae

sic uphaudin'. Noo, ye say things aboot him whiles 'at soun's to me

fearsome.'

'What kin' o' things are they, laddie?' asked the old lady, with

offence glooming in the background.

'Sic like as whan ye speyk aboot him as gin he was a puir prood

bailey-like body, fu' o' his ain importance, an' ready to be doon upo'

onybody 'at didna ca' him by the name o' 's office--ay think-thinkin'

aboot 's ain glory; in place o' the quaiet, michty, gran',

self-forgettin', a'-creatin', a'-uphaudin', eternal bein', wha took

the form o' man in Christ Jesus, jist that he micht hae 't in 's pooer

to beir and be humblet for oor sakes. Eh, grannie! think o' the face

o' that man o' sorrows, that never said a hard word till a sinfu'

wuman, or a despised publican: was he thinkin' aboot 's ain glory,

think ye? An' we hae no richt to say we ken God save in the face o'

Christ Jesus. Whatever 's no like Christ is no like God.'

'But, laddie, he cam to saitisfee God's justice by sufferin' the

punishment due to oor sins; to turn aside his wrath an' curse; to

reconcile him to us. Sae he cudna be a'thegither like God.'

'He did naething o' the kin', grannie. It's a' a lee that. He cam to

saitisfee God's justice by giein' him back his bairns; by garrin' them

see that God was just; by sendin' them greetin' hame to fa' at his

feet, an' grip his knees an' say, "Father, ye're i' the richt." He cam

to lift the weicht o' the sins that God had curst aff o' the shoothers

o' them 'at did them, by makin' them turn agen them, an' be for God

an' no for sin. And there isna a word o' reconceelin' God till 's in

a' the Testament, for there was no need o' that: it was us that he

needed to be reconcilet to him. An' sae he bore oor sins and carried

oor sorrows; for those sins comin' oot in the multitudes--ay and in

his ain disciples as weel, caused him no en' o' grief o' mind an' pain

o' body, as a'body kens. It wasna his ain sins, for he had nane, but

oors, that caused him sufferin'; and he took them awa'--they're

vainishin' even noo frae the earth, though it doesna luik like it in

Rag-fair or Petticoat-lane. An' for oor sorrows--they jist garred him

greit. His richteousness jist annihilates oor guilt, for it's a great

gulf that swallows up and destroys 't. And sae he gae his life a

ransom for us: and he is the life o' the world. He took oor sins upo'

him, for he cam into the middle o' them an' took them up--by no

sleicht o' han', by no quibblin' o' the lawyers, aboot imputin' his

richteousness to us, and sic like, which is no to be found i' the

Bible at a', though I dinna say that there's no possible meanin' i'

the phrase, but he took them and took them awa'; and here am I,

grannie, growin' oot o' my sins in consequennce, and there are ye,

grannie, growin' oot o' yours in consequennce, an' haein' nearhan'

dune wi' them a'thegither er this time.'

'I wis that may be true, laddie. But I carena hoo ye put it,' returned

his grandmother, bewildered no doubt with this outburst, 'sae be that

ye put him first an' last an' i' the mids' o' a' thing, an' say wi' a'

yer hert, "His will be dune!"'

'Wi' a' my hert, "His will be dune," grannie,' responded Robert.

'Amen, amen. And noo, laddie, duv ye think there's ony likliheid that

yer father 's still i' the body? I dream aboot him whiles sae lifelike

that I canna believe him deid. But that's a' freits (superstitions).'

'Weel, grannie, I haena the least assurance. But I hae the mair houp.

Wad ye ken him gin ye saw him?'

'Ken him!' she cried; 'I wad ken him gin he had been no to say four,

but forty days i' the sepulchre! My ain Anerew! Hoo cud ye speir sic a

queston, laddie?'

'He maun be sair changed, grannie. He maun be turnin' auld by this

time.'

'Auld! Sic like 's yersel, laddie.--Hoots, hoots! ye're richt. I am

forgettin'. But nanetheless wad I ken him.'

'I wis I kent what he was like. I saw him ance--hardly twise, but a'

that I min' upo' wad stan' me in ill stead amo' the streets o'

Lonnon.'

'I doobt that,' returned Mrs. Falconer--a form of expression rather

oddly indicating sympathetic and somewhat regretful agreement with

what has been said. 'But,' she went on, 'I can lat ye see a pictur' o'

'im, though I doobt it winna shaw sae muckle to you as to me. He had

it paintit to gie to yer mother upo' their weddin' day. Och hone! She

did the like for him; but what cam o' that ane, I dinna ken.'

Mrs. Falconer went into the little closet to the old bureau, and

bringing out the miniature, gave it to Robert. It was the portrait of

a young man in antiquated blue coat and white waistcoat, looking

innocent, and, it must be confessed, dull and uninteresting. It had

been painted by a travelling artist, and probably his skill did not

reach to expression. It brought to Robert's mind no faintest shadow of

recollection. It did not correspond in the smallest degree to what

seemed his vague memory, perhaps half imagination, of the tall worn

man whom he had seen that Sunday. He could not have a hope that this

would give him the slightest aid in finding him of whom it had once

been a shadowy resemblance at least.

'Is 't like him, grannie?' he asked.

As if to satisfy herself once more ere she replied, she took the

miniature, and gazed at it for some time. Then with a deep hopeless

sigh, she answered,

'Ay, it's like him; but it's no himsel'. Eh, the bonny broo, an' the

smilin' een o' him!--smilin' upon a'body, an' upo' her maist o' a',

till he took to the drink, and waur gin waur can be. It was a' siller

an' company--company 'at cudna be merry ohn drunken. Verity their

lauchter was like the cracklin' o' thorns aneath a pot. Het watter and

whusky was aye the cry efter their denner an' efter their supper, till

my puir Anerew tuik till the bare whusky i' the mornin' to fill the

ebb o' the toddy. He wad never hae dune as he did but for the whusky.

It jist drave oot a' gude and loot in a' ill.'

'Wull ye lat me tak this wi' me, grannie?' said Robert; for though the

portrait was useless for identification, it might serve a further

purpose.

'Ow, ay, tak it. I dinna want it. I can see him weel wantin' that. But

I hae nae houp left 'at ye'll ever fa' in wi' him.'

'God's aye doin' unlikly things, grannie,' said Robert, solemnly.

'He's dune a' 'at he can for him, I doobt, already.'

'Duv ye think 'at God cudna save a man gin he liket, than, grannie?'

'God can do a'thing. There's nae doobt but by the gift o' his speerit

he cud save a'body.'

'An' ye think he's no mercifu' eneuch to do 't?'

'It winna do to meddle wi' fowk's free wull. To gar fowk he gude wad

be nae gudeness.'

'But gin God could actually create the free wull, dinna ye think he

cud help it to gang richt, withoot ony garrin'? We ken sae little

aboot it, grannie! Hoo does his speerit help onybody? Does he gar them

'at accep's the offer o' salvation?'

'Na, I canna think that. But he shaws them the trowth in sic a way

that they jist canna bide themsel's, but maun turn to him for verra

peace an' rist.'

'Weel, that's something as I think. An' until I'm sure that a man has

had the trowth shawn till him in sic a way 's that, I canna alloo

mysel' to think that hooever he may hae sinned, he has finally

rejeckit the trowth. Gin I kent that a man had seen the trowth as I

hae seen 't whiles, and had deleeberately turned his back upo' 't and

said, "I'll nane o' 't," than I doobt I wad be maist compelled to

alloo that there was nae mair salvation for him, but a certain and

fearfu' luikin' for o' judgment and fiery indignation. But I dinna

believe that ever man did sae. But even than, I dinna ken.'

'I did a' for him that I kent hoo to do,' said Mrs. Falconer,

reflectingly. 'Nicht an' mornin' an' aften midday prayin' for an' wi'

him.'

'Maybe ye scunnert him at it, grannie.'

She gave a stifled cry of despair.

'Dinna say that, laddie, or ye'll drive me oot o' my min'. God forgie

me, gin that be true. I deserve hell mair nor my Anerew.'

'But, ye see, grannie, supposin' it war sae, that wadna be laid to

your accoont, seein' ye did the best ye kent. Nor wad it be forgotten

to him. It wad mak a hantle difference to his sin; it wad be a great

excuse for him. An' jist think, gin it be fair for ae human being to

influence anither a' 'at they can, and that's nae interferin' wi'

their free wull--it's impossible to measure what God cud do wi' his

speerit winnin' at them frae a' sides, and able to put sic thouchts

an' sic pictures into them as we canna think. It wad a' be true that

he tellt them, and the trowth can never be a meddlin' wi' the free

wull.'

Mrs. Falconer made no reply, but evidently went on thinking.

She was, though not a great reader, yet a good reader. Any book that

was devout and thoughtful she read gladly. Through some one or other

of this sort she must have been instructed concerning free will, for I

do not think such notions could have formed any portion of the

religious teaching she had heard. Men in that part of Scotland then

believed that the free will of man was only exercised in

rejecting--never in accepting the truth; and that men were saved by

the gift of the Spirit, given to some and not to others, according to

the free will of God, in the exercise of which no reason appreciable

by men, or having anything to do with their notions of love or

justice, had any share. In the recognition of will and choice in the

acceptance of the mercy of God, Mrs. Falconer was then in advance of

her time. And it is no wonder if her notions did not all hang

logically together.

'At ony rate, grannie,' resumed her grandson, 'I haena dune a' for him

'at I can yet; and I'm no gaein' to believe onything that wad mak me

remiss in my endeavour. Houp for mysel', for my father, for a'body, is

what's savin' me, an' garrin' me work. An' gin ye tell me that I'm no

workin' wi' God, that God's no the best an' the greatest worker aboon

a', ye tak the verra hert oot o' my breist, and I dinna believe in God

nae mair, an' my han's drap doon by my sides, an' my legs winna gang.

No,' said Robert, rising, 'God 'ill gie me my father sometime,

grannie; for what man can do wantin' a father? Human bein' canna win

at the hert o' things, canna ken a' the oots an' ins, a' the sides o'

love, excep' he has a father amo' the lave to love; an' I hae had

nane, grannie. An' that God kens.'

She made him no answer. She dared not say that he expected too much

from God. Is it likely that Jesus will say so of any man or woman when

he looks for faith in the earth?

Robert went out to see some of his old friends, and when he returned

it was time for supper and worship. These were the same as of old: a

plate of porridge, and a wooden bowl of milk for the former; a chapter

and a hymn, both read, and a prayer from grannie, and then from Robert

for the latter. And so they went to bed.

But Robert could not sleep. He rose and dressed himself, went up to

the empty garret, looked at the stars through the skylight, knelt and

prayed for his father and for all men to the Father of all, then

softly descended the stairs, and went out into the street.

CHAPTER VI.

SHARGAR'S MOTHER.

IT was a warm still night in July--moonless but not dark. There is no

night there in the summer--only a long ethereal twilight. He walked

through the sleeping town so full of memories, all quiet in his mind

now--quiet as the air that ever broods over the house where a friend

has dwelt. He left the town behind, and walked--through the odours of

grass and of clover and of the yellow flowers on the old earthwalls

that divided the fields--sweet scents to which the darkness is

friendly, and which, mingling with the smell of the earth itself,

reach the founts of memory sooner than even words or tones--down to

the brink of the river that flowed scarcely murmuring through the

night, itself dark and brown as the night from its far-off birthplace

in the peaty hills. He crossed the footbridge and turned into the

bleachfield. Its houses were desolate, for that trade too had died

away. The machinery stood rotting and rusting. The wheel gave no

answering motion to the flow of the water that glided away beneath it.

The thundering beatles were still. The huge legs of the wauk-mill took

no more seven-leagued strides nowhither. The rubbing-boards with their

thickly-fluted surfaces no longer frothed the soap from every side,

tormenting the web of linen into a brightness to gladden the heart of

the housewife whose hands had spun the yarn. The terrible boiler that

used to send up from its depths bubbling and boiling spouts and peaks

and ridges, lay empty and cold. The little house behind, where its

awful furnace used to glow, and which the pungent chlorine used to

fill with its fumes, stood open to the wind and the rain: he could see

the slow river through its unglazed window beyond. The water still

went slipping and sliding through the deserted places, a power whose

use had departed. The canal, the delight of his childhood, was nearly

choked with weeds; it went flowing over long grasses that drooped into

it from its edges, giving a faint gurgle once and again in its flow,

as if it feared to speak in the presence of the stars, and escaped

silently into the river far below. The grass was no longer mown like a

lawn, but was long and deep and thick. He climbed to the place where

he had once lain and listened to the sounds of the belt of fir-trees

behind him, hearing the voice of Nature that whispered God in his

ears, and there he threw himself down once more. All the old things,

the old ways, the old glories of childhood--were they gone? No. Over

them all, in them all, was God still. There is no past with him. An

eternal present, He filled his soul and all that his soul had ever

filled. His history was taken up into God: it had not vanished: his

life was hid with Christ in God. To the God of the human heart nothing

that has ever been a joy, a grief, a passing interest, can ever cease

to be what it has been; there is no fading at the breath of time, no

passing away of fashion, no dimming of old memories in the heart of

him whose being creates time. Falconer's heart rose up to him as to

his own deeper life, his indwelling deepest spirit--above and beyond

him as the heavens are above and beyond the earth, and yet nearer and

homelier than his own most familiar thought. 'As the light fills the

earth,' thought he, 'so God fills what we call life. My sorrows, O

God, my hopes, my joys, the upliftings of my life are with thee, my

root, my life. Thy comfortings, my perfect God, are strength indeed!'

He rose and looked around him. While he lay, the waning, fading moon

had risen, weak and bleared and dull. She brightened and brightened

until at last she lighted up the night with a wan, forgetful gleam.

'So should I feel,' he thought, 'about the past on which I am now

gazing, were it not that I believe in the God who forgets nothing.

That which has been, is.' His eye fell on something bright in the

field beyond. He would see what it was, and crossed the earthen dyke.

It shone like a little moon in the grass. By humouring the reflection

he reached it. It was only a cutting of white iron, left by some

tinker. He walked on over the field, thinking of Shargar's mother. If

he could but find her! He walked on and on. He had no inclination to

go home. The solitariness of the night, the uncanniness of the moon,

prevents most people from wandering far: Robert had learned long ago

to love the night, and to feel at home with every aspect of God's

world. How this peace contrasted with the nights in London streets!

this grass with the dark flow of the Thames! these hills and those

clouds half melted into moonlight with the lanes blazing with gas! He

thought of the child who, taken from London for the first time, sent

home the message: 'Tell mother that it's dark in the country at

night.' Then his thoughts turned again to Shargar's mother! Was it not

possible, being a wanderer far and wide, that she might be now in

Rothieden? Such people have a love for their old haunts, stronger than

that of orderly members of society for their old homes. He turned

back, and did not know where he was. But the lines of the hill-tops

directed him. He hastened to the town, and went straight through the

sleeping streets to the back wynd where he had found Shargar sitting

on the doorstep. Could he believe his eyes? A feeble light was burning

in the shed. Some other poverty-stricken bird of the night, however,

might be there, and not she who could perhaps guide him to the goal of

his earthly life. He drew near, and peeped in at the broken window. A

heap of something lay in a corner, watched only by a long-snuffed

candle.

The heap moved, and a voice called out querulously,

'Is that you, Shargar, ye shochlin deevil?'

Falconer's heart leaped. He hesitated no longer, but lifted the latch

and entered. He took up the candle, snuffed it as he best could, and

approached the woman. When the light fell on her face she sat up,

staring wildly with eyes that shunned and sought it.

'Wha are ye that winna lat me dee in peace and quaietness?'

'I'm Robert Falconer.'

'Come to speir efter yer ne'er-do-weel o' a father, I reckon,' she

said.

'Yes,' he answered.

'Wha's that ahin' ye?'

'Naebody's ahin' me,' answered Robert.

'Dinna lee. Wha's that ahin' the door?'

'Naebody. I never tell lees.'

'Whaur's Shargar? What for doesna he come till 's mither?'

'He's hynd awa' ower the seas--a captain o' sodgers.'

'It's a lee. He's an ill-faured scoonrel no to come till 's mither an'

bid her gude-bye, an' her gaein' to hell.'

'Gin ye speir at Christ, he'll tak ye oot o' the verra mou' o' hell,

wuman.'

'Christ! wha's that? Ow, ay! It's him 'at they preach aboot i' the

kirks. Na, na. There's nae gude o' that. There's nae time to repent

noo. I doobt sic repentance as mine wadna gang for muckle wi' the

likes o' him.'

'The likes o' him 's no to be gotten. He cam to save the likes o' you

an' me.'

'The likes o' you an' me! said ye, laddie? There's no like atween you

and me. He'll hae naething to say to me, but gang to hell wi' ye for a

bitch.'

'He never said sic a word in 's life. He wad say, "Poor thing! she was

ill-used. Ye maunna sin ony mair. Come, and I'll help ye." He wad say

something like that. He'll save a body whan she wadna think it.'

'An' I hae gien my bonnie bairn to the deevil wi' my ain han's! She'll

come to hell efter me to girn at me, an' set them on me wi' their reid

het taings, and curse me. Och hone! och hone!'

'Hearken to me,' said Falconer, with as much authority as he could

assume. But she rolled herself over again in the corner, and lay

groaning.

'Tell me whaur she is,' said Falconer, 'and I'll tak her oot o' their

grup, whaever they be.'

She sat up again, and stared at him for a few moments without

speaking.

'I left her wi' a wuman waur nor mysel',' she said at length. 'God

forgie me.'

'He will forgie ye, gin ye tell me whaur she is.'

'Do ye think he will? Eh, Maister Faukner! The wuman bides in a coort

off o' Clare Market. I dinna min' upo' the name o' 't, though I cud

gang till 't wi' my een steekit. Her name's Widow Walker--an auld

rowdie--damn her sowl!'

'Na, na, ye maunna say that gin ye want to be forgien yersel'. I'll

fin' her oot. An' I'm thinkin' it winna be lang or I hae a grup o'

her. I'm gaein' back to Lonnon in twa days or three.'

'Dinna gang till I'm deid. Bide an' haud the deevil aff o' me. He has

a grup o' my hert noo, rivin' at it wi' his lang nails--as lang 's

birds' nebs.'

'I'll bide wi' ye till we see what can be dune for ye. What's the

maitter wi' ye? I'm a doctor noo.'

There was not a chair or box or stool on which to sit down. He

therefore kneeled beside her. He felt her pulse, questioned her, and

learned that she had long been suffering from an internal complaint,

which had within the last week grown rapidly worse. He saw that there

was no hope of her recovery, but while she lived he gave himself to

her service as to that of a living soul capable of justice and love.

The night was more than warm, but she had fits of shivering. He

wrapped his coat round her, and wiped from the poor degraded face the

damps of suffering. The woman-heart was alive still, for she took the

hand that ministered to her and kissed it with a moan. When the

morning came she fell asleep. He crept out and went to his

grandmother's, where he roused Betty, and asked her to get him some

peat and coals. Finding his grandmother awake, he told her all, and

taking the coals and the peat, carried them to the hut, where he

managed, with some difficulty, to light a fire on the hearth; after

which he sat on the doorstep till Betty appeared with two men carrying

a mattress and some bedding. The noise they made awoke her.

'Dinna tak me,' she cried. 'I winna do 't again, an' I'm deein', I

tell ye I'm deein', and that'll clear a' scores--o' this side ony

gait,' she added.

They lifted her upon the mattress, and made her more comfortable than

perhaps she had ever been in her life. But it was only her illness

that made her capable of prizing such comfort. In health, the heather

on a hill-side was far more to her taste than bed and blankets. She

had a wild, roving, savage nature, and the wind was dearer to her than

house-walls. She had come of ancestors--and it was a poor little atom

of truth that a soul bred like this woman could have been born capable

of entertaining. But she too was eternal--and surely not to be fixed

for ever in a bewilderment of sin and ignorance--a wild-eyed soul

staring about in hell-fire for want of something it could not

understand and had never beheld--by the changeless mandate of the God

of love! She was in less pain than during the night, and lay quietly

gazing at the fire. Things awful to another would no doubt cross her

memory without any accompanying sense of dismay; tender things would

return without moving her heart; but Falconer had a hold of her now.

Nothing could be done for her body except to render its death as easy

as might be; but something might be done for herself. He made no

attempt to produce this or that condition of mind in the poor

creature. He never made such attempts. 'How can I tell the next lesson

a soul is capable of learning?' he would say. 'The Spirit of God is

the teacher. My part is to tell the good news. Let that work as it

ought, as it can, as it will.' He knew that pain is with some the only

harbinger that can prepare the way for the entrance of kindness: it is

not understood till then. In the lulls of her pain he told her about

the man Christ Jesus--what he did for the poor creatures who came to

him--how kindly he spoke to them--how he cured them. He told her how

gentle he was with the sinning women, how he forgave them and told

them to do so no more. He left the story without comment to work that

faith which alone can redeem from selfishness and bring into contact

with all that is living and productive of life, for to believe in him

is to lay hold of eternal life: he is the Life--therefore the life of

men. She gave him but little encouragement: he did not need it, for he

believed in the Life. But her outcries were no longer accompanied with

that fierce and dreadful language in which she sought relief at first.

He said to himself, 'What matter if I see no sign? I am doing my part.

Who can tell, when the soul is free from the distress of the body,

when sights and sounds have vanished from her, and she is silent in

the eternal, with the terrible past behind her, and clear to her

consciousness, how the words I have spoken to her may yet live and

grow in her; how the kindness God has given me to show her may help

her to believe in the root of all kindness, in the everlasting love of

her Father in heaven? That she can feel at all is as sure a sign of

life as the adoration of an ecstatic saint.'

He had no difficulty now in getting from her what information she

could give him about his father. It seemed to him of the greatest

import, though it amounted only to this, that when he was in London,

he used to lodge at the house of an old Scotchwoman of the name of

Macallister, who lived in Paradise Gardens, somewhere between Bethnal

Green and Spitalfields. Whether he had been in London lately, she did

not know; but if anybody could tell him where he was, it would be Mrs.

Macallister.

His heart filled with gratitude and hope and the surging desire for

the renewal of his London labours. But he could not leave the dying

woman till she was beyond the reach of his comfort: he was her keeper

now. And 'he that believeth shall not make haste.' Labour without

perturbation, readiness without hurry, no haste, and no hesitation,

was the divine law of his activity.

Shargar's mother breathed her last holding his hand. They were alone.

He kneeled by the bed, and prayed to God, saying,

'Father, this woman is in thy hands. Take thou care of her, as thou

hast taken care of her hitherto. Let the light go up in her soul, that

she may love and trust thee, O light, O gladness. I thank thee that

thou hast blessed me with this ministration. Now lead me to my father.

Thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever.

Amen.'

He rose and went to his grandmother and told her all. She put her arms

round his neck, and kissed him, and said,

'God bless ye, my bonny lad. And he will bless ye. He will; he will.

Noo gang yer wa's, and do the wark he gies ye to do. Only min', it's

no you; it's him.'

The next morning, the sweet winds of his childhood wooing him to

remain yet a day among their fields, he sat on the top of the Aberdeen

coach, on his way back to the horrors of court and alley in the

terrible London.

CHAPTER VII.

THE SILK-WEAVER.

WHEN he arrived he made it his first business to find 'Widow Walker.'

She was evidently one of the worst of her class; and could it have

been accomplished without scandal, and without interfering with the

quietness upon which he believed that the true effect of his labours

in a large measure depended, he would not have scrupled simply to

carry off the child. With much difficulty, for the woman was

suspicious, he contrived to see her, and was at once reminded of the

child he had seen in the cart on the occasion of Shargar's recognition

of his mother. He fancied he saw in her some resemblance to his friend

Shargar. The affair ended in his paying the woman a hundred and fifty

pounds to give up the girl. Within six months she had drunk herself to

death. He took little Nancy Kennedy home with him, and gave her in

charge to his housekeeper. She cried a good deal at first, and wanted

to go back to Mother Walker, but he had no great trouble with her

after a time. She began to take a share in the house-work, and at

length to wait upon him. Then Falconer began to see that he must

cultivate relations with other people in order to enlarge his means of

helping the poor. He nowise abandoned his conviction that whatever

good he sought to do or lent himself to aid must be effected entirely

by individual influence. He had little faith in societies, regarding

them chiefly as a wretched substitute, just better than nothing, for

that help which the neighbour is to give to his neighbour. Finding how

the unbelief of the best of the poor is occasioned by hopelessness in

privation, and the sufferings of those dear to them, he was confident

that only the personal communion of friendship could make it possible

for them to believe in God. Christians must be in the world as He was

in the world; and in proportion as the truth radiated from them, the

world would be able to believe in Him. Money he saw to be worse than

useless, except as a gracious outcome of human feelings and brotherly

love. He always insisted that the Saviour healed only those on whom

his humanity had laid hold; that he demanded faith of them in order to

make them regard him, that so his personal being might enter into

their hearts. Healing without faith in its source would have done them

harm instead of good--would have been to them a windfall, not a

Godsend; at best the gift of magic, even sometimes the power of Satan

casting out Satan. But he must not therefore act as if he were the

only one who could render this individual aid, or as if men

influencing the poor individually could not aid each other in their

individual labours. He soon found, I say, that there were things he

could not do without help, and Nancy was his first perplexity. From

this he was delivered in a wonderful way.

One afternoon he was prowling about Spitalfields, where he had made

many acquaintances amongst the silk-weavers and their families.

Hearing a loud voice as he passed down a stair from the visit he had

been paying further up the house, he went into the room whence the

sound came, for he knew a little of the occupant. He was one De

Fleuri, or as the neighbours called him, Diffleery, in whose

countenance, after generations of want and debasement, the delicate

lines and noble cast of his ancient race were yet emergent. This man

had lost his wife and three children, his whole family except a

daughter now sick, by a slow-consuming hunger; and he did not believe

there was a God that ruled in the earth. But he supported his unbelief

by no other argument than a hopeless bitter glance at his empty loom.

At this moment he sat silent--a rock against which the noisy waves of

a combative Bible-reader were breaking in rude foam. His silence and

apparent impassiveness angered the irreverent little worthy. To

Falconer's humour he looked a vulgar bull-terrier barking at a noble,

sad-faced staghound. His foolish arguments against infidelity, drawn

from Paley's Natural Theology, and tracts about the inspiration of the

Bible, touched the sore-hearted unbelief of the man no nearer than the

clangour of negro kettles affects the eclipse of the sun. Falconer

stood watching his opportunity. Nor was the eager disputant long in

affording him one. Socratic fashion, Falconer asked him a question,

and was answered; followed it with another, which, after a little

hesitation, was likewise answered; then asked a third, the ready

answer to which involved such a flagrant contradiction of the first,

that the poor sorrowful weaver burst into a laugh of delight at the

discomfiture of his tormentor. After some stammering, and a confused

attempt to recover the line of argument, the would-be partizan of

Deity roared out, 'The fool hath said in his heart there is no God;'

and with this triumphant discharge of his swivel, turned and ran down

the stairs precipitately.

Both laughed while the sound of his footsteps lasted. Then Falconer

said,

'My. De Fleuri, I believe in God with all my heart, and soul, and

strength, and mind; though not in that poor creature's arguments. I

don't know that your unbelief is not better than his faith.'

'I am greatly obliged to you, Mr. Falconer. I haven't laughed so for

years. What right has he to come pestering me?'

'None whatever. But you must forgive him, because he is well-meaning,

and because his conceit has made a fool of him. They're not all like

him. But how is your daughter?'

'Very poorly, sir. She's going after the rest. A Spitalfields weaver

ought to be like the cats: they don't mind how many of their kittens

are drowned.'

'I beg your pardon. They don't like it. Only they forget it sooner

than we do.'

'Why do you say we, sir? You don't know anything of that sort.'

'The heart knows its own bitterness, De Fleuri--and finds it enough, I

dare say.'

The weaver was silent for a moment. When he spoke again, there was a

touch of tenderness in his respect.

'Will you go and see my poor Katey, sir?'

'Would she like to see me?'

'It does her good to see you. I never let that fellow go near her. He

may worry me as he pleases; but she shall die in peace. That is all I

can do for her.'

'Do you still persist in refusing help--for your daughter--I don't

mean for yourself?'

Not believing in God, De Fleuri would not be obliged to his fellow.

Falconer had never met with a similar instance.

'I do. I won't kill her, and I won't kill myself: I am not bound to

accept charity. It's all right. I only want to leave the whole affair

behind; and I sincerely hope there's nothing to come after. If I were

God, I should be ashamed of such a mess of a world.'

'Well, no doubt you would have made something more to your mind--and

better, too, if all you see were all there is to be seen. But I didn't

send that bore away to bore you myself. I'm going to see Katey.'

'Very well, sir. I won't go up with you, for I won't interfere with

what you think proper to say to her.'

'That's rather like faith somewhere!' thought Falconer. 'Could that

man fail to believe in Jesus Christ if he only saw him--anything like

as he is?'

Katey lay in a room overhead; for though he lacked food, this man

contrived to pay for a separate room for his daughter, whom he treated

with far more respect than many gentlemen treat their wives. Falconer

found her lying on a wretched bed. Still it was a bed; and many in the

same house had no bed to lie on. He had just come from a room overhead

where lived a widow with four children. All of them lay on a floor

whence issued at night, by many holes, awful rats. The children could

not sleep for horror. They did not mind the little ones, they said,

but when the big ones came, they were awake all night.

'Well, Katey, how are you?'

'No better, thank God.'

She spoke as her father had taught her. Her face was worn and thin,

but hardly death-like. Only extremes met in it--the hopelessness had

turned through quietude into comfort. Her hopelessness affected him

more than her father's. But there was nothing he could do for her.

There came a tap at the door.

'Come in,' said Falconer, involuntarily.

A lady in the dress of a Sister of Mercy entered with a large basket

on her arm. She started, and hesitated for a moment when she saw him.

He rose, thinking it better to go. She advanced to the bedside. He

turned at the door, and said,

'I won't say good-bye yet, Katey, for I'm going to have a chat with

your father, and if you will let me, I will look in again.'

As he turned he saw the lady kiss her on the forehead. At the sound of

his voice she started again, left the bedside and came towards him.

Whether he knew her by her face or her voice first, he could not tell.

'Robert,' she said, holding out her hand.

It was Mary St. John. Their hands met, joined fast, and lingered, as

they gazed each in the other's face. It was nearly fourteen years

since they had parted. The freshness of youth was gone from her cheek,

and the signs of middle age were present on her forehead. But she was

statelier, nobler, and gentler than ever. Falconer looked at her

calmly, with only a still swelling at the heart, as if they met on the

threshold of heaven. All the selfishness of passion was gone, and the

old earlier adoration, elevated and glorified, had returned. He was a

boy once more in the presence of a woman-angel. She did not shrink

from his gaze, she did not withdraw her hand from his clasp.

'I am so glad, Robert!' was all she said.

'So am I,' he answered quietly. 'We may meet sometimes then?'

'Yes. Perhaps we can help each other.'

'You can help me,' said Falconer. 'I have a girl I don't know what to

do with.'

'Send her to me. I will take care of her.'

'I will bring her. But I must come and see you first.'

'That will tell you where I live,' she said, giving him a card.

Good-bye.'

'Till to-morrow,' said Falconer.

'She's not like that Bible fellow,' said De Fleuri, as he entered his

room again. 'She don't walk into your house as if it was her own.'

He was leaning against his idle loom, which, like a dead thing, filled

the place with the mournfulness of death. Falconer took a broken

chair, the only one, and sat down.

'I am going to take a liberty with you, Mr. De Fleuri,' he said.

'As you please, Mr. Falconer.'

'I want to tell you the only fault I have to you.'

'Yes?'

'You don't do anything for the people in the house. Whether you

believe in God or not, you ought to do what you can for your

neighbour.'

He held that to help a neighbour is the strongest antidote to

unbelief, and an open door out of the bad air of one's own troubles,

as well.

De Fleuri laughed bitterly, and rubbed his hand up and down his empty

pocket. It was a pitiable action. Falconer understood it.

'There are better things than money: sympathy, for instance. You could

talk to them a little.'

'I have no sympathy, sir.'

'You would find you had, if you would let it out.'

'I should only make them more miserable. If I believed as you do, now,

there might be some use.'

'There's that widow with her four children in the garret. The poor

little things are tormented by the rats: couldn't you nail bits of

wood over their holes?'

De Fleuri laughed again.

'Where am I to get the bits of wood, except I pull down some of those

laths. And they wouldn't keep them out a night.'

'Couldn't you ask some carpenter?'

'I won't ask a favour.'

'I shouldn't mind asking, now.'

'That's because you don't know the bitterness of needing.'

'Fortunately, however, there's no occasion for it. You have no right

to refuse for another what you wouldn't accept for yourself. Of course

I could send in a man to do it; but if you would do it, that would do

her heart good. And that's what most wants doing good to--isn't it,

now?'

'I believe you're right there, sir. If it wasn't for the misery of it,

I shouldn't mind the hunger.'

'I should like to tell you how I came to go poking my nose into other

people's affairs. Would you like to hear my story now?'

'If you please, sir.'

A little pallid curiosity seemed to rouse itself in the heart of the

hopeless man. So Falconer began at once to tell him how he had been

brought up, describing the country and their ways of life, not

excluding his adventures with Shargar, until he saw that the man was

thoroughly interested. Then all at once, pulling out his watch, he

said,

'But it's time I had my tea, and I haven't half done yet. I am not

fond of being hungry, like you, Mr. De Fleuri.'

The poor fellow could only manage a very dubious smile.

'I'll tell you what,' said Falconer, as if the thought had only just

struck him--'come home with me, and I'll give you the rest of it at my

own place.'

'You must excuse me, sir.'

'Bless my soul, the man's as proud as Lucifer! He wont accept a

neighbour's invitation to a cup of tea--for fear it should put him

under obligations, I suppose.'

'It's very kind of you, sir, to put it in that way; but I don't choose

to be taken in. You know very well it's not as one equal asks another

you ask me. It's charity.'

'Do I not behave to you as an equal?'

'But you know that don't make us equals.'

'But isn't there something better than being equals? Supposing, as you

will have it, that we're not equals, can't we be friends?'

'I hope so, sir.'

'Do you think now, Mr. De Fleuri, if you weren't something more to me

than a mere equal, I would go telling you my own history? But I

forgot: I have told you hardly anything yet. I have to tell you how

much nearer I am to your level than you think. I had the design too of

getting you to help me in the main object of my life. Come, don't be a

fool. I want you.'

'I can't leave Katey,' said the weaver, hesitatingly.

'Miss St. John is there still. I will ask her to stop till you come

back.'

Without waiting for an answer, he ran up the stairs, and had speedily

arranged with Miss St. John. Then taking his consent for granted, he

hurried De Fleuri away with him, and knowing how unfit a man of his

trade was for walking, irrespective of feebleness from want, he called

the first cab, and took him home. Here, over their tea, which he

judged the safest meal for a stomach unaccustomed to food, he told him

about his grandmother, and about Dr. Anderson, and how he came to give

himself to the work he was at, partly for its own sake, partly in the

hope of finding his father. He told him his only clue to finding him;

and that he had called on Mrs. Macallister twice every week for two

years, but had heard nothing of him. De Fleuri listened with what rose

to great interest before the story was finished. And one of its ends

at least was gained: the weaver was at home with him. The poor fellow

felt that such close relation to an outcast, did indeed bring Falconer

nearer to his own level.

'Do you want it kept a secret, sir?' he asked.

'I don't want it made a matter of gossip. But I do not mind how many

respectable people like yourself know of it.'

He said this with a vague hope of assistance.

Before they parted, the unaccustomed tears had visited the eyes of De

Fleuri, and he had consented not only to repair Mrs. Chisholm's

garret-floor, but to take in hand the expenditure of a certain sum

weekly, as he should judge expedient, for the people who lived in that

and the neighbouring houses--in no case, however, except of sickness,

or actual want of bread from want of work. Thus did Falconer appoint a

sorrow-made infidel to be the almoner of his christian charity,

knowing well that the nature of the Son of Man was in him, and that to

get him to do as the Son of Man did, in ever so small a degree, was

the readiest means of bringing his higher nature to the birth. Nor did

he ever repent the choice he had made.

When he waited upon Miss St. John the next day, he found her in the

ordinary dress of a lady. She received him with perfect confidence and

kindness, but there was no reference made to the past. She told him

that she had belonged to a sisterhood, but had left it a few days

before, believing she could do better without its restrictions.

'It was an act of cowardice,' she said,--'wearing the dress yesterday.

I had got used to it, and did not feel safe without it; but I shall

not wear it any more.'

'I think you are right,' said Falconer. 'The nearer any friendly act

is associated with the individual heart, without intervention of class

or creed, the more the humanity, which is the divinity of it, will

appear.'

He then told her about Nancy.

'I will keep her about myself for a while,' said Miss St. John, 'till

I see what can be done with her. I know a good many people who without

being prepared, or perhaps able to take any trouble, are yet ready to

do a kindness when it is put in their way.'

'I feel more and more that I ought to make some friends,' said

Falconer; 'for I find my means of help reach but a little way. What

had I better do? I suppose I could get some introductions.--I hardly

know how.'

'That will easily be managed. I will take that in hand. If you will

accept invitations, you will soon know a good many people--of all

sorts,' she added with a smile.

About this time Falconer, having often felt the pressure of his

ignorance of legal affairs, and reflected whether it would not add to

his efficiency to rescue himself from it, began such a course of study

as would fit him for the profession of the law. Gifted with splendid

health, and if with a slow strength of grasping, yet with a great

power of holding, he set himself to work, and regularly read for the

bar.

CHAPTER VIII.

MY OWN ACQUAINTANCE.

IT was after this that my own acquaintance with Falconer commenced. I

had just come out of one of the theatres in the neighbourhood of the

Strand, unable to endure any longer the dreary combination of false

magnanimity and real meanness, imported from Paris in the shape of a

melodrama, for the delectation of the London public. I had turned

northwards, and was walking up one of the streets near Covent Garden,

when my attention was attracted to a woman who came out of a gin-shop,

carrying a baby. She went to the kennel, and bent her head over, ill

with the poisonous stuff she had been drinking. And while the woman

stood in this degrading posture, the poor, white, wasted baby was

looking over her shoulder with the smile of a seraph, perfectly

unconscious of the hell around her.

'Children will see things as God sees them,' murmured a voice beside

me.

I turned and saw a tall man with whose form I had already become a

little familiar, although I knew nothing of him, standing almost at my

elbow, with his eyes fixed on the woman and the child, and a strange

smile of tenderness about his mouth, as if he were blessing the little

creature in his heart.

He too saw the wonder of the show, typical of so much in the world,

indeed of the world itself--the seemingly vile upholding and

ministering to the life of the pure, the gracious, the fearless. Aware

from his tone more than from his pronunciation that he was a

fellow-countryman, I ventured to speak to him, and in a home-dialect.

'It's a wonnerfu' sicht. It's the cake o' Ezekiel ower again.'

He looked at me sharply, thought a moment, and said,

'You were going my way when you stopped. I will walk with you, if you

will.'

'But what's to be done about it?' I said.

'About what?' he returned.

'About the child there,' I answered.

'Oh! she is its mother,' he replied, walking on.

'What difference does that make?' I said.

'All the difference in the world. If God has given her that child,

what right have you or I to interfere?'

'But I verily believe from the look of the child she gives it gin.'

'God saves the world by the new blood, the children. To take her child

from her, would be to do what you could to damn her.'

'It doesn't look much like salvation there.'

'You mustn't interfere with God's thousand years any more than his one

day.'

'Are you sure she is the mother?' I asked.

'Yes. I would not have left the child with her otherwise.'

'What would you have done with it? Got it into some orphan asylum?--or

the Foundling perhaps?'

'Never,' he answered. 'All those societies are wretched inventions for

escape from the right way. There ought not to be an orphan asylum in

the kingdom.'

'What! Would you put them all down then?'

'God forbid. But I would, if I could, make them all useless,'

'How could you do that?'

'I would merely enlighten the hearts of childless people as to their

privileges.'

'Which are?'

'To be fathers and mothers to the fatherless and motherless.'

'I have often wondered why more of them did not adopt children. Why

don't they?'

'For various reasons which a real love to child nature would blow to

the winds--all comprised in this, that such a child would not be their

own child. As if ever a child could be their own! That a child is

God's is of rather more consequence than whether it is born of this or

that couple. Their hearts would surely be glad when they went into

heaven to have the angels of the little ones that always behold the

face of their Father coming round them, though they were not exactly

their father and mother.'

'I don't know what the passage you refer to means.'

'Neither do I. But it must mean something, if He said it. Are you a

clergyman?'

'No. I am only a poor teacher of mathematics and poetry, shown up the

back stairs into the nurseries of great houses.'

'A grand chance, if I may use the word.'

'I do try to wake a little enthusiasm in the sons and

daughters--without much success, I fear.'

'Will you come and see me?' he said.

'With much pleasure. But, as I have given you an answer, you owe me

one.'

'I do.'

'Have you adopted a child?'

'No.'

'Then you have some of your own?'

'No.'

'Then, excuse me, but why the warmth of your remarks on those who--'

'I think I shall be able to satisfy you on that point, if we draw to

each other. Meantime I must leave you. Could you come to-morrow

evening?'

'With pleasure.'

We arranged the hour and parted. I saw him walk into a low

public-house, and went home.

At the time appointed, I rang the bell, and was led by an elderly

woman up the stair, and shown into a large room on the

first-floor--poorly furnished, and with many signs of

bachelor-carelessness. Mr. Falconer rose from an old hair-covered sofa

to meet me as I entered. I will first tell my reader something of his

personal appearance.

He was considerably above six feet in height, square-shouldered,

remarkably long in the arms, and his hands were uncommonly large and

powerful. His head was large, and covered with dark wavy hair, lightly

streaked with gray. His broad forehead projected over deep-sunk eyes,

that shone like black fire. His features, especially his Roman nose,

were large, and finely, though not delicately, modelled. His nostrils

were remarkably large and flexile, with a tendency to slight motion: I

found on further acquaintance that when he was excited, they expanded

in a wild equine manner. The expression of his mouth was of tender

power, crossed with humour. He kept his lips a little compressed,

which gave a certain sternness to his countenance: but when this

sternness dissolved in a smile, it was something enchanting. He was

plainly, rather shabbily clothed. No one could have guessed at his

profession or social position. He came forward and received me

cordially. After a little indifferent talk, he asked me if I had any

other engagement for the evening.

'I never have any engagements,' I answered--'at least, of a social

kind. I am burd alane. I know next to nobody.'

'Then perhaps you would not mind going out with me for a stroll?'

'I shall be most happy,' I answered.

There was something about the man I found exceedingly attractive; I

had very few friends; and there was besides something odd, almost

romantic, in this beginning of an intercourse: I would see what would

come of it.

'Then we'll have some supper first,' said Mr. Falconer, and rang the

bell.

While we ate our chops--

'I dare say you think it strange,' my host said, 'that without the

least claim on your acquaintance, I should have asked you to come and

see me, Mr.--'

He stopped, smiling.

'My name is Gordon--Archie Gordon,' I said.

'Well, then, Mr. Gordon, I confess I have a design upon you. But you

will remember that you addressed me first.'

'You spoke first,' I said.

'Did I?'

'I did not say you spoke to me, but you spoke.--I should not have

ventured to make the remark I did make, if I had not heard your voice

first. What design have you on me?'

'That will appear in due course. Now take a glass of wine, and we'll

set out.'

We soon found ourselves in Holborn, and my companion led the way

towards the City. The evening was sultry and close.

'Nothing excites me move,' said Mr. Falconer, 'than a walk in the

twilight through a crowded street. Do you find it affect you so?'

'I cannot speak as strongly as you do,' I replied. 'But I perfectly

understand what you mean. Why is it, do you think?'

'Partly, I fancy, because it is like the primordial chaos, a

concentrated tumult of undetermined possibilities. The germs of

infinite adventure and result are floating around you like a

snow-storm. You do not know what may arise in a moment and colour all

your future. Out of this mass may suddenly start something marvellous,

or, it may be, something you have been looking for for years.'

The same moment, a fierce flash of lightning, like a blue sword-blade

a thousand times shattered, quivered and palpitated about us, leaving

a thick darkness on the sense. I heard my companion give a suppressed

cry, and saw him run up against a heavy drayman who was on the edge of

the path, guiding his horses with his long whip. He begged the man's

pardon, put his hand to his head, and murmured, 'I shall know him

now.' I was afraid for a moment that the lightning had struck him, but

he assured me there was nothing amiss. He looked a little excited and

confused, however.

I should have forgotten the incident, had he not told me

afterwards--when I had come to know him intimately--that in the moment

of that lightning flash, he had had a strange experience: he had seen

the form of his father, as he had seen him that Sunday afternoon, in

the midst of the surrounding light. He was as certain of the truth of

the presentation as if a gradual revival of memory had brought with it

the clear conviction of its own accuracy. His explanation of the

phenomenon was, that, in some cases, all that prevents a vivid

conception from assuming objectivity, is the self-assertion of

external objects. The gradual approach of darkness cannot surprise and

isolate the phantasm; but the suddenness of the lightning could and

did, obliterating everything without, and leaving that over which it

had no power standing alone, and therefore visible.

'But,' I ventured to ask, 'whence the minuteness of detail,

surpassing, you say, all that your memory could supply?'

'That I think was a quickening of the memory by the realism of the

presentation. Excited by the vision, it caught at its own past, as it

were, and suddenly recalled that which it had forgotten. In the

rapidity of all pure mental action, this at once took its part in the

apparent objectivity.'

To return to the narrative of my first evening in Falconer's company.

It was strange how insensible the street population was to the

grandeur of the storm. While the thunder was billowing and bellowing

over and around us--

'A hundred pins for one ha'penny,' bawled a man from the gutter, with

the importance of a Cagliostro.

'Evening Star! Telegrauwff!' roared an ear-splitting urchin in my very

face. I gave him a shove off the pavement.

'Ah! don't do that,' said Falconer. 'It only widens the crack between

him and his fellows--not much, but a little.'

'You are right,' I said. 'I won't do it again.'

The same moment we heard a tumult in a neighbouring street. A crowd

was execrating a policeman, who had taken a woman into custody, and

was treating her with unnecessary rudeness. Falconer looked on for a

few moments.

'Come, policeman!' he said at length, in a tone of expostulation.

'You're rather rough, are you not? She's a woman, you know.'

'Hold your blasted humbug,' answered the man, an exceptional specimen

of the force at that time at all events, and shook the tattered

wretch, as if he would shake her out of her rags.

Falconer gently parted the crowd, and stood beside the two.

'I will help you,' he said, 'to take her to the station, if you like,

but you must not treat her that way.'

'I don't want your help,' said the policeman; 'I know you, and all the

damned lot of you.'

'Then I shall be compelled to give you a lesson,' said Falconer.

The man's only answer was a shake that made the woman cry out.

'I shall get into trouble if you get off,' said Falconer to her. 'Will

you promise me, on your word, to go with me to the station, if I rid

you of the fellow?'

'I will, I will,' said the woman.

'Then, look out,' said Falconer to the policeman; 'for I'm going to

give you that lesson.'

The officer let the woman go, took his baton, and made a blow at

Falconer. In another moment--I could hardly see how--he lay in the

street.

'Now, my poor woman, come along,' said Falconer.

She obeyed, crying gently. Two other policemen came up.

'Do you want to give that woman in charge, Mr. Falconer?' asked one of

them.

'I give that man in charge,' cried his late antagonist, who had just

scrambled to his feet. 'Assaulting the police in discharge of their

duty.'

'Very well,' said the other. 'But you're in the wrong box, and that

you'll find. You had better come along to the station, sir.'

'Keep that fellow from getting hold of the woman--you two, and we'll

go together,' said Falconer.

Bewildered with the rapid sequence of events, I was following in the

crowd. Falconer looked about till he saw me, and gave me a nod which

meant come along. Before we reached Bow Street. however, the offending

policeman, who had been walking a little behind in conversation with

one of the others, advanced to Falconer, touched his hat, and said

something, to which Falconer replied.

'Remember, I have my eye upon you,' was all I heard, however, as he

left the crowd and rejoined me. We turned and walked eastward again.

The storm kept on intermittently, but the streets were rather more

crowded than usual notwithstanding.

'Look at that man in the woollen jacket,' said Falconer. 'What a

beautiful outline of face! There must be something noble in that man.'

'I did not see him,' I answered, 'I was taken up with a woman's face,

like that of a beautiful corpse. It's eyes were bright. There was gin

in its brain.'

The streets swarmed with human faces gleaming past. It was a night of

ghosts.

There stood a man who had lost one arm, earnestly pumping bilge-music

out of an accordion with the other, holding it to his body with the

stump. There was a woman, pale with hunger and gin, three match-boxes

in one extended hand, and the other holding a baby to her breast. As

we looked, the poor baby let go its hold, turned its little head, and

smiled a wan, shrivelled, old-fashioned smile in our faces.

Another happy baby, you see, Mr. Gordon,' said Falconer. 'A child,

fresh from God, finds its heaven where no one else would. The devil

could drive woman out of Paradise; but the devil himself cannot drive

the Paradise out of a woman.'

'What can be done for them?' I said, and at the moment, my eye fell

upon a row of little children, from two to five years of age, seated

upon the curb-stone.

They were chattering fast, and apparently carrying on some game, as

happy as if they had been in the fields.

'Wouldn't you like to take all those little grubby things, and put

them in a great tub and wash them clean?' I said.

'They'd fight like spiders,' rejoined Falconer.

'They're not fighting now.'

'Then don't make them. It would be all useless. The probability is

that you would only change the forms of the various evils, and

possibly for worse. You would buy all that man's glue-lizards, and

that man's three-foot rules, and that man's dog-collars and chains, at

three times their value, that they might get more drink than usual,

and do nothing at all for their living to-morrow.--What a happy London

you would make if you were Sultan Haroun!' he added, laughing. 'You

would put an end to poverty altogether, would you not?'

I did not reply at once.

'But I beg your pardon,' he resumed; 'I am very rude.'

'Not at all,' I returned. 'I was only thinking how to answer you. They

would be no worse after all than those who inherit property and lead

idle lives.'

'True; but they would be no better. Would you be content that your

quondam poor should be no better off than the rich? What would be

gained thereby? Is there no truth in the words "Blessed are the poor"?

A deeper truth than most Christians dare to see.--Did you ever observe

that there is not one word about the vices of the poor in the

Bible--from beginning to end?'

'But they have their vices.'

'Indubitably. I am only stating a fact. The Bible is full enough of

the vices of the rich. I make no comment.'

'But don't you care for their sufferings?'

'They are of secondary importance quite. But if you had been as much

amongst them as I, perhaps you would be of my opinion, that the poor

are not, cannot possibly feel so wretched as they seem to us. They

live in a climate, as it were, which is their own, by natural law

comply with it, and find it not altogether unfriendly. The Laplander

will prefer his wastes to the rich fields of England, not merely from

ignorance, but for the sake of certain blessings amongst which he has

been born and brought up. The blessedness of life depends far more on

its interest than upon its comfort. The need of exertion and the doubt

of success, renders life much more interesting to the poor than it is

to those who, unblessed with anxiety for the bread that perisheth,

waste their poor hearts about rank and reputation.'

'I thought such anxiety was represented as an evil in the New

Testament.'

'Yes. But it is a still greater evil to lose it in any other way than

by faith in God. You would remove the anxiety by destroying its cause:

God would remove it by lifting them above it, by teaching them to

trust in him, and thus making them partakers of the divine nature.

Poverty is a blessing when it makes a man look up.'

'But you cannot say it does so always.'

'I cannot determine when, where, and how much; but I am sure it does.

And I am confident that to free those hearts from it by any deed of

yours would be to do them the greatest injury you could. Probably

their want of foresight would prove the natural remedy, speedily

reducing them to their former condition--not however without serious

loss.'

'But will not this theory prove at last an anÃ¦sthetic rather than an

anodyne? I mean that, although you may adopt it at first for refuge

from the misery the sight of their condition occasions you, there is

surely a danger of its rendering you at last indifferent to it.'

'Am I indifferent? But you do not know me yet. Pardon my egotism.

There may be such danger. Every truth has its own danger or shadow.

Assuredly I would have no less labour spent upon them. But there can

be no true labour done, save in as far as we are fellow-labourers with

God. We must work with him, not against him. Every one who works

without believing that God is doing the best, the absolute good for

them, is, must be, more or less, thwarting God. He would take the poor

out of God's hands. For others, as for ourselves, we must trust him.

If we could thoroughly understand anything, that would be enough to

prove it undivine; and that which is but one step beyond our

understanding must be in some of its relations as mysterious as if it

were a hundred. But through all this darkness about the poor, at least

I can see wonderful veins and fields of light, and with the help of

this partial vision, I trust for the rest. The only and the greatest

thing man is capable of is Trust in God.'

'What then is a man to do for the poor? How is he to work with God?' I

asked.

'He must be a man amongst them--a man breathing the air of a higher

life, and therefore in all natural ways fulfilling his endless human

relations to them. Whatever you do for them, let your own being, that

is you in relation to them, be the background, that so you may be a

link between them and God, or rather I should say, between them and

the knowledge of God.'

While Falconer spoke, his face grew grander and grander, till at last

it absolutely shone. I felt that I walked with a man whose faith was

his genius.

'Of one thing I am pretty sure,' he resumed, 'that the same recipe

Goethe gave for the enjoyment of life, applies equally to all work:

"Do the thing that lies next you." That is all our business. Hurried

results are worse than none. We must force nothing, but be partakers

of the divine patience. How long it took to make the cradle! and we

fret that the baby Humanity is not reading Euclid and Plato, even that

it is not understanding the Gospel of St. John! If there is one thing

evident in the world's history, it is that God hasteneth not. All

haste implies weakness. Time is as cheap as space and matter. What

they call the church militant is only at drill yet, and a good many of

the officers too not out of the awkward squad. I am sure I, for a

private, am not. In the drill a man has to conquer himself, and move

with the rest by individual attention to his own duty: to what mighty

battlefields the recruit may yet be led, he does not know. Meantime he

has nearly enough to do with his goose-step, while there is plenty of

single combat, skirmish, and light cavalry work generally, to get him

ready for whatever is to follow. I beg your pardon: I am preaching.'

'Eloquently,' I answered.

Of some of the places into which Falconer led me that night I will

attempt no description--places blazing with lights and mirrors,

crowded with dancers, billowing with music, close and hot, and full of

the saddest of all sights, the uninteresting faces of commonplace

women.

'There is a passion,' I said, as we came out of one of these dreadful

places, 'that lingers about the heart like the odour of violets, like

a glimmering twilight on the borders of moonrise; and there is a

passion that wraps itself in the vapours of patchouli and coffins, and

streams from the eyes like gaslight from a tavern. And yet the line is

ill to draw between them. It is very dreadful. These are women.'

'They are in God's hands,' answered Falconer. 'He hasn't done with

them yet. Shall it take less time to make a woman than to make a

world? Is not the woman the greater? She may have her ages of chaos,

her centuries of crawling slime, yet rise a woman at last.'

'How much alike all those women were!'

'A family likeness, alas! which always strikes you first.'

'Some of them looked quite modest.'

'There are great differences. I do not know anything more touching

than to see how a woman will sometimes wrap around her the last

remnants of a soiled and ragged modesty. It has moved me almost to

tears to see such a one hanging her head in shame during the singing

of a detestable song. That poor thing's shame was precious in the eyes

of the Master, surely.'

'Could nothing be done for her?'

'I contrived to let her know where she would find a friend if she

wanted to be good: that is all you can do in such cases. If the

horrors of their life do not drive them out at such an open door, you

can do nothing else, I fear--for the time.'

'Where are you going now, may I ask?'

'Into the city--on business,' he added with a smile.

'There will be nobody there so late.'

'Nobody! One would think you were the beadle of a city church, Mr.

Gordon.'

We came into a very narrow, dirty street. I do not know where it is. A

slatternly woman advanced from an open door, and said,

'Mr. Falconer.'

He looked at her for a moment.

'Why, Sarah, have you come to this already?' he said.

'Never mind me, sir. It's no more than you told me to expect. You

knowed him better than I did. Leastways I'm an honest woman.'

'Stick to that, Sarah; and be good-tempered.'

'I'll have a try anyhow, sir. But there's a poor cretur a dyin'

up-stairs; and I'm afeard it'll go hard with her, for she throwed a

Bible out o' window this very morning, sir.'

'Would she like to see me? I'm afraid not.'

'She's got Lilywhite, what's a sort of a reader, readin' that same

Bible to her now.'

'There can be no great harm in just looking in,' he said, turning to

me.

'I shall be happy to follow you--anywhere,' I returned.

'She's awful ill, sir; cholerer or summat,' said Sarah, as she led the

way up the creaking stair.

We half entered the room softly. Two or three women sat by the

chimney, and another by a low bed, covered with a torn patchwork

counterpane, spelling out a chapter in the Bible. We paused for a

moment to hear what she was reading. Had the book been opened by

chance, or by design? It was the story of David and Bathsheba. Moans

came from the bed, but the candle in a bottle, by which the woman was

reading, was so placed that we could not see the sufferer.

We stood still and did not interrupt the reading.

'Ha! ha! ha!' laughed a coarse voice from the side of the chimney:

'the saint, you see, was no better than some of the rest of us!'

'I think he was a good deal worse just then,' said Falconer, stepping

forward.

'Gracious! there's Mr. Falconer,' said another woman, rising, and

speaking in a flattering tone.

'Then,' remarked the former speaker, 'there's a chance for old Moll

and me yet. King David was a saint, wasn't he? Ha! ha!'

'Yes, and you might be one too, if you were as sorry for your faults

as he was for his.'

'Sorry, indeed! I'll be damned if I be sorry. What have I to be sorry

for? Where's the harm in turning an honest penny? I ha' took no man's

wife, nor murdered himself neither. There's yer saints! He was a rum

'un. Ha! ha!'

Falconer approached her, bent down and whispered something no one

could hear but herself. She gave a smothered cry, and was silent.

'Give me the book,' he said, turning towards the bed. 'I'll read you

something better than that. I'll read about some one that never did

anything wrong.'

'I don't believe there never was no sich a man,' said the previous

reader, as she handed him the book, grudgingly.

'Not Jesus Christ himself?' said Falconer.

'Oh! I didn't know as you meant him.'

'Of course I meant him. There never was another.'

'I have heard tell--p'raps it was yourself, sir--as how he didn't come

down upon us over hard after all, bless him!'

Falconer sat down on the side of the bed, and read the story of Simon

the Pharisee and the woman that was a sinner. When he ceased, the

silence that followed was broken by a sob from somewhere in the room.

The sick woman stopped her moaning, and said,

'Turn down the leaf there, please, sir. Lilywhite will read it to me

when you're gone.'

The some one sobbed again. It was a young slender girl, with a face

disfigured by the small-pox, and, save for the tearful look it wore,

poor and expressionless. Falconer said something gentle to her.

'Will he ever come again?' she sobbed.

'Who?' asked Falconer.

'Him--Jesus Christ. I've heard tell, I think, that he was to come

again some day.'

'Why do you ask?'

'Because--' she said, with a fresh burst of tears, which rendered the

words that followed unintelligible. But she recovered herself in a few

moments, and, as if finishing her sentence, put her hand up to her

poor, thin, colourless hair, and said,

'My hair ain't long enough to wipe his feet.'

'Do you know what he would say to you, my girl?' Falconer asked.

'No. What would he say to me? He would speak to me, would he?'

'He would say: Thy sins are forgiven thee.'

'Would he, though? Would he?' she cried, starting up. 'Take me to

him--take me to him. Oh! I forgot. He's dead. But he will come again,

won't he? He was crucified four times, you know, and he must ha' come

four times for that. Would they crucify him again, sir?'

'No, they wouldn't crucify him now--in England at least. They would

only laugh at him, shake their heads at what he told them, as much as

to say it wasn't true, and sneer and mock at him in some of the

newspapers.'

'Oh dear! I've been very wicked.'

'But you won't be so any more.'

'No, no, no. I won't, I won't, I won't.'

She talked hurriedly, almost wildly. The coarse old woman tapped her

forehead with her finger. Falconer took the girl's hand.

'What is your name?' he said.

'Nell.'

'What more?'

'Nothing more.'

'Well, Nelly,' said Falconer.

'How kind of you to call me Nelly!' interrupted the poor girl. 'They

always calls me Nell, just.'

'Nelly,' repeated Falconer, 'I will send a lady here to-morrow to take

you away with her, if you like, and tell you how you must do to find

Jesus.--People always find him that want to find him.'

The elderly woman with the rough voice, who had not spoken since he

whispered to her, now interposed with a kind of cowed fierceness.

'Don't go putting humbug into my child's head now, Mr.

Falconer--'ticing her away from her home. Everybody knows my Nell's

been an idiot since ever she was born. Poor child!'

'I ain't your child,' cried the girl, passionately. 'I ain't nobody's

child.'

'You are God's child,' said Falconer, who stood looking on with his

eyes shining, but otherwise in a state of absolute composure.

'Am I? Am I? You won't forget to send for me, sir?'

'That I won't,' he answered.

She turned instantly towards the woman, and snapped her fingers in her

face.

'I don't care that for you,' she cried. 'You dare to touch me now, and

I'll bite you.'

'Come, come, Nelly, you mustn't be rude,' said Falconer.

'No, sir, I won't no more, leastways to nobody but she. It's she makes

me do all the wicked things, it is.'

She snapped her fingers in her face again, and then burst out crying.

'She will leave you alone now, I think,' said Falconer. 'She knows it

will be quite as well for her not to cross me.'

This he said very significantly, as he turned to the door, where he

bade them a general good-night. When we reached the street, I was too

bewildered to offer any remark. Falconer was the first to speak.

'It always comes back upon me, as if I had never known it before, that

women like some of those were of the first to understand our Lord.'

'Some of them wouldn't have understood him any more than the Pharisee,

though.'

'I'm not so sure of that. Of course there are great differences. There

are good and bad amongst them as in every class. But one thing is

clear to me, that no indulgence of passion destroys the spiritual

nature so much as respectable selfishness.'

'I am afraid you will not get society to agree with you,' I said,

foolishly.

'I have no wish that society should agree with me; for if it did, it

would be sure to do so upon the worst of principles. It is better that

society should be cruel, than that it should call the horrible thing a

trifle: it would know nothing between.'

Through the city--though it was only when we crossed one of the main

thoroughfares that I knew where we were--we came into the region of

Bethnal Green. From house to house till it grew very late, Falconer

went, and I went with him. I will not linger on this part of our

wanderings. Where I saw only dreadful darkness, Falconer always would

see some glimmer of light. All the people into whose houses we went

knew him. They were all in the depths of poverty. Many of them were

respectable. With some of them he had long talks in private, while I

waited near. At length he said,

'I think we had better be going home, Mr. Gordon. You must be tired.'

'I am, rather,' I answered. 'But it doesn't matter, for I have nothing

to do to-morrow.'

'We shall get a cab, I dare say, before we go far.'

'Not for me. I am not so tired, but that I would rather walk,' I said.

'Very well,' he returned. 'Where do you live?'

I told him.

'I will take you the nearest way.'

'You know London marvellously.'

'Pretty well now,' he answered.

We were somewhere near Leather Lane about one o'clock. Suddenly we

came upon two tiny children standing on the pavement, one on each side

of the door of a public-house. They could not have been more than two

and three. They were sobbing a little--not much. The tiny creatures

stood there awfully awake in sleeping London, while even their own

playmates were far off in the fairyland of dreams.

'This is the kind of thing,' I said, 'that makes me doubt whether

there be a God in heaven.'

'That is only because he is down here,' answered Falconer, 'taking

such good care of us all that you can't see him. There is not a

gin-palace, or yet lower hell in London, in which a man or woman can

be out of God. The whole being love, there is nothing for you to set

it against and judge it by. So you are driven to fancies.'

The house was closed, but there was light above the door. We went up

to the children, and spoke to them, but all we could make out was that

mammie was in there. One of them could not speak at all. Falconer

knocked at the door. A good-natured-looking Irishwoman opened it a

little way and peeped out.

'Here are two children crying at your door, ma'am,' said Falconer.

'Och, the darlin's! they want their mother.'

'Do you know her, then?'

'True for you, and I do. She's a mighty dacent woman in her way when

the drink's out uv her, and very kind to the childher; but oncet she

smells the dhrop o' gin, her head's gone intirely. The purty craytures

have waked up, an' she not come home, and they've run out to look

after her.'

Falconer stood a moment as if thinking what would be best. The shriek

of a woman rang through the night.

'There she is!' said the Irishwoman. 'For God's sake don't let her get

a hould o' the darlints. She's ravin' mad. I seen her try to kill them

oncet.'

The shrieks came nearer and nearer, and after a few moments the woman

appeared in the moonlight, tossing her arms over her head, and

screaming with a despair for which she yet sought a defiant

expression. Her head was uncovered, and her hair flying in tangles;

her sleeves were torn, and her gaunt arms looked awful in the

moonlight. She stood in the middle of the street, crying again and

again, with shrill laughter between, 'Nobody cares for me, and I care

for nobody! Ha! ha! ha!'

'Mammie! mammie!' cried the elder of the children, and ran towards

her.

The woman heard, and rushed like a fury towards the child. Falconer

too ran, and caught up the child. The woman gave a howl and rushed

towards the other. I caught up that one. With a last shriek, she

dashed her head against the wall of the public-house, dropped on the

pavement, and lay still.

Falconer set the child down, lifted the wasted form in his arms, and

carried it into the house. The face was blue as that of a strangled

corpse. She was dead.

'Was she a married woman?' Falconer asked.

'It's myself can't tell you sir,' the Irishwoman answered. 'I never

saw any boy with her.'

'Do you know where she lived?'

'No, sir. Somewhere not far off, though. The children will know.'

But they stood staring at their mother, and we could get nothing out

of them. They would not move from the corpse.

'I think we may appropriate this treasure-trove,' said Falconer,

turning at last to me; and as he spoke, he took the eldest in his

arms. Then, turning to the woman, he gave her a card, saying, 'If any

inquiry is made about them, there is my address.--Will you take the

other, Mr. Gordon?'

I obeyed. The children cried no more. After traversing a few streets,

we found a cab, and drove to a house in Queen Square, Bloomsbury.

Falconer got out at the door of a large house, and rung the bell; then

got the children out, and dismissed the cab. There we stood in the

middle of the night, in a silent, empty square, each with a child in

his arms. In a few minutes we heard the bolts being withdrawn. The

door opened, and a tall graceful form wrapped in a dressing-gown,

appeared.

'I have brought you two babies, Miss St. John,' said Falconer. 'Can

you take them?'

'To be sure I can,' she answered, and turned to lead the way. 'Bring

them in.'

We followed her into a little back room. She put down her candle, and

went straight to the cupboard, whence she brought a sponge-cake, from

which she cut a large piece for each of the children.

'What a mercy they are, Robert,--those little gates in the face! Red

Lane leads direct to the heart,' she said, smiling, as if she rejoiced

in the idea of taming the little wild angelets. 'Don't you stop. You

are tired enough, I am sure. I will wake my maid, and we'll get them

washed and put to bed at once.'

She was closing the door, when Falconer turned.

'Oh! Miss St. John,' he said, 'I was forgetting. Could you go down to

No. 13 in Soap Lane--you know it, don't you?'

'Yes. Quite well.'

'Ask for a girl called Nell--a plain, pock-marked young girl--and take

her away with you.'

'When shall I go?'

'To-morrow morning. But I shall be in. Don't go till you see me.

Good-night.'

We took our leave without more ado.

'What a lady-like woman to be the matron of an asylum!' I said.

Falconer gave a little laugh.

'That is no asylum. It is a private house.'

'And the lady?'

'Is a lady of private means,' he answered, 'who prefers Bloomsbury to

Belgravia, because it is easier to do noble work in it. Her heaven is

on the confines of hell.'

'What will she do with those children?'

'Kiss them and wash them and put them to bed.'

'And after that?'

'Give them bread and milk in the morning.'

'And after that?'

'Oh! there's time enough. We'll see. There's only one thing she won't

do.'

'What is that?'

'Turn them out again.'

A pause followed, I cogitating.

'Are you a society, then?' I asked at length.

'No. At least we don't use the word. And certainly no other society

would acknowledge us.'

'What are you, then?'

'Why should we be anything, so long as we do our work?'

'Don't you think there is some affectation in refusing a name?'

'Yes, if the name belongs to you? Not otherwise.'

'Do you lay claim to no epithet of any sort?'

'We are a church, if you like. There!'

'Who is your clergyman?'

'Nobody.'

'Where do you meet?'

'Nowhere.'

'What are your rules, then?'

'We have none.'

'What makes you a church?'

'Divine Service.'

'What do you mean by that?'

'The sort of thing you have seen to-night.'

'What is your creed?'

'Christ Jesus.'

'But what do you believe about him?'

'What we can. We count any belief in him--the smallest--better than

any belief about him--the greatest--or about anything else besides.

But we exclude no one.'

'How do you manage without?'

'By admitting no one.'

'I cannot understand you.'

'Well, then: we are an undefined company of people, who have grown

into human relations with each other naturally, through one attractive

force--love for human beings, regarding them as human beings only in

virtue of the divine in them.'

'But you must have some rules,' I insisted.

'None whatever. They would cause us only trouble. We have nothing to

take us from our work. Those that are most in earnest, draw most

together; those that are on the outskirts have only to do nothing, and

they are free of us. But we do sometimes ask people to help us--not

with money.'

'But who are the we?'

'Why you, if you will do anything, and I and Miss St. John and twenty

others--and a great many more I don't know, for every one is a centre

to others. It is our work that binds us together.'

'Then when that stops you drop to pieces.'

'Yes, thank God. We shall then die. There will be no corporate

body--which means a bodied body, or an unsouled body, left behind to

simulate life, and corrupt, and work no end of disease. We go to ashes

at once, and leave no corpse for a ghoul to inhabit and make a vampire

of. When our spirit is dead, our body is vanished.'

'Then you won't last long.'

'Then we oughtn't to last long.'

'But the work of the world could not go on so.'

'We are not the life of the world. God is. And when we fail, he can

and will send out more and better labourers into his harvest-field. It

is a divine accident by which we are thus associated.'

'But surely the church must be otherwise constituted.'

'My dear sir, you forget: I said we were a church, not the church.'

'Do you belong to the Church of England?'

'Yes, some of us. Why should we not? In as much as she has faithfully

preserved the holy records and traditions, our obligations to her are

infinite. And to leave her would be to quarrel, and start a thousand

vermiculate questions, as Lord Bacon calls them, for which life is too

serious in my eyes. I have no time for that.'

'Then you count the Church of England the Church?' 'Of England, yes;

of the universe, no: that is constituted just like ours, with the

living working Lord for the heart of it.'

'Will you take me for a member?'

'No.'

'Will you not, if--?'

'You may make yourself one if you will. I will not speak a word to

gain you. I have shown you work. Do something, and you are of Christ's

Church.'

We were almost at the door of my lodging, and I was getting very weary

in body, and indeed in mind, though I hope not in heart. Before we

separated, I ventured to say,

'Will you tell me why you invited me to come and see you? Forgive my

presumption, but you seemed to seek acquaintance with me, although you

did make me address you first.'

He laughed gently, and answered in the words of the ancient mariner:--

Â Â Â Â 'The moment that his face I see,

Â Â Â Â I know the man that must hear me:

Â Â Â Â To him my tale I teach.'

Without another word, he shook hands with me, and left me. Weary as I

was, I stood in the street until I could hear his footsteps no longer.

CHAPTER IX.

THE BROTHERS.

ONE day, as Falconer sat at a late breakfast, Shargar burst into his

room. Falconer had not even known that he was coming home, for he had

outstripped the letter he had sent. He had his arm in a sling, which

accounted for his leave.

'Shargar!' cried Falconer, starting up in delight.

'Major Shargar, if you please. Give me all my honours, Robert,' said

Moray, presenting his left hand.

'I congratulate you, my boy. Well, this is delightful! But you are

wounded.'

'Bullet--broken--that's all. It's nearly right again. I'll tell you

about it by and by. I am too full of something else to talk about

trifles of that sort. I want you to help me.'

He then rushed into the announcement that he had fallen desperately in

love with a lady who had come on board with her maid at Malta, where

she had been spending the winter. She was not very young, about his

own age, but very beautiful, and of enchanting address. How she could

have remained so long unmarried he could not think. It could not be

but that she had had many offers. She was an heiress, too, but that

Shargar felt to be a disadvantage for him. All the progress he could

yet boast of was that his attentions had not been, so far as he could

judge, disagreeable to her. Robert thought even less of the latter

fact than Shargar himself, for he did not believe there were many

women to whom Shargar's attentions would be disagreeable: they must

always be simple and manly. What was more to the point, she had given

him her address in London, and he was going to call upon her the next

day. She was on a visit to Lady Janet Gordon, an elderly spinster, who

lived in Park-street.

'Are you quite sure she's not an adventuress, Shargar?'

'It's o' no mainner o' use to tell ye what I'm sure or no sure o',

Robert, in sic a case. But I'll manage, somehoo, 'at ye sall see her

yersel', an' syne I'll speir back yer ain queston at ye.'

'Weel, hae ye tauld her a' aboot yersel'?'

'No!' answered Shargar, growing suddenly pale. 'I never thocht aboot

that. But I had no richt, for a' that passed, to intrude mysel' upo'

her to that extent.'

'Weel, I reckon ye're richt. Yer wounds an' yer medals ought to weigh

weel against a' that. There's this comfort in 't, that gin she bena

richt weel worthy o' ye, auld frien', she winna tak ye.'

Shargar did not seem to see the comfort of it. He was depressed for

the remainder of the day. In the morning he was in wild spirits again.

Just before he started, however, he said, with an expression of

tremulous anxiety,

'Oucht I to tell her a' at ance--already--aboot--aboot my mither?'

'I dinna say that. Maybe it wad be equally fair to her and to yersel'

to lat her ken ye a bit better afore ye do that.--We'll think that

ower.--Whan ye gang doon the stair, ye'll see a bit brougham at the

door waitin' for ye. Gie the coachman ony orders ye like. He's your

servant as lang 's ye're in London. Commit yer way to the Lord, my

boy.'

Though Shargar did not say much, he felt strengthened by Robert's

truth to meet his fate with something of composure. But it was not to

be decided that day. Therein lay some comfort.

He returned in high spirits still. He had been graciously received

both by Miss Hamilton and her hostess--a kind-hearted old lady, who

spoke Scotch with the pure tone of a gentlewoman, he said--a treat not

to be had once in a twelvemonth. She had asked him to go to dinner in

the evening, and to bring his friend with him. Robert, however, begged

him to make his excuse, as he had an engagement in--a very different

sort of place.

When Shargar returned, Robert had not come in. He was too excited to

go to bed, and waited for him. It was two o'clock before he came home.

Shargar told him there was to be a large party at Lady Patterdale's

the next evening but one, and Lady Janet had promised to procure him

an invitation.

The next morning Robert went to see Mary St. John, and asked if she

knew anything of Lady Patterdale, and whether she could get him an

invitation. Miss St. John did not know her, but she thought she could

manage it for him. He told her all about Shargar, for whose sake he

wished to see Miss Hamilton before consenting to be introduced to her.

Miss St. John set out at once, and Falconer received a card the next

day. When the evening came, he allowed Shargar to set out alone in his

brougham, and followed an hour later in a hansom.

When he reached the house, the rooms were tolerably filled, and as

several parties had arrived just before him, he managed to enter

without being announced. After a little while he caught sight of

Shargar. He stood alone, almost in a corner, with a strange, rather

raised expression in his eyes. Falconer could not see the object to

which they were directed. Certainly, their look was not that of love.

He made his way up to him and laid his hand on his arm. Shargar

betrayed no little astonishment when he saw him.

'You here, Robert!' he said.

'Yes, I'm here. Have you seen her yet? Is she here?'

'Wha do ye think 's speakin' till her this verra minute? Look there!'

Shargar said in a low voice, suppressed yet more to hide his

excitement.

Following his directions, Robert saw, amidst a little group of

gentlemen surrounding a seated lady, of whose face he could not get a

peep, a handsome elderly man, who looked more fashionable than his

years justified, and whose countenance had an expression which he felt

repulsive. He thought he had seen him before, but Shargar gave him no

time to come to a conclusion of himself.

'It's my brither Sandy, as sure 's deith!' he said; 'and he's been

hingin' aboot her ever sin' she cam in. But I dinna think she likes

him a'thegither by the leuk o' her.'

'What for dinna ye gang up till her yersel', man? I wadna stan' that

gin 'twas me.'

'I'm feared 'at he ken me. He's terrible gleg. A' the Morays are gleg,

and yon marquis has an ee like a hawk.'

'What does 't maitter? Ye hae dune naething to be ashamed o' like

him.'

'Ay; but it's this. I wadna hae her hear the trowth aboot me frae that

boar's mou' o' his first. I wad hae her hear 't frae my ain, an' syne

she canna think I meant to tak her in.'

At this moment there was a movement in the group. Shargar, receiving

no reply, looked round at Robert. It was now Shargar's turn to be

surprised at his expression.

'Are ye seein' a vraith, Robert?' he said. 'What gars ye leuk like

that, man?'

'Oh!' answered Robert, recovering himself, 'I thought I saw some one I

knew. But I'm not sure. I'll tell you afterwards. We've been talking

too earnestly. People are beginning to look at us.'

So saying, he moved away towards the group of which the marquis still

formed one. As he drew near he saw a piano behind Miss Hamilton. A

sudden impulse seized him, and he yielded to it. He made his way to

the piano, and seating himself, began to play very softly--so softly

that the sounds could scarcely be heard beyond the immediate

neighbourhood of the instrument. There was no change on the storm of

talk that filled the room. But in a few minutes a face white as a

shroud was turned round upon him from the group in front, like the

moon dawning out of a cloud. He stopped at once, saying to himself, 'I

was right;' and rising, mingled again with the crowd. A few minutes

after, he saw Shargar leading Miss Hamilton out of the room, and Lady

Janet following. He did not intend to wait his return, but got near

the door, that he might slip out when he should re-enter. But Shargar

did not return. For, the moment she reached the fresh air, Miss

Hamilton was so much better that Lady Janet, whose heart was as young

towards young people as if she had never had the unfortunate love

affair tradition assigned her, asked him to see them home, and he

followed them into her carriage. Falconer left a few minutes after,

anxious for quiet that he might make up his mind as to what he ought

to do. Before he had walked home, he had resolved on the next step.

But not wishing to see Shargar yet, and at the same time wanting to

have a night's rest, he went home only to change his clothes, and

betook himself to a hotel in Covent Garden.

He was at Lady Janet's door by ten o'clock the next morning, and sent

in his card to Miss Hamilton. He was shown into the drawing-room,

where she came to him.

'May I presume on old acquaintance?' he asked, holding out his hand.

She looked in his face quietly, took his hand, pressed it warmly, and

said,

'No one has so good a right, Mr. Falconer. Do sit down.'

He placed a chair for her, and obeyed.

After a moment's silence on both sides:

'Are you aware, Miss--?' he said and hesitated.

'Miss Hamilton,' she said with a smile. 'I was Miss Lindsay when you

knew me so many years ago. I will explain presently.'

Then with an air of expectation she awaited the finish of his

sentence.

'Are you aware, Miss Hamilton, that I am Major Moray's oldest friend?'

'I am quite aware of it, and delighted to know it. He told me so last

night.'

Somewhat dismayed at this answer, Falconer resumed,

'Did Major Moray likewise communicate with you concerning his own

history?'

'He did. He told me all.'

Falconer was again silent for some moments.

'Shall I be presuming too far if I venture to conclude that my friend

will not continue his visits?'

'On the contrary,' she answered, with the same delicate blush that in

old times used to overspread the lovely whiteness of her face, 'I

expect him within half-an-hour.'

'Then there is no time to be lost,' thought Falconer.

'Without presuming to express any opinion of my own,' he said quietly,

'a social code far less severe than that which prevails in England,

would take for granted that an impassable barrier existed between

Major Moray and Miss Hamilton.'

'Do not suppose, Mr. Falconer, that I could not meet Major Moray's

honesty with equal openness on my side.'

Falconer, for the first time almost in his life, was incapable of

speech from bewilderment. But Miss Hamilton did not in the least enjoy

his perplexity, and made haste to rescue both him and herself. With a

blush that was now deep as any rose, she resumed,

'But I owe you equal frankness, Mr. Falconer. There is no barrier

between Major Moray and myself but the foolish--no,

wicked--indiscretion of an otherwise innocent and ignorant girl.

Listen, Mr. Falconer: under the necessity of the circumstances you

will not misjudge me if I compel myself to speak calmly. This, I

trust, will be my final penance. I thought Lord Rothie was going to

marry me. To do him justice, he never said so. Make what excuse for my

folly you can. I was lost in a mist of vain imaginations. I had had no

mother to teach me anything, Mr. Falconer, and my father never

suspected the necessity of teaching me anything. I was very ill on the

passage to Antwerp, and when I began to recover a little, I found

myself beginning to doubt both my own conduct and his lordship's

intentions. Possibly the fact that he was not quite so kind to me in

my illness as I had expected, and that I felt hurt in consequence,

aided the doubt. Then the thought of my father returning and finding

that I had left him, came and burned in my heart like fire. But what

was I to do? I had never been out of Aberdeen before. I did not know

even a word of French. I was altogether in Lord Rothie's power. I

thought I loved him, but it was not much of love that sea-sickness

could get the better of. With a heart full of despair I went on shore.

The captain slipped a note into my hand. I put it in my pocket, but

pulled it out with my handkerchief in the street. Lord Rothie picked

it up. I begged him to give it me, but he read it, and then tore it in

pieces. I entered the hotel, as wretched as girl could well be. I

began to dislike him. But during dinner he was so kind and attentive

that I tried to persuade myself that my fears were fanciful. After

dinner he took me out. On the stairs we met a lady whose speech was

Scotch. Her maid called her Lady Janet. She looked kindly at me as I

passed. I thought she could read my face. I remembered afterwards that

Lord Rothie turned his head away when we met her. We went into the

cathedral. We were standing under that curious dome, and I was looking

up at its strange lights, when down came a rain of bell-notes on the

roof over my head. Before the first tune was over, I seemed to expect

the second, and then the third, without thinking how I could know what

was coming; but when they ended with the ballad of the Witch Lady, and

I lifted up my head and saw that I was not by my father's fireside,

but in Antwerp Cathedral with Lord Rothie, despair filled me with a

half-insane resolution. Happily Lord Rothie was at some little

distance talking to a priest about one of Rubens's pictures. I slipped

unseen behind the nearest pillar, and then flew from the church. How I

got to the hotel I do not know, but I did reach it. 'Lady Janet,' was

all I could say. The waiter knew the name, and led me to her room. I

threw myself on my knees, and begged her to save me. She assured me no

one should touch me. I gasped 'Lord Rothie,' and fainted. When I came

to myself--but I need not tell you all the particulars. Lady Janet did

take care of me. Till last night I never saw Lord Rothie again. I did

not acknowledge him, but he persisted in talking to me, behave as I

would, and I saw well enough that he knew me.'

Falconer took her hand and kissed it.

'Thank God,' he said. 'That spire was indeed the haunt of angels as I

fancied while I played upon those bells.'

'I knew it was you--that is, I was sure of it when I came to think

about it; but at the time I took it for a direct message from heaven,

which nobody heard but myself.'

'It was such none the less that I was sent to deliver it,' said

Falconer. 'I little thought during my imprisonment because of it, that

the end of my journey was already accomplished.'

Mysie put her hand in his.

'You have saved me, Mr. Falconer.'

'For Ericson's sake, who was dying and could not,' returned Falconer.

'Ah!' said Mysie, her large eyes opening with wonder. It was evident

she had had no suspicion of his attachment to her.

'But,' said Falconer, 'there was another in it, without whom I could

have done nothing.'

'Who was that?'

'George Moray.'

'Did he know me then?'

'No. Fortunately not. You would not have looked at him then. It was

all done for love of me. He is the truest fellow in the world, and

altogether worthy of you, Miss Hamilton. I will tell you the whole

story some day, lest he should not do himself justice.'

'Ah, that reminds me. Hamilton sounds strange in your voice. You

suspected me of having changed my name to hide my history?'

It was so, and Falconer's silence acknowledged the fact.

'Lady Janet brought me home, and told my father all. When he died a

few years after, she took me to live with her, and never rested till

she had brought me acquainted with Sir John Hamilton, in favour of

whom my father had renounced his claim to some disputed estates. Sir

John had lost his only son, and he had no daughter. He was a

kind-hearted old man, rather like my own father. He took to me, as

they say, and made me change my name to his, leaving me the property

that might have been my father's, on condition that whoever I married

should take the same name. I don't think your friend will mind making

the exchange,' said Mysie in conclusion, as the door opened and

Shargar came in.

'Robert, ye're a' gait (everywhere)!' he exclaimed as he entered.

Then, stopping to ask no questions, 'Ye see I'm to hae a name o' my

ain efter a',' he said, with a face which looked even handsome in the

light of his gladness.

Robert shook hands with him, and wished him joy heartily.

'Wha wad hae thocht it, Shargar,' he added, 'that day 'at ye pat

bonnets for hose upo' Black Geordie's huves?'

The butler announced the Marquis of Boarshead. Mysie's eyes flashed.

She rose from her seat, and advanced to meet the marquis, who entered

behind the servant. He bowed and held out his hand. Mysie retreated

one step, and stood.

'Your lordship has no right to force yourself upon me. You must have

seen that I had no wish to renew the acquaintance I was unhappy enough

to form--now, thank God, many years ago.'

'Forgive me, Miss Hamilton. One word in private,' said the marquis.

'Not a word,' returned Mysie.

'Before these gentlemen, then, whom I have not the honour of knowing,

I offer you my hand.'

'To accept that offer would be to wrong myself even more than your

lordship has done.'

She went back to where Moray was standing, and stood beside him. The

evil spirit in the marquis looked out at its windows.

'You are aware, madam,' he said, 'that your reputation is in the hand

I offer you?'

'The worse for it, my lord,' returned Mysie, with a scornful smile.

'But your lordship's brother will protect it.'

'My brother!' said the marquis. 'What do you mean? I have no brother!'

'Ye hae mair brithers than ye ken o', Lord Sandy, and I'm ane o'

them,' said Shargar.

'You are either a liar or a bastard, then,' said the marquis, who had

not been brought up in a school of which either self-restraint or

respect for women were prominent characteristics.

Falconer forgot himself for a moment, and made a stride forward.

'Dinna hit him, Robert,' cried Shargar. 'He ance gae me a shillin',

an' it helpit, as ye ken, to haud me alive to face him this day.--No

liar, my lord, but a bastard, thank heaven.' Then, with a laugh, he

instantly added, 'Gin I had been ain brither to you, my lord, God only

knows what a rascal I micht hae been.'

'By God, you shall answer for your damned insolence,' said the

marquis, and, lifting his riding-whip from the table where he had laid

it, he approached his brother.

Mysie rang the bell.

'Haud yer han', Sandy,' cried Shargar. 'I hae faced mair fearsome foes

than you. But I hae some faimily-feelin', though ye hae nane: I wadna

willin'ly strike my brither.'

As he spoke, he retreated a little. The marquis came on with raised

whip. But Falconer stepped between, laid one of his great hands on the

marquis's chest, and flung him to the other end of the room, where he

fell over an ottoman. The same moment the servant entered.

'Ask your mistress to oblige me by coming to the drawing-room,' said

Mysie.

The marquis had risen, but had not recovered his presence of mind when

Lady Janet entered. She looked inquiringly from one to the other.

'Please, Lady Janet, will you ask the Marquis of Boarshead to leave

the house,' said Mysie.

'With all my hert,' answered Lady Janet; 'and the mair that he's a

kin' o' a cousin o' my ain. Gang yer wa's, Sandy. Ye're no fit company

for decent fowk; an' that ye wad ken yersel', gin ye had ony idea left

o' what decency means.'

Without heeding her, the marquis went up to Falconer.

'Your card, sir.'

Lady Janet followed him.

''Deed ye s' get nae cairds here,' she said, pushing him aside. 'So

you allow your friends to insult me in your own house as they please,

cousin Janet?' said the marquis, who probably felt her opposition the

most formidable of all.

''Deed they canna say waur o' ye nor I think. Gang awa', an' repent.

Consider yer gray hairs, man.'

This was the severest blow he had yet received. He left the room,

'swearing at large.'

Falconer followed him; but what came of it nobody ever heard.

Major and Miss Hamilton were married within three months, and went out

to India together, taking Nancy Kennedy with them.

CHAPTER X.

A NEOPHYTE.

BEFORE many months had passed, without the slightest approach to any

formal recognition, I found myself one of the church of labour of

which Falconer was clearly the bishop. As he is the subject, or rather

object of my book, I will now record a fact which may serve to set

forth his views more clearly. I gained a knowledge of some of the

circumstances, not merely from the friendly confidences of Miss St.

John and Falconer, but from being a kind of a Scotch cousin of Lady

Janet Gordon, whom I had taken an opportunity of acquainting with the

relation. She was old-fashioned enough to acknowledge it even with

some eagerness. The ancient clan-feeling is good in this, that it

opens a channel whose very existence is a justification for the flow

of simply human feelings along all possible levels of social position.

And I would there were more of it. Only something better is coming

instead of it--a recognition of the infinite brotherhood in Christ.

All other relations, all attempts by churches, by associations, by

secret societies--of Freemasons and others, are good merely as they

tend to destroy themselves in the wider truth; as they teach men to be

dissatisfied with their limitations. But I wander; for I mentioned

Lady Janet now, merely to account for some of the information I

possess concerning Lady Georgina Betterton.

I met her once at my so-called cousin's, whom she patronized as a dear

old thing. To my mind, she was worth twenty of her, though she was

wrinkled and Scottishly sententious. 'A sweet old bat,' was another

epithet of Lady Georgina's. But she came to see her, notwithstanding,

and did not refuse to share in her nice little dinners, and least of

all, when Falconer was of the party, who had been so much taken with

Lady Janet's behaviour to the Marquis of Boarshead, just recorded,

that he positively cultivated her acquaintance thereafter.

Lady Georgina was of an old family--an aged family, indeed; so old, in

fact, that some envious people professed to think it decrepit with

age. This, however, may well be questioned if any argument bearing on

the point may be drawn from the person of Lady Georgina. She was at

least as tall as Mary St. John, and very handsome--only with somewhat

masculine features and expression. She had very sloping shoulders and

a long neck, which took its finest curves when she was talking to

inferiors: condescension was her forte. Of the admiration of the men,

she had had more than enough, although either they were afraid to go

farther, or she was hard to please.

She had never contemplated anything admirable long enough to

comprehend it; she had never looked up to man or woman with anything

like reverence; she saw too quickly and too keenly into the foibles of

all who came near her to care to look farther for their virtues. If

she had ever been humbled, and thence taught to look up, she might by

this time have been a grand woman, worthy of a great man's worship.

She patronized Miss St. John, considerably to her amusement, and

nothing to her indignation. Of course she could not understand her.

She had a vague notion of how she spent her time; and believing a

certain amount of fanaticism essential to religion, wondered how so

sensible and ladylike a person as Miss St. John could go in for it.

Meeting Falconer at Lady Janet's, she was taken with him. Possibly she

recognized in him a strength that would have made him her master, if

he had cared for such a distinction; but nothing she could say

attracted more than a passing attention on his part. Falconer was out

of her sphere, and her influences were powerless to reach him.

At length she began to have a glimmering of the relation of labour

between Miss St. John and him, and applied to the former for some

enlightenment. But Miss St. John was far from explicit, for she had no

desire for such assistance as Lady Georgina's. What motives next led

her to seek the interview I am now about to record, I cannot

satisfactorily explain, but I will hazard a conjecture or two,

although I doubt if she understood them thoroughly herself.

excitement, and feel blindly about her for something to make life

interesting. She was gifted with far more capacity than had ever been

exercised, and was of a large enough nature to have grown sooner weary

of trifles than most women of her class. She might have been an

artist, but she drew like a young lady; she might have been a

prophetess, and Byron was her greatest poet. It is no wonder that she

wanted something she had not got.

Since she had been foiled in her attempt on Miss St. John, which she

attributed to jealousy, she had, in quite another circle, heard

strange, wonderful, even romantic stories about Falconer and his

doings among the poor. A new world seemed to open before her longing

gaze--a world, or a calenture, a mirage? for would she cross the

'wandering fields of barren foam,' to reach the green grass that did

wave on the far shore? the dewless desert to reach the fair water that

did lie leagues beyond its pictured sweetness? But I think, mingled

with whatever motives she may have had, there must have been some

desire to be a nobler, that is a more useful woman than she had been.

She had not any superabundance of feminine delicacy, though she had

plenty of good-breeding, and she trusted to her position in society to

cover the eccentricity of her present undertaking.

One morning after breakfast she called upon Falconer; and accustomed

to visits from all sorts of people, Mrs. Ashton showed her into his

sitting-room without even asking her name. She found him at his piano,

apologized, in her fashionable drawl, for interrupting his music, and

accepted his offer of a chair without a shade of embarrassment.

Falconer seated himself and sat waiting.

'I fear the step I have taken will appear strange to you, Mr.

Falconer. Indeed it appears strange to myself. I am afraid it may

appear stranger still.'

'It is easy for me to leave all judgment in the matter to yourself,

Miss--I beg your pardon; I know we have met; but for the moment I

cannot recall your name.'

'Lady Georgina Betterton,' drawled the visitor carelessly, hiding

whatever annoyance she may have felt.

Falconer bowed. Lady Georgina resumed.

'Of course it only affects myself; and I am willing to take the risk,

notwithstanding the natural desire to stand well in the opinion of any

one with whom even my boldness could venture such a step.'

A smile, intended to be playful, covered the retreat of the sentence.

Falconer bowed again. Lady Georgina had yet again to resume.

'From the little I have seen, and the much I have heard of you--excuse

me, Mr. Falconer--I cannot help thinking that you know more of the

secret of life than other people--if indeed it has any secret.'

'Life certainly is no burden to me,' returned Falconer. 'If that

implies the possession of any secret which is not common property, I

fear it also involves a natural doubt whether such secret be

communicable.'

'Of course I mean only some secret everybody ought to know.'

'I do not misunderstand you.'

'I want to live. You know the world, Mr. Falconer. I need not tell you

what kind of life a girl like myself leads. I am not old, but the

gilding is worn off. Life looks bare, ugly, uninteresting. I ask you

to tell me whether there is any reality in it or not; whether its past

glow was only gilt; whether the best that can be done is to get

through with it as fast as possible?'

'Surely your ladyship must know some persons whose very countenances

prove that they have found a reality at the heart of life.'

'Yes. But none whose judgment I could trust. I cannot tell how soon

they may find reason to change their minds on the subject. Their

satisfaction may only be that they have not tried to rub the varnish

off the gilding so much as I, and therefore the gilding itself still

shines a little in their eyes.'

'If it be only gilding, it is better it should be rubbed off.'

'But I am unwilling to think it is. I am not willing to sign a bond of

farewell to hope. Life seemed good once. It is bad enough that it

seems such no longer, without consenting that it must and shall be so.

Allow me to add, for my own sake, that I speak from the bitterness of

no chagrin. I have had all I ever cared--or condescended to wish for.

I never had anything worth the name of a disappointment in my life.'

'I cannot congratulate you upon that,' said Falconer, seriously. 'But

if there be a truth or a heart in life, assurance of the fact can only

spring from harmony with that truth. It is not to be known save by

absolute contact with it; and the sole guide in the direction of it

must be duty: I can imagine no other possible conductor. We must do

before we can know.'

'Yes, yes,' replied Lady Georgina, hastily, in a tone that implied,

'Of course, of course: we know all about that.' But aware at once,

with the fine instinct belonging to her mental organization, that she

was thus shutting the door against all further communication, she

added instantly: 'But what is one's duty? There is the question.'

'The thing that lies next you, of course. You are, and must remain,

the sole judge of that. Another cannot help you.'

'But that is just what I do not know.'

I interrupt Lady Georgina to remark--for I too have been a pupil of

Falconer--that I believe she must have suspected what her duty was,

and would not look firmly at her own suspicion. She added:

'I want direction.'

But the same moment she proceeded to indicate the direction in which

she wanted to be directed; for she went on:

'You know that now-a-days there are so many modes in which to employ

one's time and money that one does not know which to choose. The lower

strata of society, you know, Mr. Falconer--so many channels! I want

the advice of a man of experience, as to the best investment, if I may

use the expression: I do not mean of money only, but of time as well.'

'I am not fitted to give advice in such a matter.'

'Mr. Falconer!'

'I assure you I am not. I subscribe to no society myself--not one.'

'Excuse me, but I can hardly believe the rumours I hear of you--people

will talk, you know--are all inventions. They say you are for ever

burrowing amongst the poor. Excuse the phrase.'

'I excuse or accept it, whichever you please. Whatever I do, I am my

own steward.'

'Then you are just the person to help me! I have a fortune, not very

limited, at my own disposal: a gentleman who is his own steward, would

find his labours merely facilitated by administering for another as

well--such labours, I mean.'

'I must beg to be excused, Lady Georgina. I am accountable only for my

own, and of that I have quite as much as I can properly manage. It is

far more difficult to use money for others than to spend it for

yourself.'

'Ah!' said Lady Georgina, thoughtfully, and cast an involuntary glance

round the untidy room, with its horse-hair furniture, its ragged array

of books on the wall, its side-table littered with pamphlets he never

read, with papers he never printed, with pipes he smoked by chance

turns. He saw the glance and understood it.

'I am accustomed,' he said, 'to be in such sad places for human beings

to live in, that I sometimes think even this dingy old room an

absolute palace of comfort.--But,' he added, checking himself, as it

were, 'I do not see in the least how your proposal would facilitate an

answer to your question.'

'You seem hardly inclined to do me justice,' said Lady Georgina, with,

for the first time, a perceptible, though slight shadow crossing the

disc of her resolution. 'I only meant it,' she went on, 'as a step

towards a further proposal, which I think you will allow looks at

least in the direction you have been indicating.'

She paused.

'May I beg of you to state the proposal?' said Falconer.

But Lady Georgina was apparently in some little difficulty as to the

proper form in which to express her object. At last it appeared in the

cloak of a question.

'Do you require no assistance in your efforts for the elevation of the

lower classes?' she asked.

'I don't make any such efforts,' said Falconer.

Some of my lady-readers will probably be remarking to themselves, 'How

disagreeable of him! I can't endure the man.' If they knew how

Falconer had to beware of the forwardness and annoyance of

well-meaning women, they would not dislike him so much. But Falconer

could be indifferent to much dislike, and therein I know some men that

envy him.

When he saw, however, that Lady Georgina was trying to swallow a lump

in her throat, he hastened to add,

'I have only relations with individuals--none with classes.'

Lady Georgina gathered her failing courage. 'Then there is the more

hope for me,' she said. 'Surely there are things a woman might be

useful in that a man cannot do so well--especially if she would do as

she was told, Mr. Falconer?'

He looked at her, inquiring of her whole person what numen abode in

the fane. She misunderstood the look.

'I could dress very differently, you know. I will be a sister of

charity, if you like.'

'And wear a uniform?--as if the god of another world wanted to make

proselytes or traitors in this! No, Lady Georgina, it was not of a

dress so easily altered that I was thinking; it was of the habit, the

dress of mind, of thought, of feeling. When you laid aside your

beautiful dress, could you avoid putting on the garment of

condescension, the most unchristian virtue attributed to Deity or

saint? Could you--I must be plain with you, Lady Georgina, for this

has nothing to do with the forms of so-called society--could your

temper endure the mortifications of low opposition and

misrepresentation of motive and end--which, avoid intrusion as you

might, would yet force themselves on your perception? Could you be

rudely, impudently thwarted by the very persons for whom you were

spending your strength and means, and show no resentment? Could you

make allowances for them as for your own brothers and sisters, your

own children?'

Lady Georgina was silent.

'I shall seem to glorify myself, but at that risk I must put the

reality before you.--Could you endure the ugliness both moral and

physical which you must meet at every turn? Could you look upon

loathsomeness, not merely without turning away in disgust, and thus

wounding the very heart you would heal, but without losing your belief

in the Fatherhood of God, by losing your faith in the actual

blood-relationship to yourself of these wretched beings? Could you

believe in the immortal essence hidden under all this garbage--God at

the root of it all? How would the delicate senses you probably inherit

receive the intrusions from which they could not protect themselves?

Would you be in no danger of finding personal refuge in the horrid

fancy, that these are but the slimy borders of humanity where it

slides into, and is one with bestiality? I could show you one fearful

baboon-like woman, whose very face makes my nerves shudder: could you

believe that woman might one day become a lady, beautiful as yourself,

and therefore minister to her? Would you not be tempted, for the sake

of your own comfort, if not for the pride of your own humanity, to

believe that, like untimely blossoms, these must fall from off the

boughs of the tree of life, and come to nothing at all--a theory that

may do for the preacher, but will not do for the worker: him it would

paralyze?--or, still worse, infinitely worse, that they were doomed,

from their birth, to endless ages of a damnation, filthy as that in

which you now found them, and must probably leave them? If you could

come to this, you had better withhold your hand; for no desire for the

betterment of the masses, as they are stupidly called, can make up for

a lack of faith in the individual. If you cannot hope for them in your

heart, your hands cannot reach them to do them good. They will only

hurt them.'

Lady Georgina was still silent. Falconer's eloquence had perhaps made

her ashamed.

'I want you to sit down and count the cost, before you do any mischief

by beginning what you are unfit for. Last week I was compelled more

than once to leave the house where my duty led me, and to sit down

upon a stone in the street, so ill that I was in danger of being led

away as intoxicated, only the policeman happened to know me. Twice I

went back to the room I had left, crowded with human animals, and one

of them at least dying. It was all I could do, and I have tolerable

nerve and tolerable experience.'

A mist was gathering over Lady Georgina's eyes. She confessed it

afterwards to Miss St. John. And through the mist he looked larger

than human.

'And then the time you must spend before you can lay hold upon them at

all, that is with the personal relation which alone is of any real

influence! Our Saviour himself had to be thirty years in the world

before he had footing enough in it to justify him in beginning to

teach publicly: he had been laying the needful foundations all the

time. Not under any circumstances could I consent to make use of you

before you had brought yourself into genuine relations with some of

them first.'

'Do you count societies, then, of no use whatever?' Lady Georgina

asked, more to break the awkwardness of her prolonged silence than for

any other reason.

'In as far as any of the persons they employ fulfil the conditions of

which I have spoken, they are useful--that is, just in as far as they

come into genuine human relations with those whom they would help. In

as far as their servants are incapable of this, the societies are

hurtful. The chief good which societies might effect would be the

procuring of simple justice for the poor. That is what they need at

the hands of the nation, and what they do not receive. But though few

can have the knowledge of the poor I have, many could do something, if

they would only set about it simply, and not be too anxious to convert

them; if they would only be their friends after a common-sense

fashion. I know, say, a hundred wretched men and women far better than

a man in general knows him with whom he claims an ordinary intimacy. I

know many more by sight whose names in the natural course of events I

shall probably know soon. I know many of their relations to each

other, and they talk about each other to me as if I were one of

themselves, which I hope in God I am. I have been amongst them a good

many years now, and shall probably spend my life amongst them. When I

went first, I was repeatedly robbed; now I should hardly fear to carry

another man's property. Two years ago I had my purse taken, but next

morning it was returned, I do not know by whom: in fact it was put

into my pocket again--every coin, as far as I could judge, as it left

me. I seldom pretend to teach them--only now and then drop a word of

advice. But possibly, before I die, I may speak to them in public. At

present I avoid all attempt at organization of any sort, and as far as

I see, am likely of all things to avoid it. What I want is first to be

their friend, and then to be at length recognized as such. It is only

in rare cases that I seek the acquaintance of any of them: I let it

come naturally. I bide my time. Almost never do I offer assistance. I

wait till they ask it, and then often refuse the sort they want. The

worst thing you can do for them is to attempt to save them from the

natural consequences of wrong: you may sometimes help them out of

them. But it is right to do many things for them when you know them,

which it would not be right to do for them until you know them. I am

amongst them; they know me; their children know me; and something is

always occurring that makes this or that one come to me. Once I have a

footing, I seldom lose it. So you see, in this my labour I am content

to do the thing that lies next me. I wait events. You have had no

training, no blundering to fit you for such work. There are many other

modes of being useful; but none in which I could undertake to direct

you. I am not in the habit of talking so much about my ways--but that

is of no consequence. I think I am right in doing so in this

instance.'

'I cannot misunderstand you,' faltered Lady Georgina.

Falconer was silent. Without looking up from the floor on which her

eyes had rested all the time he spoke, Lady Georgina said at last,

'Then what is my next duty? What is the thing that lies nearest to

me?'

'That, I repeat, belongs to your every-day history. No one can answer

that question but yourself. Your next duty is just to determine what

your next duty is.--Is there nothing you neglect? Is there nothing you

know you ought not to do?--You would know your duty, if you thought in

earnest about it, and were not ambitious of great things.'

'Ah then,' responded Lady Georgina, with an abandoning sigh, 'I

suppose it is something very commonplace, which will make life more

dreary than ever. That cannot help me.'

'It will, if it be as dreary as reading the newspapers to an old deaf

aunt. It will soon lead you to something more. Your duty will begin to

comfort you at once, but will at length open the unknown fountain of

life in your heart.'

Lady Georgina lifted up her head in despair, looked at Falconer

through eyes full of tears, and said vehemently,

'Mr. Falconer, you can have no conception how wretched a life like

mine is. And the futility of everything is embittered by the

consciousness that it is from no superiority to such things that I do

not care for them.'

'It is from superiority to such things that you do not care for them.

You were not made for such things. They cannot fill your heart. It has

whole regions with which they have no relation.'

'The very thought of music makes me feel ill. I used to be

passionately fond of it.'

'I presume you got so far in it that you asked, "Is there nothing

more?" Concluding there was nothing more, and yet needing more, you

turned from it with disappointment?'

'It is the same,' she went on hurriedly, 'with painting, modelling,

reading--whatever I have tried. I am sick of them all. They do nothing

for me.'

'How can you enjoy music, Lady Georgina, if you are not in harmony

with the heart and source of music?'

'How do you mean?'

'Until the human heart knows the divine heart, it must sigh and

complain like a petulant child, who flings his toys from him because

his mother is not at home. When his mother comes back to him he finds

his toys are good still. When we find Him in our own hearts, we shall

find him in everything, and music will be deep enough then, Lady

Georgina. It is this that the Brahmin and the Platonist seek; it is

this that the mystic and the anchorite sigh for; towards this the

teaching of the greatest of men would lead us: Lord Bacon himself

says, "Nothing can fill, much less extend the soul of man, but God,

and the contemplation of God." It is Life you want. If you will look

in your New Testament, and find out all that our Lord says about Life,

you will find the only cure for your malady. I know what such talk

looks like; but depend upon it, what I am talking about is something

very different from what you fancy it. Anyhow to this you must come,

one day or other.'

'But how am I to gain this indescribable good, which so many seek, and

so few find?'

'Those are not my words,' said Falconer emphatically. 'I should have

said--"which so few yet seek; but so many shall at length find."'

'Do not quarrel with my foolish words, but tell me how I am to find

it; for I suppose there must be something in what so many good people

assert.'

'You thought I could give you help?'

'Yes. That is why I came to you.'

'Just so. I cannot give you help. Go and ask it of one who can.'

'Speak more plainly.'

'Well then: if there be a God, he must hear you if you call to him. If

there be a father, he will listen to his child. He will teach you

everything.'

'But I don't know what I want.'

'He does: ask him to tell you what you want. It all comes back to the

old story: "If ye then being evil, know how to give good gifts to your

children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the holy Spirit

to them that ask him!" But I wish you would read your New

Testament--the Gospels I mean: you are not in the least fit to

understand the Epistles yet. Read the story of our Saviour as if you

had never read it before. He at least was a man who seemed to have

that secret of life after the knowledge of which your heart is

longing.'

Lady Georgina rose. Her eyes were again full of tears. Falconer too

was moved. She held out her hand to him, and without another word left

the room. She never came there again.

Her manner towards Falconer was thereafter much altered. People said

she was in love with him: if she was, it did her no harm. Her whole

character certainly was changed. She sought the friendship of Miss St.

John, who came at length to like her so much, that she took her with

her in some of her walks among the poor. By degrees she began to do

something herself after a quiet modest fashion. But within a few

years, probably while so engaged, she caught a fever from which she

did not recover. It was not till after her death that Falconer told

any one of the interview he had had with her. And by that time I had

the honour of being very intimate with him. When she knew that she was

dying, she sent for him. Mary St. John was with her. She left them

together. When he came out, he was weeping.

CHAPTER XI.

THE SUICIDE.

FALCONER lived on and laboured on in London. Wherever he found a man

fitted for the work, he placed him in such office as De Fleuri already

occupied. At the same time he went more into society, and gained the

friendship of many influential people. Besides the use he made of this

to carry out plans for individual rescue, it enabled him to bestir

himself for the first and chief good which he believed it was in the

power of the government to effect for the class amongst which he

laboured. As I have shown, he did not believe in any positive good

being effected save through individual contact--through faith, in a

word--faith in the human helper--which might become a stepping-stone

through the chaotic misery towards faith in the Lord and in his

Father. All that association could do, as such, was only, in his

judgment, to remove obstructions from the way of individual growth and

education--to put better conditions within reach--first of all, to

provide that the people should be able, if they would, to live

decently. He had no notion of domestic inspection, or of offering

prizes for cleanliness and order. He knew that misery and wretchedness

are the right and best condition of those who live so that misery and

wretchedness are the natural consequences of their life. But there

ought always to be the possibility of emerging from these; and as

things were, over the whole country, for many who would if they could,

it was impossible to breathe fresh air, to be clean, to live like

human beings. And he saw this difficulty ever on the increase, through

the rapacity of the holders of small house-property, and the utter

wickedness of railway companies, who pulled down every house that

stood in their way, and did nothing to provide room for those who were

thus ejected--most probably from a wretched place, but only, to be

driven into a more wretched still. To provide suitable dwellings for

the poor he considered the most pressing of all necessary reforms. His

own fortune was not sufficient for doing much in this way, but he set

about doing what he could by purchasing houses in which the poor

lived, and putting them into the hands of persons whom he could trust,

and who were immediately responsible to him for their proceedings:

they had to make them fit for human abodes, and let them to those who

desired better accommodation, giving the preference to those already

tenants, so long as they paid their reasonable rent, which he

considered far more necessary for them to do than for him to have

done.

One day he met by appointment the owner of a small block, of which he

contemplated the purchase. They were in a dreadfully dilapidated

condition, a shame that belonged more to the owner than the

inhabitants. The man wanted to sell the houses, or at least was

willing to sell them, but put an exorbitant price upon them. Falconer

expostulated.

'I know the whole of the rent these houses could bring you in,' he

said, 'without making any deduction for vacancies and defalcations:

what you ask is twice as much as they would fetch if the full rent

were certain.'

The poor wretch looked up at him with the leer of a ghoul. He was

dressed like a broken-down clergyman, in rusty black, with a

neck-cloth of whitey-brown.

'I admit it,' he said in good English, and a rather educated tone.

'Your arguments are indisputable. I confess besides that so far short

does the yield come of the amount on paper, that it would pay me to

give them away. But it's the funerals, sir, that make it worth my

while. I'm an undertaker, as you may judge from my costume. I count

back-rent in the burying. People may cheat their landlord, but they

can't cheat the undertaker. They must be buried. That's the one

indispensable--ain't it, sir?'

Falconer had let him run on that he might have the measure of him. Now

he was prepared with his reply.

'You've told me your profession,' he said: 'I'll tell you mine. I am a

lawyer. If you don't let me have those houses for five hundred, which

is the full market value, I'll prosecute you. It'll take a good penny

from the profits of your coffins to put those houses in a state to

satisfy the inspector.'

The wretched creature was struck dumb. Falconer resumed.

'You're the sort of man that ought to be kept to your pound of filthy

flesh. I know what I say; and I'll do it. The law costs me nothing.

You won't find it so.'

The undertaker sold the houses, and no longer in that quarter killed

the people he wanted to bury.

I give this as a specimen of the kind of thing Falconer did. But he

took none of the business part in his own hands, on the same principle

on which Paul the Apostle said it was unmeet for him to leave the

preaching of the word in order to serve tables--not that the thing was

beneath him, but that it was not his work so long as he could be doing

more important service still.

De Fleuri was one of his chief supports. The whole nature of the man

mellowed under the sun of Falconer, and over the work that Falconer

gave him to do. His daughter recovered, and devoted herself to the

same labour that had rescued her. Miss St. John was her superior. By

degrees, without any laws or regulations, a little company was

gathered, not of ladies and gentlemen, but of men and women, who aided

each, other, and without once meeting as a whole, laboured not the

less as one body in the work of the Lord, bound in one by bonds that

had nothing to do with cobweb committee meetings or public dinners,

chairmen or wine-flushed subscriptions. They worked like the leaven of

which the Lord spoke.

But De Fleuri, like almost every one in the community I believe, had

his own private schemes subserving the general good. He knew the best

men of his own class and his own trade, and with them his superior

intellectual gifts gave him influence. To them he told the story of

Falconer's behaviour to him, of Falconer's own need, and of his

hungry-hearted search. An enthusiasm of help seized upon the men. To

aid your superior is such a rousing gladness!--Was anything of this in

St. Paul's mind when he spoke of our being fellow-workers with God? I

only put the question.--Each one of these had his own trustworthy

acquaintances, or neighbours, rather--for like finds out like all the

world through, as well as over--and to them he told the story of

Falconer and his father, so that in all that region of London it

became known that the man who loved the poor was himself needy, and

looked to the poor for their help. Without them he could not be made

perfect.

Some of my readers may be inclined to say that it was dishonourable in

Falconer to have occasioned the publishing of his father's disgrace.

Such may recall to their minds that concealment is no law of the

universe; that, on the contrary, the Lord of the Universe said once:

'There is nothing covered that shall not be revealed.' Was the

disgrace of Andrew Falconer greater because a thousand men knew it,

instead of forty, who could not help knowing it? Hope lies in light

and knowledge. Andrew would be none the worse that honest men knew of

his vice: they would be the first to honour him if he should overcome

it. If he would not--the disgrace was just, and would fall upon his

son only in sorrow, not in dishonour. The grace of God--the making of

humanity by his beautiful hand--no, heart--is such, that disgrace

clings to no man after repentance, any more than the feet defiled with

the mud of the world come yet defiled from the bath. Even the things

that proceed out of the man, and do terribly defile him, can be cast

off like the pollution of the leper by a grace that goes deeper than

they; and the man who says, 'I have sinned: I will sin no more,' is

even by the voice of his brothers crowned as a conqueror, and by their

hearts loved as one who has suffered and overcome. Blessing on the

God-born human heart! Let the hounds of God, not of Satan, loose upon

sin;--God only can rule the dogs of the devil;--let them hunt it to

the earth; let them drag forth the demoniac to the feet of the Man who

loved the people while he let the devil take their swine; and do not

talk about disgrace from a thing being known when the disgrace is that

the thing should exist.

One night I was returning home from some poor attempts of my own. I

had now been a pupil of Falconer for a considerable time, but having

my own livelihood to make, I could not do so much as I would.

It was late, nearly twelve o'clock, as I passed through the region of

Seven Dials. Here and there stood three or four brutal-looking men,

and now and then a squalid woman with a starveling baby in her arms,

in the light of the gin-shops. The babies were the saddest to

see--nursery-plants already in training for the places these men and

women now held, then to fill a pauper's grave, or perhaps a perpetual

cell--say rather, for the awful spaces of silence, where the railway

director can no longer be guilty of a worse sin than house-breaking,

and his miserable brother will have no need of the shelter of which he

deprived him. Now and then a flaunting woman wavered past--a

night-shade, as our old dramatists would have called her. I could

hardly keep down an evil disgust that would have conquered my pity,

when a scanty white dress would stop beneath a lamp, and the gay dirty

bonnet, turning round, reveal a painted face, from which shone little

more than an animal intelligence, not brightened by the gin she had

been drinking. Vague noises of strife and of drunken wrath flitted

around me as I passed an alley, or an opening door let out its evil

secret. Once I thought I heard the dull thud of a blow on the head.

The noisome vapours were fit for any of Swedenborg's hells. There were

few sounds, but the very quiet seemed infernal. The night was hot and

sultry. A skinned cat, possibly still alive, fell on the street before

me. Under one of the gas-lamps lay something long: it was a tress of

dark hair, torn perhaps from some woman's head: she had beautiful hair

at least. Once I heard the cry of murder, but where, in that chaos of

humanity, right or left, before or behind me, I could not even guess.

Home to such regions, from gorgeous stage-scenery and dresses, from

splendid, mirror-beladen casinos, from singing-halls, and places of

private and prolonged revelry, trail the daughters of men at all hours

from midnight till morning. Next day they drink hell-fire that they

may forget. Sleep brings an hour or two of oblivion, hardly of peace;

but they must wake, worn and miserable, and the waking brings no hope:

their only known help lies in the gin-shop. What can be done with

them? But the secrets God keeps must be as good as those he tells.

But no sights of the night ever affected me so much as walking through

this same St. Giles's on a summer Sunday morning, when church-goers

were in church. Oh! the faces that creep out into the sunshine then,

and haunt their doors! Some of them but skins drawn over skulls,

living Death's-heads, grotesque in their hideousness.

I was not very far from Falconer's abode. My mind was oppressed with

sad thoughts and a sense of helplessness. I began to wonder what

Falconer might at that moment be about. I had not seen him for a long

time--a whole fortnight. He might be at home: I would go and see, and

if there were light in his windows I would ring his bell.

I went. There was light in his windows. He opened the door himself,

and welcomed me. I went up with him, and we began to talk. I told him

of my sad thoughts, and my feelings of helplessness.

'He that believeth shall not make haste,' he said. 'There is plenty of

time. You must not imagine that the result depends on you, or that a

single human soul can be lost because you may fail. The question, as

far as you are concerned, is, whether you are to be honoured in having

a hand in the work that God is doing, and will do, whether you help

him or not. Some will be honoured: shall it be me? And this honour

gained excludes no one: there is work, as there is bread in his house,

enough and to spare. It shows no faith in God to make frantic efforts

or frantic lamentations. Besides, we ought to teach ourselves to see,

as much as we may, the good that is in the condition of the poor.'

'Teach me to see that, then,' I said. 'Show me something.'

'The best thing is their kindness to each other. There is an absolute

divinity in their self-denial for those who are poorer than

themselves. I know one man and woman, married people, who pawned their

very furniture and wearing apparel to procure cod-liver oil for a girl

dying in consumption. She was not even a relative, only an

acquaintance of former years. They had found her destitute and taken

her to their own poor home. There are fathers and mothers who will

work hard all the morning, and when dinner-time comes "don't want

any," that there may be enough for their children--or half enough,

more likely. Children will take the bread out of their own mouths to

put in that of their sick brother, or to stick in the fist of baby

crying for a crust--giving only a queer little helpless grin, half of

hungry sympathy, half of pleasure, as they see it disappear. The

marvel to me is that the children turn out so well as they do; but

that applies to the children in all ranks of life. Have you ever

watched a group of poor children, half-a-dozen of them with babies in

their arms?'

'I have, a little, and have seen such a strange mixture of

carelessness and devotion.'

'Yes. I was once stopped in the street by a child of ten, with face

absolutely swollen with weeping, asking me to go and see baby who was

very ill. She had dropped him four times that morning, but had no idea

that could have done him any harm. The carelessness is ignorance.

Their form of it is not half so shocking as that of the mother who

will tremble at the slightest sign of suffering in her child, but will

hear him lie against his brother without the smallest discomfort. Ah!

we shall all find, I fear, some day, that we have differed from each

other, where we have done best, only in mode--perhaps not even in

degree. A grinding tradesman takes advantage of the over supply of

labour to get his work done at starvation prices: I owe him love, and

have never thought of paying my debt except in boundless indignation.'

'I wish I had your faith and courage, Mr. Falconer,' I said.

'You are in a fair way of having far more,' he returned. 'You are not

so old as I am, by a long way. But I fear you are getting out of

spirits. Is to-morrow a hard day with you?'

'I have next to nothing to do to-morrow.'

'Then will you come to me in the evening? We will go out together.'

Of course I was only too glad to accept the proposal. But our talk did

not end here. The morning began to shine before I rose to leave him;

and before I reached my abode it was broad daylight. But what a

different heart I carried within me! And what a different London it

was outside of me! The scent of the hayfields came on the

hardly-moving air. It was a strange morning--a new day of unknown

history--in whose young light the very streets were transformed,

looking clear and clean, and wondrously transparent in perspective,

with unknown shadows lying in unexpected nooks, with projection and

recess, line and bend, as I had never seen them before. The light was

coming as if for the first time since the city sprang into being--as

if a thousand years had rolled over it in darkness and lamplight, and

now, now, after the prayers and longings of ages, the sun of God was

ascending the awful east, and the spirit-voice had gone forth: 'Arise,

shine, for thy light is come.'

It was a well-behaved, proper London through which I walked home. Here

and there, it is true, a debauched-looking man, with pale face, and

red sleepy eyes, or a weary, withered girl, like a half-moon in the

daylight, straggled somewhither. But they looked strange to the London

of the morning. They were not of it. Alas for those who creep to their

dens, like the wild beasts when the sun arises, because the light has

shaken them out of the world. All the horrid phantasms of the Valley

of the Shadow of Death that had risen from the pit with the vaporous

night had sunk to escape the arrows of the sun, once more into its

bottomless depth. If any horrid deed was doing now, how much more

horrid in the awful still light of this first hour of a summer morn!

How many evil passions now lay sunk under the holy waves of sleep! How

many heartaches were gnawing only in dreams, to wake with the brain,

and gnaw in earnest again! And over all brooded the love of the Lord

Christ, who is Lord over all blessed for ever, and shall yet cast

death and hell into the lake of fire--the holy purifying Fate.

I got through my sole engagement--a very dreary one, for surely never

were there stupider young people in the whole region of rank than

those to whom duty and necessity sent me on the Wednesday mornings of

that London season--even with some enjoyment. For the lessons Falconer

had been giving me clung to me and grew on me until I said thus to

myself: 'Am I to believe only for the poor, and not for the rich? Am I

not to bear with conceit even, hard as it is to teach? for is not this

conceit itself the measure as the consequence of incapacity and

ignorance? They cannot help being born stupid, any more than some of

those children in St. Giles's can help being born preternaturally,

unhealthily clever. I am going with my friend this evening: that hope

is enough to make me strong for one day at least.' So I set myself to

my task, and that morning wiled the first gleam of intelligent delight

out of the eyes of one poor little washed-out ladyship. I could have

kissed her from positive thankfulness.

The day did wear over. The evening did come. I was with my friend--for

friend I could call him none the less and all the more that I

worshipped him.

'I have business in Westminster,' he said, 'and then on the other side

of the water.'

'I am more and more astonished at your knowledge of London, Mr.

Falconer,' I said. 'You must have a great faculty for places.'

'I think rather the contrary,' he answered. 'But there is no end to

the growth of a faculty, if one only uses it--especially when his

whole nature is interested in its efficiency, and makes demands upon

it. The will applies to the intellect; the intellect communicates its

necessities to the brain; the brain bestirs itself, and grows more

active; the eyes lend their aid; the memory tries not to be behind;

and at length you have a man gifted in localities.'

'How is it that people generally can live in such quiet ignorance of

the regions that surround them, and the kind of humanity so near

them?' I said after a pause.

'It does seem strange. It is as if a man should not know who were in

his own house. Would-be civilization has for the very centre of its

citadel, for the citizens of its innermost city, for the heart around

which the gay and fashionable, the learned, the artistic, the

virtuous, the religious are gathered, a people some of whom are

barbarous, some cruel, many miserable, many unhappy, save for brief

moments not of hope, but of defiance, distilled in the alembic of the

brain from gin: what better life could steam up from such a

Phlegethon! Look there: "Cream of the Valley!" As if the mocking

serpent must with sweet words of Paradise deepen the horrors of the

hellish compound, to which so many of our brothers and sisters made in

the image of God, fly as to their only Saviour from the misery of

feeling alive.'

'How is it that the civilized people of London do not make a

simultaneous inroad upon the haunts of the demons and drive them out?'

'It is a mercy they do not. They would only do infinite mischief. The

best notion civilization seems to have is--not to drive out the

demons, but to drive out the possessed; to take from them the poor

refuges they have, and crowd them into deeper and more fetid hells--to

make room for what?--more and more temples in which Mammon may be

worshipped. The good people on the other hand invade them with foolish

tracts, that lie against God; or give their money to build churches,

where there is as yet no people that will go to them. Why, the other

day, a young clergyman bored me, and would have been boring me till

now, I think, if I would have let him, to part with a block of my

houses, where I know every man, woman, and child, and keep them in

comparative comfort and cleanliness and decency, to say no more, that

he might pull them down and build a church upon the site--not quite

five minutes' walk from the church where he now officiates.'

It was a blowing, moon-lit night. The gaslights flickered and wavered

in the gusts of wind. It was cold, very cold for the season. Even

Falconer buttoned his coat over his chest. He got a few paces in

advance of me sometimes, when I saw him towering black and tall and

somewhat gaunt, like a walking shadow. The wind increased in violence.

It was a north-easter, laden with dust, and a sense of frozen Siberian

steppes. We had to stoop and head it at the corners of streets. Not

many people were out, and those who were, seemed to be hurrying home.

A few little provision-shops, and a few inferior butchers' stalls were

still open. Their great jets of gas, which looked as if they must

poison the meat, were flaming fierce and horizontal, roaring like

fiery flags, and anon dying into a blue hiss. Discordant singing, more

like the howling of wild beasts, came from the corner houses, which

blazed like the gates of hell. Their doors were ever on the swing, and

the hot odours of death rushed out, and the cold blast of life rushed

in. We paused a little before one of them--over the door, upon the

sign, was in very deed the name Death. There were ragged women within

who took their half-dead babies from their bare, cold, cheerless

bosoms, and gave them of the poison of which they themselves drank

renewed despair in the name of comfort. They say that most of the gin

consumed in London is drunk by women. And the little clay-coloured

baby-faces made a grimace or two, and sank to sleep on the thin tawny

breasts of the mothers, who having gathered courage from the essence

of despair, faced the scowling night once more, and with bare necks

and hopeless hearts went--whither? Where do they all go when the

gin-hells close their yawning jaws? Where do they lie down at night?

They vanish like unlawfully risen corpses in the graves of cellars and

garrets, in the charnel-vaults of pestiferously-crowded

lodging-houses, in the prisons of police-stations, under dry arches,

within hoardings; or they make vain attempts to rest the night out

upon door-steps or curbstones. All their life long man denies them the

one right in the soil which yet is so much theirs, that once that life

is over, he can no longer deny it--the right of room to lie down.

Space itself is not allowed to be theirs by any right of existence:

the voice of the night-guardian commanding them to move on, is as the

howling of a death-hound hunting them out of the air into their

graves.

In St. James's we came upon a group around the gates of a great house.

Visitors were coming and going, and it was a show to be had for

nothing by those who had nothing to pay. Oh! the children with clothes

too ragged to hold pockets for their chilled hands, that stared at the

childless duchess descending from her lordly carriage! Oh! the wan

faces, once lovely as theirs, it may be, that gazed meagre and pinched

and hungry on the young maidens in rose-colour and blue, tripping

lightly through the avenue of their eager eyes--not yet too envious of

unattainable felicity to gaze with admiring sympathy on those who

seemed to them the angels, the goddesses of their kind. 'O God!' I

thought, but dared not speak, 'and thou couldst make all these girls

so lovely! Thou couldst give them all the gracious garments of rose

and blue and white if thou wouldst! Why should these not be like

those? They are hungry even, and wan and torn. These too are thy

children. There is wealth enough in thy mines and in thy green fields,

room enough in thy starry spaces, O God!' But a voice--the echo of

Falconer's teaching, awoke in my heart--'Because I would have these

more blessed than those, and those more blessed with them, for they

are all my children.'

By the Mall we came into Whitehall, and so to Westminster Bridge.

Falconer had changed his mind, and would cross at once. The present

bridge was not then finished, and the old bridge alongside of it was

still in use for pedestrians. We went upon it to reach the other side.

Its centre rose high above the other, for the line of the new bridge

ran like a chord across the arc of the old. Through chance gaps in the

boarding between, we looked down on the new portion which was as yet

used by carriages alone. The moon had, throughout the evening,

alternately shone in brilliance from amidst a lake of blue sky, and

been overwhelmed in billowy heaps of wind-tormented clouds. As we

stood on the apex of the bridge, looking at the night, the dark river,

and the mass of human effort about us, the clouds gathered and closed

and tumbled upon her in crowded layers. The wind howled through the

arches beneath, swept along the boarded fences, and whistled in their

holes. The gas-lights blew hither and thither, and were perplexed to

live at all.

We were standing at a spot where some shorter pieces had been used in

the hoarding; and, although I could not see over them, Falconer, whose

head rose more than half a foot above mine, was looking on the other

bridge below. Suddenly he grasped the top with his great hands, and

his huge frame was over it in an instant. I was on the top of the

hoarding the same moment, and saw him prostrate some twelve feet

below. He was up the next instant, and running with huge paces

diagonally towards the Surrey side. He had seen the figure of a woman

come flying along from the Westminster side, without bonnet or shawl.

When she came under the spot where we stood, she had turned across at

an obtuse angle towards the other side of the bridge, and Falconer,

convinced that she meant to throw herself into the river, went over as

I have related. She had all but scrambled over the fence--for there

was no parapet yet--by the help of the great beam that ran along to

support it, when he caught her by her garments. So poor and thin were

those garments, that if she had not been poor and thin too, she would

have dropped from them into the darkness below. He took her in his

arms, lifted her down upon the bridge, and stood as if protecting her

from a pursuing death. I had managed to find an easier mode of

descent, and now stood a little way from them.

'Poor girl! poor girl!' he said, as if to himself: 'was this the only

way left?'

Then he spoke tenderly to her. What he said I could not hear--I only

heard the tone.

'O sir!' she cried, in piteous entreaty, 'do let me go. Why should a

wretched creature like me be forced to live? It's no good to you, sir.

Do let me go.'

'Come here,' he said, drawing her close to the fence. 'Stand up again

on the beam. Look down.'

She obeyed, in a mechanical kind of way. But as he talked, and she

kept looking down on the dark mystery beneath, flowing past with every

now and then a dull vengeful glitter--continuous, forceful, slow, he

felt her shudder in his still clasping arm.

'Look,' he said, 'how it crawls along--black and slimy! how silent and

yet how fierce! Is that a nice place to go to down there? Would there

be any rest there, do you think, tumbled about among filth and

creeping things, and slugs that feed on the dead; among drowned women

like yourself drifting by, and murdered men, and strangled babies? Is

that the door by which you would like to go out of the world?'

'It's no worse,' she faltered, '--not so bad as what I should leave

behind.'

'If this were the only way out of it, I would not keep you from it. I

would say, "Poor thing! there is no help: she must go." But there is

another way.'

'There is no other way, sir--if you knew all,' she said.

'Tell me, then.'

'I cannot. I dare not. Please--I would rather go.'

She looked, from the mere glimpses I could get of her, somewhere about

five-and-twenty, making due allowance for the wear of suffering so

evident even in those glimpses. I think she might have been beautiful

if the waste of her history could have been restored. That she had had

at least some advantages of education, was evident from both her tone

and her speech. But oh, the wild eyes, and the tortured lips, drawn

back from the teeth with an agony of hopelessness, as she struggled

anew, perhaps mistrusting them, to escape from the great arms that

held her!

'But the river cannot drown you,' Falconer said. 'It can only stop

your breath. It cannot stop your thinking. You will go on thinking,

thinking, all the same. Drowning people remember in a moment all their

past lives. All their evil deeds come up before them, as if they were

doing them all over again. So they plunge back into the past and all

its misery. While their bodies are drowning, their souls are coming

more and more awake.'

'That is dreadful,' she murmured, with her great eyes fixed on his,

and growing steadier in their regard. She had ceased to struggle, so

he had slackened his hold of her, and she was leaning back against the

fence.

'And then,' he went on, 'what if, instead of closing your eyes, as you

expected, and going to sleep, and forgetting everything, you should

find them come open all at once, in the midst of a multitude of eyes

all round about you, all looking at you, all thinking about you, all

judging you? What if you should hear, not a tumult of voices and

noises, from which you could hope to hide, but a solemn company

talking about you--every word clear and plain, piercing your heart

with what you could not deny,--and you standing naked and shivering in

the midst of them?'

'It is too dreadful!' she cried, making a movement as if the very

horror of the idea had a fascination to draw her towards the

realization of it. 'But,' she added, yielding to Falconer's renewed

grasp, 'they wouldn't be so hard upon me there. They would not be so

cruel as men are here.'

'Surely not. But all men are not cruel. I am not cruel,' he added,

forgetting himself for a moment, and caressing with his huge hand the

wild pale face that glimmered upon him as it were out of the infinite

night--all but swallowed up in it.

She drew herself back, and Falconer, instantly removing his hand,

said,

'Look in my face, child, and see whether you cannot trust me.'

As he uttered the words, he took off his hat, and stood bare-headed in

the moon, which now broke out clear from the clouds. She did look at

him. His hair blew about his face. He turned it towards the wind and

the moon, and away from her, that she might be undisturbed in her

scrutiny. But how she judged of him, I cannot tell; for the next

moment he called out in a tone of repressed excitement,

'Gordon, Gordon, look there--above your head, on the other bridge.'

I looked and saw a gray head peering over the same gap through which

Falconer had looked a few minutes before. I knew something of his

personal quest by this time, and concluded at once that he thought it

was or might be his father.

'I cannot leave the poor thing--I dare not,' he said.

I understood him, and darted off at full speed for the Surrey end of

the bridge. What made me choose that end, I do not know; but I was

right.

I had some reason to fear that I might be stopped when I reached it,

as I had no business to be upon the new bridge. I therefore managed,

where the upper bridge sank again towards a level with the lower, to

scramble back upon it. As I did so the tall gray-headed man passed me

with an uncertain step. I did not see his face. I followed him a few

yards behind. He seemed to hear and dislike the sound of my footsteps,

for he quickened his pace. I let him increase the distance between us,

but followed him still. He turned down the river. I followed. He began

to double. I doubled after him. Not a turn could he get before me. He

crossed all the main roads leading to the bridges till he came to the

last--when he turned toward London Bridge. At the other end, he went

down the stairs into Thames Street, and held eastward still. It was

not difficult to keep up with him, for his stride though long was

slow. He never looked round, and I never saw his face; but I could not

help fancying that his back and his gait and his carriage were very

like Falconer's.

We were now in a quarter of which I knew nothing, but as far as I can

guess from after knowledge, it was one of the worst districts in

London, lying to the east of Spital Square. It was late, and there

were not many people about.

As I passed a court, I was accosted thus:

''Ain't you got a glass of ale for a poor cove, gov'nor?'

'I have no coppers,' I said hastily. 'I am in a hurry besides,' I

added as I walked on.

'Come, come!' he said, getting up with me in a moment, 'that ain't a

civil answer to give a cove after his lush, that 'ain't got a blessed

mag.'

As he spoke he laid his hand rather heavily on my arm. He was a

lumpy-looking individual, like a groom who had been discharged for

stealing his horse's provender, and had not quite worn out the clothes

he had brought with him. From the opposite side at the same moment,

another man appeared, low in stature, pale, and marked with the

small-pox.

He advanced upon me at right angles. I shook off the hand of the

first, and I confess would have taken to my heels, for more reasons

than one, but almost before I was clear of him, the other came against

me, and shoved me into one of the low-browed entries which abounded.

I was so eager to follow my chase that I acted foolishly throughout. I

ought to have emptied my pockets at once; but I was unwilling to lose

a watch which was an old family piece, and of value besides.

'Come, come! I don't carry a barrel of ale in my pocket,' I said,

thinking to keep them in good-humour. I know better now. Some of these

roughs will take all you have in the most good-humoured way in the

world, bandying chaff with you all the time. I had got amongst another

set, however.

'Leastways you've got as good,' said a third, approaching from the

court, as villanous-looking a fellow as I have ever seen.

'This is hardly the right way to ask for it,' I said, looking out for

a chance of bolting, but putting my hand in my pocket at the same

time. I confess again I acted very stupidly throughout the whole

affair, but it was my first experience.

'It's a way we've got down here, anyhow,' said the third with a brutal

laugh. 'Look out, Savoury Sam,' he added to one of them.

'Now I don't want to hurt you,' struck in the first, coming nearer,

'but if you gives tongue, I'll make cold meat of you, and gouge your

pockets at my leisure, before ever a blueskin can turn the corner.'

Two or three more came sidling up with their hands in their pockets.

'What have you got there, Slicer?' said one of them, addressing the

third, who looked like a ticket-of-leave man.

'We've cotched a pig-headed counter-jumper here, that didn't know Jim

there from a man-trap, and went by him as if he'd been a bull-dog on a

long-chain. He wants to fight cocum. But we won't trouble him. We'll

help ourselves. Shell out now.'

As he spoke he made a snatch at my watch-chain. I forgot myself and

hit him. The same moment I received a blow on the head, and felt the

blood running down my face. I did not quite lose my senses, though,

for I remember seeing yet another man--a tall fellow, coming out of

the gloom of the court. How it came into my mind, I do not know, and

what I said I do not remember, but I must have mentioned Falconer's

name somehow.

The man they called Slicer, said,

'Who's he? Don't know the--.'

Words followed which I cannot write.

'What! you devil's gossoon!' returned an Irish voice I had not heard

before. 'You don't know Long Bob, you gonnof!'

All that passed I heard distinctly, but I was in a half faint, I

suppose, for I could no longer see.

'Now what the devil in a dice-box do you mean?' said Slicer,

possessing himself of my watch. 'Who is the blasted cove?--not that I

care a flash of damnation.'

'A man as 'll knock you down if he thinks you want it, or give you a

half-a-crown if he thinks you want it--all's one to him, only he'll

have the choosing which.'

'What the hell's that to me? Look spry. He mustn't lie there all

night. It's too near the ken. Come along, you Scotch haddock.'

I was aware of a kick in the side as he spoke.

'I tell you what it is, Slicer,' said one whose voice I had not yet

heard, 'if so be this gentleman's a friend of Long Bob, you just let

him alone, I say.'

I opened my eyes now, and saw before me a tall rather slender man in a

big loose dress-coat, to whom Slicer had turned with the words,

'You say! Ha! ha! Well, I say--There's my Scotch haddock! who'll touch

him?'

'I'll take him home,' said the tall man, advancing towards me. I made

an attempt to rise. But I grew deadly ill, fell back, and remember

nothing more.

When I came to myself I was lying on a bed in a miserable place. A

middle-aged woman of degraded countenance, but kindly eyes, was

putting something to my mouth with a teaspoon: I knew it by the smell

to be gin. But I could not yet move. They began to talk about me, and

I lay and listened. Indeed, while I listened, I lost for a time all

inclination to get up, I was so much interested in what I heard.

'He's comin' to hisself,' said the woman. 'He'll be all right by and

by. I wonder what brings the likes of him into the likes of this

place. It must look a kind of hell to them gentle-folks, though we

manage to live and die in it.'

'I suppose,' said another, 'he's come on some of Mr. Falconer's

business.'

'That's why Job's took him in charge. They say he was after somebody

or other, they think.--No friend of Mr. Falconer's would be after

another for any mischief,' said my hostess.

'But who is this Mr. Falconer?--Is Long Bob and he both the same

alias?' asked a third.

'Why, Bessy, ain't you no better than that damned Slicer, who ought to

ha' been hung up to dry this many a year? But to be sure you 'ain't

been long in our quarter. Why, every child hereabouts knows Mr.

Falconer. Ask Bobby there.'

'Who's Mr. Falconer, Bobby?'

A child's voice made reply,

'A man with a long, long beard, that goes about, and sometimes grows

tired and sits on a door-step. I see him once. But he ain't Mr.

Falconer, nor Long Bob neither,' added Bobby in a mysterious tone. 'I

know who he is.'

'What do you mean, Bobby? Who is he, then?'

The child answered very slowly and solemnly,

'He's Jesus Christ.'

The woman burst into a rude laugh.

'Well,' said Bobby in an offended tone, 'Slicer's own Tom says so, and

Polly too. We all says so. He allus pats me on the head, and gives me

a penny.'

Here Bobby began to cry, bitterly offended at the way Bessy had

received his information, after considering him sufficiently important

to have his opinion asked.

'True enough,' said his mother. 'I see him once a-sittin' on a

door-step, lookin' straight afore him, and worn-out like, an' a lot o'

them childer standin' all about him, an' starin' at him as mum as

mice, for fear of disturbin' of him. When I come near, he got up with

a smile on his face, and give each on 'em a penny all round, and

walked away. Some do say he's a bit crazed like; but I never saw no

sign o' that; and if any one ought to know, that one's Job's Mary; and

you may believe me when I tell you that he was here night an' mornin'

for a week, and after that off and on, when we was all down in the

cholerer. Ne'er a one of us would ha' come through but for him.'

I made an attempt to rise. The woman came to my bedside.

'How does the gentleman feel hisself now?' she asked kindly.

'Better, thank you,' I said. 'I am ashamed of lying like this, but I

feel very queer.'

'And it's no wonder, when that devil Slicer give you one o' his even

down blows on the top o' your head. Nobody knows what he carry in his

sleeve that he do it with--only you've got off well, young man, and

that I tell you, with a decent cut like that. Only don't you go tryin'

to get up now. Don't be in a hurry till your blood comes back like.'

I lay still again for a little. When I lifted my hand to my head, I

found it was bandaged up. I tried again to rise. The woman went to the

door, and called out,

'Job, the gentleman's feelin' better. He'll soon be able to move, I

think. What will you do with him now?'

'I'll go and get a cab,' said Job; and I heard him go down a stair.

I raised myself, and got on the floor, but found I could not stand. By

the time the cab arrived, however, I was able to crawl to it. When Job

came, I saw the same tall thin man in the long dress coat. His head

was bound up too.

'I am sorry to see you too have been hurt--for my sake, of course,' I

said. 'Is it a bad blow?'

'Oh! it ain't over much. I got in with a smeller afore he came right

down with his slogger. But I say, I hope as how you are a friend of

Mr. Falconer's, for you see we can't afford the likes of this in this

quarter for every chance that falls in Slicer's way. Gentlemen has no

business here.'

'On the contrary, I mean to come again soon, to thank you all for

being so good to me.'

'Well, when you comes next, you'd better come with him, you know.'

'You mean with Mr. Falconer?'

'Yes, who else? But are you able to go now? for the sooner you're out

of this the better.'

'Quite able. Just give me your arm.'

He offered it kindly. Taking a grateful farewell of my hostess, I put

my hand in my pocket, but there was nothing there. Job led me to the

mouth of the court, where a cab, evidently of a sort with the

neighbourhood, was waiting for us. I got in. Job was shutting the

door.

'Come along with me, Job,' I said. 'I'm going straight to Mr.

Falconer's. He will like to see you, especially after your kindness to

me.'

'Well, I don't mind if I do look arter you a little longer; for to

tell the truth,' said Job, as he opened the door, and got in beside

me, 'I don't over and above like the look of the--horse.'

'It's no use trying to rob me over again,' I said; but he gave no

reply. He only shouted to the cabman to drive to John Street, telling

him the number.

I can scarcely recall anything more till we reached Falconer's

chambers. Job got out and rang the bell. Mrs. Ashton came down. Her

master was not come home.

'Tell Mr. Falconer,' I said, 'that I'm all right, only I couldn't make

anything of it.'

'Tell him,' growled Job, 'that he's got his head broken, and won't be

out o' bed to-morrow. That's the way with them fine-bred ones. They

lies a-bed when the likes o' me must go out what they calls

a-custamongering, broken head and all.'

'You shall stay at home for a week if you like, Job--that is if I've

got enough to give you a week's earnings. I'm not sure though till I

look, for I'm not a rich man any more than yourself.'

'Rubbish!' said Job as he got in again; 'I was only flummuxing the old

un. Bless your heart, sir, I wouldn't stay in--not for nothink. Not

for a bit of a pat on the crown, nohow. Home ain't none so nice a

place to go snoozing in--nohow. Where do you go to, gov'nor?'

I told him. When I got out, and was opening the door, leaning on his

arm, I said I was very glad they hadn't taken my keys.

'Slicer nor Savoury Sam neither's none the better o' you, and I hopes

you're not much the worse for them,' said Job, as he put into my hands

my purse and watch. 'Count it, gov'nor, and see if it's all right.

Them pusses is mannyfactered express for the convenience o' the

fakers. Take my advice, sir, and keep a yellow dump (sovereign) in yer

coat-tails, a flatch yenork (half-crown) in yer waistcoat, and yer

yeneps (pence) in yer breeches. You won't lose much nohow then.

Good-night, sir, and I wish you better.'

'But I must give you something for plaster,' I said. 'You'll take a

yellow dump, at least?'

'We'll talk about that another day,' said Job; and with a second still

heartier good-night, he left me. I managed to crawl up to my room, and

fell on my bed once more fainting. But I soon recovered sufficiently

to undress and get into it. I was feverish all night and next day, but

towards evening begun to recover.

I kept expecting Falconer to come and inquire after me; but he never

came. Nor did he appear the next day or the next, and I began to be

very uneasy about him. The fourth day I sent for a cab, and drove to

John Street. He was at home, but Mrs. Ashton, instead of showing me

into his room, led me into her kitchen, and left me there.

A minute after, Falconer came to me. The instant I saw him I

understood it all. I read it in his face: he had found his father.

CHAPTER XII.

ANDREW AT LAST.

HAVING at length persuaded the woman to go with him, Falconer made her

take his arm, and led her off the bridge. In Parliament Street he was

looking about for a cab as they walked on, when a man he did not know,

stopped, touched his hat, and addressed him.

'I'm thinkin', sir, ye'll be sair wantit at hame the nicht It wad be

better to gang at ance, an' lat the puir fowk luik efter themsels for

ae nicht.'

'I'm sorry I dinna ken ye, man. Do ye ken me?'

'Fine that, Mr. Falconer. There's mony ane kens you and praises God.'

'God be praised!' returned Falconer. 'Why am I wanted at home?'

''Deed I wad raither not say, sir.--Hey!'

This last exclamation was addressed to a cab just disappearing down

King Street from Whitehall. The driver heard, turned, and in a moment

more was by their side.

'Ye had better gang into her an' awa' hame, and lea' the poor lassie

to me. I'll tak guid care o' her.'

She clung to Falconer's arm. The man opened the door of the cab.

Falconer put her in, told the driver to go to Queen Square, and if he

could not make haste, to stop the first cab that could, got in

himself, thanked his unknown friend, who did not seem quite satisfied,

and drove off.

Happily Miss St. John was at home, and there was no delay. Neither was

any explanation of more than six words necessary. He jumped again into

the cab and drove home. Fortunately for his mood, though in fact it

mattered little for any result, the horse was fresh, and both able and

willing.

When he entered John Street, he came to observe before reaching his

own door that a good many men were about in little quiet groups--some

twenty or so, here and there. When he let himself in with his

pass-key, there were two men in the entry. Without stopping to speak,

he ran up to his own chambers. When he got into his sitting-room,

there stood De Fleuri, who simply waved his hand towards the old sofa.

On it lay an elderly man, with his eyes half open, and a look almost

of idiocy upon his pale, puffed face, which was damp and shining. His

breathing was laboured, but there was no further sign of suffering. He

lay perfectly still. Falconer saw at once that he was under the

influence of some narcotic, probably opium; and the same moment the

all but conviction darted into his mind that Andrew Falconer, his

grandmother's son, lay there before him. That he was his own father he

had no feeling yet. He turned to De Fleuri.

'Thank you, friend,' he said. 'I shall find time to thank you.'

'Are we right?' asked De Fleuri.

'I don't know. I think so,' answered Falconer; and without another

word the man withdrew.

His first mood was very strange. It seemed as if all the romance had

suddenly deserted his life, and it lay bare and hopeless. He felt

nothing. No tears rose to the brim of their bottomless wells--the only

wells that have no bottom, for they go into the depths of the infinite

soul. He sat down in his chair, stunned as to the heart and all the

finer chords of his nature. The man on the horsehair sofa lay

breathing--that was all. The gray hair about the pale ill-shaven face

glimmered like a cloud before him. What should he do or say when he

awaked? How approach this far-estranged soul? How ever send the cry of

father into that fog-filled world? Could he ever have climbed on those

knees and kissed those lips, in the far-off days when the sun and the

wind of that northern atmosphere made his childhood blessed beyond

dreams? The actual--that is the present phase of the

ever-changing--looked the ideal in the face; and the mirror that held

them both, shook and quivered at the discord of the faces reflected. A

kind of moral cold seemed to radiate from the object before him, and

chill him to the very bones. This could not long be endured. He fled

from the actual to the source of all the ideal--to that Saviour who,

the infinite mediator, mediates between all hopes and all positions;

between the most debased actual and the loftiest ideal; between the

little scoffer of St. Giles's and his angel that ever beholds the face

of the Father in heaven. He fell on his knees, and spoke to God,

saying that he had made this man; that the mark of his fingers was on

the man's soul somewhere. He prayed to the making Spirit to bring the

man to his right mind, to give him once more the heart of a child, to

begin him yet again at the beginning. Then at last, all the evil he

had done and suffered would but swell his gratitude to Him who had

delivered him from himself and his own deeds. Having breathed this out

before the God of his life, Falconer rose, strengthened to meet the

honourable debased soul when it should at length look forth from the

dull smeared windows of those ill-used eyes.

He felt his pulse. There was no danger from the narcotic. The coma

would pass away. Meantime he would get him to bed. When he began to

undress him a new reverence arose which overcame all disgust at the

state in which he found him. At length one sad little fact about his

dress, revealing the poverty-stricken attempt of a man to preserve the

shadow of decency, called back the waters of the far-ebbed ocean of

his feelings. At the prick of a pin the heart's blood will flow: at

the sight of--a pin it was--Robert burst into tears, and wept like a

child; the deadly cold was banished from his heart, and he not only

loved, but knew that he loved--felt the love that was there.

Everything then about the worn body and shabby garments of the man

smote upon the heart of his son, and through his very poverty he was

sacred in his eyes. The human heart awakened the filial--reversing

thus the ordinary process of Nature, who by means of the filial, when

her plans are unbroken, awakes the human; and he reproached himself

bitterly for his hardness, as he now judged his late mental

condition--unfairly, I think. He soon had him safe in bed, unconscious

of the helping hands that had been busy about him in his heedless

sleep; unconscious of the radiant planet of love that had been folding

him round in its atmosphere of affection.

But while he thus ministered, a new question arose in his mind--to

meet with its own new, God-given answer. What if this should not be

the man after all?--if this love had been spent in mistake, and did

not belong to him at all? The answer was, that he was a man. The love

Robert had given he could not, would not withdraw. The man who had

been for a moment as his father he could not cease to regard with

devotion. At least he was a man with a divine soul. He might at least

be somebody's father. Where love had found a moment's rest for the

sole of its foot, there it must build its nest.

When he had got him safe in bed, he sat down beside him to think what

he would do next. This sleep gave him very needful leisure to think.

He could determine nothing--not even how to find out if he was indeed

his father. If he approached the subject without guile, the man might

be fearful and cunning--might have reasons for being so, and for

striving to conceal the truth. But this was the first thing to make

sure of, because, if it was he, all the hold he had upon him lay in

his knowing it for certain. He could not think. He had had little

sleep the night before. He must not sleep this night. He dragged his

bath into his sitting-room, and refreshed his faculties with plenty of

cold water, then lighted his pipe and went on thinking--not without

prayer to that Power whose candle is the understanding of man. All at

once he saw how to begin. He went again into the chamber, and looked

at the man, and handled him, and knew by his art that a waking of some

sort was nigh. Then he went to a corner of his sitting-room, and from

beneath the table drew out a long box, and from the box lifted Dooble

Sandy's auld wife, tuned the somewhat neglected strings, and laid the

instrument on the table.

When, keeping constant watch over the sleeping man, he judged at

length that his soul had come near enough to the surface of the ocean

of sleep to communicate with the outer world through that bubble his

body, which had floated upon its waves all the night unconscious, he

put his chair just outside the chamber door, which opened from his

sitting-room, and began to play gently, softly, far away. For a while

he extemporized only, thinking of Rothieden, and the grandmother, and

the bleach-green, and the hills, and the waste old factory, and his

mother's portrait and letters. As he dreamed on, his dream got louder,

and, he hoped, was waking a more and more vivid dream in the mind of

the sleeper. 'For who can tell,' thought Falconer, 'what mysterious

sympathies of blood and childhood's experience there may be between me

and that man?--such, it may be, that my utterance on the violin will

wake in his soul the very visions of which my soul is full while I

play, each with its own nebulous atmosphere of dream-light around it.'

For music wakes its own feeling, and feeling wakes thought, or rather,

when perfected, blossoms into thought, thought radiant of music as

those lilies that shine phosphorescent in the July nights. He played

more and more forcefully, growing in hope. But he had been led astray

in some measure by the fulness of his expectation. Strange to tell,

doctor as he was, he had forgotten one important factor in his

calculation: how the man would awake from his artificial sleep. He had

not reckoned of how the limbeck of his brain would be left discoloured

with vile deposit, when the fumes of the narcotic should have settled

and given up its central spaces to the faintness of desertion.

Robert was very keen of hearing. Indeed he possessed all his senses

keener than any other man I have known. He heard him toss on his bed.

Then he broke into a growl, and damned the miauling, which, he said,

the strings could never have learned anywhere but in a cat's belly.

But Robert was used to bad language; and there are some bad things

which, seeing that there they are, it is of the greatest consequence

to get used to. It gave him, no doubt, a pang of disappointment to

hear such an echo to his music from the soul which he had hoped

especially fitted to respond in harmonious unison with the wail of his

violin. But not for even this moment did he lose his presence of mind.

He instantly moderated the tone of the instrument, and gradually drew

the sound away once more into the distance of hearing. But he did not

therefore let it die. Through various changes it floated in the thin

Ã¦ther of the soul, changes delicate as when the wind leaves the harp

of the reeds by a river's brink, and falls a-ringing at the heather

bells, or playing with the dry silvery pods of honesty that hang in

the poor man's garden, till at length it drew nearer once more,

bearing on its wings the wail of red Flodden, the Flowers of the

Forest. Listening through the melody for sounds of a far different

kind, Robert was aware that those sounds had ceased; the growling was

still; he heard no more turnings to and fro. How it was operating he

could not tell, further than that there must be some measure of

soothing in its influence. He ceased quite, and listened again. For a

few moments there was no sound. Then he heard the half-articulate

murmuring of one whose organs have been all but overcome by the

beneficent paralysis of sleep, but whose feeble will would compel them

to utterance. He was nearly asleep again. Was it a fact, or a fancy of

Robert's eager heart? Did the man really say,

'Play that again, father. It's bonnie, that! I aye likit the Flooers

o' the Forest. Play awa'. I hae had a frichtsome dream. I thocht I was

i' the ill place. I doobt I'm no weel. But yer fiddle aye did me gude.

Play awa', father!'

All the night through, till the dawn of the gray morning, Falconer

watched the sleeping man, all but certain that he was indeed his

father. Eternities of thought passed through his mind as he

watched--this time by the couch, as he hoped, of a new birth. He was

about to see what could be done by one man, strengthened by all the

aids that love and devotion could give, for the redemption of his

fellow. As through the darkness of the night and a sluggish fog to aid

it, the light of a pure heaven made its slow irresistible way, his

hope grew that athwart the fog of an evil life, the darkness that

might be felt, the light of the Spirit of God would yet penetrate the

heart of the sinner, and shake the wickedness out of it. Deeper and

yet deeper grew his compassion and his sympathy, in prospect of the

tortures the man must go through, before the will that he had sunk

into a deeper sleep than any into which opium could sink his bodily

being, would shake off its deathly lethargy, and arise, torn with

struggling pain, to behold the light of a new spiritual morning. All

that he could do he was prepared to do, regardless of entreaty,

regardless of torture, anger, and hate, with the inexorable justice of

love, the law that will not, must not, dares not yield--strong with an

awful tenderness, a wisdom that cannot be turned aside, to redeem the

lost soul of his father. And he strengthened his heart for the

conflict by saying that if he would do thus for his father, what would

not God do for his child? Had He not proved already, if there was any

truth in the grand story of the world's redemption through that

obedience unto the death, that his devotion was entire, and would

leave nothing undone that could be done to lift this sheep out of the

pit into whose darkness and filth he had fallen out of the sweet

Sabbath of the universe?

He removed all his clothes, searched the pockets, found in them one

poor shilling and a few coppers, a black cutty pipe, a box of snuff, a

screw of pigtail, a knife with a buckhorn handle and one broken blade,

and a pawn-ticket for a keyed flute, on the proceeds of which he was

now sleeping--a sleep how dearly purchased, when he might have had it

free, as the gift of God's gentle darkness! Then he destroyed the

garments, committing them to the fire as the hoped farewell to the

state of which they were the symbols and signs.

He found himself perplexed, however, by the absence of some of the

usual symptoms of the habit of opium, and concluded that his poor

father was in the habit of using stimulants as well as narcotics, and

that the action of the one interfered with the action of the other.

He called his housekeeper. She did not know whom her master supposed

his guest to be, and regarded him only as one of the many objects of

his kindness. He told her to get some tea ready, as the patient would

most likely wake with a headache. He instructed her to wait upon him

as a matter of course, and explain nothing. He had resolved to pass

for the doctor, as indeed he was; and he told her that if he should be

at all troublesome, he would be with her at once. She must keep the

room dark. He would have his own breakfast now; and if the patient

remained quiet, would sleep on the sofa.

He woke murmuring, and evidently suffered from headache and nausea.

Mrs. Ashton took him some tea. He refused it with an oath--more of

discomfort than of ill-nature--and was too unwell to show any

curiosity about the person who had offered it. Probably he was

accustomed to so many changes of abode, and to so many bewilderments

of the brain, that he did not care to inquire where he was or who

waited upon him. But happily for the heart's desire of Falconer, the

debauchery of his father had at length reached one of many crises. He

had caught cold before De Fleuri and his comrades found him. He was

now ill--feverish and oppressed. Through the whole of the following

week they nursed and waited upon him without his asking a single

question as to where he was or who they were; during all which time

Falconer saw no one but De Fleuri and the many poor fellows who called

to inquire after him and the result of their supposed success. He

never left the house, but either watched by the bedside, or waited in

the next room. Often would the patient get out of bed, driven by the

longing for drink or for opium, gnawing him through all the

hallucinations of delirium; but he was weak, and therefore manageable.

If in any lucid moments he thought where he was, he no doubt supposed

that he was in a hospital, and probably had sense enough to understand

that it was of no use to attempt to get his own way there. He was soon

much worn, and his limbs trembled greatly. It was absolutely necessary

to give him stimulants, or he would have died, but Robert reduced them

gradually as he recovered strength.

But there was an infinite work to be done beyond even curing him of

his evil habits. To keep him from strong drink and opium, even till

the craving after them was gone, would be but the capturing of the

merest outwork of the enemy's castle. He must be made such that, even

if the longing should return with tenfold force, and all the means for

its gratification should lie within the reach of his outstretched

hand, he would not touch them. God only was able to do that for him.

He would do all that he knew how to do, and God would not fail of his

part. For this he had raised him up; to this he had called him; for

this work he had educated him, made him a physician, given him money,

time, the love and aid of his fellows, and, beyond all, a rich energy

of hope and faith in his heart, emboldening him to attempt whatever

his hand found to do.

CHAPTER XIII.

ANDREW REBELS.

AS Andrew Falconer grew better, the longing of his mind after former

excitement and former oblivion, roused and kept alive the longing of

his body, until at length his thoughts dwelt upon nothing but his

diseased cravings. His whole imagination, naturally not a feeble one,

was concentrated on the delights in store for him as soon as he was

well enough to be his own master, as he phrased it, once more. He soon

began to see that, if he was in a hospital, it must be a private one,

and at last, irresolute as he was both from character and illness,

made up his mind to demand his liberty. He sat by his bedroom fire one

afternoon, for he needed much artificial warmth. The shades of evening

were thickening the air. He had just had one of his frequent meals,

and was gazing, as he often did, into the glowing coals. Robert had

come in, and after a little talk was sitting silent at the opposite

corner of the chimney-piece.

'Doctor,' said Andrew, seizing the opportunity, 'you've been very kind

to me, and I don't know how to thank you, but it is time I was going.

I am quite well now. Would you kindly order the nurse to bring me my

clothes to-morrow morning, and I will go.'

This he said with the quavering voice of one who speaks because he has

made up his mind to speak. A certain something, I believe a vague

molluscous form of conscience, made him wriggle and shift uneasily

upon his chair as he spoke.

'No, no,' said Robert, 'you are not fit to go. Make yourself

comfortable, my dear sir. There is no reason why you should go.'

'There is something I don't understand about it. I want to go.'

'It would ruin my character as a professional man to let a patient in

your condition leave the house. The weather is unfavourable. I

cannot--I must not consent.'

'Where am I? I don't understand it. I want to understand it.'

'Your friends wish you to remain where you are for the present.'

'I have no friends.'

'You have one, at least, who puts his house here at your service.'

'There's something about it I don't like. Do you suppose I am

incapable of taking care of myself?'

'I do indeed,' answered his son with firmness.

'Then you are quite mistaken,' said Andrew, angrily. 'I am quite well

enough to go, and have a right to judge for myself. It is very kind of

you, but I am in a free country, I believe.'

'No doubt. All honest men are free in this country. But--'

He saw that his father winced, and said no more. Andrew resumed, after

a pause in which he had been rousing his feeble drink-exhausted anger,

'I tell you I will not be treated like a child. I demand my clothes

and my liberty.'

'Do you know where you were found that night you were brought here?'

'No. But what has that to do with it? I was ill. You know that as well

as I.'

'You are ill now because you were lying then on the wet ground under a

railway-arch--utterly incapable from the effects of opium, or drink,

or both. You would have been taken to the police-station, and would

probably have been dead long before now, if you had not been brought

here.'

He was silent for some time. Then he broke out,

'I tell you I will go. I do not choose to live on charity. I will not.

I demand my clothes.'

'I tell you it is of no use. When you are well enough to go out you

shall go out, but not now.'

'Where am I? Who are you?'

He looked at Robert with a keen, furtive glance, in which were mingled

bewilderment and suspicion.

'I am your best friend at present.'

He started up--fiercely and yet feebly, for a thought of terror had

crossed him.

'You do not mean I am in a madhouse?'

Robert made no reply. He left him to suppose what he pleased. Andrew

took it for granted that he was in a private asylum, sank back in his

chair, and from that moment was quiet as a lamb. But it was easy to

see that he was constantly contriving how to escape. This mental

occupation, however, was excellent for his recovery; and Robert

dropped no hint of his suspicion. Nor were many precautions necessary

in consequence; for he never left the house without having De Fleuri

there, who was a man of determination, nerve, and, now that he ate and

drank, of considerable strength.

As he grew better, the stimulants given him in the form of medicine at

length ceased. In their place Robert substituted other restoratives,

which prevented him from missing the stimulants so much, and at length

got his system into a tolerably healthy condition, though at his age,

and after so long indulgence, it could hardly be expected ever to

recover its tone.

He did all he could to provide him with healthy amusement--played

backgammon, draughts, and cribbage with him, brought him Sir Walter's

and other novels to read, and often played on his violin, to which he

listened with great delight. At times of depression, which of course

were frequent, the Flowers of the Forest made the old man weep.

Falconer put yet more soul into the sounds than he had ever put into

them before. He tried to make the old man talk of his childhood,

asking him about the place of his birth, the kind of country, how he

had been brought up, his family, and many questions of the sort. His

answers were vague, and often contradictory. Indeed, the moment the

subject was approached, he looked suspicious and cunning. He said his

name was John Mackinnon, and Robert, although his belief was

strengthened by a hundred little circumstances, had as yet received no

proof that he was Andrew Falconer. Remembering the pawn-ticket, and

finding that he could play on the flute, he brought him a beautiful

instrument--in fact a silver one--the sight of which made the old

man's eyes sparkle. He put it to his lips with trembling hands, blew a

note or two, burst into the tears of weakness, and laid it down. But

he soon took it up again, and evidently found both pleasure in the

tones and sadness in the memories they awakened. At length Robert

brought a tailor, and had him dressed like a gentleman--a change which

pleased him much. The next step was to take him out every day for a

drive, upon which his health began to improve more rapidly. He ate

better, grew more lively, and began to tell tales of his adventures,

of the truth of which Robert was not always certain, but never showed

any doubt. He knew only too well that the use of opium is especially

destructive to the conscience. Some of his stories he believed more

readily than others, from the fact that he suddenly stopped in them,

as if they were leading him into regions of confession which must be

avoided, resuming with matter that did not well connect itself with

what had gone before. At length he took him out walking, and he

comported himself with perfect propriety.

But one day as they were going along a quiet street, Robert met an

acquaintance, and stopped to speak with him. After a few moments' chat

he turned, and found that his father, whom he had supposed to be

standing beside him, had vanished. A glance at the other side of the

street showed the probable refuge--a public-house. Filled but not

overwhelmed with dismay, although he knew that months might be lost in

this one moment, Robert darted in. He was there, with a glass of

whisky in his hand, trembling now more from eagerness than weakness.

He struck it from his hold. But he had already swallowed one glass,

and he turned in a rage. He was a tall and naturally powerful

man--almost as strongly built as his son, with long arms like his,

which were dangerous even yet in such a moment of factitious strength

and real excitement. Robert could not lift his arm even to defend

himself from his father, although, had he judged it necessary, I

believe he would not, in the cause of his redemption, have hesitated

to knock him down, as he had often served others whom he would rather

a thousand times have borne on his shoulders. He received his father's

blow on the cheek. For one moment it made him dizzy, for it was well

delivered. But when the bar-keeper jumped across the counter and

approached with his fist doubled, that was another matter. He measured

his length on the floor, and Falconer seized his father, who was

making for the street, and notwithstanding his struggles and fierce

efforts to strike again, held him secure and himself scathless, and

bore him out of the house.

A crowd gathers in a moment in London, speeding to a fray as the

vultures to carrion. On the heels of the population of the

neighbouring mews came two policemen, and at the same moment out came

the barman to the assistance of Andrew. But Falconer was as well known

to the police as if he had a ticket-of-leave, and a good deal better.

'Call a four-wheel cab,' he said to one of them. 'I'm all right.'

The man started at once. Falconer turned to the other.

'Tell that man in the apron,' he said, 'that I'll make him all due

reparation. But he oughtn't to be in such a hurry to meddle. He gave

me no time but to strike hard.'

'Yes, sir,' answered the policeman obediently. The crowd thought he

must be a great man amongst the detectives; but the bar-keeper vowed

he would 'summons' him for the assault.

'You may, if you like,' said Falconer. 'When I think of it, you shall

do so. You know where I live?' he said, turning to the policeman.

'No, sir, I don't. I only know you well enough.'

'Put your hand in my coat-pocket, then, and you'll find a card-case.

The other. There! Help yourself.'

He said this with his arms round Andrew's, who had ceased to cry out

when he saw the police.

'Do you want to give this gentleman in charge, sir?'

'No. It is a little private affair of my own, this.'

'Hadn't you better let him go, sir, and we'll find him for you when

you want him?'

'No. He may give me in charge if he likes. Or if you should want him,

you will find him at my house.'

Then pinioning his prisoner still more tightly in his arms, he leaned

forward, and whispered in his ear,

'Will you go home quietly, or give me in charge? There is no other

way, Andrew Falconer.'

He ceased struggling. Through all the flush of the contest his face

grew pale. His arms dropped by his side. Robert let him go, and he

stood there without offering to move. The cab came up; the policeman

got out; Andrew stepped in of his own accord, and Robert followed.

'You see it's all right,' he said. 'Here, give the barman a sovereign.

If he wants more, let me know. He deserved all he got, but I was

wrong. John Street.'

His father did not speak a word, or ask a question all the way home.

Evidently he thought it safer to be silent. But the drink he had

taken, though not enough to intoxicate him, was more than enough to

bring back the old longing with redoubled force. He paced about the

room the rest of the day like a wild beast in a cage, and in the

middle of the night, got up and dressed, and would have crept through

the room in which Robert lay, in the hope of getting out. But Robert

slept too anxiously for that. The captive did not make the slightest

noise, but his very presence was enough to wake his son. He started at

a bound from his couch, and his father retreated in dismay to his

chamber.

CHAPTER XIV.

THE BROWN LETTER.

AT length the time arrived when Robert would make a further attempt,

although with a fear and trembling to quiet which he had to seek the

higher aid. His father had recovered his attempt to rush anew upon

destruction. He was gentler and more thoughtful, and would again sit

for an hour at a time gazing into the fire. From the expression of his

countenance upon such occasions, Robert hoped that his visions were

not of the evil days, but of those of his innocence.

One evening when he was in one of these moods--he had just had his

tea, the gas was lighted, and he was sitting as I have

described--Robert began to play in the next room, hoping that the

music would sink into his heart, and do something to prepare the way

for what was to follow. Just as he had played over the Flowers of the

Forest for the third time, his housekeeper entered the room, and

receiving permission from her master, went through into Andrew's

chamber, and presented a packet, which she said, and said truly, for

she was not in the secret, had been left for him. He received it with

evident surprise, mingled with some consternation, looked at the

address, looked at the seal, laid it on the table, and gazed again

with troubled looks into the fire. He had had no correspondence for

many years. Falconer had peeped in when the woman entered, but the

moment she retired he could watch him no longer. He went on playing a

slow, lingering voluntary, such as the wind plays, of an amber autumn

evening, on the Ã¦olian harp of its pines. He played so gently that he

must hear if his father should speak.

For what seemed hours, though it was but half-an-hour, he went on

playing. At length he heard a stifled sob. He rose, and peeped again

into the room. The gray head was bowed between the hands, and the

gaunt frame was shaken with sobs. On the table lay the portraits of

himself and his wife; and the faded brown letter, so many years folded

in silence and darkness, lay open beside them. He had known the seal,

with the bush of rushes and the Gaelic motto. He had gently torn the

paper from around it, and had read the letter from the grave--no, from

the land beyond, the land of light, where human love is glorified. Not

then did Falconer read the sacred words of his mother; but afterwards

his father put them into his hands. I will give them as nearly as I

can remember them, for the letter is not in my possession.

'My beloved Andrew, I can hardly write, for I am at the point of

death. I love you still--love you as dearly as before you left me.

Will you ever see this? I will try to send it to you. I will leave it

behind me, that it may come into your hands when and how it may please

God. You may be an old man before you read these words, and may have

almost forgotten your young wife. Oh! if I could take your head on my

bosom where it used to lie, and without saying a word, think all that

I am thinking into your heart. Oh! my love, my love! will you have had

enough of the world and its ways by the time this reaches you? Or will

you be dead, like me, when this is found, and the eyes of your son

only, my darling little Robert, read the words? Oh, Andrew, Andrew! my

heart is bleeding, not altogether for myself, not altogether for you,

but both for you and for me. Shall I never, never be able to let out

the sea of my love that swells till my heart is like to break with its

longing after you, my own Andrew? Shall I never, never see you again?

That is the terrible thought--the only thought almost that makes me

shrink from dying. If I should go to sleep, as some think, and not

even dream about you, as I dream and weep every night now! If I should

only wake in the crowd of the resurrection, and not know where to find

you! Oh, Andrew, I feel as if I should lose my reason when I think

that you may be on the left hand of the Judge, and I can no longer say

my love, because you do not, cannot any more love God. I will tell you

the dream I had about you last night, which I think was what makes me

write this letter. I was standing in a great crowd of people, and I

saw the empty graves about us on every side. We were waiting for the

great white throne to appear in the clouds. And as soon as I knew

that, I cried, "Andrew, Andrew!" for I could not help it. And the

people did not heed me; and I cried out and ran about everywhere,

looking for you. At last I came to a great gulf. When I looked down

into it, I could see nothing but a blue deep, like the blue of the

sky, under my feet. It was not so wide but that I could see across it,

but it was oh! so terribly deep. All at once, as I stood trembling on

the very edge, I saw you on the other side, looking towards me, and

stretching out your arms as if you wanted me. You were old and much

changed, but I knew you at once, and I gave a cry that I thought all

the universe must have heard. You heard me. I could see that. And I

was in a terrible agony to get to you. But there was no way, for if I

fell into the gulf I should go down for ever, it was so deep.

Something made me look away, and I saw a man coming quietly along the

same side of the gulf, on the edge, towards me. And when he came

nearer to me, I saw that he was dressed in a gown down to his feet,

and that his feet were bare and had a hole in each of them. So I knew

who it was, Andrew. And I fell down and kissed his feet, and lifted up

my hands, and looked into his face--oh, such a face! And I tried to

pray. But all I could say was, "O Lord, Andrew, Andrew!" Then he

smiled, and said, "Daughter, be of good cheer. Do you want to go to

him?" And I said, "Yes, Lord." Then he said, "And so do I. Come." And

he took my hand and led me over the edge of the precipice; and I was

not afraid, and I did not sink, but walked upon the air to go to you.

But when I got to you, it was too much to bear; and when I thought I

had you in my arms at last, I awoke, crying as I never cried before,

not even when I found that you had left me to die without you. Oh,

Andrew, what if the dream should come true! But if it should not come

true! I dare not think of that, Andrew. I couldn't be happy in heaven

without you. It may be very wicked, but I do not feel as if it were,

and I can't help it if it is. But, dear husband, come to me again.

Come back, like the prodigal in the New Testament. God will forgive

you everything. Don't touch drink again, my dear love. I know it was

the drink that made you do as you did. You could never have done it.

It was the drink that drove you to do it. You didn't know what you

were doing. And then you were ashamed, and thought I would be angry,

and could not bear to come back to me. Ah, if you were to come in at

the door, as I write, you would see whether or not I was proud to have

my Andrew again. But I would not be nice for you to look at now. You

used to think me pretty--you said beautiful--so long ago. But I am so

thin now, and my face so white, that I almost frighten myself when I

look in the glass. And before you get this I shall be all gone to

dust, either knowing nothing about you, or trying to praise God, and

always forgetting where I am in my psalm, longing so for you to come.

I am afraid I love you too much to be fit to go to heaven. Then,

perhaps, God will send me to the other place, all for love of you,

Andrew. And I do believe I should like that better. But I don't think

he will, if he is anything like the man I saw in my dream. But I am

growing so faint that I can hardly write. I never felt like this

before. But that dream has given me strength to die, because I hope

you will come too. Oh, my dear Andrew, do, do repent and turn to God,

and he will forgive you. Believe in Jesus, and he will save you, and

bring me to you across the deep place. But I must make haste. I can

hardly see. And I must not leave this letter open for anybody but you

to read after I am dead. Good-bye, Andrew. I love you all the same. I

am, my dearest Husband, your affectionate Wife,

'H. FALCONER.'

Then followed the date. It was within a week of her death. The letter

was feebly written, every stroke seeming more feeble by the contrasted

strength of the words. When Falconer read it afterwards, in the midst

of the emotions it aroused--the strange lovely feelings of such a bond

between him and a beautiful ghost, far away somewhere in God's

universe, who had carried him in her lost body, and nursed him at her

breasts--in the midst of it all, he could not help wondering, he told

me, to find the forms and words so like what he would have written

himself. It seemed so long ago when that faded, discoloured paper,

with the gilt edges, and the pale brown ink, and folded in the large

sheet, and sealed with the curious wax, must have been written; and

here were its words so fresh, so new! not withered like the

rose-leaves that scented the paper from the work-box where he had

found it, but as fresh as if just shaken from the rose-trees of the

heart's garden. It was no wonder that Andrew Falconer should be

sitting with his head in his hands when Robert looked in on him, for

he had read this letter.

When Robert saw how he sat, he withdrew, and took his violin again,

and played all the tunes of the old country he could think of,

recalling Dooble Sandy's workshop, that he might recall the music he

had learnt there.

No one who understands the bit and bridle of the association of ideas,

as it is called in the skeleton language of mental philosophy,

wherewith the Father-God holds fast the souls of his children--to the

very last that we see of them, at least, and doubtless to endless ages

beyond--will sneer at Falconer's notion of making God's violin a

ministering spirit in the process of conversion. There is a

well-authenticated story of a convict's having been greatly reformed

for a time, by going, in one of the colonies, into a church, where the

matting along the aisle was of the same pattern as that in the church

to which he had gone when a boy--with his mother, I suppose. It was

not the matting that so far converted him: it was not to the music of

his violin that Falconer looked for aid, but to the memories of

childhood, the mysteries of the kingdom of innocence which that could

recall--those memories which

Â Â Â Â Are yet the fountain light of all our day,

Â Â Â Â Are yet a master light of all our seeing.

For an hour he did not venture to go near him. When he entered the

room he found him sitting in the same place, no longer weeping, but

gazing into the fire with a sad countenance, the expression of which

showed Falconer at once that the soul had come out of its cave of

obscuration, and drawn nearer to the surface of life. He had not seen

him look so much like one 'clothed, and in his right mind,' before. He

knew well that nothing could be built upon this; that this very

emotion did but expose him the more to the besetting sin; that in this

mood he would drink, even if he knew that he would in consequence be

in danger of murdering the wife whose letter had made him weep. But it

was progress, notwithstanding. He looked up at Robert as he entered,

and then dropped his eyes again. He regarded him perhaps as a presence

doubtful whether of angel or devil, even as the demoniacs regarded the

Lord of Life who had come to set them free. Bewildered he must have

been to find himself, towards the close of a long life of debauchery,

wickedness, and the growing pains of hell, caught in a net of old

times, old feelings, old truths.

Now Robert had carefully avoided every indication that might disclose

him to be a Scotchman even, nor was there the least sign of suspicion

in Andrew's manner. The only solution of the mystery that could have

presented itself to him was, that his friends were at the root of

it--probably his son, of whom he knew absolutely nothing. His mother

could not be alive still. Of his wife's relatives there had never been

one who would have taken any trouble about him after her death, hardly

even before it. John Lammie was the only person, except Dr. Anderson,

whose friendship he could suppose capable of this development. The

latter was the more likely person. But he would be too much for him

yet; he was not going to be treated like a child, he said to himself,

as often as the devil got uppermost.

My reader must understand that Andrew had never been a man of

resolution. He had been wilful and headstrong; and these qualities, in

children especially, are often mistaken for resolution, and generally

go under the name of strength of will. There never was a greater

mistake. The mistake, indeed, is only excusable from the fact that

extremes meet, and that this disposition is so opposite to the other,

that it looks to the careless eye most like it. He never resisted his

own impulses, or the enticements of evil companions. Kept within

certain bounds at home, after he had begun to go wrong, by the weight

of opinion, he rushed into all excesses when abroad upon business,

till at length the vessel of his fortune went to pieces, and he was a

waif on the waters of the world. But in feeling he had never been

vulgar, however much so in action. There was a feeble good in him that

had in part been protected by its very feebleness. He could not sin so

much against it as if it had been strong. For many years he had fits

of shame, and of grief without repentance; for repentance is the

active, the divine part--the turning again; but taking more steadily

both to strong drink and opium, he was at the time when De Fleuri

found him only the dull ghost of Andrew Falconer walking in a dream of

its lost carcass.

CHAPTER XV.

FATHER AND SON.

ONCE more Falconer retired, but not to take his violin. He could play

no more. Hope and love were swelling within him. He could not rest.

Was it a sign from heaven that the hour for speech had arrived? He

paced up and down the room. He kneeled and prayed for guidance and

help. Something within urged him to try the rusted lock of his

father's heart. Without any formed resolution, without any conscious

volition, he found himself again in his room. There the old man still

sat, with his back to the door, and his gaze fixed on the fire, which

had sunk low in the grate. Robert went round in front of him, kneeled

on the rug before him, and said the one word,

'Father!'

Andrew started violently, raised his hand, which trembled as with a

palsy, to his head, and stared wildly at Robert. But he did not speak.

Robert repeated the one great word. Then Andrew spoke, and said in a

trembling, hardly audible voice,

'Are you my son?--my boy Robert, sir?'

'I am. I am. Oh, father, I have longed for you by day, and dreamed

about you by night, ever since I saw that other boys had fathers, and

I had none. Years and years of my life--I hardly know how many--have

been spent in searching for you. And now I have found you!'

The great tall man, in the prime of life and strength, laid his big

head down on the old man's knee, as if he had been a little child. His

father said nothing, but laid his hand on the head. For some moments

the two remained thus, motionless and silent. Andrew was the first to

speak. And his words were the voice of the spirit that striveth with

man.

'What am I to do, Robert?'

No other words, not even those of passionate sorrow, or overflowing

affection, could have been half so precious in the ears of Robert.

When a man once asks what he is to do, there is hope for him. Robert

answered instantly,

'You must come home to your mother.'

'My mother!' Andrew exclaimed. 'You don't mean to say she's alive?'

'I heard from her yesterday--in her own hand, too,' said Robert.

'I daren't. I daren't,' murmured Andrew.

'You must, father,' returned Robert. 'It is a long way, but I will

make the journey easy for you. She knows I have found you. She is

waiting and longing for you. She has hardly thought of anything but

you ever since she lost you. She is only waiting to see you, and then

she will go home, she says. I wrote to her and said, "Grannie, I have

found your Andrew." And she wrote back to me and said, "God be

praised. I shall die in peace."'

A silence followed.

'Will she forgive me?' said Andrew.

'She loves you more than her own soul,' answered Robert. 'She loves

you as much as I do. She loves you as God loves you.'

'God can't love me,' said Andrews, feebly. 'He would never have left

me if he had loved me.'

'He has never left you from the very first. You would not take his

way, father, and he just let you try your own. But long before that he

had begun to get me ready to go after you. He put such love to you in

my heart, and gave me such teaching and such training, that I have

found you at last. And now I have found you, I will hold you. You

cannot escape--you will not want to escape any more, father?'

Andrew made no reply to this appeal. It sounded like imprisonment for

life, I suppose. But thought was moving in him. After a long pause,

during which the son's heart was hungering for a word whereon to hang

a further hope, the old man spoke again, muttering as if he were only

speaking his thoughts unconsciously.

'Where's the use? There's no forgiveness for me. My mother is going to

heaven. I must go to hell. No. It's no good. Better leave it as it is.

I daren't see her. It would kill me to see her.'

'It will kill her not to see you; and that will be one sin more on

your conscience, father.'

Andrew got up and walked about the room. And Robert only then arose

from his knees.

'And there's my mother,' he said.

Andrew did not reply; but Robert saw when he turned next towards the

light, that the sweat was standing in beads on his forehead.

'Father,' he said, going up to him.

The old man stopped in his walk, turned, and faced his son.

'Father,' repeated Robert, 'you've go to repent; and God won't let you

off; and you needn't think it. You'll have to repent some day.'

'In hell, Robert,' said Andrew, looking him full in the eyes, as he

had never looked at him before. It seemed as if even so much

acknowledgment of the truth had already made him bolder and honester.

'Yes. Either on earth or in hell. Would it not be better on earth?'

'But it will be no use in hell,' he murmured.

In those few words lay the germ of the preference for hell of poor

souls, enfeebled by wickedness. They will not have to do anything

there--only to moan and cry and suffer for ever, they think. It is

effort, the out-going of the living will that they dread. The sorrow,

the remorse of repentance, they do not so much regard: it is the

action it involves; it is the having to turn, be different, and do

differently, that they shrink from; and they have been taught to

believe that this will not be required of them there--in that awful

refuge of the will-less. I do not say they think thus: I only say

their dim, vague, feeble feelings are such as, if they grew into

thought, would take this form. But tell them that the fire of God

without and within them will compel them to bethink themselves; that

the vision of an open door beyond the smoke and the flames will ever

urge them to call up the ice-bound will, that it may obey; that the

torturing spirit of God in them will keep their consciences awake, not

to remind them of what they ought to have done, but to tell them what

they must do now, and hell will no longer fascinate them. Tell them

that there is no refuge from the compelling Love of God, save that

Love itself--that He is in hell too, and that if they make their bed

in hell they shall not escape him, and then, perhaps, they will have

some true presentiment of the worm that dieth not and the fire that is

not quenched.

'Father, it will be of use in hell,' said Robert. 'God will give you

no rest even there. You will have to repent some day, I do believe--if

not now under the sunshine of heaven, then in the torture of the awful

world where there is no light but that of the conscience. Would it not

be better and easier to repent now, with your wife waiting for you in

heaven, and your mother waiting for you on earth?'

Will it be credible to my reader, that Andrew interrupted his son with

the words,

'Robert, it is dreadful to hear you talk like that. Why, you don't

believe in the Bible!'

His words will be startling to one who has never heard the lips of a

hoary old sinner drivel out religion. To me they are not so startling

as the words of Christian women and bishops of the Church of England,

when they say that the doctrine of the everlasting happiness of the

righteous stands or falls with the doctrine of the hopeless damnation

of the wicked. Can it be that to such the word is everything, the

spirit nothing? No. It is only that the devil is playing a very wicked

prank, not with them, but in them: they are pluming themselves on

being selfish after a godly sort.

'I do believe the Bible, father,' returned Robert, 'and have ordered

my life by it. If I had not believed the Bible, I fear I should never

have looked for you. But I won't dispute about it. I only say I

believe that you will be compelled to repent some day, and that now is

the best time. Then, you will not only have to repent, but to repent

that you did not repent now. And I tell you, father, that you shall go

to my grandmother.'

CHAPTER XVI.

CHANGE OF SCENE.

BUT various reasons combined to induce Falconer to postpone yet for a

period their journey to the North. Not merely did his father require

an unremitting watchfulness, which it would be difficult to keep up in

his native place amongst old friends and acquaintances, but his health

was more broken than he had at first supposed, and change of air and

scene without excitement was most desirable. He was anxious too that

the change his mother must see in him should be as little as possible

attributable to other causes than those that years bring with them. To

this was added that his own health had begun to suffer from the

watching and anxiety he had gone through, and for his father's sake,

as well as for the labour which yet lay before him, he would keep that

as sound as he might. He wrote to his grandmother and explained the

matter. She begged him to do as he thought best, for she was so happy

that she did not care if she should never see Andrew in this world: it

was enough to die in the hope of meeting him in the other. But she had

no reason to fear that death was at hand; for, although much more

frail, she felt as well as ever.

By this time Falconer had introduced me to his father. I found him in

some things very like his son; in others, very different. His manners

were more polished; his pleasure in pleasing much greater: his

humanity had blossomed too easily, and then run to seed. Alas, to no

seed that could bear fruit! There was a weak expression about his

mouth--a wavering interrogation: it was so different from the

firmly-closed portals whence issued the golden speech of his son! He

had a sly, sidelong look at times, whether of doubt or cunning, I

could not always determine. His eyes, unlike his son's, were of a

light blue, and hazy both in texture and expression. His hands were

long-fingered and tremulous. He gave your hand a sharp squeeze, and

the same instant abandoned it with indifference. I soon began to

discover in him a tendency to patronize any one who showed him a

particle of respect as distinguished from common-place civility. But

under all outward appearances it seemed to me that there was a change

going on: at least being very willing to believe it, I found nothing

to render belief impossible.

He was very fond of the flute his son had given him, and on that

sweetest and most expressionless of instruments he played exquisitely.

One evening when I called to see them, Falconer said,

'We are going out of town for a few weeks, Gordon: will you go with

us?'

'I am afraid I can't.'

'Why? You have no teaching at present, and your writing you can do as

well in the country as in town.'

'That is true; but still I don't see how I can. I am too poor for one

thing.'

'Between you and me that is nonsense.'

'Well, I withdraw that,' I said. 'But there is so much to be done,

specially as you will be away, and Miss St John is at the Lakes.'

'That is all very true; but you need a change. I have seen for some

weeks that you are failing. Mind, it is our best work that He wants,

not the dregs of our exhaustion. I hope you are not of the mind of our

friend Mr. Watts, the curate of St. Gregory's.'

'I thought you had a high opinion of Mr. Watts,' I returned.

'So I have. I hope it is not necessary to agree with a man in

everything before we can have a high opinion of him.'

'Of course not. But what is it you hope I am not of his opinion in?'

'He seems ambitious of killing himself with work--of wearing himself

out in the service of his master--and as quickly as possible. A good

deal of that kind of thing is a mere holding of the axe to the

grindstone, not a lifting of it up against thick trees. Only he won't

be convinced till it comes to the helve. I met him the other day; he

was looking as white as his surplice. I took upon me to read him a

lecture on the holiness of holidays. "I can't leave my poor," he said.

"Do you think God can't do without you?" I asked. "Is he so weak that

he cannot spare the help of a weary man? But I think he must prefer

quality to quantity, and for healthy work you must be healthy

yourself. How can you be the visible sign of the Christ-present

amongst men, if you inhabit an exhausted, irritable brain? Go to God's

infirmary and rest a while. Bring back health from the country to

those that cannot go to it. If on the way it be transmuted into

spiritual forms, so much the better. A little more of God will make up

for a good deal less of you.'

'What did he say to that?'

'He said our Lord died doing the will of his Father. I told him--"Yes,

when his time was come, not sooner. Besides, he often avoided both

speech and action." "Yes," he answered, "but he could tell when, and

we cannot." "Therefore," I rejoined, "you ought to accept your

exhaustion as a token that your absence will be the best thing for

your people. If there were no God, then perhaps you ought to work till

you drop down dead--I don't know."'

'Is he gone yet?'

'No. He won't go. I couldn't persuade him.'

'When do you go?'

'To-morrow.'

'I shall be ready, if you really mean it.'

'That's an if worthy only of a courtier. There may be much virtue in

an if, as Touchstone says, for the taking up of a quarrel; but that if

is bad enough to breed one,' said Falconer, laughing. 'Be at the

Paddington Station at noon to-morrow. To tell the whole truth, I want

you to help me with my father.'

This last was said at the door as he showed me out.

In the afternoon we were nearing Bristol. It was a lovely day in

October. Andrew had been enjoying himself; but it was evidently rather

the pleasure of travelling in a first-class carriage like a gentleman

than any delight in the beauty of heaven and earth. The country was in

the rich sombre dress of decay.

'Is it not remarkable,' said my friend to me, 'that the older I grow,

I find autumn affecting me the more like spring?'

'I am thankful to say,' interposed Andrew, with a smile in which was

mingled a shade of superiority, 'that no change of the seasons ever

affects me.'

'Are you sure you are right in being thankful for that, father?' asked

his son.

His father gazed at him for a moment, seemed to bethink himself after

some feeble fashion or other, and rejoined,

'Well, I must confess I did feel a touch of the rheumatism this

morning.'

How I pitied Falconer! Would he ever see of the travail of his soul in

this man? But he only smiled a deep sweet smile, and seemed to be

thinking divine things in that great head of his.

At Bristol we went on board a small steamer, and at night were landed

at a little village on the coast of North Devon. The hotel to which we

went was on the steep bank of a tumultuous little river, which tumbled

past its foundation of rock, like a troop of watery horses galloping

by with ever-dissolving limbs. The elder Falconer retired almost as

soon as we had had supper. My friend and I lighted our pipes, and sat

by the open window, for although the autumn was so far advanced, the

air here was very mild. For some time we only listened to the sound of

the waters.

'There are three things,' said Falconer at last, taking his pipe out

of his mouth with a smile, 'that give a peculiarly perfect feeling of

abandonment: the laughter of a child; a snake lying across a fallen

branch; and the rush of a stream like this beneath us, whose only

thought is to get to the sea.'

We did not talk much that night, however, but went soon to bed. None

of us slept well. We agreed in the morning that the noise of the

stream had been too much for us all, and that the place felt close and

torpid. Andrew complained that the ceaseless sound wearied him, and

Robert that he felt the aimless endlessness of it more than was good

for him. I confess it irritated me like an anodyne unable to soothe.

We were clearly all in want of something different. The air between

the hills clung to them, hot and moveless. We would climb those hills,

and breathe the air that flitted about over their craggy tops.

As soon as we had breakfasted, we set out. It was soon evident that

Andrew could not ascend the steep road. We returned and got a

carriage. When we reached the top, it was like a resurrection, like a

dawning of hope out of despair. The cool friendly wind blew on our

faces, and breathed strength into our frames. Before us lay the ocean,

the visible type of the invisible, and the vessels with their white

sails moved about over it like the thoughts of men feebly searching

the unknown. Even Andrew Falconer spread out his arms to the wind, and

breathed deep, filling his great chest full.

'I feel like a boy again,' he said.

His son strode to his side, and laid his arm over his shoulders.

'So do I, father,' he returned; 'but it is because I have got you.'

The old man turned and looked at him with a tenderness I had never

seen on his face before. As soon as I saw that, I no longer doubted

that he could be saved.

We found rooms in a farm-house on the topmost height.

'These are poor little hills, Falconer,' I said. 'Yet they help one

like mountains.'

'The whole question is,' he returned, 'whether they are high enough to

lift you out of the dirt. Here we are in the airs of heaven--that is

all we need.'

'They make me think how often, amongst the country people of Scotland,

I have wondered at the clay-feet upon which a golden head of wisdom

stood! What poor needs, what humble aims, what a narrow basement

generally, was sufficient to support the statues of pure-eyed Faith

and white-handed Hope,'

'Yes,' said Falconer: 'he who is faithful over a few things is a lord

of cities. It does not matter whether you preach in Westminster Abbey,

or teach a ragged class, so you be faithful. The faithfulness is all.'

After an early dinner we went out for a walk, but we did not go far

before we sat down upon the grass. Falconer laid himself at full

length and gazed upwards.

'When I look like this into the blue sky,' he said, after a moment's

silence, 'it seems so deep, so peaceful, so full of a mysterious

tenderness, that I could lie for centuries, and wait for the dawning

of the face of God out of the awful loving-kindness.'

I had never heard Falconer talk of his own present feelings in this

manner; but glancing at the face of his father with a sense of his

unfitness to hear such a lofty utterance, I saw at once that it was

for his sake that he had thus spoken. The old man had thrown himself

back too, and was gazing into the sky, puzzling himself, I could see,

to comprehend what his son could mean. I fear he concluded, for the

time, that Robert was not gifted with the amount of common-sense

belonging of right to the Falconer family, and that much religion had

made him a dreamer. Still, I thought I could see a kind of awe pass

like a spiritual shadow across his face as he gazed into the blue

gulfs over him. No one can detect the first beginnings of any life,

and those of spiritual emotion must more than any lie beyond our ken:

there is infinite room for hope. Falconer said no more. We betook

ourselves early within doors, and he read King Lear to us, expounding

the spiritual history of the poor old king after a fashion I had never

conceived--showing us how the said history was all compressed, as far

as human eye could see of it, into the few months that elapsed between

his abdication and his death; how in that short time he had to learn

everything that he ought to have been learning all his life; and how,

because he had put it off so long, the lessons that had then to be

given him were awfully severe.

I thought what a change it was for the old man to lift his head into

the air of thought and life, out of the sloughs of misery in which he

had been wallowing for years.

CHAPTER XVII.

IN THE COUNTRY.

THE next morning Falconer, who knew the country, took us out for a

drive. We passed through lanes and gates out upon all open moor, where

he stopped the carriage, and led us a few yards on one side. Suddenly,

hundreds of feet below us, down what seemed an almost precipitous

descent, we saw the wood-embosomed, stream-trodden valley we had left

the day before. Enough had been cleft and scooped seawards out of the

lofty table-land to give room for a few little conical hills with

curious peaks of bare rock. At the bases of these hills flowed noisily

two or three streams, which joined in one, and trotted out to sea over

rocks and stones. The hills and the sides of the great cleft were half

of them green with grass, and half of them robed in the autumnal

foliage of thick woods. By the streams and in the woods nestled pretty

houses; and away at the mouth of the valley and the stream lay the

village. All around, on our level, stretched farm and moorland.

When Andrew Falconer stood so unexpectedly on the verge of the steep

descent, he trembled and started back with fright. His son made him

sit down a little way off, where yet we could see into the valley. The

sun was hot, the air clear and mild, and the sea broke its blue floor

into innumerable sparkles of radiance. We sat for a while in silence.

'Are you sure,' I said, in the hope of setting my friend talking,

'that there is no horrid pool down there? no half-trampled thicket,

with broken pottery and shreds of tin lying about? no dead carcass, or

dirty cottage, with miserable wife and greedy children? When I was a

child, I knew a lovely place that I could not half enjoy, because,

although hidden from my view, an ugly stagnation, half mud, half

water, lay in a certain spot below me. When I had to pass it, I used

to creep by with a kind of dull terror, mingled with hopeless disgust,

and I have never got over the feeling.'

'You remind me much of a friend of mine of whom I have spoken to you

before,' said Falconer, 'Eric Ericson. I have shown you many of his

verses, but I don't think I ever showed you one little poem containing

an expression of the same feeling. I think I can repeat it.

'Some men there are who cannot spare

A single tear until they feel

The last cold pressure, and the heel

Is stamped upon the outmost layer.

And, waking, some will sigh to think

The clouds have borrowed winter's wing--

Sad winter when the grasses spring

No more about the fountain's brink.

And some would call me coward-fool:

I lay a claim to better blood;

But yet a heap of idle mud

Hath power to make me sorrowful.

I sat thinking over the verses, for I found the feeling a little

difficult to follow, although the last stanza was plain enough.

Falconer resumed.

'I think this is as likely as any place,' he said, 'to be free of such

physical blots. For the moral I cannot say. But I have learned, I

hope, not to be too fastidious--I mean so as to be unjust to the whole

because of the part. The impression made by a whole is just as true as

the result of an analysis, and is greater and more valuable in every

respect. If we rejoice in the beauty of the whole, the other is

sufficiently forgotten. For moral ugliness, it ceases to distress in

proportion as we labour to remove it, and regard it in its true

relations to all that surrounds it. There is an old legend which I

dare say you know. The Saviour and his disciples were walking along

the way, when they came upon a dead dog. The disciples did not conceal

their disgust. The Saviour said: "How white its teeth are!"'

'That is very beautiful,' I rejoined. 'Thank God for that. It is true,

whether invented or not. But,' I added, 'it does not quite answer to

the question about which we have been talking. The Lord got rid of the

pain of the ugliness by finding the beautiful in it.'

'It does correspond, however, I think, in principle,' returned

Falconer; 'only it goes much farther, making the exceptional beauty

hallow the general ugliness--which is the true way, for beauty is

life, and therefore infinitely deeper and more powerful than ugliness

which is death. "A dram of sweet," says Spenser, 'is worth a pound of

sour."'

It was so delightful to hear him talk--for what he said was not only

far finer than my record of it, but the whole man spoke as well as his

mouth--that I sought to start him again.

'I wish,' I said, 'that I could see things as you do--in great masses

of harmonious unity. I am only able to see a truth sparkling here and

there, and to try to lay hold of it. When I aim at more, I am like

Noah's dove, without a place to rest the sole of my foot.'

'That is the only way to begin. Leave the large vision to itself, and

look well after your sparkles. You will find them grow and gather and

unite, until you are afloat on a sea of radiance--with cloud shadows

no doubt.'

'And yet,' I resumed, 'I never seem to have room.'

'That is just why.'

'But I feel that I cannot find it. I know that if I fly to that

bounding cape on the far horizon there, I shall only find a place--a

place to want another in. There is no fortunate island out on that

sea.'

'I fancy,' said Falconer, 'that until a man loves space, he will never

be at peace in a place. At least so I have found it. I am content if

you but give me room. All space to me throbs with being and life; and

the loveliest spot on the earth seems but the compression of space

till the meaning shines out of it, as the fire flies out of the air

when you drive it close together. To seek place after place for

freedom, is a constant effort to flee from space, and a vain one, for

you are ever haunted by the need of it, and therefore when you seek

most to escape it, fancy that you love it and want it.'

'You are getting too mystical for me now,' I said. 'I am not able to

follow you.'

'I fear I was on the point of losing myself. At all events I can go no

further now. And indeed I fear I have been but skirting the Limbo of

Vanities.'

He rose, for we could both see that this talk was not in the least

interesting to our companion. We got again into the carriage, which,

by Falconer's orders, was turned and driven in the opposite direction,

still at no great distance from the lofty edge of the heights that

rose above the shore.

We came at length to a lane bounded with stone walls, every stone of

which had its moss and every chink its fern. The lane grew more and

more grassy; the walls vanished; and the track faded away into a

narrow winding valley, formed by the many meeting curves of opposing

hills. They were green to the top with sheep-grass, and spotted here

and there with patches of fern, great stones, and tall withered

foxgloves. The air was sweet and healthful, and Andrew evidently

enjoyed it because it reminded him again of his boyhood. The only

sound we heard was the tinkle of a few tender sheep-bells, and now and

then the tremulous bleating of a sheep. With a gentle winding, the

valley led us into a more open portion of itself, where the old man

paused with a look of astonished pleasure.

Before us, seaward, rose a rampart against the sky, like the turreted

and embattled wall of a huge eastern city, built of loose stones piled

high, and divided by great peaky rocks. In the centre rose above them

all one solitary curiously-shaped mass, one of the oddest peaks of the

Himmalays in miniature. From its top on the further side was a sheer

descent to the waters far below the level of the valley from which it

immediately rose. It was altogether a strange freaky fantastic place,

not without its grandeur. It looked like the remains of a frolic of

the Titans, or rather as if reared by the boys and girls, while their

fathers and mothers 'lay stretched out huge in length,' and in breadth

too, upon the slopes around, and laughed thunderously at the sportive

invention of their sons and daughters. Falconer helped his father up

to the edge of the rampart that he might look over. Again he started

back, 'afraid of that which was high,' for the lowly valley was yet at

a great height above the diminished waves. On the outside of the

rampart ran a narrow path whence the green hill-side went down steep

to the sea. The gulls were screaming far below us; we could see the

little flying streaks of white. Beyond was the great ocean. A

murmurous sound came up from its shore.

We descended and seated ourselves on the short springy grass of a

little mound at the foot of one of the hills, where it sank slowly,

like the dying gush of a wave, into the hollowest centre of the little

vale.

'Everything tends to the cone-shape here,' said Falconer,--'the oddest

and at the same time most wonderful of mathematical figures.'

'Is it not strange,' I said, 'that oddity and wonder should come so

near?'

'They often do in the human world as well,' returned he. 'Therefore it

is not strange that Shelley should have been so fond of this place. It

is told of him that repeated sketches of the spot were found on the

covers of his letters. I know nothing more like Shelley's poetry than

this valley--wildly fantastic and yet beautiful--as if a huge genius

were playing at grandeur, and producing little models of great things.

But there is one grand thing I want to show you a little further on.'

We rose, and walked out of the valley on the other side, along the

lofty coast. When we reached a certain point, Falconer stood and

requested us to look as far as we could, along the cliffs to the face

of the last of them.

'What do you see?' he asked.

'A perpendicular rock, going right down into the blue waters,' I

answered.

'Look at it: what is the outline of it like? Whose face is it?'

'Shakspere's, by all that is grand!' I cried.

'So it is,' said Andrew.

'Right. Now I'll tell you what I would do. If I were very rich, and

there were no poor people in the country, I would give a commission to

some great sculptor to attack that rock and work out its suggestion.

Then, it I had any money left, we should find one for Bacon, and one

for Chaucer, and one for Milton; and, as we are about it, we may fancy

as many more as we like; so that from the bounding rocks of our

island, the memorial faces of our great brothers should look abroad

over the seas into the infinite sky beyond.'

'Well, now,' said the elder, 'I think it is grander as it is.'

'You are quite right, father,' said Robert. 'And so with many of our

fancies for perfecting God's mighty sketches, which he only can

finish.'

Again we seated ourselves and looked out over the waves.

'I have never yet heard,' I said, 'how you managed with that poor girl

that wanted to drown herself--on Westminster Bridge, I mean--that

night, you remember.'

'Miss St. John has got her in her own house at present. She has given

her those two children we picked up at the door of the public-house to

take care of. Poor little darlings! they are bringing back the life in

her heart already. There is actually a little colour in her cheek--the

dawn, I trust, of the eternal life. That is Miss St. John's way. As

often as she gets hold of a poor hopeless woman, she gives her a

motherless child. It is wonderful what the childless woman and

motherless child do for each other.'

'I was much amused the other day with the lecture one of the police

magistrates gave a poor creature who was brought before him for

attempting to drown herself. He did give her a sovereign out of the

poor box, though.'

'Well, that might just tide her over the shoal of self-destruction,'

said Falconer. 'But I cannot help doubting whether any one has a right

to prevent a suicide from carrying out his purpose, who is not

prepared to do a good deal more for him than that. What would you

think of the man who snatched the loaf from a hungry thief, threw it

back into the baker's cart, and walked away to his club-dinner? Harsh

words of rebuke, and the threat of severe punishment upon a second

attempt--what are they to the wretch weary of life? To some of them

the kindest punishment would be to hang them for it. It is something

else than punishment that they need. If the comfortable alderman had

but "a feeling of their afflictions," felt in himself for a moment how

miserable he must be, what a waste of despair must be in his heart,

before he would do it himself, before the awful river would appear to

him a refuge from the upper air, he would change his tone. I fear he

regards suicide chiefly as a burglarious entrance into the premises of

the respectable firm of Vension, Port, & Co.'

'But you mustn't be too hard upon him, Falconer; for if his God is his

belly, how can he regard suicide as other than the most awful

sacrilege?'

'Of course not. His well-fed divinity gives him one great commandment:

"Thou shalt love thyself with all thy heart. The great breach is to

hurt thyself--worst of all to send thyself away from the land of

luncheons and dinners, to the country of thought and vision." But,

alas! he does not reflect on the fact that the god Belial does not

feed all his votaries; that he has his elect; that the altar of his

inner-temple too often smokes with no sacrifice of which his poor

meagre priests may partake. They must uphold the Divinity which has

been good to them, and not suffer his worship to fall into disrepute.'

'Really, Robert,' said his father, 'I am afraid to think what you will

come to. You will end in denying there is a God at all. You don't

believe in hell, and now you justify suicide. Really--I must say--to

say the least of it--I have not been accustomed to hear such things.'

The poor old man looked feebly righteous at his wicked son. I verily

believe he was concerned for his eternal fate. Falconer gave a pleased

glance at me, and for a moment said nothing. Then he began, with a

kind of logical composure:

'In the first place, father, I do not believe in such a God as some

people say they believe in. Their God is but an idol of the heathen,

modified with a few Christian qualities. For hell, I don't believe

there is any escape from it but by leaving hellish things behind. For

suicide, I do not believe it is wicked because it hurts yourself, but

I do believe it is very wicked. I only want to put it on its own right

footing.'

'And pray what do you consider its right footing?'

'My dear father, I recognize no duty as owing to a man's self. There

is and can be no such thing. I am and can be under no obligation to

myself. The whole thing is a fiction, and of evil invention. It comes

from the upper circles of the hell of selfishness. Or, perhaps, it may

with some be merely a form of metaphysical mistake; but an untruth it

is. Then for the duty we do owe to other people: how can we expect the

men or women who have found life to end, as it seems to them, in a

dunghill of misery--how can we expect such to understand any

obligation to live for the sake of the general others, to no

individual of whom, possibly, do they bear an endurable relation? What

remains?--The grandest, noblest duty from which all other duty

springs: the duty to the possible God. Mind, I say possible God, for I

judge it the first of my duties towards my neighbour to regard his

duty from his position, not from mine.'

'But,' said I, 'how would you bring that duty to bear on the mind of a

suicide?'

'I think some of the tempted could understand it, though I fear not

one of those could who judge them hardly, and talk sententiously of

the wrong done to a society which has done next to nothing for her, by

the poor, starved, refused, husband-tortured wretch perhaps, who

hurries at last to the might of the filthy flowing river which, the

one thread of hope in the web of despair, crawls through the city of

death. What should I say to him? I should say: "God liveth: thou art

not thine own but his. Bear thy hunger, thy horror in his name. I in

his name will help thee out of them, as I may. To go before he calleth

thee, is to say 'Thou forgettest,' unto him who numbereth the hairs of

thy head. Stand out in the cold and the sleet and the hail of this

world, O son of man, till thy Father open the door and call thee. Yea,

even if thou knowest him not, stand and wait, lest there should be,

after all, such a loving and tender one, who, for the sake of a good

with which thou wilt be all-content, and without which thou never

couldst be content, permits thee there to stand--for a time--long to

his sympathizing as well as to thy suffering heart."'

Here Falconer paused, and when he spoke again it was from the ordinary

level of conversation. Indeed I fancied that he was a little

uncomfortable at the excitement into which his feelings had borne him.

'Not many of them could understand this, I dare say: but I think most

of them could feel it without understanding it. Certainly the "belly

with good capon lined" will neither understand nor feel it. Suicide is

a sin against God, I repeat, not a crime over which human laws have

any hold. In regard to such, man has a duty alone--that, namely, of

making it possible for every man to live. And where the dread of death

is not sufficient to deter, what can the threat of punishment do? Or

what great thing is gained if it should succeed? What agonies a man

must have gone through in whom neither the horror of falling into such

a river, nor of the knife in the flesh instinct with life, can

extinguish the vague longing to wrap up his weariness in an endless

sleep!'

'But,' I remarked, 'you would, I fear, encourage the trade in suicide.

Your kindness would be terribly abused. What would you do with the

pretended suicides?'

'Whip them, for trifling with and trading upon the feelings of their

kind.'

'Then you would drive them to suicide in earnest.'

'Then they might be worth something, which they were not before.'

'We are a great deal too humane for that now-a-days, I fear. We don't

like hurting people.'

'No. We are infested with a philanthropy which is the offspring of our

mammon-worship. But surely our tender mercies are cruel. We don't like

to hang people, however unfit they may be to live amongst their

fellows. A weakling pity will petition for the life of the worst

murderer--but for what? To keep him alive in a confinement as like

their notion of hell as they dare to make it--namely, a place whence

all the sweet visitings of the grace of God are withdrawn, and the man

has not a chance, so to speak, of growing better. In this hell of

theirs they will even pamper his beastly body.'

'They have the chaplain to visit them.'

'I pity the chaplain, cut off in his labours from all the aids which

God's world alone can give for the teaching of these men. Human beings

have not the right to inflict such cruel punishment upon their

fellow-man. It springs from a cowardly shrinking from responsibility,

and from mistrust of the mercy of God;--perhaps first of all from an

over-valuing of the mere life of the body. Hanging is tenderness

itself to such a punishment.'

'I think you are hardly fair, though, Falconer. It is the fear of

sending them to hell that prevents them from hanging them.'

'Yes. You are right, I dare say. They are not of David's mind, who

would rather fall into the hands of God than of men. They think their

hell is not so hard as his, and may be better for them. But I must

not, as you say, forget that they do believe their everlasting fate

hangs upon their hands, for if God once gets his hold of them by

death, they are lost for ever.'

'But the chaplain may awake them to a sense of their sins.'

'I do not think it is likely that talk will do what the discipline of

life has not done. It seems to me, on the contrary, that the clergyman

has no commission to rouse people to a sense of their sins. That is

not his work. He is far more likely to harden them by any attempt in

that direction. Every man does feel his sins, though he often does not

know it. To turn his attention away from what he does feel by trying

to rouse in him feelings which are impossible to him in his present

condition, is to do him a great wrong. The clergyman has the message

of salvation, not of sin, to give. Whatever oppression is on a man,

whatever trouble, whatever conscious something that comes between him

and the blessedness of life, is his sin; for whatever is not of faith

is sin; and from all this He came to save us. Salvation alone can

rouse in us a sense of our sinfulness. One must have got on a good way

before he can be sorry for his sins. There is no condition of sorrow

laid down as necessary to forgiveness. Repentance does not mean

sorrow: it means turning away from the sins. Every man can do that,

more or less. And that every man must do. The sorrow will come

afterwards, all in good time. Jesus offers to take us out of our own

hands into his, if we will only obey him.'

The eyes of the old man were fixed on his son as he spoke, He did seem

to be thinking. I could almost fancy that a glimmer of something like

hope shone in his eyes.

It was time to go home, and we were nearly silent all the way.

The next morning was so wet that we could not go out, and had to amuse

ourselves as we best might in-doors. But Falconer's resources never

failed. He gave us this day story after story about the poor people he

had known. I could see that his object was often to get some truth

into his father's mind without exposing it to rejection by addressing

it directly to himself; and few subjects could be more fitted for

affording such opportunity than his experiences among the poor.

The afternoon was still rainy and misty. In the evening I sought to

lead the conversation towards the gospel-story; and then Falconer

talked as I never heard him talk before. No little circumstance in the

narratives appeared to have escaped him. He had thought about

everything, as it seemed to me. He had looked under the surface

everywhere, and found truth--mines of it--under all the upper soil of

the story. The deeper he dug the richer seemed the ore. This was

combined with the most pictorial apprehension of every outward event,

which he treated as if it had been described to him by the lips of an

eye-witness. The whole thing lived in his words and thoughts.

'When anything looks strange, you must look the deeper,' he would say.

At the close of one of our fits of talk, he rose and went to the

window.

'Come here,' he said, after looking for a moment.

All day a dropping cloud had filled the space below, so that the hills

on the opposite side of the valley were hidden, and the whole of the

sea, near as it was. But when we went to the window we found that a

great change had silently taken place. The mist continued to veil the

sky, and it clung to the tops of the hills; but, like the rising

curtain of a stage, it had rolled half-way up from their bases,

revealing a great part of the sea and shore, and half of a cliff on

the opposite side of the valley: this, in itself of a deep red, was

now smitten by the rays of the setting sun, and glowed over the waters

a splendour of carmine. As we gazed, the vaporous curtain sank upon

the shore, and the sun sank under the waves, and the sad gray evening

closed in the weeping night, and clouds and darkness swathed the weary

earth. For doubtless the earth needs its night as well as the

creatures that live thereon.

In the morning the rain had ceased, but the clouds remained. But they

were high in the heavens now, and, like a departing sorrow, revealed

the outline and form which had appeared before as an enveloping vapour

of universal and shapeless evil. The mist was now far enough off to be

seen and thought about. It was clouds now--no longer mist and rain.

And I thought how at length the evils of the world would float away,

and we should see what it was that made it so hard for us to believe

and be at peace.

In the afternoon the sky had partially cleared, but clouds hid the sun

as he sank towards the west. We walked out. A cold autumnal wind blew,

not only from the twilight of the dying day, but from the twilight of

the dying season. A sorrowful hopeless wind it seemed, full of the

odours of dead leaves--those memories of green woods, and of damp

earth--the bare graves of the flowers. Would the summer ever come

again?

We were pacing in silence along a terraced walk which overhung the

shore far below. More here than from the hilltop we seemed to look

immediately into space, not even a parapet intervening betwixt us and

the ocean. The sound of a mournful lyric, never yet sung, was in my

brain; it drew nearer to my mental grasp; but ere it alighted, its

wings were gone, and it fell dead on my consciousness. Its meaning was

this: 'Welcome, Requiem of Nature. Let me share in thy Requiescat.

Blow, wind of mournful memories. Let us moan together. No one taketh

from us the joy of our sorrow. We may mourn as we will.'

But while I brooded thus, behold a wonder! The mass about the sinking

sun broke up, and drifted away in cloudy bergs, as if scattered on the

diverging currents of solar radiance that burst from the gates of the

west, and streamed east and north and south over the heavens and over

the sea. To the north, these masses built a cloudy bridge across the

sky from horizon to horizon, and beneath it shone the rosy-sailed

ships floating stately through their triumphal arch up the channel to

their home. Other clouds floated stately too in the upper sea over our

heads, with dense forms, thinning into vaporous edges. Some were of a

dull angry red; some of as exquisite a primrose hue as ever the flower

itself bore on its bosom; and betwixt their edges beamed out the

sweetest, purest, most melting, most transparent blue, the heavenly

blue which is the symbol of the spirit as red is of the heart. I think

I never saw a blue to satisfy me before. Some of these clouds threw

shadows of many-shaded purple upon the green sea; and from one of the

shadows, so dark and so far out upon the glooming horizon that it

looked like an island, arose as from a pier, a wondrous structure of

dim, fairy colours, a multitude of rainbow-ends, side by side, that

would have spanned the heavens with a gorgeous arch, but failed from

the very grandeur of the idea, and grew up only a few degrees against

the clouded west. I stood rapt. The two Falconers were at some

distance before me, walking arm in arm. They stood and gazed likewise.

It was as if God had said to the heavens and the earth and the chord

of the seven colours, 'Comfort ye, comfort ye my people.' And I said

to my soul, 'Let the tempest rave in the world; let sorrow wail like a

sea-bird in the midst thereof; and let thy heart respond to her

shivering cry; but the vault of heaven encloses the tempest and the

shrieking bird and the echoing heart; and the sun of God's countenance

can with one glance from above change the wildest winter day into a

summer evening compact of poets' dreams.'

My companions were walking up over the hill. I could see that Falconer

was earnestly speaking in his father's ear. The old man's head was

bent towards the earth. I kept away. They made a turn from home. I

still followed at a distance. The evening began to grow dark. The

autumn wind met us again, colder, stronger, yet more laden with the

odours of death and the frosts of the coming winter. But it no longer

blew as from the charnel-house of the past; it blew from the stars

through the chinks of the unopened door on the other side of the

sepulchre. It was a wind of the worlds, not a wind of the leaves. It

told of the march of the spheres, and the rest of the throne of God.

We were going on into the universe--home to the house of our Father.

Mighty adventure! Sacred repose! And as I followed the pair, one great

star throbbed and radiated over my head.

CHAPTER XVIII.

THREE GENERATIONS.

THE next week I went back to my work, leaving the father and son alone

together. Before I left, I could see plainly enough that the bonds

were being drawn closer between them. A whole month passed before they

returned to London. The winter then had set in with unusual severity.

But it seemed to bring only health to the two men. When I saw Andrew

next, there was certainly a marked change upon him. Light had banished

the haziness from his eye, and his step was a good deal firmer. I can

hardly speak of more than the physical improvement, for I saw very

little of him now. Still I did think I could perceive more of judgment

in his face, as if he sometimes weighed things in his mind. But it was

plain that Robert continued very careful not to let him a moment out

of his knowledge. He busied him with the various sights of London, for

Andrew, although he knew all its miseries well, had never yet been

inside Westminster Abbey. If he could only trust him enough to get him

something to do! But what was he fit for? To try him, he proposed once

that he should write some account of what he had seen and learned in

his wanderings; but the evident distress with which he shrunk from the

proposal was grateful to the eyes and heart of his son.

It was almost the end of the year when a letter arrived from John

Lammie, informing Robert that his grandmother had caught a violent

cold, and that, although the special symptoms had disappeared, it was

evident her strength was sinking fast, and that she would not recover.

He read the letter to his father.

'We must go and see her, Robert, my boy,' said Andrew.

It was the first time that he had shown the smallest desire to visit

her. Falconer rose with glad heart, and proceeded at once to make

arrangements for their journey.

It was a cold, powdery afternoon in January, with the snow thick on

the ground, save where the little winds had blown the crown of the

street bare before Mrs. Falconer's house. A post-chaise with four

horses swept wearily round the corner, and pulled up at her door.

Betty opened it, and revealed an old withered face very sorrowful, and

yet expectant. Falconer's feelings I dare not, Andrew's I cannot

attempt to describe, as they stepped from the chaise and entered.

Betty led the way without a word into the little parlour. Robert went

next, with long quiet strides, and Andrew followed with gray, bowed

head. Grannie was not in her chair. The doors which during the day

concealed the bed in which she slept, were open, and there lay the

aged woman with her eyes closed. The room was as it had always been,

only there seemed a filmy shadow in it that had not been there before.

'She's deein', sir,' whispered Betty. 'Ay is she. Och hone!'

Robert took his father's hand, and led him towards the bed. They drew

nigh softly, and bent over the withered, but not even yet very

wrinkled face. The smooth, white, soft hands lay on the sheet, which

was folded back over her bosom. She was asleep, or rather, she

slumbered.

But the soul of the child began to grow in the withered heart of the

old man as he regarded his older mother, and as it grew it forced the

tears to his eyes, and the words to his lips.

'Mother!' he said, and her eyelids rose at once. He stooped to kiss

her, with the tears rolling down his face. The light of heaven broke

and flashed from her aged countenance. She lifted her weak hands, took

his head, and held it to her bosom.

'Eh! the bonnie gray heid!' she said, and burst into a passion of

weeping. She had kept some tears for the last. Now she would spend all

that her griefs had left her. But there came a pause in her sobs,

though not in her weeping, and then she spoke.

'I kent it a' the time, O Lord. I kent it a' the time. He's come hame.

My Anerew, my Anerew! I'm as happy 's a bairn. O Lord! O Lord!'

And she burst again into sobs, and entered paradise in radiant

weeping.

Her hands sank away from his head, and when her son gazed in her face

he saw that she was dead. She had never looked at Robert.

The two men turned towards each other. Robert put out his arms. His

father laid his head on his bosom, and went on weeping. Robert held

him to his heart.

When shall a man dare to say that God has done all he can?

CHAPTER XIX.

THE WHOLE STORY.

THE men laid their mother's body with those of the generations that

had gone before her, beneath the long grass in their country

churchyard near Rothieden--a dreary place, one accustomed to trim

cemeteries and sentimental wreaths would call it--to Falconer's mind

so friendly to the forsaken dust, because it lapt it in sweet

oblivion.

They returned to the dreary house, and after a simple meal such as

both had used to partake of in their boyhood, they sat by the fire,

Andrew in his mother's chair, Robert in the same chair in which he had

learned his Sallust and written his versions. Andrew sat for a while

gazing into the fire, and Robert sat watching his face, where in the

last few months a little feeble fatherhood had begun to dawn.

'It was there, father, that grannie used to sit, every day, sometimes

looking in the fire for hours, thinking about you, I know,' Robert

said at length.

Andrew stirred uneasily in his chair.

'How do you know that?' he asked.

'If there was one thing I could be sure of, it was when grannie was

thinking about you, father. Who wouldn't have known it, father, when

her lips were pressed together, as if she had some dreadful pain to

bear, and her eyes were looking away through the fire--so far away!

and I would speak to her three times before she would answer? She

lived only to think about God and you, father. God and you came very

close together in her mind. Since ever I can remember, almost, the

thought of you was just the one thing in this house.'

Then Robert began at the beginning of his memory, and told his father

all that he could remember. When he came to speak about his solitary

musings in the garret, he said--and long before he reached this part,

he had relapsed into his mother tongue:

'Come and luik at the place, father. I want to see 't again, mysel'.'

He rose. His father yielded and followed him. Robert got a candle in

the kitchen, and the two big men climbed the little narrow stair and

stood in the little sky of the house, where their heads almost touched

the ceiling.

'I sat upo' the flure there,' said Robert, 'an' thoucht and thoucht

what I wad du to get ye, father, and what I wad du wi' ye whan I had

gotten ye. I wad greit whiles, 'cause ither laddies had a father an' I

had nane. An' there's whaur I fand mamma's box wi' the letter in 't

and her ain picter: grannie gae me that ane o' you. An' there's whaur

I used to kneel doon an' pray to God. An' he's heard my prayers, and

grannie's prayers, and here ye are wi' me at last. Instead o' thinkin'

aboot ye, I hae yer ain sel'. Come, father, I want to say a word o'

thanks to God, for hearin' my prayer.'

He took the old man's hand, led him to the bedside, and kneeled with

him there.

My reader can hardly avoid thinking it was a poor sad triumph that

Robert had after all. How the dreams of the boy had dwindled in

settling down into the reality! He had his father, it was true, but

what a father! And how little he had him!

But this was not the end; and Robert always believed that the end must

be the greater in proportion to the distance it was removed, to give

time for its true fulfilment. And when he prayed aloud beside his

father, I doubt not that his thanksgiving and his hope were equal.

The prayer over, he took his father's hand and led him down again to

the little parlour, and they took their seats again by the fire; and

Robert began again and went on with his story, not omitting the parts

belonging to Mary St. John and Eric Ericson.

When he came to tell how he had encountered him in the deserted

factory:

'Luik here, father, here's the mark o' the cut,' he said, parting the

thick hair on the top of his head.

His father hid his face in his hands.

'It wasna muckle o' a blow that ye gied me, father,' he went on, 'but

I fell against the grate, and that was what did it. And I never tellt

onybody, nae even Miss St. John, wha plaistered it up, hoo I had

gotten 't. And I didna mean to say onything aboot it; but I wantit to

tell ye a queer dream, sic a queer dream it garred me dream the same

nicht.'

As he told the dream, his father suddenly grew attentive, and before

he had finished, looked almost scared; but he said nothing. When he

came to relate his grandmother's behaviour after having discovered

that the papers relating to the factory were gone, he hid his face in

his hands once more. He told him how grannie had mourned and wept over

him, from the time when he heard her praying aloud as he crept through

her room at night to their last talk together after Dr. Anderson's

death. He set forth, as he could, in the simplest language, the agony

of her soul over her lost son. He told him then about Ericson, and Dr.

Anderson, and how good they had been to him, and at last of Dr.

Anderson's request that he would do something for him in India.

'Will ye gang wi' me, father?' he asked.

'I'll never leave ye again, Robert, my boy,' he answered. 'I have been

a bad man, and a bad father, and now I gie mysel' up to you to mak the

best o' me ye can. I daurna leave ye, Robert.'

'Pray to God to tak care o' ye, father. He'll do a'thing for ye, gin

ye'll only lat him.'

'I will, Robert.'

'I was mysel' dreidfu' miserable for a while,' Robert resumed, 'for I

cudna see or hear God at a'; but God heard me, and loot me ken that he

was there an' that a' was richt. It was jist like whan a bairnie

waukens up an' cries oot, thinkin' it 's its lane, an' through the

mirk comes the word o' the mither o' 't, sayin', "I'm here, cratur:

dinna greit." And I cam to believe 'at he wad mak you a good man at

last. O father, it's been my dream waukin' an' sleepin' to hae you

back to me an' grannie, an' mamma, an' the Father o' 's a', an' Jesus

Christ that's done a'thing for 's. An' noo ye maun pray to God,

father. Ye will pray to God to haud a grip o' ye--willna ye, father?'

'I will, I will, Robert. But I've been an awfu' sinner. I believe I

was the death o' yer mother, laddie.'

Some closet of memory was opened; a spring of old tenderness gushed up

in his heart; at some window of the past the face of his dead wife

looked out: the old man broke into a great cry, and sobbed and wept

bitterly. Robert said no more, but wept with him.

Henceforward the father clung to his son like a child. The heart of

Falconer turned to his Father in heaven with speechless thanksgiving.

The ideal of his dreams was beginning to dawn, and his life was

new-born.

For a few days Robert took Andrew about to see those of his old

friends who were left, and the kindness with which they all received

him, moved Andrew's heart not a little. Every one who saw him seemed

to feel that he or she had a share in the redeeming duty of the son.

Robert was in their eyes like a heavenly messenger, whom they were

bound to aid; for here was the possessed of demons clothed and in his

right mind. Therefore they overwhelmed both father and son with

kindness. Especially at John Lammie's was he received with a

perfection of hospitality; as if that had been the father's house to

which he had returned from his prodigal wanderings.

The good old farmer begged that they would stay with him for a few

days.

'I hae sae mony wee things to luik efter at Rothieden, afore we gang,'

said Robert.

'Weel, lea' yer father here. We s' tak guid care o' 'im, I promise

ye.'

'There's only ae difficulty. I believe ye are my father's frien', Mr.

Lammie, as ye hae been mine, and God bless ye; sae I'll jist tell you

the trowth, what for I canna lea' him. I'm no sure eneuch yet that he

could withstan' temptation. It's the drink ye ken. It's months sin'

he's tasted it; but--ye ken weel eneuch--the temptation's awfu'. Sin'

ever I got him back, I haena tasted ae mou'fu' o' onything that cud be

ca'd strong drink mysel', an' as lang 's he lives, not ae drap shall

cross my lips--no to save my life.'

'Robert,' said Mr. Lammie, giving him his hand with solemnity, 'I

sweir by God that he shanna see, smell, taste, nor touch drink in this

hoose. There's but twa boatles o' whusky, i' the shape o' drink, i'

the hoose; an' gin ye say 'at he sall bide, I'll gang and mak them an'

the midden weel acquant.'

Andrew was pleased at the proposal. Robert too was pleased that his

father should be free of him for a while. It was arranged for three

days. Half-an-hour after, Robert came upon Mr. Lammie emptying the two

bottles of whisky into the dunghill in the farmyard.

He returned with glad heart to Rothieden. It did not take him long to

arrange his grandmother's little affairs. He had already made up his

mind about her house and furniture. He rang the bell one morning for

Betty.

'Hae ye ony siller laid up, Betty?'

'Ay. I hae feifteen poun' i' the savin's bank.'

'An' what do ye think o' doin'?'

'I'll get a bit roomy, an' tak in washin'.

'Weel, I'll tell ye what I wad like ye to do. Ye ken Mistress

Elshender?'

'Fine that. An' a verra dacent body she is.'

'Weel, gin ye like, ye can haud this hoose, an' a' 'at's in't, jist as

it is, till the day o' yer deith. And ye'll aye keep it in order, an'

the ga'le-room ready for me at ony time I may happen to come in upo'

ye in want o' a nicht's quarters. But I wad like ye, gin ye hae nae

objections, to tak Mistress Elshender to bide wi' ye. She's turnin'

some frail noo, and I'm unner great obligation to her Sandy, ye ken.'

'Ay, weel that. He learnt ye to fiddle, Robert--I hoombly beg your

pardon, sir, Mister Robert.'

'Nae offence, Betty, I assure ye. Ye hae been aye gude to me, and I

thank ye hertily.'

Betty could not stand this. Her apron went up to her eyes.

'Eh, sir,' she sobbed, 'ye was aye a gude lad.'

'Excep' whan I spak o' Muckledrum, Betty.'

She laughed and sobbed together.

'Weel, ye'll tak Mistress Elshender in, winna ye?'

'I'll do that, sir. And I'll try to do my best wi' her.'

'She can help ye, ye ken, wi' yer washin', an' sic like.'

'She's a hard-workin' wuman, sir. She wad do that weel.'

'And whan ye're in ony want o' siller, jist write to me. An' gin

onything suld happen to me, ye ken, write to Mr. Gordon, a frien' o'

mine. There's his address in Lonnon.'

'Eh, sir, but ye are kin'. God bless ye for a'.'

She could bear no more, and left the room crying.

Everything settled at Rothieden, he returned to Bodyfauld. The most

welcome greeting he had ever received in his life, lay in the shine of

his father's eyes when he entered the room where he sat with Miss

Lammie. The next day they left for London.

CHAPTER XX.

THE VANISHING.

THEY came to see me the very evening of their arrival. As to Andrew's

progress there could be no longer any doubt. All that was necessary

for conviction on the point was to have seen him before and to see him

now. The very grasp of his hand was changed. But not yet would Robert

leave him alone.

It will naturally occur to my reader that his goodness was not much

yet. It was not. It may have been greater than we could be sure of,

though. But if any one object that such a conversion, even if it were

perfected, was poor, inasmuch as the man's free will was intromitted

with, I answer: 'The development of the free will was the one object.

Hitherto it was not free.' I ask the man who says so: 'Where would

your free will have been if at some period of your life you could have

had everything you wanted?' If he says it is nobler in a man to do

with less help, I answer, 'Andrew was not noble: was he therefore to

be forsaken? The prodigal was not left without the help of the swine

and their husks, at once to keep him alive and disgust him with the

life. Is the less help a man has from God the better?' According to

you, the grandest thing of all would be for a man sunk in the absolute

abysses of sensuality all at once to resolve to be pure as the

empyrean, and be so, without help from God or man. But is the thing

possible? As well might a hyena say: I will be a man, and become one.

That would be to create. Andrew must be kept from the evil long enough

to let him at least see the good, before he was let alone. But when

would we be let alone? For a man to be fit to be let alone, is for a

man not to need God, but to be able to live without him. Our hearts

cry out, 'To have God is to live. We want God. Without him no life of

ours is worth living. We are not then even human, for that is but the

lower form of the divine. We are immortal, eternal: fill us, O Father,

with thyself. Then only all is well.' More: I heartily believe, though

I cannot understand the boundaries of will and inspiration, that what

God will do for us at last is infinitely beyond any greatness we could

gain, even if we could will ourselves from the lowest we could be,

into the highest we can imagine. It is essential divine life we want;

and there is grand truth, however incomplete or perverted, in the

aspiration of the Brahmin. He is wrong, but he wants something right.

If the man had the power in his pollution to will himself into the

right without God, the fact that he was in that pollution with such

power, must damn him there for ever. And if God must help ere a man

can be saved, can the help of man go too far towards the same end? Let

God solve the mystery--for he made it. One thing is sure: We are his,

and he will do his part, which is no part but the all in all. If man

could do what in his wildest self-worship he can imagine, the grand

result would be that he would be his own God, which is the Hell of

Hells.

For some time I had to give Falconer what aid I could in being with

his father while he arranged matters in prospect of their voyage to

India. Sometimes he took him with him when he went amongst his people,

as he called the poor he visited. Sometimes, when he wanted to go

alone, I had to take him to Miss St. John, who would play and sing as

I had never heard any one play or sing before. Andrew on such

occasions carried his flute with him, and the result of the two was

something exquisite. How Miss St. John did lay herself out to please

the old man! And pleased he was. I think her kindness did more than

anything else to make him feel like a gentleman again. And in his

condition that was much.

At length Falconer would sometimes leave him with Miss St. John, till

he or I should go for him: he knew she could keep him safe. He knew

that she would keep him if necessary.

One evening when I went to see Falconer, I found him alone. It was one

of these occasions.

'I am very glad you have come, Gordon,' he said. 'I was wanting to see

you. I have got things nearly ready now. Next month, or at latest, the

one after, we shall sail; and I have some business with you which had

better be arranged at once. No one knows what is going to happen. The

man who believes the least in chance knows as little as the man who

believes in it the most. My will is in the hands of Dobson. I have

left you everything.'

I was dumb.

'Have you any objection?' he said, a little anxiously.

'Am I able to fulfil the conditions?' I faltered.

'I have burdened you with no conditions,' he returned. 'I don't

believe in conditions. I know your heart and mind now. I trust you

perfectly.'

'I am unworthy of it.'

'That is for me to judge.'

'Will you have no trustees?'

'Not one.'

'What do you want me to do with your property?'

'You know well enough. Keep it going the right way.'

'I will always think what you would like.'

'No; do not. Think what is right; and where there is no right or wrong

plain in itself, then think what is best. You may see good reason to

change some of my plans. You may be wrong; but you must do what you

see right--not what I see or might see right.'

'But there is no need to talk so seriously about it,' I said. 'You

will manage it yourself for many years yet. Make me your steward, if

you like, during your absence: I will not object to that.'

'You do not object to the other, I hope?'

'No.'

'Then so let it be. The other, of course. I have, being a lawyer

myself, taken good care not to trust myself only with the arranging of

these matters. I think you will find them all right.'

'But supposing you should not return--you have compelled me to make

the supposition--'

'Of course. Go on.'

'What am I to do with the money in the prospect of following you?'

'Ah! that is the one point on which I want a word, although I do not

think it is necessary. I want to entail the property.'

'How?'

'By word of mouth,' he answered, laughing. 'You must look out for a

right man, as I have done, get him to know your ways and ideas, and if

you find him worthy--that is a grand wide word--our Lord gave it to

his disciples--leave it all to him in the same way I have left it to

you, trusting to the spirit of truth that is in him, the spirit of

God. You can copy my will--as far as it will apply, for you may have,

one way or another, lost the half of it by that time. But, by word of

mouth, you must make the same condition with him as I have made with

you--that is, with regard to his leaving it, and the conditions on

which he leaves it, adding the words, "that it may descend thus in

perpetuum." And he must do the same.'

He broke into a quiet laugh. I knew well enough what he meant. But he

added:

'That means, of course, for as long as there is any.'

'Are you sure you are doing right, Falconer?' I said.

'Quite. It is better to endow one man, who will work as the Father

works, than a hundred charities. But it is time I went to fetch my

father. Will you go with me?'

This was all that passed between us on the subject, save that, on our

way, he told me to move to his rooms, and occupy them until he

returned.

'My papers,' he added, 'I commit to your discretion.'

On our way back from Queen Square, he joked and talked merrily. Andrew

joined in. Robert showed himself delighted with every attempt at

gaiety or wit that Andrew made. When we reached the house, something

that had occurred on the way made him turn to Martin Chuzzlewit, and

he read Mrs. Gamp's best to our great enjoyment.

I went down with the two to Southampton, to see them on board the

steamer. I staid with them there until she sailed. It was a lovely

morning in the end of April, when at last I bade them farewell on the

quarter-deck. My heart was full. I took his hand and kissed it. He put

his arms round me, and laid his cheek to mine. I was strong to bear

the parting.

The great iron steamer went down in the middle of the Atlantic, and I

have not yet seen my friend again.

CHAPTER XXI.

IN EXPECTATIONE.

I HAD left my lodging and gone to occupy Falconer's till his return.

There, on a side-table among other papers, I found the following

verses. The manuscript was much scored and interlined, but more than

decipherable, for he always wrote plainly. I copied them out fair, and

here they are for the reader that loves him.

Twilight is near, and the day grows old;

Â The spiders of care are weaving their net;

All night 'twill be blowing and rainy and cold;

Â I cower at his door from the wind and wet.

He sent me out the world to see,

Â Drest for the road in a garment new;

It is clotted with clay, and worn beggarly--

Â The porter will hardly let me through!

I bring in my hand a few dusty ears--

Â Once I thought them a tribute meet!

I bring in my heart a few unshed tears:

Â Which is my harvest--the pain or the wheat?

A broken man, at the door of his hall

Â I listen, and hear it go merry within;

The sounds are of birthday-festival!

Â Hark to the trumpet! the violin!

I know the bench where the shadowed folk

Â Sit 'neath the music-loft--there none upbraids!

They will make me room who bear the same yoke,

Â Dear publicans, sinners, and foolish maids!

An ear has been hearing my heart forlorn!

Â A step comes soft through the dancing-din!

Oh Love eternal! oh woman-born!

Â Son of my Father to take me in!

One moment, low at our Father's feet

Â Loving I lie in a self-lost trance;

Then walk away to the sinners' seat,

Â With them, at midnight, to rise and dance!

THE END

FOOTNOTES:

1 In Scotch the ch and gh are almost always guttural. The gh according

to Mr. Alexander Ellis, the sole authority in the past pronunciation

of the country, was guttural in England in the time of Shakspere.

2 An exclamation of pitiful sympathy, inexplicable to the

understanding. Thus the author covers his philological ignorance of

the cross-breeding of the phrase.

3 Extra--over all--ower a'--orra--one more than is wanted.

4 Tennyson's Morte d'Arthur.

Â Â Â Â Atque animum nunc huc celerem, nunc dividit illuc.

Â Â Â Â Ãneid: IV. 285

5 This line is one of many instances in which my reader will see both

the carelessness of Ericson and my religion towards his remains.

6 Why should Sir Walter Scott, who felt the death of Camp, his

bullterrier, so much that he declined a dinner engagement in

consequence, say on the death of his next favourite, a grayhound

bitch--'Rest her body, since I dare not say soul!'? Where did he get

that dare not? Is it well that the daring of genius should be

circumscribed by an unbelief so common-place as to be capable only of

subscription?

7 Amongst Ericson's papers I find the following sonnets, which belong

to the mood here embodied:

Â Oft, as I rest in quiet peace, am I

Thrust out at sudden doors, and madly driven

Through desert solitudes, and thunder-riven

Black passages which have not any sky.

The scourge is on me now, with all the cry

Of ancient life that hath with murder striven.

How many an anguish hath gone up to heaven!

How many a hand in prayer been lifted high

When the black fate came onward with the rush

Of whirlwind, avalanche, or fiery spume!

Even at my feet is cleft a shivering tomb

Beneath the waves; or else with solemn hush

The graveyard opens, and I feel a crush

As if we were all huddled in one doom.

Â Comes there, O Earth, no breathing time for thee?

No pause upon thy many-chequered lands?

Now resting on my bed with listless hands,

I mourn thee resting not. Continually

Hear I the plashing borders of the sea

Answer each other from the rocks and sands.

Troop all the rivers seawards; nothing stands,

But with strange noises hasteth terribly.

Loam-eared hyenas go a moaning by.

Howls to each other all the bloody crew

Of Afric's tigers. But, O men, from you

Comes this perpetual sound more loud and high

Than aught that vexes air. I hear the cry

Of infant generations rising too.

8 This sonnet and the preceding are both one line deficient.

9 To these two sonnets Falconer had appended this note.

'Something I wrote to Ericson concerning these, during my first

college vacation, produced a reply of which the following is a

passage: "On writing the first I was not aware that James and John

were the Sons of Thunder. For a time it did indeed grieve me to think

of the spiritual-minded John as otherwise than a still and passionless

lover of Christ."'

GLOSSARY:

Note from John Bechard, creator of this Electronic text.

The following is a list of Scottish words which are found in George

MacDonaldâs âRobert Falconerâ.Â I have compiled this list myself and

worked out the definitions from context with the help of Margaret

West, from Leven in Fife, Scotland, and also by referring to a word

list found in a collection of poems by Robert Burns, âChamberâs Scots

Dialect Dictionary from the 17th century to the Presentâ c. 1911 and

âScots-English English-Scots Dictionaryâ Lomond Books c. 1998.Â I

have tried to be as thorough as possible given the limited resources

and welcome any feedback on this list which may be wrong (my e-mail

address is [email protected]).Â This was never meant to be a

comprehensive list of the National Scottish Language, but rather an

aid to understanding some of the conversations and references in this

text in the Broad Scots.Â I do apologise for any mistakes or

omissions.Â I aimed for my list to be very comprehensive, and it

often repeats the same word in a plural or diminutive form.Â As well,

it includes words that are quite obvious to native English speakers,

only spelled in such a way to demonstrate the regional pronunciation.

This list is a compressed form that consists of three columns for

âwordâ, âdefinitionâ, and âadditional notesâ.Â It is set up with a

comma between each item and a hard return at the end of each

definition.Â This means that this section could easily be cut and

pasted into its own text file and imported into a database or

spreadsheet as a comma separated variable file (.csv file).Â Failing

that, you could do a search and replace for commas in this section (I

have not used any commas in my words, definitions or notes) and

replace the commas with spaces or tabs.

Word,Definition,Notes

a',all; every,also have

a' gait,everywhere,

a' thing,everything; anything,

abeelity,ability,

abettin',abetting,

a'body,everyone; everybody,

aboon,above; up; over,

aboord,aboard,

aboot,about,

aboot it an' aboot it,all about,

abune,above; up; over,

accep's,accepts,

accoont,account,

accoonts,accounts,

accordin',according,

acquant,acquainted,

a'-creatin',all-creating,

ae,one,

aff,off; away; past; beyond,

aff-gang,outlet,

afflickit,afflicted,

affoord,afford,

affront,affront; disgrace; shame,

affrontet,affronted; disgraced,also ashamed; shamed

afit,afoot; on foot,

afore,before; in front of,

aforehan',beforehand,

aften,often,

aftener,more often,

agen,against,

aheid,ahead,

ahin',behind; after; at the back of,

ahint,behind; after; at the back of,

aiblins,perhaps; possibly,

aidin',aiding,

ailin',ailing; sick,

ain,own,also one

airin',airing,

airm,arm,

airm-cheir,armchair,

airms,arms,also coat of arms; crest

airmy,army,

airth,earth,

aise,ashes,

ait,eat,

aither,either,

aiths,oaths,

aitin',eating,

aits,oats,

alane,alone,

alang,along,

Algerine,Algerian,

alloo,allow,

allooed,allowed,

Almichty,Almighty; God,

amaist,almost,

amang,among; in; together with,

amen's,amends,

amo',among,

amuntit,amounted,

an',and,

ance,once,

ane,one,also a single person or thing

aneath,beneath; under,

anent,opposite to; in front of,also concerning

Anerew,Andrew,

anes,ones,

angert,angered; angry,also grieved

anither,another,

answerin',answering,

answert,answered,

a'ready,already,

aricht,aright,

aside,beside,also aside

aspirin',aspiring,

astarn,astern,

'at,that,

ate,hate,also eat

a'thegither,all together,

a'thing,everything; anything,

'at's,that is; that has,

attreebuted,attributed,

atweel,indeed; truely; of course,

atween,between,

aucht,eight; eighth,also ought; own; possess

aul',old,

auld,old,

aulder,older,

aumrie,cupboard; pantry; store-closet,

aumry,cupboard; pantry; store-closet,

a'-uphaudin',all-upholding; all-supporting,

ava,at all; of all,exclamation of banter; ridicule

awa,away; distant,also off; go away

awa',away; distant,also off; go away

awaur,aware,

Awbrahawm,Abraham,

aweel,ah well; well then; well,

awfu',awful,

awpron,apron,

ay,yes; indeed,exclamation of surprise; wonder

aye,yes; indeed,

ayont,beyond; after,

bade,did bide,

badena,did not bide,

bagonet,bayonet,

bailey,civic dignitary; magistrate,

bairn,child,

bairnie,little child,diminutive

bairns,children,

baith,both,

bakehoose,bakery,

baneless,insipid; without pith,

banes,bones,

barfut,barefoot,

barrin',barring,

barrowfu',wheelbarrow full,

baubee,halfpenny,

baubees,halfpennies,

bauchles,old pair of shoes,also shoes down at the heel

baukie,bat,

beggit,begged,

beginnin',beginning,

begud,began,

behaud,withhold; wait; delay,also behold

behavin',behaving,

bein',being,

beir,bear,

beirer,bearer,

beirs,bears,

bejan,first year's student,at a Scottish university

belangs,belongs,

believin',believing,

ben' leather,thick leather for soling boots/shoes,

bena,be not; is not,

bend-leather,thick leather for soling boots/shoes,

benn,in; inside; into; within; inwards,also inner room

benn the hoose,in/into the parlour,best room of the house

beowty,beauty,

beuks,books,

beyon',beyond,

bide,endure; bear; remain; live,also desire; wish

bides,endures; bears; remains; lives,also stays for

biggit,built,

bilin',boiling,also the whole quantity

bin',bind,

binna,be not,

birse,bristle; hair; plume of hair,

bit,but; bit,also small; little--diminutive

bitch,,term of contempt usually applied to a man

bitin',biting,

bittie,little bit,diminutive

bittock,a little bit; a short distance,

blaeberries,blueberries,

blastit,blasted,

blate,over-modest; bashful; shy,

blaud,spoil; injure; soil,

blaudit,spoiled; injured; soiled,

blaw,blow,

blecks,nonplusses; perplexes; beats,

blessin',blessing,

blether,talk nonsense; babble; boast,

bletherin',talking nonsense; babbling; boasting,

blethers,talks nonsense; babbles; boasts,nonsense; foolish talk

blin',blind,

blink,take a hasty glance; ogle,also shine; gleam; twinkle; glimmer

blinner,blinder,

blude,blood,

bluidy,bloody,

boasom,bosom,

boatles,bottles,

boddom,bottom,

body,person; fellow,also body

boglet,bamboozled; terrified,

bonnet,man's cap,

bonnetfu',bonnetful; capful,

bonnets,man's caps,

bonnie,good; beautiful; pretty; handsome,

bonniest,best; most beautiful; prettiest,also considerable

bonny,good; beautiful; pretty; handsome,

boodie,ghost; hobgoblin,

booin',bowing,

bools,marbles,

boon',bound,

boord,board (i.e. room and board),

bothie,cottage in common for farm-servants,

boucht,bought,

bourach,heap; cluster; mound,

bowat,stable-lantern,

bowie,small barrel or cask,

boxie,little box,diminutive

brae,hill; hillside; high ground by a river,

braid,broad; having a strong accent,

brak,break,

brakfast,breakfast,

brat,child,term of contempt

braw,beautiful; good; fine,also lovely (girl); handsome (boy)

brawly,admirably; very; very much; well,

breedth,breadth,

breeks,breeches; trousers,

breid,bread,

breist,breast,

breists,breasts,

breith,breath,

breme-bush,broom-bush,also simpleton

brewin',brewing,

brig,bridge,

brither,brother,

brithers,brothers; fellows,

brithren,brethren; brothers,

brocht,brought,

broo,brow; eyebrow,

broucht,brought,

browst,brewage; booze,also the consequences of one's own acts

bruik,broke,

brunt,burned,

bude,would prefer to; behoved,also must; had to

budena,must not; could not; might not,

buff,nonsense,

buik,book,also Bible

buiks,books,

bund,bound,

burd alane,quite alone,also the only surviving child of a family

burn,water; stream; brook,

burnin',burning,

burnside,along the side of a stream,

buss,bush; shrub; thicket,

butes,boots,

butt,main room in a croft; outside,includes kitchen and storage

butt the hoose,into the house; into the kitchen,

by ordinar,out of the ordinary; supernatural,also unusual

by ordinar',out of the ordinary; supernatural,also unusual

by-ordinar,out of the ordinary; supernatural,also unusual

byous,exceedingly; extraordinary; very,

ca,drive; impel; hammer,

ca',call; name,

ca'd,called,

cadger,carrier; pedlar,

ca'in',calling,

cairds,cards,

cairriage,carriage,

cairriet,carried,

cairry,carry,

cairryin',carrying,

calfie,little calf,diminutive

callant,stripling; lad,term of affection

cam,came,

cam',came,

camna,did not come,

camstairie,unmanageable; wild; obstinate,

camstairy,unmanageable; wild; obstinate,

camstary,unmanageable; wild; obstinate,

can'le,candle,

canna,cannot,also cotton-grass

canny,cautious; prudent; shrewd; artful,

cap,wooden cup or bowl,

capt'n,captain,

carena,do not care,

carldoddies,stalks of rib-grass,also term of endearment

carritchis,catechism,

ca's,calls,

cast up,taunt; reproach,

catchin',catching,

cattle,lice; fleas,used contemptuously of persons

cauld,cold,

caure,calves,

'cause,because,

caw,drive; impel; hammer,

cawed,driven; impeled; hammered,

cawin',driving; impeling; hammering,

ceevil,civil,

'cep',except; but,

chackit,checkered,

chairge,charge,

chap,knock; hammer; strike; rap,

chappit,knocked; hammered; struck; rapped,

chaps,knocks; hammers; strikes; raps,

chaumer,chamber; room; bedroom,

cheep,chirp; creak; hint; word,

cheerman,chairman,

chessel,tub for pressing cheese,

chice,choice,

chiel',child; young person; fellow,term of fondness or intimacy

chield,child; young person; fellow,term of fondness or intimacy

chimla-lug,fireside,

chits,sweetbreads,

chop,shop; store,

circumspec',circumspect,

claes,clothes; dress,

claikin',clucking (like a hen),also talk much in a trivial way

claith,cloth,

clams,vice or pincers,used by saddlers and shoemakers

clap,press down; pat; fondle,

clashes,blows; slaps; messes,also gossip; tittle-tattle

clash-pyet,tell-tale; scandal-monger,

clean,altogether; entirely,also comely; shapely; empty; clean

cleant,cleaned,

clear-e'ed,clear-eyed,

cleed,clothe; shelter,

cleedin',clothing; sheltering,

cleuks,claws; hands; paws,

clo'en,cloven,

clomb,climbed,

clood,cloud,

cloods,clouds,

cloody,cloudy,

close,narrow alley; blind alley,also enclosed land

closin',closing,

clype,tell tales; gossip,

coaties,children's coats; petticoats,

coaton,cotton,

coats,petticoats,

coch,coach,

coches,coaches,

coff,buy,

colliginer,college student,also college boy

Come yer wa's butt.,Come on in.,

comin',coming,

comman'ment,commandment,

compleen,complain,

con thanks,return thanks,

considerin',considering,

contradickit,contradicted,

contrairy,contrary,

contred,contradicted; thwarted; crossed,

convence,convince,

conversin',conversing,

convertit,converted,

coorse,coarse,also course

coort,court,

corbie,crow; raven,

cornel,colonel,

correck,correct,

cottar,farm tenant; cottager,

cottars,farm tenants; cottagers,

cottar-wark,stipulated work done by the cottager,

couldna,could not,

coupit,tilted; tumbled; drank off,

couples,rafters,

crackin',cracking,

cracklin',crackling,

crap o' the wa',natural shelf between wall and roof,

crappit,topped; cropped; lopped,

crappit heids,stuffed head of cod or haddock,

crater,creature,

cratur,creature,

craturs,creatures,

cried,called; summoned,

crookit,crooked,

croon,crown,

croudin',cooing; croaking; groaning,

Cry Moany,Cremona,make of violin

cryin',calling; summoning,

cryin' doon,decrying; depreciating,

cud,could,

cudna,could not,

culd,could,

cumber,encumbrance; inconvenience,

cunnin',cunning,

curst,cursed,

cuttin',cutting,

cutty pipe,short tobacco-pipe,

cwytes,petticoats,

dacent,decent,

dame,young unmarried woman; damsel,also farmer's wife

damnin',damning; condemning,

dancin',dancing,

dang,knock; bang; drive,also damn

darnin',darning,

dauchter,daughter,

daunerin',strolling; sauntering; ambling,

daur,dare; challenge,

daured,dared; challenged,

daurna,dare not; do not dare,

daursay,dare say,

dauty,darling; pet,term of endearment

dawtie,darling; pet,term of endearment

daylicht,daylight,

debosh,excessive indulgence; debauch,also extravagance; waste

deboshed,debauched; worthless,

deceitfu',deceitful,

deceivin',deceiving,

dee,do,also die

deed,died,also deed; indeed

'deed,indeed,

dee'd,died,

deein',doing,also dying

deevil,devil,

deevil-ma'-care,devil-may-care; utterly careless,also no matter

deevilry,devilry,

deevils,devils,

deid,dead,

deif,deaf,

deil,devil,also not

de'il,devil,also not

De'il a bit!,Not at all! Not a bit!,

deith,death,

deleeberately,deliberately,

dementit,demented; mad; crazy,

denner,dinner,

desertit,deserted,

desperate,exceedingly; beyond measure,also irreclaimable; very bad

didna,did not,

differ,difference; dissent,also differ

dingin',overcoming; wearying; vexing,also raining/snowing heavily

dinna,do not,

direckly,directly; immediately,

dirt,worthless persons or things,term of contempt

dishcloot,cloth for washing dishes,

disna,does not,

disoun,disown,

distinckly,distinctly,

div,do,

divots,thin flat pieces of sod,

dochter,daughter,

doesna,does not,

doin',doing,

doin's,doings,

doited,foolish; stupefied; crazy,

dominie,minister; schoolmaster,slightly contemptuous

dooble,double; duplicate,also double dealing; devious

dooble-sole,double-sole,

doobt,suspect; know; doubt,have an unpleasant conviction

doobtin',suspecting; knowing,also doubting

doobtless,doubtless,

doobts,suspects; knows,also doubts

dooce,gentle; sensible; sober; prudent,

dooms,extremely; exceedingly; very,

doon,down,

doonricht,downright,

door-cheek,door-post; threshold; doorway,

door-stane,flagstone at the threshold of a door,

dother,daughter,

dottled,crazy; in dotage,

douce,gentle; sensible; sober; prudent,

dowie,sad; lonely; depressing; dismal,also ailing

draigon,dragon; also boy's paper kite,reference to Revelation 12-13

draigons,dragons,also boys' paper kites

dram,glass of whisky,

drap,drop; small quantity of,

drap i' the hoose,presence of someone unknown,

drappit,dropped,

drappy,little drop; a little (liquor),diminutive

drauchts,plans; schemes; policies,also lineaments of the face

drave,drove,

drawin',drawing,

dreadfu',dreadful,

dreamin',dreaming,

drear,dreary; dreariness; tedium,

dreidfu',dreadful; dreadfully,

drift,snow driven by the wind,

driftin',drifting,snow driven by the wind

drinkin',drinking,

drivin',driving,

droont,drowned,

drucken,drunken; tipsy,

drum-heid,drum head,

drunken,drank; drunk,

du,do,

duin',doing,

dumfoundered,perplexed; stunned; amazed,

dune,done,

dunna,do not,

duv,do,

duvna,do not,

dwalls,dwells,

d'ye,do you,

dyke,wall of stone or turf,

eaves-drapper,eavesdropper,

Ebberdeen,Aberdeen,

ee,eye,

een,eyes,

e'en,even; just; simply; equal,also eyes; evening

efter,after; afterwards,

efterhin,after; afterwards,

efternune,afternoon,

eident,industrious; diligent; steady,

elbuck,elbow,

eleckit,elected,chosen by God for salvation (Calvinism)

ellwand,ell-wand; ruler; yardstick,1 ell = 37 inches or 94 cm

en',end,

endit,ended,

eneuch,enough,

Englan',England,

enjoyin',enjoying,

eppiteet,appetite,

er,ere; before,

er',ere; before,

Erse,Irish; Gaelic,

etairnity,eternity,

ewie,young ewe,

exackly,exactly,

excep',except,

expairience,experience,

expeckin',expecting,

expecs,expects,

eyther,either,

fa',fall; befall,

fac',fact; truth; reality,

fac's,facts; truths; realities,

factor,manager of a landed property,lets farms; collects rents

fact'ry,factory,

faddom,fathom,

fa'en,fallen,

failin',failing,

faimilies,families,

faimily,family,

fain,eager; anxious; fond,also fondly; gladly

fa'in',falling,

fairmy,little farm,diminutive

Faith!,Indeed!; Truly!,exclamation

fallow,fellow; chap,

fan',found,also felt

fand,found,

farrer,farther,

fash,trouble; inconvenience; vex,

faun't,found,

faured,favoured; featured,

faut,fault; blame,

fau'ts,faults,

feared,afraid; frightened; scared,

fearfu',fearful; easily frightened,

fearsome,terrifying; fearful; awful,

feart,afraid; frightened; scared,

feelin',feeling,

fegs!,truly!; really!; goodness!,mild oath; exclamation of surprise

feifteen,fifteen,

fell,very; potent; keen; harsh; sharp,intensifies; also turf

feow,few,

ferlie,wonder; novelty; curiosity,

fess,fetch; bring,

fest,fast,

festen,fasten; bind,

fiddlin',fiddling,

fin',find,also feel

fir-can'le,a torch; 'firwood' used as a candle,

fishin',fishing,

fit,foot; base,also fit; capable; able

flax,flax; wick,

flech,flea,

fleys,terrifies; frightens,

fleyt,terrified; frightened,

flingin',kicking; throwing,

flittin',shifting; removing; departing,

flooers,flowers,

flure,floor,

flurin',flooring,

forby,as well; as well as; besides,also over and above

forbye,as well; as well as; besides,also over and above

foresicht,foresight,

foret,forward,

forgather,assemble; encounter,also meet for a special purpose

forgathert,assembled; encountered,also met for a special purpose

forgettin',forgetting,

forgie,forgive,

forgien,forgiven,

fortnicht,fortnight; two weeks,

fou,full; well-fed,

fouchten,fought,

fower-hoors,four o'clock tea,

fowk,folk,

frae,from,

freely,quite; very; thoroughly,

freits,superstitions; charms,also superstitious fancies

fremt,stranger,also strange; foreign

fren',friend,

fricht,frighten; scare away,also fright

frichtit,frightened; scared away,

frichtsome,frightful,

frien',friend,

frien's,friends,

frien'ship,friendship,

fu',full; very; much,

fule,fool,

fummles,fumbles,

fun',found,

fun-buss,whin-bush,

fund,found,

furbye,as well; as well as; besides,also over and above

fushionless,pithless; tasteless; feeble,

fut,foot,

gae,gave,

gaed,went,

gaein',going,

gae's,gave us; gave his,

gaird,guard; watch,

gait,way; fashion,also route; street

gaither,gather,

ga'le,gable,

gane,gone,

gang,go; goes; depart; walk,

gang yer wa's,go on,

gangs,goes; walks,

gar,cause; make; compel,

garred,made; caused; compelled,

garrin',making; causing; compelling,

gars,makes; causes; compels,

gart,made; caused; compelled,

gar't,make it; cause it; compel it,

gate,way; route,also method; fashion; habit

gatherin',gathering,

gaun,going,

'gen,by; in time for; whether,

German Ocean,,old reference to the English Channel & North Sea

gether,gather,

gettin',getting,

gey,fairly; considerably,also considerable

gi',give,

gie,give,

gie a lift,give a helping hand,

gied,gave,

giein',giving,

gien,if; as if; then; whether,also given

gi'en,given,

giena,do not give,

gies,gives,

gie's,gives; give us; give his,

gill,tipple; drink,

gin,if; as if; then; whether,

gird,hoop for a barrel or tub,

girn,grimace; snarl; twist the features,

glaid,glad,

glaidly,gladly,

glaiss,glass,

gleds,kites; buzzards,

gleg,quick; lively; smart; quick-witted,

Glendronach,particular brand of whisky,

glimmerin',glimmering,

gloamin',twilight; dusk,

gloggie,insipid; artificial; unnatural,

glowered,stared; gazed; scowled,

goin',going,

goon,gown,

goul,howl; yell; whine,

gowd,gold,

gowk,cuckoo; fool; blockhead,

gran',grand; capital; first-rate,

grandmither,grandmother,

gran'father,grandfather,

gran'mither,grandmother,

grat,cried; wept,

gravestane,gravestone; tombstone; headstone,

greet,cry; weep,

greetin',crying; weeping,

greit,cry; weep,

greitin',crying; weeping,

greits,cries; weeps,

grew,greyhound,

grip,grasp; understand,also hold

grips,grasps; understands,seizures; colic

growin',growing,

grun',ground,

grup,grip; grasp,

grups,grips; grasp,

grutten,cried; wept,

gude,good,also God

gude-bye,goodbye,

gude-hertit,good-hearted,

gudeness,goodness,

guid,good,also God

guide,treat; handle; look after; save; keep,

Guidsake!,For God's sake!,

ha',have,also hall; house

haddie,haddock,

hadna,had not,

hae,have; has,also here

ha'e,have,also here

haein',having,

haena,have not,

hae't,have it,

haill,whole,

hairm,harm,

hairps,harps,

hairst,harvest,

hairst-play,school holidays during harvest,

Haith!,Faith!,exclamation of surprise

haithen,heathen,

haiven,heaven,

halesome,wholesome; pure,

half-dizzen,half-dozen,

half-stervit,half-starved,

hame,home,

han',hand,

han'fu',handful,

hangin',hanging,

hangt,hanged,

hang't,hanged,

han'le,handle,

han'led,handled; treated,

han'let,handled,

han's,hands,

hantle,much; large quantity; far,

hard,heard,also hard

hash,mess; muddle,

hasna,does not have,

haud,hold; keep,

hauden,held; kept,

haudin',holding; keeping,

hauld,hold,

haveless,careless (therefore helpless),also wasteful; incompetent

haven,heaven,

haverin',talking incoherently; babbling,

havers,nonsense; foolish talk; babble,

hay-sow,long oblong stack of hay,shaped like a sow

he that will to Cupar maun to Cupar,a wilful man must have his way,

heap,very much,also heap

heardna,did not hear,

hearin',hearing,

hearken,hearken; hear; listen,

hearkened,hearkened; heard; listened,

hearkenin',hearkening; listening,

hearkent,hearkened; heard; listened,

Hecklebirnie,Hell,

hecklet,cross-questioned; examined,

hed,had,also hid

heepocreet,hypocrite,

heicht,height,

heid,head; heading,

heids,heads; headings,

helpin',helping,

helpit,helped,

her lane,on her own,

hersel',herself,

hert,heart,

hertily,heartily,

herts,hearts,

het,hot; burning,

hev,have,

Hielan',Highland,

Hielan'man,Highland man,

hillo,,a call to attract attention

him lane,on his own,

himsel',himself,

hinder,hinder; hind; latter,

hine,away; afar; to a distance,

hing,hang,

hingin',hanging,

hings,hangs,

hinnerance,hinderance,

hinney,honey,

hintit,hinted,

hips,borders of a district,

hiz,us,emphatic

hizzies,hussies; silly girls,

hoo,how,

hooever,however,

hooly,slowly; cautiously; gently,also 'take your time'

hoomble,humble,

hoombly,humbly,

hoor,hour,

hoo's,how is,

hoose,house,

hooses,houses,

hoot,pshaw,exclamation of doubt or contempt

Hoot awa!,tuts!; nonsense!,also exclamation of sympathy

hoot toot,tut!,exclamation of annoyance

hoots,pshaw,exclamation of doubt or contempt

horse-huves,horse hooves,

hose,stocking,

hostit,coughed,

houp,hope,

houpe,hope,

houps,hopes,

humblet,humbled,

hunger,hunger; starve,

hungert,starved,

hunner,hundred,

huntin',hunting,

hurdies,buttocks,

hurry an' a scurry,uproar; tumult,

hurtit,hurt,

huves,hooves,

hynd,straight; by the nearest road,

i',in; into,

I doobt,I know; I suspect,

I wat,I know; I assure (you),

ilk,every; each,also common; ordinary

ilka,every; each,also common; ordinary

ilkabody,everybody; everyone,

ill,bad; evil; hard; harsh; badly,also misfortune; harm

'ill,will,

ill-contrived,tricky; mischievous,also badly behaved; ill-tempered

ill-doin',badly behaved,also leading an evil life

ill-fashioned,vulgar in habits; ill-mannered,also quarrelsome

ill-faured,unbecoming; ill-mannered; clumsy,also unpleasant

ill-mainnert,ill-mannered,

ill-tongued,foul-tongued; abusive,

ill-used,used wrongly,

ill-willy,ill-tempered; spiteful; grudging,also reluctant

'im,him,

impidence,impudence,

imputin',imputing,

inheritin',inheriting,

in't,in it,

interesstin',interesting,

interferin',interfering,

interruppit,interrupted,

intil,into; in; within,

ir,are,

Ishmeleets,Ishmaelites,

isna,is not; is no,

is't,is it,

ither,other; another; further,

'ither,other; another; further,

itsel',itself,

iver,ever,

jabberin',chattering; idle talking,

jaloosed,suspected; guessed; imagined,

jaud,lass; girl; worthless woman,old worn-out horse

jaw,billow; splash; surge; wave,

jawin',talking; chattering,

Jeames,James,

Jeck,Jack,

jeedgment,judgement,

Jeroozlem,Jerusalem,

jined,joined,

jines,joins,

jist,just,

judgin',judging,

jumps,tallies; coincides,

justifee,justify,

justifeein',justifying,

jyler,jailer,

kailyard,kitchen garden; small cottage garden,

keek,look; peep; spy,

keekin',looking; peeping; prying,

keepit,kept,

kelpie,water-sprite; river-horse,

ken,know; be acquainted with; recognise,

kenna,do not know,

kennin',knowing,

kens,knows,

kent,known; knew,

kep,keep; catch,also intercept; encounter

kickin',kicking,

kickit,kicked,

kin',kind; nature; sort; agreeable,also somewhat; in some degree

kin'ness,kindness,

kirk,church,

kirks,churches,

kirkyaird,churchyard,

kirstened,christened,

kirstenin',christening,

kissin',kissing,

kist,chest; coffer; box; chest of drawers,

kists,chests; coffers; boxes; luggage,

kitchie,kitchen,

kittlins,kittens,

kneipit,knocked,

lad,boy,term of commendation or reverence

laddie,boy,term of affection

laddies,boys,term of affection

lads,boys,term of commendation or reverence

laicher,lower,

laird,landed proprietor; squire; lord,

lameter,cripple,also lame

lammie,little lamb,term of endearment

lan',land; country; ground,

lane,lone; alone; lonely; solitary,

lang,long; big; large; many,also slow; tedious

langed,longed,

langer,longer,

lang-leggit,long legged,

lang's,long as,

lang-tailed,tedious,

lan'less,landless,

lap,leaped,

lapstane,stone on which a shoemaker,hammers his leather

lass,girl; young woman,term of address

lasses,girls; young women,

lassie,girl,term of endearment

lat,let; allow,

lat's,let's; let us; let his,

latten,let; allowed,

lattin',letting; allowing,

lauch,laugh,

lauchin',laughing,

lauchter,laughter,

lave,rest; remainder; others,also leave

laverock,lark (type of bird),

Lawlands,Lowlands,

lea,leave,

lea',leave,

leadin',leading,

leal,loyal; faithful; sincere; true,

learnin',learning,also teaching

learnt,learned,also taught

leavin',leaving,

leddy,lady,also boy; lad; laddy

lee,pasture; fallow ground,also shelter from wind or rain; lie

leear,lier,

leebrary,library,

leed,lied; told lies,

leein',lying; telling lies,

lees,lies,

leevin',living; living being,

leiser,leisure,

len',lend; give; grant,also loan

len'th,length,

leuch,laughed,

leuk,look; watch; appearance,

leys,grasslands,

licht,light,

lichtlie,make light of; disparage,

lickin',thrashing; punishment,

lien,lain,

lift,load; boost; lift; helping hand,also sky; heavens

liket,liked,

likit,liked,

likliheid,likelyhood,

likly,likely,

limmer,rascal; rogue,also loose woman; prostitute

lingel,shoemaker's thread,

links,stretch of sandy grass-covered ground,near the seashore

lint-bells,flowers of the flax,

lippen,trust; depend on,also look after

list,enlist as a soldier,

livin',living,

'll,will,

lockit,locked,

longin',longing,

Lonnon,London,

loon,rascal; rogue; ragamuffin,also boy; lad

loot,let; allowed; permitted,

Losh!,corrupt form of 'Lord',exclamation of surprise or wonder

losin',losing,

loup,leap; jump; spring,

loup-coonter lads,shopkeepers; salesmen,

loupin',leaping; jumping; springing,

loupin'-on-stane,horse-block,

lowse,loose; free,also dishonest; immoral

luckie-daddie,grandfather,also fondly regarded forefather

luckie-daiddie,grandfather,also fondly regarded forefather

luckie-minnie,grandmother,

lucky,old woman,

lucky-daiddy,grandfather,also fondly regarded forefather

lug,ear; fin (fish); handle,also shallow wooden dish

lugs,ears,

luik,look,

luikin',looking,

luikit,looked,

luiks,looks,

luve,love,

lyin',lying,

lythe,shelter,

'm,him,

ma,my,

magistrand,student about to become M.A.,at Aberdeen University

maijesty,majesty,

mainner,manner,

mainners,manners,

mair,more; greater,

mairch,march,

mairry,marry,

maist,most; almost,

'maist,almost,

maist han',almost,

maister,master; mister,

maistly,mostly; most of all,

maitter,matter,

maitters,matters,

mak,make; do,

mak',make; do,

makin',making; doing,

maks,makes; does,

mak's,makes; does,

man-body,full grown man,

Markis,Marquis,

maukin,hare,also a reference to a poem by Burns

maun,must; have to,

maunna,must not; may not,

mayna,may not,

meanin',meaning,

meddlin',meddling,

meenit,minute,

meenits,minutes,

meenute,minute,

meesery,misery,

mell,mix; be intimate; meddle,

mem,Ma'am; Miss; Madam,

men',mend,

men'in',mending; healing,

men't,mended,

merchan's,merchants; shopkeepers,

mercifu',merciful; favourable,

mere,mare,also mere

merried,married,

merry,marry,also merry

micht,might,

michtna,might not,

michty,mighty; God,

midden,dunghill; manure pile,

middlin',tolerable; mediocre; fairly well,

mids,midst; middle,

mids',midst; middle,

min',mind; recollection,also recollect; remember

min' upo',remember,

mind,mind; recollection,also recollect; remember

ministert,ministered,

minit,minute,

mint,insinuate; hint; feign,also aim at; attempt

mintin',insinuating; hinting; feigning,also aiming at; attempting

mintit,insinuated; hinted; feigned,also aimed at; attempted

mirk,darkness; gloom; night,

mischeef,mischief; injury; harm,

misdoobt,doubt; disbelieve; suspect,

missionar',missionary,

mistak,mistake,

mither,mother,

mithers,mothers,

mizzer,measure,

moedesty,modesty,

mony,many,

moo',mouth,

moose,mouse,

mornin',morning,

morn's,tomorrow,

mou',mouth,

moufu',mouthful,

mou'fu',mouthful,

mould,mould; loose earth; top soil,

muckle,huge; enormous; big; great; much,

muckler,bigger; greater,

mull,snuff-box,

mune,moon,

munelicht,moonlight,

murnin',mourning,

mutch,woman's cap with protruding frill,worn under the bonnet

mutchkin,liquid measure,equal to an English pint

my lane,on my own,

mysel',myself,

na,not; by no means,

nae,no; none; not,

naebody,nobody; no one,

naething,nothing,

nane,none,

nanetheless,nonetheless,

nater,nature,

nat'ral,natural,

natur',nature,

naything,nothing,

nearhan',nearly; almost; near by,

near-han',nearly; almost; near by,

nears,kidneys,

nebs,tips; points; nibs; beaks,

neebor,neighbour,

neebors,neighbours,

neebour,neighbour,

needfu',needful; necessary; needy,

needna,do not need; need not,

ne'er-do-weel,an incorrigible; troublemaker,

neist,next; nearest,

nesty,nasty,

neuk,nook; recess; interior angle,also corner

news,talk; gossip,

nicht,night; evening,

niffer,exchange; barter,

no,not,

no',not,

noething,nothing,

noo,now,

noo',now,

noo a-days,now; in these days,

nor,than; although; if,also nor

nor's,than is,

notwithstandin',notwithstanding,

nuik,corner,

o',of; on,

objeck,object,

obleeged,obliged,

och,,exclamation of sorrow or regret

och hone,alas,

Od,disguised form of 'God',mince oath

odds,consequence; change,

o'er,over; upon; too,

ohn,without; un-,uses past participle not present progressive

Ohone!,Alas!,

on',and,possibly a mispelling--should be an'

onlike,unlike,

onsays,unsays,

ony,any,

onybody,anybody; anyone,

onything,anything,

ook,week,

ooks,weeks,

oor,our,

'oor,hour,

oors,ours,

oorsel's,ourselves,

oot,out,

ootcast,outcast,

oots,outs,

ootside,outside,

opingon,opinion,

opingons,opinions,

opposit,opposite,

or,before; ere; until; by,also or

ordinar,ordinary; usual; natural,also custom; habit

ordinar',ordinary; usual; natural,also custom; habit

orra,odd job (man); exceptional; over all,also idle

o't,of it,

oucht,anything; all,also ought

ouchtna,ought not,

oursel's,ourselves,

ow,oh,exclamation of surprise

ower,over; upon; too,

owerta'en,overtaken,

oye,grandchild; grandson; nephew,

pailace,palace,

paintit,painted,

pairt,part,

pandies,strokes on the palm with a cane,

papistry,Romanism; Popery,

Paradees,Paradise,

parritch,oatmeal porridge,

partic'lar,particular,

pat,put; made,

peacefu',peaceful,

pecks,blows; strikes,

pernickety,precise; particular; fastidious,also difficult to please

perris,parish,

piana,piano,

picter,picture; sight; spectacle,

pictur',picture,

piece,slice of bread; lunch,

pint,point,

pipit,piped; played the (bag)pipes,

pirn,reel; bobbin,on which thread is wound

pit,put; make,

pitawta,potato,

pits,puts; makes,

pitten,put; made,

plack,the smallest coin,worth 1/3 of a penny

plaguit,plagued; troubled,

plaid,plaid used as a blanket,

plaistered,plastered,

plash-mill,fulling-mill,

playacks,playthings; toys,

play-actin',acting,

playin',playing,

playt,played,

pliskie,trick; prank; practical joke,

plisky,trick; prank,

ploy,amusement; sport; escapade,

ploys,amusements; sports; escapades,

poassible,possible,

poddock,frog,

pooch,pocket; pouch,

pooer,power,

pooerfu',powerful,

poored,poured,

poothers,powders,

pop',pope,

porkmanty,portmanteau,

positeeve,positive,

pouch,pouch; pocket,

poun',pound (sterling),

prayin',praying,

preachin',preaching,

pree,taste; try; prove; experience,

prent,print,

prentice-han',novice,

press,wall-cupboard with shelves,

preten',pretend,

preten't,pretended,

prood,proud,

pruv,prove,

pruved,proved,

pu',pull,

public,public house; pub,

public-hoose,public house,

pu'd,pulled,

puddin's,intestines,

puir,poor,

pun',pound (sterling),

putten,put,

quaiet,quiet,

quaiet sough,quiet tongue,

quaieter,quieter,

quaietly,quietly,

quaietness,quietness,

quean,queen; young girl; hussy,

queston,question,also sum

questons,questions,also sums

quest'ons,questions,

quibblin',quibbling,

rade,rode,

rael,real,

railly,really,

raither,rather,

rale,real; true; very,

rampaugin',rampaging,

randy,rough; wild; riotous,also coarse-tongued; abusive

rase,rose,

rash,needle used in weaving,

readin',reading,

reamy,creamy,

rebukit,rebuked,

receipt,recipe,

reckonin',reckoning,

reconceelin',reconciling,

reconcilet,reconciled,

reekit,rigged out; well-dressed,

regairdit,regarded,

reg'ment,regiment,

reid,red,

reik,smoke; vapour,

rejeckit,rejected,

remainin',remaining,

remeid,remedy; cure; redress,

repentin',repenting,

resentin',resenting,

respec',respect,

respecks,respects; considers worthy,

richt,right; correct,also mend

richteous,righteous,

richteousness,righteousness,

richtly,certainly; positively,

rig,ridge; space between furrows,also long narrow hill

rin,run,

rinnin',running,

rins,runs,

risin',rising,

rist,rest,

rivin',renting; tearing; tuging; wrenching,

rizzon,reason,

rizzonin',reasoning,

rizzons,reasons,

roarin',roaring,

rockit,rocked,

ro'd,road; course; way,

Rom',Rome,

roof-tree,beam forming the angle of a roof,

roomy,little room,diminutive

roon,around; round,

roon',around; round,

roset,resin; cobbler's wax,

roset-ends,shoemaker's waxed thread-ends,

rottan,rat,

rouch,rough,

rowdie,hag; beldame,

ruck,bulk; mass; majority,

ruggin',pulling forcibly; tugging; tearing,

ruggin' and rivin',draging forcibly,also contending for possession

runklet,wrinkled; creased; crumpled,

's,us; his; as; is,also has

s',shall,

sae,so; as,

saft,muddy; soft; silly; foolish,

saiddlet,saddled,

sair,sore; sorely; sad; hard; very; greatly,also serve; satisfy

sair heid,headache,

sair-vroucht,hard-worked,

saitisfee,satisfy,

saitisfeed,satisfied,

saitisfeet,satisfied,

salamander,large poker with a flat heated end,for lighting fires

sall,shall,

sang,song,

sangs,songs,

sanna,shall not,

Sanny,Sandy,also Scotsman

sark,shirt,

sarks,shirts,

sattle,settle,

saven,wise; knowledgeable,also seven

savin',saving,also except

savin's,savings,

Sawtan,Satan,

sax,six,

saxpence,sixpence,

sayin',saying,

scar,cliff; precipice,

scart,scratch; strike a match; scrape,

schuil,school,

schuilin',schooling; education,

schuilmaister,schoolmaster,

schule,school,

schule-time,time for school,

scoonrel,scoundrel,

scoon'rel,scoundrel,

Scotlan',Scotland,

scraich,shriek; scream; bird's shrill cry,

scrattit,scratched; dug,

screed,recite rapidly; talk tediously; reel off,also scraping sound

Scripter,Scripture,

sculduddery,fornication; grossness; obscenity,

scunner,disgust; disgusting; revolting,

scunnert,disgusted; loathed,

scurry,scour; got about from place to place,also wander aimlessly

seck,sack,

seein',seeing,

seekin',seeking,

se'enteen,seventeen,

sel',self,

self-forgettin',self-forgetting,

sellt,sold,

semies,second year's university students,at Aberdeen University

sen',send,

sendin',sending,

sen'in',sending,

servan',servant,

servan's,servants,

sessions-buik,church record of its proceedings,

set,set out; start off; become,also inclined; disposed

Setterday,Saturday,

shacken,shaken,

shackle-bane,wrist; wrist-bone,

Shackspear,Shakespeare,

shak'-doon,shakedown; crude makeshift bed,

shanna,shall not,

sharpset,keen; sharp-witted,

sharp-set,keen; sharp-witted,

shaw,show; reveal,also grove

shawn,shown,

shaws,shows,

shearin',shearing (sheep),

shillin',shilling,

shillin's,shillings,

shinin',shining,

shochlin,waddling; in-kneed,

shochlin',waddling; in-kneed,

shoothers,shoulders,

shortcomin's,shortcomings,

shortent,shortened,

shouldna,should not,

shuit,suit,

shune,shoes,

shutin',shooting,

sib,relation; akin; closely related,

sic,such; so; similar,

siccan,such a; such an,

sicht,sight,

sichtit,sighted,

sicker,secure; safe; firm; sure,

sic-like,suchlike; likewise,like such a person or thing

side,district; region,also the side of

sidin',siding,

siller,silver; money; wealth,

simmer,Summer,

sin,since; ago; since then,also sin; sun

sin',since; ago; since then,

sinfu',sinful,

singin',singing,

sittin',sitting,

skelf,shelf,also splinter

skelpin',digging; ploughing,also beating; striking

skirl,scream; sing shrilly,

slack,slow,

slauchtert,slaughtered,

sleepin',sleeping,

sleepit,slept,

sleicht o' han',sleight of hand,

sliddery,slippery; smooth,also sly; deceitful

slinkin',slinking,

slip,let slip; convey by stealth,

slippin',slipping,

slips,tricks,

sma',small; little; slight; narrow; young,

smacks,single-masted sailing boats,not necessarily a Scottish word

smeddum,spirit; mettle; liveliness,

smilin',smiling,

smokin',smoking; smouldering,

smokin' flax,smouldering wick,reference to Matthew 12:20

smorin',smothering; suffocating,

snappin',snapping,

snaw,snow,

sneck,door-latch; catch (gate),also latch

snod,smooth; neat; trim; tidy; snug,

sod,sad,

sodger,soldier,

sodgers,soldiers,

sojer,soldier,

some,somewhat; rather; quite; very,also some

somehoo,somehow,

sookit,sucked,

soon',sound,

soonds,sounds,

sornin',taking food or lodging; sponging,taking by force of threat

sortit,sorted,

soucht,sought,

sough,sigh; sound of wind; deep breath,

soun',sound,

soun's,sounds,

soutar,shoemaker; cobbler,

sowl,soul,

sowls,souls,

spak,spoke,

spak',spoke,

spark,speck; spot; blemish; atom,

spaud,spade,

speakin',speaking,

speerit,spirit,

speik,speak,

speikin',speaking,

speir,ask about; enquire; question,

speired,asked about; enquired; questioned,

speirin',asking about; enquiring; questioning,

speirs,asks about; enquires; questions,

speirt,asked about; enquired; questioned,

spen',spend,

spence,storeroom; larder,

speyk,speak,

speykin,speaking,

speykin',speaking,

spier,ask about; enquire; question,

spring,quick lively tune,

spult,spilt,

spunes,spoons,

Squaur,square,

stack,stuck,

stair,stairs; staircase,

stamack,stomach,

stamacks,stomachs,

stampin',stamping,

stan',stand; stop,

stane,stone; measure of weight,1 stone = 14 pounds

stanes,stones,

stan'in',standing,

stan's,stands,

starnie,very small quantity,

startit,started,

steek,shut; close; clench,also stitch (as in clothing)

steekit,shut; closed; clenched,

stept,stepped,

sterve,starve,

stew,dust; vapour; smoke,also stench; stink

stickin',sticking; goring,

stingin',stinging,

stinkin',stinking,

stockin'-fit,feet clothed in stockings,i.e. without shoes

stook,arranging the sheaves in a stook,

stoun',ache; throb,

stown,stolen,

Straddle Vawrious,Stradivarius,make of violin

strae-deith,death in bed; natural death,not a violent death

straik,streak; stroke; blow; caress,

straiks,streaks; strokes; blows; caresses,

strang,strong,

strathspey,Highland dance,like a reel but slower

straucht,straighten; straight,

straught,straight,

stravaguin',saunter; stroll; go about aimlessly,

stren'th,strength,

stucken,stuck,

stud,stood,

stule,stool,

styte,nonsense,

subjec',subject,

subjeck,subject,

subjecks,subjects,

substrackin',subtracting,

sudna,should not,

sufferin',suffering,

suffert,suffered,

suld,should,

suldna,should not,

sumph,soft blunt fellow; simpleton; fool,

sune,soon; early,

sune's,soon as,

sung,singed,

sunk,drivel; loiter,also be in a low dejected state

sup,drink,

supped,drank,

supposin',supposing,

swack,elastic; limber; supple,

swarf,swoon; faint,

sweer,swear,

sweir,swear,

sweirer,swearer,

sweirin',swearing,

sweirs,swears,

sworn,swore,

syde,wide and long; hanging low down,

syne,ago; since; then; at that time,also in (good) time

't,it,

tae,toe; also tea,also the one; to

taed,toad,

ta'en,taken; seized,

taes,toes,

taings,tongs; prongs,

tak,take; seize,

tak',take; seize,

tak tent,look out; pay attention; watch,

takin',taking,

taks,takes; seizes,

talkin',talking,

tane,the one,also taken

tap,top; tip; head,

tastin',tasting,

taucht,taught,

tauld,told,

tawtie,potato,

taxed,found fault with; scolded,

tay,tea; supper,

tay-time,tea time; supper,

teachin',teaching,

teep,type,

telled,told,

tellin',telling,

tellt,told,

tell't,told,

telt,told,

tent,attention; care; heed; notice,

thae,those; these,

thairm,fiddle-string,also intestine; gut; belly

than,then,also than

thankfu',thankful,

thankit,thanked,

thanksgivin',thanksgiving,

that'll,that will,

the day,today,

the morn,tomorrow,

the nicht,tonight,

the noo,just now; now,

the piece,apiece,

thegither,together,

themsels,themselves,

themsel's,themselves,

thereaboots,thereabouts,

thimmel,thimble,

thinkin',thinking,

thinksna,does not think,

this mony a day,for some time,

tho',though,

thocht,thought,

thochtna,did not think,

thochts,thoughts,

thoo,thou; you (God),

thoomacks,violin-pegs,

thoucht,thought,

thouchts,thoughts,

thrapple,windpipe; throat,

thrivin',thriving,

throu,through,

throu',through,

throuw,through,

throw,through,

thrum,particle; tangle; mess,

ticht,tight,

til,to; till; until; about; at; before,

till,to; till; until; about; at; before,

timmer,timber; wood,

tint,lost; got lost,

'tis,it is,

tither,the other,

tod,fox,

toom,empty; unload,

toomin',emptying; unloading,

toon,town; village,

toon-piper,town piper,

toot,tut!,exclamation of annoyance

Toots!,Tuts!; Tush!,

towie,string,

trailin',dragging forcibly; hauling along,

traivel,travel,

traivellin',travelling,

tramp,trudge,also tramp

transe,passage within a house,also alley; narrow space

tribble,trouble,

trimlin',trembling,

troo,trust; believe,

troosers,trousers,

troth,truth; indeed,also used as an exclamation

trowth,truth; indeed,also used as an exclamation

tryin',trying,

'ts,its,

tu,too; also,

tuik,took,

tum'ler,tumbler; glass (of whisky),

turnin',turning,

turnt,turned,

twa,two; a few,

twa three,several,

twal,twelve,

twalmonth,twelvemonth; year,

'twas,it was,

twise,twice,

tyke,dog,also rough clownish fellow

tyne,lose; get lost; miss,

'ull,will,

umquhile,former; of old; late,

unbecomin',unbecoming,

unco,unknown; odd; strange; uncouth,also very great

unco',unknown; odd; strange; uncouth,also very great

understan',understand,

unner,under,

unnerstan,understand,

unnerstan',understand,

unpleasin',unpleasing; unpleasant,

unsoucht,unsought,

unweel,unwell,

up the stair,upstairs,also to heaven

uphaud,uphold; maintain; support,

uphaudin',upholding; maintaining; supporting,

upo',upon; on to; at,

upsettin',forward; ambitious; stuck-up; proud,

vailue,value,

vainishin',vanishing,

vainities,vanities,

verra,very; true; real,

vex,trouble; vexation,

vraith,apparition,

vrang,wrong,

vratch,wretch,

vrote,wrote,

vroucht,wrought; worked,

wa',wall,also way; away

wad,would,

wadna,would not,

wailin',wailing,

waitin',waiting,

wakin',waking,

wall,well; spring of water,

wallopin',dancing; galloping,also beating; thrashing; knocking

wame,belly; stomach; womb; hollow,

wamlin',rolling; undulating,

wan,reached; gained; got,

wan'erer,wanderer,

wantin',wanting; lacking; without; in want of,

wantit,wanted,

war,were,

wark,work; labour,also show of affection

warl',world; worldly goods,also a large number

warld,world,

warldly,worldly,

warna,were not,

warran',warrant; guarantee,

warst,worst,

wa's,walls,also ways

washin',washing,

wasna,was not,

was't,was it,

wastit,wasted,

wat,wet,see also 'I wat.'

watchin',watching,

watter,water,

wauken,awake; wake,

waukens,wakes,

waukin',waking,

waukit,woke,

waukmill,fulling mill,

wauk-mill,fulling-mill,

waur,worse,also spend money

waure,ware,

weddin',wedding,

wee,small; little; bit,also short time; while

weel,well; fine,

weel-behaved,well-behaved,

weelfaur,welfare,

weel's,well as,

weet,wet; dew; rain,

weicht,weight,

weir,wear,also hedge; fence; enclosure

weirs,wears,

weyver,weaver; knitter,also knitter of stockings; spider

wha,who,

wha',who,

whaever,whoever,

whan,when,

wharever,wherever,

wha's,who is,also whose

whase,whose,

What for no?,Why not?,

What for?,Why?,

whaur,where,

whaur'll,where will,

whaur's,where is; where has,

wheen,little; few; number; quantity,

whiles,sometimes; at times; now and then,

whilie,short time,

whilk,which,

whumle,whelm; overwhelm; upset,

whusky,whisky,

whustle,whistle,

whustled,whistled,

wi',with,

wice,wise,

wife,woman; landlady,also wife

wight,fellow,

willin'ly,willingly,

willna,will not,

win,reach; gain; get; go; come,

win',wind,also reach; gain; get; go; come

winkit,winked,

winna,will not,

winnin',reaching; gaining; getting

winnock,window,

winsome,large; comely; merry,

wi'oot,without,

wirrycow,scarecrow,

wis,was,also wish

wiss,wish,

wissed,wished,

wit,intelligence; information,also sense; wisdom

wite,blame; reproach; fault,

withoot,without,

withstan',withstand,

wob,web; woven material,

wolums,volumes,

wonner,wonder; marvel,

wonnerfu',wonderful; great; large,

wonnerin',wondering,

wonnert,wondered,

wordy,little word; little saying or proverb,diminutive

workin',working,

worryin',worrying,

wouldna,would not,

wow,woe,exclamation of wonder or grief or satisfaction

wrang,wrong; injured,

writin',writing,

wud,wood; forest,adj.-enraged; angry; mad; also would

wuddyfous,gallows' birds; scamps,also small ill-tempered persons

wull,will; wish; desire,also astray; stray; wild

wuman,woman,

wumman,woman,

wuss,wish,

wynd,narrow lane or street; alley,

wynds,narrow lanes or streets; alleys,

wyte,blame; reproach; fault,

yaird,yard; garden; farmyard,also yard (36 inches)

yairds,yards; gardens,also yards (1 yard = 36 inches)

ye,you; yourself,

year,years,also year

ye'll,you will,

Yellow-beak,first year's student,at Aberdeen University

yer,your,

yer lane,on your own,

ye're,you are,

yersel,yourself,

yer'sel,yourself,

yersel',yourself,

yersels,yourselves,

ye've,you have,

yird,earth,

yon,that; those; that there; these,

yonner,yonder; over there; in that place,

yon's,that is; that (thing) there is,

yoong,young,

yowth,youth,

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